#just how in love with him Arthur was

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

The Ealdor episode is so fucking wild. Like, Merlin hears his village is in trouble and his mom is having a tough time so he’s like ok bye I’m going home forever and Arthur is like…. wait you're never coming back? So his besotted ass just follows him there. Like he's the ONLY heir to the throne and he says nothing to his father, just leaves in the middle of the night to go to some random village that isn't even a part of his kingdom. He goes up against a bunch of ruthless bandits with a village full of utterly untrained fighters just cause he wants to bring Merlin home I'M

#gay ass episode I swear #bbc merlin #merlin #arthur pendragon #merthur #merlin x arthur #arthur x merlin #ya'll always talk about how Merlin would do anything for Arthur #but Arthur would also literally do anything for merlin #merlin doesn't even ask for his help #Arthur just can't bear the idea of never seeing Merlin again #ACTUALLY THERE'S NO CONFIRMATION THAT MERLIN WOULD EVEN COME BACK WITH HIM #he just loves him so much

[sleepycricketts]

Character development

#i love love love how becoming better and more human #somehow makes him so much worse at lying #or maybe he just has too much of a soft spot for arthur. idk sjdhdjd #malevolent spoilers #malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent fanart #luluboy draws stuff

[arthursfuckinghat]

Nothin' like having a cigarette and lovingly watching your boybest friend beat the shit out of a guy <3

#jokes aside I love how charles knew that arthur could handle it himself and just watched #he trusts arthur #charles just lets arthur get on because he knows he can do it #same with the tracking #sure charles could have tracked trelawny but he let arthur take the lead because he trusted him and likely thought he could use the practic #how sweet :') #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #charles smith #I have a big backlog of posts so stuff might not be in chronological order<\3

[bibuck-saved-me]

it’s a selfish thought and arthur knows it because merlin has spent so much time hiding a vital part of his existence, his very being, all because of arthur. so he presses it down into the deepest recesses of himself and focuses on doing everything he can to support merlin, to give merlin the world he deserves. a world where he is free.

but sometimes, when he’s alone in his room surrounded by his endless responsibilities, he will think to himself, i am nothing.

merlin and the old religion hold him as this once and future king, but no matter what they say, he can’t understand why they think any of this is about him. it was never him. everything he’d done, every accomplishment and fight he’d won had never been his to claim. he was a fraud. he was a lonely king with nothing to his name beyond the blood on his hands, the blood staining his every crevice.

he isn’t the once and future king. he doesn’t deserve any of the praise. he is the moon, a piece of rock in the sky that shines only because of the sun. without the sun, the moon is worthless. without the sun, no one would have ever looked at the moon twice.

arthur had never been proud of his mistakes and his inaction when it came to his father’s slaughter, but he had been proud of the things he had done to keep his kingdom and his people safe and healthy and happy. he has fought and fought and fought only to discover he had never even landed a punch. every knockout, every victory he had held up to hide the ugly nothingness of his true, empty self was never his to hold. with the discovery of merlin’s magic, any worthiness he thought he’d earned had slipped through his fingers like sand through a sieve.

merlin is beautiful and powerful. merlin is a god amongst men, a gift given to this world, given to arthur, and for what?

this prophecy for arthur was always about merlin. he carried the weight, he fought and fought and fought and he won, merlin was the one who had carried this kingdom on his back until they reached the safety of the golden era of the current day.

it’s a selfish thought, to be thinking of himself in relation to merlin’s magic when merlin has suffered every single day because of arthur. and yet, in those moments, he can’t help but wonder why he was born at all, why he was named savior of a group of people who would’ve never died if only he had stayed unmade, a whisper of nothingness in his mother’s womb.

his first breath caused a massacre, a genocide, and yet he was given an angel and a title and a prophecy of greatness he could never actually fulfill.

he would never tell merlin about these thoughts he had. merlin would end up feeling guilty somehow, would carry the weight of arthur’s worthlessness even more by taking on the deserved revulsion arthur had for himself.

no, he couldn’t tell merlin about this. merlin would tell him he was wrong, would try to talk him up and fix it. would use that endless kindness to tell arthur endless stories about his own importance. merlin would shine his sunshine on arthur until arthur forgot he was just a lump of rock. he wouldn’t rest until arthur loved himself, until arthur took all the credit for merlin’s own accomplishments again.

no, he would keep this to himself. he would give merlin the attention and love he deserves. this story isn’t actually about arthur pendragon. it never was.

#idk what this is #anyway #sorry #me? projecting? never #also to clarify uh this is obviously not how i feel personally about arthur!! #i love that man i just wanted to explore how the insecurities we see him have in the show would look post magic reveal #merlin #arthur pendragon #bbc merlin #bbc arthur #merthur #it’s hinted at more than anything though #character study #character introspection #might delete later #ficlet #angst

[buboloboogie]

!!!!!! rewatched episode 5 for the 5th time :3 !!!!!

i never ever draw them consistently ever frown

#the suckening #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #just roll with it #jrwi fanart #arthur bennett #jrwi suckening #emezil tucker #vampistol #deacon keller #shilo bathroy #edward twilight #i love magnus #i love him and his husband #sometimes i sit and think things like #how was their wedding #was it themed #was arthur the best man??? #i also love the idea that magnus jerome and arthur go on camping trips #ik that was just a bit/side comment but i thought it was very silly to think about #anyway #i hope nothing happens to magnus or jerome #bub's sillies

[bluebirbbb]

little arthur malevolent lester portrait because my brain is full of him

#WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME I MISSPELLED ARTHUR (edited now) #I KNOW THAT'S AN ESSAY IN THE TAGS BUT I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS #i love him #i need to make him look more pathethic and sad next time #and more scrawny maybe #he's just too presentable #i dont have time for more art recently so have this at least as my little break from uni work #i actually like how it turned out tho #i need to paint more loosely like this in the future #also ive been staring at leyendecker when drawing this can you tell by the shading on the cheek #and yes he has white hairs!!!! #and eyebags and a little bit of wrinkles in the corners of his eyes #i need to draw it better next time but that's how i see the guy #i really want to draw his lighter too because i've been thinking too much about its design and also i want to render some objects #arthur lester #arthur malevolent #malevolent podcast #malevolent fanart #poor sad british man #myartstuff

[sherlockruiningmylife]

What is currently killing me about merthur is the whole Merlin fell first but Arthur fell harder. Because if this is true (which I fully believe it is) and Merlin was so so broken over Arthur's death. And waited dutifully and solemnly for 1500+ years. Then just imagine, imagine (!) what Arthur would have done if Merlin died. Broken wouldn't begin to describe it. He would have raged and torn the world apart to bring him back. If Merlin turned dark in s5 trying to prevent the end, then imagine how dark Arthur would become if he lost Merlin. Nothing, I mean nothing would have stopped him from bringing Merlin back.

#if anyone has fic recs plz lmk #also #i am all behind the merlin being immortal #even before the crystal cave #but i like the angst #and thinking about just how much arthur feels #his love is so strong #but it would blind him #as it blinded merlin #merlin #bbc merlin #merthur #arthur pendragon #all the angst #merthur fanfic

[croh3]

when john wants something from arthur he literally just intimidates him and he's not even good at it. and when arthur wants something from john he just unknowingly manipulates the shit out of him

#LIKE EPS 24-26 ARE SO FUCKED UP ARTHUR'S JUST GOING FULL CIRCLE WITH MANIPULATION TACTICS #i wish i had more comprehensive thoughts about it but like #he first compliments john and tells him how much he loves him then he guilt trips john and THEN #HE'S blaming john for manipulating HIM #i love when arthur is toxic and fucked up. he's so sexy about it #malevolent #chr-txt

[chronicowboy]

say what you will about gwen and merlin in season 5 but they did one thing right. gwen knew merlin was arthur's guardian angel. she knew that even before she understood the full extent of it. in the disir, despite all the knights going on the quest with them, gwen asks merlin to keep him safe because she knows how devoted he is to arthur and how important arthur's safety is to him himself. then even when she's under morgana's control, she knows merlin is arthur's most effective guardian so much so that they concoct an entire separate plan to get merlin out of the citadel for the assassination attempt. not to mention her trying to pin the blame of the poisoning on merlin because him being free jeopardised the plan more than anything else. and then of course at the battle of camlann she knew the one person that could summon a lightning storm to save arthur would of course be merlin and if there was one person she trusted with arthur as he died of course it would be merlin.

#sami rambles #like i'm sure there are more examples from s5 but these are the main ones that are just like. #gwen trusts merlin with arthur the most because she knows how much merlin loves him too #bbc merlin #merlin #guinevere #bbc gwen #arthur pendragon #gwen x arthur #merlin x arthur #arthur x merlin #merthur #merlin and arthur #merlin and gwen

[luck-of-the-drawings]

my TWO FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD, VAMPIRES N COWBOYS... deacon keller is SUCH a fun character, hes charming and funny but ALSO formidable and STRONG when he feels he needsta be. i hope him and arthur can get a chance to talk more and be better friends. l ike really good friend s. . like. like really good f. hangon i gotta go i think i hauve rabies.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #deacon keller #arthur bennett #OOUGUGHHAAOGUguguhh i feel so cringe whenever i ship two characters. like theyre not even REAL #why cant i be more 'hyperfixated' on getting bitched or something. CHRIST. anwyay i want em to hold hands or smth. yknow. freak stuff. #SO DEACON KELLER!! HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR TALKIN ABT THIS PLACE GETTING ATTACKED.. WE SAW HIM APPROACHING #AND THEN THE WHOLE FEAST PORTION OF THE PARTY HAPPENED N HE GOT STUCK #BUT HE KNEEEWW HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR SOMEHOW!! i just think thats neat. hes dedicated to protecting his people. hes respectable!! #GOD he doesnt even have that much screen time but i LOVE HIMMM n his silly lil shadow steed named Sunshine.. like cmon.... ugh..... #hes sweet n hes funny and he CAARES about the things hes in charge of on some levels. he certainly does his best to look after his own. #god idk what else to write here other than how much hes been on my MMMIND lately. the doctors are still running diagnostiscs #i just think hes so neat... also i think its funny that hes afraid o snakes. OH YKNOW lemme just talk abt my damn art. first o all this too #SSSOOO LONG. WEEKS EVEN.IVE BEEN WORKIN ON IT SINCE EP 5 WAS ON PATREON.it was sposed to be justa buncha doodles but then it Evolved #idk man...cowboys are just so cool...especially w VAMP POWERS..fastest shot in the west for a REASON BABY...n with the red smoke #n the glowing eyes..CMOn thats so cool i hadta get my visions into reality. the eyes were inspired by the music video for RATTLESNAKE (kglw #that where the IM THE SERPENT lines come from.lyrics from tha song.ooh yeah i love kglw so much...i also have other hidden messages here #i like to hide things...ALSO ALSO. I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE W SO MUCH O THIS. the two bits with arthur n deacon biting eachother. AGONY #POSES ARE SO HHARRDDD SAME WITH THAT doodle o arthur slammin deacons head into the ground. WEEKS to get that pose RIGHT. I BLED SO MUCH #OHH AND GUNS???COWBOYHATS?? HIS GAY LIL JACKET? W THE DANGLIES?? AGOONYYY IT TOOK SO LONG TO PERFECT IT..especialy guns. OUUUHH #i also dont draw mustaches enough... which sucks bc im weak for a good mustache... BUT i think im doing pretty well on that. #it was hard but yknow what!! i think i did good! i rly like how this all turned out!! EXCEPT FOR THA FUCKIN RIBBON BOW THING I FORGOT TODRA #IN THE TOP RIGHT... THAT I JSUT NOTICED...its fine its fine i dont care that much. this is good enough to FEAST upon so im content n happy. #anyway i gotta leave ina few hours to start TRAINING for my NEW JOB!! CHEER FOR ME!! TRUCK IS A BLACKJACK DEALER NOW!! IEAAAHHH BABYYYY!!!! #thanku for reading my weird lil scrolls i bury beneath my posts. if u leave tags i WILL absorb them. and feel joy.

[regulusrules]

the first and last thing Merlin ever said about Arthur is that he's his friend

#is it even possible to be over them? #like #that's not even a possibility anymore #they were in love my lord #they just didn't know how to say it #back to random ass gut wrenching facts in the middle of the night #also friend is an enunciation to something else entirely #calling him friend is synonymous to calling him my soul and being #same goes to arthur #merlin #arthur pendragon #bbc merlin #merthur #merlin bbc #merlin x arthur #ao3 #king arthur #bbcm #merlin emrys #bbcmerlin #the once and future fandom #regulusrules metas

[will80sbyers]

Mickey with bisexual light behind him in episode 5 we love to see it

#even if it doesn't happen I won't be mad about it because we have TWO amazingly written wlw couples to obsess over #but #I ship him and Spoon so much too #but I also love their frienship in general so it's okay if it stays a friendship #spoon spindell #mickey bolitar #spoon x mickey #spolitar #how are they called #I just love them so much even if it's only platonic #shelter prime video #shelter #harlan coben's shelter #arthur spindell #Arthur x Mickey

[arthursfuckinghat]

Say what you want about Mary, but nothing makes my heart ache for Arthur more than how fucking much they loved eachother and how much they knew it would never work.

Meeting Mary the second time, she absolutely lit up seeing that Arthur actually came to help her again. Even despite the rough circumstances with her father, they both went and had a wonderful evening at the theatre.

Mary had no idea that would be the last time she'd ever see Arthur alive again.

#and she didn't even say goodbye to him at the trolley #the last letter she wrote to him was about moving on and gave back the ring arthur gave her #I can't even imagine how much the guilt and grief ate at her for that #oh mary arthur loved you so much #he had a dysfunctional family just like you why couldn't you both see that #oh man #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick thinks #arthur morgan #mary linton #mary gillis #red dead redemption 2 spoilers #she probably wanted it to be the last time they'd meet because she wanted to move on #but how was she to know #how was she to know she would never see those blue eyes again

[merlinemrys]

sometimes u just have to think about how gwen is thee it girl in camelot 😌 favoured heavily by morgana, courted by arthur and then became queen (not to mention that arthur was willing to forsake his entire kingdom just to be with her), lancelot loved her at first sight and he carried that flame of his affection until he died, gwaine stopped in the middle of the street to flirt with her, leon basically goes and shoots his shot while arthur’s dying, merlin’s willing to disguise himself AND die for her at any turn… nobody does it like thee babygirl ever <3

#shows #bbc merlin #guinevere pendragon #gwen #text #tais toi lys #i NEED to make more everybody loves gwen fics #ONE ISNT ENOUGH #merlin needs to head like a Gwen Love Club (open to the public) and u get the usual suspects (arthur/lancelot/gwaine/leon/morgana) but then #u just get a SLEW of random citizens of camelot who barge in and they all speak very earnestly abt gwen #and one day gwen pops in and sees this odd group and when arthur comes to kiss her hello (they all STARE AT HIM WITH ENVY) and she’s just #like ‘am i missing a meeting? open audience?’ and everyone murmurs ‘no my lady’ and merlin winks at her and says ‘we all gather here every #week to discuss our love for you of course.’ and bc it’s MERLIN and he looks like he’s JOKING gwen just rolls her eyes and takes her leave #arthur then turns to merlin as is like ‘HOW DID YOU DO THAT?’ and merlin shrugs ‘she doesn’t take compliments like that very well it’s easy #for her to think we’re kidding than actually contemplating the idea that i may be telling the truth!’ #*

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

POV you’re a medieval townsperson in a poor village that’s being frequently raided and the only plan anyone has is for this one mom to go fetch her son from another town, but when she comes back, not only is it with her son- who you remember as this weird awkward kid- and two other women, but with the fucking PRINCE of an enemy kingdom. and after you recover from the shock of that, you realize that the prince and the weird kid are like……… really close. they’re always having private conversations and staring into each other’s eyes and you heard tell that the prince is sleeping on the floor of the kid’s hut? you remember hearing that this kid was the servant to the prince, but clearly you missed something along the way, because this literal actual prince who is here in your town won’t stop smiling fondly and making the world’s most obvious heart eyes at this random lanky teenager from your small village.

#i was rewatching this episode because it makes me feel things and like. they were genuinely insane for this. #the way merlin’s mom and childhood best friend (and morgana & gwen) ALL call him out on how obviously in love he and arthur are?!!?!!??? #because that IS what’s happening there and you can not convince me otherwise #anyways gonna go think about arthur following after merlin in the dark of night just because he can’t bear to see him leave for good #and the way merlin exclaims “arthur :D!” with more fondness and excitement than i have ever heard when they find each other in the woods #merlin #bbc merlin #merthur #also: i don’t actually know how old merlin is.. this is me interpreting him as ~19 and arthur as ~21. if i’m wrong please don’t come at me 😔 #eli.posts

[dollopheadsandclotpoles]

BBC Merlin is a tragedy in that Merlin's choices that were all to save Arthur's life led to Arthur's death, but that doesn't mean it was all for nothing!! The events across their 10 years together led to a new world order which eventually brought about everything they had worked towards!! PLUS THEIR RELATIONSHIP BROUGHT JOY AND MEANING TO BOTH OF THEIR LIVES!! That means something!! GUYS!! listen guys that MEANS SOMETHING!!

#it's not like game of thrones which left us with the feeling that everything is pointless #bbc merlin #merlin #it was their love for each other that brought about the new world order!! #also I feel like people haven't watched the show in a while i keep seeing people say that Merlin betrayed his own kind #HE TRIED TO HELP THEM WHENEVER HE COULD #he introduced morgana to the druids!! He protected Gilli and told him about his magic even tho he couldve betrayed him!! #it's just that he HAD to also protect himself!! it was self preservation ok! #and sure eventually protecting arthur became more important to him than anything else #but how can ya'll play/watch TLOU and be like OBV Joel would doom the world for Ellie and then turn around and be like #merlin is a traitor to his people!! he did all he could for the promise of their future!!! and he's YOUNG and he DID HIS BEST #and how many people would let their loved ones die for a vague idea of a better society #yeah I'm a merlin apologist what of it #it's just such a nuanced issue you know i'm not saying he was right but i'm not saying he was wrong either