#i dont have a space to rant at the moment so here i am

[sleepybug05]

some tips on food fixation and binging urges

hellooo, ive been thinking about compiling some things that have helped me get my mind off of food and overall just writing down some rant -- so here it is!

keep in mind, im not an expert and this is mostly just me babbling. im writing this as a motivation for myself, and it will probably not work for everyone, but if you find any of this stuff helpful -- my pleasure! ★ mindfulness ★

`` first of all -- ive found that that strong-urge-to-binge thing is more of a state, not a feeling. it helps me to treat it as such: a mental state, a spiral, and to come out of that spiral you can:

◌ stop! ◌ breath in, breath out. ground yourself. have that thought of "wait, what am i doing?" in the space between you and the fridge ◌ check in with your body. what position are you in? does something hurt? are you cold? are you tired? overenergized? ◌ check in with your mind. is there any buzz? are you overwhelmed? ◌ if you located the issue (eg. im tired! i want comfort! so food = comfort!) -- great! move on from there to resolving this issue in a more mindful, not-involving-food way (then i should nap, do yoga, just lie on the floor, watch comfort movie) why are we doing that? in my opinon, its very important to train that "what am i doing" moment of conciousness, because through that you can see better why you want to binge. is it a mental thing? how can you cope without food? is it a physical feeling? an effect of restriction? how can you tweak your eating to make it better (imo, fasting does better job at managing binges than plain restriction) you cant just showe thinspo at your face everytime you crave something, after all : ) ★ activities ★ `` make something with your hands! ohh my god! i cant stress it enough, it can help you to not get fixated on thinking about food so much! it can be something easy like drawing, or you can look up something new for yourself `` go on a walk. i know, it can be very tiring to even think about, but t does wonders at distracting you `` yoga. very simple and very effective. or, alternatively `` do nothing at all for a bit. just. lie down, turn off your phone, no sound, no nothing (helps if your binging urge feels overwhelming) ★ other stuff ★

`` if you havent already, try drinking coffee. it really is called an appetite supressant for a reason `` i wasnt the one who told you that, but you can look up some gross stuff involving food.. f*eeding k*ink usually freaks me out on multiple levels for long enough to forget about food `` test yourself and allow yourself to feel bored. put down your phone. watch a really long flm. boredom is a part of our lives, and if you teach yourself to feel it in such small portions without binging youll be so so proud of yourself

tried to keep it all low-energy friendly : ) kind of nervous to post stuff like this -- if somethings not right, please dont come at me hahaha reblogs are very appreciated <33

#tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw ed diet #@na tips #@na buddy #sweetspo #binging #binge eating #tw disordered eating #disordered eating mention #buzz

[aroacesigma]

hello my name is kai, i use he/xe prns, im a minor . please read this before you follow.

Usual DNI/BYF list (bigots) and also if you ship anything weird (s*lki, th*rki, od*zai, kyouka x atsushi etc.) . Also dni hardcore Loki series or mcu Wanda fans. thats for ur own good im a hater

shouldve added this earlier but if you are a zionist, think that "both sides have a point", or regularly reblog from zionist blogs, DNI . i cannot truly express how much i despise people like you. free palestine 🇵🇸

note: on the shipping thing, i dont care what your stance on shipping discourse is frankly. i mean dni if you ship adult minor or incest stuff, and that is non negotiable . also a few there that i just hate

art sideblog: @gratielalovebot (on Instagram too)

stuff i like + tagging system under the cut !!

Stuff i actually talk about on here:

bsd (too much) especially sigma (far too much) , manga and anime

on that note my favourite characters are sigma, dazai, chuuya, nikolai and oda, and my favourite ships are sigzai, skk and fyolai (last one is on thin fucking ice after 109)

have i mentioned i love sigma . i really love sigma . he is everything to me .

once again . on that note i literally do not shut up about my favourite headcanon of sigma being transmasc , so if you dont like that maybe dont

Rain world currently !!! Having a Moment over five pebbles I love his bitch ass dearly

marvel comics (especially wanda and also the xmen though im not particularly caught up right now)

my faves in that is really just wanda i love her dearly . this is not a safe space for mcu wanda stans you will be blocked on sight . this is however a safe space for people who love the gratiela fancast bc shes the best actually

yknow what i know this is stuff i like but just a warning while i am currently fixated on bsd if someone gets me started on how much i hate that godamn loki show i will go on a rant . i hate it . so much . so so so much .

I also like a bunch of other stuff and will rt stuff about it occasionally (like toh and agents of shield) but if its not on this list im not currently being consumed by an obsession with it so maybe dont follow me for it

ok yknow what extra stuff i like but am not hyperfixating on currently

the owl house

agents of shield (daisy johnson my beloved)

riordanverse (ALEX FIERRO MY BELOVED)

tag system:

[character/ship] - general stuff about said character/ship

[character/ship] fanart - i feel like this is obvious

[media] / [media] fanart - if theres too many characters im not bothered to tag , or if the post is general

ramblings - my original posts . its all bullshit . most of its rambling about which characters i think are trans . repetitively .

asks - also self explanatory

[username] - if youve sent me an ask and i answered it on web , xkit tagged it with your username

save - stuff that was important enough to save for later or fanart that i particularly liked

#pinned

[fieldofdaisiies]

hey, how are you! hope youre doing well 🤗

i just wanted to let you know that a couple of people who interact with your posts that claim they are pro lucien and eris are also ic haters, and the are quite mean to people who like the ic and rhys. even unprovoked, they reblog pro ic and pro rhys posts and go on a rant on how rhys is a sexual abuser and how he sa'ed feyre and hate on these fictional characters who are not real.

just wanted to let you know to make sure you are safe on tumblr because, well, no one told me and the people i follow, and.... they reblogged our posts and literally wrote whole novels on how rhys is the worst with pics and screenshots from the acotar books.

and we dont even like rhys that much, we just dont hate any characters. so... yeah we were bullied relentlessly and talked shit about 🫠🫠🫠 i can smuggle you the names of them in private if you want.

be safe out here love 🫂

Hey Anon!

First of all, thank you so much for this message and for looking out for people in your fandom space.💛

Secondly, I am very sorry that you and your friends are experiencing hate and bullying, this is never easy and if you need someone to talk to or to encourage you keep going despite the hate, my inbox is always open.

Once again a huge wave of hate is crashing down on certain characters, on the fandom, on writers…I am so tired of it. As you said, they are fictional characters, and some people still dedicate their life to hating on them.

I made a post a few days ago, addressing exactly this. We are all one fandom, brought together by the love for a book series. If you don’t like a character or ship, just move on and ignore, don’t become hateful and destroy the fandom peace.

None of the characters are flawless - Rhys isn’t, Tamlin isn’t, Eris isn’t, Azriel isn’t. And it is okay to point out their flaws and not paint them absolutely perfect, but hate is useless, and can be extremely harmful especially when directed at people who write for these characters.

These males in the books are morally grey for a reason, but they are not real, these books aren’t real life, this is fantasy, this is literature.

But the moment you start hating on people, bullying them, it becomes real, and actual people are hurt. And that is when the fun really stops, because then actual people get hurt.

I joined this fandom to spend time with people who like the same things as I do, to share opinions, stories, art etc. and just to find a place to escape the "real" life and have joy. All I want is for my mutuals is to have joy as well, to enjoy being here and to feel safe.

Please, everyone, be a little more mindful and careful with what you say to other people on here (and in real life). Don't waste your time on hating, and rather just enjoy being here. Stay in your space, and ignore things that you don't like. It'll make life a lot easier for you as well.

I hope despite everything you are alright! Don’t let them discourage you💛

[gomzdrawfr]

Hi! I was wondering if I should send this non-anon or not, but preferred to keep my identity a secret, I guess.

Dunno why but felt like saying this after seeing your posts. I was once a shipper in the fandom, liking both canon x canon and canon x oc ships, until I saw something that made me uncomfortable with the first of the two. That is until I've reached your account.

Sure, I was cautious with ship content (not that I'm saying it's a bad thing. Just made me kinda uncomfortable after that incident) but when I let my guard down and saw some of your posts, I realized that maybe not every shipper is as....uh...y'know the type of people I'm talking about right?

All I'm saying is...thank you. Because of your adorable posts (and the balance of both types of ships [canonxcanon and ocxcanon. I love PriceRaven so much istg]), I tried to look for artists like you. Thanks to you, I can also go and try to find artists similar to yours in context of shipping. And I did and I did not regret it (even if I don't ship anymore, but it was delightful to see the things people create now that I've...healed from it?).

I'm still trying to be careful in the fandom with the things going on. But seriously though, thanks a lot! If there's one thing this fandom needs is people like you. Ones who don't cause a fuss and also knows boundaries when shipping as well. No hate, no discomfort. If people say otherwise and hate on you because of shipping content, damn them. They should be grateful if anything as you did nothing wrong and just wanted to create what you wish.

Anyway, sorry for the long ask (end up ranting. Sorry bout that). But yeah, hope you have a great day! Maybe one day, if you allow me, I could sketch out Raven? If it's alright with you.

Thank you again!

hi!! thank you for the ask and hey no worries, you're welcome to rant in my ask or share your experience

Im sorry for what you went through, fandom often do come with its uhhh moments to say the least, im glad you've healed from it and is able to enjoy things the way they are at your own pace

its definitely good to curate your own space, adjust your settings and block out on things that are uncomfortable, even though there are still some things that will definitely pop up despite the cautious measures, but hey! shit happens and the most important thing is to understand that you're not alone in this, and take a rest from the media once in awhile

Im actually really touched that you find my page a nice place to visit ((yes PriceRaven is like my bread and butter I cant live without them and will yap about them forever)) which also lead you to other artists!

im straightforward, Im okay with almost anything interest wise in the fandom (ships/dynamic/fics genre etc), if im not okay with it i'll just move on or mute/block certain words, simple as it should be.

Although people do find my angst stuff "threatening" LMAO but eh im over it pft if they dont like it then its fine let them be

as the saying goes "no matter how perfect the apple is, someone will still hate it" so fuck it yk, it is what it is (my life motto and also blog's motto HAHA)

Thank you for your message though, Im really grateful for it and im genuinely happy, enjoy your stay here

AND OFC YOU CAN DRAW MY OC RAVEN!! FEEL FREE TO SEND IT TO ME ONCE YOU DID :D (take your time ofc dont mind the excited goofball i am)

have a good day as well!!

#i also end up writing this longer than i should oops anyways #curate your space people!! #gummmyspeaks #ask response #thanks for the ask <3

[justanotherbrooke]

Pinned Post V2

now with 50% more knowing how to use tumblr

Hello I am Brooke Usually I am a girl but also sometimes im not it really just depends how i feel during the day lol, also started hrt: Sep 19th 2023

I use She/They pronouns and honestly i am fine with any pronouns except for masculine ones so... if you want to call me by some fun pronouns have at it i guess!

I am bisexual but like in the way that that one Left at London Quote described... yknow the one talking about wanting coke but getting pepsi and just responding "yeah"

I am currently in university studying computer science, I am in the earlier classes however, I do know how to program in Java, Python, and I am learning C++ right now. Does this blog have a theme: No! it is whatever the fuck i feel like at the moment

Also if I dont respond to a message or being mentioned im sorry i am very forgetful and also dumb

hmm guess i can also just put a list of things that i think are cool i guess

Right cool i get to put a long rant that i will hopefully edit over time!

Games

Rimworld

Space Station 13

Minecraft

Factorio

VrChat(specifically karaoke)

Mario Kart

Guilty Gear

Music

Will wood

Will wood and the tapeworms

Glass Beach

Ado

Good Kid

Femtanyl

YonKaGor

Fake Type

Left at London

KanKan

Lemon Demon

Arc System Works

Jhariah

Chonny Jash

Blahaj

blahaj - Aurora

blahaj - Grongus

rainbowhaj - Gerald

greyhaj - shork

Will put more stuff here eventually idk im just doing this to avoid doing calculus homework lol

[fantasmafanta]

chipspeech rambles so i dont explode

hi this is prolly gonna be a long post that makes no sense srry i just need to brainrot dump. but most important thing if ur not weird and you like chipspeech PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dm me here so i can give you my discord or instagram where i am actually active more ahhhhhh.

ok anyway blue robots woohoo. these little bastards have been stuck in my brain for like a month now and its just gotten worse. the cool thing about chipspeech is it like doesnt entirely go with the rest of the vocal synth/vocaloid fanbase but rather than being its own seperate things its like this neat little extension of it in like multiple ways. it not only is just a really cool software that tried a lot of new cool things that we dont really see with like vocaloid and synthv and stuff but it also kinda shows the history of how we got to the point of modern vocal synth software in a cool way! even if you dont dive into it like i have you still get the basic “oh well voder was made in like 1939 and it had to be operated by hand how cool” and like through chipspeech you kinda get to see the evolution of how we got to where we are now and i think that thats really neat. 

but then if youre a nerd like me you get to have a ton of fun diving into all of the history and cool old tech stuff. liking chipspeech has made me find a new interest in old computers/tech/software/videogames do i fully understand how they work? hell no! do i love looking at them and having them explained to me by some dude on youtube? hell yeah!! and like its just so cool to go in and research the machines/softwares that inspired the chipspeech bots because even though its difficult sometimes you get to see these advances made and how each one differs from each other in how it was made, how it was operated, its function, etc. and thats SO. FREAKING. AWESOME. like dude have you seen the video of one of the tests for the votrax?? (the one that bert gotrax is based on) if you havent basically it was made so that people with disabilities so they couldnt talk could have conversations over the phone. they tested it by trying to order a pizza using only the software. it took like 3 tries before someone took them seriously and they got the pizza. and the moment they were like “yeah deliver that to the msu computer center” i got so excited cuz that just felt so badass!! like put yourself in their shoes, its 1974, you’re testing your new speech program, and it finally worked. a room full of people, a camera, a news broadcast (iirc), theyre all watching you struggle to order this pizza and then you finally do it and get to tell them to deliver it at the lab you just proved your intelligence to and fehjvddsujfs i cant explain my thinking but DUDE its just so cooooooolllllll!!!!!!! 

but like yeah i need to rant cuz in one of my lovely friend’s words i need to “GET THESE QUEERS OUT OF MY BRAIN!!” (a silly thing my irl said) also like i love the way the voices sound. like yeah sometimes i have no clue what theyre saying but thats not the point of chipspeech!! like vosim has such a nice buzzy voice and like dee no matter their range just sounds so.... great. i dont even know how to describe it it just makes my brain sooooo happy. like sam to most people would be like static weird... idk man but i loooove the staticky sounds theyre just so neat. but its so hard to find nice chipspeech covers/songs. luckily im starting to find how to discover chipspeech stuff but its still so difficult :(

and like fanart and general fan content toooooo how do i find it?? i think the answer is i dont but that makes me sad. cuz the twitters are no longer active and its never been very popular so it doesnt seem like we get much. and literally the only discord server for chipspeech is run by... not-so-great (from what ive seen/heard) people in the fanbase. even if the main accusations arent true it still seems to be a safe space for proshippers which makes me feel icky sooo. help. 

anyway im not re-reading through this so like sorry its so long and makes no sense i just need to get chipspeech thoughts out. if you like it PLEASE TALK TO ME!!!! im losing my mind ahhh

#chipspeech #fantasmarants

[hivemindscape]

Hello boys!!

I've been getting messages from the kindest people in my inbox, it was killing me to see you upset, so i decided to respond in this way.

I want to hug the crimeboys community. I want to hug you so tightly.

I am genuinely happy for those of you who enjoyed the finale. I envy you, because I did not.

There isn't a chance that I'll ever like it, either, as I've been turning it over and over in my brain relentlessly, reading people's takes when i can make myself to, grappling for a buoy, something to make it okay. In brief moments of the "no thought brain empty" state, I'm fine, but mostly there's intense frustration and confusion. And Big Sad.

In my opinion, this was an awful ending for these two characters. I hate that I'm forced to accept it, so I probably won't.

That being said, I'd rather you didn't message me asking why I'm of this stance, or moreover writing me an essay on why I'm wrong, I dont have the energy or patience to compose a pretty reply to that.

Keep in mind, most importantly, that everyone is entitled to their opinion on this lore, and is free to critize the writing, providing they don't go insulting ccs in their faces. If you see someone making fun of those who are processing their grief in public spaces, understand that the former people are emotionally immature and had poor upbringing. Yes, I said grief. What I've been feeling for the past 3 days was heartbreak and grief, with its physical manifestations. So I'm here to say it's alright if you breathe around a boulder too.

What you have to be doing as part of the fandom is have empathy and respect for people you do not know on the internet. Recognise you have no high ground to dictate what's the right reaction. Introspect a bit if you have an urge to tell someone to "chill": what impact that comment would have, and recognize that there's none. You'd just come across as an asshole.

I was intending to not go on a rant about that, but it's an apparent problem currently which I couldn't not address, as it turned out. You might be thinking "Bro they're speaking so seriously as if someone died". If so, the following should explain it well enough:

Ability and desire to give your heart to something fictional is a valuable, bright, very telling character trait. This is empathy of the highest order. This means one's heart is immense, and strong. Sorry for speaking cliche, but I do want you to read into what I'm saying.

Have you ever felt enveloped in a hug by someone's mere text message, when they said they understand, relate, and support you? This is incredible. You read fics and cry, you look at art and feel warmth in your chest, you talk with other fans and feel connected. This is a gift that we have, to be connected through this fictional story. And the media format that it uses does not matter here, only makes it surprising and unique.

So. You're valid to be satisfied with the ending. You're valid to be unhappy with it. It's valid to be deeply unhappy because of it. These characters meant the world to me. The trust I put in the content creators not to ruin them was immense. I'm currently figuring out where to go from here creatively.

I want to promise hovewer, that I'll do my best to recover from this shit, and bring comfort to you guys with my crimeboys art again. Its largely because of you and your love for my work that I've decided that. But also this fandom is the place where Ive felt the happiest with myself in my whole life. It's insane, I don't want to lose this.

If you have anything you want to send me, any fic or any art, you can dm me on twitter or instagram of the same name as this blog. I'm currently trying to keep distance from dsmp content (key word trying), but if it's something you're passionate about sharing, I'll go and appreciate it as soon as i can. It means a lot to me when you guys share your thoughts and your work with me Q^Q 💜💜💜

Your messages and your tags under the last piece that's blown up, have been a huge comfort to me. A Huge comfort. Thank you so so much for letting me know. I create art cause its the meaning of me, to be influencing people's emotions, leaving a mark, so I'm incredibly happy I could help you feel better in this time, and any other time. 🫂

Thank you guys. And I'm sorry.

[killjoy1996]

Screaming Mental Health

A depressed girl curled up in bed unable to get up, people are calling her and she lies there in tears while sad music plays in the background. A boy who has anger issues breaks stuff, so much broken china everywhere with a rock music score. The manic woman in an office space, who you dont know whether to categorise into OCD or anxiety, frantically arranging things on a desk or scrubbing her hands raw at the sink as beats mount in the background music.

I think you have seen these images in so many movies and series, and they are sometimes applauded for the stellar performance by the actor. The suitable, excitable music in the background while someone is having a breakdown is distasteful, sure. But its a movie right? And all the quick cuts of the camera, zooming in on their obsessive behaviour or their ugly sweaty face while this happens. That is how shooting is done, right?

Well, sure.

Then there is I who sit in my room in overbearing silence. My flat mates or my parents a door away, but they will not hear or see how the pain weighs down and down on my chest till I am slowly running out of breath. And how every time I skip a meal due to gastric issues, it is my anxiety pulling at me, bloated and so full air that I am about to fly away like a sad unhinged helium balloon.

Because while they portrayed mental health and bad moments in the movies, they only showed people with screaming symptoms. Sure, it gets that bad for some people and I really feel sorry for them, but for most of us, it really doesnt even become physically visible, or rather noticeable. I have not had screaming breakdowns while I am with people, it waits till I am home alone and settled in my space. But sitting in a group of friends, I know this is coming as my thoughts race and I believe, I believe with my whole heart that these people really hate me and they will leave me in a moments notice if they could, and I have somehow trapped them here using some fucked up sociopath skills. I dont know who taught me to silently suffer, my mum or the whole line of women who came before her. But i hope they go to hell for it.

It is not of about the lack of representation, but what idea that representation has put in your and my head. My partners have asked why I didn't have the breakdown I had alone when I was with them because I was triggered while I was with them. They could have comforted me. I tell them I don't know why. But I know exactly why. They will see the obsessive behaviors- my picking at skin and nails, the harsh breathing, my broken unintelligible speech and the ugly sweaty face and they will think oh, this one is crazy and I need to leave. (If you see a common theme of abandonment issues, spot on! Now ignore it as I finish this rant.) But then I also end up wondering whether I think too much and made up or exaggerated having a whole breakdown. Is my problem even real? Because those people on the TV with a similar issue definitely looks like they have it much worse than I do. Now you see my point? Well, I hope the fuck you do.

So i keep wondering and wondering- When do I get to have a screaming breakdown like all the people in white movies? They seem to eventually get better after those breakdowns. So here is my big dream in life, to have a screaming breakdown so I finally hit rock bottom and then I can try to get better from there.

#mental health #media representation #brown girls #television #mentally fucked #actually borderline #quiet bpd #bpd things #mental illness #am i ok? probably not #tagging is hard

[bye-bye-firefly]

I’m really glad that ao3 doesn’t have an actual pro-ai policy at the moment! I’m planning on doing some research on what Unseeliekey brought up just to at least understand what he’s talking about. I was honestly really confused and freaked out reading what he was saying. But yeah, I’m sad too. You’ve got the right to remain right here with me and it’s a little more fun when I’m with you are two of the fics that made me not only get pretty into Saiou but also made me more attached to DR and into reading fanfiction in general. And it’s just like really upsetting to see something that had that much of an effect on me be gone and know that not everyone who is in the fandom or will get into the fandom will be able to see that.

I also really hope that there’s some sort of way to glaze works too. Making stuff inaccessible to guests is always sad. When I first started reading fanfiction I was a guest and like a lot of people don’t use accounts for various reasons and it’s just sad to think about account locked stuff. And it would be so nice if the ais would just Not. Like why can’t they???? Why???

Anyway, right now I don’t think there’s any full proof, everyone will be able to be happy way to prevent the ai scraping but I’m sure you’ll figure something out that’ll be alright for at least what can be done at the moment. Your works are very cool. I really, really love them. They bring me lots of joy. Thank you for all the joy. It’s super awesome.

okay this is a REALLY long answer because i went on a whole rant so im going to cut this for people who are just scrolling normally. but also im totally going to put this into my pinned tag

a lot of what was said was like. Half true. my counterpoint to him saying that ao3 supports cp or rape or sexual assault is that no matter where you go on the internet, you will find shit like that. EVERYWHERE. ao3 doesnt support it i really seriously doubt that anyone outside of those spaces supports shit like that but ao3 is an ARCHIVE. and when you put things in the archive, you are allowed to submit whatever the fuck you want. setting rules on what could be put into the archive automatically means that other fics, which explore the topic in a critical, non-fetishistic way, are ALSO up to scrutiny. fics that explore the psyche of trauma victims? they might not be allowed. regular degular fetish content, no minors involved? completely up to scrutiny. im really not a fan of censorship OR some of the shit on the internet, but i can only control ONE THING and thats what i allow myself to see. i really dont like people saying that ao3 deserves to be taken down because of that because then that would mean twitter deserves to go down, social media as a whole deserves to go down, and just generally i dont trust people who push the "think of the CHILDREN" argument. you see republicans push that when theyre trying to ban trans or gay people out of existence so INSTANTLY alarm bells start going off in my head, not to imply that i think every single person who pushes that argument in this context is republican or right-wing. just bothers me and looks like a red flag

and to instantly get it out of the way im not involved in the fucking proship/anti discourse that whole distinction feels like destruction of critical thinking antis are often puritanicals and would kill me if they saw what i write in nameless and gasp at published books that delve into topics they think are off limits and many of the proshippers ive come across are weirdos who think that its totally normal to write romance between minors and adults in a positive light like its NORMAL and that we shouldnt think less of people who do that but fyi i am totally thinking less of people who do that and im totally thinking less of people who hate me for writing my unhealthy/toxic/abusive/codependent relationships that dont even fetishise those kinds of relationships like GET OVER IT!!!! BE NORMAL!!! GO OUTSIDE LICK A DOORKNOB KISS A GIRL DO SOMETHING!!!!!

if there is ever any advice i can give to people its to form your own opinions and dont try to put a strict solid label on your opinion because sometimes you will betray your label and youll think to yourself "am i even really that thing......." people are complex and hold many different opinions that sometimes contradict one another and thats fine. logic your shit out dont fall for charming little labels that pin you strictly on one side of an argument it makes you less likely to actually reach a point where you have a strong opinion that makes sense AND can compromise and thus bring someone more onto your side. forever

ANYWAY YEAH! i settled on making it so my osomatsu san fics go account only on the 20th and then also some of my older danganronpa single chapters go account only with them, but the multichapters im currently working on will go account only when theyre finished, with exceptions for when theres rumours going around of a scrape. makes me so oo oodofooafgofjgj mad GRRAAGGHGHGGHG

but thank you i am glad to bring joy to people's lives. readers and comments bring me a ton of joy and im glad that i can give that back to everyone ^_^ i seriously cannot thank readers and commenters enough like i never feel like i get it across well enough how grateful i am for everyone who reads my stories and gives me kudos and the people who comment like. it brings me so much joy that i cannot properly verbalise EVER

#fae's asks #pinned

[lilywily143]

I posted 3,569 times in 2022

That's 2,806 more posts than 2021!

369 posts created (10%)

3,200 posts reblogged (90%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@error-core-animations

@senseiwu

@fishybehavior

@legogeek33

@aeonthedimensionalgirl

I tagged 1,540 of my posts in 2022

#lego ninjago - 615 posts

#lilywily post - 361 posts

#lilywily143 - 341 posts

#lilywily art - 223 posts

#jay walker - 114 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#does anyone have those moments where you dont see a name mentioned in a post so you jump to some random character that just looks familiar?

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

More stimmings

Part 1

Nya

Tugs ponytail

Punches nearby items that don't easily fall over

Clenches her fists, letting the fist down, and repeat

Lloyd

Sniffs everything; food, toys, personally owned items, new people he meets, people he hangs out with, etc

Bounces in one place

Moves his weight on his feet from toes to heel in a rocking motion 

Kai

Scratches arms and thighs

Owns a pop-it

Has a stim toy that he strokes the fluff on

Jay

Scratches arms

Pacing around the room when end rants about a topic end is really into

Flicks the nearby lightswitch over and over

Cole

Walks on tip-toes

Used to bite the inside of his cheek and put unsafe items in mouth to bite on; Jay gave him chewelry.

Sings random lines from his favorite songs; Glowworm is definitely included.

32 notes - Posted January 18, 2022

#4

Incorrect Quotes but Ninjago!

Enjoy!

Skylor: Oh my FSM, are we there yet?

Kai: No! Fuck! For the bajillionth time, we're not there yet. Can you guys shut up?!

Brad: You have to have a car so small like this??

Skylor: Its really cramped back here...

Kai: You guys compl- wow, I'm driving you to the park and you can do is complain about it. We stopped and got McDonald's!

Lloyd: Yeah!

Skylor: I didn't get anything

Brad: Yeah, all you got was a plain cheeseburger. How boring is that??

Kai: Shut up!

Skylor: Boring!

Kai: I'm gonna pull this car- I'm gonna drive this car right off the cliff, right now.

Brad: What!?

Skylor: Huh?

Kai: Brrbrrr- hahaha

Brad: Ehh!

Skylor: Hehe

Brad: Didn't know you had to go like that to step on the gas pedal.

Kai: Brrbrbrbrbr

Skylor: Brrbrbrr- hehe- I wanna drive! Arererer

Kai: Brbrbr

*Lloyd Purrs*

Kai: Hahaha!

Brad: I am not entertaining this.

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Skylor: So who goes next??

Kai: Q,R, S..... Ssssss

Skylor and Kai: Sssssssss

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33 notes - Posted January 3, 2022

#3

Here is my entry for the 2022 Ninjago Valentine Exchange hosted (I think) by@ninjago-valentine-exchange

Someone had to make a fan fic for Ninjago fanon and I would add onto it with a piece of art!

My piece here is at the end of the fic, to clarify.

The fic it is from

The person who wrote this delightful fic was @ninjas-go-round

34 notes - Posted March 13, 2022

#2

I had a idea...

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66 notes - Posted August 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Not Enough Room

"You are too sweet."

"You really don't have too."

"No! I will be the sacrifice and sleep on the couch!"

"Kai, you really don't need to. I'm sure we can figure out a way for all of us to sleep together."

"Zane. I am good. I wouldn't want any of you to be on the couch. Just sleep in my bed. I sleep in it all the time! I need a break from it!" Kai combated with a chuckle and a smirk.

His charm always got the others convinced in these stupid situations like this. But, they were still reluctant to go into Kai's room to sleep in.

The three were basically forced into the room by Kai.

"Goodnight!" Kai exclaimed to their lovers. And with that, he closed the door to his own room.

Well, it wasn't exactly their room.

An incident happened with them, their sibling, and their dad.

It was the kids' final straw and they dipped out of that horrible household.

Wu was nice enough to help them out and let them live in the ninja base.

It was actually a pretty nice home.

Big space to play in, it's all quiet because the warehouse was away from the city by a good distance, and they didn't need to travel that far whenever they needed their mechs.

Kai walked over to the 'living' room.

Just a corner of the training room, away from the mechs and training equipment.

Then, they set up a makeshift bed. Folded up spare blankets to separate them from the rough fabric of the couch, and a loose, thin one folded even more than the others as a pillow.

They could have grabbed another blanket to cover themselves, but it was Summer. They would be fine without a cover.

It took a while, but he fell asleep.

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69 notes - Posted January 13, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #gosh I was expecting error and aeon on that reblog list #but not you three others :0 #And I love how since I use so many tags for my own posts to make sure people know it's mine. #the last thing left is just Jay Walker #I did make two seprate comic post chains with Jay #LilyWily Post

[cloudslou]

okkkk sooooo let's go, brace yourself it's gonna be a long rant. (also sorry if i don't make sense, english isn't my first language)

i am a larrie too and most people i follow here are larries bc i kinda feel like they're a safe space you know? BUT the fandom can be so fucking tiring and annoying sometimes. not everything louis and harry do have to do with larry and that's okay!!!!!! (i know saying something like that can get you dragged to hell in this fandom...anyways. lol) not everything is an easter egg. not everything has to be interpreted (?) a certain way. i know it's fun to find little things in their music that are connected, i get the thrill. but sometimes it's too much, the fandom makes the most out of too little things and it's so ??????. my issue is mostly with how some people in the fandom view louis and his ideas and themes and stuff. let him have his fucking moment without connecting EVERYTHING, every single little detail of his art to harry. they are their own individuals and they have their own career and they make their own art. there are connections and parallels, someone has to be dumb not to see them but sometimes it's good to let them have something for themselves each. - i.e. i saw someone making the fitf ono about how harry had one too and blah blah married yeah we get it!!!!! but what the FUCK does louis promoting his album have to do with harry? what the hell does louis having one, two, whatever special concerts to promote his album have to do with harry? it's like, louis follows every step harry takes (i'm always speaking in terms of their career and art), he does whatever harry does, he doesn't have creative freedom (? not the right phrase but idk how else to say it sorry). it's like some people see his work as a copy of harry's, you know what i mean? this is not meant to be sorry for louis or to pity him, i know he hates that and i know you do too. it's more like, louis is his own person, OUTSIDE of the relationship!!! (as is harry of course), not everything he does has to be depended on the relationship or his partner, he has his own mind, his own ideas, his own creativity. he doesn't have to have anyone as a "step" where he has to be on to build his career (does that make sense?). he's gaining sooooooo much popularity and recognition, i know walls was successful, but this era is on another level. let him fucking have this for HIMSELF. he did that HIMSELF. it's kinda unfair to take that away from him by implying that everything he does has to do with anyone but him.

anyway, this is where the rant ends. didn't wanna make a post about it bc as i said, saying this stuff can get you dragged to hell in this fandom bc let's be honest, there are certain opinions that apparently everyone has to have. thank you for your time and patience. post it if you want, or not idk. of course i'd love to hear your opinion on this. byyeeeeee <3

anon im so glad u came back i was hoping to see a msg from u when i got home from class.

i think im largely on the same page as you!!! i consider myself a larrie and thats mainly who i follow and who my friends r, like thats my Circle in the fandom, but it can be very exhausting when its the only lens ppl use to look at their art. not only is it just a tad annoying, i think its pretty dismissive and reductive to take that approach every time. i have similar feelings abt taylor when ppl jump to immediately connect a song to her public life story and then dont go further. for me its like.... there is so much more to a song (or any piece of art) than its "true" meaning (and i say that liberally because even when larries connect on of hl's songs to the other or their real lives, this is no more "true" than connecting a song to a girlfriend, etc, i think there's too much certainty by fans in this fandom) and it limits ur enjoyment of a song i think to not push to break out of that box.

also i think people drawing connections between career stuff is mostly. connecting dots that arent there. one-off concerts are not a rarity and theres already differences in their album release shows. i dont follow many musicians super closely, but i believe ashe also had an album release show last month. and (iirc) lthq said these shows will be a mix of songs from walls and fitf (so it wont be a straight through play of the album like harry's ono show are).

#ask #anon #like u said #i like the thrill #but the thrill doesnt belong to.....everything

[thebangtancloud]

Every performance of theirs since the dinner gives off this really bittersweet feeling. Not even an exaggeration, I'm always teary eyed by the end. Knowing what we know now, and them performing those songs knowing that we'll know a part of the truth in a couple of days, the sadness and struggle can really be seen in their visage. You can practically see the "I wont get to stand with these 6 brothers of mine in a stage for a while and perform like this in front of army so I just gotta really soak everything in and be in the moment" expression they give off.

I know they aren't on a hiatus perse but they clearly stated that their priority atm will be their solo careers. Yes bts contents will still be released but I dont think it'll be anything major or performance like. Maybe with the exception on armys birthday? We'll just have to wait and see.

I really love them and it hurts me that it came to the point where they lost sight of themselves. Really a huge fuck you to covid. Sorry for sorta ranting outta the blue. Feel free to just ignore this if it bothers you.

Honestly? I've been wanting to rant about this quite a bit too, but I really didn't have the strength to do it. I feel everything you said, and the day I listened to Yet to Come and For Youth, it didn't really hit me. Not even when they had the festa dinner.

It was when I was watching the BTS Tiny Desk Concert (which is almost like a ritual cuz I play it every evening while the sun sets) and I heard them say, "Hey, we are BTS!"

It really...broke me.

Do you know why? Not cuz I won't get to hear them say that in a while. It really made me think of the pain they might be feeling because they won't get to say this for a while.

There really are just so many things about every single day that has passed since the 10th of June. Idk if it's just me...but I feel like the boys don't feel like BTS anymore? There would be moments when the boys would individually claim, "but I am BTS." and to hear Namjoon say that no he's not BTS, he's just a part of it, really...idk. Idk why that hurts. Must be me and my overthinking mind.

I get his point though, and as a leader, fuck. I respect that man so much. The responsibility? The burden? It was SO evident in his words, in his tears. Can you even begin to think what it's like? You're BTS and you're at the top of the world with literally every second person knowing who you are - and you just know that you can't go further. I get him when he said that they had a message to share, and I get him when he cried. But when he said that he felt like he overshared and caused misunderstanding? Let me just go cry in a corner.

And it's not easy for any of them. You can see that in their eyes during their performances. Fuck. I'm tearing up rn. But i don't wanna make this about me, or any of us. It's about BTS.

They offered themselves completely for the past 10 years. Completely, you hear me? And they deserve this break. They deserve every bit of mental peace and time and space that they're choosing to take for themselves and no one should have a say in that.

If I could, I'd really write to them and tell them just how much I support them. That I'll always be here. That it's okay to feel what they're feeling. It's okay to cry and it's okay to not be able to see what's ahead. It's all okay, even when nothing's okay.

Bangtan sonyeondan forever.

On a side note: I have full faith that BTS will come back. A part of me that broke when One Direction went on a hiatus and promised to come back really holds me back from believing that BTS will come back. But a major part of me, the part that BTS touched like no other group, the part that taught me life like no other group, really really doesn't let that hope die out. BTS are true to their word, they've always been, and they always will be. They'll come back, mark my words.

[edsheerankinnie]

VENT INCOMING! (religious)

feel free to skip, im just having a moment😁

Ok so im of abrahamic faith, and my dad just gave us one of his end of the world lectures/sermons/lessons/whatever, and like i am shaking and trying not to cry, and i dont wanna be alive anymore, suddenly it feels like im back in summer 2017-2018 where wed get these fucking talks every day almost, and the worst part is i cant seem to dissociate from it anymore (must be the meds lol, and they wonder i have mental health issues). and it sucks bc I’ll be searching for online spaces where ppl are experiencing smth similar so it’s not like I’m alone in this right? but for some reason it’s all either “Ohh religion helps me w my anxiety, here’s some prayers” or just ex christians being like “yeah that’s a thing”. Like no, I don’t want ur fucking prayers, I already tried those and they won’t work, and I’m not trying to be an atheist either. And god forbid I look in Other religious spaces bc ppl in my community are fucking insane for some reason. So now I’m just stuck here n can’t even complain abt ur bc my parents/community either tell me to pray the anxiety away or r like “but why are u scared? It’s not scary, all we’re saying is that the world is gonna end tonight” like what the FUCK do h men that’s not a big deal??? Mf I’m young, I’m supposed to have a ducking life ahead of me ??? And u think it’s no big deal bc ur probably gonna be dead by then??? Why the fuck would u bring me into the world then if that’s how u see it??? Like what, do u want me to k!ll myself?? I already haven’t been doing too well lately even with my meds, I’m not in the right fucking state of mind to be listening to this end of the world shit. And we had to listen to him yap for an HOUR, now I can’t even relax or even forget about this whole thing, it’s left such a bad aftertaste on my psyche, I don’t know anymore, I feel like I wanna die now, I’m too upset and scared and hopeless to live anymore.

anyways rant over I think, thanks if u read this far lol, k promise I’m ok!

#vent #religious trauma #religion #mental health #mental illness #Depression #Anxiety #I’ll take advice idk

[commanderquinn]

im quinn!! a fandom ancient baby-stepping back into posting because i missed writing. you can find the most up-to-date versions of my work on ao3, but i will Attempt to keep tumblr updated as well

this is gonna be a fandom blog for the duration, with the occasional ao3 links and such. if you dont want my personal/rant posts block #quinn speaks & #quinns rant tag. im a slut for that one-armed grouch, bucko barnes, so most content is probably gonna revolve around him. i do get distracted with other fandoms from time to time tho

and i do have a bg3 side blog

tag nav:

my masterlists/oneshots

metas ive written for fandoms AND metas written by others

the inspo tag for all my ammunition plot device needs

posts that are My Vibe

my favs is a junk drawer tag at the moment. i will eventually refine it into multiples

free serotonin (post abt my doggo)

my current writing projects:

-Good Space (12/40 chapters posted) / masterpost: a bucky/reader fic! reader is named (Ava) bc i cant write a fic that long without one. i need Something, but physical description is left purposely vague (well. okay. refs to ava being Curvy and having glasses, you're welcome to picture Whatever You Want). plot is fully mapped, it'll just take me a bit to write something That Big

-Kinktober '23: the posting has begun! ive mapped all 31 days and they're focused on my MCU canon that you can find in good space. i dont consider the end of october the cutoff. im a writer in this for Good Vibes, not a time crunch. all fics will eventually be posted

fandoms i vibe with/write for:

im not gonna sit here and list every single fandom i know bc i have adhd and that'd be a Bad Idea, so if you wanna know if im down to write for your fandom but dont see me blogging about it, you can go ahead and shoot me an ask. that said, here's the fandoms i like/intend to write for on my own end at the moment:

-marvel -bg3 -mass effect -dragon age -outer worlds -starfield -fallout

writing requests:

i am open to taking writing requests!! you're welcome to submit them through my inbox or you can leave 'em on posts. up to you how descriptive you wanna get. seriously, any detail you can think of, go for it. you're not offending me by getting specific by any means

Some Blanket Rules:

-you can ask me to tw tag my posts. you can ask me to tw tag my fics. you have, at all times, my ACTIVE ENCOURAGEMENT to try to make my work safe for you. im happy to help in any way that i can, you're NOT bothering me by asking to put up warnings for things, its okay bb.

-however. please try to respect that im still A Person With Feelings. more importantly, to you, i am a stranger on the internet. acting like you've got some weird kind of authority over what kind of content im allowed to post is Really Fucked Up. please keep that attitude away from me. id recommend a therapist, but that's your call.

-i can, and will without hesitation, block anyone at the DROP of a hat if i catch bad vibes. im old. this is my house. i will make it a house i want to be in, anyone who fucks with that is no concern of mine. im just gonna block you and move on with my day.

-this is an anti-fandom-wank zone. i. am. old. (im not even 30 yet i should really stop saying that but i AM) and. tired. i cannot begin to describe to y'all how much i do not care about an internet stranger's biased view of something. leave me alone. im busy writing smut.

-in this house we believe in comfort fic supremacy

#im gonna come back and add links to other posts for stuff like fic recs #i gotta go round up links to all my favs #but look at me go!!! im finally doing the fandom effort

[thetoaddaddy]

Rules

Lets get serious for a moment

18+ only

NSFW allowed. This isn’t a purely smut rp blog however I don’t mind rping it. Please just ask first beforehand so I’m not blindsided by sudden porn lol.

Any kind of shipping is okay

Friendly/platonic is okay too! No need to strictly lewd the old man

DM me before starting anything long/detailed. So we can hash out some details and get a feel for the interaction. I’m down for pretty much anything but I like a little bit of direction. So we both got a better idea of what we’re going for.

No godmodding or controlling my character(s). Some exceptions exist like dreams or certain ask prompts/games.

Communication is important to me. I will not get annoyed if you reach out to ask if you would like to adjust something or take the thread a certain way. Or need help on the next plot step. In fact I prefer that. Please reach out at any time!

OC and crossover friendly! This includes OCs that are related to him in any way. I love getting to know your OCs

Moots not required. Dms and rps open to all.

Random asks welcome

Willing to rp him at any age so long as if we do so as him as a minor it isn’t sexual.

Darker themes are okay too. Feel free to ask my limits.

He kinky I’m kinky just ask.

Have fun and be yourself. I am not a serious person I like goofin around!

If I don’t reply to you right away don’t sweat it! I am not ignoring you I will reply to you in time.

You can send me a dm if I haven’t replied in a while I may have missed it.

You can reblog memes/ask games from me I don’t mind. I reblog a lot lol.

Unsure how to interact? Go ahead and send in one of those memes or ask games. I will get to it!

If you don’t respect when I give you a fair warning you will be blocked.

If I find for any reason you continuously are disrespectful towards me, the muse, and my writing I will soft block you and will no longer interact with you. I most likely will not explain myself to you and it will be a quiet sever. This is for more underhanded (aka you shady but you aint slick) behaviour I’ve noticed and will not tolerate. If you message me, depending on the message I may reconsider.

Not interested in drama but I do rant sometimes on my blog. Usually pertaining to conduct in the community. I tag em as such since I understand not everyone enjoys that content. I won’t be dragging others into it or name dropping. Usually it’s just throwing in my two cents about something I’ve noticed or experienced. Also i tend to just yammer about my day at times on here. Consult the tags if you dont wanna see ooc posts but it isn’t a very frequent thing.

Threats, hate, disrespect in anon form will be responded with sarcasm or a critique of said behaviour. If it continues I will block it.

Be an okay human being and we will get along just fine! I look forward to getting to know you ❤️

This be a safe space. I love and appreciate you. And correct me if I get ur pronouns wrong I got the memory of a goldfish but I’m doing my best.

#rp rules

[xi-fan]

ahh personal life rant under the cut :///

it's a list of bullet points because there's so many things i'm nervous about and scared and ahhhhh

my housing situation

i'm scared about the lease i just signed and moving because my landlord gave me such short notice to move and this whole month has been one train wreck after another and i've been so scared because i don't know where i'm going to be living in a few days

i was talking to my co-workers who are mostly 30/40 year olds and up and they were telling me that your 20s are for flying by the seat of your pants and it'll be fine even though it feels really shitty in the moment

im gonna trust in that and trust in my ability to figure out my shit no matter, i'm good at handling myself and my situation under pressure and that's great

a good piece of advice i got was that your life is always going to be in chaos -- whether it's work, family, housing, relationships, whatever -- what you have to do is keep the chaos controlled

that being said here's my current situation: after a month of looking for housing frantically because my landlord unexpectedly did not renew my lease (i paid rent like a week early every time but he wants to rent the room to his friend who he may or may not be in a thruple with), i found a really nice room but after signing the sub-lease, it turns out the girl i'm subleasing from doesn't actually know when she's moving out by -- even though there's an agreed date on the sub-lease i signed??

so here's im gonna approach it: i wanted to move by the 25th but if she's still there, i'm gonna ask her to move her shit into their office/storage space so i can move into the room and i'm not paying rent until i'm living in that room

if she won't: then i'll move my stuff into that office space and crash at a friend's place until I can move my stuff in

if she cancels the lease on me entirely because she couldn't actually find a new place: i have two other places lined up that i can submit applications too -- one i'm waiting to hear back from, and the other i can submit tmr

i am just so sick of spending my entire month in fight or flight mode. i just want to rest. fuck.

what am i gonna do until i find out what happens: pack my shit and ask around for friends who can help me drive a uhaul or a big car and move -- i'm probably gonna ask the guy im seeing rn and his housemate and pay them like $30/hr??

i really dont wanna ask my parents for help :(((((

okay breathe in, breathe out, i'll be fine

#personal