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so-youre-unattached-like-me · 2 years

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Development Under Baskerville's Skin; Bring a Map, Shoot the Dog

+I don't know if this has been mentioned before or not. Go on and enjoy then, I think?:)

The Map

In THoB, when John is reading the map, Sherlock stands in a higher place but doesn't know about their location on the map.

Being conscious of things doesn't mean you understand them, I believe.

Sherlock views a big picture; he sees what is next to what, not knowing why they are there, not knowing about some parts' identity. He is almost unable to find the way.

John, on the other hand, has the map. "He sees the WAY", he has the power to zoom on each part and guide Sherlock into them. He is aware of their past, their future, and their destination. In contrast with Sherlock, he doesn't know about the bigger picture; he can see the little steps, and the different ways. Though he is not aware of the storyline's aim.

Now, it is about their knowledge of their relationship, and relationships in general. John is familiar with romantic and sexual relationships, and Sherlock sees the aim - love/sex - but doesn't know about the steps, and ways.

We know how small objects like phones can resemble abstract ideas, right? Special places are just the same. [For instance, I refer to this meta about The Gherkin (X) from @i-read-your-writing-upside-down ]

The Minefield.

Sherlock asks about it, "what's that?" John zooms, sees the warning signs, and recognizes, " A minefield?" He tells Sherlock.

So if the whole map scene is about their role and status in their relationship, Minefield, I assume, is the queer nature of it. Sherlock notices. (He is not sexually oblivious at all( ASIP, ASiB mostly, and JIM MORIARTY) )

John is FAMILIAR with this danger. Being queer. His sister, remember? Also, we expect him to be dealing with his sexuality crisis, keep in mind.

He sees danger, he sees a minefield, "made because they(army base) have always been keen to keep people out." And if we analogize the army base to John's deep desires in their relationship, it starts to make sense.

No one from the outside exactly knows what's going on in the army base.

John is interested in him, he grows attached to Sherlock, and he likes to be around him. He may feel something for him. These are locked in the army base. But apparently, the minefield - their relationship being queer - won't allow anyone including himself to step in, to touch his desires, and maybe to let them out.

So, John recognizes the minefield (danger+queer), is conscious of the stages in their relationship (not necessarily wants to proceed all the track, at least for now), and is willing to keep his cravings and desires for himself, untouched.

On the other side, Sherlock, the genius, can see their situation from above (their relationship), and is introduced to John's minefield, which he can already notice. "clearly." And yes, he knows how love and/or sexual appeal works, yet is foreign to the steps. (I'd like to say, not a virgin)

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Driving. Army Base.

Sherlock is driving -> directing John and also the relationship THIS CERTAIN TIME because John is overly insecure to do so.

At Baskerville doors, he is afraid of getting caught, but they enter anyway. In my opinion, that's an excellent portrait of John's feelings, and his heart. There are guards, but they let Sherlock in, even if it is temporary and under special rules.

They (Sherlock, in particular) use Mycroft (=brain)'s card to enter the Baskerville.

Also, Sherlock uses the brain to have some time in Baskerville (John's desires are there) to finally reach a conclusion.

Meaning: Sherlock approached John's emotions through his brain. "Slightly oblivious about emotions" against "sentiment"?

Not the best decision, we will see.

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Laboratory

He leads John again and tests him, with his very own desires.

Sherlock has seen the dog, he got scared. He wanted to know what is John's reaction when he is confronted with a vision of the dog. He is using tricks to see if John is the same as he (check the love interest, may I say??)

They were the same; both were terrified.

So, what is this dog that scares them like this?

The dog is something's symbol, "couldn't bring themselves to have it put down," which Sherlock doesn't get it well but accepts, as it is sentiment.

Let us take a wild guess, could it be related to love? You see, sentiment!

To make the answer clearer, let's talk about some other scenes too.

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We have an explosion.

John has seen explosions, far too much, as he would say. The minefield is queerness. He and Sherlock witness a glimpse of what may happen there. What COMPELLING one - in our case, John - to run towards the army base will bring to them. John, on subtext level, has assumably witnessed these explosions before, with Harry and their parents. Or that's about himself, maybe?

As many ppl have explained, John and Lestrade are not very shocked by the explosion as they've seen it before. But notice how Sherlock is startled.

He once again sees what love/sexual intrest can do. His brain dictates that he must remain out of it, exactly what he has been doing for years.

Now that he has seen the depth of hazard with his own eyes- his own senses - will he avoid approaching it? We have the answer right after the explosion, in the next scene.

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Sherlock admits his mistake.

So his guess about the cause was wrong (not sugar-> the fog). He tells John how he wanted to solve the problem there "in a totally scientific laboratory condition." And he wanted to see how the experiment (being drugged to see the dog) would affect John's average mind. It went wrong, as the aim was pretty sentiment and the approach was not.

Sherlock himself was TERRIFIED. He lost his trust in his own senses.

Here I take one of the dog's meanings as "an experiment in love" and "dealing with love/being attracted"

they both got frightened. Both tried to express their fear to the other one. They couldn't reach a common conclusion. Not until they are in the Hollow.

I'll skip Henry and Sherlock's conversation, H.O.U.N.D, and Henry's therapist because it would get so so long.

Now Lestrade, who certainly plays an important role in subtexts [ a brief explanation in @cheuwing 's post about him , ecp the mentor part], is there to help them, literally.

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Failures

Lestrade is with them in Dewer's Hollow, without his ring (coming back from a failure),

Sherlock thinks it's about the sugar(failure, he then changes his method, using MP, second attempt, you can say successful as it saved Henry),

Lestrade shots the dog and misses it (failure)

John shots, the dog falls (very close to the solution, but false. Like the sugar), the dog is not completely dead, he shoots again(second attempt successful)

So they see Lestrade's defeat (sorry, Greg) and learn one or two things; try again to find the solution.

In the end, they discuss the sugar (false approach). Sherlock, at last, admits he was wrong and promises, "won't happen again." He means, "I won't FORCE you to explore your deep and locked desires anymore. I saw the danger."

Though, it's clearly not the end. This episode showed how he is eager to change according to new circumstances, so he tries again -> another approach.

"Gotta see a man about a dog."

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I'd like to bring up one more thing shortly, and here it is;

mirrors

Sorry about the pic, Gary

Here we have Gary and Billy, the couple in an established relationship. By looking at their clothes, names, and mirrored behaviors, we assume Gary is John's mirror, and Billy is Sherlock's mirror.[ I refer to @johnlockelephant 's post about Gary and Billy]

Also, I like to highlight Gary and Billy's parallels to what we see in Johnlock, through s1 and s2.

Gary is the one who communicates, and so is John. They are better in terms of interacting with people. See how the exchange between them is smooth? Even with a slightly sensitive subject - for John - they can continue.

Then Billy comes, and he is not very the same; he is reckless and doesn't avoid topics just because people may feel uncomfortable - there you go, Sherlock.

John's mirror tends to remind Sherlock's mirror when things are not a bit good; Parallel. (John does it literally every episode, but I like to mention the first minutes of TRF)

In the last minutes of THoB, too, we see Gary chatting a little with customers. Billy probably just serves the food. Only work-related conversations maybe. (Johnlock version, well… every episode) Though he - Sherlock's mirror- talks to john.

I'm no expert in drinking metas, but I found milk/WKD interesting.

And what I extremely love is Billy's lying.

It could be related to other episodes, or not. But I'll link it to TRF.

Billy=sherlock lies to protect Gary=John.

One of the lies is so freaking obvious and very much easy to see through - "It's me. It was me." about the meat, AND "I'm a fake," which John easily pushed away.

Honestly, I'm not sure about Gary being unaware of the dog and all, but presuming he didn't know a thing, the second lie comes to the light: lying about being alive. Billy kept the dog alive, without Gary knowing. so did Sherlock( well, that was about a much more serious matter, but whatever.)

AND SHERLOCK GOES TO GARY TO TALK ABOUT THE DOG, GARY=JOHN, to learn more

- In conclusion, Sherlock tries to lead the relationship, and John, to face his desires. He fails, claims his mistake. He promises that this is not going to happen again, and actually tries to learn from his mistake. To learn about John's feelings through John himself.

and that's it^^ thanks for reading!!

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p.s: The thing, is I feel there is more subtext here. Especially about the "dog" and "see a man."

p.s 2: The Hound alongside the Hollow are Sherlock's fears, which I may talk about later (if there's not already a post about it)

If you have something in mind or have read a related meta, please add it!

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English is not my first language, so if there's any mistake, LMK!

Asks are appreciated very much ~

#sherlock #bbc sherlock #sherlock bbc #john watson #johnlock #sherlock fandom #THoB #the hound of baskerville #sherlock season 2 #Lol should I put tjlc tag too?#I'm not really sure #Tjlc #Sherlock meta #sherlock holmes

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melody-han-wayne · 2 years

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Father’s Day

Me I love you, Papa, but there’s something I need to ask that’s been bothering me for quite some time.

Papa Yes, sweetheart, what is it?

Me Of all the orphans in Gotham, why did you adopt me?

Papa Hn. Well, Melody, remember the noodle restaurant your father owned?

Me Yes...?

Papa I ate there once and it was the best noodles I ever had. I felt sad when I the restaurant so I thought the best way to thank your father for the best damn noodles I’ve ever eaten was to take care of you. So I adopted you

Me ...

Me (internally) it was about NOODLES this whole time????

#asian batsis #chinese batsis #batsis oc #batsis rp #batsis oc rp #I feel cheated #papa might be at least 20% joking though #I'm not really sure #bruce wayne

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shopcat · 10 months

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the baby has one parent's little face marking thing and the other's coat because they're a little horse family the world is a beautiful place

#☆#might become really obsessed with horses i'm not sure yet #maybe specifically mustangs and other feral horses... They intrigue me deeply #update i've been informed the thing is called a blaze but i just described it instead in the alt text bc i think clarity matters more than #erm. specificity??#also sorry if i don't know what colour the horses are. someone tell me if u like i like this stuff #🐯#domestic horse (equus ferus caballus)#equid #juvenile #top

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animal-families-tournaments · 26 days

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Next tournament won't be until May because I'll be away on holidays for most of April! That said, here's a question:

#polls #tournament blog #animal polls #i'm not really sure #1 week seems good to let more people vote but it can be a bit slow when there's a lot of entries

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emailrulesposting · 6 months

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Vent? below

I might be comfy sharing more later on. For now I guess I'll share things in a slightly coded manner.

Last night I had three dreams where someone who isnt't real (please stick with me) infiltrated my dream (GOD that one ellicited a vine boom sound effect) and "infiltrated"(???) it. It feels like something I wrote coming back to haunt me but it is based on something In My Brain considers important. Gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross gross! Sorry had to get that had lol What am I even saying I totally see why people think my mind has been lost.

I planned to say it in a slightly humorous way this morning but procrastinated doing it on here. I'm not entirely sure what's going on wait what's the word count on this who am I again? Oh where'd that come from um? I'm not sure? I'll just... ignore... it? Yeah I will okay we're good I'm not sure how to figure out the word count I guess I could Google it on my PC. THE CHARACTER LIMIT IS WHAT NOW??? HOW MANY ZEROES? Holy shit we're probs about to be here for a little bit longer. It's actually crazy wait stream of thought is something so wild. Probably because of the way I think WHY ARE YOU HERE oh sorry about that! Interesting thats editable

Oh my God I could just post to text and make I'M THINKING CLOSER TO WORDS!!!!!!! THAT'S WHY IT'S EASIER TO WRITE!!! OMFG!!!! This is good information for the future. oh my god. The future. I'm not sure what that's going to be like... not based on what it's like here in the present.

Now I'm making email rules it's honestly so cathartic if you want to see the folder of emails let me know! Organication,,,,,,,,, if you want to see a screenshot lmk I'll have to take one! It's going to be sooo soo soooooooooooooooooo satisfying sorry I stopped holding my breath for a second there.

Wait why tf was I holding my breath? What was it helping? Why did it stop working? How did I know it did? What am i writing about again? Waiting Room by Phoebe Bridgers is playing I forgot how long I've been writing this post

Waiting room is still playing so it definitely hasn't been been long. A couple different songs have played. I guess it's really affecting me or it's just bc I'm high

Honestly I feel like I'm finger painting rn listening to caesar salad - demo by slimdan honestly feeling like that rn. Absurd indie song ass emotion.

Ive been in the wrong playlist for like 5 songs omfg I forget to keep changing it. It felt like the sun just tried to consume me a little bit also like it

Woahhhh the playlisy is already workign wow I'm influenced by music I need to listen to more high tempo music huh listening to HOT TO GO! by Chappel Roan en maybe I need to go back on my old Spotify to see whats there so I can remember what've felt to go. I know I used to spam.... I think going through that could be helpful.

Heey look at that in

I don't remember that thought. I remember deleting a song from the playlist. I remember configuring the email rules to fix the mistake

emaillistposting

Wait that's a perfect url. I'm worried corporations will make "xyz infulencers" for their companies as a marketing strat

#Tag with what I should Google lol #Vent #derealization #I think?? I'm having some kind of episode #But I'm not in danger #cw vent #I'm going to us chat gpt to try to figure out what parks are in my area #Would it be cringe to use the #Weed #Tag or considerate #I'm not really sure #please don't fake fun of me Something is wrong

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birdmenmanga · 3 months

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I think there's no greater indication that disco elysium is sympathetic towards communism when it literally says "communism is failure" and then the literal gameplay itself rewards trying and failing. The most obvious one being the Shivers check at the FELD mural, which is an Impossible 20 check BUT opens itself up again and again the longer you spend in the world doing things, but even just looking at sheer probabilities, for any given white check, rolling first and THEN putting a point into that skill upon failure is more likely to grant you success than putting a point first and then rolling, but that would require failing first.

Other things too: Precarious world saying you'll 100% fail red checks no matter what (not necessarily a bad thing, btw!! throwing the boule into the sea is a success but like. in some other ways one would want a perfect petanque throw instead. but people wouldn't typically assume that failure is desirable sometimes from the start) persuading you to accept that you'll fail some things that is irrevocable, for a world where everything is just a tiny bit easier.

The faux game over screen when you faint after reading Dora's letter— emulating a sense of failure on the scale of the entire game. When it rolls up most people go "What?? Game over?? No way, what did I do wrong!!" and waking up after that, with no huge or lasting impact on Harry's health or morale really tells the player, "Sometimes things will seem so bad that it all seems like it's coming to an end, but it's not the end, it's really not the end, go drink so water, you can still go on despite this failure"

I'm sure there are other things as well that are eluding me but like. The literal gameplay rewards failing and succeeding far more so than simply succeeding every single time, and I think you get a fuller experience of Elysium that way too

#just thinking thoughts...#disco elysium #idk man when did we get so scared of failing!!#people never want to speak in class because 'what if I'm wrong :((('#well then you are wrong... that is okay... it's normal to fail... sometimes saying the wrong thing is a great way to jumpstart a topic...#'getting a good grade in X is both normal to want and possible to achieve'#okay sure but have you made peace with the fact that getting a BAD grade in X isn't a bad thing?#a bad grade in being friends... okay... so you didn't check up on someone in 3 months... you failed... that's fine...#you can learn from it!! you can learn how to keep in touch with people. how to take care of them when they're sick.#how to resolve a dispute. how to communicate and compromise. these are all things you are not born with #and will fail first before succeeding at #Like yes I get that in the age of surveillance your failures may be recorded and preserved forever and that's not great #but if we don't normalize failure I really think we'll just suffocate and die

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