Exam season: begins
Me: wow what a great time to get into ranked mahjong :) there is nothing more important than mahjong matches going on in my life atm after all :)
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For me its never enough.. I'll never feel proud or satisfied for my accomplishments.. in fact, I tend to forget all about them.
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List of MaDD Things I do
I feel like I'm constantly invalidating me and my MaDD. It feels like my experience with daydreaming inherently differentiates from the experiences of other maladaptive daydreamers. I hate that I'm doubting myself so much so in order to fix that I will write about specific things regarding my MaDD that I haven't really seen anywhere else here on Tumblr or other social media platforms.
First of all, I do suspect that I might be neurodivergent. I currently have no way of getting a diagnosis but I have done a lot of research which lead me to the conclusion that it is highly possible I have ADHD. I felt the need to say this because I think some things I'll mention will correspond to my neurodivergent tendencies.
Here's my list of unusual things I do in order to daydream/while daydreaming:
I can't focus enough to properly daydream in my everyday life because of noises or people talking in the background
because of that I prefer to daydream right before sleeping
the room or space that I'm daydreaming in has to either be completely silent or play music without lyrics (preferably classical music)
I lie completely still most of the time to be able to fully concentrate on my scenario or paracosm
since I practically cannot daydream throughout the day I often distract myself with literally anything
that is mostly tiktok, tumblr, youtube, netflix, homework, or any type of media/activity I can indulge in to forget my need to daydream
I get quite a lot of intrusive daydreams where a possible outcome of the situation or event I'm currently in just starts sort of manifesting in my head and I have to stop myself from continuing that daydream (these scenarios are often very unlike to actually happen and mostly consist of me getting hurt, accidents or other unpleasant stuff)
I have exactly one (1) distinct memory of me daydreaming similarly to maladaptive daydreaming as a child leading me to believe that it had just recently started developing (probably during the pandemic)
I'm aroace and had a lot of difficulties coming to terms with me being aromantic, so most of my daydreams/scenarios/paracoms include a lot romance with f.e. a parame to cope with that
All in all Maladaptive Daydreaming is my biggest comfort and NO.1 coping mechanism •°. *࿐
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I was like 19 when i realized not everyone ran around their room listening to music and making scenarios. That was a hard hit from reality.
Imagine having to explain to your sibling that no, you don't run around cause you got left energy but actually that this specific part of the song hits so hard you gotta recreate that one scene again and again(now they bully me the mf-)
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I need to escape to my mind palace (Constantly pacing my room listening to music, creating fake scenarios)
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孤独な穴居人曰く、「幸福が人を自殺に追いやることがある。幸福は、人を疲労困憊させる適応努力を要求する。」と。
だが現代においては、不幸な人も、不幸でも幸福でもない人も、相応の適応と生存の努力を強いられている。
過去の時代にはない激しい環境変化の結果、不幸につきものの「ある種の儀式のもつ安心感」は消え失せ、努力の厳しさだけが残った。
ひどく奇妙に聞こえるかもしれないが、現代は不幸においても、人を疑心暗鬼にさせる不適応努力を要求しているのだ。
According to the lonely caveman, "Happiness can drive a person to suicide. Happiness demands adaptive efforts that can exhaust a person." And.
But in the modern world, both the unhappy and those who are neither unhappy nor happy are forced to make reasonable efforts to adapt and survive.
As a result of the violent environmental changes not seen in past eras, the "sense of security that comes with certain rituals" that accompanies misfortune has disappeared, leaving only the severity of the endeavor.
It may sound terribly strange, but even in misfortune, modern times demand maladaptive efforts that make the one suspicious.
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Question... Taylor Keeps Repeating the Same Old Pattern that Ultimately Makes her Miserable [Part 14]
Question… Taylor Keeps Repeating the Same Old Pattern that Ultimately Makes her Miserable [Part 14]
Taylor wins the pronoun game. I’m not even going to try to untangle the speaker/recipient/changing characters in this song. It was written so convoluted that I haven’t even seen a satisfactory answer to this yet. Instead, I took lyric snippets from other songs featuring the same word, to get a feeling about Taylor’s sentiment and even subject. Don’t get overwhelmed with the length of this…
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