does anyone else have a plot in their daydreams but they have like different routes like “okay but what if this happened instead” and u pause the main plot… kinda like choice based video games 💀
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i feel like maladaptive daydreaming is so fucking hard to cope with or manage because it just creates this never ending cycle of relapse where your heavy daydreaming takes a toll on your life so when you finally try to limit it you're so ashamed and disappointed by what your real life has become/what you done or haven't done that you just collapse and continue the bad habit that caused it in the first place. it becomes so engrained in your daily life and the way you think that you don't realize how much you rely on it until you try to stop. next thing you know, you're on the shower and you realize you can't go more than ten seconds without slipping away. the days go by so fast but in the moment, you're so desperate for any kind of escapism cause you're just not used to sitting in the real world. i have no identity. my entire mental state is dependent on it. how well i'm doing is entirely defined by the daydream ideas i can scrape up. i'll have a complete mental break and then the next day i manage to be whisped up in another dream, one that promises to stay, to be kind. to love me, and then the cycle starts all over again.
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*daydreams to avoid my trauma*
*gives myself a story 10 times as traumatic*
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sometimes i'm like, "i bet i'd daydream less if i went outside more and did more social things"
and then i do those exact things and lo and behold, i just end up staying up extra late because i still need to daydream for at least a couple hours to decompress before bed anyway
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Just now realizing that if I die, my paras die. Like. They aren’t real. They only live in my head. If I die. They won’t be there to mourn me.
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hey maladaptive daydream community it's me again (who
so, after going through assessment (?) with a neuropsychologist and a psychiatrist, turns out my maladaptive daydreaming was me being schizoid 🫠 yay now i know that I have schizoid personality disorder AND adhd!! kind of a wild ride.. at first I was kinda shocked but after processing it, I realized that both these conditions literally make perfect sense with everything I feel and experience.. wow just wow
so yeah, I started taking antipsychotics and here's what happened: my veritbond disappeared. literally disappeared; he's gone, Lowell is gone (his name is Lowell).. ok wait, he didn't disappear completely, I still think about him and visit his stories but it just feels like he has merged with me and now he isn't around anymore.... bc he's just me yk......... hmm.... and strangely, I don't feel bad about it (I felt lonely for a couple days but I'm good now thanks to antidepressants too)
I've been talking to myself less, losing myself in daydreams less and I feel more in touch with reality in general. I still daydream and I still feel my imagination run wild sometimes, but in a more controlled, organized way. the chaos has calmed down you know
so... idk what I want out of this post, maybe give a heads up to anyone seriously struggling with maladaptive daydreaming like I was... maybe you're in the schizo spectrum?? I wish these assessments and diagnostics were more accessible UGH anyway thanks guys you are brave and cool, never forget that!!!!!
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