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alwayslovingharry · 2 years

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Break My Heart Again

A/N: I'm sorry I've been missing for the last month, I've been busy with university stuff and then I've been on holidays and I didn't have the computer to continue writing.

The last thing I posted was a preview of this chapter of this story that I'm going to start publishing. I hope you like it, this story has been my baby for a long time, and I look forward to start posting more of my own stuff soon.

PAIRING: Harry Styles x Hailey Foster (1Dmember!reader)

WORD COUNT: 3.9k

WARNING: Like i said, I'm not an english native speaker, maybe there are some mistakes.

SUMMARY: Just days after his mother's death Louis is performing on XFactor and the band is there to support him at such a difficult time.

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11/12/2016

Louis starts to leave the stage and I immediately get up from the backstage box where I'm sitting to go and look for him at the exit of the stage. I watched how Louis was on the verge of tears as Simon spoke. I knew he needed to do this performance in honour of his mother, but that doesn't mean he was ready.

Peeking out onto the stage, careful that no one in the audience can see me, I watch as Louis comes towards me along with Steve Aoki. He walks looking at the floor, avoiding eye contact with anyone, until he looks up and sees me. I smile, trying to comfort him.

"Hails" he murmurs as he rushes over to me and hugs me tightly. "You came... but… you said you had to go to Los Angeles."

"How could I miss your first performance? I couldn't forgive myself."

"Thank you." I smile as Louis pulls me a little tighter against him.

"You did great, Lou." I say as I stroke his back with my hands, trying to comfort him."That was a blast."

"Do you think she would have liked it?"

"She would have loved Louis, wherever she is, she'll be proud of you..."

"I love you Hails," he murmurs after a while in silence, his voice a little raspier than before.

"I love you too Lou." I answer and he pulls away from me a little, letting me see his red nose and eyes. "Let's go to your dressing room, I'm sure you need to rest after that performance."

"I'm also going to my dressing room, I'll see you later Louis." Steve, who had been standing behind Louis while we were hugging each other, says goodbye to me with a wave of his hand before turning and leaving.

As we walk to his dressing room, Lou keeps his right arm around my shoulders, keeping me close to him at all times. Some of the backstage workers stare at us, because our gestures might say we're something more, but we've always been friends. Ever since we started talking to each other in the cafeteria on the XFactor sets before bootcamp and being put in the band together, the rest is history.

Because of our close friendship, there were always rumours that we had something going on, but we have always ignored everything. We don't care what other people think... Louis is like a big brother to me and nobody will change that.

When we get to the dressing room, Louis opens the door and suddenly we're both trapped in a suffocating embrace.

"Guys, I can't breathe" I mumble against Niall's chest and immediately they both let go of Louis and me.

I already knew the guys were going to be in the dressing room waiting, as soon as we knew Louis had decided he was going to do this performance we decided he would need our support. Both Liam and Niall hadn't been able to be around Louis during Johannah's last few days, so they thought the least they could do was support him in this appearance.

"Tommo, that performance was amazing." Liam says with a smile.

"Everything was brutal, until Simon opened his big mouth as usual, but your performance was just awesome."

"Thank you guys so much, thank you for everything." Louis replies, hugging them both, pulling away shortly after to add. “I could never have wished for better friends than you guys are.”

"Hey, I'm here too, I need my ego boost too, Loueh." says a voice behind us.

No no no no no, not you now.

"Your ego is already big enough without me having to boost it more." I notice how Louis turns to Harry and I can hear them give each other a hug, but I still don't move.

I haven't seen Harry since the last band performance, I haven't spoken directly to him since then and I had no plans on doing so any time soon. I know Harry had also helped Louis during his mother's last days in the hospital just like me, but I think we were both deliberately avoiding each other because we never ran into each other at any point.

When I finally turn around, I see Harry and Louis hugging each other. The first thing that strikes me is seeing Harry with short hair for the first time in person, I had only seen him on instagram posts. He always said he'd kept his hair so long so he could donate but in my opinion, now that I finally see him in person, him with this short hair or even the hair he had when he started growing it out gives him a Disney prince vibe and it suits him the most.

While I'm standing here in the middle of the dressing room barely moving, Niall and Liam also come over to hug Harry, the three of them have kept in touch during this year and have seen each other a few times according to what they told me.

"Hi Hails," Harry greets me after the boys have greeted each other, as he walks next to Liam towards the couch in the dressing room.

"Hi."

They all sit on the couch or in the chairs around the dressing room, reminding me of the old days when we all gathered in a dressing room after a concert. I sit on the floor as usual and we start talking, mostly about Louis' great performance and how we had to cheat the people who run our schedules to be here.

I should be in Los Angeles right now.

Slowly we start to reminisce about anecdotes, confirming to me that I'm not the only one that this situation has reminded me of the old days. Time passes quickly and just when I decide to ask if anyone has thought of a time when we should get back together as a band, Liam looks at his watch.

"I should go, it's late and I don't like to leave Cheryl alone, with the pregnancy lately she's had a few dizzy spells and I'm not too comfortable knowing she's home alone," he replies standing up, straightening his clothes.

"I should probably get going too, I've got a meeting with the label tomorrow morning and I'd like to avoid looking like a panda for not getting enough sleep." Niall stands up too and so do I, so I can say goodbye to them.

Louis, who is looking at his phone for the first time since his performance, looks up.

"I have missed calls and messages from Lottie, Felicite and the twins, I should call them again, I'll walk you out," Louis replies as he stands up and grabs his jacket from the coat rack by the door.

"I'm going too, let me-"

“Hails, I'm going to have a smoke, and I know you don't like smoking near you, so stay here with Harry. I'll be right back.”

I glance at Louis as he puts on his jacket. He knows exactly what my relationship with Harry is like at the moment and I can see what his intentions are by forcing me to stay with him in the dressing room alone. I may not be able to stand cigarette smoke, but Louis is aware that when he smokes and I'm around we both make sure the smoke doesn't come towards me.

"I'll get revenge for this, Louis Tomlinson..." I think, Niall and Liam are saying goodbye to Harry while Louis is grabbing his pack of cigarettes from the make up table.

The first one to come up to me to say goodbye is Niall. “We need to meet up before either of us leave London, you need to hear my new album, it's going to be the best debut album you're ever going to hear."

"Is it Taylor Swift by Taylor Swift? Because that's the best debut album I've ever heard."

"Even better," Niall laughs and we hug.

"Irish, let go of our Hailey, I want to hug her too," Liam complains getting Niall to stop hugging me.

"I have to make the most of it, seeing Hailey lately is like seeing Halley's comet, you only see her once every 75 years."

"You guys aren't exactly easy to get in touch with either," I laugh and Liam gives me one of his bear hugs.

"Tell me you'll come and meet my son when he's born."

"I promise Li," I reply just before we stop hugging and Liam smiles at me.

"I know you're fans of our dear Hailey, but I want to call my sisters before Pheebs and Daisy end up asleep on the couch waiting for me to call them," Louis says snapping to attention, he had leaned next to the door and now had one hand on the doorknob.

“Come on Niall, looks like Tommo needs a cigarette to relax," Liam replies and looks back at me, "Hailey, you promised me, you have to come.”

"I'll try to come as soon as possible, don't worry."

"Bye Hails," Niall says goodbye giving me a kiss on the cheek before walking out with Liam and Louis through the dressing room door.

As the boys walk out and the door closes, the dressing room goes silent. I have my back to Harry but I can feel his beautiful green eyes watching every move I make. The silence between us makes me nervous but I prefer this to saying something that shouldn't be said.

After a few seconds of standing by the door, I sit down in the chair at the make-up table. He hasn't moved from his sitting position on the couch since the goodbye hug with Liam, so my back is to him.

"I like your short hair, but I was a fan of your long hair," I hear Harry say.

"You're not the only one who wanted to donate his hair.” I reply turning my chair around to see him on the couch, looking directly at him for the first time in a year." Short hair suits you, Styles.”

Harry smiles with his typical shyness when he gets a compliment as he runs a hand through his hair, a habit he must still have after having such long hair for so long.

I missed that smile.

"So... how are you? Any projects? Any albums?

"At the moment I'm taking a break from writing, making albums and touring, I needed some peace time, maybe I'll do some modelling, maybe even if the opportunity presents itself some acting." I reply but Harry remains silent, as if waiting for me to make the next move. "What about you? I heard that besides a film you were preparing an album. "

"Yeah...the movie is done but the album I just started, it's...weird being able to do everything the way I want on an album, my own music." Harry still seems to be as measured with his words as ever, but there's something about him that makes me think he's changed, it's like he gives off an aura of confidence with everything he says or does." I'm going to go to Jamaica in a few weeks to continue recording, composing and take a break from everyone chasing me. Only my family, my closest team members and the label know I'm leaving...well, and now you."

"Last spring I went on a 3 month trip all over Europe. Just me and Olive. Only Jack, James, Louis, my parents and Olive's family knew we were travelling, no one else knew. I felt free for the first time in a long time, there were no shows, no touring, no records to make. Getting away from the cameras and living the way you want to live...if you go to Jamaica I have a feeling that it will be the best time you've had in years, I promise. "

We are silent again, this time not as tense as before. Despite everything that's happened between us, Harry and I still know each other and I hope I'll always feel comfortable with him.

"How is Olive doing, is she still doing photography?"

"She is now doing a one-year course in make-up and hairdressing. She finished her Film and Media degree in June and now she thought she wanted to learn a bit more about hair and make-up for her art photos," I reply, I know Harry and Liv got on well from the first moment they met and I know they lost touch after the band split up... and because I stopped talking to Harry, of course. "And yes, she's still taking photos. Our trip to Europe was thanks to a job she was offered, photographing the different destinations in a travel guide. She needed to travel for work and I needed to disconnect, so I decided to join her.

"I always liked her photos, she knew how to capture the exact moment... I would like to talk to her again, but we never gave each other a phone number or an email. "

"Let me have your mobile, I'll text you her number," I reply as I pull out and unlock my iPhone, Harry nods and does the same with his and reaches over to hand me his mobile with his contact list open.

"Thanks, I'll text her as soon as I can, maybe she can help me with the pictures for the album." he thanks me as I hand him back his iPhone with my friend's number on it.

"She'd love that." she smiled and we both fall silent again, I turn back around so I can see myself in the vanity mirror.

"Are you still with Jack?" asks Harry after a while, snapping me out of my own thoughts, I knew at some point he would ask that or drop it.

"Yeah."

"That's...that's great."

"Your mother told me that Jack is planning on asking me to marry him soon," I confess as I turn back to look at him, seeing how he's stopped being as relaxed as before and has a more tense posture.

"When he asks you, will you say yes?" Harry asks as he gets up from the couch.

"I think...I don't know, our relationship is fine, but I don't know if I want to spend the rest of my life together with him."

"How am I going to think about spending my life with someone else if you exist, Harry Styles."

Harry walks towards me and I could swear he's grown even more since the last time I saw him. He walks confidently, until he's a step away from the chair I'm sitting in, staring at me with his gorgeous green eyes.

Did suits always looked so good on you?

"H...what are you doing?"

"It's been a long time since I've seen your eyes up close, Hails, has anyone told you they look like the blue of the sky?

"Harry...don't do this."

"I'm not doing anything."

"You know I am, and I have a boyfriend, you can't do that thing where you stare into my eyes.”

"I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm just looking at you."

"No, you can't just stand there and tell me things like my eyes are like the sea or act like I don't have a boyfriend who isn't you. "

Harry drops his head as he sighs wearily and I can see how he seems to deny before he lifts his head back up to stare at me again.

"I don't know when I fucked up, or how I fucked up to make it seem like I don't mean anything to you, but just the thought that someone who isn't me might wake up seeing your eyes for the rest of the days of his life next to him...it pisses me off...so much."

Why the fuck do you have to be so...so you, Harry?! Saying that kind of nice things!!!!

"Harry, it's not your fault that...I never felt anything but physical attraction to you. "

"Hailey, stop with the usual 'I just want to have sex with you' routine because we both know from the beginning that it couldn't be more of a lie," Harry replies with his usual calmness, placing his hands on top of the arms of the chair, scooting even closer to me and trapping me against the back of the chair." If it was really just sexual attraction, you wouldn't have cut off all contact with me as soon as the band broke up, with the rest of the guys you've talked to but not answered any of my texts or calls."

"I have a partner, I had to avoid the temptation to...talk to you...see you..." I hesitate as I stare at his lips, as pink as ever.

"And why is that? If you're just physically attracted to me, you shouldn't mind reading a text and texting me back."

Damn you, Harry Styles, I think as he pulls his face even closer to mine, leaving only a couple of inches before our noses touch.

"Please accept that you want a kiss as much as I do." Harry runs his tongue over his lips, wetting them, causing them to be even pinker than before.

"We can't...I can't." I reply, closing my eyes.

If I keep staring at his eyes or his mouth one more second I might die....

"You've always said that and I don't understand why, most of the time before we've ended up tangled in the sheets together without you caring about Jack. I can't tell the difference now," I notice how Harry pulls his face slightly away from mine, but keeps his hands on top of the arms of the chair.

If I told you...

"I'm with Jack, I can't cheat on him..."

"And you were with him before too..."

"But now I know Jack loves me, I can't do that to him..."

"You know I've been in love with you since long before you met him, Hailey, probably since we met" I know and I'm so sorry, Harry" I was asking you out on dates and you refused saying you weren't looking for anything serious, you meet this stupid businessman at a gala, he asks you out on a date and you give it to him. Does that seem fair?

"Management was always forcing me to go out with different girls but they all realised that my heart belonged to another girl...even Kendall almost forced me to go ask you out after our last failed date attempt! "

"Harry... "I finally open my eyes as I notice Harry stop leaning on my chair and walk away.

"Why can't I get you out of my head, Hailey? Why are you like a poison that's taken over me?" he asks me as he rubs his hands over his face.

"I would tell you why if I could, I really would...I'm so sorry...I-" someone knocks on the door, interrupting me.

"Hails?" I hear Louis' voice from outside. "I ran into Jack outside, he said he's here looking for you. "

"Hailey, honey, you weren't answering my calls and I found Louis smoking at the back door." I hear Jack say from outside.

Harry looks at me, his eyes are completely red and his hair is completely disheveled unlike before when it was neatly combed. I hate to see him suffer, he doesn't deserve everything he has suffered because of me.

"I'll be right out, give me two minutes," I shout to warn Louis and Jack.

"If he proposes, please don't accept," Harry whispers as I stand up.

"He's been my boyfriend for over 3 years, I can't so easily say no to marrying him because you say so."

"Please." pleads Harry taking my wrist gently before I walk out the door." I need to know that I still have a chance, please. "

"Goodbye Harry, it was nice to see you again." I reply letting go of his grip with ease.

Without further ado I open the door, finding both Jack and Lou waiting in the hallway.

There you are," Jack says, coming over to give me a quick little kiss on the cheek. "Louis told me you'd fallen asleep on the couch in the dressing room and he'd taken the opportunity to go out for a smoke. "

"When I left with Niall and Liam I was asleep like an angel," Louis lies.

"I told you I'd get a taxi, Jack, you didn't have to come..."

"I know, but I got out late from a company meeting, " typical, Jack leaving a company meeting late" I thought it would be a good idea to come and pick up my beautiful girlfriend. "

"That was nice of you," I pretend to be flattered, giving him a small kiss on the cheek. "You can head out to the car, I want to say goodbye to Lou. "

"Hailey..."

"I'll be 2 minutes, come on go," I ask with pleading eyes, getting him to just nod and walk away saying goodbye to Lou with a simple handshake.

"I'm going to kill you, Tomlinson" I threaten Louis once Jack has left and it's just the two of us. "You left me alone with Harry, you idiot!"

"Tell me he kissed you, or better yet, did you kiss him?"

"Louis, you can't play cupid with Harry and me, you know you can't."

"For God's sake, I'm sick of hearing you two complaining about love, I had to try something to shut you up for once. By hook or by crook. "

"Louis, you know perfectly well we can't even if you try to get us together. There are contracts!"

"Fuck the contracts, dump the office stiff you have for a boyfriend and fuck Harry, you both need it."

"LOUIS!" I shout, covering his mouth, hoping no one had heard him.

"I just want to see you happy Hailey, see you both happy," Louis speaks from under my hand.

"I know..." I reply taking my hand away from Louis' mouth. "But you leaving us alone I don't think was the best idea...I think you should go into the dressing room, I'm sure Harry will need you right now."

"You can't leave this poor boy with a broken heart every time he sees you."

"I hate having to hurt him every time he tries to get close to me, it's not like I wish all this on him and you have to comfort him."

"And me having to do it to him. Anyway, we'll both be bitter and comforting each other tonight, don't worry." sighs Louis shaking his head. "Do you want me to call tomorrow before I go back to Doncaster? We could meet for breakfast at that place next to my house."

"Whatever you want, I'm free tomorrow."

"Then I'll call you tomorrow to decide when we' ll meet."

"Yep, please try to get some decent rest today."

"I'll try, don't worry" he smiles tiredly before hugging me. "You know, I'm sure at some point they'll let you two be together, you'll get married and have like 15 kids after releasing about half a dozen albums dedicated to each other."

"I hope that happens before Harry gets bored of me or hates me," I say forcing a smile as we stop hugging.

"He'll never get bored of you, love."

And I decide to try to believe it.

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literary-illuminati · 2 years

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Books I Read in May

(Because I’m trying to get back on this wagon after missing April.)

18. The Emperor of All Maladies: A Biography of Cancer by Siddhartha Mukherjee

This is probably not my favourite piece of pop science writing, but it’s really got to be up there. The history of how cancer’s been understood and treated through the last century is just absolutely morbidly fascinating (my roommate has placed a moratorium on any unsolicited ‘fun facts’ since I started reading this book).

But beyond a) an incredibly visceral understanding of what Leukemia is and b) an appreciation for the public health advances of the early/mid-20th century, my main takeaway was that the book was actually just weirdly hopeful? Like, compared to, well, everything (except consumer electronics) the degree to which cancer treatment’s have actually just kept getting better over the last decades gives you back a bit of the old faith in Progress.

Also just both very readable and downright poetic at points (and just. Incredible title.)

19. Light From Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki

Hugo nominee novel number 2!

I was, honestly, not particularly impressed. Like it’s not bad – really extremely readable, really – but just, eh? 6/10.

It was above all just so very sentimental – believe in yourself! Love conquers all! Happy endings for absolutely everyone! Good bread tastes like home, even if you’re an alien! - which I suppose I’m just allergic to, and so will restrain myself about because it’s just a matter of taste.

Katrina was a good protagonist, entertaining internal monologue, well executed if incredibly predictable arc. But Shizuka and Lan...for the sheer amount of the book their romance took up, it still felt like the romance subplot thrown in as an afterthought in some blockbuster? They fell in love at first sight because the story tells us they do, and then they spend a bunch of scenes together, so clearly they’re a love for the ages! Never mind the palpable lack of chemistry or real connection between them. (And the less said about the rest of Lan’s family the better, character-wise. Though I mean Shirley was just an embodied cliche but it’s a cliche I like so she gets half-credit).

And yeah I could bitch about this book for ages but that just seems meanspirited (also I already spent like two hours doing so with @toasthaste) so. The evil violin repairwoman was fun?

20. She Who Became The Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan

Hugo nominee novel number 3!

Or, as the friend who lent me it described it, ‘the one with the lesbian fisting in it’. (This wasn’t an exaggeration. Despite the jokes I was not expecting to get a scene of, like, actual porn 300 pages in.)

Anyway, no, this was good! ‘Low fantasy/mythologized retelling of actual historical events’ is a conceit I really love when it’s pulled off well, and Parker-Chan absolutely pulls it off well. Even if ‘If Anyone Finds Out I’m A Girl I Won’t Be Able To Found The Ming Dynasty!” sounds like something an automatic light novel series generator would split out.

Though really at least half the book’s best scenes are the whole revenge melodrama going on with the Mongol prince and general whose names I’m blanking on and aren’t mentioned in the Wikipedia article or goodreads summary. Just gloriously operatically angst-filled self-loathing and obliviousness and killing the only man you love for the sake of vengeance.

Not that Zhang as a protagonist isn’t great, too. I mean partially I just love the whole trope of ‘scheming, manipulative bastard constantly working every angle they can, who hides it all under an act of humble piety/devotion/loyalty and pretending all their successes are just luck/providence/divine favour, and no one’s quite sure how full of shit they are”. But also, you know, got to love any hero dedicated enough to making their own destiny and carving their own place in the world that they just straight-up murder the ten-year-old messiah to make sure there’s no competition at the top.

21. Hero of Two Worlds May: The Marquis de Lafayette in the Age of Revolution by Mike Duncan

Possibly the most middle-class-American-dad-ish book I will ever read (unless I ever get really into WW2, I guess?). Before reading it I had essentially zero interest in the Marquis de Lafayette in particular, but I really like the Revolutions podcast, and I do love reading about the French Revolution, so.

Honestly after reading the book I’m still not particularly interested in the Marquis de Layfayette – beyond a grudging respect for not changing his political opinions one iota after losing control of the revolution and spending four years in an Austrian dungeon after fleeing the country ahead of the tribunal, I suppose – and on the whole I found the book a lot less interesting than The Storm Before The Storm. Though that’s probably mostly just because I went in already knowing a lot more about the Age of Revolution than I did about the Late Roman Republic. (I did learn a bunch of military minutia about the American Revolution that I assume Americans all get taught in elementary school).

Probably because of that, by far the best parts of the book (imo) were the ones describing life in the Ancien Regime and post-Restoration. The latter, especially – the whole early 19th century milieu of revolutionary secret societies forcibly suppressed by foreign arms is just worldbuilding inspiration catnip, really.

The whole thesis of the early French Revolution section (and it’s repeated often enough that I’m pretty comfortable calling it that) about how the ‘salon revolutionaries’ were only ever able to extract reforms and concessions from the King by using the energy and threat of the angry mobs on the streets and the direct, violent, insurrectionary actions does have a certain unsubtle subtext, also.

22. A Psalm for the Wild-Built by Becky Chambers

Hugo nominee novella number 2!

A book I would not have picked up on my own, honestly – three Wayfarers books have taught me quite clearly that Chambers is not for me, no matter how much normal people seem to love her – but she got nominated twice this year, and a friend already had this borrowed from the library.

I think the best way I can describe this is ‘a solarpunk art book, in prose form’. Like, there’s (exactly two) characters and (ostensibly) a plot, and there are themes (my god does the book want to make sure you know there are themes), but, like, in terms of wordcount and detail and enthusiasm, the animating passion is pretty clearly just detailing the society and physical infrastructure and general feel of day-to-day life in the post-post-apocalyptic solarpunk future. And that’s really very well done! It’s a good prose art book! Personally I don’t really care for the whole rural idyll pastoral aesthetic and the whole implicit ‘life being too easy is bad, actually’ thing, but, like, totally see the appeal.

23. Machinehood by S.B. Divya

And Hugo nominee novel number 3!

This was a slightly odd reading experience, honestly. Like, the best way I can put it is, like, some airport fiction technothriller (Robert Ludlum or whoever) except set a bit farther in the future and also woke? Not, like, didactically so or anything, but the genre and plot formula make it more surprising that the supportive CIA handler is a trans guy or one of the sympathetic showboating mercs/bodyguards is nonbinary or whatever. Or, like, the combat cyborg protagonist whose entire squad got killed in a black ops mission into ScaryMuslimLand when the President pulled the rug out from under them is an atheist latina woman and it’s her (male) partner that is constantly nagging her about staying safe and starting a peaceful life together somewhere new, and etc. Not a complaint about the book in any way, honestly, just really struck me reading it.

But weird politics aside, it was a fun read! The worldbuilding was actually pretty great – near future and familiar enough to seem plausible-ish, but still really alien, and still feeling, like, genuinely future-ish? Also it wove it’s weird supertech politics into a legacy/context of, like, actual modern politics, which I appreciated.

It helps that it’s my favourite sort of future – better than the present in a thousand different ways, but with horrifically dystopian touches here and there that everyone’s long since just shrugged and accepted, and also still just weighed down with the shittiness of life under exploitation and scarcity but, like, somewhat ameliorated. (But really, ‘everyone has access to biotech labs in their kitchens! Which is good, because you need to download the specifications the ministry of health puts up for your daily booster every morning to keep up with all the engineered superbugs” is just a great bit of worldbuilding imo).

Honestly my main actual complaint is that – for all the entire plot of the book is centred around paranoia about the emergence of strong/free-willed AI, and the bad guys treat the bots aboard their space station as persons, it’s just...never really clarified how those bots feel about it/if they feel anything or are too limited to care at all? Like, this is important!

Still, fun read.

#book review #analysis/review #Monthly Tally #the Emperor of All Maladies #siddhartha mukherjee #light from uncommon stars #ryka aoki #she who became the sun #Shelley Parker-Chan #a psalm for the wild built #becky chambers #Hero of Two Worlds #Mike Duncan #Machinehood #S. B. Divya

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gillianthecat · 2 years

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For the asks game: 1 (Kieta Hatsukoi and Theory of Love), 9 (Cherry Magic and The Untamed) and it seems you already answered the majority of the others but I hope no one asked 14 yet? 💌

hi! @midnight-sun16! Thanks for these asks!

1. name a drama and I’ll pick my favourite scene in that drama:

Kieta Hatsukoi - I'll go with the scene on the swing set (apparently I have a thing for scenes on swing sets?) where Aoki and his friend Hashimoto realize that they don't actually have a crush on the same person. I just thought it was very cute how they had resignedly agreed that they were love rivals and then when they finally said the names of crushes out loud they figured out that the eraser had erased part of the name. It was funny and cute and a good depiction of a sweet friendship.

In my drafts there's a gif of the scene where Aoki spill juice on Ida; that one is also very cute, so maybe this is a good excuse to post it. Honestly, while I enjoyed Kieta Hatsukoi a lot, the details didn't really stick in my mind. Perhaps if I rewatched a different scene would stand out.

Theory of Love - There's a scene in a train station in episode 11. I don't want to give spoilers so I won't say more, but... yeah.

9. name a drama and I’ll pick my favourite character oh, these two are both hard ones. I could have so many favorites from each, for so many different reasons.

Cherry Magic - ok. I've decided I'm going to use this opportunity to go on a mini version of my rant about Cherry Magic that I've been meaning to write. So I will pick Kurosawa, for who he was and who the story wouldn't let him be. He had so much interesting potential - this "perfect" guy who had a crush on the awkward one, the guy who thought he always had to be perfect and please other people... It's such an interesting character, but the show never allowed him to change. We got a glimpse at his own struggles in that flashback about the dinner where he was being sexually harassed, and where Adachi helps him catches Kurosawa's eye. But then it felt like that thread just got dropped, and Kurosawa never got to have his own story, it was all about Adachi.

I mean, it's also possible that Kurosawa was less static than I thought and I just missed some stuff. If so, please let me know!

Basically I wanted to this aspect of Cherry Magic to be more like Blueming. I loved Blueming for subverting this idea of the "perfect" love interest. Da-woon was very similar - someone commonly considered perfect, crush on an awkward guy, feels pressure to please other people - but the story allowed him to be flawed and change and grow. I loved Kurosawa enough to want to give him the same chance!

(The longer version of the still unwritten rant includes stuff about virginity, the title and the lack of focus on sexuality, Kurosawa's thoughts as heard by Adachi, stories as fantasies vs. stories as stories... probably some other stuff too. I did like the show! It just also frustrated me in ways that detracted from my enjoyment. I possibly went into it with expectations too high.)

And if I was just going to pick a pure favorite, it would be Fujisaki, their aromantic colleague. I liked how here they subverted expectations of her being a love rival, or a overinvested gossip or something, and had her be a sweetly supportive friend, but also with her own story happening so that her world did not revolve around the main characters.

The Untamed - Look this is really hard. I'm basically throwing a mental dart at a mental dart board to choose.

Wei Wuxian. His whole... everything. Self-sacrificing, arrogant, loving, brilliant, teasing, playful, clever... I honestly don't know how to write about him or The Untamed right now. I watched it just this spring and was obsessed with it for a time, but in many ways that seems forever ago. I feel like it's sunk into my psyche in the place before words. Perhaps someday I'll have more to say.

14. drama you dropped within the first 2 episodes (we’ve all been there) There have been several, but I'm going to say 2gether. This world, where everyone's approach to getting what they want seemed to be stalking other people and everyone ignores the word "no," just does not appeal to me. (Interestingly, this meant that the depiction of Green as a predatory femme didn't bother me as much as I expected, because a lot of people in the show seemed predatory.)

I ended up dropping it at the scene where Tine somehow manages to play porn on his classroom's projector; the secondhand embarrassment was too much for me on top of everything else. I had intended to pick it up again, and maybe I will someday since it seems to be one of the foundational Thai BLs, but it doesn't feel like a priority.

And yes! You were the first to ask for 14 :-)

List of Drama Asks

#kieta hatsukoi #my love mix up #theory of love #cherry magic #the untamed #2gether #2gether the series #drama asks #ask games #asks answered #midnight-sun16

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maeve-is-annoying-about-books · 8 months

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Light From Uncommon Stars, Epilogue and Thoughts

I usually try not to edit myself here on tumblr dot com. Not too much, anyway. Letting the thoughts flow has gotten more difficult lately and this was the intended cure. The solution to what clogged up my writing, made me second-guess and throw out entire arcs before the roughs are even done.

I think I got so tied up in technical perfection and accolades I forgot what I even wanted to say in the first place. Whenever I had a difficult scene I trimmed it or quieted the details so it could fit in a public conscious I couldn't even get it into. Imagine my shock when my girlfriend found this book and read me the synopsis. What a weird smattering of incoherent tropes and setups. A very real and painful story of a trans runaway. The story of a badass woman who made a deal with the devil and means to come out on top. The story of a refugee family from beyond the stars. It's so random, so put-together, so contrived.

But I was pulled in by Miss Aoki's song. I watched as she drew these disparate sections into a cohesive whole that resonated with me. Ah, no, laid me bare in a way many books don't even dare to try. A lot of it felt distinctly personal to me, something that I don't think dismally perfect tones and unrelentingly accurate technique would even dare try.

My writing has been progressing again since I've started Light From Uncommon Stars. I hate saying things like "this bit of media saved me", the real story of being saved is always infinitely more complicated. But what I do think is that it reminded me of how I used to write, how I could take a concept and fly with it to speak my heart. When I started second-guessing that and tried to edit myself into marketable shape for no reason but my own paranoia, it was a death knell. And now I'm writing a story about a woman and her friend the giant robot. I don't know if I'll even finish it, but the feeling of writing is right again.

Light From Uncommon Stars is a success, and it's not because it's technically perfect. There are hiccups, contrivances, the prose gets far too flowery and there are hints of characters being handed their happiness. It's a success because it is almost certainly the story Miss Aoki wanted to tell, it's filled with her emotions and I feel like I heard them. I would... so adore to be told that yes, I did understand her song. Even parts of it.

This story is very much the product of an author's heart, and that's why I love it. I will always love a passion project more than a story perfected in its appeal. But now I'm going around in circles again. I mostly wanted to get some final thoughts and yet more oversharing out of my system.

If you skipped through then, in summary: Light From Uncommon Stars is an incredible work of emotionally-intelligent writing. For any technical gripe I might have had, I never felt pulled away from the characters. I only ever felt more for them.

That, I think, is worth a read.

#live reading #light from uncommon stars #maeve's light from uncommon stars readalong

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kathswonderworld · 1 year

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Translation #2: Blue by YOASOBI (Assignment)

Before proceeding, I would like to tack on a disclaimer of the text(s) which you will read down below.

#1. I do NOT own the English/original text. I will write down the writer if I do find their names and/or link the text down below, right before the translation. #2. I am NOT a professional in translating texts. As you may read on the title, this is a product from an assignment that I very much needed to complete. As such, there may be mistakes and errors on my part. If you do find them, I encourage you to tell me directly to help me grow more and more.

That said,

Enjoy!

Original song: Blue by YOASOBI English lyrics by: Konnie Aoki

Original English Lyrics Blue

Ah, like every day I see Another day repeats, I'm yawning all the time After all the cheers, the night, it fades out and Shibuya receives a pour of the morning light And somehow, an emptiness surrounds That's what I always feel Something is not enough That's how it's gonna be It's all a part of life I'll let this be

See what, see what, covered deep inside Let us hear the voice in you, and resonate in you, hold on Pretending won't bring it out of sight It is always waiting there for you

Calling followed, what I feel's to be drawn Going by my selection in this color, then Suddenly, with the breeze of a drowsy morning There was a world of blue shown in front of me Liking what you believe in and saying that you do Can be too terrifying, but I know I've finally come across a true discovery of what I got

Ah, the more that I reach out my hands to what I need The further it becomes Another one of these unruly days go on I'm always in a hurry as I'm struggling Misery, stemming from all my thoughts Humiliation brings new tears into my view The more that I step in, the harder it becomes Even the pain renews

Calling followed, what I feel is the move Going by my selection in this path I walk On a night fighting off eyelids dropping heavy I'm grabbing tight, the blue vow in front of me Taking what you believe and to keep doing so Every step's not only fun all the time Don't know if I'm able, cause I am worried a little

Ah, "one line" was drawn Every "one line" was drawn Missing inner confidence, I've drawn all pages I could draw Ah, "one time" becomes Every "one time" becomes Soon, a large accumulation of a strength inside of you All around, I look at them Comparing what I do with them

What is it only I can do that nobody else can? Even if I've got no true confidence, I'm moving on Covered in thoughts and emotion within Unknown to me, a brand new feeling And, on the day I took the step for the first time Including even this, new pain that I felt too Liking what I believe in and facing it led To a touch of the preview of a light Gonna be alright, let us go All I can do now is to have the fun

Everything is on the line as I draw Using my own unique usage of colors and Every dawn, every night, I would keep on running And now I found the blue glowing light on me Liking what you believe in and facing it too Can be still terrifying but now I know No longer am I these versions of me living in transparency Now I know how to be my precious incomparable new self

See what, see what, covered deep inside Let us hear the voice in you, and resonate in you, hold on Pretending won't bring it out of sight It is always waiting there, still always waiting there for you and See what, see what, covered deep inside Let us hear the voice in you, and resonate in you, hold on Pretending won't bring it out of sight It is always waiting there, waiting inside of you

Translated Text (to Indonesian): Biru

Ah, seperti hari-hari biasa yang kulihat Satu hari lagi berlalu, aku menguap sepanjang waktu Setelah semua kegembiraan, malam, ia memudar dan Shibuya menerima siraman cahaya pagi Dan entah bagaimana, sebuah kekosongan mengerumuni Itulah yang selalu kurasakan Sesuatu terasa kurang Itulah bagaimana ini akan berlanjut Semuanya adalah bagian dari kehidupan Aku akan membiarkan ini seperti itu

Panggilan mengikuti, apa yang kurasakan adalah bagaimana rasanya tertarik Mengikuti pilihanku atas warna ini, lalu Tiba-tiba, dengan hembusan dari pagi yang mengantuk Ada sebuah dunia biru diperlihatkan di hadapanku Menyukai apa yang kau percayai dan mengungkapkannya Dapat menjadi terlalu menakutkan, tapi aku tahu Aku sudah menemukan sebuah penemuan nyata atas apa yang kudapatkan

Ah, semakin aku mengulurkan tanganku kepada apa yang kubutuhkan Semakin jauh ia pergi Satu lagi dari hari-hari tidak beraturan itu pergi Aku selalu terburu-buru sambil bersusah payah Penderitaan, datang dari semua pikiranku Penghinaan membawa air mata baru ke pandanganku Semakin aku melangkah maju, semakin susah ia menjadi Bahkan rasa sakit itu diperbarui

Panggilan mengikuti, apa yang kurasakan adalah pergerakan ini Mengikuti pilihanku atas jalan ini yang kujalani Di malam dimana aku berjuang melawan rasa kantuk Aku memegang erat, janji biru di depanku Menghadapi apa yang kau percayai dan untuk terus melakukannya Setiap langkah tidaklah hanya kesenangan saja Tidak yakin jika aku mampu, karena aku sedikit khawatir

Ah, ‘satu garis’ tergambar Setiap ‘satu garis’ tergambar Kehilangan kepercayaan diri, aku sudah menggambar semua halaman yang bisa kugambar Ah, ‘satu kali’ menjadi Setiap ‘satu kali’ menjadi Segera, sebuah akumulasi besar dari kekuatan di dalam dirimu Sekelilingku, aku melihat mereka Membandingkan apa yang kulakukan dengan mereka

Apa yang bisa kulakukan yang tidak dapat orang lain lakukan? Bahkan jika aku tidak memiliki kepercayaan diri, aku melangkah maju

Tertutupi pikiran dan perasaan dari dalam, Asing bagiku, sebuah perasaan yang baru Dan, pada hari dimana aku melangkah untuk pertama kalinya Menghitung bahkan ini, rasa sakit baru yang kurasakan ini pun Menyukai apa yang kupercayai dan menghadapinya memimpinku Ke sentuhan cuplikan sebuah cahaya Akan baik-baik saja, mari kita pergi Yang bisa kulakukan sekarang adalah bersenang-senang

Semuanya kupertaruhkan sembari aku menggambar Menggunakan penggunaan warna yang unik milikku sendiri Setiap fajar, setiap malam, aku akan terus berlari Dan sekarang aku menemukan cahaya biru berkilau pada diriku Menyukai apa yang kau percayai dan menghadapinya juga Dapat tetap terasa menakutkan, tapi kini aku tahu Aku bukan lagi versi-versi diriku yang lama, hidup dalam transparansi Sekarang aku tahu bagaimana menjadi diri baruku yang berharga dan tak tertandingi

Lihat, lihat, apa yang ditutupi jauh di dalam Biarkan kami mendengar suara dari dirimu, dan bergema dalam dirimu, tunggu Berpura-pura tidak akan membuatnya menghilang dari pandangan Ia akan selalu menunggu disana untukmu, masih selalu menunggumu disana untukmu dan Lihat, lihat, apa yang ditutupi jauh di dalam Biarkan kami mendengar suara dari dirimu, dan bergema dalam dirimu, tunggu Berpura-pura tidak akan membuatnya menghilang dari pandangan Ia akan selalu menunggu disana untukmu, masih selalu menunggumu disana untukmu

#english #literature #translation #yoasobi #Blue #gunjou #english to indonesian #practice

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Chapters: 9/? Fandom: Kuroko no Basuke | Kuroko's Basketball Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Aomine Daiki/Kise Ryouta, Kagami Taiga/Kise Ryouta Characters: Kise Ryouta, Aomine Daiki, Kagami Taiga, Knb Characters, Original Characters Additional Tags: Fake/Pretend Relationship, Mutual Pining, Feelings Realization, Inspired by Kdrama MY GIRL, Family Feels, aokise - Freeform, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Alternate Universe, Slow Burn, Meet-Cute, Love Triangles, aokise pretending as cousins, Kise is a toughie Ao is an ass but a softie inside BaeKagami is sweet and softie all the way Summary:

With his father neck-deep in gambling debts, Kise Ryouta is driven to a point where he's willing to do almost anything for money. For what stars have brought him to come across Aomine Daiki, heir to Japan’s largest hotel chain, Kise is determined to make the chance count. But Aomine has an agenda of his own: desperate to fulfill his grandfather’s dying wish, Aomine hires Kise to put on an act and pretend to be his long-lost cousin.

They thought it’s a scheme they can pull off seamlessly, but family and friends and feelings get in the way of their plans.

#aokise #aoki #i finally updated #after a long hiatus #i still love these dorks #and I miss them so much #i miss writing for aoki too #49k words and counting #slowburn for real #screaming to the void

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imnothingbutpoetry · 3 years

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Tall girls love short boys most

Hello everyone!

Today I bring you another little fanfic about our special Haikyuu! libero, Nishinoya!

I hope you all enjoy this writing, and of course constructive comments are always welcomed!

Let's get to the fluff!

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Pairings -> tall female!reader x Nishinoya Yū

Warnings -> Fluffy fluffy fluff

Synopsis -> Tired of searching for tall boys to keep up with her height, y/n ends up encountering love with someone a little short for her.

Words-> 1114

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Tall boys. Big boys. Pretty boys. Why are they all so beau-

"I am never going to date a tall boy again” Murmured a furious and angry-looking girl, speed-walking towards the school cafeteria to meet with her friend “They are all idiots. Big dumbasses, seriously.”

“What are you whispering girl? People are looking weirdly at you, and by people, I mean I am looking weirdly at you.”

“Aoki! You scared me, and hum, it’s nothing. Weren’t you supposed to meet me at the cafeteria, by the way?

“I had to end an assignment, so I had to stay a bit after class. That’s why I’m also walking towards the cafeteria now.” This is y/n’s friend, Aoki, who always has to stay after class to finish assignments because she doesn’t do them in her house. “But, girl, what happened now? It looks like you hate tall boys.”

“I don’t really want to talk about it now,” commented the h/c haired student. “so don’t try to draw what happened out of me.”

“Oh come on, tell me.”

“Okay.”

“Yey! But first, let’s get to the cafeteria, I’m quite hungry.”

With this sentence, the two girls started walking towards the school lunchroom, not knowing that a peculiar boy who listened to their conversation was following them.

“All right! Now we are here, you can’t escape, so tell me everything” Aoki said while jumping up and down in her seat. At this, y/n grabs her shoulders to calm her hyperactive friend.

“I know, I know, but please calm down Aoki!” Shouted the quieter friend, gaining some looks. “People are looking at us.”

“Because you just shouted.”

“That’s not the point, Aoki” y/n stated more quietly this time. “Do you want me to explain what happened, or no?”

“Explain, explain,” Aoki blurted excitedly. She had always liked gossip. “and don’t miss any details.”

The e/c eyed girl looked straight into her friend's face, as Aoki did the same. Then, both girls started chuckling lightly.

“Okay, I’m going to tell you.” started explaining y/n. “After months of going to dates with tall boys, I have arrived at the conclusion that they are all idiots”

“I already knew that, tell me what happened!” Exclaimed Aoki exasperated.

“I was going to do it right now!” Y/n nearly shouted again, this time gaining the attention of the different boy who followed the two friends before, now knowing exactly where the girls were seated.

“Well, as a matter of fact, all tall boys have a fragile masculinity” continued y/n with her story. “when they see a tall girl they like it because they think that they won’t have to crouch a lot to kiss them. And for them that’s okay, but the problem comes when I put on my heels, I’m taller than them, and they feel that their ego has been crushed under piles of make-up.”

“In their defense, I must say that you wear 20 cm/7’87 inches heels while being one of the tallest girls in class.”

“That’s not true, Aoki!” Laughed y/n. “The largest heel I own is 15 cm/5’9 inches. It’s not my fault that when I am taller than some boys they feel that I am too much of a woman for them.”

“You’re too confident and I like it girl,” Commented Aoki. “but if you are not going to date tall boys, then…?

“I think it’s time to change my type of men” At this, Aoki and the boy who is spying on the two girls raised their heads.

“And that means that?”

“I’m only going to date short boys from now on. If it has to be a tall one in the couple, it will be me.”

“Pfft, I mean, really?” y/n’s friend tried to contain her laughter. “I don’t believe you, you always say that tall boys are your ideal type.”

As the two girls continued talking, a boy with a blonde strap of hair, the boy who was putting the ear in their conversation, started walking and advancing towards the friends, with the hope of talking with the h/c haired girl. That boy was Nishinoya, and he has to admit since he saw y/n one day outside the gyms, he fell in love with her. Now, he had the opportunity to get closer to the girl of his dreams.

“Come on, Nishinoya, you need a good first impression, so just walk casually.” Thinks the boy, “Come on, you can-”

“I’m serious Aoki, I’m only going to date short boys. Believe me! ” Nishinoya heard more chuckles from the most petite girl. “Okay, you know what? I swear to god I am going to date the first short boy that crosses my path!”

At this, Nishinoya threw overboard whatever sense of rationality in his body and started sprinting towards the table where the friends were.

“Fuck rationality” Nishinoya ran faster. “I can’t let this opportunity go dow-.”

A loud sound echoed in the cafeteria when the shortest boy in the school crashed against the table where y/n was seated.

“What!?” Shouted y/n and Aoki.

“Hello beautiful” The short player greeted y/n, moving his eyebrows up and down once he raised up on his feet again, dusting his clothes. “I heard that you are going to date the first short boy that you see, and here I am, just 1,59 meters/5’2 feet of pure short masculinity.”

Y/n and Aoki side glanced at each other, and the black-haired girl pushed y/n towards the boy.

“You said it y/n, good luck with your new boyfriend!” Aoki then ran towards the doors and got out of the cafeteria while Nishinoya and the scared, but intrigued girl, watched her go.

“You heard her, pretty tall girl.” Continued the boy, feeling more confident than ever. “I’m Nishinoya Yū, but you can call me love.”

Laughing.

That’s what the player heard: a full session of laughing. Just when he was about to go, and leave the girl to stop his humiliation, a hand on his shoulder stopped him from doing so. He turned around and encountered a happy face.

“A pleasure to meet you Nishinoya. I’m y/n by the way. When are you free to have our first date, love?”

With a smile, Nishinoya couldn't be happier, in fact, he could die now and he will be the happiest person on earth. But we have to say that he will die with a very red face.

And looking at the other side of the couple, y/n thought that maybe, falling in love with a short boy, couldn’t be that bad.

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If you liked this, please look for my other works!

Kageyama x female!reader x Oikawa angst!

I’m not a usual writer, but if someone wants to send a request and give inspiration, feel free to do it!

A fluffy bad day (Fluff drabble with Kenma & Hinata)

Happy Tears (Fluff drabble with Bokuto, Tendō, Lev & Yamaguchi)

Thank you so much for reading!

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korissideblog · 3 years

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Ok! ONE more actor AU post, then I’ll start switching Aito’s quirk <3

(if you have any recommendations for that btw, send an ask lol)

[work in progress!!]

[We need to get this out for next week’s issue. Ichiro’s working on the visuals, you guys make the transcript look nice.]

[yes sir.]

[Aye boss!]

[You got it]

Hello! I’m Kiyoshi Ono, joined here today by none other than Shishio Ramos! Actor in the new series Kimi no Hīrō Akademia!

Hi! [awe! This kid is so sweet] [He’s barely said anything yet] [hush!]

Hi there Ramos! Could you tell us what this new series is going to be about, and who you’re playing?

Oh yeah! Totally! Well- pretty much it’s a highschool for super powered kids, where[nice][Nice!][?][look at the word count!][juveniles]they each can show off their special abilities and train to become pro heroes! Pro being taken literally there- they’re training to become professional heroes! It’s a really fun thing. Ah- and my character is Aito Takao! Takao’s a silly sort of character- kinda like a villain but she’s on the hero’s side in the end. She’s comic relief for when things get too heavy- mostly because she doesn’t care about what’s making everyone else all bummed out [laughter] yeah- she’s a really narcissistic character- but she’s funny so it’s ok.

Yes, my daughter read the manga that inspired Kimi no Hīrō Akademia, and she says that you guys are making a lot of changes- specifically to Takao?

Oh- yeah [laughter] we’re making a couple changes. Takao’s gonna have the same personality and stuff- don’t worry fans- but… you know, we’ll be adjusting a couple things to make Takao an easier role for me to play. He’ll be going by she/him pronouns for one-

She/Him pronouns?

-yeah! Takao’s gonna be genderfluid! For those who don’t know, there’s a ton of different ways to be genderfluid, but the way that I’m gonna portray Takao as- you know, the way I am- pretty much he’s gonna be kinda a little mix of boy and girl? Ah- it’s kinda hard to explain without getting into a lot of different topics, but- pretty much what the audience has to know is that you could refer to Takao with both he/him and she/her pronouns, and his uniform is gonna be both slacks and a skirt! [Ahhh! I just adore Ramos <333] [he’s just explaining gender presentation?][I KNOW!!!]

Alright, good to know! Anything else you think the fans would like to know about changes?

Yes actually! So- in the manga, both Takao’s parents are like, super dead [laughter] but! The writers thought it would be more fun to [nice] [juvenile][JUVENILE!!!] keep Takao’s mother alive, and be kinda ambiguous with his dad. I won’t go too much into it- but I think new and returning fans of the series are really gonna like it!

Perfect! Now, let’s talk more about you

Oh boy-

[laughter] Don’t worry Ramos- I just wanna learn a bit more about behind the scenes stuff. You’re just coming off Good Morning Nakamuras!, how would you describe the transition between Hanta Kobayashi and Aito Takao?

oh lord- [laughter] yeah yeah- there’s a lot of difference between the two. You can see it really prominently in the writing. Good Morning Nakamuras! was a family sitcom, so it was a lot of ‘someone says something’ ‘someone else says something’ ‘Hanta says something either funny or dumb’ and then a laugh track. Sometimes someone else would come after Hanta to carry the joke, but usually it was just that. [awe… I’m gonna miss Good Morning Nakamuras!] [same here, it was my mom’s favorite!] But with Takao, it’s a much faster pace. It’s just ‘someone says something’ and then immediately ‘Takao says something funny or dumb’ and then immediately back to ‘someone else says something’ and then ‘Takao says something funny or dumb.’ I-I don’t know if I’m explaining it well- it’s just that Takao talks all the time and always has something new or witty to say. He’s just a chatter box without a filter and- that’s kinda fun to do- I always get the final word and it’s always gonna get a laugh, you know? [have you guys seen the trailer yet?] [no, but my niece has! She’s really excited to see the premiere!!] [i have. it looks weird, but my brother is excited for it. his favorite is the blonde one i think]

There’s also the problem with the stunts, you know? Like- the worst of it on Nakamuras! was just the parts where I had to jump the fence, and even then it was just every couple of episodes. On KNHA I have to do all these cool fighting moves- and not to mention how deranged Takao is just… naturally [laughter] he’s just a very energetic guy with a fondness for climbing things- and people! Like you have no clue how tall someone is until your boss points at them and is like “hey, go climb them.” And you have to do it! The pro tip I’m gonna give people-climbers: it’s all in the legs [laughter] you just have to get your legs around them and pray that you don’t look as stupid as you feel. God- the worst part is when you’re climbing someone who's the same height as you! Hiroharu’s actor is about my height, and I have to climb him all the damn time. It feels like you’re gonna crush them, you know? Like you just have to be as light as possible and hope and pray that they can support you. And- and I know that he can, you know? Like me and him have the same personal trainer, and Kyo-San doesn’t do “easy” [laughter] I know that he can hold me, there’s just always that fear you know?

Oh definitely- and speaking of Hiroharu’s actor, we know you’re on the lower end of the age spectrum, do you think that affects how you all work together?

Oh no, definitely not! Yeah I’m younger than a lot of my coworkers, but not by much- 19, 20 in June. I mean I’m glad that I’m so young! Like I said- Hiroharu’s actor is about my height, and I’m like 173, and… you know… Hiroharu’s actor is over 21 I think- he sometimes offers to get drinks with us, so he’s definitely 21 and up- and I hear people stop growing after 18…

What? [laughter] What are your tying to say?

Oh my god wait- wait you can’t leave that in! I work with that guy! I can’t call him short in an interview before the show actually starts- ohh no! Oh god!

The average man’s height is 175!

Oh- ah I’m sure- I’m sure that-that’s true- oh my god-

I’m 174!

Oh my god we can’t leave this in! [laughter] oh my god- I’m sorry I just- I come from a tall family so sometimes I forget that- that you know people- oh my god we have to cut this out [laughter] [make sure to remove this bit] [awe! But it’s funny!!] [we’ll literally be sued if we don’t] [you two are no fun :(]

But yeah, age doesn’t really get in the way of things. We’re all good friends on set- especially Hoshizawa’s actor! Him and Shimoda-san are really cool guys, I love hanging out with them!

Shimoda-san? As in Kosuke Shimoda?

Yes! Shimoda-san plays Ikuto Maekawa, and since our characters are such great friends, I’d like to think we are as well! He’s a real fun guy, and I’m excited to work with such a huge talent- everyone- everyone there is so talented and I’m so lucky to be there.

Ah, speaking of talent. While a large portion of the cast is hidden, we have seen some familiar faces in the trailer. We’ve also seen some familiar faces on social media…

Oh my god-

[laughter] you never publicly addressed it, Ramos! Do you want to talk about your fight with Bryce Aoki?

Oh lord… [laughter] everyone’s so dramatic- so it wasn’t a fight- it’s just- ok so we had a little scene together where I would push him out of frame, but he wanted to still be seen and I was fine with that. Choreography is very important to me, so we had a passionate discussion-

Passionate discussion that ended with Aoki getting a black eye?

That- [laughter] that was an accident! I was- so we were practicing by the makeup desks- bad decision I know, but- stop looking at me like that! [laughter] It was just- we’re standing like we would in the scene, and I go to shove him- and- and I’m aiming for his head but- but maybe I accidentally hit his eye - and he absolutely wipes out, like this kid’s on the ground and I’m like “holy sh*t I just punched a kid” you know? [laughter] [she’s like, barely a year older than him…] but! Bryce is a sweetheart, and luckily he’s alright-

He got a black eye! He posted about it!

Oh he! He’s just a bit dramatic! He’s an actor though, it’s our jobs to be a bit looney [laughter]

Alright then, it seems we've run out of time for tonight. Anything you want to say?

Yes! I want to wish everyone a lovely evening! Thank you for the support! -And make sure to watch Kimi No Hīrō Akademia when it comes out this summer!

#Adding little editor’s notes by beloved <3 #knha actor au #knha // kimi no hero academia #bnha oc comback #aito takao

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Tag Yourself, Walls edition

Kill My Mind

would fight anyone for free

actually secretly is a Grand Romantic

went through at least one (1) emo phase

actually is low-key not over that emo phase

loves flowers

knows how to dance

Don’t Let It Break Your Heart

wise friend that everyone goes to for advice

wears soft clothing

loves summer

a bit overstressed constantly

knows how to cook

bikes to school

always singing

Two Of Us

cares about their family a lot

older sibling TM

no particular style of clothing, just whatever they feel like wearing

artistic

a bit shy

overprotective of their friends

We Made It

hype friend

organizes all the plans for their friend group

but also too cool for their friend group

cares a lot about environmental issues

has lots of plans/things they wanna achieve during their life

really just overachiever

diy

makes small gifts for their friends out of nowhere, just because they thought of them

Too Young

not over their ex

looks like they’re mature and have things figured out but they truly don’t

denim jacket

plant mom

likes 80s music and soft ballads

short TM

Walls

always cold

always wearing hoodies

unconventional taste in clothes

can drive

deserves better TM

overshares on social media in some kind of way (twitter/snapchat/whatever kids use these days)

unofficial leader of the friend group

Habit

writes letters/poems to people

always worries about being clingy, but actually everyone loves them

makes nice collages/has a scrapbook/takes pictures/something like this

bakes their feelings away

knows a lot about culture/music/art

Always You

secretly makes tiktoks, and not as in a fan accounts, i mean actual tiktoks

always has a drink in their hand, usually iced coffee

knows about every current trend, doesn’t follow them all but knows about them

very babie

listens to pop but argues that they listen to good pop only

Fearless

shades everyone

very sarcastic

very book smart also

very knowledgeable on political issues

has watched every single movie/tv show

Perfect Now

very tall

actually too tall for their own good

if you don’t know them, you think they’re serious but actually goofs around a lot

has a very nice sense of humour

amazing and sweet

misjudged a lot because they probably have the same wardrobe since 2013 but they’re cool

Defenceless

overtrusts people

the quiet one, they know how to listen to others person that’s why everyone opens up with them

somehow always ends up playing therapist for their friends

is trustworthy so everyone comes up to them

loves indie music or some artists that no one has ever heard of

like cool indie music taste but they don’t flex about it and it’s actually indie not wallows you know

Only The Brave

reads a lot

keeps feelings bottled inside

gay TM

maybe occasionally writes because they have a way with words

the friend group’s most liked member

the one who suffered the most but learned and grew from their past

has coming of age maturity vibes

(Japanese Edition Bonus Tracks) or really just an excuse for me to add more songs

Just Hold On (featuring Steve Aoki)

travels a lot

outdoors person, loves hiking, etc.

actually an Instagram influencer a real one, not like you know who

is always seen with their best friend, never without them

can’t get drunk, no matter how much they drink

Miss You

very sarcastic

does not change their haircut, it is almost like a trademark

has a very cool fashion sense

punk rock child

too punk and cool for you but inside they’re softies

has lots of soft feelings inside and always displays them around friends

always up to try new food

gets drunk very easily

thanks @thechampagnelovers for the help 💗

#louis tomlinson #louis tomlinson tag game #walls #walls tag game #my posts #i can't tag myself as any of these #all of these people are too cool for me #maybe a bit of dlibyh/tou #idk #anyway #I'm gonna shut up now #alcohol mention tw #alcohol tw

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fritae · 3 years

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The Missing Piece:

Chapter 2 - Frustration

Gang leader! AU / Corporate! AU

Characters: Dabi x F/OC

Status: Ongoing

a/n: hey guys! so I'm playing with this idea and I'm not sure if I'm conveying it properly, but I hope you enjoy regardless! this story's really fun to write and I'm excited for what's to come! I'd really appreciate any feedback 🖤 thanks!

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"Call Mr. Tobiro, tell him we're airing a new program next month" Mr. Lane tells me as we hurry through the halls.

I get confused. Didn't we resolve all this new program talk last week? I know the ratings still bother Mr. Lane, but enough to go against the board?"

"Sir, is this-"

"No. I'm not replacing any of the current shows. It'll be during the special programming slot on Saturday," He scowls. "A 2 hour special documentary about the Todoroki corp's amazing work these past few years. You know how popular the company is."

Something about this makes me uneasy. Why would he decide this out of nowhere?

His commands jolt me back to reality. "Make sure he adjusts the schedule and starts airing commercials. I want huge ratings, Ms. Aiko. We don't spend all this money to have another company show us up."

An intern quickly hands me Mr. Lane's morning coffee. I mouth a thank you and follow him to his office.

I place the coffee on his desk as he shouts on. I spot another employee carrying files for Mr. Lane. Her hands shake, as if she's trying to decide whether or not to drop them off now. We lock eyes through the glass and I decide for her.

Not now, I shake my head from behind Mr. Lane. Her eyes widen and she nods before quickly hurrying off.

"Are you listening to me, Ms. Aoki?

"Yes sir. I'll call Mr. Tobiro right away."

I keep a straight face as he shouts for the delay. As soon as I find an opening, I go out to call our corporate lawyer.

---

During lunch break, I head down to the cafeteria. I smile when I spot Aliyah and the crew. We tried to sync our lunch breaks to ensure we had some time together during the day (though we at times have to work through our breaks). It makes work feel less lonely.

"Rina!" She exclaims when I grab the seat beside her.

"We finally have some time together," I laugh before hugging her.

"Those bastards work you like a dog," She grumbles.

"You too," I pick at my salad. "Your hours are worse than mine."

"Yeah but I don't have the boss barking orders at me every second of the day. Rina's the real champ here, guys." She tells the table. The others clap at that, and we all share a laugh through mouths full of food.

As a couple executives make their way past our table, we stand up and smile at them in respect. But watching our smiles fall as soon as they walked away made me feel bitter.

"I hate how they treat us like trash and we still have to smile and kiss up to them." I whisper.

Al nods immediately. "But it's whatever. The more you kiss up, the better they'll pay you."

I don't respond to that.

Instead, I think back to the stranger I met last night.

Then what you want isn't money. You want more. He told me.

But the amount they pay us should be enough that we take whatever they throw at us.

Right? I mean, this is why everyone dreams of working here.

"Oh, by the way did you guys hear?" Aliyah suddenly whispers. "You know that multibillion dollar company uptown? Todoroki Inc.?"

"The one with all those charity projects?"

Todoroki Inc. was a big name in the industry. Their extreme success is known worldwide - but they're really known for their philanthropic branch: including building orphanages for the poor, handing out 6 figure donations, and the famous Boku no Hero Academia - where they train leaders in every industry to become tomorrow's changemakers, or as they call it "heroes."

Aliyah voice gets lower, a mischievous smile on her face.

"Except turns out Mr. Todoroki has been caught up in major lawsuits these past few months."

I frown. "For what?"

"Apparently there's been several child abuse cases at the orphanages he sponsors."

All around the table, our mouths drops. Usually lunchtime gossip involves the newest couples or breakups of the day. But this...

This has severe implications.

I'm not surprised that Al knows this. She interacts most directly with our guests and stars meaning she's in on a lot of industry gossip. But still...a major lawsuit like this?

"Is this real or is it one of your rumors?" Someone asks her suspiciously.

"It's as real as you or me! I saw videos . Trust me. There's plenty of people with beef against the company. Big boss Todoroki spent heavy money to keep it all hush-hush. But word travels quickly." She leans back in her seat with a smug look on her face. "We'll see how much power Enji really has by how quietly this unfolds."

"That's disgusting." I push my salad away, my appetite gone. "He can't get away with something like that. Where's the accountability?"

"There is no accountability, sweetheart. That's the way it works. You got money and power, you can get yourself out of anything. Besides, Enji has a reputation. He's got supporters everywhere, people see him as a hero because of all these charity projects."

"But they don't know what's happening in those projects!"

Suddenly, I remember something.

The special program!

I have to tell Mr. Lane. If this is really what's happening, we can't air something like this. It'll give people a false image of what the company stands for. Charity projects that have no proper supervision and that serve as places of abuse should never be celebrated.

"I- I have to go. I'll see you later Al, good luck with your schedule today!"

"But-"

"Sorry, I just remembered something I have to do."

I can't let her know about the program just yet. If I'm lucky, it hasn't been formalized into our official programming. I need to get to Mr. Lane before it does...

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"Mr. Lane!" I barge into his office.

My boss looks up from his desk, slightly concerned at the look on my face. I slow down to catch my breath.

"Sir, about the Todoroki programming you want to set up. We need to cancel it sir, there's- there's a huge lawsuit going on. The orphanages - the kids are being mistreated sir, please-"

Mr. Lane leans back in his seat.

"Ms. Aoki, relax. That's not your concern. The deal is done."

"Sir...this will give a false image of Mr. Todoroki and his company."

"It's not a false image, it's an alternate image. That's what this whole industry is about. Mr. Todoroki is not responsible for what his managers do. And unless you're speaking with legal authority, I suggest you end this conversation now, Ms. Aoki."

"But sir! A program like this will give people cause to celebrate Todoroki Inc., rather than properly probe into these issues. What about the kids? The victims? Sir, please- this is about more than just-"

"This conversation is over, Ms. Aoki."

I try to think of another argument quickly. What else, what else. What could this nimrod possibly care about.

"But sir!" I say quickly. "If this blows up and becomes public knowledge, what will the people say about our company? It'll be bad for our name, we'll lose the respect we have in the industry, don't you think?"

Mr. Lane lets out a deep sigh. "Ms. Aoki, I know you're smarter than this. If the lawsuits go public..." I get worried by the excitement thrumming behind his eyes. "More people will tune in to watch the program. Everyone will be eager to see the other side. If we play our cards right the ratings will be-"

I scoff.

Mr. Lane stops speaking. The sudden ice in his eyes makes my bones go cold, but for once, I can't back down.

"The ratings?" I almost laugh. "Sir, I'm telling you there's kids being abused due to this man's lack of accountability, and you want to use that for profit? What about the truth? What about justice!"

"To hell with truth and to hell with justice!" He slams his fist. Mr. Lane gets up to tower over me. "I make the decisions here, Ms. Aoki. Your job isn't to advise me or to babble on about bullshit like the truth. This is a broadcasting company, and your job is to maximize profits - that's it! Got it?"

I feel my face grow hot.

"You've been running on thin ice for a while now, Ms. Aoki," His voice gets dangerously low.

I bite my tongue.

"I can assure you that no other company would give you the benefits package we've given you. It seems we've spoiled you, haven't we? That's why you're comfortable running your mouth like this."

"Sir, I-"

"I'll see to it that your salary is adjusted appropriately until you learn your lesson. And I warn you," He says through clenched teeth. "I see any of this behavior again, you'll be asking for much more than a salary reduction, Ms. Aoki. Got it?"

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Emotions I didn't know I could feel bubble within me. Hatred and rage boil deep in my core. But what can I do? What can I do.

I look from left to right. Trying to find something, anything to throw. Anything to take my anger out on. But when I find nothing, I hurry to the edge of Du Monde's roof. My chest heaves with the weight of my anger.

And as I overlook all of Midtown, and the entire city seems to be under me, I scream.

I scream and then I scream again.

I let out every trapped word that's been aching to escape.

All the swear words stuck to the back of my throat for years.

I release it all into the sky, knowing the wind will carry it for miles.

"Fuck you Mr. Lane!" I screech. "You no good fucking bald-headed, stout faced little piece of-"

"Woah!" I hear someone say.

Suddenly, a pair of arms pulls me back by the waist, as if to restrain me.

Of course, this does nothing but infuriate me more.

"Who the fuck- let me go! Let me go before I fucking rip every single finger off your hands and shove them-"

"Easy!" The voice says again, before releasing me on the ground. "Don't stand so close to the edge, idiot. You could fall."

"If I fucking fall, I want everyone to know it's Mr. Lane's fault! Fucking sue NNTV and put the Court verdict over my fucking grave so I know-"

"Hey! Look at me." The headless voice says. "No one's fucking fall-" He lets out an exasperated sigh. "Listen. I need you to calm down."

I scoff. Calm down? Is he telling me to calm down? With clenched teeth, I turn around. Ready to throw all my fury at this intruder. "Who the hell do you think you are? Don't you dare tell me to calm-"

My mouth drops when I lock eyes with the slightly concerned stranger.

With those electrifying blue orbs.

No.

This isn't a stranger.

Not a total stranger at least.

The man I bought coffee for last week at Du Monde stares back at me.

"...down."

A smile plays on his lips. "Hey. So you remember me."

"What..." I let out an annoyed breath, though it's not as angry as it was a moment ago. "...are you doing here?"

A toothpick sticks out of the corner of his mouth. He pulls it out as he ponders over my question. "Well, I was doing business. And then you decided to let all of New York know you were crazy."

I scoff. "You haven't seen crazy." I mumble.

"You got quite the mouth on ya," He smirks. "A little loud..." He tilts his head, as if considering again. "But you're honest."

I cross my arms and look toward the skyline, ignoring the people cautiously watching us from the other side of the glass. They can whisper to themselves about how crazy I am. This is New York. No one will remember this by tomorrow.

"Thanks. Now if you don't mind, I have other crazy things to do. And don't you have a business to run? People to be an ass to?"

The man tilts his head, as though slightly disappointed. But his lips remain curled. "Now come on. I've been hoping to run into you and you want to leave so soon?"

I frown. "Why would you want to run into me? You aren't a creep, are you?" I ask suspiciously.

"Creep?" He shoots me a pointed look. "There you go making a guy regret being nice," He tsks. "I was hoping to pay you back for the coffee."

He still remembers that?

"You know what," I sigh, running a hand through my hair. "Normally I'd say no need. But considering I'm probably gonna be jobless soon, I might just take you up on that."

"Well then," He stands up and offers me a hand. "I don't know how much crazy you still got left in ya so let's go somewhere a little closer to the ground."

#dabi #todoroki touya #dabi fanfic #dabi fic #dabi x female reader #dabi x oc #dabi x reader #dabi angst #dabi fluff #dabi is touya #bnha fics #dabi bnha

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dailytomlinson · 4 years

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How does an artist find himself after leaving the biggest boy band on the planet? He leans into authentic self-expression. “I'm aware that to a certain degree, I'm swimming against the tide,” Louis Tomlinson tells Apple Music. “I've had all this amazing success with One Direction, I realised that I might as well just follow my heart.” And so the English singer-songwriter has: Walls, his solo debut, is electric pop-rock, triumphant in the face of tragedy—he writes with diaristic precision (the balladic ode to his late mother on “Two of Us” and the ’90s Britpop guitars on “Kill My Mind”) and consideration for his most ardent fans (the 1D-channelling “Don’t Let It Break Your Heart” and the life-affirming “Perfect Now”). In this track-by-track guide, Tomlinson opens up about Walls, revealing a side of himself previously undiscovered.

Kill My Mind

“That song was written for two reasons: One, I was listening to the album and it annoyed me that I didn't quite have that moment of excitement, and I think that song definitely evokes excitement. [Two,] it was a bit of a statement of intent. ‘This is where I want to be, this is the space I want to move into.’ But I'm aware that's a transition as well. I wasn't going to put ten ‘Kill my Minds’ on the album, because I don't think that would've been right.”

Don’t Let It Break Your Heart

“Straightway, that chorus reminds me of a big One Direction song. It's got that big, great, hopefully hooky chorus. In terms of concept, it almost sits in the same world as the Steve Aoki song I did, 'Just Hold On'. It's just one of those songs that's trying to promote hope regardless of what life throws at you.”

Two of Us

“I wasn't ready to write that song. The original lyric on the verse was ‘So I'll leave a message after the tone.’ And it always f**king bugs me, listening to it, because there's so much beauty in that song. Then I changed it to ‘So I'm not alone’, and I think that really captures the weight, emotionally, of the song. And that song is probably the most special song that I've ever written.”

We Made It

“I wrote ‘We Made It’ about three years ago, so I had about 20 different mixes. That took a second to get right, and we made it. Listen, I like the song, I like the song. Would I say it's one of my favourites? No, probably not. It was one of the record label’s favourites. So I kind of rolled the dice on that one, really. The strive for authenticity is a constant battle. That's something that I have to be strong on, as often as I can.”

Too Young

“I can remember that feeling of being 18 and meeting the person that you might spend the rest of your life with. We all made mistakes when we're younger, and I just wanted to capture that idea of true honesty. Look, I wasn't ready for that responsibility. And now I reflect, and I'm older, and I can look back with experience. I can see why that was wrong. But at the time, there's a lot of 18-year-olds—especially 18-year-old lads—they're not ready for that responsibility. I wanted to capture that.”

Walls

“We had an amazing moment for this song in London. I went down to record some live strings for ‘Walls’—that was a real f**king breakout moment for me, because there's been times on this album where I've been pretty frustrated and it's been hard to keep with the get-up-and-go because the creative process can get frustrating. But I had this moment, in this massive, amazing studio in London called Angel Studios, watching—I don't know how many people were there, but let's speculate 15, 18 people there for my song. I feel like the live strings on it really give it an extra edge of credibility.”

Habit

“It's got quite a storytelling lyric that I know hardcore One Direction fans will like: There's a line about the place that we all grew up with in the band, and that was an apartment complex called Princess Park. It's like an Easter egg for fans. I'm sure they'll like that.”

Always You

“It’s autobiographical, me making that realisation that it's always been that one person and that no matter what you do or what you see, you miss that person.”

Fearless

“What I wanted to try and capture with the song is the idea of feeling youthful and how important that is. I'm at this age where I'm on the cusp—I'm definitely not a teenager, I'm not a young lad anymore, nor am I old, but I sit in this space where I'm aware of my age now. I hear it as a playground or going back to real youth.”

Perfect Now

“I worked on this with Jamie Scott, who was part of the One Direction writing team. Lyrically, it's kind of an extension of ‘What Makes You Beautiful’, One Direction's first single. It was written quite deliberately as an attempt to write a fan favourite song. There is a long history of people coming out of bands and then talking s**t about that band. I absolutely f**king love One Direction. I love the music. I love the music that we made, the fans, the culture, and everything behind it. There are songs like ‘Kill My Mind’ and ‘Walls’ where I’m trying something different, but of course there’s always room for those [1D-like] songs on the album.”

Defenceless

“I’m trying to be vulnerable and I’m trying to be honest. I’m trying to write as many different feelings as I can. One day you might be feeling great, youthful and amazing, and the next day you might be feeling a little bit down in the dumps. I wanted to capture that.”

Only the Brave

“The crackly sound goes way beyond my production comprehension. The way the guitar was recorded, I don’t know. But what I love about that song is that it feels classic, like going back in time. It’s one of my favourite songs because it doesn’t have a traditional structure. You only really get the chorus once. You haven’t heard a song like that the whole record, and then you get it at the end. There’s something interesting about that.”

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He was signed to Simon Cowell for three years! It's more that his Britpop sound just isn't popular in the US. Oasis weren't very popular there either---- I wish people who don't know anything about louis would stop talking about him on here as it's primarily a blog that discusses Harry, showing as if they were following his career. The other anon is right, louis never sucked up to old powerful men. He talks back. (After one Ds GAY club performance (2011) Simon asked louis to meet him in usa. Louis mentioned later as a solo artist, how sacred he was as a teen to travel alone to a different country only to be scolded by Simon for being too loose in that club performance. I guess he learnt to tackle men like simon and never respected them). Other than that Simon did nothing for louis lol.

When louis was signed with "Simon" syco's majority shares were purchased by sony UK so he was technically under sony UK. His "team", photographers, band for live performances all were hired by sony UK. For jho, louis did promo with Steve Aoki. Bty with bebe. - none of it were exclusively relying on Louis' team and the other artists' team did a lot of work on promo. Bty was at 50 odd on billboard charts and was suddenly removed from everywhere. We used to have requesting parties and radio DJs would say they didn't have access to his song as it was not on all access. For miss you he signed with epic records in USA. They literally quit in the middle of promo because of some people (cough cough sony) louis was not allowed to go to the booked interviews. Michael Jackson said sony kills music, there must be something to it. 2018 he was a judge on x-factor. Signed with Arista as his usa label. He had two interviews + live performances before the release of walls on the eve of release day. That was the extent of his us promo, he left the country within 48 hours.

Finally, louis sound is not brit pop. It's Brit pop inspired. All his songs have a big chorus, building up to the chorus- a character trait of a pop song. Louis talked in detail about the sound he's aiming for and the process of his song writing with zach, watch that if you really want to know what genre his music is. Even for walls we had radio request parties- multiple usa based radio DJs said they don't have access to any of his songs and this girl from Arista was literally DMing the song links radios on twitter if they publicly tweeted about not having Louis' songs. Heck I even got an email from an Arizona based radio dj saying they can't play the song I requested. Radios can't play a licensed song without the permission of the label. In today's age of streaming popularity none of his album songs were on big playlists like tth which these days everyone gets to, atleast for the one release week.

People should be aware of a song to make an opinion if they like it or not, how will they know if there was no attempt to make it known in the first place.

Louis and oasis are different entities from different eras you can't logically compare them. In today's music condition, louis would be very successful in usa and in general, if he were given an opportunity the right way. I don't expect non louis stans to know this or they might say louis chose this and idc, but it's tragically funny as a fan for me to see the general opinions on louis' music and how far away it is from the facts.

Ok ending the Louis conversation cuz as you pointed out, it’s not relevant to this blog.

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Hi, a lot of people have been asking you about Before the Fall but I was wondering if, by any chance, you might have something in your drafts for Portraits of 119th. I just miss this collection a little, haha. So yes, I just wanted to ask! Good luck with everything and I hope the remaining days of this crazy year will be good to you 🍀

Hi! I hope you’re doing well too! This year has been so much. I have an embarrassing amount of Portraits of 119 WIPs in my drafts. Here’s one that centers on the new Polar Star kids (sorry it isn’t finished yet!)

Yukihira Raiden knew that it was rare for his father to ask favors of him, so when the old man called to see if he could check up on a friend’s shop over summer break, he had agreed without hesitation.

“You guys really didn't have to give up your whole break for this,” Raiden reminded his friends for the umpteenth time as they pulled up to the Okinawa beach house great-grandpa Nakiri left him in the will.

“This is way nicer than the beach trip I had planned anyway,” Utau said with a shrug. After receiving murder stares from Maria and Yuna, she backpedaled a bit. “Uh, I mean we're your friends and we have your back and stuff.”

“Thanks, Kawashima,” he said with a grin. “I'm gonna take a look around, but listen, hot tub's out back.”

“You don't have to tell me twice,” Utau sang as she made her way out to the patio. And of course Aoki-senpai was right on her heels.

“Library's upstairs,” he continued.

Yuna nearly gasped. It was said that the late Nakiri Senzaemon held an unprecedented number of rare culinary texts and personal food writing in his private collections. “T-thanks, Yukihira-kun,” she squeaked before mounting the stairs with a wide-eyed Endomoto Kairi behind her.

“So where are we headed?” Sosuke asked when only he and Maria remained.

“Are you sure you don't want to check out the beach or something?” Raiden asked them.

Maria just shrugged. “We can all head to the beach when we’re done with this.”

The shop was a quaint seaside shack, where beach-vacationers and locals alike could walk in for some world class casual faire.

However, despite the throngs of students on the beach and commuters racing home with the evening rush hour, the restaurant was all but deserted when the Totsuki students arrived.

“You kids are early,” the owner chef said as he came around to shake their hands.

“What seems to be the problem?” Maria asked after tasting chef's takoyaki. Everything they’d sampled has been delicious.

“There’s a place up the beach that’s recently come under new management. They cut deals with some of my suppliers to drive up the prices, and brought in some hotshots to revamp their menu.”

“That’s awful,” Maria said. “We’ll do whatever we can to help.”

“Someone’s pumping money into dude’s competition,” Sosuke said as soon as they left the shack. “Probably took one hell of a bribe to turn the vendors.”

“Who had that kind of pull?” Maria questioned, still nibbling on her stick on dango. “Well, besides your people?”

“I guess we’re about to find out.”

#shokugeki no soma #sorina #takumegu #yukihira raiden #maria aldini #ibusaki sosuke #marui yuna #enomoto kairi #aoki ichiro #119th generation #portraits of 119

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saintobio · 3 years

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Aww I'm SO glad they're finally together now but why the heck does this feel so unfamiliar... like miss ate's writing r so deep in angst that anything fluff I'm just like 😳 is this happiness? 💁🏻‍♀️🦋 but why do I get the feeling Suna might not be truly over Sophia... like the ending didnt do much to reassure me that his heart is fully y/n's now... after that chapter it made me think of what Suna said way back in the first chap I think, where he said he was gonna find Sophia and that he would die alongside her... soooo... miss devon aoki died now... and I have a gut feeling Suna gon get ded next but I'm only saying that to jinx myself so it doesn't happen 😔 OH MY DAYS HARU. FCK NO HES ACC GONE. NAH MISTER BESTO FRIENDO HARU IS ACC RIP LIKE NO. lemme find the Z that killed him and just 🤺 but now that Sophia is out of the picture... I feel like Suna gon be... idk... idk why I'm doubting his love for y/n tho like I just wouldn't be too convinced 😔 idk... same as miss y/n I'm scared to trust or in which case love Suna again

AHHHHHHHHWHWBEHODOFOFIEUSHSHWIODIFKFFJJEWOUEHRBROR9EOWHWHODOKKO

would you really not trust rin 🥺 they both lost their past lovers tho and suna will definitely grieve over sophia that’s without a doubt.

#saintobio.asks #series.wastelands

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purplesurveys · 3 years

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What’s your favourite song to sing to? These days it’s Sweet Night by V, but it always changes tbh. I don’t really have an all-time favorite song to sing along to.

What’s your relationship like with your exes? Nonexistent. I’m good at blocking off people and memories like that, no matter how special the relationship had been or how much time we spent together. I don’t feel guilty about it; I actually feel more at peace this way.

What mistake do you find yourself making over and over again? Procrastinating and putting off things I could literally finish in 10 minutes or less. I’ve been better about it, to be fair to myself; but the habit comes out every once in a while and I always end up kicking myself in the ass for not already knowing any better.

What are you afraid to lose? Hmm...probably people, especially my friends. I’ve been starting to think more about this these days. My two best friends are in very good, committed relationships, and I know that one day they’ll have lives and families of their own, maybe even move out of the country. I’m finally acknowledging the fact that maybe I am afraid of getting left behind and ending up alone. Those thoughts make me sad, though, and I hate being stuck in feeling sad, so I try to shake them off and focus on my happiness in the present.

What’s one of the hardest decisions you’ve had to make? Agreeing to break up with Gabie. I never liked admitting defeat, so that was a particularly brutal afternoon.

Have you ever gave up on a love interest as they acted differently around other people? I’ve never been in this situation.

Do you think you’re ready for love? What does love even mean to you? I’m taking a break from it, actually. I was in a relationship that I put a lot of effort in for a long time, and I don’t mind focusing on myself for now especially considering I put myself in the backseat for the entirety of said relationship. I feel no need to jump into another relationship any time soon.

What was the last thing you turned down doing? Angela was showing me some shops that were starting to put up offers for the new BTS Hybe Insight photocards. Those photocards are only being given away to visitors who go to the new Hybe museum, and we didn’t want to technically pirate them, so we both chose not to buy. We can wait till we can travel to South Korea together and get the photocards for ourselves :)

Have you ever fell for someone who was clearly bad for you? Technically...yeah? She eventually ended up being bad for me, but I didn’t know it at the time.

Are you a party animal? No. I like attending parties, but I never want to be the center of attention.

Who are you the biggest fan of? My best friends.

When was the last time someone really let you down? I haven’t felt that disappointed in anyone in a while.

What song can you not help but dance to? Mic Drop.

You’re DJ for the night - first track to get everyone going? ...Now that I mentioned it, Mic Drop. The Steve Aoki remix in particular. Sorry folks, y’all are getting K-Pop tonight.

Have you ever been too scared to tell someone how you felt about them? Yes.

Where do you feel the most inspired and creative? Erm, never? I never feel creative. But when it comes to being inspired, I usually feel it when I have one-on-one talks with Bea. She schedules a brief talk with me once every few months just to catch up and ask me how I’m doing, work-wise and growth-wise. I find that it really helps and I always exit the call wanting to perform better at work.

Have you ever been hit on by a pushy person? No.

When’s the last time you met someone for a coffee? I’ve never done that.

Describe the ideal man or woman for you: Kim Taehyung. That man is doing a stupid great job ruining everyone else for me.

What place in nature would you love to visit one day? Somewhere with auroras.

What accent do you find attractive? Like I’ve said on previous answers, I like Florence Pugh’s accent, whatever it is. I could listen to it all day.

What do you think you’re really good at? I’ve always loved writing and I’m pretty confident in my skills.

Do you have something you’d like to tell someone right now? I know Jo is going through a breakup and I want to reach out and share a few reassuring words, but I’m not very good at that kind of stuff. And since she isn’t initiating, it might mean she wants her own space for now too.

Have you ever had feelings for a friends partner? Never.

What career would you love to pursue: I’m more than okay with my current field. But had things turned out differently, I’d most likely be taking up law.

What was the biggest lies you’ve told? I never like lying so I try to make the ones I make as trivial as possible.

How can you tell if someone loves you? Idk for the most part I believe people have different love languages, so expression is always different for everyone. I don’t wait for people to act a certain way for me to deduce that they love me.

What’s one of your fondest memories? Front row at a Paramore concert, 2017. I went alone and danced without a care in the world and sang along to every song, and it was one of the nicest couple hours of my life.

What’s your favourite thing to do that doesn’t cost much? Taking surveys is literally free.

What do you feel unnecessarily judged for? I feel like I would be judged for having an entire blog just for surveys, which is exactly why I don’t share about this hobby with anyone. Not even my ex knew about it until much later on in our relationship.

What are you proud of yourself for? Still being here is a big thing.

What relaxes you after a busy day? As is pretty obvious already at this point, BTS. I like looking for funny compilations or interviews of theirs to watch to de-stress.

Have you ever known someone who suffered from drug addiction? Nope. Not that I know of, at least.

Why did your last relationship end? She wasn’t in it anymore.

Who do you have a crush on? Taehyung :/

When was the last time you stayed up all night? I was up until 4 AM earlier, if that counts. I don’t really do entire all-nighters anymore; latest I can do is either 4 or 5 AM.

Have you ever been someone’s rebound? No.

What would you fight LTR for the right to do? I don’t know what that is or who they are.

When did you last apologise? What was it for and was it accepted? Some work stuff came up today and it was something I needed to ask my manager about, so I had to message her. I apologized profusely before and after my main message since it’s a weekend and I HATE making my co-workers think about work on weekends, but the matter was a little urgent and it couldn’t wait. But eventually the thing got sorted out, so I followed up with a message asking her to disregard my question, and I sent her a heart GIF as well.

Have you ever been to Cuba? I haven’t, but I’d like to visit.

What do you feel positive about? That I am most likely ordering Frankie’s tonight because I’m having a serious craving for spicy Korean wings that I can’t ignore anymore.

Do you know any Spanish? I’ve retained the words, sentences, and verb tenses I was able to learn when I was still training on Duolingo; and Filipino has a lot of Spanish influences, so I wouldn’t say I’m completely unfamiliar with Spanish. I wouldn’t be able to last a conversation, though.

If you could go on a road trip now, where’s you go? Continued from this morning. I’d probably just go back to Tagaytay. La Union could be a great road trip spot as well.

When in danger are you more fight or flight? Flight. What makes you irrationally angry? When people speak excessive Taglish, especially in a work setting. Most Filipinos are fluent in both, so I’d wish they’d pick one and stick to it. I find code-switching pretty unprofessional for the most part.

Do you feel self conscious about a certain body part? Sure.

Is there someone you’ll always be there for? If so, who? My best friends.

Have you been accused of being manipulative? Gab probably did a few times, but I barely remember those memories anymore.

What’s the most romantic thing someone has done for you? I literally can’t remember anymore.

What or who do you miss from your childhood? The ability to be carefree and the greater space to make mistakes.

Do you miss late night calls with a certain somrone? No, I hate calls.

What would you like to do again some time? Be able to go back to coffee shops.

What’s your least favourite season? Summer.

Do you know someone who’s ridiculously arrogant and entitled? A lot of boomers and older Gen X-ers.

Have you ever considered violence to solve your problem? No.

Who’s the best dancer you know? That I know in real life? Aubrey. Overall, Park Jimin.

What’s the best bit of advice you’ve received? I can’t seem to remember the exact same quote they gave me, but it was Andi telling me a few months ago not to rush my healing so I can avoid potentially harming myself in the process.

How good a swimmer are you? Not very good. I just like swimming leisurely.

What’s your favourite baby animal? Puppies and baby elephants.

What’s the best compliment you have received? It’s always nice to be told I’m strong.

What’s your favourite gemstone? Don’t have one.

Do you bounce back well when things go wrong or does it take a while? It takes a while, but I always get there eventually.

What’s an underrated colour/shade you really like? Not sure; the colors I tend to lean towards I think are pretty popular choices.

What insult or label would hurt you the most to recieve? Being told I’m useless or a burden.

How often do you notice the attractiveness of strangers? I rarely find strangers attractive.

Are you good at hiding your emotions? No, I practically wear them on my face.

Are you romantic? More than I’d like to admit.

#survey #surveys

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