#joanna: thats most damn :

[billynteddy]

Oddly specific headcanons for the members of wyld stallyns?

Ted’s favorite cuss word is bitch.. Bills is shit,,, Elizabeth is learning so she just says FUCK really loud....Joanna only knows damn and hell

#elizabeth: i hath spilleth mine drink......FUCK!!!! #joanna: thats most damn :/ #bill and ted

[nivks]

i feel like #followforevers and online love letters etc etc havnt really been a thing in 2018 but u know what. thats dumb. 2019 is better and were all gonna be emotional and loving towards the people that make us feel emotions speciffically - Love! so heres a #followforever emo loveletter ashdfg gahwahh OKAY EDIT: kjhsdf i finished writing this mess and its SO LONG i am SO OSRRY i cant even SPELL im so sorry whatever im gonna post it still cos maybe hopefully simething i have to say mihgt make someone smile. just skip to ur namee. happy 2019 kids! nick WILL become a dad!.

@harryfeatjack @rightgirl @happilygryles @rocketmommy @19-million-memories @drugsnotwar @ithadmefromhello @spyro2018 @acuzena @carswinky @shiftylinguini @bourgeoix @hiatusniall @julesg @itsallaboutzarry @ihavea1dbloghelp okay we might have been close but you dont post much anymore, we might be new mutuals or like?? might just have that special follow and love from afar type thing happening but you all do make my dash a happier place and i hope 2019 is incredible for u all and u are all amazing people who do brighten my day. thanks for making 2018 better!! love u. 

@chantillystars Miss Starsadrift, lover of my hart. ur so fucking BRIGHT andsweet and u always make me laugh and ur always there when im crying and u light up whatever place youre in and i know that for a fact cos when we went on holidays together you honest to god were like. the brightest and beautifulestestest in the whole street. youre also an excellent cook and the kitchen we were in was just shit. love ur snaps and msgs and how much you love gardens and flowersand sunshine. glad youve been working on feeling better about Life and its been helping cos u deserve it alllll <3<3 love u like u love yoongi. 2018 wouldve been terrible without u. @clipsandstuff your tags at times make me crack up and your love for nick is so warm and iv followed ur blog for years and youre always so consistently lovely and i hope 2019 treats u well <3 @ladsfm you barely ever have time to be on anymore but youre like. out there. living your life and i see u on instagram and ur so incredible and SMART and beaiutful and then whenever i text you a #nickupdate or more specifically a #harrynickupdate your all caps replies always make me smile so big also you are quite possibly the most lovely person iv met i lvoe you! @lordendsavior i made my url dikolasgrimshaw. for you. for me a bit too but you were that final little push. the voice of reason that said yeah! do it! thats how much i love you. akjsg anyway JOANNA you are somehow so lovely and kind but like Real at the same time and u have a way of saying your opinions that makes me wish i knew how to fucking get my thoughts out as put together? as you. idk everytime i see you like giving advice and stuff im always like YUORE SO good you really are just! so good for this world and the people you talk to. i hope everyone knows how lucky they are that gets to talk to you and stuff ily. @cashewdani your tags. iv been following your blog since like? 2013? and i have no idea what your look like and im only guessing where youre from and what youre name even is but pretty much every post you make has incredible tags and has inspired me to watch movies/tv shows that i use to skip over and you are alawys so fucking delightful to see on my dash and i feel like everytime i see you posting it brings a smile to my face. also youre writing is incredible and i feel like iv seen you posting about new jobs and new living places so i hope 2019 is super amzing for you cos you deserve it! @yourghostcat <3<3<3<3<3 gamZE you are! you ar so bright and loving and warm and sweet and gentle and FUNNY and i feel liek every single time we talk im alawys just like ‘i love you gmze’ but honselty i DO and i hope u know youre super important and im so glad i know you. every single on of youre edits are beautiful and all the work u put into them is so appreciated and ur so talented! i hope 2019 is so good to you <3 @sehunchis u barely go here anymore but im including you anyway whocares KELLY i love you. your love for vivi?? feel that. love for vivi and sehun togeth? fukcing Feel that. youre so funny and rly smart and thoughtful and u make ppl so happy by just being there and i miss being in new york with you but seeing ur tweets still makes me smile just as biggggggg lvoe you. @lollipop-popsx youre so damn funny whenever youre done with anons purposely trying to start shit but you are so so lovely to everyone else and u pretty mch always come across as genuinely happy and caring and i rly hope that you have a super amazing 2019 love uou. @fullstopmgnt again u dont go hre anymore but just in case! i LOVE you and im so GLAD ur doing better and feeling better and working on getting even better im proud of you my lovely. miss u i WILL see you soon i have gifts for youuu @meliora i was gonna say i got to hug you TWICE this year but dunkirk came out in two thousand and seventeen im a fool whatever i got to hug you ONCE this year and while thats not really a lot its still!! im so happy i got to meet u cos ur SO FUKCING lovely and beaituful and warm as a person and so chill and have such good taste in music and hair colours and i know theres been some tough times this year for you but you deserve the fucking world so i hope 2019s nothin but great stuff ILY @baaatgurl bby gir lover darling MARIE light of my life. u are! incredible and i feel like whenever we meet up im laughing and smiling constantly and even when were not together i can like. listen to audio messages u send me and even when im sad i know i got something to smile about cos ur right there! u mean a lot to me and im so so so happy we met on this dumbass website in like 2013 youre so so so important. shits been tough but 2019s gonna be The Year and 2020? were leaving australia together. @cptkirked finish the walking dead. ALJHFGLDS okay FOR REAL first of all thankyou for making me watch love actually WAIT did i tell you! when u and me watched it and my brother was like ‘that movies terrible’ HE TXT ME LIKE 2WEEKS AGO and was like ‘just rewatched love actually. i get you both now. was good movie.’ ghhhhhahh i think ur relaly great and u always make me laugh and from your tweets i feel like youve had an up and down year so i rly hope 2019s good for you in every single way cos u really deserve it. love u. @nightandstarlight milesssss we havnt talked too mcyh this year but knowin youre out there living youre life! just happy. thankyou for alays been sweet and kind and positive and making me smile. hope 2019 is beautulf for you. @plaintoast TAELOr i know 2018 has definyely had highs and lows for you but 2019 IWLL be great and u deserve honeslty SO MYCH happiness and i hope u get all of it. u are so soft and lovely i lvoe u truly. @gettingdizzy giggled when i saw your url just then dont know why. SAVANAH do u have any idea how incredble u are? ur so important and ur texts like 90% of the time make me laugh and the other 10% i wanna like fight someone on your behalf. ur smile is 100/10 and i can not wait till the day we get to MEEt. ur gonna fuckign graduate this year and finish school and 2019s really gonna be your year and i love u so mcuh. @twelvegrimmyplace LIZ! LIGHT OF MY life. u are one of hte most beautiful and funniest and ur so fucking Good and lovely and always make me smile. u also make me laugh a lot and i lvoe ur tags and ur love for nick and nick and m/esh and nick and Glasses is the reason why 2019 has to be a good year. thankyou for ebing you. love you. @erinsbreakfast cheesed real hard with my smile then as i typed your url. thankyou for always making me smile big time and making me LAUGH and thanks for loving nick the way u do. ur super sweet and super beautful and i hope 2019 is everything u dream it to be. ur incredible and i voel you. @silveredsound YOU are BEAUTUFUL and always alawys making me smile with your tags and posts and ur heavenly pictures of Harry Styles and Harry Styles’ Hair in HQ and ur thoughts about nick gshaw. thankyou for being you and i hope u know how amazing u are. i love you. happy 2019 darling. also thnakyou for the gift that was TOWEL FIC. ur a hero. and ur wrtiing is!!!!!! stuff of dreams ur so talented hoenslty @magog83 ur literally the hero that goes above and beyond for the whole nick fandom and we will never be able to thankyou enough. you are increbible and amazing and lovely and you deserve so mych happiness and good things. thaknyou for so mych youre BEAUTIFUL. @junkshop-disco every single cow i pass by in my day to day life i automtically name mabel. ur posts make me smile and ur so lovely and kind. you are so fucking talented. i hope 2019s super super lovely fro you. @kilimiria !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mariE!!!!!!!! do u KNOw how big i smile whenever i see i have msgs from you? okay i know it takes me forever to reply a lot of the time but like literally msgs from you can turn my whole day from shit to the happiest of days. thanks for existing and being you na dmaking me smile u are sososo lovely and funny and beaitufl and i hope 2019 gives you the entire world. i lveo you. @apopstarontheradio thakns for making me smile a lot this year and being funny! and kind and lovely and having a big heart. hope 2019 beings u nothin but happiness loverlyyyy @thegreenaubergine i love YOu you make me laugh and make me smile and ur so so sweet and so lvoely i really relaly hope 2019 is great for you!!!!!! @hinickgrimshaw everytime i see u posting amd ur tags i feel like. ur just really great and amzing. sounds lame typing it out auhfhahhhhh BASICALLY everytime i see you saying things and read ur tags on nick posts im just like ‘youre SO good i trust everythignu say.’ youre so so lovely and u make me smile and im pretty sure i have a screenshot of a post u made once cos it made me smile on a bad day. anwyay i hope 2019 is GREAT for u and i think ur fucking incredible and ur love for nick is so soft. @writsgrimmyblog i smiled at your url like you could see it or someting kjhasdk WRIT u are. so organised and smart and FUNNY and beautiful and LVOELY and i am soossoso lucky to know you. youre nick thoughts and posts are a joy to read and ur writing is incredible and u made grimmy appreciation fest happen whcoh was!!!!!!! i Love you. 2019 better be the best for you <3 @fapfapfashion ayhhhh!!!!!!! ZHENya. i thnk i first saw you when u started leaving anon msgs for joanna you ARE so so so soft and kind i love you so much. you ALWAS make me laugh and you have some of the best tags and i hope everyone that knows you in real life knows how lucky they are to know youuu LOVE you a lot. hope 2019s super freakin amzing. @blueskybuzz77 youre so sweet and lovely and i hope so much good happens fro you in 2018 also u make me laigh and u deserve the WOrld LOVE you @fantofirehazard ur lovely and super sweet nad ur tags make me laugh and  i hope 2019 is increible for you because you deserve it a lot <3 

@grimshaw @brckhmptn i would die for you.

#i am SO sorry

[survivorreelsmagicwithin]

Episode 2 - “Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk” - Joshua (through Autumn)

I hate flag-making challenges. I will not be helpful at all, and I hope that someone else can take the reigns and lead us to victory. I honestly feel safe going into a tribal council, but I do not want to test that theory.

Next morning

With Chips and Jules working on the crest designs, I feel confident that we will do well in the challenge. Maybe not the best, but definitely not the worst. I still have the same anxious feeling that my tribe is not active enough for my taste, but I will just have to live with it for now. Besides, at least this is not immunity because that we increase my anxiety by so much. But, I keep forgetting to search the idol hunt which is my bad, but it is just so hard and long that I do not really feel like searching all the time lol

ART CHALLENGE <333 i love these challenges. Jess made my picture 110% better and its super cute. The note that she wrote with it is also hella cute and I love the whole HP aesthetics bc i never got to go to real hogwarts ;-; but i'm sure most of yall can related. The boys weren't too helpful but nick was better than jacob who is sick. Nick was way more active aka jacob said 3 sentences the entire challenge sooooo…. if we lose idk I might just save jacob anyways bc pregame relations.

Won reward, but now we have to win immunity again. I really hope that this reward helps us continue to survive. I don't want to have to vote anyone out. We've been getting first, but I really just want to survive this challenge, its known to be hard.

I think I have been stuck with the second most challenge inept tribe in the history of my ORG career. I literally said so many answers in my version of the story and Jules just fucked it up. And then they got the girl's name wrong. And then they started mixing up characters. I know I did well, but fuck these people. God. Now we need a tribe to get 0 which is very unlikely. I will just resign myself to tribal. I hope and pray that these people have some common sense and do not want to vote me out

Listen. Listen. Listen. I dang knew this story was going to be Harry Potter based. I knew in my brain and in my heart that I shouldn’t have been the one to start that thing. What do I do? Start the dang thing. Oh well. We did alright. I would be shocked if we won tho but if we don’t I’ll be relieved. I def don’t feel confident enough but I really had a lot of fun with my tribe. I really miss this and really hope that my time isn’t cut short! I feel really good about my tribe mates sincerely. And that’s kind of scary! I would hate to see any of us to go and how it’s going to affect the bond we have if we vote someone out. In this moment with Max sitting out, it may be him who goes if we go to tribal. I hope that isn’t the case. I’ve got my fingers crossed for us. Huff Puff strong!

Honestly Jules dropped the ball sis!! But it’s okay, I love her. She’s really nice and I know she tried her best. Plus she’s in an alliance with me and Owen, so we should have the numbers against Joanna or Miguel if we go to tribal. Personally, I’d prefer Joanna to go. She’s kinda domineering, but she’s also an asset in challenges thus far. She is organized and direct. I’ve also talked to her a bit more than Miguel, so I guess I don’t really care who goes.

I’m happy I didn’t fuck up the reward comp and the shit that I drew got us a win!

I really hope I don't bomb that challenge, I answered everything that Kevin talked to me about.... I think!  The rest of them tried very hard but I am SOOO glad that I asked to do my part at the end because my memory of repeating things is horrendous but I'm usually pretty good at bullshitting test answers... too bad I got some of the multiple choice stuff wrong.

I think that if we do lose I am still in a good spot on this tribe and hopefully I won't be in danger.  I feel like I'm on everyone's good side and Max kind of just disappeared so maybe we could just vote him out this round? Idk.

Hopefully we don't have to worry about it.  I smell a swap coming up pretty soon and I just hope I'm either with Owen or with some of the people from my tribe.  I have no idea if they know anyone or are close with anyone in the other houses.

I'm still feeling the closest to Lily and Kevin but I have been talking to Landen a good bit too these days so hopefully we'll be safe or we can all just agree on Max.

16 minutes later

OOOOOH IS LANDEN PAVING THE WAY FOR A MOVE TO SEND MAX PACKING???

He just told me that me, lily and kevin are precious angels that must be protected and that he likes Max when he's around too so that sounds like something... HMMM...

I can't get cocky, I always go home when I get cocky. But I like this.

my host chat saw this first (shout-out to Drewie and Dennis): Y’all I’m an idiot. I thought I only knew 2 people in this game (Owen and chips). Then I remembered I also know Jess, Autumn, and dan. Literally love and respect each of you my brain just don’t got the strongest memory no more. I’m so sorry!!!! I literally just told landen I only know 2 ppl. I’m just gonna try to not remember it happened.

Ugh.....I need to get it together.

I love my tribe talking to each other now that we have to!! Everyday I'm like damn either I'm on the bottom or I'm not the only one with piss poor social game. Ok so... the moment the hosts said we got 1 point, I started getting ready for tribal lmaaaooo. No sense crying over it either because all the tribes basically just had to show up in order to beat that

Like how could we not go to tribal with a score of ONE? That shit's embarrassing hahaha. That's like when your teacher passes the test back to everyone sitting around you but not you so you KNOW it's bad. But you know what? It's all good cause I'd rather us take the L now and get it out the way and we can all laugh about it cause losing won't be funny after long. The real question is: will Gryffindor do this the easy way or the hard way caaauusse we all know who the weakest link is. I just wanna see if someone puts two and two together without my prodding. Chips already said we voting together right and I'm like yes sir. There's no better place than being on the same page

WE WON OMG!! Jules basically gave me nothing, which is fine, i understand, but i'm so impressed that we pulled that off. Absolutely killing these reward challenges really helps!

"Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk."

Tonight we learned Joshua is a feminist selfless man that I stan because he's volunteering to go home without me having to put his name out, which I was going to do. Like imagine if every guy had that kind of self-awareness, to recognize why he should be the vote and then embrace it instead of wreaking havoc. And wanting to see others succeed more than yourself? King shit! He knew when to hang it up and did just that. Like the number of times I've seen a vote get complicated for no fucking reason because everyone wants a fight to the death. Enough- I'm old, tired, and cannot exert too much energy at once. We got a long game ahead of us, not to mention quarantine. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you Joshua. We need more players like you and I appreciate your service

im back back BACK AGAIN with another confessional! not much has changed but a few updates for the sake of these being required :) 1. max has become even more inactive, he's not reached out to me personally since the first day and any time i messaged him after that he's sent me nothing back that i can build a convo off of, so we just have stopped speaking. Luckily this challenge only required four people and everyone else SHOWED UP!! or at least spoke about their availability, while he did not. However in his defense he said he was having some issues at home and i feel for him but his inability to connect has been an issue before he spoke about anything in our tribe chat with us. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but this point my relationships with the other 3 are leaps and bounds ahead of where I am at with Max. Maybe he can pick up some speed if we continue winning challenges but, it's not looking too hot. SPEAKING OF CHALLENGES, well first we lost reward AGAIN, but we won immunity.. AGAIN! thank goodness for not being first or second boot, i always love being able to avoid these early tribals and if i can get to a swap without seeing one that would be ideal, but also if we do go and maybe vote out max? wouldn't be the worst thing. Moral of the story we won and thats exciting! however.. if we didn't.. the first big push of strategic talk came up with landen when he hinted at being frustrated with max's lack of presence which I also share. I do believe if we lost me and landen could have most definitely picked up ruthie and lily to form a four against him, if he even came to tribal. That would be my ideal situation and if we continue on this tribes hopefully it gives me a nice cushion to fall on if we do lose so i dont have to entirely blow up my social game within the first few rounds by voting out someone i've built a connection with. If max can go and the remaining four hufflepuffs can make a swap I would feel good about that, and maybe in the right circumstances we could work together on the swapped tribes because i genuinely like all of these people (yes max too but in this specific scenario he wouldn't be included bc... well..) anyways to close this off i still absolutely ADORE lily, she is fun and our conversations are really good, and same goes for ruthie, hopefully i dont have to see either of them or myself go home before we can really start playing because i think we could do some damage. :) ok anyways this was longer than i thought it would be goodbye

I'm still not over the fact that I was able to answer 7 of those questions right. I have the memory of a plastic fork.  I also love that we are SAFE!

I do kind of hope things get spicy and we swap this round and become two tribes of 9. That'd be cute. I don't want VI to get bored and crack on me. BUT ALSO I think I have solid enough relationships with almost everyone on this tribe... so who knows?!

Also... these hoes really out here trying to search for an idol in PUBLIC. IN PUBLIC. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON HERE?

Dear diary, seems like we keep winning challenges, which is great but tbh i feel like every time i give a disadvantage to my team because english is not my first Language, and so far its been a vocabulary test and a listening and speaking test. I mean I knew I signed up for school but damn. Give me some macarena  or drinking tequila challenge and I'll crush it

bippity boppity boo im back again with almost no content kdfasjhdskjfh

Ravenclaw working smarter and we keep winning, period!!! Thankful that y'all put Dan and I together....bc truly we will be unstoppable in these competitions. I kind of want to lose soon though to see how things would shake out, but I don't really have bad blood with anyone. Joanna seems passionate enough in the tribe chat and the challenges, even if she's dry in PMs. Miguel still won't give me anything other than a "how are you," but I hope the best for him in life lol

Still love Jules and Dan, and we made a three person alliance, but I haven't talked with either of them much one on one since it happened.... I really need to step the social game up eventually, but right now, I'm coasting, and maybe that's what I need before I find the time and resources in this game to strike!!

The idol hunt is hard but Dan seems onto something. Honestly he's gonna be a big threat sooner or later so he's sticking around as long as I can keep him! The last two games I've been in I've seen "goats" get dragged to the end and locked in final 3 positions, and then these perceived goats have ended up winning. so I want the big players in this game to rise to the top and fight it out in the end!

let’s say i am como we dice.. fed up with a lot :flushed: a lot meaning joshua starting to get on my nerves a bit! he’s genuinely sweet n all but.. the way he complained about us losing by putting down others work HHH pissed me off. which is why i will be voting him out hehe.. but so far my misting has worked because no one wants to vote me out! mwah

Slytherin killed the memory challenge. We thought we were all gonna flop bc all of us thought we sucked at memory stuff. um well we knocked it out of the park? Ravenclaw got 4 and huff/gryff got 1. We got 7 so oops. I do hope things turn out well for Gryffindor but no one I really know/care about is in that house so I'm not too worried. I hope they continue to lose or even hufflepuff since ravenclaw has 2 of my friends in it.

I have been TERRIBLE with confessionals but only because there's really not been much going on? I have an alliance with Dan and Owen, and even though I wrote off Joanna I was DEFINITELY wrong in doing that. Miguel is sort of the outlier. Our team is kinda iconic though? We've done so well on all the challenges. I might be the weakest link? More to come.

it's pretty sad but the whole tribe has agreed to vote max if we lose, basically he's just never around because of what's going on at home and like thats sad but... we gotta do what we gotta do *shrug*. I'm really feeling good about Hufflepuff moving forward, i've never bonded this much this easily with EVERYONE on a tribe and i just feel like if we keep winning or even if we lose and have to vote out max, we could be a great group for the future. especially i feel great about working with kevin, we dominated eve's game after eve came between us in 2020 that dastardly witch... :P (juuust kiddin. love ya!) but now we could totally do well in this game too i think.....

lily and ruthie are just so sweet and we really bond talking about pretty much anything,, especially lily is a great conversationalist and i just find it so natural to talk to them both. i'd love to work with any combination of people from hufflepuff in the future, hopefully i start sucking a little less at all these challenges. i think i did pretty great on memory :D

So here is the summary of what has happened since last time

We had a reward challenge that was drawing. Mine sucked. Apparently 3/4 so no reward.

We played Telephone. My team didnt realize that details are the most important parts of that and didnt share then with Autumn so Autumn didnt share them with me. Then I didnt know them when asked about them.

We scored 1 point and lost. Since I still have no alliance I'm scared that it could be me. So I kind of got an idea how everyone was feeling.

Juls let me know she wanted to vote Joshua and- it's not me so that's fine!

Then I was talking to Autumn about it and - OOP! Josh asked to be voted out. So unless he plays an idol I'm supposing he is leaving after asking to go.

woo my tribe won immunity!! we are safe! i’m glad bc i’m forming good relationships with ppl on my tribe. i think we all get along rly well so i hope we keep winning. the challenge was fun and i slayed bc i’m skinny mwah

Ya know what’s refreshing? Being on a tribe that actually wins!!! The last three games I’ve played I’ve been on flop ass starting tribes.

Now we’ll lose every challenge

10 minutes later

This sickening bitch just found a hidden immunity idol!!!! Good until f6 L A D I E S!!!!!!

HI BARBS SO I WAS GROUNDED SO I MISSED THE CHALLENGE BUT MY HUFFLEPUFF BABS SLAYED SM SO IM LIVING

CONFESSIONAL 2.1 —

Not much strategy has happened this episode, just simply tribal bonding! We are SlytherWINNING, getting reward and immunity this time! How wonderful.

Regarding my tribe mates, I love all three. I pray, pray, pray we make swap, i do Noh want to be a dirty bad guy and have to vote one out.. yet. Haha.

I was drunk during immunity, one full glass of rum & coke, so I am shocked that we won immunity. Honestly, I feel silly admitting I was drunk to my tribe because... if I can do that when drunk, imagine if I was sober. Competition Beast, duh.

I also gave up my run this round for the tribe to use. Was partially social, partially I just do not understand how to do the Hunt, so I might as well help the greater good. Either way, it comes off positively.

Hoping for a smooth journey for a little longer!

x nick

Joshue has basically quit at this point so I have no fear going into tribal

[alotta-lovin]

I'd love to hear more about the kismesis au!! :00 -💜

Oh damn okay!

Imma do this the best i can??? so bare with me please!

(If yer not into hearing about the NSFW(??) side of it i suggest reading with caution.)

AU - Kismesis

“Pet names” Commonly Used in said AU -* Numb-nuts (Me Towards/Referring to Cronus)* Waffle Fucker (Me Towards/Referring To Cronus)* Scrub (Me Towards/Referring To Cronus)* Lil Bitch (Cronus Towards/Referring to Me)*“Sex Doll” (Cronus Towards/Referring to me)(Most of these “Pet names” come from me…)

Commonly said things when asked about or sees the other in said AU -Faith : “Oh if it isnt the fucking flirtatious scrub, still trying to get your bulge wet?”Cronus : “Vwhat the hell is there to knowv?? She’s just a little fuckin’ brat that needs to learn shut her fuckin’ mouth and learn that the only place she’s got is under me.”Faith : “Why are you asking about that numb-nutted fish-fuck? there’s nothing really to know other than he’s Flirtatious, Full of himself, and is desperate, hell he’s fuckin lucky to be getting his bulge wet even if it is a Kismesis quadrant. Fuckin’ needs to learn to back the fuck off”Cronus : “There’s nothing to talk about ‘our’ past or howv vwe got to this point vwhy don’t you just lay off and stop asking about the Lil fuckin’ bitch alright? Damn.”(etc. etc.)

More Info/Background in said AU -Okay, so at the beginning before it was a Kismesis type of thing, we actually tried dating…but he didn’t really stay Faithful through most of the time we were “dating”, he figured he could get past me but im not an idiot as he assumed i would be….apparently having one partner wasn’t enough in his “Matesprite” quadrant. which i broke it off after finding out, and as time went on he saw it as something stupid that could’a been fixed… But lying, to me and whom ever he was sleeping with that night if he managed to actually get someone in bed with him. and or even just attempting it– it really didn’t rub me the right way. we stopped talking to each other a little while after that and tried to get back in contact but it just lead straight back into welll….as its called a “Kismesis Relationship” and we started to see we were blinded by the IDEA of each other. 

Which is why i guess we hold the sex stuff over each others heads? He was my first and the only person i’m really comfortable seeing me well naked, and im the only one who could actually stand fuckin the guy.and though it is a “Kismesis Relationship” basically we both get extremely jealous when we see the other getting a new potential Datemate/Matesprite…and which leads to fighting…and then after fighting hate fucking basically. thats how our relationship works i guess. its kind of annoyin’.Doesn’t help when he comes to me and talks about how he needs money or something and when i finally snap at him and tell him to get a fuckin job and stop being a fuckin Scrub and actually do something with his life/after life that just leads into the same shit, Fight, hate fuck, leave. 

I wont lie…a lot of the jealousy is on my side, but he gets just as jealous– but more than likely not for the same reasons, though i was blinded by the idea of him, i was actually falling in love with him while he was trying to find someone to fall in love with while i was a place holder for that spot he was looking to fill. so i guess its a resentment hatred on my part, and im going to assume he hates me because he didn’t get away with what he wanted and and how i actually stand up to him now…Maybe the reason he came back was just that…he knew every reason why i left and every reason our “Relationship” failed, but refuses to accept what he did and thats why he gets jealous? i guess i won’t know because im too scared to ask but i also don’t want him to talk out of his fucking ass and lie to me again.

Music to best describe the AU? -

Song to go with it/Sum it up-

1.(Pretty Girl (The Way) - Sugarcult

2.( Enemies - Shinedown

3.( Make me Cry - Noah Cyrus

4.( We Don’t Talk Anymore - Charlie Puth (feat. Selena Gomez)

5.(i hate u, i love u - gnash (feat. olivia o'brien)

6.( I Don’t Love You - MCR

7.(I Don’t Wanna Be In Love (Dance Floor Anthem) - Good Charlotte

8.( Weak - AJR

9.( Take Me Out - Franz Ferdinand

10.( When Did Your Heart Go Missing? - Rooney

Faith’s Side -

1.( Unlike Pluto - No Scrubs ft. Joanna Jones

2.( Too Close To Touch - “Leave You Lonely”

3.( Too Close To Touch - “Won’t You Listen”

4.( Nothing More - Go To War

5.( Kevin Garrett - Little Bit of You

6. ( PVRIS - My House 

7.( Betty Hutton - He’s A Demon, He’s A Devil, He’s A Doll

8.( Weathers - I Don’t Wanna Know

9.( Olivia O'Brien - Find What You’re Looking For

10.(Jacob Tillberg - Ghosts

Cronus’ Side -

1.( Coffee - SycAmour

2.( NINE INCH NAILS - “CLOSER”

3.( Childish Gambino - Heartbeat

4.( Dance, Dance - Fall out Boy

5.( EDEN - xo

6.( Better Than I Know Myself - Adam Lambert 

7.( Secrets - The Weeknd

8.( Ebony Day - Somebody Else

9.(Daft Punk - Face to Face

10.( Chainsaw - Nick Jonas

But yeah!!! i hope that fills you in on the Kismesis AU!! i yeah– its a lil all over the place while also explaining it the best i could cause yeahhhh…..

#Alotta-asks #Asks #Kismesis AU #Fish n' Chips Mention #Music #background info on it #pet names #I FUCKIN TRIED OKAAAY #JALDSKFJASDF

[aymmidumps]

hey what kinda music do u think the foxes would enjoy 😵i feel like theyd all like different things but begrudgingly agree on some...

hmmm.....(this got longer than i wanted to,, also totally not dropping my own taste in music into them,,,nah)

- kevin...well we know that he enjoys classical music and i literally cant see him listening to anything else... i dont think he’s the type to listen to music for fun? 

-andrew........damn....what would andrew listen to? thats the real question. i think at some time in his life he must have enjoyed Linkin Park, im absolutely sure of this, and... i’m gonna be self indulgent here and say: rock... artists like radiohead, the who, pink floyd, the rolling stones, nirvana and such

-Neil...... .. .... ..............................movie soundtracks? i dont fucking know. he’s worse than kevin w/ this 

-Renee would like chill music like: alt-j, sufjan, joanna newsom, fka twigs, tame impala, ben howard

-Allison would like hip hop and pop, literally all the newest music from almost every artist, i feel like she wouldnt be really picky and would even find music most people dont know. im also thinking: dua lipa, lana del rey, the weeknd, lorde. im also thinking she’d be a huge beyonce fan

-Dan would enjoy hip hop as well, im thinking mostly female rappers, and old songs from the 00′s. mayyybe rihanna, childish gambino, kehlani and girl groups like fourth harmony and little mix??

-Matt, i feel like he’s more into old rock/alternative like guns & roses, the cure, the strokes, the last shadow puppets. im sure he’d like indie rock bands too

-Nicky, just as Allison, i think would enjoy whatever the heck but i think he’d be that person that enjoys really cheesy songs no one can bear, like fuckin,, ed sheeran or the chainsmokers... also im thinking troye, hayley kiyoko, gia, sia, snakehips, years & years

#replies #headcanons #Anonymous

[halsteadsass]

soooo i'm super indecisive, but if you're still taking prompts: either 16, 17, or 20 + Noorhelm?

The house seems quite bare at the moment.

The walls are freshly painted different shades of grey. Accent colors fill the room with reds, beige’s, and whites. William really had no choice in the matter when they decided to buy a house together.

It’s been ten years. It was time.

Noora had made the conscious decision to take a small sabbatical from the magazine to get settled in. With William’s hours at the firm, it only made sense. Excitement bubbling in the pit of her stomach every time she thought about the fact that she has a real home now.

That meant she made herself cozy in front of the television more than she intended. Constant marathons of Fixer Upper and Noora felt she could be the next Joanna Gaines. Living in the apartment with Eskild, she never put much thought into her room. Small decor like pillows, frames, and bedding were the only things that mattered. Once William had moved in back then it became less important than before. Trying desperately to find a spot for the bare minimum he had shipped from London was enough. They made it work until they were able to afford to live in their own apartment.

Nonetheless, she went as far as ordering subscriptions of multiple home magazines. Noora made sure he would get his say in the final decisions, but in all honesty, he’d let her have whatever she wanted.

She always got what she wanted despite William’s stubborn attempts. Let her rephrase that - William’s half ass attempts of putting up a fight but jumping head first instead.

“Everything is coming along quite nicely, right?” Noora asked while continuing to put the chicken into a Tupperware.

“It is.” William agreed. “It’s a big relief not to have to worry anymore.”

Noora puts the rest of the leftovers in the refrigerator. Noora walks to the sink, stands up up on the tip of her toes, and gives William a passing kiss on the cheek, “With you by my side, anything seems possible.”

She wasn’t lying to him. They’ve accomplished a lot together. One thing was true - he’d move heaven and hell for her.

They haven’t planned a homecoming party yet but it’s on the future agenda. Moving again was such a hassle, but she didn’t mind it in the end. There was always going to be a part of her that liked to explore the world. To flee at any moments notice because she felt like she needed it to grow. If she felt like she needed to breathe again. No one would ever understand that part of her except William.

That belonged to them.

It was time they put down real roots.

William was elbow deep in soap filled water, scrubbing away at their dirty dishes. It was his turn that night with no complaints. Noora was damn lucky she had a man who picked up his slack. He was doing something so normal, yet, she couldn’t take her eyes off of him once she sat down at the island.

Noora could blame it on the house, the immense over joyed feeling filling her heart at every second, or how proud of them she was. He was the pieces of the puzzle that fit.

“Why are you staring at me?” William asked, never turning around. “Your eyes are starting to burn holes in the back of my head.”

A long time ago Noora said goodbye to the part inside of her that always held her back.

“Marry me.” It came out as a whim comment, but she was dead serious.

William turned the sink water off to dry his hands before facing her, “Feeling funny tonight, are you?”

How much clearer can she get? Noora shook her head,  "I’m completely serious, William.“

William’s jaw drops slightly, taken aback by what she said, "Fucking hell.”

He moves around the island to her, wrapping his strong arms around her. Skepticism still in his tone, “You want to marry me?”

Noora tilts her chin up to look him in his awaiting gaze, “Why wouldn’t I want to marry you?” Promise rings already adorn their fingers. In her eyes, that has always meant forever. He could get her a real engagement ring at a later time. “Don’t be ridiculous.”

Without a sound, William unravels himself from her and walks down the hallway into their master bedroom. Confusion and slight devastation wracks Noora’s body and she’s unable to move her feet. How was she supposed to read this when she had felt so confident minutes earlier?

A fire gets lit inside of her.

It’s not often that Noora gets mad at William anymore. They’ve been together so long their only arguments consist of what’s on the dinner menu that night, who gets control of the television, and who gets to be the big spoon. Trivial things that should not dictate the solidity of their relationship.

Being a little on the irrational side after his display of behavior, Noora stalks down the hallway in Williams footsteps. “Excuse me, William, but what the fuck was that? I deserve an answer at least. A no would have been better than that childish-” She’s cut off her from her rant when she sees whats in William’s hand.

A small, square black velvet box.

The tiny pit of rage that was sitting tightly in her stomach drains away. Shit.

“You ruined my moment. I’m a man of tradition, Noora.” William states while staring at the box as hard as she is. “But there has never been a day in our life together thats been normal. You’ve never allowed me to live to my full potential as a cliche. Your words, not mine.”

Noora stays silent in the doorway. A range of emotions flowing freely through her veins.

William continues, “I do not regret a single moment spent with you. You have always been the best choice I have ever made.”

He moves closer to where she’s standing until he’s completely in front of her. He takes her hand in his and smiles so kind at her she could melt, “So as much as I appreciate your attempt at proposing, I’m taking it back and doing it right.”

He doesn’t mention the fact that he had it all planned out. He’d take her back to the place they had their first date where it was only them and the city of lights below. He’d bring her hot chocolate that isn’t actually hot just the way she likes it. He’d hold her close underneath a warm blanket because he knows she craves simple affection. He’d attempt to say all the right things for just that night because she deserves perfect. Nothing more, nothing less. Just the best version of themselves and a moment in her life that she’d be able to remember forever.

Earlier in the kitchen, he hadn’t mean to sound skeptical. If this was going to be the moment, he absolutely needed to make sure this was real.

Because the answer in his mind is always a yes.

Noora can’t help herself from saying, “You already know the answer.”

As if that was going to stop him.

William bent down on one knee and opened the box. Noora gasped at the right of her engagement ring. It was the most beautiful thing she had ever laid her eyes upon. It shined with such simplicity and elegance.  A white gold band with a medium, round diamond that sat in the middle. Noora always told him she never needed anything big and fancy. It wasn’t her style and no diamond size would ever determine a love’s worth.

He remembered.

William hadn’t even started and Noora was already tearing up.

“I swear I have loved you since the moment you decided to rip me to shreds in the school yard. Not romantic by any means, but the impact of that day changed the course of my life.  You were a woman with imaginable strength, smartness, courage, realism much different from my own, and a heart so big that it was clear you had so much love to give. You still are that woman. You were everything I needed then and you are everything I need now. You have been my side through the best and worst of it. The kind of gratefulness I feel everyday waking up next to you is beyond words. You chose me and that alone can make me the happiest man for the rest of my life. Its only time that we choose each other with infinity.” William spoke so eloquently that Noora was full on shedding tears. “I once said we would get married one day and you laughed. I saw the life we could have. I want to go to sleep next you every night and wake up with you every morning. I want you to be the mother to our future children. I want to be ninety with you and have matching rocking chairs.” Noora squeezed William’s hand as he got choked up at the last part. “So, Noora Amalie Saetre, will you do me the greatest honor and marry me?”

Noora was smiling so hard her face went numb,“Yes, I will marry you!”

Taking the ring out of the box, William laughed a sigh of relief while slipping it onto Noora’s ring finger. Once the ring was securely on, Noora swat William on his shoulder. “Don’t ever scare me like that again especially when I am being serious about something so big.”

William stood back up to his regular height, amusement sitting in place of his natural brooding state, “That’s what you want to tell me after I pour my heart out to you?”

Noora laughed, shrugging her shoulders playfully, “Payback is a bitch.”

Despite the teasing, he was looking at her with his warm brown eyes, a smile painted with content, and she knows she’s the luckiest girl in the world.

Reaching out to push the small piece of hair that hung in his face (permanently she swears), she spoke with such fondness, “I love you, William. I have never doubted that. My heart always belonged to you.”

William’s forehead dropped to rest against hers, fingers gliding slowly over her arms until they find their final resting place on her hips, “Say it again.”

Noora kissed the tip of his nose, “I love you so much.” She kissed his right cheek next. “I can’t wait to spend my entire life with you.” She moved to his left cheek to kiss now. “You were always my only choice.” Noora’s lips slid against him, soft and slow, “Mrs. Noora Magnusson has a great ring to it.”

William damn near growled in response, “You have no idea what you do to me.”

Noora smirked against his lips, “I’m delicious. Of course, I do.”

As Noora walked forward, William followed pursuit walking backwards until his legs his the edge of their bed. She gave him no warning until she laid him out flat upon it, her own legs straddling his hips. “If you don’t remember, I’ll be kind enough to remind you.”

“Please do.”

Noora planned too for the rest of their life.

Infinity times infinity.

#noora saetre #william magnusson #noorhelm #my fic #asks

[iwillwakeherinthemorning]

Eraser

Pairing: Leonard McCoy x Reader

Word Count: 1459 (Wow!)

Description: Contrary to popular belief there are two sides to Dr. Leonard McCoy. There are only two people on the whole of the U.S.S. Enterprise who know them. One carries rank over him. The other holds his heart in her hands.

A/N: Hi everyone! This is for the brilliant @trekken81 and her Ed Sheeran Divide challenge! I have track one called... wait for it... Eraser! *profusely apologizes for corniness* I am also dedicating this to @mccoymostly and her absolutely emotional and goosebump raising head cannon about Joanna McCoy which can be found ---> here  Thank you soo so much for reading!!! And without further ado...

“Len? Baby, come back to bed.” You say finding the man after searching through your quarters. “Come on. You have alpha shift. Three more hours.” You finish. Lightly attempting to pull your boyfriend back to bed.

“I’m fine, sweetheart. I can't sleep anyways.” He says in response. “Too many of these damn reports to finish after yesterdays engineering debacle.” He says with a frown easing its way in to his forehead. 

“Go, darlin’. I promise I’m fine.” He continues after you’ve given him a raised eyebrow and appeared back at his side. He pulls you further down to himself and plants a sweet kiss to your forehead before gently pushing you towards the empty bed. You reluctantly shuffle back to your room and fall in to a restless sleep.

 This is the third time this week that he’s done this. 

And it’s only Wednesday. 

Your worry is amplified ten-fold when you wake up to find Len curled around you with you midsection in a vice grip. 

You gently uncurl his arms from around you and regret it immediately because he lets out a faint whimper with your name on the end of it. The noise pulls at your heartstrings but you know he needs his sleep. And you need to get to work. You begin to get ready and by the time you have, he’s still asleep. Instead of waking up his sleeping form you leave him a note before leaving your quarters.

Len, we need to talk. I love you, sweetheart. See you tonight. 

Later that day... 

You're trying to figure out exactly what you want to say to your overworked boyfriend. It’s obvious to others around you that you're extremely worried about him. Drowning yourself in worry and a report that has to be finished by the end of shift does that to you. Before you know it 5 pm has rolled around and its time to go home. 

With trembling hands you walk back to your quarters hoping beyond all things that Leonard is back from his shift as well, because you don't want to be alone. More than that though you're worried about how he may react to what you have to say. Having had all day to think about how you wanted to broach the subject of Leonards health, all possible negative outcomes have pulled themselves deep from your subconscious. What will he say? Will he be mad? Is he gonna pull the CMO card? Will he break up with me? These questions have all plagued you throughout your 12 hour shift and you don't want any of the answers. 

Punching in your entrance code you slowly walk through the threshold only to find it be completely dark. You can't miss the quiet sobs coming from your bedroom though and autopilot takes you straight there.

“Len? baby whats...” But you don't get to finish your question because you're being engulfed in a hug around your waist so tight that it knocks the wind out of your lungs. 

“Y/N! Oh my god. You're here. Please don't leave me. Please.” And at that you wrap your arms around him as well quieting his cries running your hands through his hair. 

“I’m right here. I’m not going anywhere.” You repeat those words and bend down to your knees to be at eye level with the man who is usually so strong. 

It seems like hours later before he has completely calmed down. And when he has you notice that his breathing has evened out and soft snores are escaping his lips. His grip on you hasn't loosened though. If anything it’s gotten tighter, resembling a little boy who doesn't want his mother to leave him at daycare. Not wanting to risk waking him you pull a blanket and pillow from the bed and shift your two bodies to lay on the floor. His head on your chest and your fingers gently carding through his hair. 

A few hours later he wakes up and looks up at you a sudden relief washes over his face to see that he wasn't just dreaming. You had come home to him. You hadn't left him and you were here. You were vital. You were holding him. And thats all he could ask for. 

Instead of staying in the same position though he lifts the both of you up and lays you under the covers of the bed before sliding in behind you and resuming his position from before. Your eyes flutter open upon being embraced again and you look down just as he looks up at you. 

Try as he might to stop them, tears fill Leonards eyes again and he looks away furiously wiping at his eyes to attempt to stop the constant flow. “Len, baby look at me.” You quietly say before gently taking his face between your hands and moving him back to you. “Talk to me, Len. Tell me whats wrong.” And the floodgates open. 

He’s full on sobbing again. And you don't know what to do. What to say. How to do this because this is just as hard for you as it is for him. This man who was once so strong on the outside has crumbled before your eyes. “Shh. It’s okay. I’m right here. I promise you, sweetheart I am not going anywhere.”

“I thought you were gone. I thought for sure that you figured out how much of a failure I was.” He sobs out and the words are like knives to your heart. He thought you had left. The note... you quickly figured out. 

“Baby I am not leaving you. I’m here to stay. You're not getting rid of me. I swear it.” I’m not her. You want to add on to the end. Because you know where this is coming from. You know it and it hurts more than anything to know that he has reservations on his knowledge for your feelings for him. 

“I dont deserve you. Jocelyn was right to leave me. I’m nothing but trash. Used up. Scarred. Trash.” He tells you but contradicts himself by holding on to you tighter. 

“Leonard stop.” You say pulling him up to face you. “I don't know where this has come from but Len you are not trash. Fuck. Len. You're the best man on this whole God forsaken ship. If anything at all I don't deserve you.” You rant out releasing tears of your own. “I wish I could make you see. Baby, I love you. I love you so fucking much and I wish I could be more for you.” 

“No. Y/N I’m not.” And then he’s on this long tangent about stims. And long double shifts at the hospital pre starfleet. And how everyone did it but that “damnit I’m the one that fucked up. I’m the one that wrecked the car and almost killed my baby girl. I’m the reason that Jocelyn left and took Joanna with her. I deserve this. I sure as hell don't deserve you.” And his admission has left you breathless. 

Another tidbit of his past. Another piece of Leonard McCoy that finally finishes the puzzle. And your angry. You're angry that he had to do that. That he had no other choice but to pump his body full of toxic chemicals just to be able to do his job. Angry that Jocelyn who you thought was bad enough had just turned in to the worst human being you could possibly imagine. Because instead of staying with him she left. Instead of being there for him through the haze of guilt and self hatred she confirmed his own feelings and left. 

And now here you are. On a starship with a man who has opened his heart to you. Become even more vulnerable because he thought that he was going to have a repeat of a time long passed. 

“And I’m just selfish enough to have not told you all of this. To make you think that I was a good man. But now you know. I don't blame you for wanting to leave.” Yet again though he contradicts himself by holding on tighter. 

“Leonard I told you I am not going anywhere. I’m here to stay. I’m not her. I don't care about what you did. I care that you had to do that. That it was the only way to make you stay awake.” You rant and hold his face again. “I’m mad that Jocelyn left. That she left such a caring and compassionate man when he needed her most. There is no way in hell that you are getting me to leave. I swear to you.” And then he’s kissing you. It’s slow at first. Timid even but then you deepen it and your lost in each other. He needs an eraser from his painful past. And there you’ll be. For the rest of your days. 

#bones x reader #Ed Sheeran Divide #Leonard McCoy #reader insert

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #1- “This cast...this cast...this cast.“ -Timmy

who’s ready to get atomic up in this bitch?

okay so, first impressions(Aka First night vibes) Brien- you seem cool JG - KALOKAIRI BUDS Dylan - I have played 2 games with you, what up bud! Stephen - the third of the many Kalokairi Kevin - haven't played with you before, but im excited to Andrew- Heyo, you hosted me, im super excited to your playing style. Jacob- I've been in VL's with you but never played. Timmy- yet another Kalokairi buddy Jay? - you seem really cool. Joanna- I can't wait to play with you Julia- Montenegro gal! please don't vote me out first this time. Madison- i feel like we are going to confused for eachother alot. Pat- I want to get to know you better Tom- I have feelings about you, but I can't tell if they are good or bad yet Veni- BRO you don't know how happy i am to see you Ricky- I have a good feeling about you dude. Kenny- i can't wait to play with you! and to vibe check myself? STRESSED. this twist gave me a panic attack. we are good now. i am already freaking out about keeping my grade up (since i'm already failing a class) and challege is tonight and i have no time to do it. FUCK.

Day 2: still alone lost in the vast wilderness. No civilization in sight... the gods have forsaken me.... someone please send help... wait what is that I see? A camp? PEOPLE???? ITS BEEN SO LONG!!! Jkjk the hosts added the wrong person so I got added in like 2 hours after the actual start which isnt terrible Bc now i can just pretend I’m a pitiful little soul. Also like 1/3of the cast is people I’ve played with before but I haven’t even touched skype in like a year and a half so I have no idea any of them anymore!!! I hope we can all be friends again since from what I can remember, we were all on pretty good terms. My reaction to the “twist” is, it’s amazing. It fits my play style much more. Who needs idols? I rarely ever went to search for one and I was fine? Maybe... oof... also the whole everyone is in one tribe thing is really cool. More the merrier. It’s just really annoying Bc Skype is a pos. Anyways so far so good and I’m loving the people that are in the cast so far. Amazing cast and even more amazing hosts. I love all of them

okay so. first game back since surgery. olivia and lukas, love those bitches, but i was like i'm a working woman now so do you think that my work will interfere too much? and they were like nah, and i was like okay, so naturally, the first (live) challenge starts right in the middle of my shift. and this one tribe thing, wacky. this is gonna be one comeback game (if i get voted out first i am going to get surgery again and then never come back ever) (jk) (...kinda)

I wanna win immunity 😭😭😭

This cast...this cast...this cast. So i know like 90% of these people. I'm currently hosting 4 of them...was hosting 5. It's a very strong cast which is great, but it also means that anyone can go at any time. I'm just gonna talk about them in order of the cast reveal. Brien: I've never spoken to him and have still yet to. He's one of the people in ihos but he's quiet there. Andrew: another ihos person who I haven't spoken to. I've seen him around for years but we've never played a game together. Or at least have never been on the same tribe. Madison: big titty queen. I love her with all my heart and I have no idea what is going to happen with her. She messy but amazing so who knows. She did meet JG and Jacob in person a few weeks ago so they are all close, so i do need to keep an eye out for all of them, even though I am close with them. Ricky: another ihos, and he is friends with Andrew. I doubt he's going to work with me so that is concerning. But it's early so who knows. I'm already getting bored of typing things about everyone. Kevin: no idea, but he seems nice. Madeleine: A true queen and a sweetheart. Julia: no comment. Pat: i've seen him win 2 games that i have played with him. He is quiet but dangerous and I need to watch out for him in time, but for now he will be a good ally. Stephen: king, but does tend to go early. Idk where he will stand this game but we're already in an alliance together. Vi: haven't seen her in over a year, kind person. Dylan: cracked Kenny: no idea Joanna: scary legend who will go hard, but has been very quiet thus far. I wonder who quit right before the start of the game. Jacob: we never talk, but as of now he is who i have been talking to the most and I really do trust him. I am hoping this game is different for us and that we will actually work together. I'm excited to see what happens. Thomas: can't wait for him to strike out JG: King, who also is close with a few people, but i do trust him, but he can be a snake. Jay: It's been a minute since he's played. Not sure how to feel.

I GOT A POINT WOOOHOOOOOOOOO ONLY MISSED THE FIRST HALF OF THIS CHALLENGE

So. Uh. I got -3 points. I’m so talented.  It’s okay though. I pretty sure I’ll be voted out first so it doesn’t matter how low of a score I get. I’m just trying to bribe everyone else with cute animal pictures DX even if people hate me, maybe they’ll keep me just for more cute animals.

Update: I lost another 5 points. Let me die already... at this point I don’t even need to piss off everyone else to lose. I’ll probably get like -500 points and automatically get kicked out of the game for being bad

-22 baby. I petition for the hosts to change the chat name from Tashirojima Challenge chat to Challenge chat. What the fuck. I keep reading it as the main chat Bc tashirojima seems like a tribe name. AT THIS RATE MY JEST OF -50 POINTS IS ACTUALLY GONNA COME TRUE!!!! AHHHHHH WHAT ALLIANCES I CANT EVEN FOLLOWRULES LET ALONE FIGURE OUT HOW TO WIN PEOPLE OVER TO MY SIDE ahhhhhHhhhhHhHHHHHH

Night 2 Vibe Check! (Featuring a quite drunk Maddie!) Andrew- haven’t talked to you much, but I want talk to you more! Ricky- you seem cool, we haven’t Talked yet today Tom- smooth Dylan, damn you and your fast phone Kevin- you are a freaking challenge beast! JG- I missed talking with you, I’m glad we are again Stephen- I hope you feel better soon! Jacob- you are good at challenge (This is where I stopped and started the next morning when I was sober) Jay- you’re cool! I like you Julia- imma take you to the end sister. Love you! You make me feel safe In this game Pat- I can’t quite get a read on you yet Vi- I can’t believe they added the wrong person! You are really cool! Love ya! Brien- you are really nice! Timmy- I am super excited that we are playing together again! Joanna- I’m sorry I keep forgetting your here! Kenny- you seem really cool but I need to get to know you better Madison- I don’t think we’ve talked yet, but I want to. And how I’m feeling, well I just lost immunity, so I don’t feel safe, I’m interested to see how this goes, this season is definitely interesting!

Hey out there! Long time no see! To be honest, I don't really have the first idea at what I'm doing. I kinda missed the first day and a half because I was working and then immediately went out with friends, but I think I'm making up for it! I'm starting to chat one-on-one with people, no strategy talk yet though. Which could be real dangerous since I don't have immunity, but there are people that just...haven't talked at all, as far as I can tell at least. Luckily I have a few prior connections in Madison, Joanna, and Andrew. I know Pat and Ricky too but I'm iffy on how they feel about me. I'm pretty sure I ghosted Pat's game earlier this year, SORRY PAT! I got busy and then I felt too embarrassed to show back up D: and I've just never been too sure about if Ricky likes me or not. But other than that I've talked a bit to Madeleine and Vi and I love them both, messy challenge chat icons. I totally missed some messages from Brien, Jacob, and Kevin though, but I've messaged them all back now so hopefully they don't hold that against me. Tribal isn't until tomorrow, so I assume that's when the real scrambling will begin. I just don't know when to jump into alliance talks, I don't want to play too hard too fast. But then I again, I want the chance to play at all.

Idk why Vi was so hard pressed on me not getting immunity. First it seemed like a joke, then they..... were really into it.

Interesting notes from within the first few days: Me/Jacob/JG recently met irl so that's cute Ricky/Andrew I think met a few months ago or something Brien and Pat are both from Philly hmmmm Everyone and their mother works retail in this game so we all suffer together or not at all Day 2 i got an alliance with Jacob and Timmy so that's cute but I'll probably be out first because let's face it I'm a threatening human and i ain't afraid to pull a machete on these kiddos.

Night 3 tea spill!* *has been cancelled due to emotions

So far I’m loling brien, and Vi. Madeline is kind of annoying if I’m honest. BUT we’re all in an alliance. I have a few familiar faces, Jay, Madison, Joanna, so I’m excited to see what happens this season

https://youtu.be/-_5c-vMFG9E

Quick Cast Assessment Time: Brien: we're in ihos spain together and we talk on and off but apparently ricky was like omg look at this ihos crew and brien was like whos andrew so i think thats where we're at rn. might work with him might not who knows Dylan: biiiig dylan fan personally and i know he can be sketch in games so i wanna be on his good side so he doesnt fuck me over right away Jacob: cool dude but ticking time bomb and idk if i can work with him but maybe i can work with him by proxy of ricky.......if he shows even one sign of being a bad ally he's literally out of this game Jay: furry back back back again and him and i usually work well together so im hoping something can come from that JG: i like him personally but hes just one of those people that exudes almost constant sketchiness which idk if thats necessarily his fault lmao and yeah idk i have to keep an eye on him Joanna: nice girl! wanna get to know her better for sure. i neglected to message her up until today when she actually messaged me first so whoops Julia: absolute crackhead who doesnt like me for funsies bc shes a troll but i think more and more people are hopefully seeing her mentally unhinged troll thing as tired lately and i really dont want her to last very long Kenny: i havent talked to him yet but hes a cool dude that i played literally one game with like two years ago so idk maybe we can reconnect Kevin: so i think he probably literally talks to everyone in the exact same fake nice gay man way so i have to be mindful that its prob just not me that hes overly nice to bc i know he can be intense and i know he can be good at these games so hes one im gonna try to keep close but also be willing to cut at any time Maddie: literal love of my fucking life who i want to work with closely in this game bc i know shes loyal and i know she can have my back if she trusts me enough Madison: nnnnnnn i mean i called her stupid in a diary room from bb gilmore over the summer which i think prompted her to leave our reunion chat so not the best start there. also i think her and jacob are up each others asses ever since they met irl so love that for me Pat: i just know hes mildly attractive Ricky: absolute number one ally who i trust with my entire coochie and the goal is to hopefully subtly run this entire game together Stephen: a nice man! we havent played together in a while and we worked together in that one game so maybe we can reconnect maybe idk Timmy: havent had the best personal experiences with him attacking my friends in vls.........idk i just find him annoying lmao is that mean Tom: hopefully going home tonight! Vi: i literally dont know if this is even a real person like i know she got goated in her first main series game for being the actual worst and then we brought her back for seychelles where she was one of the worst players ive ever seen so maybe she'll just disappear one day so i dont have to deal with her

I’m only voting tom cause that’s the only vote I’ve been told. It’s probably wrong but we’ll see

First off: https://drive.google.com/file/d/10IWN3bqYXYdJ232wG5fUhPmnDee8SP2i/view?usp=drivesdk damn thing finally loaded Second: God Vi gets on my nerves. Intentionally. I need to remember to just not talk to her or she’ll manipulate the view point to make me seem bad. She can’t play survivor to save her life but she’s god can she fuck up someone elses game. I look forward to voting her out.  

CASUALTIES:

EPISODE 1 CAST ASSESSMENT:

PART 1:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jztyauZhcBY&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5&t=0s

PART 2:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjoFbmrLSTc&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5

#Purrvivor

[ao3feed-gendrya]

A Song of Wind and Whispers

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2Y5pD4R

by Huntress456

Daeron Taryaryen has the greatest army in the world, and thats what he told his advisors when they suggested not meeting Robb Stark, King in the North, in battle. Against his better judgement, he listens to his advisors. Once the North and the Dragon becomes allies, it is decided that the only way to ensure lasting peace is marriage, and with both of the true born sisters hostage in Kings Landing, the only option to to travel to the Wall. To Joanna Snow, bastard half-sister to the King in the North.

Joanna Snow didn't survive treason, but she would be damned if she survived the Others. She had too. For her Brother, both by blood and by choice, and for her son. But the Nights Watch needed weapons not made out of rusted iron. And the only way to get more weapons is either beg and plead Houses for help, or by asking a King...or becoming a Queen.

Joanna Snow and Daeron Targaryen may not agree on most thing, but she would make sure he knew what was coming.

Even if it killed her.

Words: 6139, Chapters: 2/?, Language: English

Fandoms: game of thrones, A Song of Ice and Fire

Rating: Not Rated

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Jon Snow, Daenerys Targaryen

Relationships: Jon Snow/Daenerys Targaryen, FemJon/MaleDany, Fem Jon Snow - Relationship, Male Daernerys, Past Talisa Maegyr/Robb Stark, Roslin Frey/Robb Stark, Catelyn Stark/Ned Stark, Tyrion Lannister/Sansa Stark, Arya Stark/Gendry Waters

read it on the AO3 at http://bit.ly/2Y5pD4R

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #gendrya #arya x gendry #axg

[xxfeministfangirlxx]

So my goal for the summer is to write, it doesn’t matter what I write, so long as I do. It is the part of my university course that I suck at I mean I really suck at it I can have everything planned out een have the words floating around in my head recite it even but actually type or even pen to paper write it? It doesn’t happen until 3 in the morning before its due. I call it procrastination and say that I’m, lazy, but I am deeply afraid that there’s something wrong with me. I used to love to write, i used to write loads until it dried up- maybe it’s because I thought I was no good at it or maybe along the way I stopped being honest with myself, there’s a damn behind which all my words hide and I need to break it but I am afraid of what’ll come out. God I don’t even know why I am crying right now, but I am. I don’t admit to my feelings very often, at least not sincerely, and the people I do admit them to, I don’t think they know how bad it is in my head because by the time I mention it to someone, I have myself together - at least on the outside- I can be matter of fact, no-one sees me come apart. I have had to try to hide this for so long, because breaking that damn - I think i might drown in everything I haven’t said, everything that I haven’t admitted to feeling. I think I am depressed, but then I think that I’m just aggrandizing my sadness conflating it with something that other people struggle with to make it seem bigger than it is, to provide me with an excuse. I suck at life, last semester I thought I was doing better, i Kicked ass in most of my assignments, I didn’t go out or do much of note but I managed to reconnect with a friend over the summer and it felt good, it was a good end to the year and then this half of the year, I just - it sucked- getting out of bed, going to lectures, it was just so much harder and i felt like I did that first year, like I was a ghost again and that terrifies me because I can feel myself slipping away, watching everything with glass between us and I don’t know how to stop feeling like this, i am not sure that i can. I just pretend. Ok- I have a sister, Frannie, and she died nearly five years ago, and it still almost kills me. I miss her so much everything hurts. ANd there isn’t even anything I can be angry at, because its her genes that killed her, so i am angry at everything, i think I have been my whole life, I can’t even wish that she had been born different, because this disease shaped her life, shaped my life, who would she be if she hadn’t been ill? Who would I be? But then what could she have achieved if she hadn’t had to live with such pain? But thinking of it, she would be like a stranger and how can I wish away who she was? I never got to talk about how she died. The internet did all the talking. I hated that. Hours after she died I am inundated with posts saying RIP- and everyone knew and that was that. I wasn’t supposed to talk about it, I didn’t have the chance to voice it to decide or speak, it silenced me and was so matter of fact that’s it she’s dead we’ll put a sad post up on her birthday but it’s time to move on with your lives, come on now something new it trending. Look at the cute puppy, oooh a new meme! How exciting. The world moved too fast after that day and I don’t think I’ve been able to find my feet in it since then, if I ever had them at all. Most of the day is pretty fuzzy but there are pieces that stuck in my mind with a clarity that I wish I could forget. Most of all I remember wanting to run, far and fast but run away from it all, that room, even as Nats screamed that she had promised never to leave her I remember wanting to get out, I am a coward, and there is nothing I am more ashamed of. I still can’t go into hospitals without wanting to run, I could barely stomach visiting my Grandma - as much of a monster as that make me. The night before she died, she wanted me to read to her, i was reading her Harry Potter, the fourth one, it was a way we spent time together, she liked it when i did funny voices though a character never had the same voice twice, clearly not going to be the next stephen fry. But I was tired, and stacey had tidied away the book, so i told her i would read to her tomorrow.in the morning, I got up and went to have a shower, i pass through her room to get to it, and this hurts because I can’t remember whether I said good morning to her, I can’t remember whether she was conscious at this point or not but I don’t know what the last thing I said to her was. I wished i could at least remember that. I was halfway through putting my makeup on when I hear Nat’s scream for Ron, I remember thinking it’s not a big deal, it reminded me of the time Frannie swallowed a mini doughnut- whole- and started to choke 10 horrible seconds and unlimited teasing after. After a minute I realise that it’s not something silly and I head downstairs and find out that Frannie won’t wake up. Nats is beside herself, she and david are saying that she’s gonna be fine, that everything will be ok. But i looked at my mum and she knew and I knew, I’d been waiting for it for years- the inevitable. At the hospital- we were in a private room so the whole family could sit and watch her die. 10 hours, thats how long she held on for, after her brain stem had collapsed, ten hours watching her turn grey and her heart stop beating. And these idiotic nurses asking us if we were sure there was nothing that could be done. Ha like we were voluntarily letting my sister die. I remember David’s face as we sat there, he looked so frightened, more so than I had ever seen him his feelings were on his face. And Nat’s hyperventilated and screamed and cried and I just wanted to run and run and run. People started to fade away after that i managed a good few months still talking to the people in school but I stopped being there as much, I spent my lunchtimes at home and didn’t bother to speak to anyone. Part of that was Coralie and Joanna’s fault, as mean as it is to say, but two of my closest friends basically saying I was a pile of shit in the space of about a week made me feel a little cut off, nor was the fact that all the friends still spoke to kat who months before she actually died stood up and said my sister wanted to kill herself, and I was left alone. Most of it was me, I was a ghost, I ate, and I walked but i couldn’t find it in me to really be with people to talk to them- I could pretend I was good at that, It is really hard to break my walls down I built them up really strong over the years. Because here’s what I am not good at admitting, it was hard growing up how I did, I used to shrug it off when people would say that, because it makes me feel like a bad sister. It was life, but it was awful, I was terrified to go away anywhere in case I got a phone call that told me she was dying or worse dead and I wouldn’t get to say goodbye. I remember checking to see if she was still breathing before I went to bed. I remember sitting in her room all night watching winnie the pooh movies with her because she said she was afraid she was gonna die. We tried to make a joke out of all of it, when we needed to shower her, get her dressed, take her to the toilet, but I could always see what it cost her, to not be able to do these things for herself, and the times it made her bitter. The pain it caused her to not be able to talk, her frustration when she couldn’t communicate. Her disease ate her alive even if it didn’t touch her spirit. And she would be so disappointed in me, I am a waste of space. And she’d tell me to get off my arse if she were still here.

#about me #not sure why but I needed to say this #if anybody is listening