#i wish youd talk to me

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[cordeliawhohung]

crying while sitting on the curb of a semi public place in the middle of the night and having a complete stranger offer me a hug no questions asked wouldn't fix me, but i think it would be enough for now

i guess there's something endearing about receiving kindness from someone who knows you will never be able to return it.

#core talks #i swear i still see your face in everyone i pass by #i painted for the first time in a good year #its bad and terrible #but if you were here i know youd say you like the mountains #i always knew what you were going to say before you did after all #i wish you taught me how to fight as well as you did #i mean - you had to have known you wouldnt be with me forever

[snixx]

Do you have someone you talk to everyday? Except family

anon why are you trying to give me an existential crisis in the middle of the day:') also. bold of you to assume i talk to my family every day jsfhdkjghjk

#EVERY day every day? idts. i do not talk to my college friends at ALL when im home over the weekends #except rarely when they text me about assignments #but i guess i talk to them every day during the working week cause i meet them every day #i guess i talk to certain mutuals pretty much every day. i think ive talked to phobicule almost every day this week #shoutout to hana and rafaela i think the past couple months ive been talking to them pretty much every day #i USED to have someone id talk to every single day even when we hadnt lived in the same city since elementary school but #that's a different story. she sucks #and i dont think we've been friends let alone best friends in like eight months now #and there were a couple of other people id talk to every day and we still do talk and i still love them as much obviously #but im just constantly drained and overworked so not EVERY day #and there are some people i wish i could talk to more but somehow have even less time and energy than i do #but i dont think we're any less close than we used to be because of that. life's just hectic we're still a call away #anon (derogatory) #<- sorry:') #im assuming you saw my college post and i dont really get why youd send this lol

[honeyboyfelix]

anyone else ever have someone confess to them and its always like "you changed my life and made me a better person" or... just me...

#if i had a fucking nickel #meanwhile im just vibing over here like :) i wish youd leave me alone :) #its always the weird dudes that do this shit to me i swear #like my guy my dude my man we havent talked in 5 years you dont know me at all anymore pls

[littlekingbergara]

i love coming back to work after two days off and seeing nothing has been done by the person who claims she's the only person who does anything and she's getting tired of it.

#oil and vinegar samples havent been changed and jewelry cases havent been cleaned and the phone wasnt even hung up #7 work days left after today and then i move and am Unemployed 🥲✌🏼 #wish i could be around to see how badly things go in the weeks after im gone :) #like idk babe if you think you do everything and you care about your parents' business so much maybe youd uh. prove that. #and ofc the bosses are being childish and not talking to the employee their daughter is scapegoating for everything. #talking to me instead like we're in middle school and i Doubt believing me when i tell them un actually shes good at her job. #and i know shes good at her job because i trained her! and worked with her every day before your kid came back! #maybeee if things only go bad and people only complain when your kid is here. she might be the problem. everyone working for you shouldnt #Dread working with one employee. #Dread working with one employee and then that employee (who is only here for 3 months) be the one you believe for everything. #the jewelry store is a very easy job. we have four responsibilities. your baby cant handle that? #then why is she here. #ri.txt

[munamania]

i feel the need to state that this is not about kickin it lmfaoo but i desperately think we need to have conversations and perhaps do some readings about how media can be extremely queer even if its not technically 'canonically' gay... it's getting dire out here and some of u are boring as hell and wrong and im tired of seeing it

#and many times esp in the case of comedies they can work on several levels to work for multiple audiences. simultaneously #should not egregiously detract from your enjoyment and to like. actively rate movies or shows etc awfully bc theyre not 'canon.' you ARE #stupid. to me<3 #abby talks #i wish some of u could have been in scully's classes w me just cause youd love her. and then other people... u desperately need #some whacky mentor to help u see the beauty in the world.. #most recent examples i can think of are all the reviews i saw of shes the man on letterboxd. u idiots there are so many ways #and moments to view in a queer way. DELIBERATELY. in a fun way! #it's a learning curve i know some of us were born to understand this but i urge u to expand ur mind

[steaksex]

its probably gonna b some sort of emo dog boy loll :3 i like the idea of him being breeding stock or just kept in a lab in general and just ~happens~ to frequently end up in vulnerable positions with his boycunt exposed for everyone to use :3 -🐾

YAYYYYY YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YAHOOOOOOOOO YIPPIEEEEEEEEEE ouhhhh pleaaase keep me updated... i may be able to make a guy to interact!!! someone sleazy who gets to take full advantage of free puppycunt, something like that... ouuuuuu I LOVEEEEE SLUTTY CHARACTERS YAYYYYYYYY JUMPS UP AND DOWN !!!!!!

#raunchy rabble #🐾 anon #ohhhhh i know its just a funny sex oc but um blinks and flutters my pretty little eyelashes #if you should wish i would lvoe to chat more about it so if youd like you can shoot me a message!!! #and we can either talk about it on tumblr if youd like or maybe on discord #sorry i hope im not crossing boundaries but ouuuu I LOVE OCS AND I LOVE SEX!!!!!!!!!!!! #and itd be fun to imagine all my established characters also getting to fuck an emo puppyboy AND make a new one whos custom made for that #but also no pressure if you do not want to do that of course!!!!!!

[prescienceofdawn]

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#cant believe itll have been seven years tomorrow #youve been on my mind so much lately #last time i saw you was the protest after the election #i wish we’d gotten more time #i wish you were here fighting with us #i wish so many things #i wish youd had the chance to go to college to fall in love again to try out new recipes to complain about traffic to listen to new music #to see your sister grow up to see everything all of it #selfishly i wish you wouldve been down to spend more time with me if youd lived. wish i couldve explained why i got distant from the group #wish i couldve explained how badly i wanted to keep talking to you and why i couldnt #i wish you couldve gone to the equity meeting i wish we couldve cried together wish we couldve bitched together #i wish so many things were different #i wonder what youd think of me now. what youd think of all of us. i wonder if you’re watching #i wonder if ill get to see you again when i die #sometimes i think i see you at work at the grocery store on the sidewalk and for a second i think maybe somehow its you #i wonder if youd come back if you could or if youd still choose death #did your pain die with you or did it follow you? i hope youre happier wherever you are #i hope your rest is so profound it outshines everything that was killing you i hope you know no one ever forgot you #i hope you know how much they all still love you how much i still care for you even though we didnt get much time together

[gaygayaurel]

i finally understand what got fans went hrough when i watched fiona and cake (spoilers in tags)

#.......... “maybe if we went with bettys idea i wouldnt have found the crown” and youd die in explosion. like #events of star would happen. like did we forget that #painting simon as evil and uncaring for not noticing a social cue and betty not communicating her wants................ like.......ok <3333 #she literally had to fucking kick him out of golb to make the wish too like what was he supposed to fucking do #as autistic person who doesnt catch exactly what person i know and even people i love want to do seeing simon be seen as selfish for that i #it was meant to follow from temple of mars but did it in shittiest way possible jnewjnjnejn #and its not even that tbh its the whole. ending. its so unsatisfying. #cake not wanting to stay a cat? unfulfilled #just magically solved #some guys showed up in the new world but most did nothing in fight like what #but cake will not be satisfied shes magic but she wont ever go ona dventures and do stuff. #SIMON DIDNT EVEN FUCKING TALK TO MARCY IN EPILOGUE)7 #the way it flipped from simons god i was soooo selfish to btw i dont want to kill myself anymore was so unnatural #i was so into 1-8 and then they just. forgot to write it. efjmj #the complete pivot from simon being like wow i need to destroy myself to save other people!!!!!! to btw you were selfish <3 #people will say i dont read if they see this i dont care <3 i can actually but to me this was so stupid and forced #happy for gumlee. i was so mad abt lack of mlm stuff recently so they were nice but like

[lil-kozy-kollector]

i haven't been able to read your medical posts bc i hav medical stuff blocked (it's triggering for me), but i hope you're ok n you feel better vewy soon!!💕💕💕(hugs!) /p

AAA thank you so much friend!! I actually am feeling TONS better, and while I'm kinda nervous about my future (probably just being paranoid), I'm sure all will turn out well and I'll be able to live happier and mroe carefully!

Super sweet to ask..thank you lots...;w; 🙏💗

#sniff...its like seriously super sweet to send me this ask..like really #this means more to me than youd think #i really wish i had more energy to talk to you more but ive always got so much on my mind and in my head #so im super glad people can be ok with a buddy not being that talkative #hope youve been having a good time!!🌟 #ember answers

[betawooper]

me: dude why am i so adamant at referring to yjh as a woman

me: i mean im still gonna do it but this is way stronger than i felt about any other character i transfem-beamed

me: weird, i aint gonna question it though

(like 7 months later)

me and the yjh introject living in my brain judging every fucking orv post we+ see: this is not the conclusion i was thinking of at all but okay-

#if you wanted the secret to the success of my transfem yjh au fic #here it is i guess???? #you wish i was just making this up but nah #i also thought i was transfem for a hot minute bc of her despite it making NO sense #like way to exert passive influence #theres a lot more headmates in here but just felt like yjh is particularly relevant #oh yeah she does not like the nickname i gave her throughout that whole 7 month period LMAO #hence me changing fully to the acronym #i would say you can say hi to her thru asks but shes very picky with who she talks to #youd have a better chance if you prompt a more in depth or productive conversation though just a tip #sauce reads orv #god i havent made personal posts in a hot minute i forgot if i used a tag #text #idk if thats right but whatever

[skoulsons]

if y’all want something depressing to think about on this fine night bc i have since relapsed in to this headcanon for the upteenth time and I need to post it to get it out of my system. this is not happy whatsoever.

Think about Joel getting bit. Or him losing too much blood in that basement and dying down there. Or bit and losing too much blood in that basement. And Ellie is the one to put him down so he doesn’t turn. Think about their goodbye, what it would be full of. It hasn’t even been a day since Ellie said she’d “like to try” to forgive him. They haven’t even had time to rekindle their relationship. So much has gone unsaid. Maybe she forgives him now. Maybe she tells him she loves him. Maybe he does. Maybe he tries to tell her, which proves to be impossible, just how deep and profoundly he loves her; how much he cares about her and all he wants is for her to be safe. How he needs to get this out, needs her to hear it before he’s gone. He needs to give her these words to rely on. Maybe Ellie props him up against the wall so she can sit next to him. Maybe she holds his hand or cleans his face so she can see his eyes better. Maybe they recount her 16th birthday or some small, blissful moments in their life. Just them, content. Moments they both think back to and wish it was still that way. Maybe Joel gives her his watch before he’s gone. Maybe she lays her head in his lap (where it’s not in excruciating pain) and he’s able to smooth her hair over, one last time. Maybe she tells him she forgives him. Maybe they talk about the hospital. Maybe it’s complete and utter silence except for their crying. Maybe they just can’t get the words out, but their eyes say enough. How close she sits next to him, how tight they hold each other’s hand. Maybe, similar to Lee and Clem, Joel has to tell Ellie she has to put him down so he doesn’t turn. Because he doesn’t want to turn. Because he doesn’t want Ellie to see him like that. Because he doesn’t want her to experience him as a runner. Doesn’t want her to look in to the eyes of a too far gone joel and have to stare him in the eye as she shoots him in the head. Maybe she tries to wake Tommy up every way she knows how so he can say goodbye, too. So the brothers can have time to recount their life, young and adult. To say goodbye. Maybe Joel gets to kiss Ellie’s head one last time. Maybe he gives her that all-too-recognizable smile before she fires the gun. That smile he gave her when she’d run to Joel, practically bouncing up and down to tell him some cool fact she just found out. Or how she sniped some stragglers on her patrol. Or how she learned a new tune on guitar and wanted to play it for him. Or when Ellie was just happy. Maybe she had a good conversation with Dina. Maybe a day was just exceptionally good. That smile from him always came at seeing her beam. Seeing her eyes light up like a kid watching fireworks for the first time. How she’d get so giddy, or when the joy was practically radiating off her in waves that he couldn’t even help the smile. Or even when one of them would leave for patrol or go out riding. Or even just go across town to do some work or hang out with other community members. A smile, she now realizes, was pure, unbridled love from him. And now he gives it one last time to her, right before she fires. A smile she knows she’ll never see again, though she thinks to burn this last one in to her head so she can sketch it down later. Just in case. He gives it one last time, hoping she catches the extent of what he’s trying to say. What he wishes he did tell her every day they were together. After every goodnight and goodbye. The first response said the second either one of them stepped through the door. Something to say randomly throughout the day, just as a reminder. Something to say before going in to something dangerous. Something to say after an argument, despite how hurt she was, to show her it would never change, especially not over an argument. Something that should’ve been said after movies nights, sappy conversations, or nightmares. Something that was understood, but never verbalized. Something he should’ve said to her at any other point in their journey, but instead it comes out at the end of theirs. Their forever separation, now bound only by their memories

And one sentence.

I love you, forever

did I have interstellar on the brain while thinking about this? yes, hence the forever. i wish I was capable of writing something happy when it comes to them BUT I GUESS NOT

#im not capable of being happy about them #there’s even worse sad things in my drafts that I’m afraid to post #if you all could see the thoughts that run rampant in my mind over them #youd run for your life #also if it hasn’t been made clear #i am sick in the head #but also #im obsessed with the idea of there being a verbalized I love you between them #PLATONICALLY ! #i just wish we got one :( #i mean actions are better and I have a whole draft on that I’ll post soon #but there’s something so special about actually saying it #and I really wish we got it #you will definitely see more of me talking about their love #FATHER DAUGHTER LOVE #in the future #the last of us #joel miller #ellie williams #dont ship them.

[angelicstalker]

Are we ever going to actually talk again?

#i just wish you missed me #even a bit #i wish we could talk #genuinely about things #i know youre done #youre moving on #youre done with me #i guess i should start moving on too #but i just cant #i cant #im so fucking pathetic #i wish youd read these #i wish youd tell me you still had aome kind of feelings for me #i wish i could hear you tell me you loved me again even if you didnt mean it #i cant believe how stupid i am #you probably dont think of me at all #im so easily forgettable #and im stupid #the things i say never make aense #im a fucking failure #mine #im just gonna try to stop bothering you. #i think everything i say makes you annoyed at me #and im stupid and cant figure out the right things to say #im sorry ollie #i miss you #im sorry for ruining everything #we would have celebrated our 5 years together in 5 days #i cant believe ive lost you

[killjoy-prince]

I sometimes confuse words that are spelled or sound similar but are completely different words. One set of words I tend to confuse are "almost" and "also". So one day, I was walking home and I was crossing the street when a bus came driving towards me and almost came close to hitting me. Luckily, it stopped inches from my body. Thankful that I didn't just die, I finish crossing the street, go to the group chat and tell my friends "I almost got hit by a bus".

A few minutes later, my notifications are going off, asking if I'm okay and sounding really worried. More worried than I expected from saying I almost got hit. A little confused by this, I check my message again and I see that I actually wrote

"I also got hit by a bus"

and that's why proofreading is important

#prince's talk tag #yes i had the right of way. i was at the crosswalk and the light was green for me. sometimes the drivers in the city are just like that(tm) #youd think i learned my lesson but i still get these words confused and other ones as well #not intentionally its like my mind thinks one word but hands type a different one #and i just assume that i wrote the right word #if i did the same thing in this post imma laugh #what spurred this on was i wrote 'wish' instead of 'which' in a tag of a post i recently reblogged #and seeing the error it brought this memory back #i had to correct myself once i saw the error saying that i was fine and meant to say almost #and that i dont think id be in the gc if id just got hit by a bus

[austyntistic]

right now mary by alex g, under my umbrella by incubus, echo by incubus, and nothing else matters by metallica are all overlapping stuck in my head playing at the same time and it is a horrible concoction my brain is melting

#austyn talks #music autism make it STOP #wish youd show me dear something i cant see something infinitely interesting #then mary is the girl that leaves you to rot she says i am real and you are not #and then THESE EYES ARE NOT YOUR EYES AND THESE EYES ARENG THE COLOR THAT YOUR ARID EYES MIGHT BE NO IWASNOT AROUND WHEN THOSE EYES OF YOURS #and then never opened ourself this wayyyy life is ours WE LIVE IT OUR WAY all these words i dont just say…. and NOTHING ELSE MATTERS #on loop. over and over.

[hollypies]

:D!! That tag's perfectly fine! !!! We'll start postin stuff then! Some sky characters are gonna have to be posted later because... still workin on refs :O The reef is so pretty!!!! The evil laugh emote, too... <3

We think we scared our veteran friends a little (one's been playing since beta, the other's been playing since... not sure when but a WHILE but they took a big break) because we've been playing for less than two weeks but already have.... both chibi mask AND firework rod >:D got 12 hearts in one day yesterday...

Oooooo!!!! The firework rod!!!! Eeee!!!! I still don't have that one!!! Im saving up for the pink cloak!

I'm so so glad you all are having fun!! If you want I can send a QR code and we can be friends! The Days of Summer is coming up and I could get the Seashell Cosmetic for you!!! Only if you're comfy! (Also my phone can't read QR codes for some reason it's so weird lol!)

And Im excited to see the ocs!!!! Hehehe!!

And wow 12 hearts in one day??? That's! So awesome!!!!! Thats so so cool I only get maybe three a day from friends hehe!

OHOJ OK UHM !!! So my friend showed me this recently apparently in Sanctuary Isles theres!! And underwater area !! With a big turtle!!!!! Its over by the lone islands ,the one with the winged light on top and the friendly crabs!! Its a that area its so!! It's so cool javshdjjdhd!!

#holly answers #blu'sorbs! #hiii hi hi!!! mwah! #im very excited today!! #and again dont feel pressured to . be my friend in Sky! #besides i tend to get nervous playing with friends sometimes! so dont feel ! pressured skgdhe #also sorry for typos my hands are alwasy shaking these days and its kinda scaring me #anway!! days of summer is coming next month!! #and like i said i could get the seashell cosmetic for yall if !!! thats something youd all be ok with ^^ #i alwasy get excited when i see you in. my notes :) #like!! i just like talking about sky with yall!! #jahhahajnannbvjhmmnnm hehe! #happy stimmin !! #and the evil laugh emote... man!! i wish id been around for that season! #the upgraded form has evil fire!!!!