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[butterflysonnets]

yes i'm rooting for m*leven breakup because byler is neat but mostly? i'm rooting for m*leven breakup for the sake of el and mike.

to me, their romance was always a puppy love born out of a combination of social pressures, naïve curiosity, and a lack of true understanding regarding intimacy and romantic love and what it really is. it was real in that they do truly, deeply care about each other and they are close friends, maybe even shared an attraction, but a maturing romance is so much more than that. they've grown up and out of being boyfriend/girlfriend, and that's okay! i think television/film needs to show more often that most of us don't have definite "soulmates" or first childhood loves that we spend our whole lives with. it doesn't mean these relationships meant nothing and didn't impact us, it just means they've run their course and that something else is in the cards, and this is part of life!

i've always felt el was at her best and most confident self when broken up with mike, discovering who she was and what she liked alongside another girl her age instead of just relying on mike for mentorship on how to live in the real world. she deserves more of an opportunity to find herself, her autonomy, and her independence, and to love who she is, and she's made it clear she's felt insecure in the relationship with mike because she isn't being loved and understood the way she wants, needs, and deserves from someone who is her partner.

also, it's okay if mike doesn't love her in "the way he should". he is not obligated to love her romantically and stay in a relationship with her just because she's a girl, because she "needed someone", or because he cares about her a lot. he shouldn't be pressured into a romance if it's not truly coming from his heart. he deserves freedom to find out and honour who he is, too, instead of just staying in his non-functional first relationship — one he got into as a child, essentially — and defining himself that way because it's what's expected when a boy and a girl are close. he loves her in some way, yes, but it's okay if he doesn't feel comfortable or secure being her boyfriend anymore, for whatever reason that is. he's felt insecure too, and that's valid and it matters.

they are their own people and are steadily growing and changing every day. they need time to figure out who those people are, and it's become clear (at least in my opinion) that those people aren't meant to be a couple at this stage.

they deserve freedom. they deserve to grow up and be authentic to themselves and not feel like they need to lie for the sake of a relationship. they deserve to move on from this version of their relationship that isn't making them happy and rekindle the best part of their bond: their strong, beautiful friendship. they don't have to be a couple if it doesn't make them stronger and better and happier people.

i think it would be healthy and wonderful for a show, especially one consumed frequently by young adults, to show a relationship starting, progressing, and ending on good terms in this way. sometimes things don't work out, and that is okay.

#eve text #elmike #stranger things #byler #only tagging byler because i feel like yall will like this take lol #tagging tagging tagging WHAT ARE EVERYONE ELSE'S THOUGHTS #god i can't believe i'm making a post about stranger things. this feels like poking a bear #i'm not particularly anti m*leven but like... they'd have to do something pretty special at this point for me to feel like it's viable #i'm seeing the bts of s5 and it's got me Having Thoughts #elmike friendship is something i am so passionate about #even before i ever liked byler (didn't ship at all until s4 even though i knew it was a thing before) i've felt this way about elmike #i always believed they were close friends at heart and needed to break up #the romance part of them felt very distinctly young and very much “he was a boy she was a girl” to me #and it hasn't deepened into anything more mature and i don't see how it could based on the current state of the writing... #the fact that lumax exists — a young relationship that is actively maturing and is healthy — makes that clear to me #and the “love confession” in s4 and how disingenuous and miserable it felt was just the nail in the coffin #also the fact that will (who is IN LOVE with mike) was instrumental in making it happen? ... uh... okay... interesting choice… #fucked up and reductive if they make it another queer unrequited love sacrifice for the sake of pushing the heterosexual agenda YUCK #so i really hope the speculation about a m*leven breakup is real!! i think it just makes sense for their characters but who knows #i don't believe in the notion of love at first sight or one true love and i think the writers don't too??? #love to me is an accumulation of experiences and we inevitably choose it at some point rather than fall into it... but idk #tv is so fixated on keeping couples together... sometimes it's just not reality guys especially with young people... LET IT GO... #like i said though i'm not 100% sold that they're going to give up their “golden couple” LMAO #stranger things hasn't historically subverted too many tropes if i'm being honest #anyway i seriously need this season to come out quickly... i'm so bored and getting my master's is crushing my soul #i need frivolity #ALSO btw i won't respond to hateful messages about this so please don't bother. it's not that serious. this is a netflix show

[narutosrighthand]

It wasn't meaningless. To me, you have become my closest friend.

#narutoedit #animeedit #narutographic #naruto #naruto uzumaki #sasuke uchiha #naruto shippuden #sns #shippudenedit #snsedit #shounenedit #narutogif #dailynaruto #as always i tag on the go i don't remember how to do it #*gifs #also if u come to this post to argue oversomething ill k word you #plus yeah im aware that cyan and pink aren't present in the flag but id die for blue and pink ok? #and if some gifs do not look crisp its just because shippuden refuses to work with me. idk it's always looks so grainy

[wildflowercryptid]

something that's been weighing on my mind ever since learning about the situation with ezra / toonimal is seeing how these predators will take the active hostility that is frequently directed towards minors in online spaces to their advantage and use it to prey on vulnerable children. i think that we as adults in online fandom should probably come together and maybe rethink the language / manner we go about interacting with kids bc clearly the way things are rn is causing active harm.

like obviously, if you're an adult and aren't comfortable with minors interacting with you or your content, you should be allowed to set that boundary and should be vocal about it, ( especially if the content you create isn't safe for them to consume. ) but i don't think talking to them like they're a blight on all that is good and holy is the way to go about it. maybe just saying you're an 18 plus account will suffice, you don't have to tell them to fuck off.

#i'm opening myself up for ppl to leave the stupidest takes on this post but whatever i need to get this off my mind #before anyone says anything about the kids on that website. they're grooming victims. they're literally kids being taken advantage of #show them some fucking kindness and be understanding that they're the victims in this situation #idk what it is about becoming an adult that causes so many ppl to lose their empathy towards minors it's weird #like yeah kids can be annoying and pushy on online spaces sometimes but a lot of them are old enough to know online etiquette lbr #alot of us were annoying kids on the internet at some point we should understand that you don't just. get a handbook for how to act online #that's shit you learn overtime but ppl seem to forget that #they also seem to forget that talking down to kids isn't gonna teach them shit they're not gonna listen to you if you treat them like idiots #what i'm trying to say is that we really need to talk to minors more respectfully and maybe give them a little grace #( obviously there will be situations where some of them need to be yanked up by the collar but there's ways to go about that >>> #without treating them like shit ) #these kids need to know that there's spaces for them to be online safely without having to stumble into places that'll pray on them #we all know how much it sucked to be a kid online we should want better for the ones coming in after us ya know #sorry if this comes across as preachy it just breaks my heart and boils me blood to see kids being taken advantage of like this #especially when there's ways to prevent it idk #how do i even tag this.... #mj.txt #there's trigger warning on the linked post btw #tw csa mention

[femmeroi]

My stinky guys

#judai yuki #jaden yuki #jun manjoume #chazz princeton #yubel yugioh #ygo #lacunashipping #<- that's what I'm calling Yubel/Jun thank you for coming to my brain #Yubel/Jun “have” a ship name already but literally no one used it ever and it was shit ass so I'm making my own #fermentshipping #<- And that's what I'm calling Yubel/Jun/Judai IDK if they have a ship name already or not but if they do it sucks and mine is better #I think the three should hold hands and kiss and yell and go to therapy #I hope these don't look like shit ass I am straight up delirious right now because of the medicine but I trust my love to be good enough <3 #my art #<- I always forget that fucking tag #Sorry Judai but between your soulmate and your rival you ended up being the third wheel because I thought it was funny #Any time I make Yubel or Judai ship art just assume the other one is in on the relationship unless explicitly stated otherwise #They're a combo deal to me. They were super polyd ! They're a pair ! Do not separate- can not separate #I have So Many thoughts about them approaching relationships post cannon I love to think about how shitass they both are with that stuff #I can tell these tags are a mess but I don't have enough brain power to fix them right now

[idealest-of-ideals]

Enemies to lovers kousano.

Thats all.

#To ME their relationship would be sooooo sskk coded #They would hate each others guts and talk shit about one another behind their backs #I saw this one art of them both beating each other up and I can't stop thinking about it #Like obviously they're not that action oriented but I think they would still pull some shitty stuff over one another #Yosano would hate kouyou bc she thinks she's a cocky prissy bastard in the same way she kinda hated on chuuya that one ep #Also the fact that she works so loyally under mori. who. we all know what. #And also kouyou abusing and manipulating kyouka in a similar way as to how mori manipulated her #Kouyou would hate yosano too. not to as much of an extent as yosano would #But. enough #It would probably be similar to akus jealousy towards atsushi #How yosano was able to grow and leave the toxic environment she was in (mori) and become a person who can love themselves and shit #And how kouyou couldn't escape the mafia as a kid #So she convinced herself into believing she didn't really deserve a normal life #But her hatred of yosano is wayyyyy more repressed #Since she's more on the logical side #And since kyouka cares for yosano too #So she wouldn't deprive kyouka of another person in her life #But as time goes on and kyouka heals and learns to accept and understand kouyou for her (undoubtedly) toxic actions #This is where the shin soukou-esque shit comes in #They obviously don't partner up and shit #Since they have basically nothing to do with each other in their respective organisations #But they try to get to know each other??????? #Idk how romantic relationships work but from here on they get all competitively flirty and lovey dovey #And yeah #Idk #These are a fuck load of tags #I should've just wrote this in the post itself #Bsd #Bungou Stray Dogs #Kousano

[grinchwrapsupreme]

being super normal about White calling Billy "a dreamer"after the events of Maybe No Go

#truly alarming amount of tags on this post don't click read more fr #the venture bros #pete white #bily quizboy #billy whalen #idk man the way they balance each other is really interesting #the things they agree on and disagree on are almost arbitrary #'you can't put mouthwash in a cookie' 'trust me' vs 'we should spend 10 mil on a motorcycle instead of housing' 'that's such a cool idea' #billy trying to pep white up about the ball #'this was your dream too' like come on dude when have pete's dreams ever worked out #when have yours #'what are we gonna do now billy?' 'we'll cross that bridge when we come to it' #baby the bridge has never been more present #ALSO white calling billy the dreamer when HE'S the one who pushes so hard for things #billy has dreams that might not be realistic but they give him hope and he works around the way the world works to make things happen #like being a self-taught surgeon and believing in a magic ball #pete has dreams IN SPITE of what is realistic and he will mold reality to be what he wants in order to make it happen #like fixing the quizshow and pretty much everything that happened in invisible hand of fate #and they both have disabilities that affect them in vastly different ways and impact their relationship with realistic goals #like billy's hydrocephalus being presented to the audience as mostly a social issue for him and the hand and eye being marks of trauma #rather than like an actual block for him beyond needing to tune the hand up every now and then #vs white's albinism making him physically unable to be in direct sunlight and making him actively fearful of doing certain things and #being certain places #to be clear i know the actual effects of hydrocephalus as well as the hand and eye but this is based on how the show presents it #like billy took these things about himself into account and went ok these are part of my reality and i will work with them #and pete took his reality and went ok i will cover it up with fake tan and wigs or sunscreen and hats and make reality what i want it to be #and that's what makes them a good team!! that's why they science together well #it's also why they argue so much #accepting reality and playing within its constraints vs hating reality and changing it to suit you #these are the hallmarks of scientific progress

[coquelicoq]

just got a biopsy to see if my [checks notes] 15-week period is because of cancer. however then my friends drove me to get chocolate and the new martha wells novel so, you know, there are pros and cons here.

#the epic highs and lows of having a uterus #highs: people buy you chocolate!! #lows: all the other stuff :( #anyway i am. a lil stressed out lol #also pretty lightheaded! i'm not really even sure why because ok so yeah i was already anemic from the 15 weeks of bleeding #plus i was anemic before that also #plus there was a lot of blood during the biopsy. but i feel like that blood was just the stuff in my uterus that'd be coming out anyway #as opposed to new blood from within my veins or something #and i'm still sick lolllll #so it's a fun time. BUT! martha wells novel! and i lent all systems red to a friend who will hopefully become obsessed with murderbot #and talk to me about it constantly! (<-my endgame at all times) #it's so funny every time i've been to the doctor they're like 'date of your last period?' and i'm like april 9th. and it is ongoing. #and then we just 😬 at each other #anyway cross your fingers for me. apparently if the biopsy comes back negative they don't have other ideas for what could be going on #not sure how to feel about that. obviously i don't want to have cancer but it's very stressful not knowing what is going on #do i just bleed forever indefinitely??? i'll be real with you lads that doesn't seem great :/ #she was like next step would be to put in a hormonal iud and i was like that is absolutely not an option that i will consider #i would sooner get a hysterectomy #so idk maybe i will get a hysterectomy! biopsy results in a week. okay. ending the tags now #if anybody wants me to trigger tag for cancer mentions let me know and i can definitely do that going forward <3

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

bestie bestie have you seen the poltergayst art :D? the sillies!!! ive drawn them!!

im thinkin about drawing killer having like just weird or disturbing features, like his jaw hanging barely attached or something cuz he doesn’t understand Skeleton Monster anatomy and i honestly have so many ideas for this au cackles

yes!!! yes i've seen them >:D

i just arrived home so i'm reblogging them all simultaneously but waa these beans are so interesting to daydream about...

Like look at him look at our ghostie killie omggg<33333

#ask #my art #poltergayst au #i'm unwell when it comes to kross and kross aus in general but this? aughghg the fluff potential is immense...... #i do wonder if killer can leave the house? yknow for very valid reasons like dates and stuff >;D #cross is like 'you need some clothes' because he can't go out naked smh look at how bad killer has it in this world 😔</3 #i'm guessing he can't even after getting his physical form? idk but one thing i will say is that he probably like. begs cross to get a cat #even if the apartment has no pets allowed he would find a way to smuggle a kitten like cmon this is killer we're talking about HHH #i want them to watch a movie and have them curl around eachother (killer with his eight limbs or smthing) and just. stay like that forever #waghgh the dream....the goal >:')c <333 #anyways be right back imma reblog the ones i didn't see yet!!! thanks for passing byy and don't think twice about tagging me in any updates #muah muah have a nice day))<3333

[daz4i]

let me preface this by clarifying i am not anti therapy in any way whatsoever and in fact encourage people to get therapy if they can and even go the extra step to help friends find the right type of therapy that may help them

ok now that that's out of the way.

therapy is bullshit man you go to a therapist saying "hey. i wanna kill myself. can you help me stop wanting to kill myself somehow?" and they go "sure! first step, stop wanting to kill yourself" and you say "well i can't. that's why i came to you. bc i don't know. how to stop wanting to kill myself" and they'll say "that's a shame. i can't help you if you want to kill yourself. that'll be 125$ please"

#mad abt my old therapist again #even checked the cost of sessions in usd to make this accessible. came out to be 124$ and a bit. and i did that on a weekly basis for YEARS #and i'm extra mad bc trying to find a new therapist is already hard esp with bpd where your options are very limited as is #but when they ask abt my history with therapy and they ask why i stopped seeing him after years. what am i supposed to say #so that scares them off and they say they can't help me or they're like. scared to go deep with me ig. bc idk. they're scared I'll snap? #what am i supposed to do. hospitalizing myself isn't an option obvs. what is there left. #it feels like a cycle #like. 'i can't help you if you don't want to help yourself'. but i need help even figuring out how to want that #and it's not like ppl in my life know how to help. tbh they usually make it worse. so loved ones aren't an option and professionals aren't - #- an option. so what is there left. how am i supposed to do a thing that comes naturally to others but not to me #even with medication even being in a recovery program i want to kms more than i used to for years #I'm supposedly taking the right steps. but. to get metaphorical ig. the road is crumbling and there's nowhere to go #and that only makes me spiral more. despite taking the right steps i feel like i'm only getting worse. there's no hope for me. lol #vent #suicide // #negative // #ask to tag #i need a good cry like full-on sobbing and screaming but unfortunately. i became too emotionally constipated for that

[spider-man-2o99]

hehee.i unnersand it all now.

#talking tag #spider-man #atsv #across the spider-verse #atsv spoilers #? in tags. maybe. #well. most accurately just Speculation since its still not out yet lmao #sony always put the climax in the trailer. Every Single Time they do it lol #they spoil their own films like it’s their Job to. and they GET AWAY W/ IT... #but. ANYWAYS lol. #everything we're seeing so far w/ the gwiles romeo-juliet Thing PLUS that ''you don't know what you're doing'' line from mig? #dude im. like. pretty solidly sure migs plots gonna be that he thinks theyre gonna get either themselves or others killed acting selfishly #(’’selfishly’’ in quotes as his guilt complex is not my guilt complex thanku) #’cause with how much gwen’s (and /jeff’s!!!!/) mortality is Seemingly being brought 2 our attention right b4 the film drops... #it is not for No Reason. #maybe tjat reason is fenuinely jonest to fod just Stir Jype Fet Butts In Seats #sorry. *maybe that reason is genuinely honest-to-god just Stir Hype Get Butts In Seats Come Junetime. idk. idk. #but. oy. freakin.. gimme this. if the Cracks have been showingfor months just pretend they have not been. thanks. #ANYWAYS I KNOW HOW MIGUEL THINKS & IF THE MOVIE MADE BY PEOPLE WHO HAVE ZERO OBLIGATION 2 ME IS BAD I BLOW UP THE SUN. #<- person who is well-adjusted and can be trusted inside all movie theaters i prommy

[kuroo-hitsuji]

The next thing i post is gonna be sfw fluff for real but for now

I just want you all to know. I drew Beel pussy. The whole drawing is small as fuck so it's not gonna breech containment until i can render it digitally but. He exists and i love him

#obey me smut #obey me beel #today has been Long idk how else to tag this #how do i get this post to the boy pussy enjoyers in the obey me fandom #like i mainly give them dicks i don't wanna fakse advertise but as a transmasc myself-- #i love seeing other people draw/headcanon it and also just really like drawing it even if it's Not my main hc jdgjfxgjx #anyways enough of the rambling. cute lucifer/kuroo content coming tomorrow probably #Beel

[starglitterz]

"xiao?"

your voice is deafening in the quiet, shattering the peaceful silence between the two of you, yet to the last remaining yaksha it is the most pleasant sound in the world.

"yes, dove?"

moonlight filters through the open window, bringing with it a cool breeze that makes you shiver and press closer to him. though to many he is pitiful, burdened by karmic debt and carrying the weight of his past sins, you find his presence to be incredibly comforting, and his warmth now is far from unwelcome.

"are you ever... lonely?"

you hesitate to finish your question, teeth scraping your bottom lip when you bite it as if to prevent the final word from escaping. saying it out loud makes the possibility so much more real, and you're not sure if you really want to know the answer.

"..."

there is no response. xiao feels how you stiffen in his arms, muscles tensing with concern that you may have hurt his feelings or offended him by assuming the conqueror of demons experienced such trivial mortal emotions. truth be told, he is considering his answer, desiring to give you the most honest one he can, for that is what you deserve after opening your heart to someone as stained by the past as him.

"yes. and sometimes it is almost overwhelming."

xiao begins, and the melancholy blossoming in your chest at his reply is simultaneously soothed by his voice. the gentleness of his tone would probably be impossible to comprehend for those who saw him daily, as his softness was reserved for you alone, and he did not particularly care about how rough others perceived him to be.

"but..."

he falls silent once more. xiao prefers not to look at the past, but now he finds himself musing over the other yakshas and mourning their fates. though he used to be ready to welcome death with open arms, grateful for his suffering to be over, things have changed since then.

"it has become easier to bear ever since i learned to love you."

others may take xiao's words at face value and believe that he loves you only out of habit, like you were constantly by his side until he was forced to figure out how to love you. but you know better. xiao learned to love you by learning to let his walls down, that being vulnerable isn't showing weakness, that opening yourself up to the possibility of being hurt provides a fountain of opportunities and love to flow.

"i'm glad."

a smile curves your lips, and you twist in xiao's arms to press a kiss to his jawline before tucking your head into the crook of his neck once more. the stars dance across the blanket of the midnight sky outside, twinkling effortlessly, burning themselves up to give beauty to the darkness, and you are here, safe with your lover.

"i love you, xiao."

perhaps in the grand scheme of the universe the two of you are insignificant, but for now that matters not in the slightest, because:

"and i love you too, dove."

©starglitterz 2022. do not plagiarise, repost nor modify in any way – reblog / follow if you enjoyed!

#once again do not ask me to explain i genuinely have no clue i just started typing words just when i was abt to sleep 😭 #i just think that xiao. and the abstract concept of loneliness that comes with watching the world you essentially helped create grow #and grow is such an important term here bc it is growing out of him; liyue no longer needs xiao to defend it as it once did in the past #especially when you consider how he is the last yaksha; and i just keep thinking about how it must feel to be the only one alive to witness #liyue's current glory when they all gave everything for it to develop into this; sacrificing themselves to sin and gaining karmic debt and #eventually dying (?) but either way leaving xiao alone. like i know that this is what they would have wanted and what they were made to do #but i keep thinking about xiao and survivor's guilt and how it plays out into his character; does he feel it's unfair that he gets to live? #does that make him feel the need to overcompensate by remaining reclusive and fighting almost every minute when there isn't rlly much of a #need to? idk idk hahaha these are just random ramblings idk why i put them in the tags 😭 also i haven't played the archon quest yet so #don't spoil!!!!! ill eat ur souls if u do /hj #ok proper tags i promise: #✏️ — quill writes ! #xiao x reader #xiao fluff #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader

[non-un-topo]

Wish there was an elixir that wasn't alcohol that you could take that just makes you write/draw and not care about the quality of your work or about what your potential audience might think

#posting cringe today lol #don't fall for my seeking reassurance pls the OCD has gotten kind of bad #the other elixir is just bugging my partner and desperately seeking reassurance from them sdghfds yikes #been going through another feeling-like-crap week i think it's just the mental illness at this point. like if it's all the time? hm. #but tumblr's new look might also be making me despair a little because it's just getting shittier and shittier lol #and this is the only platform i can post my work (besides ao3 but i mean.) #instagram is a shitty place for art. as is twitter now. if not tumblr then it's gotta be nowhere #like at this point i can't even just write or draw something for my own eyes. don't know why. #sig mayhaps the fact that your interests are becoming more specific/niche is causing you to fall into familiar patterns and self-isolate hm #like it's easier to self-isolate if you come up with reasons to be alone. just a thought. #i should dig into that lol. #overshare hours #haven't even been able to just sit down and catch up on reading fics because of This Feeling. like i just do nothing all the time. #i'm also sick and can't seem to kick this cold though. coughing is driving me crazy #alcohol mention #alcohol tw #tw alcohol #idk how to tag. if this site could just decide on one way to tag content warnings...

[monstriiss]

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#gonna get kinda heavy in the tags since im stuck on mobile and cant drop a read more but i need to vent fam squad #god I want to come back but i just don't know how to talk #like i feel like i cant just spring back into conversation like everything is okay and fine #because its not and i dont know how to get over the mental barrier of talking about normal things #it's a really weird feeling and i know im isolating myself but i just dont know what else to do #like i can talk to my family that were there for it. i can talk to people that have been through it #idk i just feel really disconnected #my friends try to talk to me about things and i just cant relate anymore #and they dont get it either. none of my friends have lost their parents and especially havent seen someone die #and they dont know how to talk about it so now its like none of us bother #theres things that happened that i cant say and tbh im pretty haunted #to them its been ages since mum died but to me its only two weeks and still feels like yesterday #i think im pulling away just so i dont have to deal with the hurt of being dropped first #im glad that i have some good close friends that i CAN talk to about things and im so grateful for them #but hoooo boy everything hits different now #tiejfkeie boy am i glad i get to see my therapist tomorrow dkfjskfndk #;; ooc. #death tw #parent death tw #negative tw #;; tbd.