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justsomefluff · 4 years

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OMG I LOVED that reaction you did, and the scenario like thing was really good!! I loved it, thank you!! Can I request another reaction (mini-scenario)? Like ATEEZ confessing to their crush while they (ATEEZ) are drunk? (San said Yeo does aegyo/is cute when drunk I'd like to see this ^^)

This is so cute, I would pay good money to see them tipsy no lie lmao. also this is fluff and crack at the same time so...I hope you like it lmao

Hongjoong:

(^ he’d do this during a drunk confession you cant change my mind ^)

Okay so when he’s drunk I feel like he sees himself as being really composed and cool

but in reality... not so much

and, even if he hadn’t been planning on confessing to you

oh boy, his body starts shaking a lil and you’re low-key like... 911?

like his body is telling him to ABORT MISSION but once his drunk brain has made the decision there's no going back

So, in his mind, this is what he’s saying out loud okay

“Y/n, I just wanted to let you know that I have some serious feelings for you. I know you may not feel the same way, but I just needed to tell you.”

Super awesome, everyone wishes to be that composed right?

Well here’s what he really said:

“Listen here, you cute mother-, no I shouldn’t swear at you, my bad. I’m totally in love with you right? Watchu think bout dat?”

and then he’s quiet, and smiling bc he’s proud of himself and you’re just like um????

like that’s not how you imagined this would go

But you also know that he’s gonna be super embarrassed about this in the morning so you just say

“Let’s talk tomorrow, Joongie?”

and he smiles at the nickname and nods and kinda puts his head down

You honestly cant wait to tell him you feel the same when he’s sober

and make fun of him for getting wasted

Seonghwa:

so Seonghwa, unlike Joong, is actually pretty composed

like at first, he’s wildin’ and everything

but then he just calms down super fast

like so fast you get whiplash

and he just smiles at you and you’re like “...freak”

then he frowns and he’s like “I like to look at pretty things that make me smile”

“You make me smile too, Hwa” :)

then he just grabs you into a hug and starts swaying you guys side to side

like some awkward and forced middle school slow-dance

“What are you doing?”

and he shushes you to preserve the moment but you're like “I want answers”

then he finally leans his head down and his lips are brushing the shell of your ear so softly you barely notice

“I think I love you”

he strikes me as the kind of person who wants to confess but also isn’t ever 100% sure he wants to confirm that he loves you so he throws that “I think” in there to cushion the blow if you reject him

but, luckily for him, you do feel the same

you just turn your head ever so slightly to the side and peck his temple

he smiles and rests his head on your shoulder and squeezes your hips before wrapping his arms around you completely

“I kinda need to hear you say it”

“I think I love you too, Hwa”

Yunho:

okay this big ole baby right

I feel like he’s the kind of drunk who is crazy for a little bit but gets tired really fast

so after like an hour of insanity, his eyes are drooping and you’ve settled on a couch (or seat, wherever your location might be)

and he smooshes his cheek into your thigh and you’re totally aware that he’s gonna fall asleep on you

but you’re cool with that, I mean who wouldn’t be

and after a couple minutes of silence, you think he’s knocked out completely

he suddenly turns his head to look up at you

and you look down at him to ask if he’s okay, or if he needs anything

he just starts laughing and then this IDIOT

pokes your double chin (bc I mean why does he have to look at you from that angle) and goes “How is it that I like you so much, even your double chin is cute?”

part of you is like “omg he likes me” and the other part of you is like “...im gonna slap him. don't talk about my double chin”

so, given your inner turmoil, you're silent for a minute and he starts to pout

“you don’t like my double chin?” and he makes a double chin and grabs your hand to make you poke it

“say you like my double chin too, please”

“Yunho, I like you too... double chin and all” (you had decided that you are not going to slap him after all)

and thats kind of the end of the night bc after that crackhead confession he actually falls asleep

but you are lucky enough that he remembers it all the next morning and it becomes kind of a thing in your relationship to make double chins at each other then say “I love you”

Yeosang:

drunk Yeosang and aegyo here we go

whiny baby voice and big eyes and pouting all the way

like he’s not so much into doing the cutesy actions like finger hearts and stuff

but refers to himself as “Sangie” and talks about himself in third person too

CLINGY

not necessarily cuddly, but always has to be holding your hand or else he’ll cry

calls you pet names like Jagi and my love and stuff

and at first you’re like aw he’s a cute drunk and tease him a little bit

but then he pouts even harder and murmurs “I'm serious”

you’re like O.O

“you mean it? you really like me, Sangie?”

nods his head furiously like you seriously think he’s gonna get a concussion for about .5 seconds

like okay I get it, you mean it, please stop doing that your head is not a maraca

“I like you too”

cue the biggest, goofiest, toothiest grin you’ve ever seen

makes big ole fishy lips at you, and points at them to ask for a kiss

so you just give him a quick peck, bc you don't really want either of you to be drunk for your first real kiss

but that satisfies him for the time being :)

San:

Sannie best boy, I cannot stress that enough

the sweetest lil drunk okay

tries to take care of you even though he’s the drunk one

thirsty? he’s gonna get up and get you a glass of whatever you want even if he spills half of it trying to give it to you

hungry? he’ll get you some if you agree to share

so halfway through a tub of ice cream he decides to lay some truth on you okay

“I like my ice cream like I like you”

and you, of course, having seen that meme, respond with “ugly?” and you cackle at your own joke

but he’s so offended

“apologize to yourself and this ice cream”

“wtf? why?”

“because ice cream is the second most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen after you. apologize”

literally holds the tub of ice cream up to your face, and will literally carve a sad face into the ice cream to make you apologize quicker

and when you apologize he eats the sad face and draws a smile

sentimental cheeseball is all he is in that moment okay

“you really think I’m pretty?”

he looks at you like “...duh”

“I think you’re pretty too, Sannie” and he smiles so big :’)

and both of you know that this would be the start of a really happy relationship aww

Mingi:

I bet Mingi is the cutest drunk okay like if you thought he was a giant puppy before get ready you aint seen nothin yet

and you don't even get a warning before he confesses bc he says it so out of the blue

like his whole plan was to drink some liquid courage iykyk and then he was gonna confess

but he ended up getting a lil more tipsy than originally intended

and he just blurts it out and he’s stuttering and lisping and just struggling to get all the right words out

but you just think it’s super endearing

“Minnie, are you drunk?”

he starts blowing raspberries in the air and starts shaking his head “you think I’m drunk?”

literally hiccuping after every word lmao

like yes, Mingi, I think you're drunk

still blowing incredulous raspberries all over the place

and you blow one on his cheek and he starts giggling like the baby he is

“why you do that”

“bc I like you too, Minnie! also you were starting to spit and I needed you to stop that”

he giggles and nods at you, just happy that you feel the same way

nuzzles his head into your shoulder and plays with your fingers for the rest of the time youre together

Wooyoung:

okay he’s a crackhead already so I don't even think alcohol would be something he’s even offered most of the time lmao

but when he is all hell breaks loose

no subtlety about his confession at all

like he literally screams it at you

he had been paying extra attention to you all night, which you didn't even notice bc you liked him too and never imagined he felt the same

so you’re like he so friendly and clingy when he’s drunk

but five minutes later he’s like “DID YOU KNOW IM IN LOVE WITH YOU”

and you’re so taken aback because

1.) he just screamed in your face

2.) he just screamed that in your face

and then he’s quiet and just staring at you, waiting for a response

you’re so dumbfounded that all you say is “you too”

but thats enough for him

“GOOD THATS AWESOME”

and thats basically the end of the conversation bc he gets easily distracted

you have to remind him the next day that that conversation had even happened actually

and he’s like “oh yeahhhhh”

then you’re able to actually talk about what you both feel and be almost normal for about ten minutes lmao

Jongho:

since he’s on the quieter side compared to the rest of the group, I think this shows even more when he’s been drinking

but it’s almost concerning how quiet he is

like if you had never seen him drunk before you’d probably be really worried

and that’s exactly what happened

you went to check on him to see why he wasn't joining in the fun and he looks at you, a little teary from the alcohol

or maybe he’s just deep in his feels who knows

we’ve all been there amiright

and he’s like “just like you a lot you know that?’

you’re like “I was most certainly unaware of that, sir”

and he apologizes??? like why???

“I like you too, doofus, why are you sorry”

then he smiles and means it for the first time that whole night

he feels like he could crack all of the apples in the world he’s so happy

side-note: he probably could break all them apples fr

so basically you just made him the happiest apple murderer in the world

he’ll break all the apples for you baby

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facingthevoid-blog1 · 4 years

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God, has this been a long time coming to write. I don’t even know where to begin internet. I’m a 22 year old sack of shit. I’ve never felt so fucking numb in my entire life. There’s no reason for it, really. I’m good, life’s good, I’ve got a very loving fiance but I don’t feel a god damn thing. Just numb and sad. Just wanting to cry but I can’t get it out. I sit and think and think and not a fucking thing happens. I often wonder if I’m autistic? Something? I spend my free time looking up various mental disorders to see if I can just find a fucking answer. I don’t want the key to life, I just wanna feel half fucking decent for once in my godforsaken time on this planet. Fuck. I feel like I have no one I can go to. I panic and I just want to fall over and cry for hours but I can’t bring myself to do it. I’m trapped with such limited emotional capacity. I wish I could feel. I try and be a good person, really. I do. I don’t remember the last time I felt true happiness that wasnt brought on by drug or alcohol. I could seek professional help, but how far will that get me? I tried antidepressants, they’re all the same. Numb with no highs or lows. I told myself when I got off them I’d rather rawdog this shit and ride the rollercoaster, but I’m really wondering man. I’m really fucking on the edge. I’ve never felt like this before and I don’t want to wake up another day feeling like this, if you can even call this feeling. Its like I’ve fallen down a well with no light or hope or shred of concern for my own well being. Why? Why me? Fuck. I keep replaying the last couple months to see if I have some sort of repressed trauma thats thrown me into this hole but I can’t find a god damn thing. It’s like digging through a dead end case and pulling out my own hair becoming the monster I’m hunting in the process. It’s such a dark place. The blackest black, a void I never thought could exist. Is there an escape? I sure hope so. Losing Joe didn’t hurt that bad, I wasn’t that close with him. But he had become family. He was family. He had a family, he was someones son. Someones uncle. He mattered. I do miss his one liners. I miss his presence. I miss Lou. I miss Buddy. I miss Dan. I never had to process death like this. I never had to face the crushing reality that in a fucking instant we can just cease to exist. Gone. Stardust and dirt. And what are any of us to really accomplish in this life? Nothing. Nothing beyond some fucking instagram photos and maybe a couple piece of shit children just like me. I wish my parents had never met. I wish even had they met like they did they hadnt married. They’re so fucking bad for each other. They’re so fucking awful to themselves. Mom is a basket case who wont do a fucking thing to help herself and just posts dumbass shit on facebook to feel the gratification of a couple likes over a fucking coffee meme. For WHAT? Stop fucking worrying and go do something. ANYTHING. Get your fucking mind together and quit wishing you could change yourself when all you do is sit on your ass drinking coffee and pretending dad is a good person. Fuck you too dad. Fuck you. You abusive lazy piece of shit. I can’t forgive you for the things I’ve heard you say and do. I’ll never fucking forget seeing you kick mom down those three last steps and tell her to shut the fuck up cause she was upsetting me while you stood over her like a powerhouse to obtain control. And then to find me clutching the phone with 911 dialed and just tell me, “Everythings okay” and go to work like it was nothing. How DARE you take that innocence away. How DARE you fucking act like nothing ever happened. How dare you throw her into the open cabinet door, how dare you grab her by the throat. FUCK you. HOW DARE I BE FORCED TO RELIVE THIS TRAUMA WHILE DRUNK ALREADY TRYING TO ESCAPE MY OWN CRUSHING REALITY. FUCK YOU. I hate this. I hate that this is just what I’m stuck with. This is my reality. A father with an abusive past, a mother who wont help herself, a sister who will never speak of the things she’s seen, a brother who’s gonna be the only one to escape. And what about me? WHAT ABOUT ME? Am I just left here to pick up the pieces and fucking suffer? Is this a test? Cut the lights. Pull me out of this fucking simulation. GIVE ME SOMETHING. SOMETHING TO FEEL. SOMETHING TO DO. SOMETHING BEYOND TWO PATHETIC DAYS TO FACE A WEEKS WORRIES AND HAVE NO TIME TO PROCESSS A NY OF THIS. I’M LOSING IT. IM SLIPPING,. GIVE ME A SIGN GOD. GIVE ME SOMETHING. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. Whats a life worth when the contents of that life are pain and depression and a void? What’s my life/ What’s the point of continuing? No. I must keep going. It doesn’t matter if I don’t consider half my family to mean nothing to me. It doesn’t matter the cards I’ve been dealt. I need to fucking man up. I need to wear a belt and smile and trek through this shitshow of an existence. I’ve got shit to see and places to go and clothes to wear. Eat my dick void. Will I find a solution? Stay tuned. But I can’t sit anymore. I need to do something. I know. I know. i know.

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