#life is strange sucks

[aquickstart]

ok sure i'll talk about farleigh start. i'll talk about his tragedy of never being enough as it were and then having to deal with fucking oliver. sure. disclaimer: it's about class (and race) and the horrible reality of the rich. the horrible reality of living as farleigh.

another disclaimer: i'm white! and poc definitely pick up on everything i'm talking about here as it is, and better. i was and am specifically interested in farleigh vs. oliver but it's impossible to examine without considering race. definitely let me know if anything abt this sucks!

farleigh and oliver are similar. it's annoying because every intruder that is not himself is annoying, partly because felix's attention swaying from farleigh is dangerous; there is always a threat of being discarded, even if no precedent existed. the potential is terrifying.

but you'd think he's seen this before, every summer (if venetia is telling the truth) or at least often enough to learn to recognize it fast, so he should know this will pass. part of it is i think still the deep anxiety, and i think he hated every boy that was there before, and it is sort of routine.

but definitely a huge factor in farleigh's annoyance is the fact that he's a biracial (black for cattons, that's all they see) man in a white rich household. he's alert and exhausted all the time. of course he's angry at oliver, regardless of whether he's the first to crash at saltburn for the summer or the fifty-first.

but the important thing is this.

farleigh is very jealous of and angry and pissed at oliver because farleigh sees all the similarities between them. outsider, in financial trouble, whatever it is, in need of cattons; and yet oliver is preferred. and farleigh seems to be the only one to really consider it. felix does not pick up on the hint when farleigh brings up the birthday party vs. his mother. felix's clumsy "different or... anything like that" is as much about race as it is about class, of course. the "we've done all that we can" bit is felix absolving himself of guilt because surely they had, surely the mysterious collective cattons that he's not really part of had tried all they could do. to him, farleigh is different from oliver, because farleigh has been helped. felix is rich and white and twofold uncomfortable with farleigh, even if he's nice about it, even if he genuinely enjoys his company; he doesn't look too close at farleigh because he feels too guilty to come too close. and farleigh can't do anything about it. he can't nice himself into it. the fucking tragedy of him is that he's never enough in the world of the ultra-rich white, even if (especially because!) he's born into it.

farleigh is very pissed at oliver because farleigh also sees all the differences between them. you know who can be nice poor white enough to fit in? fucking oliver. felix says "just be yourself, they'll love you" when oliver first moves in. farleigh was also probably told the same thing, and felix also probably believed that farleigh could just be himself, but even if the cattons were magically not racist at all (impossible), it wouldn't make a difference to farleigh. he would still self-censor, keep in check, be in dangerous waters (because racism is not just about the individual, but about the system). we see that he'd won himself leeway by years of trial and error by the way he speaks to the family, but it's still within the boundaries of acceptable, built by the cattons. he's part of them because they allow it, and farleigh is very, very aware.

the annoying thing is oliver can be himself. like, truly, genuinely, he can just be. and farleigh can't help but envy that.

as a side note, oliver is obviously jealous of farleigh in the beginning as well, because regardless of the reality of farleigh's situation, he was born into it, and hence, at least in oliver's mind, has his position solidified. oliver's whole thing is unquenchable thirst and hunger for whatever and everything the cattons have (including themselves!). he wishes to have been a catton from birth. to oliver, at first, there's nothing farleigh can really do to lose it. and until he figures out the cattons completely, he can't help but envy that.

but i think farleigh senses something different about oliver early on. at least on the level of the text, we have "you're almost passing [for] a real, human boy", which is so important because farleigh is the first to point out oliver's weirdness. the next to do so is venetia in the bath scene calling him a freak, but it's too late. farleigh is too early.

and i like to think he clocks oliver too early because he sees the jagged edges that he recognizes in himself. i think that one other thing that farleigh envies is oliver's freedom to let go. freedom to let go is very similar to freedom to be, but not quite the same.

to be is about perception: farleigh knows he cannot fall out of line, but would like to, and oliver does not have to worry about it at all (i mean, he does, because oliver also performs for felix, but farleigh doesn't know that).

to let go is about the self: farleigh is too scared to even want what oliver eventually does, to even consider the possibility. oliver can let himself want. oliver can let himself act. oliver just can do things and want things. i'm not sure farleigh can.

and so in this scene, when oliver's wants and actions have landed him nowhere with farleigh, felix, venetia, the cattons, of course farleigh gloats. he can let himself do that, because if the cattons are slowly discarding him, farleigh can allow himself this one small victory. he's relieved because despite the dangerous similarities, oliver is, thankfully, not really the same as farleigh, right?

but like. this movie is a love letter to all things gothic. oliver is a white man. he prevails. the brief performance that oliver put on did eventually end up more effective than farleigh's lifetime of constraint. my heart fucking breaks for him to be honest.

the issue that remains is the fact of farleigh's survival. i like to think that oliver came to respect him. oliver is smart, but farleigh is clever. he picks up on everything oliver does (to refer back to the karaoke scene, farleigh immediately retaliates in the cleverest way, in the moment), and he's the only one to do so consistently (venetia, again, for example, comes close, but too late; oliver doesn't like that, there's nothing to work with). hence, stay with me for a little longer, the paradox: farleigh survives because he was never enough for the cattons, but he is very worthy of oliver's attention. in his own freaky way, oliver wants him. look at that.

so. farleigh. farleigh might come back. he always comes back. and i think oliver wants to try harder next time.

#saltburn #farleigh start #i think someone mentioned how the race commentary was fleeting in that scene abt his mom but i disagree #it runs thru the whole movie #because oliver is white and because they're pitted against each other #im not saying its the best commentary ever and also like the movie is not about it at all #but it's there and it's pretty prominent #also on a completely different note can we talk about how oliver correctly assumed everyone at saltburn desires him carnally #dude pulled all the bitches by being strange and off-putting. i mean i completely get it. completely get it. i'd fold so fast you've no ide #also while i was writing i realized that yes indeed both farleigh and oliver perform for felix and its so fascinating #and it works for oliver because of course it does because hes white #anyway! again! let me know if this sucks #in like any way at all #i needed a masterpost of all and every thought i have about farleigh #i think this pretty much covers it so i'll let it go now #HES SO. like do you UNDERSTAND #the DEFINITION of doomed by the narrative but i LOVE that he survives #as he SHOULD #emerald is so right. he does come back and quickstart just torture each other in that house forever. besties for life #god im gonna shut up now this is so horrendously long #mine #saltburn journaling

[chaoticaesthete]

a procrastinator who wants to: get good grades, read books, have a proper sleep schedule, complete stuff on her watch lists, have fun occasionally with her friends, and still want her down time. a fucking vicious loop for an eternity.

#chaoticaesthete #chaotic academia #organized chaos #messy aesthetic #procrastination #this is me procrastinating #this is me trying #its me hi im the problem its me #life is strange #life is a series of contradictions and paradoxes #loveyourself #note to self #self care #self love #growing up really sucks #studyblr #student life #uni life #bookblr #bookworm #books and libraries #poetry #dead poets society #dark academia #dark academia aesthetic #dark academia vibes #soft aesthetic #you do you #you're on your own kid

[lifeisstrange-incorrectquotes]

Chloe: Max and I are having a baby.

Kate: That's gre—

Chloe, slamming adoption papers on the table: It's you, sign here.

#submission #so kate your mom sucks? well now you not only have a better replacement—you have 2! #thanks for the submission!!! #chloe price #max caulfield #kate marsh #pricefield #life is memes #life is strange #incorrect quotes

[shivroy]

chloeee

#life is strange #lis #chloe price #been playing it lately mostly for the backgrounds (LOL i want to be in oregon. and am not) #im not gonna say this on insta because i dont want to offend their tender hearts but good god the writing in this game sucks nards #its like funny. #chloe especially. girls who suck #in a way that is just like. so at odds with having a play experience thats good #but i sort of love her not in spite of the shitty writing but because of it #sometimes i gotta love a girl because her whole character is YOU SUCK you REFUSE to better yourself throughout the course of anything ever #bae! #im half attached to her and half like What is with you stop actually #also i love how dated the game feels now #every girls fashion........ every guy too you know what #art #digital art #texture #doodle #sketch #life is strange fanart #lis fanart

[amiracleilluminated]

Years ago you asked me what two men could do living together on a ranch. I'll answer you now.

Strange Way of Life, 2023

#strange way of life #filmgifs #usermichi #pedropascaledit #ethanhawkeedit #*gifs #this gifset sucked all life out of me #when in doubt‚ slap noise on it #time to blast orville peck again

[lalalvlove]

I was supposed to only post infinity train content on this account but hey I started posting here because I wanted to find some infinity train fans (which I did, hello there!! <3) and now I want to find some Life is Strange 2 fans because I love these brothers sm!! 😭🫶

#life is strange #life is strange 2 #sean diaz #daniel diaz #diaz brothers #the endings in this game suck #please let them be happy #they deserve better

[arcadiabaytornado]

Max Watching Her Best Friends Coffin Being Put In The Ground As She's Stuck With Unimaginable Trauma That She Can Never Speak To Anyone About:

The Universe: "It was a canon event. :)"

#The universe sucked for that one #Dark Jokepost #Lis #life is strange #max caulfield

[lakesparkles]

OHHHH TODAY'S ALEX BIRTHDAY!!!!!

I only know her for a few months and she already became one of my favorite characters ever!!! So here's some (hopefully) unposted art I did of her:

I was actually almost finishing a birthday drawing for her but my computer decided to stop working... I'm so sad, everything that lasted of it is this WIP screenshot:

#alex chen #life is strange #life is strange true colors #at least I can still draw in my laptop but it sucks so bad #tbh I kinda want to do a short comic about Alex's bithday just like I did for Diane (bjhm) #but if I do it'll take two months or more so let's see....

[good-beanswrites]

There haven't been any Milgram headcanon requests so far, right? How about 🧸 and 💔 for Mikoto?

Mikoto time!! Thank you for the request -- I know it's risky posting headcanons so close to Double, but I'll come back and ammend anything that might be proven wrong on Wednesday 😂

🧸 A headcanon about their childhood: Through his early schooling years, Mikoto was present for a lot of extracurricular activities. He didn't always care/give his all, he just enjoyed hanging out with others and fooling around. The reason he can be such good friends with everyone is because he's picked up on tons of little things over the years by dabbling in all those arts, fields of study, sports, etc. Once he finds out your hobby, he can immediately retrieve some bit of knowledge/memory to get a conversation going, or even join in the activity. Mahiru is pleasantly surprised by his classic literature references, gardening club gets him on Shidou's good side, Muu likes talking to him about fashion tips, he can play sports with Fuuta, he tries to bond over band memories with Amane, and so on. When he was a kid he was just trying things out for fun, but as an adult he's grateful he picked up on so much.

💔 An angsty headcanon: He's accustomed to, and expects, bad separations. So many friendships and relationships ended on a very sour note, so now he's used to pulling away first. (There was no aggression or violence, but) the appearance of different alters followed by the host's insistent denials would make others think poorly of him. The more he claims ignorance, the more it seems like he's just gaslighting/manipulating, so there have been a few explosive separations in which he had no idea what went wrong. Because of that, it's been harder to get close to anyone, and he will start pulling away the minute things show signs of trouble. It's why he left the smoking group so quickly, and doesn't hang out with the other prisoners as often in T2. Instead of waiting for an inevitable fight, he ends things immediately and peacefully.

#milgram #mikoto kayano #thank you so much for the request!!! mikoto on the brain and im so hyped for double #(and actually i did get one milgram hc request a bit ago for muu -- strangely enough it was for the exact same prompts :0) #i debated on doing these after wednesday but ah well #i can always change things #i dont think mikoto necessarily Enjoys everything that he knows about but he keeps the knowledge anyway #he jokes that he has a really good memory to recall so much like that but cant even remember the night before... #and yeah :( im so sad about the smoking group but from how i read their characters it seems like something he chose himself #kazui and shidou wouldnt shun him or be afraid of him #and he mentions having lovers before but plays it off like a joke -- nothing ever got too serious then... #i wanted to write something about his home life (for either prompt honestly) but ill definitely wait a few days for that #i really hope hes close with his mom and sister ;--; knowing milgram though shit probably sucks ;___; #given his protective nature id love to see him as protective older brother #headcanon time milgram

[widevibratobitch]

in terror, four lieutenants; in t3m, four musketeers. Conclusion?

conclusion - same as always: destiny.

but wait oh christ okay. they even kinda fit...

you've got the og trio of

Wet Pathetic Loser

Deeply Religious Guy

Fancy Lad

which ig would make dundy... d'artagnan?? no. no oh god ok. listen. d'artagnan is jopson im afraid:

1. has a deeply homoerotic father/son relationship with a suicidal alcoholic

2. is actually kinda obsessed with him tbh

3. doesn't really start out as One Of Them, has to wait quite some time to get promoted

4. big part of the fandom actually ships him with little aka our athos

it makes sense you gotta believe me it does it does

#it absolutely doesn't #idk who dundy could be tbh... #ig if you squinted reeeeeally hard you could make him into a quasi mordaunt #since little is our athos equivalent #(that should honestly be crozier but for the sake of making our three musketeers/three lieutenants parallel lets go with little) #and the way little and dundy end up... look dundy is the only surviving officer of erebus. #gore and fitzjames die because life sucks but fairholme's death is arguably crozier's fault #and since in this strange parallel world athos is apparently split into crozier and little... #and since a very popular fandom headcanon is that little is the one to ultimately kill dundy.... #i have no idea where im going with this and with all my love to irving #imagining him as an aramis equivalent made me throw up in my mouth a little. #i guess aramis would have to be an insane combination of irving and hickey?? so ig he should kill uhh himself? shit omg wait #he does have a SA in the books..... #oh yeah it's all coming together #(<-lies. this makes no fucking sense) #pizza you've sent my mind into a spiral of eternal damnation im grasping at straws to make some ✨parallels✨ #unfortunately im like a vampire in this case. #if you throw at me a bunch of potential parallels i cannot move a muscle until ive found counted and picked them all up #i hate it here #im not even tagging it this post is fucking shameful pathetic and desperate #and yeah hodgson is porthos im afraid deal with that #ask

[yuridovewing]

I want more weird supernatural horror in wc so badly so in the rewrite in my head, Mapleshade put a real curse on Appledusk’s lineage that would twist their luck so they would all either die early or live miserable lives. This was invoked by her dying spirit as it left her body, so it’s bound by spirit magic. Mapleshade herself initiates a lot of this, her spirit being unable to fade until his lineage dies. She thinks she won’t be allowed in StarClan until her vengeance is complete and her Dark Forest placement is a placeholder until her kittens’ spirits are at peace. As every member of Appledusk’s bloodline falls into despair or dies, their clanmates remark that their fur is sticky with maple sap at the vigil.

#in canon crookedstars life just kinda sucks and maple takes credit for all of it and thats not as fun #i want her to be an actual demon with demon powers fueled by spite and vitriol #rewrite #no one going into the prisoners den physically in tigerclan bc the whole den is covered in invisible sap #feathertail digging out stormfurs body from the rubble trying to get rid of the debris sticking to him #maybe they also have a strange sweet taste in their mouth during all this but cats cant taste sweet things so idk #miiight stretch the realism on it anyways. why not. the canon does it #graystripe smiling after each visit with silverstream because he gets a strange sweet taste in his mouth when theyre together

[seraphsfire]

SCREAMING at my screen rn

#FUCK oh my god #star trek snw spoilers #star trek strange new world spoilers #uhura this whole time being like damn bitch ur life sucks #help

[elderdragonblu]

Max: I heard you’re into bad girls, Rachel. Luckily for you, I’m bad at every social interaction I’m in AND tenth grade geometry.

Rachel:

Rachel: Okay, first of all I’m into dorks. Second of all, why was that last one so specific?

#life is strange #lis #max caulfield #rachel amber #amberfield #max isn’t smooth most of the time #also implementing max hating math like me bc why not #math sucks

[lifeisstrange-incorrectquotes]

Victoria, at Starbucks: Can I get a venti vanilla latte with uhhh, seven espresso shots?

Rachel, next in line: Jesus Christ, just do cocaine.

#submitted by @marksider89 #probably tired from staying up all night taking selfies #thanks for the submission!!! #submission #victoria chase #rachel amber #amberchase #life is memes #life is strange #life is strange before the storm #incorrect quotes #also screw Starbucks they suck

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread    

Godkiller

High fantasy world where gods are outlawed after a devastating war

A god killing mercenary, a knight turned Baker, a 12yo girl and the little animal god-of-white-lies bonded to her, end up traveling together to the destroyed city at the centre of the conflict

queer & disabled characters

#Godkiller #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #i really enjoyed this for the most part! #well actually i was like this is amazing 5 stars then the romance happened and i was like generic boring forgettable #(i mean it's a solid 4 stars but like) #WHY........was that necessary....... #it's just. so interesting to have a strange little collection of people from different walks of life in a group #and they suddenly you make the romance a thing and it's like oh....A Man And Woman In Love And A Child wow groundbreaking #(i fully had some fanart drafted but the romance happening sucked all the motivation for that out of me lmao) #i am exaggerating a little but idk #i love skedi!!!! #maybe i am a little afraid of skedi

[sophiethewitch1]

Was Damien a leash kid🤔

he still is as far as im concerned

#sophie speaks #sophie answers #cyb3rd0g #well now im thinking of damian in a collar :/ #but yeah obviously. all of the guys except jason were leash kids #ESPECIALLY dick hed be right there with me as i threw myself off a kid when i was a toddler #sometimes i remember how strange my life has been and then its just. whatevers #but i was fine btw sand caught my fall no lasting damage other than my parents trauma #and i think a few weeks later was when i almost got sucked under a train? wild #sophie lore moment ANYWAYS