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I Don't Miss You At All (ITA One Shot)

Loki x Reader Avengers The Office AU (Slowwwwww Burn)

Warnings: tears, trauma, therapy

Word Count: Thank you Tari for being such a nice friend. For reading all that I blurt out here. Thank you for being my reader and supporter even though I have been so inconsistent as a writer and as a friend.

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"Looking for something?" Your attention is brought back by the gorgeous olive-skinned lady in her late forties sitting before you. "Hmm?" is all that comes out of you while you are biting the dead skin on your lower lip. "You were looking around for something on the ceiling and-" she points at the French doors opening to the porch outside with the pen in her hand- "the doorway." Your crinkled brows relax and go up a little. "Oh. Right. It was...I was looking for cameras." Now lady furrows her brows even though she is smiling at you. "It was on involuntary." You shrug casually. The lady does not react. "I am used to cameras in my vicinity." you try to summarise. She opens the notebook in her lap. "Nothing negative. Just a project my father has going on." Now her lips make that straight line and you suddenly feel like you've failed a test. "So there is an entire crew-" "Miss Y/N, breathe." she tries to calm you down.

You breathe in, hold the air and let it out slowly, taking in your surroundings again. The beige-coloured room is well-lit- thanks to the abundant sunlight coming through the French doors. You sit on a cream-coloured velvet sofa, wearing your oversized shirt with a happy Tony Tony Chopper eating candy on the front and a pair of blue mom jeans. "So-" the lady starts, seeing that your nerves seem better- "why did you come in today?" "Doctor I-" "Jane. It's Jane. Please call me Jane," she urges with a smile before settling on her cream sofa. "Okay...Jane." You nod. "So, tell me why you are here today." Pressing your hands between your thighs and letting the warmth seep in, you feel your chest tighten. The air that goes in to help you form the words suddenly feels heavy in the lungs. Your eyes seem to betray you a little too. You smile, trying your best to let your facial muscles close your eyes as much as possible and wipe away the moisture by some miracle. But they fail. A tear falls down your cheek, falling right through the smile. "Because I'm not okay," your voice croaks. Your shivering hands try to wipe away the tears that now seem endless. "Sorry," you whisper an apology. "It's okay," Jane soothes you, pouring a glass of water from the jar sitting in front of you on her coffee table, "let it out. That's good. We're halfway there already because you are aware you are not feeling okay. So, no need to rush. Crying is also a part of it. It is okay to cry." You gulp down the water in seconds before pouring yourself another round. "Okay," you announce softly, nodding in Jane's direction. "Take a minute if-" "No, I'm good," you confirm and settle back down in your seat with a sigh. Jane's eyes smile their kindest smile at you. "Okay. let's begin."

"Yeah-" you nod- "so, it's been a few weeks now..."

The six am alarm starts to buzz on your phone and before the alarm tone can even begin to ascend, your fingers are stopping the buzz. There is no point in the alarm when you lay wide awake in your bed in the dorm room, your eyes looking at infinity in the sky outside as they have watched it break from dawn to a proper sunny day. The constant throbbing in your head has become a part of your existence now. You lay in your bed for another hour and you would have laid there for two more had Yusuf not knocked at your door. "Y/N! We have a lecture in twenty minutes. Please tell me you are still not sleeping." You have heard him, but your body lays in bed, still looking at the sky. Yusuf knocks again. Silence. "Okay, I'm coming in," he shouts, "you better be decent because we cannot miss today's lecture." You groan and crinkle your nose when Yusuf pulls you up by your arms. You protest, not wanting to attend today's lectures. But Yusuf's begging techniques seem to be your weakness. Deodorant under your armpits and a change of shirt later you are sitting through the day's lectures, pretending to write in your notebook. Everything around you is on the move- the professors, the students, the assignments leaflets, the laptops, even the bugs crawling on the class's windows outside- while you sit in one place. Nothing seems to grab much of your attention. Except for that one whiff of jasmine, lily and a mix of spices that sometimes travels through the air and fires up the wrong wirings inside you. Some days it just makes your heart race up a bit, making you short of breath for a while. On other days, you sweat through your body, unable to breathe, looking for the washroom to run into before crumbling down in there. Today it makes your hands shiver. Your back can feel the cold sweats coming in. "I'll just come back," you mumble to Yusuf and rush to the washroom from the back door of the lecture hall. .

"All good?" Yusuf's concerns are always transparent. "Yeah. I think the dinner from last night was acting up." You smile at him through the lie. More lectures start and finish before it is time for lunch. "Don't feel like it," you declare, "not hungry." "Have some juice still," Yusuf presses, already having brought you a glass of fresh pressed juice. "Dude, that shit's expensive," you state before sliding it back to him. "I can't. I don't feel so good." But Yusuf does not give up. You take three sips before your stomach begins to feel the nausea. You sit in the grass looking at the endless stream of students going about their day with no thought going inside your brain. And then you see those pair of green eyes. Your heart starts to race again. Only to find it is someone else. But it is already too late. The tears have begun to form. And it is starting to get hard to hide them. Taking out your earphones and plugging them in, you press play on a random tutorial on how to make rice in ten different ways and lie down on the grass with your eyes closed. Some days it works.

It's four in the evening and you have volunteered to get dog food for Yusuf's pitbull. You have your car now to drive you through the city, a second-hand ocean-blue Honda. Your mind knows that dog food is an excuse. But no arguments are made. You sit in the city traffic, waiting for the light to turn green. Some random radio channel is turned on in your car. You have never bothered to set it up before. They start to play a familiar song.

Wind blows Blew me to where I belong It was you A home I came into the night

The cold sweats start again. It gets harder to breathe. The light has turned green but the vehicles in front of you are not moving. You shut down the radio and press the horn into infinity. Your car revs and breaks into a spree, only stopping at a spot where there aren't any eyes and you can finally hit your steering wheel as much as you want before you break down into an ugly cry. Two hours pass before you text Yusuf you cannot find the specific brand of dog food and return to the campus. Parking your car near your department building, you walk to the dorms. It's a thirty-minute walk. Sometimes you feel like you hear the familiar soft British accent on your way. Your chest feels the heaviness again, but your brain simply makes it for another student on campus. You don't have any more tears left to shed for the day.

Back at the dorm, you stand under the shower for ten minutes doing nothing. The shirt and PJs you had on last night are what you wear again. You come down to the dining area to see if you have any appetite. You smile at the familiar faces that greet you. You know your smiles are growing weaker every day. But there is nothing you can do about it. Salad. Soup. Bread. Pasta. Fruits. Ice cream. A tiny leaf of lettuce. A finger-sized slice of bread. Two pieces of penne with barely any sauce on them and a slice of apple. That is all that goes onto your plate. Even the lady serving you is concerned for her favourite student who used to leave the dining hall only after stuffing down two huge servings of everything. You sit on the table in the corner right by the window. It is a cold spot so no one ever prefers to sit there. Even as you sit down to eat the contents on your plate, you are not able to finish the bread and the pasta.

Back in your dorm room, you sit in the dark on your bed for about an hour before your phone rings. It's Tony. You look at the time on your phone. It's time for the usual call. You switch on the study light to accept the video call but your fingers never touch the accept button. Finally, you accept the voice call, putting it on speaker. "Hey, sweetie," Tony's voice greets from the other end. "'Sup," you greet back, not truly matching the enthusiasm. "How was college today?" "It was fine." "..." "..." "Okay. Cool. How's that car doing?" "Doing okay." "Because I can send you a better-" "It's doing okay." "...okay," Tony's voice goes down an amplitude, "that's good to know. So...did they have anything good in dinner today?" "Same old." "Did you eat?" you can hear the concern in his voice. "Mm-hmm." Silence. "Are you in your lab?" you finally say, wanting to prevent any more questions that you did not have the strength to answer. "Yeah. Working on a special suit right now. For a special someone." There is a pause for a moment. "Can you...can I hear you work? I have to work on an assignment and I need some sort of background noise to help me get it done faster." "Oh, okay." The amplitude is a little better now. You lie down on your bed, your legs bent close to your chest, keeping your phone next to you. Tony goes on with this work, chatting with Friday. You continue to listen to him, never consciously feeling the tears fall from your eyes, wetting your pillow. Bruce joins Tony sometime later. You don't know how long has it been since you've been lying there. But you can hear Bruce tell Tony it's two in the morning so they should call it a night. "Y/N, sweetie? You asleep?" Tony whispers through the phone. You say nothing. "I guess she's asleep. Good night, goose," Tony hums before ending the call. You do not wish for the sleep to come, for it has not visited you for quite some days now. But the fear of seeing a familiar face when you fall asleep is also the reason you do not want slumber to hit you. But it comes tonight. Bringing with it reasons you are going to feel the numbness, the hole in your chest, the cold sweats all over again tomorrow.

Loki only visits your dorm when you are not there. You are gone early from the room because you have an eight am class today. The room reeks. Used tissues lie on the floor, below the study table, overfilling the dustbin. There are half-eaten packets of chips sitting on the desk along with half-finished cans of soda. Your hoodies, sweat pants, shorts and undergarments lie in a crumpled mess in the cupboard as well as the laundry basket. He opens the windows first- noticing the dead succulents on your window sill that Yusuf has brought as a 'dorm-warming gift'- before getting to work. He clears the trash, cleans the floors, disinfects the desk, changes the bedsheet and duvet, and replaces the dirty laundry with clean ones. Taking one last look at the room, he makes sure to leave your clothes just as he had found them to not raise any suspicion. He replaces your bottles and mugs with fresh water, praying that you will drink as much as possible. Then he leaves.

He disguises himself as another student to watch you from afar. Sometimes he catches you lost in a thought in the window of your lecture hall. On other days he sees you looking at the void while sitting in the campus grounds. It is visible you have lost weight. Your eyes have bags under them. Your signature smile that went up to your eyes is not there. Twice he has witnessed you rush into the washroom with great urgency, and both times he has stopped himself from following you, for multiple reasons. Both times he has waited outside in the corridor, pacing back and forth. Both times you have come out with a freshly washed face, red eyes hiding behind spectacles and a smile for whoever greeting you in the corridor.

He keeps a good distance whenever you walk back from your department to your dorm building. The way back is dimly lit and you prefer to walk alone, no matter the time. Sometimes he watches you stop abruptly in your path. Sometimes you sniffle and wipe something off your face. Other times you take your phone out and look at something on it for a long time before closing it and resuming your walk.

He avoids the nights. They do not bring the best of him. Because they are not the best for you.

"Jane, is it? You do realise I would not be here had those two baboons not tricked me into walking into your office on the pretext of an emergency." Loki huffs and rubs one hand on his face while the other rests on his hips. Jane purses her lips and shrugs in agreement before sitting down on her sofa. "Must have been an emergency for your friends to bring to a clinical psychologist, right?" Loki chuckles sarcastically. Jane is unbothered. "Oh, Miss Clinical Psychologist-" Loki's eyes have nothing but pity as he looks in the doctor's direction- "you are talking to a thousand-year-old being infamous for the art of manipulation. So, no offence, but I am pretty sure I can diagnose myself better than any doctor on this planet. Let alone this galaxy." This time Jane is the one chuckling. "I am two hundred per cent sure no one has the knowledge of psychology on this planet as much as you. And I take your word for all that you said. But-" she takes a tiny remote from the coffee table in front of her, points and clicks it to the opaque window separating her room from the reception outside, revealing Peter Parker and Scott Lang pacing the length of the reception hall- "for the sake of those two worried souls, why not humour me for...twenty minutes? Not to mention, even the best of psychologists need another experienced person to help them out in desperate times." Loki looks out at the two figures who have no clue they are being watched. He can't hear but Peter is saying something to Scott with a look of anxiousness, to which Scott simply keeps his hands on Peter's shoulders for a moment, telling him something, and finally taking him into his embrace. The window goes back to white. Loki comes back into the room. He is lost in a thought for a moment. "Well played, Jane," Loki announces in a mumble. "Had it been any other day, I would not give a damn about any of this." Jane simply gestures to the seat kept for Loki with both her hands. The God sits down and sighs.

"Why do you think they are so worried about you?" Loki raises his hands in defeat. "Beats me." Loki notices Jane has not touched the dairy kept in front of her. Neither her pen. She simply sits there for the God to elaborate. After a prolonged moment of thought, and the presence of zero judgment on the doctor's face, Loki gives in. "It's their friend. She...and I are not on speaking terms anymore." Loki's voice has gone soft. Jane nods. "Is their friend not your friend?" "...she was. Till she confessed that she liked me." Loki huffs the 'liked' part as if it were an insult. "Okay." Jane nods, adjusting herself a bit towards to edge of the seat, interested in knowing more. "Nothing more to it, Jane," he points out, averting his gaze, "she's gone...a bit far so we don't see each other much." "So, you do see each other." Loki takes in a long breath, furrowing his brows as if trying to push something away. "No. I go see her. She is staying in the city. I-" Loki's gaze goes down to his fingers that have started playing with the velvet on the sofa- "check in on her. Sometimes." "Why do you need to check in on her?" Even if that question is out of curiosity, Jane makes no effort to react in any way. Loki scoffs. "Because she is wasting away, Jane. A woman like her, who is capable of changing worlds is wasting away in a box half the size of the room we are sitting in because she was rejected by the God she fell for." Jane pours herself a glass of water. "You still haven't answered my question, though, Loki." Loki looks at her in confusion. "Why do you need to check in on her?" She picks the glass up. "What do you mean- I just told you she is-" "Wasting away, yes. That's the choice she made. Why do you feel the need to go there?" Jade sits back with the glass still in her hand. "Because I am the reason she is in this mess." Loki cannot understand what is so hard to understand. Jade turns her head a little. "So are millions of other women after a breakup. Why is it so important for you to go back to her? You have already told her how you feel." Silence. The glass is sitting in her lap. Loki can feel an unnerving feeling in his chest as he glares at that glass of water.

"Because I love her," he finally admits. "Because I cherish her. Because she nearly died because of me." Jade does not speak in the silence that comes after. "Because it is preposterous to think I could ever be with her." The confidence and anger with which Loki had entered the room has dissolved into the sea of certain new emotions; emotions that seem to be taking over his features gradually. The previously poised glare has turned into a fragile pair of eyes blinking a bit faster than before. "And why-" Jane's voice is soft as it stresses her words- "do you think you cannot be with her." Jane raises the glass to her lips, drinking the water, giving the room a good long pause. At that moment, the God feels the rush of tears in his eyes, the onset of a slight quiver building in his lips, the shakiness of his breath as his throat tries to bring out what has been sitting inside that little boy for ages. "Because I'm a monster." his voice breaks as he looks back at Jane. "Because I don't deserve that love." He tries to breathe in to compose himself only for his throat to shake. "Because I am scared of not being worthy. Because I am scared she will find out it is all a facade and I am nothing but a spineless pawn. Because I have only been loved on conditions and am afraid to get hurt again." Tears fall frantically through Loki's eyes. He does not bother to wipe them off. Jane pours Loki a glass of water and hands it to him. "Must have been hard to say it out loud," she states. "I can assure you if you choose to sit with me to figure it out, it will be a bit easier than it is right now. It won't be a smooth sail, but it will hurt less. And you just want the pain to stop, don't you?" Loki takes in a lungful of breath. "I want it to stop." Janes nods in reassurance. "Please make it stop."

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janedoewriter · 1 year

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Collection of Sebastian Stan and his characters

(mostly Bucky Barnes)

Originally Posted: 1/16/2023

Updated: 1/20/2023

Will be slowly updating from my likes

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Don’t Feed the Flames by @falcor-thee-luck-dragon: Bucky Barnes

Under A Storm by @falcor-thee-luck-dragon: Bucky Barnes

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Cutting It Close by @kittenofdoomage: Alpha!Bucky on AO3

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Heartbeat by @kittenofdoomage: Alpha!Bucky on AO3

One Foot in Front of the Other by @kittenofdoomage: Alpha!Bucky on AO3

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Goodbyes by @samthemarvelfan: Bucky Barnes

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Irreplaceable by @the-canary: Bucky Barnes

Just A Few Days by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork: Bucky Barnes

Keep Your Hands Where I Can See Them by @angrythingstarlight : Bucky Barnes

Let's Take Five by @chrissquares: Bucky Barnes

The Match by @babyboibucky: Bucky Barnes

Night In by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork: Bucky Barnes

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Reputation by @startrekkingaroundasgard: Bucky Barnes

Sanctuary by @lokithealligator: Bucky Barnes

Silent Girl + The Winter Soldier by @kinanabinks: Bucky Barnes

Sweet by @noceurous: Bucky Barnes

Sweetart by @onlyjamesbarnes : Bucky Barnes

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The Barnes Special by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork: Bucky Barnes

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Venus by @frostironfudge: Bucky Barnes

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Good 4 U by @maybepointlessthoughts: Bucky Barnes

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Out Of My League by @maybepointlessthoughts: Bucky Barnes

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You Are. Every Inch. The Fantasy by @becca-e-barnes: Bucky Barnes

Part of a Family by @onceuoponastory: Bucky Barnes

Alpha, Please by @kilikina34512: Alpha!Bucky Barnes

’Mega, Please by @kilikina34512: Alpha!Bucky Barnes (Kinda continuation of Alpha, Please)

Legend of the Winter Solider by @summerofsnowflakes: Demon!Bucky Barnes

Chemistry by @onceuponastory: Bucky Barnes

Look at how Good You Take It by @world-of-aus: Bucky Barnes

Not My Babe by @avecra: Biker!Bucky Barnes

Untitled by @gagmebucky: Bucky Barnes

October is it’s Own Magic by @authoressskr: Bucky Barnes

Take My Breath by @buckycuddlebuddy: Bucky Barnes

Pocket Angel by @buckyalpine: Bucky Barnes

Sweet Dreams by @buckyalpine: Bucky Barnes

Just the Way You Are by @mellowsaturns: Bucky Barnes

On His Knees by @sweetsweetnuit: Hades!Bucky Barnes

The sergeant's heart by @foreverindreamlandd

Crazy little thing called love by @barnesjamcs

An old friend by @carryonmywaywardbucky

Saving grace by @barnesandrogersfanfics

That time of year by @edelweiss-and-maple-trees

Taste of whiskey by @thesoftestpunk

S: sweet dreams by @buckyalpine

F: just the way you are by @mellowsaturns

F: good men and tea parties by @writingcroissant

F + A: in every lifetime by @wkemeup

F + A: hang loose by @imtryingmyfuckingbest

F: operation get mr bucky and momma together by @golden-barnes

F + A: two kingdoms by @softlybarnes

F + A: marry for power by @duuhrayliegh

F: there is no other love, it’s only yours by @mellowsaturns

My little love by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

A Was an Apple Pie by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Sticks and Stones by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Mac and Cheese by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

A Bid on Bucky by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Keep Me by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Little Bo Peep by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Little Boy Blue by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Morning Kisses by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Eyes by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Deserve by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Undercover Fiancés by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Repairs by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Comforting Kisses by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

First (and second) Kisses by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

The Same by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Dusk Till Dawn by @samingtonwilson: Bucky Barnes

Some Tender, Love and Care by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Bail Me Out by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Personal Protection Squad by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Fractures of the Heart by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Forever yours, B x by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

There’s Always One by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

With All My Love by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Dancing With a Stranger (The adventure of Mr. Grumpy and Sunshine) by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Thunderstorms and Rainbows by @summerofsnowflakes: Bucky Barnes

Make Me Forget by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

His Blood on your Face by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

I Say No by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Graduation Night by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Moodboard

His Angel, His Sweetheart by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Pushing Your Luck by @summerofsnowflakes: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Don’t You Want Me by @summerofsnowflakes: Sugar Daddy!Bucky Barnes

His Most Prized Possession by @bucky-barnes-diaries: Dark!Mob! Bucky Barnes

Hail Mary by @traitorjoelite: Footballplayer! Bucky Barnes

Fly Me to the Moon by @khimili: Bucky Barnes

Questions by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Safe Haven (Post Endgame Bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Rescue Me (Post Endgame Bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Longing by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Obscure by @sinner-as-saint: Dark!Bucky Barnes

All My Love by @sinner-as-saint: Chubby!Bucky Barnes

Santa and Sunshine by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Tempestuous Series by @sinner-as-saint: Royal!Bucky Barnes

Biker! Bucky by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

To You by @sinner-as-saint: Alpha!Bucky Barnes

Spark by @sinner-as-saint: Firefighter!Bucky Barnes

A Sweeter Place by @sinner-as-saint: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Eye For An Eye (ceo!bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint: CEO!Bucky Barnes

Hundred and three (birthday special) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

All Yours (professor!reader x uni student!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint

Predestined (series) by @sinner-as-saint: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Hostage Of Your Eyes (series) by @sinner-as-saint: Mob!Bucky Barnes

Love Made Me Crazy (ceo!bucky/mob!bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint:

Fire On Fire by @sinner-as-saint: Firefighter!Bucky Barnes

Another World (series) by @sinner-as-saint: Alien!Bucky Barnes

À la folie (hc) by @sinner-as-saint: Prince!Bucky Barnes

You Know Just What I Need (spoilt!brat bucky x head of security!reader) by @sinner-as-saint

Twilight Moments With You by @sinner-as-saint: EX Mob!Bucky Barnes

You Bring Me Home by @sinner-as-saint: Mechanic!Bucky Barnes

Power Over Me (ceo/soft dom!bucky x sub!reader series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

You Were Made To Be Mine (pirate!bucky x mermaid!reader series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Too Young To Love You (chubby!bucky x reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

My Favorite Kind Of Night (camboy!bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Safe and Sound (Bucky Barnes x librarian!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Unleashed (doctor!bucky x reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Take You Like A Drug (biker bucky barnes x reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Poison Paradise (fratboy/biker bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Let Me Love You (ceo!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Wreck My Plans (mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

‘yes daddy’ (sambucky x reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

my sweet love (uni student!bucky x professor!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

‘till we bleed out (vampire!bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

purpose (mob bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

The Unseen (hades!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

we can’t stop, we’re enemies (bucky x avenger!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Crawling Back To You by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

I am your fall (mob!bucky x ex-spy!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

War of Hearts (prince!bucky x dark fae!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

I saw you and I knew (biker!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Come Home (soft mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Night Hours (Mob!Bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Yours To Wield (Mob!Bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

My Salvation (Police Chief!Bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Wherever You Stray, I Follow (demon!bucky series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Into Your Arms (mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

the first time (beefy!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Ruin (mini series) (mob!bucky x innocent!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

my home for all seasons (bucky barnes x hades!Reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Fall Apart by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Good To You (boyfriend’s dad!mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

pretty boy by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

birthday boy by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

king in your story (viking!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

you next to me (punk!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

you’re no saint by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

sub!bucky w/ mommy kink by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

like a villain (bucky x avenger!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

wanna be yours (uni au) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

quickie w/ mob!bucky by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

soft like winter (dark!mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Crossfire series (mob!bucky) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

middle of the night (bucky x avenger!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

meddle about (mob!bucky x babysitter!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

cuffing season (beefy!bucky uni au) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

we can make it till the end by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Capital Letters series (COMPLETED) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Single Fics: Sebastian Stan

Dating Sebastian Stan would include... (1/3) by @falcor-thee-luck-dragon: Sebastian Stan

Dating Sebastian Stan would include... (2/3) by @falcor-thee-luck-dragon: Sebastian Stan

Dating Sebastian Stan would include... (3/3) by @falcor-thee-luck-dragon: Sebastian Stan

Imagine having not one but three men being head over heels for you by @aestheticallywinchester: Sebastian Stan

Convergence Of The Twain (Professor Sebastian Stan) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

As Long As You’re With Me by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

De Trop by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Nobody Does It Like You Do by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Ardor (Artist! Seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Drabble #1 by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Drabble #2 by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Drabble #3 by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Drabble #4 by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Drabble #5 by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Limerencia Series. by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

I Think He Knows (Headcanon) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Adore You (Professor! Seb HC) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

You Can Be My Full Time Daddy (sugar daddy! seb HC) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Professor! Seb HC by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Jealous! Seb HC by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Teacher’s Pet (professor!seb x reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Lover (innocent!Seb x Mob!Reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Predestined (ceo!seb series) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Daylight (ceo!reader x personal assistant!seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Strawberries & Cigarettes (Frank x Reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Afterglow (mob!seb x surrogate!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

King Of My Heart (devil!seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Cherries and Wine (sugar baby!seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

illicit affairs (mob!seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Take It Off (mob!seb hc) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

His Obsession. (mob!seb x housekeeper!reader) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

All For Love by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

Somebody Else (cherry!seb) by @sinner-as-saint: Bucky Barnes

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colifower · 1 year

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If ita doesnt go this way... :'(

@maladaptive-ninja-returns

(Jk ur story ur choice)

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literalnobody · 3 years

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It took me 2 minutes to fall headfirst in love with you OCs 💜💜💜

omgg thank you so much!!! I’m partial to them myself ^_^

#asks #thank you for these sweet words... my soul is sustained #maladaptive-ninja-returns

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lokixme · 5 years

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Exams are DONE!!!

Whew!!! You guys have no damn idea how i've been itching to check out all the fun things i've been tagged in. I had to physically sit on my hands to resist temptation like omggg I have to catch up with @maiden-of-asgard 's Frostbite, my babe @lokissoul 's You Saw Me, It's The Avengers by @maladaptive-ninja-returns (gosh I have SO much catching up to do on that one🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️) Also all of @gingerwritess 's stuff too!!! Gosh I'm so damn excited!!!!

#lokixme rambles #fics fics everywhere #boy am I grateful for past me #past me was a queen who went around and got herself tagged on as many lists as possible lmao #boy i love it when i see those notifications!!!!#lokissoul #maiden-of-asgard #maladaptive-ninja-returns #gingerwritess #uuuggghhhh I'm gonna make myself a good fucking cup of coffee because i really fucking want to and no one can stop me #also!!! i love #Loki

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y-not-loki · 5 years

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@maladaptive-ninja-returns said: @y-not-loki since your ask is closed : 3, 5, 23, 39, 48

First of all, I checked and my asks are open??? Idk, sometimes you have to open the profile multiple times and let it load completely, then you can access the asks part, but then again, I don’t understand Tumblr and never will.

Onto the questions (I hope you don’t mind being tagged in this):

3. what color are your eyes?

Browny brown brown. Well, they’re just dull brown with a ring of black around them.

5. what is your relationship status?

Singley pringley. And probably gonna stay like that for a while because no one likes me.

23. describe your dream date

Something we can do together. Like, shopping together, dinner/meal together, cooking together, spending time together alone. And cuddling. I love physical affection. I thrive off it. But still, presence is enough, I’m not that needy, I just need to know that they’re okay and that they still enjoy my presence.

39. do you have a nickname? what is it?

I do!!!! But since I don’t feel comfortable revealing my real name to 550+ people who follow me, I’m gonna stick with my pseudonym Catastrophe, which is shortened to Cat. I’ve also been known as Astral (shortened from The Astral Nebula) and Nyx (shortened from Nyx Nova, and for a short period I played games as Nyx Nova, fun fact). Cloudy is another nickname, because of a stupid little game my friends and I played.

48. who is your role model?

Think of the most chaotic person you know, and that person is my role model. I also really want to be as nice as Tom Hiddleston, but that’s never gonna happen.

#ask #answered #maladaptive-ninja-returns #should i be tagging this as an ask????#eh #about me #personal

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bucky-smiles · 5 years

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Right! I forgot! May I have the prompt Fanaa for Bucky X reader?

yep! it’s yours :D

Join my Writing Challenge

#2kbollywood #maladaptive-ninja-returns

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ohifonlyx33 · 6 years

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maladaptive-ninja-returns replied to your photoset “cypheramnells: 1x01 I 1x12 ↙ What just happened? Something comes...”

What series/movie is this wonderful dialogue from?

oh boy oh boy. i can’t wait to tell you about it. this is SyFy’s series called 12 Monkeys, which is kinda a stupid name, and its very loosely based off the cult-classic movie of the same name. It ran 47 episodes over 4 seasons and had a cohesive, solid story with the ending they wanted to have. And in fact, I don’t think they had a single bad episode.

It’s about a man named Cole from 2047 who travels back in time to stop a plague by killing a man. Only it’s not as simple as it seems there is some sort of third party involved... and he needs the help of a virologist named Cassie from 2015... the same girl who directly gave him a message that they found in the future that they used to send him back. And it is QUALITY time travel and a quality apocalypse with a philosophical perspective with quality character writing, quality plot twists, and equality acting and editing.

#maladaptive-ninja-returns #12 monkeys

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captain-kelli · 4 years

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Hi there! Congratulations on the milestone! May I have quote prompt no. 5?

Hi 👋🏼Thank you! And yes - it’s yours!

Captain Kelli’s 500 Fam Writing Challenge

#captainkelli500fam #maladaptive-ninja-returns

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maladaptive-ninja-returns · 5 months

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The Ocean is She(One-Shot)

Loki x Reader Avengers The Office AU (Slowwwwww Burn)

Warnings: Loki's POV summary till the Season 4 Midseason Finale.

Word Count: I just sort of poured out whatever I felt for this dude. Which all shades of sad mostly.

MASTERLIST in bio, darlings. Tags are open (check bio)

"This is Y/N. She is here to complete her college degree. She will be living here for now." That was the first time Loki saw you. You stood out like a lost firefly in that lounge among the crowd of broken people on Hero Syndrome. While everyone was giving him the stink eye, you passed a flat smile towards his direction before being pulled by the others into questioning. What is someone like her doing here? Loki was meant to have it as a passing thought. But that passing thought slowly percolated into his life in the form he never really thought he would meet again- a friend. "It's okay, I'll have another one." You smiled at him when he took your cup of green tea your first morning there. And Loki would never admit to his ego that the first act of unadulterated kindness had made his heart sink a little into an unnamed ocean before covering it up with 'this woman must have an ulterior motive'. Ulterior motive. Loki was 'on guard' since then, trying to figure you out. You knocking on his door to join the others for a movie night, making him those heavenly molten chocolate lava cakes on his birthday, buying rings and bracelets that reminded you of him, falling asleep in his presence in the library, asking him to help you study for your exams, sending him pictures of cats on the campus, sharing latest memes with him to keep him up to date; everything you did was seen as motive of some bigger game for the God who had once fallen and twice died. But seemingly, he killed a part himself the day he told you about your origins and you did not blame him for a single second. And nothing was the same for God afterwards.

He started paying more attention to you. His initial reason was that unlike the clowns infesting the building always high on either adrenaline or coffee, you were a specimen that he could study. Right. He was studying how you had a habit of cracking your neck every hour no matter what you did. How you would interact with inanimate objects with emotions, like looking at your assignment on the laptop and asking it with tears in your eyes, 'Why won't you conclude yourself in a way that's not gibberish?!'; or how you would gently pat the car and say thank you whenever you arrived at your destination. How your eyes would light up every time you saw a little spawn of the dogs or cats and your voice would go higher to greet them. He was amused by how your calm persona would do a one-eighty when your menstruation cycle was on the verge of bleeding days. That was the exciting part of his day during the cycle- sitting close to your sweatshirt and shorts-clad figure sprawled on the sofa in front of the TV, watching you threaten anyone who passed the hall. That's all you were to him- an amusing human who helped him pass his days on earth. At least that is what he had convinced himself of, never realising how his day would start by coming out of his room looking for you. How he would take a tour of the entire Avengers facility to find you and when he did, he would play himself off non-chalantly. He did not seem to let himself know how he would automatically come to stand by your side whenever he was to leave the facility and go out into the world.

The narrator's heart often wonders how he could not see himself getting attached to you. Like that one time, he was the only one up beside Scott and Tony when you were out partying with your college friends; how he pretended to be drowned in a philosophy book while Tony worked on his robot babies and Scott watched the Kaichowa Maid Sama anime; how he intently listened to the phone call Scott got and he immediately recognised your voice even though he sat a bit far; how he heard your slurred words say 'Scottieeeeeee~ please take me home. I am drunkkkk and I kindaaaa don't want to stay heeeere'. "Of course, honey," Scott replied, "but it'll take me an hour to reach-" "Then send someone who'll be faaaaaasterrrrr~" you whined on the line. Scott looked in the direction of the elevator, wondering whether to call Stark from his workshop when Loki slammed his book shut. "Turn on the sink tap," Loki commanded a confused Scott as he vanished with green and golden hues only to land on the campus grounds in a poorly lit park where you were sitting in the cold grass, your phone still to your ears. "Scott," you whispered into the phone, "you don't understand. I am drunk and I am feeling these waves of horny-ness but I do not want to do it with anyone here!!!" "Let's go home," Loki announced as he stood in front of you, waiting for you to take his hand. And boy did he feel his heart do another dip in that unknown ocean when you smiled at the God with a shade of relief and hugged him the moment you were up on your legs. "Thank you for coming for me." The wave of feeling his heart about to take another dunk into that ocean, he immediately teleported back with you, making sure both you and he landed right next to the sink to help you puke your wobbling guts right into the sink.

As time passed, Loki grew more used to your presence. From sitting together at breakfast and sharing one cup of tea to having reading sessions in his room on his bed. You were one of the rare ones who were allowed to enter his sacred space. No one knew but he thoroughly enjoyed the waves of emotions that would run over your features at different times when you became too engrossed in a manga. Sometimes it was your uncontrollable laughter where you read the same pages again and again; other times it was the repeated punches you threw either on your thigh or on the bed when you found yourself being impressed by something. But then there were the times when you would be in tears when one of your favourite characters died, and you could not stop yourself and Loki would look at you, with the intensity of the moon, wanting to stop time and do something...anything to stop you from crying.

He did get tested for his belief of looking at you as a specimen. That one time when you and Hope fell into the other end of the universe. This God was ready to draw blood if it meant bringing you back in one piece. Once you were home safe, he could not help but overthink as to why did what he did for you. You were a mere human. You were not supposed to mean much to him. You were just his amusement. Right? Just his amusement. The very amusement who stood in a barren alien land in front of the most delirious alien army, making Loki calculate in one point two seven seconds how he was about to lose his sleep for the next three months if he was to keep you alive while trying to find a way back home. Home. Earth isn't my home, he would mentally slap himself back to reality whenever he caught himself thinking of the Avengers facility and the other clowns. But then he would turn to look at you. Earth was your home. And going home would make you happy. He wanted to see you happy. Another mental slap to his head. You are losing your edge, Loki, he would bully himself to keep himself cold and calculating throughout that demanding journey of looking after you and the monster you had adopted on your way. And of course, Javi.

Any other day, any other life, any other universe, Loki would have punched the numbers as to how useful you were to him dead or alive and then be his way once you fulfilled your purpose of helping him survive. But here, he was doing the basing math of making sure to get you out of all the darkness of the universe unharmed. But life, as we know, has other plans. The music genre too changes when the playlist is on random and the heart is set on adventure for one and survival for another. Aellae came as the genre of dread and darkness. Being well aware of her obsession and abuse of power, Loki knew she would see you as a threat; for she knew the God of Mischief never travelled in a pack unless that pack had Loki's prey or something Loki wanted to keep close. So his first thought was to call in the seven Gods while 'ditching' you in the middle of a desert. Little did he know that you too were thinking from your heart in that space and time. As much as he hated to see you come for his rescue, he would never give up on the time when you two were stuck in that small space in Aellae's dungeons, trying to find a way through the room, bodies covered in sweat, your back and his front finding the angles to become one as you both pushed your way out. How synchronous were your bodies working together, how you readily trusted him with touching you in a way he would never want to witness you being touched by anyone. Why was he thinking that way? All those questions, all those confusions, all those hours of his inside voices bullying him to see you as nothing but a human ticket to a life of peace back on earth- all of them burst with the brittleness of the snow that fell on you as your lifeless figure lay in his arms. This time when his heart sank into the ocean, it did not want to come up. The God could not sense anything but fear crawling on his skin when his hand touched your face and it did not feel warm anymore. Your usually cheerful eyes did not open when he called out your name again and again. The fear he had felt when he first found himself dying when he wanted to live, was nothing in that moment when he was faced with the reality that you might be dead. And just as that little speck of possibility crossed his mind, the hell inside him broke loose, causing a wave originating from his magic destroying everything within a radius of two kilometers. Ever since he was born, Loki, son of Laufey, son of Odin, Prince of Asgard, the Silvertongue, took to his knees for the first time for a life that was not his. He begged for your survival at the cost of his own, no longer denying himself from the truth. His heart did not come up from that ocean that carried your name on every atom in its waves. You were his reason to laugh. You were his reason to be curious in this life. You were his reason to look forward to getting up the next morning. You had been the reason he had not gone for Plan B of running away from Earth and ending in the bosom of some dying star that would end his misery. You were the reason he was willing to live a little longer. You were the reason he was ready to love again.

Even when back from the horrors of the universe, Loki did not stop looking after you. He let Peter in on the secret of your near-death experience because he trusted that boy and he knew how much he cared for you. Both he and the boy would discreetly look for signs of you experiencing any discomfort. Taking shifts in the night, they would help you get out of your nightmares- which were the after-effects of healing you back to life right from the arms of death herself. Loki grew more protective of you but would distance himself whenever found himself feeling whatever little ounces of happiness his heart felt in your company. He would walk the extra mile of punching a man in his face for disrespecting you but he found himself pretending to laugh at your heartfelt confession because his heart could not bear the truth of knowing that you loved him back. You loved him. You, the perfection that walked amongst mere peasants. Loved. Him. And he laughed. He laughed hard enough to hide his tears of happiness that hurt him to the point of no return. He could not let you do that. You were too precious. Too precious to be put in danger again. He was the danger. He brought death to you. He would rather die than do that to you ever again. And so the God decided to walk away, let out his screams in the middle of the desert to kill his heart for finding love in this lifetime and then hating the fact that it loved him back. The God was no better than a human then. He was in love. But he could hold on to that love for the fear of breaking it with his ill fate.

#loki #loki series #loki x reader #loki x you #loki x y/n #loki fluff #loki x female reader #marvel fluff #mcu loki #mcu fluff #It's The Avengers #Maladaptive Ninja Returns

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tarithenurse · 1 year

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Bucky Barnes Masterlist

Smut/lemons/nsfw/sexual themes = *

Mental health issues = %

Violence/gore = #

Always watch out for individual chapter warnings/content.Reader is per default female unless otherwise stated.

Series

Training day *

HoH!Reader. Reader is a new agent training with the Avengers and harbouring a crush on Bucky.

Chapter 1 || Chapter 2

One-shots

Mission abroad *#%

Inhuman!Reader. A mission to Italy forces Reader’s hand and despite of the success of the mission, she has a hard time dealing with what she’s done. Bucky helps her.

Splash

(Challenge for @welcome-to-fangirl-hell)

Drabble-esque. Sometimes being cheeky pays off.

Surprise *

(Challenge for @maladaptive-ninja-returns)

Bucky x Reader x Loki. Working for the Avengers gets Reader really close to her idols. Really close. No plot.

The right partner

GN!Reader. Drabble. Can also be read as Stucky! Inspired by Carol Emerald’s “The Ghost of You”.

To be seen

Reader is part of the Avengers but is not feeling confident in her role as a teammate. It takes a special effort from Bucky to convince her otherwise.

#Bucky #Bucky Barnes #james buchanan barnes #The Winter Soldier #Bucky x reader #Bucky Barnes Masterlist #Bucky Fanfiction #Bucky Fanfic #MCU

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janedoewriter · 1 year

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Collection of Tom Hiddlestion and his characters

(mostly Loki)

Originally Posted: 1/16/2023

Updated: 1/20/2023

Will be slowly updating from my likes

Masterlists

@lokishorns’s Masterlist: Loki

@starscreamloki’s Masterlist: Loki

@tarynkauai’s Masterlist: Loki, Tom Hiddleston and James Conrad

@hajimesh’s Masterlist: Loki

@jpat82’s Masterlist: Loki

@innaminitus’s Masterlist: Loki

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A Tale of English and Math: Chapter 6

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I’m sorry if this chapter seems short and/or messy, but I’ll come back to it every now and again to do some changes/fix any mistakes I see. Other than that, let me know what you guys think!

Y/N is ‘your name’; Y/M/N is ‘your middle name’; Y/L/N is ‘your last name’; and N/N is ‘nickname’

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Chapter Description: You and Wanda briefly discuss your feelings toward Bucky. Bucky and Steve briefly discuss their own past.

Warnings: Grammatical and/or spelling errors, a sprinkle of bad words here and there, a bad chapter maybe???, unedited, whatever else I probably missed

Word Count: 934 (give or take)

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You let out a pleased hum, your mouth stuffed with food. “This is really good,” you mumble. “What’s it called again?”

“Paprikash,” Wanda smiles. She sits across from you at her dining room table, a cup of tea in her hands. “My mother used to make it for us when I was little. Only on special occasions, she’d say. I’d help her every chance I had.” The longing’s back in Wanda’s voice, and it tugs at your heartstrings. Damn it.

You nod, swallowing your mouthful in the process. “Well... um, it’s delicious,” you state. “I appreciate you sharing it with me.”

Waving your comment off, Wanda takes a sip from her cup before responding. “It’s no big deal. Really.”

“Still...”

“If you hadn’t skipped lunch today, then we wouldn’t be having this issue, would we?” Wanda quirks an eyebrow at you, a pointed look on her face.

Your mouth hangs open in shock.

Wanda smirks. “Regardless, I would’ve shared this with you,” she continues. “I always tend to cook too much – a bad habit, I suppose.”

“Why don’t you bring some to Vision? I’m sure he’d appreciate it.”

A hint of a blush comes across Wanda’s face. She’s had a thing for Vision for a while now, but neither had the nerve to ask the other out. It was only because of Nat they even had their first date. You’ve talked to him a handful of times, and while he’s a bit odd he’s very pleasant. Really insightful, too.

“I don’t know,” she mumbles. “I get so busy sometimes, so I rarely ever see him...”

“Find the time to see him,” you exclaim. “Quit spending so much time with me and talk to the poor guy.”

“Like it’s that easy.”

“Do you want me to talk to him?” You lean forward a bit, a mischievous smirk on your face. “I can put a good word in for you.”

“You’re unbelievable,” Wanda snorts. “I don’t need you to do anything. And I don’t mind hanging out with you, so you won’t get rid of me that easily.”

“Whatever you say.” You take another bite of the paprikash, enjoying the flavorful experience.

A moment of silence passes. The two of you are silently enjoying each other’s company, something you’ve always appreciated with Wanda. Words aren’t always necessary.

“You know,” Wanda starts, “I’ve always wondered...”

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“...why don’t you like Sam?” Steve asks, quickly glancing at his friend.

Bucky groans. “He’s annoying,” he mutters, a hint of a scowl on his face. Steve had waited until Bucky cleared your whiteboard before the two men headed to their own classes. Steve wanted to grade some papers before going out, and Bucky was going to do some prep before he finished for the day. “He’s always bothering me,” Bucky continues. “I can’t get a second of peace with him around. It’s bad enough I’ve had to deal with you my whole life, now I have to deal with him.”

“I wasn’t that bad,” Steve chuckles. “I think I was a joy to be around.”

“Having to pull your skinny ass out of all the fights you started as kids?” Bucky throws a dry look his friend’s way. “Not a very joyous occasion.”

“Those guys were punks.”

“Yeah, but having to explain to your ma why you’re all bloodied and bruised was a nightmare.” Bucky shuddered. Steve’s mother was a force to be reckoned with. The woman who instilled her values into her son, who pretty much raised Steve, Barnes and his little sister on her own – it was devastating when she died.

“I remember,” Steve sighs, a pained look on his face. “I got plenty of earfuls from her.”

Bucky nodded. He remembered hearing her stern voice in the tiny apartment. She worked her ass off, day in and day out, to provide for her family. And the fact that Steve’s health wasn’t the best growing up, couple that with his constant fighting, and it added to Mrs. Rogers’ stress.

“I’m sure she’d be proud of you now,” Bucky murmurs. “With everything you’ve accomplished.”

“She’d be proud of you too, Buck.” The response was immediate, and it made Bucky’s heart clench. “She saw you and Becca as part of the family. I know she’d be proud of you.”

He only hums in response.

Steve let out a heavy sigh. “Look, let’s not focus too much on all that,” he states. “I don’t want to put anyone in a bad mood.”

“Yeah, I know.”

“I’ll come by your class when I’m done. How does that sound?”

Bucky nods, attempting to throw a smile his friend’s way.

“Okay,” Steve murmurs. He gives a pat on Bucky’s back. “I’ll see you later.”

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“...what do you have against Bucky?” Wanda tilts her head, curiosity twinkling in her eyes.

You snort. “You’re seriously asking?”

“Yes.” Wanda leans back in her chair. “This whole... tension between the two of you, I want to understand why the two of you can’t get along.”

“I just...” You pause, trying to find the words. “He’s so arrogant. And frustrating. I can’t even be in the same room as him; I can’t.”

“Y/N, Bucky is a nice man,” Wanda said. “All you have to do is give him a chance.”

“Why?” you press. “He’s proven how much he dislikes me. He’s talked shit about me behind my back, he’s made no effort to be civil with me. I will not respect someone who won’t respect me.”

A silence fell between the two of you, Wanda trying to process your words. God, this is going to be difficult.

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chapter 9 - good enough

summary: steve and y/n don’t get along. now, they have to.

pairings: au!steve rogers x fem!reader

warnings: alcohol, insecurity

a/n: short and sweet 1k word count. not edited. enjoy!

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following the speeches and the cake cutting, the first dance began. steve’s hand rested on y/n’s lap. he kept glancing at her and every time she had a faraway look in her eyes, as if she wasn’t there. when the dance floor opened for other couples, she stiffened. “we don’t have to if you don’t want to,” his voice was above a whisper, tickling her ear.

she swallowed the lump in her throat. she couldn’t let her emotions get in the way of her purpose. she was there to be his girlfriend. she knew she had to. “it’s okay,” she responded.

he stood and held his hand out to her. she slipped her fingers between his and followed him to the dance floor, where other couples were assembling. he wrapped his arm around her waist and she placed her hand on his shoulder. they began to slow dance. she looked up at him and he studied her face. he didn’t know what to say. so, he didn’t say anything. she was relieved by his silence. he could feel the switch in her aura, once shining brightly but now dim and melancholic. he didn’t know what was troubling her but all that he wanted to do was fix it.

y/n had never felt so out of place before. she felt like an imposter, wearing fancy clothes, drinking expensive alcohol, and staying in such a nice house. her reality was more like drinking cheap wine in her sweatpants, nestled on the couch in her apartment. not to mention the fact that technically, her and steve weren’t actually dating. she felt like an imposter, all of the guilt from their lie crashing down onto her at once. she thought the whole ordeal would be simple, no strings attached. but now that emotions were involved, it was different. she wanted the real approval of his family for her real self, not the emulation of a perfect girlfriend.

when the song came to an end, he pressed a kiss to her forehead and guided her back to the table. he scooted his chair closer to hers so that he could throw his arm around her shoulders. the small act of wanting to be near her made her feel like bursting into tears. she could feel them welling up in her eyes. she couldn’t help but think that he was too good for her.

dinner was served and she picked at her plate, pushing the food around like a child being served brussel sprouts. steve noticed. “have a bite of mine,” he suggested, holding his fork to her lips, hand cupped underneath. she wanted to say no and push his hand away, but she was scared of someone seeing right through her guise.

so, she opened her mouth and ate the food. “it’s good,” she told him.

“do you like mine better? do you wanna switch plates?” his forehead was creased as his eyes searched her expression for any betrayal of her thinly veiled feelings.

“oh, no i’m alright,” she responded, picking up her own fork. she gave him a tired smile.

“what’s bothering you?” he asked after a moment of silence between them.

she looked into his eyes. he could never hide what he was feeling and she could easily see that he was worried. “i don’t think that this is the right time or place,” she answered.

he nodded to himself, temporarily satiated with the answer. “i do actually like you, you know?” he said, a beat later.

“steve,” she stated, her voice wavering.

“what?” his concern was evident.

“i need some air,” she exhaled and stood up without looking at him, bunched up her skirt, and was off.

“y/n!” he called out behind her, but she didn’t look back. he sighed and stood up, following her.

she pushed past the doors of the venue and gasped when the cool evening air filled her lungs. she thought she was suffocating in there, each breath painful. she sat down on the steps and put her head in her hands.

“y/n,” he had caught up to her. he was standing behind her, hands at his side. “you don’t have to say anything. just let me be here for you,” he pleaded. when she didn’t reply, he sat down beside her, pulled her into his chest, and let her cry.

she couldn’t tell where her emotions started and where they ended. everything was overwhelming her. his presence was comforting. he ran his fingers up and down her arm and held her close.

“i don’t want to ruin your night,” she sniffled, once she had calmed down.

“you’re more important to me than a stupid party,” he told her, stroking her hair. “you haven’t ruined anything.”

‘god,’ she thought, ‘i don’t deserve him.’ she pulled away from him and dabbed her eyes with her fingertips. “do i look like i’ve been crying?” she asked him.

to steve, she looked stunning. the dim lights glowed behind her and she looked angelic. he didn’t care if her hair and makeup were messy. she still managed to make his heartbeat a little faster every time she looked at him. “honestly? yeah,” he said with half of a grin. “you still look beautiful.”

“oh, god,” she groaned with a half-cry and half-laugh. of course this was her luck.

“don’t start again,” he chuckled. “here, let me,” he gently cupped her face and softly ran his thumbs under her eyes, focusing intently. his bottom lip was drawn between his teeth. he could feel her gaze on him and he felt nervous, like he was in high school and attempting to impress his crush. “hm, i think i made things worse.”

“steve!” she whined, pushing his hands away.

“i’m joking! i almost got all of it!” he laughed and she couldn’t help but join in with him. he brought his hands back to her face and she looked upwards so that he could get the last of her running mascara. “oh, y/n. what ever am i going to do with you?” he sighed, a smile playing on his lips.

her eyes flitted back to his. “i don’t know, steve.”

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