I kinda wonder if I will ever actually feel like I have a home. it's never felt that way. we didn't move a lot, but I kinda did. I've never lived anywhere for more than 5 years, even though it was all in a relatively small radius. I've also not lived with the same people for more than 5 years either, I think.
my 'uncle' lived with us at first, then we moved and he didn't anymore. then my parents separated and we didn't live with my mother anymore. then I lived with my dad, his girlfriend and her daughter. then my mother, her husband and my brothers. then my dad, his (new) girlfriend and her kid(s). then my now husband and his parents.
it's all such small changes, I guess, but it always just felt like nothing was ever gonna be permanent. and also like I was just the annoying kid that no one wanted. it just sucked.
Every time Grian starts trending I have to physically stop myself from looking at all of the fantastic fanart and shit and go: NO. I CAN'T DO THIS AGAIN.