#idontknowanymore

[rottenfram3]

might change theme’ s , rot isn’ t a fan of the blue nor feel’ s that connected to idia that much but also been having multiple identity crisis lately ! will let yu know tho if mew does change theme ♡

#✧ 〜 post𝘴 ｡ #✧ 〜 m𝘦 ｡ #idontknowanymore #HHH

[dhylync]

Harmless Intrusive Thought:

Imagine HP and the Order of the Phoenix, but instead of Umbridge, it's Ms. Rachel from Youtube.

#harry potter. #hp fandom #dolores umbridge #ms rachel #drarry #idontknowanymore #watchingmsrachelwithmydaughter #and all i saw was ms rachel going “open” to a bunch of 5 years #5 years would get 8 OWLs with ms rachel

[oliviaann]

2 months in Province and what happened?

I don’t know where to start right now, but since I got there in province I’ve been cheating my bf. 

I found someone who I want to be right now. I know it’s new and everything is new to me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I love him. Yes, I love him already. I know everything is so fast but what more can I do when I feel this way. I can’t stop my feelings for him. I tried really tried to stop this feeling but still in the end I lose :( 

We’ve been chatting and end things for the past few days when I got back here in Mnl, but we still got back to each other. he’s so annoying that I got mad and want to stop everything, but he’s the one I’m still thinking of. Every minute and everyday.

He cried every time he’s alone. He cried every time he thinks of me. He cried because of me. He tells me how much he loves and missed me. He got jealous and wants to be with me. I know to my self that it’s genuine and pure. He is the only one I saw and have that feelings for me. He likes me first and not me. This feelings I got is first time for me. I never been liked before. I’m always the one that naghahabol to someone. Then he came. Unexpectedly. 

I don’t know anymore that I still want to continue talking to him. Even though we have our own relationship. We both are in a long term relationship. We both have an issue to our partners, more likely me. I want to stop whatever we have with my current bf before this one came, then I’ve got a more reason to stop. But I still got a guilt. Maybe because of the long term and the memories and because my sister don’t want to. 

I really don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t talk to anyone about him. It’s like we’re just the only one that knows we exist and in a relationship. It’s so hard really hard that I want to shout that I love him and I want him. I want to shout that he’s mine but he already to someone.

I love him, really love him. I don’t know until when we were like this. I don’t know how long we can continue this. I just want to express my love for him but I can’t :(

Currently Playing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1KJbuFqn2w

Date: 11/28/2022 1:40pm

#JA #Looove #love #province #pinagtagpoperoditinadhana #enchantedtomeetyou #iloveyou #idontknowanymore #ijustloveyou #bansot #mybansot

[rayelle]

Hear me out, I may just really be Mystreet/MCD deprived but Hear me out I beg you.

Imagine Mystreet Aph being the new "Irene" and is the reason why for the new child-ish videos, it's exactly what the previous Irene did (MCD Lady Aphmau)

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Lady Aphmau had created a new realm, new dimension or a new place where all of the people she knew, friend or foe, could live peacefully. She set a new timeline, a new path, a different way for her To be happy, and is through Mystreet Aph.

Lady Aphmau had used most of the Relic's left over strength to create this new realm for her to see what it would be like if all the bad things in MCD never happened. A place where Zane isn't some evil priest with a cross waging war on everything, a timeline where she isn't pressured by her thoughts of being Irene, where she doesn't have big responsibilities, where everyone she new and loved had the life they deserved, and mostly an alternate home where Aaron is alive. In the end she knew Mystreet Aphmau isn't her life to live. After years, decades, centuries even, She finally rests in the hands of judgement.

But what exactly happened before Lady Aphmau became Irene? a TL;DR of my Theory of this is that, she had exchanged her life in the Mortal world to replace Irene in the "Irene dimension". I personally believe the reason Irene in MCD wasn't able to pass to the after life was because there no one to take her place in the "Irene Dimension" or whatever dimension it was that helps the universe stay in shape. Irene wasn't able to lay and rest in judgement because no one would look after all of these Realms and dimensions.

So during Shad and Lady Aphmau's battle in that one episode in MYSs6, I believed that Lady Aphmau had accepted Irene's full power and relic to be able to save Alina and return everything "the way it should be"

(Miraculous: Lady bug style yk?)

But her accepting Irene's full power meant that, Irene was finally able to pass to the other side, which left the "taking care of the realms" responsibility to Lady Aphmau.

Now let's take a look at what happened to MYS Aphmau.

MysAphmau is the reincarnation of Lady Aphmau, me personally, MysAphmau is the "carefree" side of Lady Aphmau, the side of Lady Aphmau where she has no worries, where she can do whatever she likes, whenever she likes.

I take it when Aphmau died, and was going to be sent back to the Mortal realm was the part when basically MCDAphmau is passing the torch of power down to MYSAphmau.

So MYSAphmau wakes up, beats a demon's ass, and dies part 2, wakes up to realize most of her friends are traumatized (not dead surprisingly) and finds that Lucinda can't do magic, Zane can remember but talks in A.I., and lastly Aaron, who doesn't remember her.

You could imagine how devastated home girl must be, hiding from men with guns, coming back from the dead, meeting Gods, witnessing her friends absolutely lose their shit, opening realms, just to find out her Fiancé, no longer remembers anyone. Not even her.

Now this is where I insert my ✨personal timeline✨, Now MysAphmau is the new Irene, MCDAphmau now resting in the afterlife, No one is there to take care off the realms.

MysAphmau, too devastated, too ashamed to face her friends and accept all of their problems and all of their difficulties, especially seeing Aaron the man she was Destined to be with, no longer remembering her or anyone really. Accepts that she's the new person to take care of the thousands of realms left to her by her former ancestors??? Former–Goddess–Leaders?? Former–idontknowanymore.

Basically instead of facing her friends and family, she decides to step up and be the new Irene, this is where the new videos come in.

Now that MysAphmau is in control of everything, no Godesses to tell her what to do, think, and make (considering the Relic holds both Irene and MCDAphmau's memories), She decides to repeat history and create a new realm, once again.

Same reasoning as the relic holder before her, she just wants to see all of them happy.

But it just doesn't stop there, this would explain why the videos are repetitive of the old ones. It's MysAphmau reliving her life, it's MysAphmau trying to push all of the conflict and trauma behind her and stay in the past before all of these overwhelming–otherworldly things happened to her.

Not only is MysAphmau trying to relive her past but she's also trying to make up for lost time, and creating fantasies she's always wanted, these scenarios she's created include and are not limited to:

•finally getting to marry Aaron — as we all know Aaron's kinda yk, half dead rn, blind and has amnesia. Pretty self explanatory, we could see how excited Aphmau was for the day they were going to get married.

• finally having a loving family — as we saw in the new videos, suprise, Zack and Slyvanna get along, even call eachother loving names. Something a child of divorce and abandonment would love, and I mean would LOVE to experience, no matter how icky and yucky it may seem, to Aphmau's eyes having both a loving mother and a supportive present father, would've meant the world to her, especially seeing as what Aphmau went through during her Child–adolescence years.

•Getting herself a sister — Arina has been showing up too, and as we can remember in starlight (and maybe even season 1 and PDH) Aphmau was obsessed about having an older sibling, she was always envy about Zane having Garroth, and Aaron having Melissa. She had always wanted an older sibling to run to about her problems, hence Arina.

• There was also family videos with Aphmau and Aaron having kids but I don't really wanna touch that.. the thumbnail alone scares me.

• There's more I could say but let's keep this short I still have a series to write, but another thing these videos have in common is that in the end, Aphmau is always happy. There is not a single video where in the end she cries and suffers or stay mind controlled, she always ends up saved and laughing by the end. This further suggests that MysAphmau unlike MCDAphmau had the balls to keep changing the plot of the story so that the new videos–Aphmau, would never have to feel the pain and suffering she went through.

Another thing i'd like to mention is the surrounding places of these new videos—

(FYI, yes, I know they make the scenery simplistic and color-coded because they are showing this to children, and children need things to be handed to them on a silver plate but seriously stay with me on this one)

Unlike the scenery in both MCD and MYS, the new videos seem to generate places, not as "pretty" as the realms before, I'd like to connect this with the fact that the current relic Aphmau holds is very weak, it's gone through centuries and centuries of over-usage and imbalance, so of course it wouldn't generate a world so beautiful such as MCD and MYS, because it's so weak and fragile now the best it can do is to put a few houses, make a few roads, spawn a few vehicles, but it can no longer generate realms that compare to the beauty of MCD and MYS.

—–—–—–—

•Personally, I'd like to make this a series, after my Prequel-Parents rewrite, The story would basically be—as I said—Would start with a devastated aphmau leaving the world of MYS to create her own world, but this time MysAphmau's friends are trying to reach and travel to her, crossing dimensions to help her heal, to be able to reach her and tell her whatever she's feeling is what they all feel aswell. She shouldn't be ashamed because she had done all she could and that was enough.

To me personally this is the season 7 that I would love to see. But who am I to say this, I'm just some girl who sleep, eats chips, and has asthma. See ya'll on the next one.

#aphmau #aphblr #aphmau mystreet #aphverse #mystreet #writing #mcd #mcd aphmau #aphmau irene #irene the matron #ifAnyoneisIntrested #I'dActualloveTobeAbleTowriteThis

[clusterfuckofgays]

random thought #idontknowanymore

you know what I think would be an interesting and maybe handy thing in Minecraft? the ability to de-craft anything. because sometimes you craft too many of an item, and waste needed supplies, but being able to de-craft things could be handy for when that happens. it also might be nice to be able to make excess amounts of items into other things that can later be de-crafted when you need those supplies

(yes, I know you can turn wheat into hay. but that is one thing. I want m o r e. I want to be able to turn E V E R Y T H I N G into some kind of condensed version for storage reasons)

[massivekryptonitechaos]

Day n° idontknowanymore

I had breakfast with 2 cookies (78kcal each) my usual black espresso coffee and then i failed at lunch.

Ate from Burger King, i had fries and a veggi burger (approx 900kcal).

Skipped dinner.

Walked for 14km at 5km/h for around 750kcal burned.

I need to get my figures down.

#weightloss #thispo #mentalillness #weight loss #diet #tw eating issues #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet #tw restrictive ed #kcal #kcal counting #0 kcal

[cat0614]

Don’t ever give them everything you got, you’ll be left with nothing to remember yourself by.

-cat0614

#sad #writing #idontknowanymore

[sapphic-muse]

Solangelo #4

Will: I'm home!

Will: I'm sorry for yelling at you.

Will: Its just that I fucking love my Oreos.

Will: But I love you more-

Will: ...

Will:

Will:

Nico: *holding a burning marriage certificate*

Nico: Have fun trying to return me without the receipt.

#whatthefuck #idontknowanymore #solangelo #nico #will #solace #pjo #hoo

[tilltheendoftheline-myass]

Some will know. I have hope.

#obi-wan kenobi #general grievous #revenge of the sith #rots #star wars #poem #maybe funny #idontknowanymore #butistillhavehope #somewillknow

[idoitsdraws]

The background of an unfinished drawing or something #recommended #art #idontknowanymore #tired https://www.instagram.com/p/CSgDYSjMTeT/?utm_medium=tumblr

#recommended #art #idontknowanymore #tired

[abeautifulhappiness]

whenever i'm about to cry, i always always always end up holding back my tears and its not a nice feeling.. like something is in your throat.. your chest screams pain, your eyes getting misty but you wipe it off.. and then you just breathe in, like, inhales deeply, shrug it off and smile like nothing happened

:)

and yes i am alone in my room and i am not crying

#love #post #japan #personal #photography #aesthetic #happiness #abeautifulhappiness #asian #words #cry #sad #alone #tears #quotes #notokay #idontknowanymore

[sweatydelusionpaper]

Pov: u catch me cheating on you with a dementor

#idontknowanymore #willieverbeloved #isthisfreedomorloneliness #praisebingus #harrypotter #hehe?hehe?hehe? #textpost #shittiesfuckingpost #dementor more like DOMEntor

[kingofteamskull]

bnha AU where everything is the same but Iida speaks Shakespearean all the time

#Bnha #Iida #Boku no Hero Academia #Idontknowanymore

[justasaduntoldstory]

Dear diary,

Today I woke up feeling a little bit better then the day before. But I can’t help but think ‘for how long’ usually it doesn’t last long.. usually it’s only a few hours, but then my head hits the pillow and I feel all lost again.

Am I broken or am I insane?

Dear diary, today I want to live a little more then yesterday.

#sad #depressed #my story #dear diary #saveme #help #broken #maybe insane #idontknowanymore #sorry

[lordofthefrickenbutterflies]

I don’t know who needs to hear this but stop procrastinating the thing you were going to use to procrastinate the thing you should really be doing

#lol #haha #lmao yeet #memes #funny texts #idk what im doing #hahaha #i said what i said #idontknowanymore

[inncorrectmarvelquotes]

Tony: there was a bunny at Lowes eating all the flowers today.

Nat: Go for it! Fight the power!

Clint: Go on little bunny! Feast!

Steve: A criminal.

#idontknowanymore #incorrect marvel quotes #incorrect quotes #marvel #tonystark #avengers