#its incredible how nice she is

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

[atticcreationz]

[Ruth is talking to Brooke at her locker, then the bell rings, and Ruth runs over to join Richie and Pete on the way to class, blushing]

RICHIE: Ruth, is that a ~spark~ I detect between you and Brooke?

RUTH: maybe 😏 I get all warm and fuzzy when I talk to her...!

PETE: uh, that might just be the fires

[all three turn around to see Brooke setting her own locker ablaze]

#nerdy prudes must die #once again: i think ruth should get to have a very short flirtatious relationship with brooke as a treat #she deserves it #(and then call the fire brigade) #every time i have fanart i want to draw and get sad that i dont have time and/or am im in too much pain to sit down and draw it i say hey #write it down instead baby you dont have to draw it #write down the silly things so theyre not bouncing around in your head #on a related note some rambling thoughts #im trying to get comfy writing more than drawing - i always felt nervous writing since college and always thought i was bad at it #but a) fuck it and b) its been a nice compromise between my urge to draw and my sadness at how im too in pain to draw on my own time anymore #and some friends have been incredibly nice and encouraging about small things ive written recently and i cant even theyre so kind 😭✨ #anyways back to the regularly scheduled tags sorry #starkid #team starkid #ruth fleming #brooke npmd #npmd #starkid npmd #richie lipschitz #peter spankoffski

[hauntingblue]

Try not to make fights between two women look homoerotic challenge level impossible

#if franky isnt good with swords why does he have a sword on his mecha 💀 just for the shogun bit #inu inu fruit??? he is just like inuyasha... omg.... crossover of my favourite things.... yamato i love you..... #yamato eating the protector deity of wano fruit.... calling himself oden.... his father must be fuming he is the antithesis of his person #obv its very much on purposes but lmao rip bozo (kaido) you didnt think much about that one.... maybe the deity of wano wants its people to #be free and not slaves of a weapons industry idk.... #not olvia omg... and saul.... and clover... they changed little robin's name.... and her mom's voice is the same as hers lmao it's too much #robin said this is way too nice.... can't be real #once again thinking about robin holding her mothers hand..... and becoming an archeologist to make her proud.... the hands.... #but now it's not about her mom now its about her friends.... also her childish heart omg.... truly #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1042 #robin defending sanji's honor akdjsks #robin that was so slay... take care tho.... ily.... until next time #luffy on the floor passed out having a tantrum about food. incredible #fucking caribou again.... DIEEE!!!! #MOMO FLY AGAIN!!!! GET OVER YOUR FEAR OF HEIGHTS #also yesterday i was showering and thinking about like dying like this cant be right... i am on thay level.... #episode 1043 #'i am not soft on women' oh yeah i bet... #see how good armor haki would have been here..... i have been saying this #robin's face..... strongest element in all of one piece..... #robin wanting to become strong for someone else.... just like nami..... #OHHHH SHIT!!!!!!! she said i wanna be with my friends 😁 -> 😈 #that was so cool. also black maria is DEAD. that was a CLUTCH WWE STYLE. DAMN. robin getting there by thinking about his friends :))) #what love and human connection do to a mf (positively) #OH SHINOBU'S ABILITY.... MOMO..... OMG #episode 1044 #robin ily that was so cool. call me any time btw.

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol) #i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc' #so WHY is it such an issue now????? #idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity) #every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat. #i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow. #anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check. #my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane). #god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

[rxtgallows]

being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community

#i think if theres not a lolita tea party/panel this year at pcm i will host one next year... #by then ill have been actively in the subculture for like a year and ill know a little more.. rn im JUST starting out i wld have no clue #what to do... but like i have ideas for stuff that wld be soo fun and ive always wanted to host/participate in an event or panel #once i was picked to participate in the fandom state alchemist test or w/e its called but then they wldnt let me after they saw my boot #which was so fail bc i absolutely cld have done tthe challenges with a broken foot. BLAH anyway #or like i hope they try the jfashion show again UGH probably not since it had to be cancelled due to lack of participation... #i jst would looove to have lolita friends in the area... idk how successful i wld be at converting someone and my sibling doesnt count #or ONE lolita friend... i only know of one lolita in maine and shes pretty well known in the NA lolita community from what i can tell so #ive met her a couple times actually she is very nice. idk what i am trying to say tbh #im more open to making friends at pcm in a lolita context and not a cosplay context bc every cosplayer ive interacted with for more than a #passing comment or picture turned out to be like umm a freak #or one of my moms students <- student who made all the dresses for the haunted town tour cosplaying kanaya that one year and then me showin #my mom the meetup pictures and her going omg.... thats d/////// #she was a really really incredibly seamstress btw her costumes were beautiful. anyway. iconic. #i think probably i havent talked to anyone in a while and it is wearing me down i have to make these massive posts every day

[todayisafridaynight]

*walks in covered in blood* i finished first penguin. i reaaaaally really loved it oh my goddd all these peepaws being so dramatic and sulking wow grow up.. IWASAKI WAHHHH she was so cool and so awesome and so smart and she helped so much oh my god and she problem solved and and and WAHHHHH i think my fave parts were when she got Very Loud i kept saying damn girl at my screen each time she put her foot down UGH and the conflicts and the solutions and the AUUGHHHHHH. anyways loved it why am i sobbing over the ending though.

BRO MFINISHED IT HELLO ??? ?? IM S GLAD YOU FINISHED IT- AND SO QUICK JESUS CHRIST--

BUT YEAAAASSSSSS YES I LOVE IWASAKI THIS AN IWASAKI STAN CLUB !!!!! i LOVE LOVE LOVE how patient and fair she generally is but she also doesn't allow people to do whatever they want. BUUUTT I ALSO LOVE how on top of correcting people in that passive-aggressive way, she isn't afraid to get ABSOLUTELY irate and really let someone have it- IT'S JUST SO GOOD and i NEVER really see it with lady protags so i was a HUUGE fan whenever it happened

ENDING WAS SO TWISTED THO MAAADDDD UNFAIR TO IWASAKI (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) like i GUESS she did was she was paid to do in the end but..... THATS HER FAM CMON NOW (;´༎ຶx༎ຶ`)

i fuckin. LOVE the fishermen they deadass collectively share exactly ONE (1) brain cell and it's frustrating sometimes but it's also the stupidest and cutest thing i ever seen (╯▽╰ ) THE BIT IN LIKE- EP 3 I THINK WHERE THEY'RE ALL CHASING AFTER IWASAKI TO APOLOGIZE ALWAYS MAKES ME GIGGLE THO i think of it far too often for my own good its so cute... like Goddamn They Really Are A Batch Of Penguins...

#snap chats #THEY'RE SO SILLYYYYYYY //rips my hair out and eats my fingers// #THE CONFLICTS AND RESOLUTIONS WERE SO SATISFYING THO RIGHT ??? LKE UGH THINGS JUST FELL INTO PLACE SO NICELY #i really love how there's SUCH pushback against iwasaki in the beginning tho LIKE GOOD. THATS WHAT I EXPECT !!! #it really does feel as though she earned her progress and that's what makes her victories soo satisfying #because the show really does not waste a moment to demonstrate how hard she's working despite her circumstances #and ofc with that in mind it does make you want to strangle the fishermen at first because its like YOOU. MOTHERFUCKERS #but with the drama's theme being about The First Penguin it also does a good job to remind you they're not only uneducated in all this #but they're also incredibly scared to try and do somethin new- and we know old people cmon they're stubborn as rocks #which is what makes it sweet when they DO start to come around- even if hiro flip flops like a fish out of water for FUCKS SAKE-- #hiro's funny as hell for that im not gonna even lie. again his flip-flopping is frustrating but Again 2x i understand his fears #JUST AAAGGGHH I CAN TALK ABOUT FIRST PENGUIN FOR HOURS ITS JUST SO GOOD...... #AND LEST I FORGET THE UTTER BAGNER THAT IS ITS CREDITS THEME FUCK #WITH ALL THAT SAIDJVLKAJVK thank you for taking the time to watch it !!! im real glad to hear you enjoyed it as much as i did (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) #gigglnig and kicking my feet thinking of first penguin now i should rewatch it again (╯▽╰ )

[lzrdprsn]

It's really weird when you know someone in a context different from how everybody else knows them so you look at them and you still kind of see that person they used to be

#this post is about the boy i dated my senior year who was so incredibly sweet tbh wouldnt be the person i am today if i hadnt met him #but he was so fucked up he had so many issues it was really hard so it didnt work out but i loved him and i think he loved me too #but hes in a moderately successful band now which i just found out about do i looked them up and theyre good #but its so weird because its like i know that when you were 17 you wanted to be an underwater welder #i helped you clean your room at your grandmas house because you were so sad you couldnt do it yourself #i ditched 5th period AP English to sit on the steps behind the auditorium and listen to you talk about whatever #you pushed me on the swings and we took the bus to the movie theater and you liked cherry wraps and you played me my favorite songs #i havent REALLY thought about that guy in years and we were only together MAYBE 6 months but its so weird what you remember about people #and especially how you remember how they made you feel because he made me feel so good like i was in control #all my previous relationships was me trying to desperately please someone who wouldnt do the same for me #and honestly a lot of my relationships since have been the same especially in college and with the one girl who honestly if she called me #today i would drop everything and go be with her again no questions because i cant get her out of my head #but stuff witj him was never ever like that it was so easy it was like breathing even though it ended messy i have 0 regrets #and its nice to know that things are going well for him because honestly he changed my life a little bit #the way i dont give a fuck now is something i learned from him #ill probably delete this later but you know

[stonechild]

acting like my own best friend has changed my life

#i make her happy and worry about her wellbeing and how she feels and know she can do so much if she only let herself #considering i was suicidal for most of my life this is absolutely incredible for me #its nice cause like they say you are the only person you can completely rely on in this world #and i have always felt like everyone else relied on me and i didn't know how to rely on myself #i always felt like everything i did was a mistake and i was too sensitive and was inherently not meant to exist in this world #and so i put the emphasis of the entire world on my friends shoulders cause i cant trust myself to not fuck up #but if i just fucking listen to myself #and trust myself for once #maybe i could learn to rely on myself #im not as incompetent as my depression wants me to believe #talk #shadow

[carryonmylovelies]

omg hey hotties 😭😭 im back !

#sooooooooooooo anyways not me dropping off the face of the earth for like the entire summer vwkqmqjdhsowjwjwjenkwhwk #just had to die for a little bit u know....disappear into the abyss and all that #pls look away from all the shit im abt to throw into these tags 😁 unless u want 2 read my cringe oversharing essay for the day 👍 #my summer was so silly 😍 ummmmm lets see i lost my fulltime job at the daycare bc the owner very rightfully decided to retire and close #so i was unemployed for the whole summer except for my occasional side jobs and also had to move bc of family shit #so im living w my grandma for the time being and its utterly amazing tbh my grandma and i have a really strong bond and relationship #and i really love getting to come home and see her every day. i decorated her house for halloween a week ago 🎃🎃🎃 #and she couldnt stop talking abt how nice everything looked and how glad she was to have me there and i just abt broke down 😭😭😭 #i did a complete fucking 180 jobwise im actually training to be a certified fire alarm inspector now LMFAO #i really really like it so far and have like a million stories already abt all the shit ive done/seen so far #im the only girl looking son of a bitch thats working and training in the field out of my entire region of the company so 🤪 #literally shoved my dykey nb ass in there and now im fucking it up with the boys heyoooooo #ummm me and one of my best friends started dating bc of a miscommunication (BC OFC WE DID I KNOW I KNOW ITS SO MF GAY) #and our 4 mo anniversary will be on halloween which i think is the swaggiest fag shit in the whole WORLLLDDDDDDDD 😫🎃🖤🧡 #my very beloved pet rabbit of over 8 years died quite unexpectedly in august and i was. doing pretty bad for awhile which sucked so so hard #he had multiple health issues and was over 10 yrs old so its hard to say what exactly happened. my gf and gma both pulled me thru that shit #and my besties gave me so much support and love idek what i would have done w/o them. i miss my baby so bad. #ive also had some health issues which sucks absolute BALLS #and recently figured out that the migraine/anti depressant meds ive been on for the last THREE MF YEARS have been fucking up my body lmao #but on the flipside going back 2 the positives i got to have some really incredible experiences/interactions in the past few months #and those were really huge in helping me get my shit together again #i got to take my girlboygirlfriend on little daytrips throughout the summer. i got a second tat🕷🕸❣️ (which my gf designed 😫) #i met girl queen pussy slay miss felicia day AND met the sexiest creature alive harvey guillen and he told me he liked my hair #which im still super duper normal over i can assure u 😁👍 definitely didnt alter my brain chemistry or anything #i saw gods greatest and most valuable gift to this planet on monday (mcr concert) #and had my entire mind body heart and soul so thouroughly fucked up that im still peeing my goddamn pants over it #and of course now its october :) my rotting flesh and sickened brain knows peace once more #bouta go eat up some drawtober posts right the fuck now so prepare yourselves 👁👁 also gonna be making a post on the coc blog soon as well #its already that time of year again mwhahahahahahahahahaha #so yeah 😋 my summer was goofy and silly as hell. i hope u all have been doing okay and im so happy 2 be back pls hmu if u wanna chat !!!

[chadsuke]

Books Read In 2022/2023:

The Financial Diet: A Total Beginner’s Guide to Getting Good With Money by Chelsea Fagan & Lauren Ver Hage (2018)

The Scorpion Rules by Erin Bow (2015)

I Want to Be a Wall Vol. 1 by Honami Shirono (2022)

My Wandering Warrior Existence by Kabi Nagata (2022)

wow, no thank you: essays by Samantha Irby (2020)

A Tropical Fish Yearns For Snow Vol. 1 by Makoto Hagino (2017)

I Married the Male Lead’s Dad by Eongsseu & Gyammi & San-ho & Ko-eun Chae (2021-present)

Franken Fran Frantic Vol. 1 by Katsuhisa Kigitsu (2019)

Franken Fran Frantic Vol. 2 by Katsuhisa Kigitsu (2020)

[ID: Covers of the aforementioned books. End ID.]

#2022media #2023media #so financial diet is. fine. theres things in it that make me want to go insane bc #idk how these people live its insane the wealth #but it does give an okay launch off point to look up like savings terms #wouldnt rec it but its an old gift from my mom #i liked the scorpion rules! #it has some. issues. pretty sure the author is white. #but overall p minor just offhand comments that made me cringe.jpg and i enjoyed it #i want to be a wall is cringe.jpg in parts bc the fl is a bl fangirl #but overall its interesting its a marriage between an ace lady and a gay man #everything and anything by kabi nagata literally makes me weep like a baby. god. #wow no thank you was a fine read! easy read and good writing the humor just didn't always gel #like it just wasn't greatly to my taste lmao im not exactly a potty humor guy #tropical fish yearns for snow was a soft nice start #nothing exceptional but nice read #i married the male lead's dad is actually incredibly good #i wasn't expecting it to be this good. the lady is cringe-y to start #but she sees the ppl as well. ppl overtime (novel isekai) #and the PLOT is so. i want to know whats going on. #franken fran was always a fave manga and i was v excited to see a sequel! #its a guro body horror black comedy manga i guess is the best way to describe it #v much taste depends lmao

[hauntingblue]

Omg franky who called himself older brother earlier remembering who ace is to luffy and automatically agreeing to get the fruit 🥺🥺🥺

#how can you say no to that face..... #btw have we realized how luffy looks littler ever since marineford...... #and luffy actually offering it to franky..... oof #ma muchacha del baile.... amazing #OLEEEE PATA NEGRAAA OLEEEE TIENE NOVIO #is that foreshadowing???? she has a bf and sanji is the black leg #OLEEEE #zoro actually stopped for sanji.... and did not go after his sword.... do you see the magnitude..... #well stopped for a minute at least #sanji just leaving zoro lmaooo 'nice opportunity i did everything i could' #sanji will die of blood loss or stabbing this arc i suppose #incredible how sanji gets what he wants and doesnt know what to do with it... ✍️✍️✍️✍️ #oh my god #so she did kill a man #i want this in the la bit for bit. you know how fun it its that the sanji actor is spanish......... #SHES ASKING HIM TO KILL ANOTHER MAN AHDKAHS #omg this is bit for bit the park guell.... you dont understand the levels of excited i am feeling... vibrating #another letter for robin and nami lmao i love it #i was born to protect you lmaooo #oh kin is gonna get stabbed to death too #sanji ignoring zoro lmaooooo he is so ready to leave the crew #fraky and luffy..... what a concept..... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 632

[youjustwaitsunshine]

just wrote a bad review on google we ball

#ignore my venting but #went with two mates to this second hand store that sounded pretty cool straight after uni was over for the day #so we were still dragging around our heavy backpacks n stuff #(this is important later) #and the store sounded cool from the internet description. second hand designer fashion and some new korean design pieces #neat. I'm looking for something similar to a shop i know from my hometown and this sounds pretty close. #yeah no #we go in there. shop owner isnt even looking up from her phone at a 'hello'. feet on the coffee table fully ignoring us #mate takes a closer look at a belt. first convo initiated by the owner: 'this is a designer second hand store so its not second hand prices #we are the ONLY customers in the shop #no courtesy at all #like be nice? no matter how people are dressed? if you have a store like that shouldn't you want people to buy your stuff? #it's baffling because it's not like that store is running super well or anything. other reviews say they dont sell much anyway #anyways i wrote a bad review and i enjoyed it. ha. take that. #like we also went to a high end optometrist without knowing you need an appointment to get in and the guy was incredibly friendly #no matter how likely you think it is for someone to buy your stuff just be fucking nice yaknow. doesnt cost anything. #UGH #(the prices were indeed unaffordably high but i knew that going in and if it had been said nicely i wouldnt have been that pissed) #sorry to be a boomer here but i would like to be treated with basic respect no matter how im dressed yknow. #and it's not like the lady was some young employee. im pretty sure she was the shop owner and in her late 50s #fucking hate snobs #i could have been wearing bordelle underwear for all she knew but she decided to treat us like we're below her

[planet4546b]

june hating saint is her #1 funniest character trait. sees that old man on the other side of the hanger and starts growling and caliban is like. literally WHAT is your problem.

#pers #i mean its like. incredibly tragic also bc junes like number one issue is being seen as a hero not a person by the people around her #her dislike of people is generally rated on the scale of how much a given person does this #and because of just how much saint does it he is right at the top of the list. she cannot be around him like straight up #she was also pissy about having to save him because of how osiris was like youre the only one who can! #and she was like. MAN. osiris i almost liked you why are you saying this to me. fine whatever i guess. #but also its really funny. cannot STAND this old gay mfer whos nothing but incredibly nice to me

[kayandjayz]

You know what's nice? Sleeping on the rug with my girlfriend and holding her so tightly it feels as though we're trying to climb into each other's skin.

#kiera speaks #the girlfriend chronicles #its just #SO nice #the way she rubs my back and runs her fingers through my hair #how gentle she is when she takes off my glasses when she thinks ive fallen asleep #how we fall asleep hand in hand and hkw she squeezes my hand all night long #pulling each other and holding tight #how o feel nothing but love and softness getting to be with her like that #how hard it is to fall asleep because im not ready to stop experiencing the whole thing #i just #she makes me feel so loved #so *wanted* #its incredible

[yongseungkim]

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#trying to get slightly mentally healthier has turned my life into disarray #its definitely not easy on my own so maybe i should give therapy a try again #but its been hard to find one that clicks like idk #cuz ive been thinking ltos of thoughts id ont know what to do with #and i feel bad for my closest friends bc i talk about the same things all the time #at least with a therapist i wouldnt feel as bad to talk about this same girl for the nth time lol #things are just so confusing #finally moved in with her and like #the worst part in me is like wow this is so disappointingly platonic LKSJDLFK #god to a friend whos been nothing but nice to me and has graciously offered her place and her bed #but idk what i subconsciously expected #i kinda wanna do things w her when shes home and like #yeah ive talked to her about this bc theres so many feelings involved #bc im used to visitng her place for more social things right and we did talk and talk a lot when i came over #but now that we're living together its not the same like everyone has their own wind down routine and stuff #and like while i might wanna talk w her and do things w her that feels so incredibly selfish of me :(((((((((((((((( #its so weird to room with a friend bc of that lol i havent had roommates ive considered friends #so i was more than okay with like locking myself up in my room but like w her i just wanna talk #and i think what was subconsciously eating at me too was just comparing myself w how she acts w other ppl which is the root to all sadness #*ik but like ahhh idk

[whonsper]

:3

#ITS HOMOPHOBIC THAT I CANT CALL HER MY GIRLFRIEND IN MY PERSONAL OPINION #and by that i mean in my mind i called her my girlfriend #i dont even know if i like her romantically or platonically. i think its a mix of both and i just love her a lot #i think i love her more than the stars and i think im also touch starved and id love to kiss her but more than that id love to hug her agai #i miss her so much im going to visit her this summer!! everyday i miss her more and more #my platonic wife my platonic soulmate shes my everything my love my darling sweetheart #she doesnt know any of this btw #she doesnt know the way i talk about her on tumblr dot com like shes my entire world #sometimes i doubt how important i am in her life as well but i know im her best friend. i know i mean the world to her. i know it #shes bad at conveying her emotions but i can tell in the way she says goodnight every night even if we werent talking #i can tell when she sends me random pictures of her cat #i can tell because im the only one whos read her pride and joy of a fanfic. i have very special privileges and i am honored #i know that she loves me so much and she just doesnt say it much #and thats okay. i hope she knows how much i love her too #it would be nice to kiss her too tho shes so fucking beautiful and amazing and literally the perfect fucking girl out there i swear #i will shout from the rooftops ill climb a mountain shout from the high heavens about how incredible she is #i love her to the stars and back #anyway slkdjfkjs