#im going to work crapy jobs for the next 20 somthing years of my life

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Sad lonely sick broke exhausted sleep deprived

#i cant make myself get up #im fighting depression #the obly thibg that was helping me get through #was the thought that #after this is over i could relax #but tge truth is #im going to work crapy jobs for the next 20 somthing years of my life #I'll never go anywhere #or do anything #the navy or my husband will dictate everything #i am left on moving sand #i feel like I'm on an empty plane with no pilot #just standing here stuck i cant do anything but wait for something to happen #im so angary #i asked my husband not to join the navy #but he had already signed up #i thought it was just inquiry #he has been gone for 5 weeks #still tge plane flighs on #no way out destioned to fall out the sky at some point #i hate my job #i hate my like #i hate me #i love my husband #i love my dog #i love my sisters #i just dont want to work retail for the rest of my life #i am being crushed by like 20 hard decisions #last night at 4 43 i felt my life force leave me #it waa the weirdest thing