hello!!!
i would like to request possesive (lowkey toxic) bsf minghao like a short five or a drabble bcs i read your toxic mingyu one and it was sosososo good!!
tysm (i love your fics btw they’re so good)
18+ / mdi
content: toxicbsf!minghao, friends to lovers, he's toxic but its fine bc i have a crush on him so, manipulation, afab reader, smut, mentions of oral (f receiving), reader is a virgin, loss of virginity, penetrative sex, etc.
wc: 2064
a/n: thank uu!! im obsessed with toxicbsf!svt ive been wanting to write more of it since my mingyu fic tysm for requesting!!
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sometimes it stressed minghao out how sweet and innocent you were. how easy it was for a guy to catch your attention and for you to fall for anyone showed the barest amount of decency towards you.
well, it's not like minghao could really blame you. throughout the many years of being best friends, you had never really been in a serious relationship. there had been a quick fling here and there, but they never went far. not if minghao had anything to say bout it.
it wasn't that minghao wanted to get in the way of your relationships. he was simply protective. whether you realized it or not, he knew better. he knew the filthy ideas guys could get in their heads, specially when a pretty and sweet girl like you showed interest in them. which was why minghao always ran guys off one way or another before things bad a chance of going too far.
now, minghao wasn't dumb. he never made it known that he had been the one to somehow scare away (or sometimes frustrate away) possible suitors for you. he would simply speed up the inevitable. he knew they'd eventually use you and throw you away like most men tended to do to sweet girls like you.
despite your temporary sadness over the constant failed relationships, minghao knew that this was for the best. he wasn't about to allow some filthy man come in and sweep you off your feet just to defile your innocence when they could never love you in a pure and genuine way – in the same way that minghao did.
the task of keeping men off you got harder through the years. you were simply too beautiful to resist. that's how minghao first fell for you anyway (but, of course, he then fell for every other detail about you). you had men asking you out left and right, even ignoring his presence whenever he just so happened to be there. you were always shy and sheepish about it, accepting the compliments but always looking to minghao while seeking his approval of the guy in question (which he never gave, seeing as there was no man who deserved you).
however, there were occasions in which a guy would slip through the cracks, somehow charming you enough to concede to a date or to some flirtatious text messages without minghao's knowledge. the discovery of these instances would always lead to spats between the two of you, with minghao claiming that you clearly did not love him in the way he did you if you were so easily willing to hide things from him. these nights would usually end in you apologizing to him and telling him he was the only guy you needed.
but that did not happen every single time. currently, an anomaly had occurred, causing minghao to be disgusted by recent developments that had occurred in your relationship.
being as sweet and innocent as you were, it was clear to minghao that even a single second away from him would lead you to fall into the arms of some guy. which was what had happened a few weeks back, when you had enthusiastically agreed to a date with some boy you'd met at a party during the ten minutes in which minghao had left you unsupervised.
surprisingly, you had asked minghao to let you try things out with him. you were aware of minghao's protectiveness towards you (although not the full extent of it), but minghao was still surprised when you shyly asked him to let you see how things would go between you and this guy.
the two of you had been talking every day during those few weeks, even going on a few dates which minghao had to be made privy of as you came home overexcited after each one. he hated watching your temporary happiness with some loser who didnt deserve you. he knew it wouldn't last, but it still made him scowl at the thought.
the whole situation reached a crescendo the day you came back from yet another date with the guy, sheepishly telling minghao that you thought it was time for the next step in the relationship. this was, of course, something minghao was not willing to let you go through with.
since you had asked him to not get involved (not even allowing him to meet the guy thus far), he had left the situation alone with the hopes that it would crash and burn on its own, – after all, no man was good enough for you, nor did they compare to the way in which minghao treated you – but unfortunately for minghao, the past three weeks had gone well for the two of you. and now it was time for minghao to step in.
despite his initial anger at your revelation (anger which he kept hidden from you), he allowed you a safe space to talk to him about your 'relationship' and what you intended to do next, which then revealed a window of opportunity for minghao.
"i ... i'm nervous, hao."
"hmm? what makes you nervous, angel?", he was sitting beside you on your shared couch, with your legs basically intertwined.
"i dont know, i've just never ... you know ..."
he knew. you'd never outwardly spoken about it. but he knew you to be a virgin in every sense of the word.
"i dont know, angel. you're gonna have to be more specific."
"i've never had sex. i've never really done anything .."
as expected from his good and innocent girl. but the satisfaction of hearing you say those words died as soon as he remembered the context of the conversation. you were seeking advice in order to have sex with that guy whose name minghao had never even bothered to learn.
"that's okay. you don't have to if you're not ready," he assured you.
"no, but i am! i just ... i wont know what to do when it's time to ... you know, actually do it."
"oh?"
"what if i disappoint him? or what if he thinks im a freak for never having done anything?", you lamented, "am i? is it weird i've never done it? it's just ... it's never worked out between me and any other guy and– fuck you must be exhausted of hearing me lament myself every time i ultimately fuck things up before even leaving the talking stage," you chuckled at yourself in what seemed to be pity.
and minghao did somewhat pity you. despite being direct cause of many of those failed talking stages (something he would never let you find out), he still felt bad that you were feeling unseemly because of his doing.
"angel, no. stop. it's okay. you can always talk to me, you know that. and no. you're not weird for being a, a virgin, you're ... you're so special. no guy should ever make you feel pressured to do it. who is this guy anyway? is he making you– "
"no! hao. it really isnt that! it's me. i'm ... i just dont wanna embarrass myself. i dont ... i have no idea what i'm supposed to do. i ... i've wanted to, but i'm just scared," you pouted, looking down into your lap rather than at him.
he knew the perfect solution for this. it was the most obvious thing, but he needed to approach it in a way that worked out in his favor. he could not risk scaring you away. you were just vulnerable enough in this moment for minghao to finally rid himself of the nuance that had been in his way for these past weeks and finally have you for himself.
"well, i ... i cant help you? if you want. i could show you whatever you're curious about. and then you wont feel nervous anymore", he suggested, now having moved closer to you.
"isnt that cheating?"
he chuckled at the adorable confusion in your tone, reaching out to caress your cheek with his hand, "no, angel. id just be teaching you. as a friend, yeah?"
"oh ... a– are you sure? i dont wanna make you uncomfortable or anything ..."
"you could never make me uncomfortable, beautiful. so what do you say? hmm? let me help you?"
you silently nodded as you scoot even closer to him, giving him the green light to finally have you in the way he'd always wished.
"how about we start by kissing so you can ease into it, yeah?"
you nodded again, already too lightheaded to respond to him with words. minghao felt immense arousal at your innocent demeanor, adoring how your eyes fell directly to his lips the moment he mentioned kissing.
as gently as he could, he connected your lips, staring off with an innocent kiss before letting escalate further.
it was hard for him to control himself, so he didnt. he only gave you a few seconds of gentleness before beginning to kiss you with the fervor he had always wanted to, drinking in your adorable whines of arousal.
somehow your mewls became even prettier when his lips went south, now savoring the taste of your skin as he licked and nipped at your soft neck. his hands were not left unoccupied as they felt you up in ways that could not be defined as anything less than filthy. but you didnt seem to care. you seemed quite into it, actually, moaning endlessly in the way a girl deprived of pleasure would.
in this moment, minghao knew his wait had been worth it, as he now had you in his arms for his taking. and there was no way he would ever let you go after this.
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it was only a short while later that minghao would finally reach his ruin.
minghao finally had you bare and willing under him as he hovered over you on his bed. after having eaten you out to completion, he was almost completely spent from just the view of your gorgeous body receiving such pleasure for the first time. and now he could finally have you in a way that only he ever would.
"angel ... are you ready?" he breathed as his lips pulled away from your own.
your gaze was completely empty, clearly gone to the pleasure that minghao had such given you and the pleasure you knew was yet to come.
"please ... need to feel you so bad ..."
"oh? but i thought this was about learning, angel? what happened?", he emphasized his words by grinding against your bare core, whispering his teasing words into your ear.
"n– no ... it's not ... just want you ... please."
that was enough for him to finally plunge in, groaning at the slight resistance you showed despite having prepared you beforehand.
your body arched against his as you cried out his name for the nth time that night.
"oh, angel ... feel so fucking good. is it good for you, beautiful? am i teaching you well?"
"y– yes, fuck ... h– hao! feel so fucking good ..."
he ground into you mercilessly, in a way that would make anyone think that this was not your first time together. except it was the first of many.
"does it always feel this good? will it always make me want it like this?"
"no, beautiful. it will never feel this good. you know why?", his hand went to play with the tiny pearl between your legs, making you cry in response, "because you're mine", he speed up in his thrusts, matching the pace of his hand, "and only i can give you this pleasure."
"hao! fuck ... gonna– "
"i know, angel. me too. gonna cum with my pretty angel, yeah? be good for me and cum with me, beautiful."
"love y– you!," your wet cries and stutters already had him gone, but your declaration was what truly did him in, causing him to bury himself as deep as possible as he released him inside you, groaning at the way you pulsed against him as your own orgasm took over you.
upon regaining your breaths and laying together, minghao turned to you, cradling you into his chest as he felt you breathe against him.
"you're mine now, aren't you angel?"
"always," you softly peck his chest, cuddling right back into him.
there was no longer need for minghao to worry about your nameless fling, nor any that would've come after. he had finally kept you all to himself.
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g e n s o - 0 2.
your body jolts up as you feel yourself on the verge of passing out.
you quickly glance up at your teacher to see if he noticed you sleeping in his class, sighing quietly when you notice he was turned to the board.
you itched your most recent cut, wincing slightly as it hurt. at least its somewhat healing.. you thought to yourself staring at the scar. you rubbed your eyes to fight the sleep trying to consume you.
god its like im tired everywhere else except when its time to actually sleep..
you bounced your knee up and down waiting for the time to go by quicker. you couldnt wait to get out of this goddamn academy. why were all last days filled with sappy goodbyes and hugs? you couldnt wait to go home and take a nice long nap.
no more stressing out over school work. no more sleepless nights. no more burn outs.
that sounded like absolute heaven.
ring, ring, ring!
you jumped out of your seat and rushed home. you finally had months to actually prepare for the UA entrance exam. you had to make it in.
you promised him you would.
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"mom! can you please call bakugous mom and ask if they can come over? its been so long!" you pleaded once you got home. "fine.. let me call them" sighed out your mom, going to grab the phone.
you watched giddily as she called, "hey, do you think you could come over with bakugou today? y/n finally got out of school and wants to see him" she asked, you saw as her lips form a tight line, "oh.. i see.. its okay then! take care! " she ended the call.
"im afraid bakugou cant come over, she said he wanted to train for the entrance exam and nothing else." she continued but you werent listening.
he didnt want to see you.
after all these years of waiting patiently to see him was for nothing. he didnt care about your friendship with him. he just wanted to train and be a hero.
like always.
"izuku could probably come over though.. are you even listening y/n??" your mother questioned. you snapped out of your trance, "o-oh yeah! sure we can do that!" you replied, not even knowing what you were agreeing to.
"good! izuku will be able to come tomorrow so i suggest you take a bath, eat early, and head to bed to get some good rest. no more school until that entrance exam, i know you wont let us down." she smiled and ruffled your hair.
you smiled back and nodded. you werent planning on failing it anyways. even if bakugou didnt value your friendship anymore, you still made yourself a promise. you were going to make it in whether you liked it or not.
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you showered quickly and went downstairs to get some water. you looked at the food hungrily, but your mind said otherwise.
are you really going to eat? you already had so much food yesterday. its best you skip eating today so you wont gain much weight.
you looked down at your stomach and sighed as it rumbled, aching for food. one night cant hurt right? you turned away from the food and got a water bottle getting ready to sleep.
you walked into your room and placed the water bottle on your nightstand and turned off the lights. you let out a yawn and layed down, falling asleep right as your head hit the pillow.
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the next day you woke up and did your morning routine. you couldnt help but be excited to see izuku after 3 years.
as the doorbell rang you rushed to open the door and let out a gasp when you saw how much the green haired boy changed. you hugged him and smiled, "izu! oh my gosh ive missed you so much!" you pulled away and stared at him, "you look so mature now!"
he let out a small laugh, "i can say the same to you y/n! its been so long!" you stepped aside and welcomed him in. you walked up with him into your bedroom and sat down, "how was the last three years? is bakugou still a bully to you?" you ask.
he looks down sadly, "he hasnt changed much.. if anything its gotten worse. his egos so big now..!" he lets out a chuckle and scratches his neck, "just yesterday he burned my hero notebook and threw it in the fish pond outside the school..!"
you gasped, "what? i cant believe he did that! hes changed so much..." he looked down and continued, "that wasnt the worst part... he told me to take a swan dive off the roof if i wanted a quirk that bad.." you felt the anger boil in you.
"he said WHAT?" you asked in disbelief, "i cant believe i was friends with that piece of shit! and he said he wanted to focus on training instead of talkinh to me after 3 years! i cant believe he wants to be a hero with an attitude like that!" you yelled.
"its not that big of a deal..! besides... we both got into a villain attack yesterday and guess who saved us?? all might!!" he started fanboying about all the things he did, but you were too busy thinking about how horrible bakugou had became.
"but poor kacchan.. the villian was really going to take over him.. it was scary to look at.." he rambled, "still! its no excuse to hows hes been acting! but your lucky you got to see all might! i wouldve fainted if i actually saw him! " you exclaimed.
"exactly! but thats not the point, he said i could become a hero too!" he smiled, you looked at him confused "how..?" he looked at his hands and then back at you.
"promise me you wont tell anyone" you nodded and swore, "all mights quirk was given to him, he wasnt born with it. he told me he would train me so that he could pass on his quirk to me!" your mind went blank.
"how is that even possible? you cant inherit a quirk! thats not how things work. if its true how come none of the scientists have figured it out yet?" you rambled, "im not sure, but i can finally become a hero now! its all ive wanted, and to top it off i can be trained by the worlds greatest hero!"
you couldnt help but smile and feel happy for him. all he ever wanted was to be a hero and now it could finally come true. "im happy for you izu! we can try out for UA together!" he smiled and let out a sound of agreement. "maybe we can train together under all might! im sure he'll like you, but just be warned he doesnt always look muscular... he has a whole different body when his quirk runs out.."
you found out just exactly what he meant the next day when you met him and all might at the beach.
"so y/n.. this is all might" he said pointing at a man who look like a drug-addict, but then suddenly changed to the all might you saw on tv. "what the actual fuck" you gasped, "told you to be warned..! all might i want you to meet y/n l/n, my best friend of many years!"
you took a deep bow at his direction, "im thankful to be able to train under you, and for you to trust me with knowing about your identity and izukus new quirk" all might grinned, "of course kiddo, now whats your quirk?"
"i have the ability to control elements, so far its mainly the usual four; water, fire, air, earth. im most comfortable with water, and least with earth. each of my elements have its own drawback." he nods as you speak, "you both definitely need to start strength training more as your quirks will be powerful."
"so lets get started!"
at that moment you had started the ten months of absolute torture.
everyday was spent working harder than before. a meal plan that was composed so that your every meal had enough protein to not only loose the unwanted body fat, but to also build the needed muscle for your quirk. a sleep schedule so that you woke up everyday with enough energy to train the 5 gruesome hours every morning, and extra if you felt up to it.
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finally it was the morning of the long awaited entrance exam. you watched as deku screamed and let out every nerve he had in him. "i have to admit it.. you two have genuinely surprised me by cleaning the entire beach! " exclaimed all might.
he pulled up a photo of you two from the first day you started, "you two have definitely gotten stronger and you y/n, have grown more experienced with your quirk. young midoriya you have now worked your body enough to inherit my quirk... eat this." he handed deku a strand of his hair and you gagged silently.
"to inherit my quirk you need to consume some of my dna" he explained, "theres no time to explain! eat it or you two will be late!" deku closed his eyes and swallowed the strand making you cringe.
i think im gonna be sick!
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you walked with deku to UA and stared at it in awe. you fiddled with your jacket covering the tight tanktop you had on, paired with your army green cargo pants.
god im so nervous..!
"even though i ate his hair i dont feel any different.." sighed deku, you smiled and placed a hand on his shoulder "its probably just getting used to your body, besides i never felt any different when i got my quirk!"
"stupid deku..! get out of my way before i light you on fire..!" snarled a voice from behind you. your heart dropped as you turned and made eye contact with bakugou.
you couldnt believe how much he had changed. his face was more mature and his body had definitely grown more muscle. his attitude had just gotten worse though.
he knocked his shoulder into yours and walked away coldly, not saying a word to you.
"asshat" you whispered while continuing to walk with deku until he stumbled on his own feet and was frozen mid air. "are you okay?" said a high pitched voice from a brown haired girl beside you.
"i used my quirk to stop you from falling!" deku got up and started blushing, you giggled knowing he probably thought she was cute. "my names ochako uraraka! nice to meet you two!" you smiled as deku started glitching in real life. "my names y/n l/n and thats izuku midoriya! its nice to meet you too!"
you grinned as a plan came to mind, "well i have to meet someone inside.. you should get to know her izuku! it was nice meeting you! bye izu!" you ran away giggling. he had no choice but to talk to her now!
you took a seat next to a red haired boy and settled down looking at your card. looks like ill be in battle center A.. "hey what center are you in?" the boy asked you as he showed you his card , "oh um.. center A" he sighed, "guess we arent in the same one.. well i wish you luck anyways!" he grinned showing his sharp teeth.
you smiled back, "thanks! you too! also i really like the red hair!" he blushed, "thanks dude!" suddently the lights went out and the hero present mic started speaking.
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you finally got changed out of your jacket and prepared to fight. you stood outside of the battle center with a group of other people. you noticed bakugou but didnt awknowledge him, instead you made sure you had enough water in your pouch to use during the fight.
suddenly the doors opened and present mics voice could be heard counting down. "on your mark.. get set... go!"
it was finally the moment you had been training months for.
previous parts: pt. 00 / pt. 01
next parts: pt. 03 / pt. 04 / pt. 05 / pt. 06 / pt. 07 / pt. 08 / pt. 09 / pt. 10 / pt. 11 / pt. 12
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Forever And A Day (KTH x READER) series ♡ please hold my hand (chapter 11)
Summary: your lifelong friend is forced to face his true feelings for you once he breaks the number one rule of becoming friends with benefits: dont fall in love. He knows he loves you, but you on the other hand need more convincing of the most important thing: the right decision.
Genre: fwb. Roommates, friends to idiots to lovers, fluff, angst, smut, the whole 9 yards tbh.
Pairing: taehyung x female!reader
rating: 18+ (minors dni!!!)
word count- 6k
chapter warnings- swearing, fighting, so much fucking angst omg, anxiety, panic attack, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of body issues, mentions of abortion.
author note- Hey guys, apologies on the delayed posting, life has yet to calm down for me and im writing in my free time to try and distract me, (free time which is very limited) I wrapped up my semester and now im getting a job, recently someone close to me passed and on top of that im dealing with family fights and shit, so ive been trying to not rip my hair out. I love all of you guys so much and appreciate you for reading my stories, i know im a smaller author on here just writing silly bts fics and stuff but I find comfort in having a small community on here that I can run to when I need to just get away from everyone irl. Sorry for the blabbling but yes- bottom line is I just appreciate you all so much <3 feel free to ever message me anytime if you need someone to talk to, im here always.
enjoy the chapter!
Taehyung knew you were off
something wasnt right and he knew it, but he also knew to give you time to come to him on your own.
The next morning he sat with you in the bathroom, it was pretty early and birds could be heard outside chirping as the sun rose.
"so....whats going on?" he asked
You woke up first, trying (Failing) to come up with some way to explain that you are pregnant, he heard you pacing the room and stress organizing random shit, so he awoke too.
"nothing"
He frowned, "but last night you told me you wanted to talk" he gently reached out and pulled you closer to him, your eyes glued to the floor.
"oh that..i um...."
its now or never.
Do it.
tell him.
Tell him you are pregnant, we're gonna have a ba-
"i was wondering when I could have my phone back" you blurbed out
His eyes sank to yours, "Y/N...." he sighed, "when we get back to Busan"
"but i just want to check stuff...really quickly" you looked at him, eyes wide
"i dont think thats a good idea"
"why not?"
"because of everything that is going on...you dont need to get hurt by Kaito and his stupid ass friends anymore than you already have"
"but-"
"no" he shushed, "those rumors are only rumors and will die down soon, fuck that school....just enjoy the rest of the week with me" he softly whispered, pressing the lightest kiss to your lips as you frowned.
sure, it was an excuse to cover up the actual problem at hand, but you really did want your phone back, your mind had been so caught up with baby kim that you completely forgot about the shit storm you had to walk into the moment your flight landed back in Busan.
You refused to look at him as he rubbed your back, "cmon, lets shower"
you both ended up underneath the warm water, cuddling up as your face leaned into his chest, silently.
His hands softly roamed to hold your hips, squishing your skin slightly.
"hey!"
He softly giggled, "m'sorry baby"
"no" you scoffed and tried to move his hands off your waist. "I know I gained weight dont make me feel like shit"
He immediately frowned, "honey i wasnt trying to make you upset, you look beautiful, I think you actually look even prettier, you were losing so much weight this past year with stress and school....you look healthier"
"healthy is code for fat, no?"
Taehyung shook his head, "no baby, i mean it, you are so beautiful"
you turned around to face the shower head as he ran his fingers through your wet hair.
"why are you so moody?" he whispered softly, kissing your shoulder
"im not!"
He hummed, "kinda..."
"just stop" you sighed, wringing your hair out and pushing the curtain aside to get out, drying and wrapping your body with a towel as Taehyung watched, concerned.
You wanted to tell him so bad, but every time the possibility of even mentioning the situation tried to come up, you froze.
You still couldn't fathom it yourself....you were so young...and about to have a kid that you didnt plan for.
You hated it. You hated every ounce of it, because now you were growing attached to the small little thing, it didnt even have a formed body yet and it was already starting to make you feel protective and soft.
You found yourself resting your hand on your abdomen every now and then, not even realizing it. You also saw yourself whispering to it as you ranted when you were alone.
You didnt hate the baby, its not like they asked to be there, it was yours and taehyungs fault, and it was a symbol of the love between you both.
What you hated however- was the fact you knew you didnt have what it takes to be a mother, and the baby would end up resenting you and never speaking to you after 18 years.
You were guilty and sad and struggling, and all you wanted to do was be held and loved and told that it was gonna realistically be okay.
And you knew the only way you could get that is if you told someone.
The rest of the week went by okay,
Your mother had taken tae and you up to her friends farm where you both had worked and helped him plant flowers, you also discovered that this "friend" of hers was anything but.
"hey they look kinda cute" taehyung giggled, filling the soil with his potted flowers
you crossed your arms, "no they dont, shes literally seeing someone and didnt even tell me!! her daughter!!! can you imagine??"
Taehyung smiled, "well...its not like you and i arent keeping anything from her right" he smirked
"if we told her we were 'dating' I doubt she would be shocked, this is different"
"how so?"
"Shes just...." you sighed and watched the front porch of his farm, where your mom and him sat on the swing "thats not my dad"
"dont you want her to be happy, y/n?"
"this isnt about that....what if he breaks her heart like dad did? what if he just fucking leaves when things get difficult?"
Taehyung looked at you softly, knowing this was more than you being upset at your mom finding a romantic interest and not telling you.
"its okay" he whispered, pulling your attention back to the flowers.
Your mind was racing, and suddenly you got hit with a thought that knocked the wind out of you.
What if taehyung left?
the men in your life dont have a good track record here, and what if him being happy over the baby isnt true, what if he is mad and leaves....its so easy for him to just leave.
As the trip ended, you began to distance yourself slightly, as if you were already trying to prepare for when he does go.
The morning of your flight, the thought of getting on another plane ride nauseated you
"we gotta get you anti-motion sickness pills" taehyung smiled, handing you your coffee order from the airport starbucks. "you arent even on the plane yet and you seem pale."
Coffee, not good for the baby. You read that on a forum last night.
You nod, looking off into the distance as he tries to hold your hand to walk to the end of the terminal, you slowly step away
"you ok?" he whispers, looking at you
"y-yeah...just clammy...dont wanna hold hands"
He nodded in understanding.
You wanted to hold him, climb on his back as he walked even, but you needed to distance yourself, in case it ended up being just you and baby.....just as was with your mom and you.
As you found your way to your seats, you tried to just sleep away all your thoughts, but it proved more difficult than you hoped.
Taehyung slept peacefully as you bounced your knee and picked at your nails. The poor woman sitting in front of both of you struggled to keep her own children in their seats while she fed her newborn, who was beginning to wail.
Damn....you were overwhelmed just watching
Taehyung woke up and darted his eyes to the kids in front of him, one boy peeking around to both of you and sticking out his tongue.
He softly giggled and waved, whispering "hello" as he shot you a knowing look.
They made a small interaction with eachother, doing silly faces back and forth until the younger child got tired and crawled over to his mothers lap once more. To say it wasnt cute was a lie.
Maybe he would be okay, perhaps you were overthinking it all
He would be excited, right?
You weakly smiled and took a sip of water, stomach churning.
Taehyung lifted the arm-rest so he could move closer, his arm pulling you to him as he kissed your head- you were trapped.
"Want some mint gum?" he whispered, reaching into his little bag
"no im okay"
"princess it might help the nausea?"
you sighed and leaned away, "im fine just stop"
he frowned and looked back at the small tv in front of him, his own mind stressing over if he did or said something wrong to you. Youve been super moody towards him since the trip and it was a tad bit concerning.
You felt awful, but you were overstimulated with so much shit that you couldnt put on a lovey dovey act right now.
Taehyung put his headphones on and unwrapped the piece of gum, placing it into his own mouth as his head rested against the seat, defeated.
this is wrong
this is so fucking wrong, and you know it. He has been there for you time and time again, and you just push him away when you know he would be more than accepting of the situation that very much involves the two of you.
Rip the fucking bandaid off.
Later that night, you two finally arrived home to your apartment after getting out of your uber.
"let me take these to the elevator" tae smiled, taking your luggage and throwing it over his shoulder.
"thanks" you whispered, rubbing your eyes in exhaustion.
You leaned against him after pressing the button of your floor and getting your key out.
"sleepy?" he mumbled
"yeah..."
the doors open and both of you walk down the hall, passing doors of other apartments.
It was peaceful, being home.
You had fun with your mother and spending your birthday at your childhood home, but nothing will beat the comfort of this apartment.
You watched the back of taehyungs head as he walked in front of you, holding two suitcases while making sure his fish baby was okay as well, it was adorable.
Your eyes were fixated on him as you approached the end of the hall
You placed the key into the door and practically watched him drop everything to the floor, (besides the tiny fish tank)
"we can unpack tomorrow right?" he sighed, tiredly
you nod and begin to walk into your bedroom, where taehyung follows.
after getting comfy and clean, the two of you settled into bed in the dark room.
Taehyungs arm draped over your waist, keeping your back flush against his chest.
You sighed, closing your eyes as peacefully as you could as his lips found their way to your shoulder and neck
"tae-"
"i missed you" he whispered, a hint of humor in his voice
your eyes stayed glued to the wall
"dont get me wrong, I love your mom, but she is the number one cock blocker-"
"im tired and want to sleep." you speak, voice stern now.
he pulled away as if you burned him, "...sorry" his head fell against the pillow as he rolled to lay on his back.
It was quiet for a moment, "did i do something wrong?" he whispered
you took a second to reply, "what?"
"this entire week, things have been....weird....with us. Did i upset you, princess?"
Taehyungs voice was low and shaky, as if he was afraid of breaking you. Sure, the week was bad in the aspects of Kaito and his bullshit, but there was no reason to take it out on taehyung.
"are you saying this because I dont want to have sex right now?" you sat up, looking at him with disgust.
He quickly threw his hands up in defense, "baby- no!! Thats not it at all, its nothing to do with anything like that"
You audibly sighed, running your hands over you face as you listened to him speak
He continued, "you just seem....off...and i want to make sure that you are ok"
to make sure....that you are ok.
The man who has little to worry about in this life, and situation wants everything to be okay.
You threw the covers off your body, rising to your feet as you walked towards the bathroom, suddenly it was too much again.
Too much to juggle, too much for one single woman to deal with at once, it wasnt fucking fair that you were here right now.
You blamed yourself because you both were careless, and now you blame yourself because you have authority, and responsibility for this child. Yes- he may want it, but your mind races back to the fact of how he struggles to even look after himself. He might get overwhelmed and give up, your life may fall apart, and hes rambling about YOU being OKAY?
"where are you going?" he got up quickly, following after you
You pivoted on your heel, blocking him from entering the bathroom with you, "i just want to be alone right now taehyung, Please"
He scoffed, "you cant act like this, get me all worried, then run away and hide, thats not fair!"
Your eyes widened, "not fair? why is how I act not fair to you? why do you assume every action, every emotion, every breath is about YOU??"
He stood back a little, not prepared for how you suddenly turned from cold shoulder to just plain angry.
"y-you have no idea!" you gripped your hair as you got a glance of yourself in the mirror, and as quick as it was, tears began to form at the lining of your eyes.
"idea of what, y/n? you are scaring me" taehyung whispered, unsure if he should attempt to comfort you.
You took a few breathes and rubbed your arms to self soothe yourself, "Its late....im tired....youre tired, lets just sleep please"
"sleep? after this?"
you nod, silently shutting the door to the bathroom as he stood in front of it. "you are gonna sleep in the fucking bathroom?"
"who cares if I do?"
He sighed, looking down. He wanted to help and was only met with a door slamming to the face, and you ignoring his pleas to help you with whatever this was.
He tried once more, hand jiggling the door handle, "baby...baby please....."
You sat on the other side, your back pressed against the door and your knees to your chest as tears fell freely now. You felt like an awful person- perhaps you were one.
He whispers, voice cracking, "whats going on? why wont you....why cant I help?"
You wiped your eyes, looking down at your hands as taehyung spoke behind the door. "please just go...."
"no...im not going to leave you when you are in an emotional state like this"
"please." you try once more
"y/n, im not joking around anymore, open the fucking door."
Your heart raced at his sudden fed up tone, you knew he wasnt going to let this rest tonight.
"y/n....open the door"
the two rooms were filled with silent breathing, it felt like forever before you suddenly stood up as he listened to your shuffling.
You blew your nose and looked at yourself in the mirror again, a mess. an absolute mess, how could one fuck up this badly?
suddenly...this is beyond you, especially in this moment.
Its not just your life anymore, and you are being selfish a bit. He has a right to know, its not just a you problem. You sigh, eyes on the mirror. all you could see was someone whos had maybe one of the biggest downfalls of the century....but you also saw a girl who was vulnerable, and wanted to try.
Your hand shakes as it moved to unlock and open the door, you met taehyung who stood there with fear in his eyes, obviously more than just concerned over the bizarre behavior.
"taehyung." you whispered so quietly, that if any other noise was occurring in the house, he wouldnt have heard you.
He stuck his eyes onto yours, not leaving for a second.
"i-im.." you choked, trying to compose yourself.
"youre what, princess?" he whispered, using your same soft and comforting tone
shaking your head, you let out a soft sob, feeling embarrassed but knowing there was no other way around the situation anymore, and the longer you dragged this out, the worse things crumbled
you said it in one, big, relieving exhale. it felt wrong to say aloud, but your chest was no longer tight, breathing was slightly easier.
"i'm pregnant."
Taehyung's air left his lungs, his face contorted into different expressions, mouth moving to form words yet nothing was coming out.
You couldnt look at him anymore, eyes darting to your feet.
"i-im sorry...fuck" you walked past him, moving into the living room as he stayed where he was.
You stood in the center of the room, shocked at what you had just done on some random night, the clock read 2:28am. You wanted something special, and instead you dumped it on him as if you were telling him what you were making for dinner.
he looked around, the words you just said suddenly hitting him, suddenly becoming real.
"youre what?" he whispered to himself, heart beginning to race as he turned around quickly and chased after you.
you had moved to sit near the window, looking at the city in the dark room. His soft footsteps could be heard over your quiet cries.
"dont hate me" you cried, "please dont hate me" you wiped your eyes, unable to turn around to face him. "I already hate myself, I know this isnt what we had planned but god...taehyung," you turned your head softly, eyes blood-shot, "please dont go" you whispered.
He stood behind you, hands clammy.
You tried your best not to have a full blown meltdown, you were already tired enough.
He slowly sank to his knees, a softer expression overtaking his previous one.
"i-if you w-want me to abort it, I dont think I can" you sobbed, "i know school isnt even done yet, we are so young and everyone will hate me, im so sorry taeh-"
He inturrupted you quickly, wrapping you into his arms tightly, tears of his own falling. "no, no no,.." he tucked your face into his neck, softly swaying. "no...no no"
You only cried harder, your hands clutching his shirt with a plea to not leave.
"I-" he sighed, taking a few breathes, "I could never leave you" his hands tightened, "you mean so fucking much to me, and you think I would ever leave, or ask you to abort the baby? something we made, together?"
His eyes were shut, voice trembling with fears of his own, however most of all he was relieved you finally told him.
"i love you so much, god y/n, I love you so much" he rocked a little, hand brushing up and down your back. "you thought I would hate you? baby, no....God no"
"I was so scared" you whisper, unable to pull away
"it's going to be okay, i promise, I know its not the ideal situation, but im not going anywhere, im here for you, okay?"
You sniff, his thumb caressing your cheek softly
"we are going to be good parents, a good supportive family, i'll never leave you"
his hand gently moves down to your stomach, holding the non noticeable baby. suddenly everything made sense.
"we got this, right? we...we can handle anything, because we are a team, and I love you"
"i love you too" you sniff, head pounding.
His eyes scanned yours, "keeping it, is what you want right?"
You nod
"then thats what we will do, and guess what? everything will be fine" he smiled so softly and lovingly, your heart felt constricted. "it'll be difficult, but we are here, together."
"together" your voice is tired and scratchy, a part of you feeling weightless as the fact he now knows sinks in. Its no longer a built up secret you have to hide, he knows.
"and...maybe being parents will be fun?" he giggles quietly, "we can do trips with them, nothing has to change, y/n."
You sigh softly, looking at him, "a lot is going to change, and you need to prepare yourself for that, its not like having a pet, its a real baby with real needs that depends on us for survival..." you look at your clasped hands, "its serious shit"
He nods, frowning a bit
"and I need to start getting a job that pays more than what Ms.Choi is giving me....this is gonna be expensive, I dont know what we are gonna do" your hand covered your face as your breathing picked up again, taehyung watching.
"we will work it out, is what we will do" he spoke softly, he gently removed your hands from your face. "have you seen some of the people who have kids and make it out alive? I think you and I will be just fine...." he speaks "and plus....I think our parents would be more than happy to not only hear about this, but help out too"
You sighed, "fuck I forgot we need to tell our families, Taehyung thats gonna be so embarrassing! my mom-"
"probably already suspected we were closer than 'friends', and how is that embarrassing? our parents have been trying to push us together for quite some time"
"because I dont talk about this shit with people, even my mom, and it makes me .....uhg"
He giggles softly, "shh...its okay, im sure she knows you arent 19 anymore, we are adults"
adults. yeah.
His hands gently held your sides, "my beautiful girl....how long have you known?"
You pushed the hair out of your face, "since Wednesday, I took a test on my birthday"
Taehyung frowned, "and youve been dealing with this alone since then?"
You nod, "remember when I said I needed to get tampons? yeah...I bought a test instead" you slightly smile.
He nodded "hm..im sorry you had to deal with that, Your behavior is forgiven"
"oh about that...im sorry for being a bitch to you, you were just trying to help."
He sighs softly, "y/n, you dont need to apologize, I was just worried about you....im sure within the next 9 months we will deal with a lot of scary emotions, so I better suck it up"
You smile, "i'll try to be good"
"you already are" he kissed the top of your head, helping you both stand to your feet. He looked at your stomach, a smile in knowing what was in there. "baby" he gestured, "thats ours"
You nod, hands resting on his shoulders,
"we will be fine?"
"we will be more than fine...we will be great"
-
The next morning, you had decided on taking a day off to just live in bed.
This was your last day before you returned to classes for the last bit of the semester, so you wanted to take it easy as possible before facing the crazy drama to come.
You laid under the covers, sipping the water taehyung had given you as he placed the duffle suit case onto the end of the bed, taking out the clothes and folding them, putting them into your closet.
"so have you thought about calling your doctor?" he spoke up, watching you eat the breakfast he made you.
You sat up a bit, "yeah, im gonna call her today possibly, ill make an appointment for this weekend."
He smiles shyly, "can I come?"
You couldnt help but giggle, "you are the father, so yes obviously you can"
"well I didnt know what your boundaries are here..."
You tilt your head, "what do you mean?"
"well like.." he folded one of your dresses, "we havent established our "relationship" if you will, and so I wasnt sure what the boundaries were for me-"
You smile, "I mean....taehyung...we are having a child together, I dont think we have to worry about formalities anymore, right?"
He smiles, shrugging as he hung up more of your clothes, something you insisted on doing yourself but the overprotective taehyung was already sprung into action, forcing you to do absolutely nothing.
"well when you say it like that It sounds funny" he giggled
"hmm then do as you want" you mumbled as he climbed onto the bed, sitting next to you and holding your hand. He cleared his throat before speaking "y/n...would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend, officially?"
"that is so middle school" you snort
"yes or no"
"wow, an offer that includes strings attached, thats new"
"hey you were the one who suggested friends with benefits"
"and now we are sitting here pregnant"
Taehyung giggled, "yes or no!!!"
"hmm.....yeah I guess"
you laughed as he flung onto you, kissing all over your face and holding you close, his long legs knocking off some of the laundry piles he made.
"there goes the clothes" you frown
"aish I'll fold them again, dont worry angel" he sat up and stood after giving you a long kiss on the lips, making you blush.
You want to call yourself silly for worrying so much, the taehyung standing in front of you is incomparable to the one you imagined he would be after telling him, you are relieved but know a lot more is still to come.
You knew taehyung loved you, and wanted to care for you as much as possible, but God, little did you know to what extent.
"taehyung I can walk to class myself, Walking is good for me"
You looked back at your boyfriend as he watched you exit the car while dropping you off at class the next day.
"just be careful, ok? and dont let anyone try anything with you" his eyes scanned the students roaming the campus. "call me if they do, yeah?"
You smile, nodding, "sure....okay, I love you"
"I love you too, ill pick you up at 3 ok?"
You nod softly, waving him off as you begin to walk to class.
You were sweaty with anxiety, eyes forced down to the ground you walked on to avoid any weird glares thrown your way.
This whole Kaito and Annie situation was, and should be, the least of your worries right now- all you wanted to do was finish the semester and be done for a little while, enjoying your pregnancy the best you can with Taehyung at home..
You walked into your theatre class, you were met with Chae, who you havent spoken to in months.
"y/n...where have you been?" she raised a brow, looking up from her phone.
"um, vacation"
"oh" she lowers her gaze on you, you suddenly feel angry that she even feels like its ok to communicate with you right now after taking Kaitos side.
"hows taehyung?" she continues as you take a seat
"im here for class, and class only, dont start anything with me" you spoke without even looking in her direction.
"I just think its funny that you flea right when everything is going on" she shrugged
"I went to go see my mom, not that its any of your buisness"
"listen, kaito isnt a great person and all but he is my friend, and you cheated on him with taehyung after blowing him off"
You scoffed, "oh like how he almost blew my face off? with his fist?"
She sighed, "and poor annie too....she liked taehyung and you just-"
You stopped her from finishing, "listen, chae, You dont know anything and If i were you i would worry a little less on my life and more on yours, everyone knows you failed your final exam because you cant keep your head out of other peoples asses for 3 fucking seconds" you bit and immediately stood, walking out before class even started.
maybe your english class will go better than this one.
-
Later that night, you sat in bed, head full of worry of what the next 2 weeks would bring at school.
in total, 5 kids had came up to you asking if the "rumors were true!"
you wish you had the willpower to punch their stupid fucking faces, but you needed your degree.
You decided against telling taehyung, which, yes, has proved to not be a good thing to do but you didnt want him to worry anymore about you. You are 23, a big girl who can handle childish college drama. they just need to get over it, and hopefully after they see that you dont care, they will move on with their lives.
"hey im back" taehyung walked into your room, a bag of snacks from the small store down the street, you were craving chips and he wasted no time going to grab them for you.
"are these good?" he held up the snacks, making your stomach growl,
"mm yes, thank you baby" he came over and gave you them, kissing you on the forehead. "what else did you get?" you smiled, looking at the semi-full grocery bag in his hand.
He turned shy, a small innocent smile on his face, "oh um.." he reached into the bag and pulled out a small teddy bear that had the initial of K on it, it was utterly adorable. he giggled softly, "I saw it there and thought it would be cute for the uh, baby" he spoke quietly.
"taehyung" you pouted, holding the bear, "im gonna cry this is such a soft thing for you to do" you giggled and looked at him, "they will love it honey"
"you think?" he smiled
"yes of course" you cupped his face, your heart filled with so much love for this boy, "come here" you whispered, arms reaching over his shoulders as he gently laid against you.
"youre so fucking cute...I love you" you whispered, hand running in his hair
"I love you too" he hummed, eyes closing against your chest.
You looked at the bear again, brining it closer to you. "K for kim"
"yess" he giggled softly
You kissed his head gently and held him tight, "thank you...for being here."
"I wouldnt miss out on this for anything, y/n."
You tried your best to not tear up at his soft words
"can I?" he gestured to your stomach
you nod, curious to what he wants to do
He carefully rolls up your tank top and kisses your stomach, whispering something
"Hi baby, its tae- er, its your daddy" he giggled, looking up at you as you watched happily
"I know from your perspective, things seem crazy but I promise mommy and I are gonna make you the happiest baby ever, we love you so much" he smiled, kissing your stomach once more as you felt tears fall. “We won’t let anything happen to you”
You brushed his hair back as he looked up, eyes meeting yours. “Honey why are you crying?”
“Because” stupid hormones.
He smiled and crawled up, kissing you gently before you brought him down to lay on you again.
“It’s silly…I was so fucking scared to tell you this, so afraid I’d be alone, or that shit would fall apart….but strangely now I feel like for the first time in forever, things are going ok”
He smiles as well, “I feel the same way, im genuinely happy”
“Me too…maybe this was meant to happen, hm?”
“The universe planted a baby into our laps and suddenly we are cured of any issue”
You laughed, “well, not quite, but in most aspects I feel happier than I did before, im glad we are doing this together”
“I am too, it’s gonna be so fun going to all the appointments and then finding out the gender, oh and getting to decorate the nursery”
You rubbed his back, feeling content in his words. “I was thinking about when we tell your family and mine, they are gonna be like oh my god when we tell them we are dating, then boom, pregnancy!”
He looked up, watching you as you spoke.
“Aren’t your parents gonna be angry we did things in the wrong order? Baby before marriage? What if I get disowned” you teased
“Listen, we both know my parents words aren’t anything to take seriously, they are all bark and no bite…im not gonna let them or anyone else do or say anything to hurt you”
“I just want us to be happy”
“And we will be, in our own little bubble” his hand gently rubbed your stomach “are you nervous? About motherhood?”
“More than anything taehyung”
“I’ll be here to help you, ok? You are such a sweet and loving person, you’ll have no issue being a mom and doing it flawlessly at that”
“It’s not just my skill I’m worried about, it’s just….it’s silly but I’m scared about my body changing. I struggle with these things and I know weight gain is healthy in pregnancy but…”
“Baby I refuse to hear you talk badly about your figure…look at you, so fucking sexy and you don’t even have to try. I don’t care what weight you are, or how you look now vs in 9 months, I love you for you and nothing will change that”
You frowned as he kissed all over your face “I love you too…”
“Eat your snacks baby, then let’s get some sleep yeah?”
“Yes…” you opened up the chip bag as taehyung got into his night clothes.
“Oh I scheduled the appointment today” you spoke up, biting into a wafer.
“Yeah? How was it?”
“Well I was a little timid about telling her but she was very happy to know and said she will take me in on Saturday morning for an ultrasound”
Taehyung jumped back into bed, “ah! This is so exciting baby”
“Mm” you giggle, giving him a chip.
“Do we find out the gender?”
You found his words adorable “no sweet boy, that’s not for a bit, but we get to hear the heartbeat and take home sonograms”
“Ohh, yay!” He smiled, cuddling back into you, arm resting over your abdomen protectively.
“Did you feed fishy?” You gesture to the small tank next to the bed. Taehyung shot up “shit…I will now, sorry little guy” he frowned.
“Hope you don’t forget to feed our human baby”
“No promises” he teased, sprinkling some food pellets into the water for the small yellow fish.
You waited for him to return next to you as he settled under the covers. “Comfy baby?” He whispered, shutting the lamp off.
“Mm” you cuddled into him once more as he rubbed your back.
“I love you”
“I love you more my angel, goodnight”
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