"She likes you a lot" Kyouka commented offhandedly.
Atsushi paused, looking at her. He felt his ears a bit hot.
"Uh, what?"
"You knew it already, right? She's always trying to pick a fight with you to have your attention." She explained matter-of-factly.
Atsushi sighed. It wasn't like he didn't realise it, but having Kyouka saying it felt like a confirmation.
Lucy liked him.
"I had a feeling" he recognised.
Kyouka kept looking at him, expectant.
He knew she was waiting for him to elaborate, but he didn't know what else to say.
She knew.
"Do you like her?"
Vaguely, Atsushi had been asking himself the same thing. Did he liked her? She always was bickering and nagging at him, but also helped him everytime she could.
She had a formidable ability and... was pretty, too...?
Atsushi had never had the time to think about love, never had felt it until he got into the Agency.
Because of that, he didn't know how liking someone felt.
Excitement about meeting them? A rush of adrenaline at the sight of them? A warm feeling deep on his chest at the thought of them?
One person came to his mind, but it wasn't Lucy who he was thinking.
His blood suddenly rushed to his face.
"No, I don't- I don't think I like her that way."
(where the girls know better)
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I keep seeing people saying "Aqua only wanted to date Akane because he couldn't date Kana", but I'm not convinced things are that white-and-black.
The thing is, I think a lot of us underestimate just how attached Aqua got to Akane. Sure, at first he wants to keep her near because of her intelligence and incredible insight, but that changes the moment Akane figures out his secret.
The Japanese side-text even gives us a helpful ただのビジネス、 カップルを越えて— telling us that they're becoming more than just a business couple.
This little moment right here pretty much disarms the guy. He gets a taste of what being understood is like, and he can't help himself after that. Suddenly he is letting down his walls and allowing Akane to watch his childhood videos, something that even takes Gotanda aback because Aqua doesn't let anyone watch those.
More importantly, he even goes as far as to confess his goal to Akane. It was a clear gamble to gauge just how honest she was to him when she told him that she would be his ally no matter what, and Akane gives him more than he bargained for.
Akane is the real deal. What she is offering him—unconditional understanding and support—is the real deal. And Aqua doesn't know how to react to that. His black star even reverts back to white!
However, we see just how important this was to him a few chapters later, when we get this gem:
"Did you think you finally found someone who understands you after meeting Akane Kurokawa?"
In hindsight, the fact that Goro is highlighting Akane's understanding of Aqua and putting her right up there with Kana completely sets-up the events that would follow.
Because, what happens after Aqua finds out that he's finally free?
He thinks of both, Kana and Akane. She has managed to get under his skin to the point he is genuinely considering her as a romantic option, something he said would never happen.
This is when things get pretty interesting, because Aqua began dating Akane just to use her, right? So he no longer has any reason to keep her around.
Except he wants to keep her around, and this time it's for entirely personal reasons. He knows his growing attachment to Akane will do her no good though, so he shoots that selfish thought down at once.
Akane is young and she has a bright future. I can't hold her back forever...
By his own admission, he thinks he is holding her back, so he decides to break up with her to set her free. He even says as much as they're walking to the bridge, almost like he's trying to convince himself it's the right thing to do.
I don't think... it's good for me to keep you tied down forever, Akane.
In other words, Aqua isn't breaking up with Akane because he isn't romantically interested in her. At the contrary, he even ends up admitting that he is attracted to her.
However, he doesn't seem to be entirely sure of what he feels for her and he is under the impression that Akane isn't romantically interested in him.
All this to say, Aqua mainly wanted to break up with Akane for her. Because he has been deceiving her and holding her back.
Case in point, a chapter later he goes on a date with Kana, who even asks him what he plans to do with Akane. You'd think that this would be the perfect moment for Aqua to confirm his romantic-disinterest in Akane by telling Kana something like:
I tried to break up with her but we got interrupted
I'm going to break up with her
Or any variation of those lines, since that's what he intended to do last time we saw him with Akane. He tells her this instead:
We talked about it the other day, but we got interrupted.
Oh, so breaking up actually isn't a done deal.
We'll probably get an answer... the next time we meet.
So, it isn't only Akane who is trying to figure out what Aqua is to her. Aqua himself is thinking about what Akane means to him.
Something about his conversation with Akane got to him, so he starts second-guessing whether he should break up with her or not even though it's "a little too late", since they talked about breaking up already.
If he were 100% intending to pursue Kana, why would he be telling her all this? Not to mention, why is he thinking carefully about his relationship with Akane instead of focusing on his relationship with Kana?
When it comes down to it, ever since Aqua found out that he is free to love someone, Akane and his relationship with her remain at the forefront of his mind. He even broaches the subject right after Akane finds his corpse, which was far and away not the time for that lol
Which of course leads us to the moment they get the answer Aqua alluded to earlier.
Akane finally understands what she feels for Aqua, and while she tries to keep a smile on for him, her true feelings come pouring through her tears.
Aqua wondered if Akane even harbored any romantic feelings for him. Those tears seem to be the answer to that question.
Which leaves us with: What does Aqua feel for Akane?
Aqua seems to realize it in very much the same way Akane did earlier. Through it all, they have been supporting each other, getting to know each other, understanding each other and having fun together.
Their relationship hasn't been a lie. Akane sincerely wanted to get close to him to help him. He sincerely wants to stay close to her to protect her.
Since Aqua had already resolved the question of 'should I fall in love?', that left him with two other questions to answer.
Can he fall in love with Akane?
Does he want to fall in love with her?
Going by this, he obviously decides that the answer to both questions is yes.
Now, this post isn't here to claim that he did fall for her or anything, he obviously still has unresolved feelings for Kana. What I'm 100% here to say though is that Aqua's feelings were way less set in stone than people make it sound, and that that the order of events clearly show that Aqua actually gave his feelings for Akane a whole lot of thought, even before he realized he should keep his distance from Kana.
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