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filmofhybe · 6 months
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If I was enhypen, I would’ve boycotted. Like they are stronger than me cuz I would’ve been furious to know I’m still performing for a rigged show that just gave me ONE AWARD this year.
But anyways… looking forward to see &team , svt and my babes SWF2 😝
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reactingwithexo · 1 year
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Once B.ts title tracks started sounding like Disney Osts I lost interest. I don't even keep up with them anymore. I stopped watching everything
I feel you! Personally it took me a long time to get used to their newer songs and I like them in general but I think the overexposure was what did it for me, didn’t felt special to me anymore and I just got gradually tired of their promos.
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pauie · 3 months
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gaeul and changbin could actually pass as siblings
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astraystayyh · 11 months
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Young and beautiful
hyunjin x reader. mutual obsession. lots of fluff. they are in love your honor (but still haven't told each other).
feedback is highly appreciated <3
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You never really understood the difference between loving someone and being in love with them.
That is until you met Hyunjin.
You didn't love him the way you loved sunsets or the smell of earth after the rain.
You were in love with him. You were so submerged in Hyunjin's love that it was all you could feel within you at times.
Other emotions come and go in you, like tidal waves lapping softly at the shore. But the love for him stays- it echoes inside you like the distant ringing of a cathedral bell.
You imagined that your love for Hyunjin slowly seeped into your body and intertwined itself with every atom that formed you. That loving him became a certainty for your being, just like your name or the lines stretching across your palm.
Still, despite all those grand feelings you harbored, you never dared to confess to him. Those five words were stuck in your throat, and you had to force them down each time Hyunjin existed near you.
You didn't want to scare him off. But most importantly, you didn't want him to feel forced to reciprocate your feelings.
So you didn't say it. But you kissed the mole under his eye whenever his face was close enough to you. You sent him daily reminders to drink water because he tended to forget it. And you slipped encouraging notes in the pockets of his jackets, so he'd find them randomly throughout his days.
Those were wordless confessions you sent his way in the hopes that he'd understand. That he'd feel your love and he'd store it inside him, keeping it safe until the day you finally found the courage to say it.
And on mornings like this one, it was especially hard to not shout your love for the whole world to hear.
You rose before Hyunjin, and the sun was streaming through your curtains- its golden rays casting an ethereal glow on his sleeping figure. You slowly trace the outline of Hyunjin's face, sliding your finger down his eyebrows, his eyes, his nose and his plump lips. His lips reminded you of soft cushions, rosy and yours.
"Morning, angel," he whispers, eyes still closed, and you bury your head in his neck, "Morning, baby."
His arms instinctively wrap around you, pulling you closer to him. But it wasn't enough. It was never enough with him. You wished you could crawl inside of him and build a home for you to rest in there.
Hyunjin places a soft kiss on the top of your head, and you retaliate by kissing his neck. Once, twice, and then you stop counting.
"I think the rest of my body is getting jealous of my neck," he giggles and you lean away, smiling cheekily. "Really? We can't have that, can we?"
"No, that'd be sooo unfair," he pouts playfully and you laugh, before straddling his lap. You start with a kiss to his forehead and he smiles at you so brightly, you feel sorry for the sun shining outside, for it could never rival with your Hyunjin.
You then kiss his eyes- the left one first, then the right one. The tip of his nose is next, his rosy cheeks follow, and finally, his mouth. His lips move against yours slowly, his hands finding your hair and gently threading through it. There was no rush- you had the rest of your life to love him.
When you both inevitably pull away, panting for air, Hyunjin grabs your hand and places it on top of his wildly beating heart.
"You feel it?" he asks breathlessly and you nod timidly in response. Sometimes you couldn't believe the effect you had on him.
"Whenever you laugh, I feel as if my heart is in the palm of your hand. And you are squeezing it to the beat of your laugh," he speaks quietly, making your breath hitch in your throat.
"When you kiss me, I feel as if my skin is on fire, tingling all over from your lips. But it's not a burning sensation, it's more of a warm one. You make me forget all the days I've spent feeling cold before you." He clasps your hand in his tightly, as if holding it gave him the force to speak.
"And when you look at me I feel as if you are the answer to all my prayers. Even the ones I haven't made yet." He pauses, gazing deeply into your eyes, "You are everything to me, yn. And I don't- I don't mind if you don't feel the same. I love you enough for the both of us."
"You love me?" you question, eyes wide staring into his. It felt as if your heart was leaping out of your chest, leaving you dazed in its trail.
"I do."
You start to giggle, bewildered by his words, which then morphs into a fullblown laugh. Hyunjin simply looks at you, a confused smile adorning his face.
"So you're telling me," you try to speak through your laughter, "I've been torturing myself for the past weeks so I wouldn't tell you and you love me?"
"Wait. You love me too?"
"Do I love you?" you repeat incredulously, "Hyunjin you are everything I've ever loved and more in human form."
"Say it," he whispers breathlessly and you beam at him.
"I am in love with you, Hwang Hyunjin."
"Say it again," he grins, as he grabs your body and spins it around, until you are laying on the bed and he's hovering over you.
"I am in love with you."
"Again."
"I'm in love with you," you giggle and he sighs happily, leaning his forehead on yours.
"I think your laugh just gained a strong competitor."
"What do you mean?"
"You saying I love you has just become my favorite sound," he explains, kissing your forehead gently.
"My poor laugh was dethroned?" you ask and he nods sadly, "Unfortunately. But you know what my favorite favorite sound will be ?"
"What?"
"You saying yes when I ask you to marry me."
"Who says my answer is yes?" you tease, even as an evident blush creeps up your neck.
"I'll keep asking until you agree."
"it might take time."
"I'll still ask even when I'm seventy."
"Yeah? even when I'm no longer young and beautiful?" you joke, referencing to one of your favorite songs to listen to together.
"Nonsense, you'll always be beautiful. And I...", he leans down, bopping his nose with yours, "I will love you till my last breath."
"You do love me," you whisper in relief, any hint of teasing gone from your voice and he smiles softly at you.
"More than you'll ever know."
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luciathcv · 3 months
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you’re so blind - psh
summary: your bestfriend confesses his love to you after having enough with you talking about some other guy || warnings: sunghoon is a little mean || genre: fluff at the end, slight angst, friends to lovers || word count: approximately 480
Sunghoon sat at my desk, listening to me as I continued to ramble on and on. “Oh my god, Hoon. I’m serious when I say I was so shocked when he confessed to me. Like, I don’t think I’ve ever even spoken to him a day in my life.” I say, recalling the events from earlier in the day.
“Okay.” Was all Sunghoon said in response as I just continued talking.
“I mean, and I guess I get having a little crush on someone you’ve never spoken to but this guy said he was in love with me.” I respond and Sunghoon doesn’t say anything but I can see his eyebrows furrow, even more than they already were. “How could you love someone you’ve never even spoken to?” I rhetorically ask. “Anyways, I rejected him but-“ I’m cut off.
“Oh my god, shut up.” Sunghoon says and I’m taken aback, immediately shutting my mouth as my eyes widen a little.
I guess I had been kind of rambling and now that I was thinking about it, he didn’t seem very interested in the conversation from the beginning. “I’m sor-“ I try to apologize but I’m cut off once again.
“You really think I want to hear about some guy confessing his love for you?” Sunghoon asks.
“I- I don’t know. I just needed someone to vent to. I’m sorry, Hoon.” I tell him, looking down.
Sunghoon gets up from his chair and walks over to me, “Y/n.” He says my name but I don’t look up. I hear him groan before he repeats “Y/n.” once again. I finally look up, “Tell me you’ll never talk to him again.” Sunghoon suddenly says.
“Huh..” I was confused on why he wanted that.
“Just say it, Y/n.” He tells me, rather firmly in manner.
“I won’t talk to him ever again.” I softly tell him, saying the words in which he wanted to hear. “But why are you so upset about this?” I shyly ask, confused.
“Gosh, you’re so blind. Y/n, I’m so fucking in love with you I can’t even describe it and you.. you’re completely oblivious. Why would I want to hear you talking about some guy who supposedly is in love with you. I don’t want that. I just want you all to myself.” He admits.
His words echo in my mind as I just look into his eyes. I didn't know what to say. Do I confess that I'm in love with him as well. I wanted to but yet, my words wouldn't leave my lips as I sat there dumbfounded.
I didn't have to speak though because Sunghoon leans in and kisses me. It's a little rough but it was nice. I melted into the kiss, kissing him back. We both pulled away after a few moments and Sunghoon looked into my eyes.
"I love you, Sunghoon." I finally confess.
-- link to my masterlist
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dearedwardteach · 6 months
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happiest, happiest of birthday to the one, the only, the rapline queen, @raplinenthusiasts. julia, meeting you has been a joy, our conversations about music and life and bts have become such an important part of my day (even if you called me old yesterday. well AH! who's old now) 💜 i hope we get to meet soon and go to a concert together. in the meantime, here are some gifs of your favourite boy, with some of your favourite songs or verses by him. i hope you will like it, as much as i liked making it and rediscovering his lyrics. i miss him, and i know you do too 💜 happy, happy birthday — your friend, sabri
(+ bonus sope: )
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cr. lyrics and lyrics translations: doolsetbangtan (english translation in alt. description)
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fayeforrosie · 1 year
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Used By You
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Yunjin x Fem! Reader 
You’re closest friend, Yunjin, eagerly invites you to a friends New Years Eve party, almost the entire campus being known to attend this annual event. Nevertheless, after Yunjin sees somebody she would rather never associate with again, things take a turn as she devises a plan to keep this one person away from her, unaware of it’s evident effect on you. 
Warnings- Alcohol consumption, swearing 
It has been a while since you attended a party while in college, the last time being a costume party on Halloween your friend, Yunjin, forced you to go to, the two of you matching in costumes as Daphne and Velma. This time, however, Yunjin begged you for almost a week straight if you could go with her to a New Years Eve party, elucidating how fun it would be with so many people attending and it being an annual celebration you two just had to attend. It was something she couldn’t miss out on, especially without her best friend. 
Nevertheless, your intense romantic feelings, in which she did not know about, got the best of you, and she bounced up and down embracing you tightly as you finally let in and said you would go. 
“Thank you my love! Thank you thank you thank you!” Yunjin expressed gratefully, placing kisses all across your face as her lipstick left marks to remember. You smiled and turned away, scared of her reaction if she were to see how embarresed you were from her actions. 
Before you finalized your makeup and put together the final touches on your hair, you slipped the tight velvet dress onto your body, Yunjin buying it for you the previous day. 
“You look sexy as fuck Y/n woww”, Yunjin took your hand and spun you around in a circle, admiring how you looked in the matching dress she bought for you. You laugh as you return the compliment before the two of you finally put your heels on and walk out the door, grabbing her keys on the way out. 
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“I knew you girls would come!” A booming voice greeted you as you walked into the door, almost matching the volume of the music blasting through the speakers, making it almost inaudible. You smile as you get pulled into a tight hug. 
“Hi Chaewon, I missed you”, you smile, her hand staying held in yours as her other does the same to Yunjins, smiling admirably as the both of you. 
“Me too, it’s been a while”, Yunjin subsequently pulls Chaewon into a hug as well, squeezing her tight while a few other girls begin to make their way towards you. 
“Hey sexy ladies! You finally made it!” Sakura shouts behind Chaewon, noticeably drunk as she picks you up and spins you around a couple times before Kazuha needs to stop her from losing her balance. 
You greet all the girls happily, discussing what the two of you had been up to for the past couple weeks and catching up on each other’s lives. It was nice that your friend group was finally back together after being away for so long, a result of Eunchae catching Covid and separating all of you for more than a week. 
After exchanging casualties with others you spot around the room, you and Yunjin begin making the way to the alcohol, her favorite part, before she pours you a glass of Pink Whitney, as does she for herself. You clink your cups together, returning Yunjins wink she sends before you down the cup in one go, squeezing your eyes shut as you wince at the burning sensation immediately traveling to your throat. 
“First one of the night”, Yunjin smiles. 
“Second one?” You ask as you already begin to pour your friend one more, already knowing what her response was going to be. 
“You know me so well.” 
Three cups and two shots in, Yunjins senses begin to perk as she hears a recognizable voice in the room adjacent to her. She furrows her eyebrows and takes a few steps closer to the noise, hoping her ears has only deceived her. 
“Yunjin?” You question, following her tracks before she stops in front of the doorway to the other room. Her gaze falls upon someone in which you can’t see clearly, however by the chocked expression painted across her face, you could immediately tell that it wasn’t someone she wanted to see. 
“Yunjin who is it?” You ask, although silence is returned as a response to your question. 
“Yunjin wha-”
“Y/n i need to do something”, she says fervently, her hands running through her hair as her breath begins to speed up, her anxiety prominently rising. 
“What’s wrong Yunjin? Is everything ok?” Your hands find themselves on either side of her arms, steadying her as she sways back and forth anxiously. 
“Y/n, Jake is here.” 
Oh. Now you understand. 
Jake had been Yunjin’s ex, in which she dated for almost two years until she caught him cheating with a girl from one of his classes. She instantly broke it off with him, tears accessorizing her eyes while she furiously pointed to the door, screaming at him to get out of her dorm. After breaking things off and finally finding herself in a better state than before, Jake offered himself back into her life, begging for a second chance. As much as Yunjin hated to admit it, she wanted to take him back, and even told him that she would think of it. Nonetheless, after a long talk from you, highlighting how she deserves so much better and reminding her of how much he hurt her, Yunjin agreed that she should have no sympathy, and told him no. 
Now, seeing him here at this party, you knew it brought back so many unwanted memories that you knew severely affected Yunjin. You wanted to tell her you should leave and just return back home, but you bit your tongue and allowed her to think of a solution herself. You didn’t want her to get mad at you for just using him as an excuse to leave, as you knew she knew you didn’t want to be here. 
“Y/n what should I do?” She turned to you, her eyes desperate for any idea possible. You bit your lip and tried to think of something, possibly an escape route to head into a private room without being seen. 
Before you knew it, it was too late, and his voice could be heard becoming clearer as he made his way into the room. 
“Y/n what should I do? I seriously can’t bare to see him right now”, Yunjin brought her fingers to her eyebrows and rubbed them intensely, something you noticed she would do when put into such situations, stressed out and worried for herself. 
“Calm down Jin, I promise it will be fine ok”, you rubbed her shoulder in attempt to calm her down, doing no good. 
Suddenly, Jake’s voice was only a few footsteps away, and before you could take a glance at Yunjin to see how she was doing, you found yourself being harshly pushed back into the wall behind you. Thereafter, you felt a soft pair of lips smash into yours, the scent of Yunjin’s perfume she had sprayed before coming immediately entering your senses. 
Your eyes widen forthwith, seeing Yunjin ever so close to you, her eyes closed as her hand found its way to your neck, the other on your waist. You realize fairly after what she was intending to do, and with a hint of hesitation, you lean in closer and kiss her back. 
Her lips tasted as strawberry, the smell of vodka indicating that she possibly had taken another shot without your knowledge. The hand adorning your neck pushes you further into the wall as you feel Yunjin tongue slide skillfully into your mouth, being sure to make it known to others that her tongue was slipping in. 
Your hands slide up to the back of her neck, pulling her immensely closer to your body as you find yourself being carried away in the moment. Shortly after, you feel Yunjin pulling away from the kiss, and thinking the two of you are safe now, you begin to straighten yourself up, however Yunjin forces you back against the wall and instantly attacks your neck. Her tongue slides across your collar bone, and you do your best to hold in the noise that is dying to slip past your lips. 
She sucks on your neck, making her way up towards your ear before she whispers the words “is he gone yet?” 
You turn your head to the side, eyeing his figure as you see that he is now out of the room and occupying himself with a few other friends. You contemplate on telling her that he hasn’t been looking for the past twenty seconds, enjoying every second of what was happening, however you give in. 
“He just walked out”, you say. 
Yunjin sighs out of relief, taking her lips off of your neck and turning around to check if he really was gone. 
You couldn't stop the blush from spreading across your cheeks.
But it didn’t feel right to you. You had been in love with Yunjin ever since she bought you flowers on the first year anniversary of your friendship. You had never gotten such attention from someone, realizing that all of your previous friendships were primarily based on the effort you put in, not them. Yunjin was the first real best friend that you ever had met, not only throughout college, but within your entire life. She always put so much effort into being sure you were attended to, and when she bought those flowers, you finally realized how much you appreciated how she treated you, and you began to see her in a different way. A way you were afraid she didn’t feel the same about.
Now, seeing that she was not affected in any sense after deliberately making out with you in front of the whole party, you realize the high possibility of her not feeling the same, and that she truly was only using you as a way to keep her ex away.    
“Five minutes until midnight!!” A voice can be heard shouting from the living room. 
Yunjin turns around and smiles, grabbing your hand and pulling you towards the eruption of noise. Shaking your head, you pull your arm out of her grasp, and she turns around with a confused look painting itself across her expression. She notices the exceedingly upset look on your face, unable to read how you feel at the moment. 
“Y/n...”, she begins, “what’s the matter? Did something happen?” 
You scoff, “Yunjin... you’re unbelievable.” 
Her face drops, eyes furrowing as she takes a step closer. 
“What? Why? What did I do? What happened Y/n?”
“Four minutes!!” More cheers are heard in the background, but you choose to ignore them, only caught up in the girl before you. 
“What happened? Are you seriously asking what happened?” Your eyes begin to water, and you do the best to hold everything in, but you can’t help but allow a tear to fall briskly down your reddened cheek. 
Yunjin takes one more step closer, attempting to pull you in and comfort you, but you only take one back, your head now faced down towards the brown wooden floor. 
“Y/n I seriously don’t understa-”
“Come on guys! Are you not coming?” You feel your arm being tugged from the side, shifting your gaze over to the girl in which it belonged to. You see Sakura ahead of you, her hand still placed on your arm as she turns around once again and pulls you towards the living room, the intense amount noise being too loud for your liking. 
Yunjin, being pulled as well by Chaewon, looks back towards your figure worriedly, knowing that you were bothered by loud noises. 
“Three minutes!” 
Yunjin finds you in the crowd of people, standing next to Sakura, her hand now off of yours and holding onto Kazuha. 
“Y/n... please tell me what I did”, Yunjin grabs your hand and squeezes them in her hand, and you attempt to pull away, but she only holds tighter and brings you closer to her. 
“I don’t like it when you’re mad at me Y/n, and I really don’t like it when you’re sad.”
The tears can’t hold themselves back anymore, spilling speedily from your eyes and landing below you onto the rug you stood atop. Yunjin, seeing the tears now spilling from your eyes, brings her hands to your cheeks, forcing you to look at her. 
“Two minutes!” 
She rubs a few tears from your cheek. 
“Y/n/n, please tell me what’s wrong. Please. I want to be here for you.”
You sob, allowing her hands to stay put on your cheeks. 
“You don’t understand Yunjin!” You shout, although it is too loud anyway for any surrounding people to notice what was going on. 
“What don’t I underst-”
“One minute!” The clock on the television counts down from sixty, and the crowd around you begins to count as well. 
“Yunjin you kissed me before”, you begin, tears still falling rapidly. “You kissed me and you just turned around like nothing happened!” 
“I- I'm so sorry Y/n, if I knew you were uncomfortable with it I wouldn’t have-”
“Did you not feel anything?” You cut her off, now upset that she was missing your implications.
“Ten!” Ten more seconds until the new year. 
“Did your heart not flutter? Did your stomach not immediately fill with butterflies?” 
“Seven!” Seven more seconds, it was inevitable. 
“Did you not want to lean back in and kiss me like you really loved me?” 
“Five!” Five seconds. Drinks were already starting to be poured. 
“Because I did!” 
“Four!” Balloons are beginning to float around aimlessly. 
“I wanted more Yunjin!”
“Three!” Sweaty bodies around you start to jump up and down excitingly.
“Do you not understand?” 
“Two!” The tv volumed is turned up to max. 
“I wanted more because I love you Yunjin!” 
“One! Happy new year!” 
Drinks are spilling down everyone's mouth, kisses being passed around the room as hats are thrown carelessly through the air. However, you are not paying attention to any of your surrounding, feeling a tug on your neck. 
Yunjin’s lips connect to yours, her hands holding the back of your neck as if you could slip out of your grasp as any given. Feeling her soft strawberry lips back on yours once more, you finally feel a sense of relief.
“Of course I wanted more Y/n”, she smiles after she pulls away. 
“I’ve wanted more ever since I met you.” 
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I literally threw this together off the top of my head only because I've been in my Yunjin era fr🫶 Anyway sorry I havent been posting as much, very busy year ahead🥲🥲
Adding Le sserafim to the masterlist🤭💖
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starjaeyun · 2 years
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vlive confession
summary : you used to have a crush on park sunghoon back in highschool and that didn't change even though you both were now idols who did not want dating scandals, so imagine the shock when during a vlive, park sunghoon confessed that he had a crush on you back in highschool
pairing : park sunghoon x fem! reader
warnings : fluff, crack, slight angst, hate from fans D:, scandals, drama, issues, suggestive themes, shy! hoon and y/n, cliché stuff, highschool drama 🤨, swearing, kim chaewon will be used to visualize y/n, idols not following rules and doing other stuff that just doesn't make sense
featuring : ive's wonyoung & yujin. le sserafim's sakura.
status : on going STARTED 052922 | post regarding my update schedule
taglist : open, just comment or send an ask
(block the tag #[vlive confession : starjaeyun] if you do not want to see posts related to this smau)
important note : this au is purely fictional, any romantic relationships between enhypen members or other kpop idols are not true and does not represent the idols' personalities or behavior irl. the purpose of this au is purely for entertainment only!
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ETHEREAL | ENHYPEN
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zero. "are you the cute girl from highschool?"
zero, filler chapter. "and that kids, is how i met your mother"
one. so this is love? yikes
two. Y/N ALL BARK NO BITE LEADER
three. #YNWON
four. VLIVE CONFESSION⁉️
four, filler chapter : THE confession
five. face this like real men!
six. sunoo's brilliant idea
seven. y/n go to your wonnie 😂
eight. never doing the first move ever again #neveragain
nine. #YNKI
ten. what are we?
eleven. y/n's secret boyfriend
twelve. #SUNYN
thirteen. sunghoon vs maknae line
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- titles of unpublished parts are subject to change adding and deleting parts are also expected to happen
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snoopilittle · 1 year
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⋆。˚ 🪽 ˚。⋆。 ⋆。˚ 🪽 ˚。⋆。⋆。˚ 🪽 ˚。⋆。 ⋆。˚ 🪽 ˚。⋆。
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mahealinskis · 5 months
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BUMP UP BUSINESS || EP. 6
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reactingwithexo · 1 year
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Maknae in Ateez I know your mics on. You can blink now
Anon said it not me 😂
ATEEZ doesn’t do much to me tbh
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warrenstud · 10 months
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My Daisy.
And i will be grateful every day i have you in my life because so many things could have kept us from meeting each other, from being together, or just from being alive at this exact moment in time. So many things could have happend to keep us from existing together, in the bodies we are now in, and i will forever be grateful that somehow we ended up together. That somehow, in this infinite universe, we found each other. And i will always be grateful for that. I will always grateful for you.
I'm hoping i could grow with you until i'm old, just like a dried flower that always look beautiful even the flower already died. So please could you be my Daisy?
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kpopwhspers · 2 years
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txt whispers!
︎ ︎ ︎
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kiwd · 2 years
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bate na porta antes de entrar 🍸 •˚.
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More Than Friends
Pairing: Na Jaemin × reader
Genre: best friends to lovers, fluff, slight jealousy, slight angst, happy ending.
Jaemin wasn’t the type of best friend who would be jealous easily. He was used to listening about all your new and old friends and everything about them that you liked or disliked. So it was totally not something you could easily point out to be the reason of his somehow annoyed state that though earlier avoidable, had now started to create some kind of a tension.
 It’s been a week since Jaemin started avoiding you, cancelling your plans, using his comeback as an excuse which could have been understandable had Jaemin always done the same thing during their comebacks. He would always make time for you, but now that you saw him finding time to hang out with everyone but you, it did something within you and you started questioning if you had done something wrong. You knew what it was exactly that was hurting you besides the fact that your best friend was drifting apart.
You loved Jaemin and it scared you to think of how he would react if he came to know. You had loved him for aeons it seemed yet there wasn’t a way to confess. You had felt this before and you knew how much it would hurt you, if you drifted apart because of your stupid feelings.You tried confronting him about him being vexed but jaemin would always flash a smile and avoid all types of conversations. 
Today you had been invited to the dreamies’ dorms for a movie night, so you gave up pondering and seeing that it was nearly time to leave, put on a casual oversized tee and track pants with a pair of white sneakers. You tied your hair in a bun before entering the dorm and were greeted by a bunch of chaotic boys obviously who made you laugh genuinely after a long hectic week. 
They have always made you feel comfortable and were the reason how you got to know Jaemin and grow closer to him each passing day, finally becoming best friends. The dreamies were your family in a way and you smiled sitting on the couch as you saw mark and Jeno choosing movies to watch, Renjun and Jisung bringing in drinks, Chenle and haechan fighting about the choice of popcorn (lmao!). But Jaemin? Where was he? You ask Jeno about Jaemin who said Jaemin had a headache and would join later. You told the boys that you’d go check up him and went to the room only to find Jaemin sitting on his bed, scrolling through his phone. You walked to him and squatted beside his bed, only for him to be a bit startled and sitting up trying to put up one of his snark comments which you sternly discard.
“Jeno said, you aren’t feeling well. What is it?”
“Just a headache, not in a mood to tolerate you and your stupidities aishh.” you rolled your eyes as he smiled. Oh how you loved that contagious smile of his. But you knew him enough to know that this was another of his many excuses to divert your attention. You got up and sat on the bed as Jaemin sat up straight looking at his phone. You weren’t going to let it go this time. 
“Tell me Jaemin-ah, why have you been avoiding me since last week? Don’t make that face, look at me.” You placed a hand on his shoulder making him look up. Your eyes met and you wanted to hug him so much. 
After a few attempts of not answering you, Jaemin sighed. “I’m tired (Y/n). I need a break. And it’s not like you aren’t happy without me. You hang out with so many people and especially Jackson. I don’t know if there’s something going on between you guys but it’s great! He definitely makes you feel really comfortable. I’m more of a tiring element haha. Also, I have a lot of better things to do, huh!” He was trying to lighten the mood in the latter part of whatever he said which you were trying to process. 
You remained quiet, engrossed in your own thoughts when you felt Jaemin removing your hand which was still resting on his.” Should you tell him how you felt? Should you tell him how much Jackson had been trying to find out ways for you to confess to Jaemin and that’s what you have been doing at least half the time you two hung out? 
Jackson, to be very honest, had really become one of the very few people that made you comfortable and not feel judged. 
Yet, it wasn’t the same. It would never feel the same like it did when you were with Jaemin. He was the place you were homesick for. But, he would never feel anything more than a friendly jealousy right? It would only ruin your friendship and you loved him way too much for that. 
As Jaemin got up, calling you to join the dreamies you ran and held his hand making him turn. “Why did you bring Jackson up?” why would you even ask that? You mentally cursed yourself.
“Huh?” 
“Nothing.” you say and leave past Jaemin who scoffs. Only if you knew. 
As the movie night proceeded, with you guys watching Toy Story for the umpteenth time, you found yourself on the couch between Jeno and Mark. You three snuggled under a blanket with your head on Mark’s shoulder. Jaemin sat on the carpet in front of the couch.
You were pondering whether or not to confess to Jaemin when you were brought back to the world by Haechan’s comment “Jaemin-ah, your hair is  so fluffy.” as he went to cuddle with a struggling Jaemin. You instinctively sat up straight and bent down in the front to caress Nana’s hair, to which he turned to look at you. Your eyes met yet again, a weird tension quite tangible, floating between you two. Haechan, sensing something, announced that everyone should go to sleep to which everyone agreed since they were falling asleep on the couches and on the carpet anyway.
Obviously, you shared a bed with Jaemin whenever you hung out with the boys but today you didn’t know how to. You and Jaemin were pushed to his room by Jeno  who definitely was for some reason too eager to have you both settle in a room quickly. You gave in and got onto the bed with a reluctant Jaemin who joined anyway. Had it been any other night, you would have just talked but today you both murmured a goodnight and lied down. 
And obviously, you kept shuffling because you so weren’t used to facing this type of an atmosphere. 
“Can you stop fidgeting (Y/n)?” No, you couldn’t. After what seemed like hours Jaemin got up saying that he would rather sleep on the couch but you called his name quietly. 
You pulled your knees closer to your chest and asked him, “Am I bothering you too much?”
Jaemin just looks at you. “I’m sorry but I'm not used to this. I don’t know how it came to this but it feels like we are drifting apart Jaemin-ah.”
“You are just overthinking. Go to sleep.” said jaemin who now looked everywhere but your eyes. You were trembling inside and it was showing now as you found Jaemin feeling your trembling fingers only to intertwine his his hands with yours, rubbing circles with his thumb. God how could you not love him.But how could you tell him? You tried leaving but suddenly you felt a pair of hands pushing you towards the wall. This time Jaemin had to. Yet you could not meet his eyes as you could feel tears threatening to fall. Jaemin gently put to fingers on your chin, making your eyes meet his doe like ones. 
“I- I like you (Y/n). I…I am sorry. I know you love me too much but only as a friend. You asked me some time back, why i brought up Jackson in our conversation. I’m jealous. Not as a friend (Y/n). i thought staying away from you would help, using how you had people to care about you as an excuse would help, but nothing did. I’m scared and I have always been, of losing you and you might decide to not talk to me anymore but-” You cupped his face. A stray tear feel down your cheek. 
“I like you too Jaemin-ah. No, i love you. I have for what feels liike ages now.” You couldn’t help but chuckle. You couldn’t believe yourself. Jaemin looked at you in shock by in some moments pulled you in a kiss, a passionate one that had so much longing and you felt as if a missing piece was back in its place. “You are the best thing that happened to me, said he, pulling back from the kiss. “You too Jaemin.” You smiled as he put your foreheads together, looking so fondly at you, you felt nothing but love. 
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listen listen I was deep in the alt rock daze of the mid2010s which meant I was wholly disconnected from the pop world, which in turn meant I only heard one track off of one direction's album in 2015, which means today was the first time I listened to "never enough" and I must confess... this may be the perfect pop song...
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