#i need a car

[naffeclipse]

Update on the whole stolen car situation but the police still haven't given any updates and insurance is taking a long, long time. I'm checking out a few cars that I might be able to afford today so wish me luck

#this is so stressful but i'm being so brave about it lasjfdlasf #i need a car #i'm sure my poor car is chopped and stripped #naff nuh huh

[squeeze-lemons-in-my-eyes]

In case you're wondering, carrying a human-sized duffle bag containing tarp and a spade on the bus felt considerably more suspicious than just carrying a spade in plain sight...

#i didnt want to look sus just... carrying a spade #so i bought a gigantic bag to put it in #(i can fit in this bag) #turns out #i feel more suspicious this way #i need a car #THIS IS FOR MY ALLOTMENT BY THE WAY #im not hiding a body #i swear

[jellybracelet]

Buying a car here is literally impossible. I'm gonna have a hernia

#to buy a car here you need a north carolina driver's license #to switch your license to a north Carolina license you need car insurance (what the hell?) #to get car insurance you need a car (😭) #so you have to get this non-owner insurance apparently #which they do not sell online and it is after hours #this is the stupidest thing I've ever heard of #after ten years i finally got my license and now this #i should just fly to NY right now and but a car and then drive it back #i need a car #like literally I can't go to the store #or have any social life

[newtness532]

our food took over an hour to come so i didn't have time to eat and i had to take the long way home

#i need a car #or preferably someone with a car to drive me around (for free) #we ordered at 8:40 and it said it would come at 9:40-9:50 but it came at 10:10 #im so hungry #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[woestruckalex]

can't believe i got myself in a situationship

#someone please help #i need a car #i need to flee #i need to change identity and never come back ever

[sleepyghosty]

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not sure why i just love how this gives me a clear picture on how to break things down. i’ve been struggling with life and wanting to go back to school i needed to see something broken down

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#school #why is life hard #i need a car

[vvitchgender]

GOD I hate traveling I hate people I hate departure times I hate stations public transport is a gift to humankind but for me it is lowkey torture.

#i need a car #so i dont have to deal with all this if nothing else #it speaks

[charliesopus]

Hello everyone; bear with me.

I’ve been absent for a while and in a very terrible mental place. The darkness is all consuming and I somehow manage to drag myself out always - I have a 6 year old who needs me and I can’t let myself fall away completely - yet the darkness always, always stinks it’s claws back in. It’s coming more and more frequently lately and it’s getting harder and harder to pull myself out of every time. My resolve is crumbling.

After an explosive mental breakdown the other day, I decided I couldn’t put off making this any longer. I tried and tried to find solutions within my abilities and limitations but unfortunately there’s just no end in sight.

So I’ve had to put my shame and embarrassment to the side and I’ve poured my heart and pain out into this and shared my story. It’s not comprehensive; there are things I still can’t put out there. But I desperately need help, even if I have to put myself in this uncomfortable, vulnerable position to ask for it. I cannot live like this anymore. It’s long; I have included a TL;DR but I felt people deserved the opportunity to look into my life and for me to be as transparent as I can be without causing further detriment to myself.

I know the world is suffering these days but if anyone is kind and generous enough to read, share or donate; I’d be eternally grateful. I’m always open for questions. Thank you for your time 🫶

https://gofund.me/d5bea433

#gofundme #depression #mental health help #donations #this is a cry for help #help please #trying my best #i can’t anymore #help my poor soul #help my sanity #mental heath support #mental breakdown #change my life #need change #i need a car #i can’t #i can’t win #can’t cope #i’m sorry #i’m so lonely #i’m a good person #i just need help #blessings #crowdfunding #i’ll add more later #i’ll add tags later

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

#warm up #writeblr #this one has bothered me for a bit #any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime #hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying #as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing #like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts #why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge #''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it #ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace #if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!! #men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible #ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing #the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....

[boyfeminism]

i kinda wanna go on a lil walk after work but the logistics of it are so frustrating like. i get off work at 4 and sunset is at 5:30. my options are to like. get dropped off at the trail and walk it still binding with my uniform on holding my backpack and lunch box still which sucks. the other option is get a ride Home (10 min and if from a coworker, 20 min and $15 if uber putting me home at 4:20) get changed (4:10) and go back to the trail. its a 10 min bike ride to the trail head (4:20), and then id have to figure out what to do with my bike while i walked the trail. i could also get a ride from my house to the trail (15 min and $10, 4:15ish) but that feels like a waste of money. its a 40 min walk to the trail (4:50) but then i have to also walk the trail and walk home after walking all day at work. and to be fair biking home and walking home are about the same bc its a very steep incline home which i have to walk most of the way up anyways. but thats like a 20 min trail walk (5:10) and then getting home pretty close to sunset.

#speaking #i need a car #i think i am gonna go home change and bike down

[returntothesoup]

the wind has been HOWLING for days i don’t want to walk to work

#it’s cold and my body hurts #I need a car #I literally can’t handle this for much longer #it’s been months

[squidsmeister]

dungeon meshi is my favorite road-trip comedy film

#dungeon meshi #my art #laios thorden #senshi #marcille #chilchuck #chilchack #izatsumi #laois #laius thorden #sorry guys I don’t know which spelling is correct here #chilchucks car is a beat up beige Honda civic #laois never got a license because even though he’s actually a good driver he just never cared enough to do it #plus he wants to travel in some wacky way. like on a five person tandem bicycle or some shit #marcille never got a license because just fucking look at her #plus she gets motion sick in cars. she just would #senshi walks everywhere and has no need for cars #izatsumi just learned what a car was two days ago and she’s pissed that chilchuck doesn’t have a lambo #chilchuck doesn’t have time for any of this. he has to get his daughter to soccer practice at 5

[pangur-and-grim]

cars need to stop testing me. I have no problem with kicking a car. I love kicking a car. if you honk at me for walking too slowly across an intersection, I will kick your car. please instigate something because I have so much stress that could be relieved by kicking your car with my fragile meat legs

#spoiler: it drove away before I could kick it #saddest moment of my life #they can always tell that I want to kick their car #and so they speed up and leave. #you stupid fuckers. let me kick your car. I need to kick it

[drowningferret-x]

No one told me finding a car to buy would be harder than the actual license test! I JUST WANT A CAR TO DRIVE TO AND FROM WORK.

#i need a car #carshopping #this stinks

[splooshsplooshwatersploosh]

After hours in the car with my sisters and getting to choose my own music and shit? MAN I WANNA HAVE MY OWN CAR thats so chill

#i need a car #gimme #please i need it

[woestruckalex]

I need to have my driver's license

#i'm genuinely doomed if i can't get away soon #i need a car #and i need to flee