#im glad shes happy to see me

[the-unfortunate-ly]

and now all i'm sure of is a slow decline

#(song lyrics from i'm alone - drew monson) #i struggled through a walk earlier to see the sunset and swing a bit at the park #i have such debilitating agoraphobia so i was paranoid and panicking at every corner #but an old golden retriever came up to me and i got to pet her and she was so happy #and the old man who was her owner said i made her night #and that was nice #anyways #here's what the sunset looked like #im glad i saw it #my photography #midwestern gothic #american gothic #dreamcore #liminalcore #liminal space #oddcore #weirdcore #vent #ventcore #liminal photography #nostalgiacore #nostalgic #vintage #midwestern emo #surrealcore #midwest gothic #rural america #film photography #landscape #southern gothic

[hadesoftheladies]

hate going for christian weddings sometimes because i always see the prettiest women with the ugliest men, the sermon is always some shit about wives being slaves (but not like bad slavery, mutual slavery except the husband is a benevolent master which makes it okay) and making babies for their husband, the music is always lame, the mc is always weird and obnoxious, and older women keep fucking asking me when it's gonna be my turn and never take no for an answer.

#mine #personal #brief storytime in the tags #one of my family friends got married and i was happy she was happy #her parents are like an aunt and uncle to me #i was happy to share that moment with them #we cried and laughed together #and my friends #their other daughters were on the line and looked gorgeous #it was just beautiful watching us all grow up in a way and move on to “the next” together #BUT #im a pastor's kid #and my dad loves weddings #he drinks them in whenever he can now especially because they make him happy and he's had to attend a lot more funerals this year #he's been burdened a lot by how many people he's had to bury and how many hospital visits he's had to do #so i was happy to see him happy too #it just all felt so bittersweet to me #because i know how badly my parents want this for me and for themselves #there was a daddy-daughters dance at some point and i could feel my dad beaming beside me watching that #and i was a little sad about it because i was like im never gonna give you that #this could be the best thing i could ever give you and i will never give you this #i can never kneel at an altar in front of a pastor and swallow that sermon #i would never marry a man in my generation #if i married a woman you and almost the entire tent filled with people that watched me grow up would not attend #my happiest day would be another funeral for you #it was worse because im kind of a small celebrity in this community because of my parents and their siblings who are politicians #so people i barely knew kept coming up and asking me when it would be my turn and how they so looked forward to the day #and i was like i love that we're a community here and i missed the pestering of aunts since i left church #but at the same time i was glad to remember why i left #there is no freedom to be myself at all with them because all they do is project their beliefs and ideas on me because that's what children

[heartfulselkie]

"Oh he never had a relationship and never married. He's apparently not gay but he might as well be!"

No. No you do not fucking say that.

Just because someone chooses to not be in a heteronormative relationship doesn't automatically mean they're gay or your shitty discount version of it.

It's not only erasure of the many other sexual and romantic identities that exist, but it's also just you being a shitty person about someone you're supposed to be friends with. Unless they specifically told you that a certain identity applies to them, you don't get to go around slapping whatever label you decide best fits your gossip.

Just shut the fuck up and stop adding these shitty and unnecessary points to your conversation. There's no need to bring it up when it has little to nothing to do with what you're talking about. You're just being an asshole.

#certain family member somehow knows two separate people that would identify as asexual #but she'll call them gay at every opportunity #even after all the shit she's pulled and been through she still refuses to see people beyond her own shitty self absorbed narrative #being ace myself im so glad to know older people who are similar to me and have happy and fufilled lives #but im also so frustrated that this family member feels the need to bitch to my face about all these 'sexual identity issues' #bitch you are literally shittalking lgbtq+ to one of the queerest people you know

[hella1975]

so it turns out it was actually never that serious

#the exam literally went fine what the fuck just happened i feel like i just hallucinated that #like im not one of those people that go 'omg i did soooo badly :(' just to come out with top grades if i say it's going to shit #then it's becuase i genuinely wholeheartedly believe it #and my headspace before this exam was the worst it's been in MONTHS like i havent felt that bad for an exam since first year #and i sat down opened the paper and. remembered everything. like i literally just Knew the answers #im not saying ive passed bc am i fuck about to jinx it and i was still riding mainly blind bc i have NO idea where that knowledge came from #but at the very least there was a 35 marker that i KNOW i aced like i could picture the exact lecture slides it wanted me to discuss #and i had all of them memorised so at the very least ive got like. 30 marks. which is enough for me to pass the module #bc this exam is only weighted 75% and with my marks from the other 25% i only needed like 20 marks to pass this exam #which... makes it even more embarrassing that i failed it the first time but whatever!!!! #oh my god im so glad that's done im so happy IM FREE #just been in the kitchen dancing around to my little tunes and texting my friends <3 #im meeting up with one of them when she gets off work at 5 and we're going for drinks #so ive got until then to nap and chill and then ill go to the shop and get us some food and wine #and she's gonna come here for a bit & then we'll go. like actually look at me. im having people over at MY HOUSE im going out to buy us WIN #im literally a functioning adult living independently who IS she a misty memory #alas i do only have £23 in my account so this is gonna be such a slay seeing how i make that stretch for a night out #i acc could budget for england when it comes to alcohol i think like the way i manage to have a good funky time with MINIMAL funds #is downright impressive. it's a skill idc what you say #hella goes to uni

[kyolypso]

NEW GREAT PRETENDER MOVIE IS SO GOOD BTW.

#i have so many thoughts #i really enjoyed all the new characters!! #i usually dont like it when shows bring back characters that are supposed to be dead but they did it pretty well #dorothy doesnt remember anything from before and she is just living her own life #and the story is about Her first and foremost even if Laurent had his grubby hands all over the case #laurent really has grown a lot in the time since becuase hes keeping his distance he knows he shouldnt be anywhere near the case #and i understand him at the end when hes talking to her at the station. its very clearly a goodbye for him #hes letting go and letting them both go their separate ways #i also really like how unclear edamura's status with the crew is #hes clearly still friends with abby but he doesnt seem to have anything to do with the case #which is so good for him after the shit he went through im glad he actually said no and left #but he still keeps in contact with abby which makes me happy :) #also i did catch the cynthia name drop from i think the like cartel members?? made me gasp #SO SAD we didnt get to see her or abby :( #other notes the lady with the african restaurant was a delight i loved her #ALSO I SWEAR THEY MADE EDAMURA MORE TAN. HELL YEAH #grepre #great pretender #great pretender movie #great pretender movie spoilers

[wittyworm]

oh god, learning about the origins of tobacco, or tabako, and the spirit that is being used and abused in these massive tobacco companies is actually breaking my heart.... my taino great grandmother died from a lung disease because of years of habitual tobacco smoking........ god i wish i could talk to her now

#shes communicated with us for many years #her energy is so fucking strong but now i feel it stronger than ever im so glad i have avoided smoking tobacco all of these years #im sure it would harm me greatly #much like when i took birth control #im sure i would experience endless spiritual horror #god that was a nightmare #again i implore anyone to do research into the history of birth control and the sterilization of puerto rican women #my ancestors were NOT happy about that one 🧍‍♂️ #period for 3 months straight .weak muscles. indescribable spiritual paranoia. anemia. weight loss. seeing ghosts and seeing things move. #i didnt know where to turn i was terrified so i started wearing a Rosario

[onioneyez]

I’m so happy :)

#Just found out you can see the wildflowers I planted on google maps #and it was 70 degrees today and the mosquitos aren’t all the way awake yet #I sat outside in the dark listening to the one frog that snapped to attention in the swamp nearby #I forget which one sounds like fingers on a comb’s teeth I’ll have to look it up #I did get bit my an enterprising mosquito though #on the knee through a rip in my old holey jeans #at that point good for her #just glad she didn’t go through the hole in the crotch #(I need to do laundry) #onion’s nighttime thoughts #p.s. #a breeze just blew on me through the window and it smelled like night #there are noises and critters out there #outside #you guys heard of this??? #ah #im so happy :) #edit: it’s a western chorus frog

[chisungie]

no birthday letter or any new content for ely, just this mei line and the old ely/eden bday lines 🥹

#hyv this is ely's happy day and youre making me v sad about it actually </3 #im so glad mei gets a line for it though bc ely was part of her herrscher awakening for this suit sobs #oh bUT WAIT WHY DONT MOBI AND PARDO SAY HBD TO ELY >:( THATS UR BESTIE and i dont have aponia and villv so i cant check but SOBS. JUST EDEN #anyway. hyv bring her back :( #Honkai Impact 3rd #Elysia #Honkai Elysia #Eden #Honkai Eden #Raiden Mei #hi3 #ok but i love eden's line sm bc i know shes rich rich but she just. sees so many things ely would like and buys them all #and before she realizes it- its a mountain of stuff that ely loves. or smn like that. i think its cute of them <3 #UPDATE: IVE SEEN IT FROM SOMEONE ELSE BUT APONIA HAS A BDAY LINE FOR ELYYY <3 #update 2: HUH??? MOBI DID HAVE A LINE FOR ELY WHAAAAT

[seoafin]

Can I share something? Something so insane happened because today, my younger sister hesitantly told me she wrote fanfic and also hesitantly let me read one of her works. I’m not surprised that she’s going off and expressing her creativity in a way similar to how I did at the same age, but what the fuck? The way she wrote was? So? Insane? Crazy? Are you even fourteen? When I was her age, I was writing really bad MHA fanfics with horrid plots 😭

Told me this: “its just brainrot ahahaha kinda cringe” but when I read it I was Genuinely astonished. I hope she never loses this passion, even though she might find it cringe. I feel insanely proud :’) sorry for the happy rant hehe

one of the best fics i ever read in my life was written by a 16 year old who lived in indonesia like i definitely believe it

#this ask made me so unbelievably happy #thank u for sharing <333 i love that she felt comfortable enough to share her passion with you that's lovely #and im so glad to see younger people take up creative hobbies it's so so important #anyway i hope ur doing well <3333

[problemcore]

honestly, the barbie movie came out exactly when i needed it most.

for a while now I've felt really sad and ugly and hollow. and this movie comes out and i feel . loved and wanted. and heard. and understood.

and i can look at my own reflection and admire my face without feeling repulsed. and i love my cheeks and my wrinkles and my acne. and it all takes time and effort but im willing to do it to love myself more .

#im quitting my department soon and moving to a different one #where im loved and appreciated and thanked to. and where i feel safe . #im gonna start going to the gym soon . try to improve my diet . #slowly gather up the courage to. finally. see a therapist about all this lmao. #animal crossing sigh. ive been really exhausted lately. #im gonna take a break tomorrow #god. sidenote. #ive been feeling kind of awful about my eyes lately. how they look #i looked into buying brown contacts becuz i couldnt stand how they looked #and i look at margot robbie. and gosh she is so so so beautiful. #and her eyes are big and bright . like mine #and idk it made me feel good about myself #ok this post is too long. see ya guys #OK ONE LAST THING. GOT A DND SESH TODAY :3 VERY HAPPY I MISSED MY GROUP. we barely got anything done last session 😭😭😭 glad we're back lol #chris noises #misc

[joyridingmp3]

end of an era

#i said goodbye to one of my closest friends yesterday #not in a bad way she's moving state and I'm rly happy for her #but god I've really let go of a lot this year #mostly for the better except her #it's been good though I feel so so so much better #I've been feeling so good lately #but definitely also feel transformed as a person with all the change that's been happening yknow #quit drinking quit caffeine quit those horrible singing lessons. among other things that weren't good for me #walking into the new year a very different person for sure #but also i feel like ive found my way back to my old self in a weird way #im like oh THERE you are! #I've been looking for you! #so. it's nice #sad to see my friend go but that's ok :) im glad. and she will be happier in her new situation too #mine

[craycraybluejay]

i saw my therapist and it was so amazing and then i got immediately un-therapized by a horrible person

#literally whats the point of therapy if im getting harassed and put in a bad mood all the damn time #like. i was so happy there and then.. gone #but im just gonna think about it harder and how nice it was and just how understood and seen she makes me feel #she is the kindest human being ever. ever. just the kindest #and i want to carry that kindness instead of all this misery people keep trying to shove onto me #you know what! #brick walling it! your shitty behaviour will not continue to bring me down! #you are a bad person and im glad you got yourself worked up over literally nothing! #enough to pick a fight with me and then get even more insane and threatening when after ignoring you for awhile i took the bait! #i gave you! every opportunity! to shut up and leave me alone with your nonsense! #i tried to set a boundary and you kept pushing. so no im not gonna let your horrible attitude make me sad for the rest of the night #you deserved to be reminded that youre a bad person even though youll continue blaming everyone but yourself #for what by all means you did #no one forced you to do it. #even my therapist who is supposed to be impartial sees how ridiculous you are #everyone around you sees it. you are a pathetic laughingstock and you dont deserve space in my head #i just wish it was Easier to ignore the constant barrage of madness #i wish i felt more stoic and put together than i present myself #and i wish you would shut the fuck up and leave me alone

[kasandor]

genevieve o’reilly outstanding lead actress in a drama series. to me.

#her stellan diego andy all of them #but i see no one talking about genevieve’s literally insane performace #it is so interesting to me that #all of her scenes take place in her home her car the antique store or the senate #vs cassian who is literally going back and forth between planets every few days #idk mon might be considered a supporting character here #which isnt really the point o’reilly deserves an acting nom #BUT. my point is. mon mothma is trapped #every day that goes by her ability to keep her facade up and the truth hidden gets a little harder #the conflict & tension & fear that is thinly veiled behind poise and practiced charm #and being able to portray BOTH as an actor #to be able to get that across to an audience!!???? #she is so. #ugh anyway no point being upset at the emmys lmao #i could go on about the other deserves acting noms but. we all know. #im rly rly so glad for the 8 noms they Did get #one way out for best writing yeah. yeah. #and mr. brittell. doing insane things as always #truly am just happy andor got the best drama series nom #andor #star wars #emmys 2023 #m

[fabulouslygaybean]

i am once again overwhelmed by love for humans as a whole

#just. fuck #oh my god. oh my god. i love humans. i love humans and i love life and i love that i get to be a part of it #it sucks sometimes and there are awful terrible things that happen and im not going to deny any of that #but just. im thinking about all the strangers who've ever been kind to me and im overwhelmed with love #the girl ive never seen before who grabbed me to dance during my last homecoming with the biggest smile on her face #the kid who taught me where to dig for clay in a lake when i was 8 who told me he loved me when i said i had to leave #the stranger at the last show i went to who held onto my shoulder as we jumped and yelled and laughed together #the little girl who came into my workplace today that told me with the most starstruck face that she liked my hair #the older lady who helped me pick up all my things after i dropped them in a park after an incredibly hard day #the trio of teenage boys who played with me on the playground for hours one evening when i was 6 because they saw i was lonely #the random man who bought me the snack i tried to put it back when i realized i didn't have enough money for it #the teen girls who chased off some guy who tried to kick my head in and then ran back to hold my hands and make sure i was okay #fuck. i love people. i love human beings so much. #i love being alive and im so so glad i made it past middle school even though i thought i wouldn't #i get to look at sunsets and sunrises and i get to pet dogs and i get to wade around in lakes and pools and ponds #i get to hug and hold people and i get to laugh so hard my stomach hurts and i get to yell and scream in happiness #i get to eat good food and listen to good music and i get to run and jump and dance #i get to see beautiful things and i get to watch strangers live their lives around me and i get to be a part of it all #it's amazing!!! fuck!!!! i get to be a part of it all!!!!! #i love being alive and i love that ive made it this far #i don't know what the future holds but im just so glad im even here at all #sorry about the long sappy ramble and i know this probably looks weird but i could not care less #im just overwhelmed with love for everything

[the-trans-dragon]

Hehehe >:3 got a kissie and some headpats from a pretty girl >:3 muahahahahahaha >:3

#sorenhoots #sometimes i remember that i am living the life that i ached for during lonely years #like i just get to wake up and live my gay little life??? kinda fucking awesome even if many other parts of life are very stressful #im so glad i met my wife who loves me for who i am 🥰🥰🥰🥰 and 😈😈😈 heheh then i met my other partner???? like. i thought my wife made me #the happiest i would ever be and then WOOSH i met ANOTHER person who makes me incredibly happy? i did not know the happiness could DOUBLE. #i figured it was like 0%-100% and my wife made me like 100% of my capacity for happiness and then its like 200% now and im realizing that my #capacity to experience joy and peace isnt static and frankly probably increases steadily over a lifetime as i grow and change and learn to #appreciate things more. anyways im in a content happy lil gay mood this morning :3 #my partner got to visit us recently to help us get emotionally ready for some stressful stuff but now the most stressful parts are done and #now that the stress is fading i am finding so much happiness has been in my chest waiting to burst! it was sooo good to see my partner hehe #and the situation is even cuter because my wifes partner also came to visit and my wifes partner is my partners wife also so like. adorable #symmetry. my partner and my wifes partner have another partner and if you draw out a little diagram of us you will see it is shaped like a #house :3 a square with a triangle on top :3 hehe metamours everywhere :3 super super super wonderful metamours. its literally almost like a #fairy tale to have a polycule??? like?? im so excited to live somewhere that isnt like 9 hours from them. oh my god they also have a cat and #shes the cutest. me and my wife have a cute cat also and we are like 👀👀👀 tenatively anticipating that they will get along 👀👀👀 ive #specifically worked with my cat to help her know how to behave around other cats. my neighbor is retired and does TNR on the local strays #and they get attached to her and hang out in her backyard or her house lol like one snuck in and this was before they had any cats and they #didnt know he snuck in until he hopped onto her bf's chest at night to snuggle up. and hes a big cat and if you felt him drop onto your #chest in the pitch black of night you might absolutely mistake him for a racooon or possom or some other beast. anyways he sneaks into all #the houses down the street apparently and is just kinda like “the retired people down the street”'s cat lol. and daisy would hiss and yowl #out the window at him but i always tried to show her that he is friendly (and give her treats to attempt to tell her 'he isnt a threat. have #a snack. see? if he was a threat then we would not be having snacks.' and eventually he ran into us while i was letting her outside on her #harness and!!! i was absolutely ready to defend either of them from the t #other but they just cautiously sniffed each other and then laid down. it was fascinating to observe. daisy also responds really well yo #to meeting new people :3 though she proved me wrong by hiding from some maitenence ppl recently. but then she met my metamour and was pretty #much instantly like 'oh ok ur family? sounds gok #sounds good.' so thats cute and i hope if we end up in the same house with the other cat in the polci #polycule. well i hope they get along!!! #idk what we would do if they didnt. there are lots of other housing arrangements (like renting a duplex or next-door apartments or #something) but i want them to get along anyways :3 no matter what sort of living arragement works out best. i think theyd be good for each

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

He is like an angel to me <3

#akira nishikiyama #every time i see a gifset of this scene and it's THIS quick moment JUST before he slicks his hair back THIS to me is his pinnacle of beauty #look at my beautiful bloodstained koi. succumbing to the darkness but honestly he held out longer than i would so we gotta respect that #also Matsushige. my guy. my dude. why did you think talking shit to a guy JUST after his sister died was a good idea. ya shoulda run #but also thank fuck ya didnt cause i fucking hated ya and im glad pretty koi her fucking gutted ya. absolutely eviscerated. like goddamn #this rewired something in my brain lads #cw blood #almost forgot that bit lol. also the other day i posted this pic and caption in a Discord server im in #yknow with the intention of basically swooning over him because yeah im in love with him right. and one person responded to me #and props to her she was reacting like. properly i suppose? like 'oh it's so sad what happened to him #when it all came crashing down </3' but im here like 'yes the scene is VERY tragic and rips my heart out but thats NOT what im doing here #today lmaooo' i am happy to focus on the tragedy of his character and often do #but right NOW i am trying to sexualize a man covered in the blood of his enemy as his psyche shatters so like <3 #theres probably nicer pics of this bit but i dont have them on hand. i might start a 'pretty Nishiki pics' folder on my phone too