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secretobsessionstuff · 2 years

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can you please do Kota and Blair for 18,43,78 on the “are you ok responses”?? maybe they get into an argument while blair isn’t feeling well so she leaves the room which prompts 18?

Thanks for the request!! The prompts come from THIS lovely post and I used:

18. "Like you care."

43. *can't answer over the urge to gag*

78. *humming no and cradling belly* "Mm-mm. M-My stomach..."

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Blair dropped her bag and coat onto the floor by the front door and made a beeline—ha Beeline—to the kitchen cabinet where they kept the medicine. She did not make that particular pun in her head, because her head was too sore to entertain any thoughts that weren’t about pain.

The ache had first wrapped itself around her forehead, but quickly spread so that it wrapped around her whole body. The muscles in her shoulders and back felt constricted with tension. Her stomach too was feeling the discomfort of an intense ache. As if enveloped in an unwanted hug, she found herself sticky and uncomfortable, unable to shrug off the annoying weight that settled into her bones.

She shook two pills into her hand and debated taking something for nausea. Blair never had much luck with anti-nausea pills; they never worked fast enough to stay down. The likelihood of the ibuprofen staying down wasn’t looking great either. The only reason she was chancing these pills was because she felt like she might stab the next person who spoke to her if she didn’t try something.

Unfortunately for Dakota, he greeted Blair in the kitchen, solidifying his role as The Next Person Who Spoke to Blair.

She did not stab him even though he came bouncing into the room, rambling about dinner. He made a Kotaline—you know, like Beeline—to the fridge. He opened the fridge so quickly that the jars and cans in the door clinked together annoyingly. Everything was annoying to Blair just then.

Dakota shoved a handful of grapes into his mouth. “Thank God you’re home. I’m starving and we have literally nothing to eat,” he said literally eating fruit out of his palm.

He spun around from the fridge and scanned the kitchen for something specific…something Blair was beginning to think she had forgotten. “Where’s the takeout? Did you get it?” He looked at her with exaggerated intensity. “Bee? Where’s our food?”

Ah yes, the food. The food that Blair was supposed to pick up after the work. The food that would single-handedly save Dakota from starvation. That food.

Blair didn’t want to look at him when she told him the bad news. What? With the way her stomach was aching, dinner was the last thing on her mind. She sat down on the kitchen stool with a sigh, burying her head in her hands. “I forgot it,” she mumbled, kneading her fingers into her forehead and eyes.

“No. You’re lying. You’re joking.”

“Fine. I’m lying. You’re right.”

“Really?” Dakota asked, perking up like a dog.

“No!” Blair slammed her hands on the kitchen counter. She didn’t mean to slam her hands, but they came down so heavily. Everything was so heavy. Her eyelids. Her stomach. The organ whined as if it had been stuffed with rocks. She blew a puff of air out of her nose, trying to remain composed. Dakota was just staring at her as if she maliciously flushed all their food down the toilet. She rubbed her hands together to get the tingling feeling to go away. “I’m sorry. I didn’t have a good day and I just wanted to get home.

“So, you purposely skipped getting dinner?”

“No. I really did forget it. I left work and my brain just drove me home. I wasn’t thinking.”

“Yeah, you weren’t thinking.” Dakota licked his lips and dragged his hand over his mouth. “I take it that means you didn’t pick up my prescription either?”

“What?”

“I asked you to pick up my meds on your way home.”

“When?” Blair had no memory of this.

“This morning before you left.” Dakota was starting to get antsy now, moving aimlessly around the kitchen. Blair knew he got stressed whenever he missed a day of his adhd meds.

There was so much she could say to this. Did Dakota even wait for a reply this morning or did he just assume that she would get his prescription? Did she give any indication that she heard him say this? The answer was no, obviously, considering that she hadn’t a clue what he was talking about.

And why did she have to do everything? She wasn’t the one sitting at home all day. He could have gone to the pharmacy. He could have gone grocery shopping. Hell, he could have done the dishes that were currently piled high in the sink.

But Blair didn’t say any of this. She was too tired to fight. Her belly was making enough fuss as it was. She placed her hand on her abdomen, feeling it cramp and churn. She didn’t want to do this right now. Dakota was still wandering around the kitchen, opening drawers and cabinets. When he said her name, she realized that he was expecting more.

“Can we talk about this later? I had a terrible day, and I don’t feel well.”

“What about dinner?”

This time Blair did want to slam her hands on the counter. He wasn’t listening to her at all, only caring about his own needs. A sudden hiccup made her shoulders jump. The sound was half hiccup, half groan. “I really don’t care! I’m not hungry” —so very very far from being hungry— “Just do what you want.”

“Oh okay, because you’re not hungry, everything is fine, then?” Dakota finally came to a stop, just long enough to glare at her.

That might have been the first instance where he saw something wasn’t quite right with the way she looked. Kinda pale. Kinda shaky. But in the midst of the argument, his mind didn’t connect the pieces just yet, despite everything she’d been saying. He was still thinking about how his day might look tomorrow if he didn’t take his meds. “And it wasn’t your prescription so who cares, right?”

God, Blair swore in her head, he was being so hypocritical right now. And sarcastic, and he kept putting words in her mouth. The last thing she wanted was anything in her mouth. But of course, he was feeding her words that she didn’t want, or think. Not only that, but she could feel bile rising in the back of her throat.

“Kota—hic—please.” She hiccupped again, this time it brought with it a burp that coated her tongue in a slimy layer of saliva. “I don’t want to fight right now.” She wasn’t sure how long they were going to argue like this, but she was certain that her stomach would not last long before sending up her lunch.

“Well, I don’t want to fight either but—” Dakota paused as she stood up from the stool and started to walk away. Honestly it was closer to a jog. As she passed him, she burped wetly into her hand. It did not sound good. Dakota grimaced at how sick that burp sounded. Now she was more than just kinda pale. More than kinda shaky. “Are—are you okay?”

She had to sneer at this. “Like you care.”

“Of course, I care,” Dakota said as he followed her down the hall. Damn she was moving fast now. Something was not right. “For real, babe, are you alright?”

Blair did not answer him. She was too busy gagging into her hand. Her belly lurched but she managed to keep the sick from spilling past her lips, at least until she made it to the bathroom.

She dropped to her knees in front of the toilet, letting out a gush of pale orange liquid. Hot vomit burned her throat before splashing into the water below.

“Oh.” Dakota stood frozen in the doorway. “Shit.”

More sick gurgled up her throat. She squeezed her eyes shut as the next heave rocked her forward. Her knuckles turned white from how hard she gripped the bowl. Each wave made tears leak onto her cheeks.

There was no chance to catch her breath in between bouts. It just kept coming. Her poor belly was spasming painfully, like a rag being wrung out to release the liquid trapped inside.

“Ugh God,” she mumbled as a harsh retch made her hair fall down by her face.

Dakota snapped out of his shock, perhaps realizing that he had soon-to-be husbandly duties, one of which was holding his soon-to-be wife’s hair back. He knelt beside her and gathered her hair up in his hand. With his free hand, he traced his fingers up and down her spine. “Okay, alright,” he muttered as he patted her back. “Get that shit up.”

She was shaking and burning up beneath his touch. He could feel the heat on the back of her neck from where he held her hair.

For a while longer, she stayed on her knees, too afraid to move from her spot.

Eventually, Blair let out a deep burp. It rumbled in her chest and made her shiver with a new spike of nausea. Another gag had her pitching forward. Nothing came up this time except for frothy saliva. She groaned and spat into the toilet.

She sighed heavily, wiped the sweat from her forehead, and leaned back against the wall. Her chest rose and fell rapidly. “Ugh, I feel horrible.”

Dakota settled into a better position as well, groaning as he pulled his feet out from under him to sit cross-legged. He took in the sight of her wan complexion “Oh Bee, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize you were so sick.” He wore a look of pure guilt and never took his hand off her thigh. “Are you okay?”

Blair made a low humming noise in her throat as if to say no and shook her miserably. “Mm-mm. M-My stomach...” She kept her eyes closed and her arms wrapped around her belly.

He felt like kicking himself. “I know. You’re really not feeling well at all.”

Blair cracked an eye open. “So, you did hear me say that.” It wasn’t really a question—more of a trap that Dakota was sure to fall into.

He stuttered. “I—I was being an asshole and I wasn’t listening to you.”

She shook her head at him. “That was the first right thing you said to me since I got home.”

“I feel like a jerk.”

“Oh, that’s because you’re a jerk.”

Dakota gave her a sad, puppy-dog look. “I’m really sorry, you know that right?”

“Maybe…”

“Mmh? Okay…” He moved closer to her and kissed her forehead. “Do you forgive me now?” He kissed her nose. “Or maybe now?” Finally, he picked up her hand and gave it the softest of kisses. “How about now?” he whispered.

Blair looked down in an attempt to conceal her smile, but Dakota lifted her chin back up. He wore the cheekiest grin.

“Ah I see that smile.” He kissed her nose again before backing up to give her space. “Ah you love me again,” he said in sing-song voice.

“I never stopped, idiot,” Blair said. Then she got serious for a second. “But you can’t just kiss me to make it all okay.”

“But I kissed you even though you’re covered in germs.” The look she gave him made him throw his hands up in surrender. “But you’re right. You’re right. I’ll pick up my own damn prescription right now and then go grocery shopping.”

“Thank you. But first…”

“Yes?”

“Help me to bed.”

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were-here-and-were-queer · 3 years

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Hi! Do you have/know any resources for aroace info I’m trying to figure out my identity and I don’t know where to look to find info that actually helps me figure out a label that fits with me

Of course! I have loads of links here for you to just rummage through; some have basic aro and/or ace info, and others go deeper into labels. I hope some of these help you! Stay safe 💕

1. The Internet Is Your Friend

The internet has tons of aromantic and asexual resources, it just takes a little time to look sometimes! Here I have found for you some aspec videos, youtubers, websites, and the like!

Aspec Videos and Youtubers:

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Celeste M is one of my favourite YouTubers! As well as talking about gender and sexuality, they also make videos about physical/mental health, wellbeing, and lighter topics like cooking, cosplay and tutorials. I totally recommend them!

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Aaron Ansuini focuses more on transgender related subjects in his videos, but he also has some good ones on asexuality! His YouTube also covers Disability, mental health, art and animation! He's pretty awesome!

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Yasmin Benoit is what a lot of people consider the "Unlikely Face of Asexuality." An aromantic asexual activist and alternative model, she promotes visibility for the aspec community and LGBT+ people of colour. A love her so much and recommend checking some of her videos out!

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Sexplanations on YouTube provides an A+ video on asexuality and asexual experiences. Personally, I found this video very insightful and engaging, and definitely worth checking out. They also do a video on demisexuality!!

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Jamie is a trans, autistic, LGBT+ YouTuber I really enjoy! As well as talking about queer topics, he has fashion videos, lifestyle videos, pretty funny reaction videos, and some other things. This video taught me more about asexuality, as well as providing some well needed ace memes and serotonin!

Believe it or not, there are many great TED Talks on asexuality! Having such a variety of videos opens you to different perspectives and viewpoints on asexuality. This includes Yasmin Benoit!

Asexuality: my Story of Self-exploration

Asexuals need media representation | Yasmin Benoit |

Is Sex the Glue in Our Relationships? | Gaia Steinberg |

Asexuality | Lisa Zhang |

An insight into asexuality

Exist | Danica Brown |

Other awesome aspec YouTubers and videos!

Embly

Eleanor Wilkinson

Queer As Cat (@queerascat)

HeyoDamo

ChandlerNWilson

Echo Gillette

Nik Hampshire

Kaihugstrees

That Girl With The Curl

My Aromantic Asexual Identities

What falls under the Aromantic Spectrum? | Under the Rainbow

Shaz Capade

Debunking Asexual and Aromantic Myths

My Life As An Aromantic

Coming out as aromantic | Everything you need to know

Legit Boring #33: Being Gray Romantic + Legit Boring #27: Discovering Asexuality

5 Asexual People Explain What "Asexual" Means To Them

Asexuality: The Invisible Orientation + Aromanticism: Life Without Romantic Attraction

Everything Asexual and Aromantic. Part 1, Part 2, Part 3

Aspec Websites and Pages:

This isn’t a website, but it’s too good not to include! I found this comic by page artist Kotaline Jones quite a while ago, and I still go back to it! It's probably my favourite aspec comic. Each page is drawn beautifully well, and brought me much comfort and understanding. Kotaline is very talented, and I owe a lot to this.

Links to aspec pages!

explore the spectrum: guide to finding your ace community

Facts You Should Know About Aromantic People

Wiki Aromantic + Asexual (Sub-labels are easily searchable!)

Labels change, but feelings persist

Are you ready for Aromantic Spectrum Awareness Week?

TREVOR SUPPORT CENTER; Asexuality

What is asexuality?

It’s time to bust myths about asexuality

Aromantic Resources

This is what asexual looks like

What Does It Mean to Be Asexual?

I’M QUEER AND ASEXUAL. IF THAT’S A PROBLEM, BY ALL MEANS, REVOKE MY MEMBERSHIP.

Other awesome aspec and LGBT+ websites!

Aropocalype.com

Aromanticguide.com

Arospecweek.org

Aromanticism.org

Asexualagenda.wordpress.com

Asexualityarchive.com

Aceweek.org

Aroacedatabase.com

Queerundifined.com

Minus18.org.au (Australian Based)

Oulgbtq.org (Has loads of aspec resources!)

2. Connect With Others!

One of the best ways to learn is to connect with others! There's many ways to do so, and you can make friendships out of it too *looks at the other mods 👀*

Social Media

Twitter, Facebook, and other social media platforms are great ways to connect with members of the LGBT+ community! Especially here on Tumblr, which is apparently 193% more queer than any other platform, haha! There are many Ask Blogs (like us lol) dedicated to help and educate people on aromanticism and/or asexuality, but a lot of the time can just explore! There are loads of aspec bloggers and group chats that will happily befriend you!

TrevorSpace

Monitored and youth-friendly, TrevorSpace is a social networking site dedicated to LGBT+ people and allies aged 13-24. There you can create profiles and engage with different people and communities. There you can talk about more serious discussion; such as topics concerning mental health, coming out, and discrimination, and well as light-hearted topics about passions and interests. It is a great place to meet new people, and privacy/safety is taken very seriously. You can also find resources and get involved with local queer communities through TrevorSpace!

Local Communities!

If you’re able to, look into LGBT+ Spaces near you! Pride Gatherings are a fantastic way to find and engage with fellow queers! It can be quite an amazing experience to meet other LGBT+ people, and it's a great opportunity to make new relationships as well. Just remember to stay safe <3

3. Try Some On!

Labels are awesome in the fact that you don’t have to think they’re awesome! You can like em! You can despise them! You can have a love-hate relationship with them! The complexity of gender and sexuality is not as black and white as some people think, and it is 100% normal to be confused. When it comes to labels, it's all down to what you feel most comfortable with. Labels are like boxes. And you are a cat. You can force a cat to go in a particular box, but they won't like it. It will take time for the cat to choose which box, or boxes, it wants to sit in. They can change their mind later, and that's okay. The cat may even scratch up the box they really like, but they will eventually settle in. Labels are ment to make someone feel more valid and comfortable. If its not, then you can change it.

I hope this helps, if anyone has other resources, feel free to add them!

- Mod Rowan

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