#me: half asleep needing to go to bed | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

deityofhearts · 28 days

Text

I honestly just don’t get how people default to thinking southern accents are like unserious and unintelligent, I know I live in a bubble and I’ve never been outside of the south so like my world view is skewed but like idk I can’t like conceptualize hearing someone’s accent and going “your accent is too stupid and silly for you to have a brain” like ???

#deity dialogue #sorry I’m rlly half asleep #obvs my worldview is different cause I’m southern I’m surrounded by southern ppl I hear the accent all the time #so it’s like normal obvs but idk it still baffles me #idk if I ever go north are y’all gonna be mean to me cause I talk in a way that y’all perceive as stupid and lesser than how you do??#I’ve already mentioned that even here we aren’t safe from the ‘haha youre a dumbass southern hick’ statements #which is rich cause like bitch who are you to be talking you live here too I don’t wanna hear you call me a red neck cause you’ve been here #for a long ass time to and I’m sure if you went up north they’d be on your ass the same way they’d be on mine #like what gives you the right?#like I will say also that I do make fun of the accent but in the way that lexi and I will be heatedly talking and get more southern with #each word and that amuses and delights us like idk it’s fun to look at someone who just said one word in a more extreme southern accent on #accident and repeat it back to them #but like at the end of the day we like being southern we don’t think there’s anything wrong with it or like inherently worth mocking #plus there’s a difference between two friends being silly and strangers telling you you’re a stupid redneck hick :)#this is also coming from someone who compared to other southern ppl doesn’t have the most strong southern accent (it’s there onvs but ya #know) and I still have to deal with this shit :/#sorry I need to go to bed and shut up no one caressss

11 notes · View notes

psi-hate · 6 months

Text

pulling all nighters every day to fix my sleep schedule is so actually awful they should just let me reverse my body clock at will cus at this point I'm always 12 hours inverted for at least half of every year. why does god hate me

#pk.text #its been a problem for years #at least half of the time my sleep schedule is ao fucked to the point i go to bed at noon and wake up in the early evening #if i try and sleep when im tired at night #my body for some reason only sleeps a few hours #if i go to bed at midnight i will wake up at 4am and not be able to go back to sleep 90% of the time #this makes me tired earlier in the day and I risk falling asleep in the afternoon #and then wake up at 9pm and just get further offset #until im going to bed at 10am #only then do i sleep more than 5 hours #melatonin doesnt help much #on the occasion it makes me sleepy i just sleep too long and am a zombie the following day cus it makes me so sluggish and hazy #other times i get no effect #grahhhh i need to talk to my doctor about this again now that i have my insurance back

13 notes · View notes

running-in-the-dark · 4 months

Text

I still don't get this stuff, so, I've got a question: do most allosexuals find random people attractive? and does that mean they look at them and think 'I want to have sex with that person'? not just 'that person is very beautiful' or whatever? like if there's a group of people that are their type or whatever, they might think all of them are. idk, interesting in that way?

and how about thinking about people romantically? I don't get how you would know the difference, and, ugh I'm just so confused and stupid and I'm gonna shut up now

#I'm really confused #I'm definitely not fully ace or aro. like *definitely* not #but I mean. like. people who are into men would just think random guys are hot? right?#I'm pretty sure there's just. something wrong with me or whatever. so it doesn't matter #and I just need to stop thinking about it!#and not talk about it because I sound so stupid. but I don't want to look any of it up anymore because that just makes me feel more Wrong #every time #I don't know. it doesn't matter. there's something wrong with me and it's much more than just that so its #irrelevant #:')#I need to start putting my phone far away from my bed tbh. I always think about stupid shit when I'm half asleep and stupid thoughts #automatically end up on here.#I don't know there's really no point to this I'm just frustrated and sad and overwhelmed #I wish I could just. get over this crap. just stop.#like normally it's fine! it's all just people! they're all the same. maybe they're really pretty or handsome and nice to look at. but that's #it that's all there is. and then someone shows up and I get obsessed and then it's just that person. it's never just. oh that guy is hot or #whatever #it's always just. I go insane.#it's probably. idk completely unrelated to anything. it's probably just my obsessive tendencies #but I don't get it! I really never think about this stuff (at all) except when this happens and then. well. there's not much else really.#ugh whatever I'm just fucking stupid and I'm gonna shut up and delete this tomorrow (for real this time I hope)#okay this is far enough down that no one will read it so: do people just. think about having sex or. whatever. with just. people? like oh #he's hot I want to fuck him? is that why people make out with strangers and stuff? I'm in my 30s why do I still not understand this 😭😭😭#like I'm. not attracted to men or women or whatever it's just. one specific person. and when that's over it's like a switch has been flipped #and there's nothing again #and it's not like. oh I start talking to someone and I learn stuff about them and then I'm attracted to them. that wouldn't even work since #it's been all fictional characters for ages now. like there's no. connection or whatever because. well duh.#ugh I'm too old for this shit #personal

4 notes · View notes

stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 4 months

Text

i love christmas in theory but its scary to me how little i remenber to do things

#im blaming it partially on work bc im so fucking tired when i get home but holy shit #ive had to write myslef multiple to do lists all over my apartment and i STILL dont remember to do things until last minute #what is happening to meeeee #i havent been sleeping well either like. consistently. for the last week and a half at LEAST #and im afraid to take melatonin bc it makes me sleep through my alarm sometimes and i cant risk thattttt #on my nightmare arc . in my memory loss era. its concerning but also. shrug emoji !#ill be in the car like . i have to do x and x and x after work and then i get home and i KNOW i had those thoughts #but i cannot for the LIFE of me remember what they were. and then its 10pm and i need to go to bed because i wake up at 5am #and i dont actually fall asleep until 1am because of the mental illness so ive been running on 4 hrs of sleep for the last two weeks #im in pain theres so kuch stuff that needs done and i cant remember any of it

2 notes · View notes

nomaishuttle · 8 months

Text

a couple of the nurses are friendly and will say gm and even remember my name major shoutout to them . but most kf the nurses literally will not look at housekeepers in the hallway and will get annoyed when we are just doinh our jobs like. Do you want us to just let the residents rooms get dirty. can you fuck off

#i had 1 nurse get bitchy at me for not changing a guys bed Bc he was asleep in it and iur rules are we try to wake them up as best we can #we arent allow3d to touch residents obviously so modt of what we can do is stand in the doorway and go HELLO. HELLO. SIR? HOUSEKEEPING.#and if they dont wake up we close the bedroom door and clean everything we can. yk #and it used 2 be if they wouldnt wake up we could call a nurse to come help wake them up 1. half the time they wouldnt come 2. the other #half the time they were so fuckjnh rude. and then they were like You cant ask us to help anymore. and then get pissy when the bed isnt #changed. like wow yeah itd be awesome if somebody whos job is to help make sure the residents are where they need to be could help resident #s get out of the room while were cleaning. i wish there was someone whos literal entire job is that.

3 notes · View notes

ghostsinthecellar · 6 months

Text

anyway my whole '28 hour days' thing really is. not ideal

#charlie babbles #it's one of those nights where mom is catching up on sleep #so I've been up since 4ish PM and will be going to bed around 9 AM #on purpose - I need to be awake at 7 AM in a couple of days to borrow friend's car #and she's been asleep since 8 PM #with me waking her up a lot because it was 'just till 11' and then 'one more half hour' multiple times and 'one more hour' multiple times #and as much as I love all night to myself not having to do anything and getting to sit on my ass online #I'm bored and lonely and tired #I did Tasks on a timer for her original nap hours but haven't been able to make myself do any more since then #at least I brought some clothes upstairs and did a few dishes but the list of things I need to do is only getting longer

2 notes · View notes

faggotician · 8 months

Text

Feeling a little troubled ...... last night (a few hrs ago ig) my nana (whom i moved in wit bc the tenant she was renting the upstairs 2 died n i needed 2 get out of a shitty roommate situation so the stars aligned etc) mentioned in passing that she was in my apt while i was gone, she mentioned she was looking 4 something bt then changed it 2 checking 2 see if i caught the bus.....i told her basicly i loved her n ment no offense bt my privacy is rly important 2 me n so could she pls not go into my pad when im not there bc it gives me anxiety (which she has also so i was tryna rel8 a lil bit) n she just kinda shut down n started feeling bad abt herself n getting upset tht i thought she wld go thru my stuff . Idk i jus had 2 put this down sumwhere n i havent gotten a new journle yet sigh

#i mean she is. Very ancient bless her in evry way shes 81 so im sure shes just . kinda losin it 4 a lack of a better way 2 put it n . Aughgg #Life is very intimid8ng n i wanna take care of her bt shes so afraid of Everything ever n its stressing her out so much she cant sleep #So then shes coming up 2 my apt (btw i dont have a key 4 my inside door so i keep it unlocked) Late as Haell like 3 4 AM #Asking me 2 sit downstairs w her till she falls asleep . N i keep giving her advice on sleeping better like .#If u sit on the couch watching tv most of the day..when u go 2 bed n do the same thing u wont get tired frm it #Or rrlaxing yr body n focusing on yr breathing Dont put the tv on if yr brain is paying attn 2 wats goin on there #Then u cant focus on sleeping .#And i ask if she understands n if shes listening bt then Every Night doesnt change how her routine is n i just Dont .. I Want 2 Help So Bad #But what can i do when ur not even listening 2 the vry basic lifestyle cuanges u Need 2 make or yr gna worry yrself sick :((((#I dnt think impatronizing i try 2 be gentle n understanding but also like . Semi profesh like Boundaries need 2 b had if im here longterm #Bt she doesnt rlly get that bc shes Very insecure sbt herself i think she just ... Internalizes it into like #Thinking shes burdoning me or makes me feel rlly gulty 4 needing alone time i just . Idk how 2 have this talk w her cuz i feel like #I alrdy have a million times . God i do love her so so much n im scared 4 this future i just want her 2 b happy bbut #im still tryna figure out how 2 even Talk 2 Anybody let alone a very sensitive farm raised senior #Damn this is a vent post and a half #999

5 notes · View notes

arthur-r · 8 months

Text

when the “40 minute” online program takes me an hour and a half to complete …. genuinely feels like they are just lying

#i have a fancy certificate saying that [my full name] has completed [course title] which takes 40 minutes on canvas #i started at 11pm and have been going strong. really frustrated with the suggested times on each section of these things #like. a seven minute one took me twenty minutes and that’s because i actually read and looked at each piece of information #like we’re expected to skim. i didn’t spend a strange amount of time on any of it #anyways i’m surprised with how well thought out and executed the diversity training course was it was actually really good #it talked a lot about intersectionality and individuality and it gave a lot of examples from tons of different axes #to the point where anyone would be confronted with multiple privileges they have and maybe haven’t acknowledged before #and there was a lot of information about resources on campus and all the diversity and inclusion outreach they have #so i’m feeling good about college rn. however i was supposed to be asleep half an hour ago. here i go now shdhdf #i hope everyone is having a good night. let me know if you need anything but i’m heading to bed in a sec #me. my post. mine.#delete later

3 notes · View notes

haysprite · 1 year

Note

OH MY GOD I'M SO SORRY ABOUT THE ASK ABOUT THE TYPES OF FANFICS, I WAS MENT TO SEND THAT TO ONE OF MY FRIEND 😭

HAHLKFDSJFDSJLK LMFAO YOU'RE ALL GOOD ANON 🙏🙏🙏 I don't have to post the ask if you don't want me to, I'll just address it here teehee

NAH BUT YOU RIGHT THO, I READ IT THIS MORNING (couldn't respond cause i had class) AND WAS CRYING CAUSE EVERYTHING WAS ABSOLUTELY CORRECT AND IT MAKES ME SAD

Like hahlkfdklfdjs WE NEED MORE FRANK/JULIE FICS!!! PLS!!! Also people need to 👏 STOP 👏 CROSSTAGGING 👏

If I look up "Frank/Julie" shit, I DONT WANT THIS GH*STFRANK BULLSHIT GET IT OUTTA HERE >:( Like on god I just hate crosstaggers, I don't get why you have to do that shit ??? Like do you really think someone that's looking a certain thing up wants whatever you made? Good lord, grinds my gears

I won't go into this much, but I heavily dislike x Reader fics as well :/ Ik a lot of em are very self indulgent n shit, but most of the time they're either written v weirdly or I just cannot connect to Y/N at all that it takes me out of it entirely 💀💀💀 Also I just can't get behind Killer x Reader fics, but that's just cause I hate Killer x Survivor as well, so they tend to mush into one for me

I honestly just don't bother looking for fics or fanart anymore and just pray I stumble upon something, cause I just find the opposite of what I want (aka Frank/Susie, another discomfort ship of mine, and Gh*stfrank) :( Its such a delight when I actually manage to find Frank/Julie art, makes my day every damn time <3 And Joey/Susie, but I find that a lot more often in terms of fanart

God and finding SFW shit is hard as well :( Like I don't mind N$FW existing, I know it's out there and I can handle very ***MILD*** shit (PG13 basically), but I'm ace as fuck and don't wanna read/see it pls and thanks 😋

I've said this a lot, but istg one of these days I'll start writing a fic !!! Even if its just a oneshot or two, I need to help out my fellow Frank/Julie sillies! I gotta spread the propaganda !!! I get stupid insecure about my character writing, its not the best part about my writing, but considering the fact that we have basically nothing to go off of character wise besides a lil bit in Julie's tome, I think I'm good 😭 Don't think I can mischaracterize them much considering there's very little there LMAO

4 notes · View notes

milo-is-rambling · 11 months

Text

Chronic pain really got me going to bed before it’s even dark out (also my little pink unicorn lights Millie got me look so cool in the second pic)

#my back and shoulder are killing me and I’ve done nothing but smoke weed and stretch and I just hurt so bad #so I’m gonna go to bed and hopefully feel better tomorrow #I work at nine again tomorrow so if anything hopefully going to bed early helps that #I’m excited to sleep hopefully a lot and hopefully really well bc 1) weed. 2) took sleepy cough meds to try and mooch extra pain reliever #out of meds in my cabinet. 3) took a back and muscle pain Aleve (even tho I hate taking pills and it took me like three whole min to get it #down my fucking throat. 4) tired from actually using my brain and anxiety from work tired #5) period tired and chronic pain tired #like guys my brain and my body are both exhausted and the idea of getting up tomorrow and doing any of it again makes me miserable and I did #nothing but sit at a computer for three and a half hours that’s itttttt #like doing two week road-trip then non stop either emotional or physical shit every day until my first day at work #like I’m already setting myself up for this to be the summer of the grind #gonna make a bunch of money (and spend too much and blame it on the summer time and needing a little treat every time I venture out into the #heat or work a day or do anything at all) and then save a bunch all fall winter spring and once it gets colder and I feel like I can handle #my job more I want to focus on how to make moving out happen. like I need to figure out if maybe there’s somewhere I want to live that has #an Office Depot I could transfer to cause office depots are everywhere and maybe that’s an added way for me to figure out where I want to #move #hmmm okay I’m gonna lay in bed on google maps looking at Office Depot locations in New England and I’m just gonna daydream and try to fall #asleep and I’ll look at / add to my Pinterest board of house and apartment inspo #going to think about the future because I want to live !!!!#anyways yeah this is the summer of being miserable and spending all my money on bullshit and daydreaming and disappointing my mother #and also the summer of my weed tolerance doubling forever until I’m back to smoking constantly to the point where I’m making myself sick and #then I’ll get sick of smoking weed for a bit and that’ll lead me into saving money again #or force me into a tolerance break where I stop buying weed #either way I’m going to smoke all summer it’s gonna be weed and sweat and fresh fruit and laying in my room during all of my days off and it #it’s gonna suck and I’m gonna be thinking about my dad the whole time and it’ll be depressing and isolating and lonely and I’ll come out of #the summer recentered and motivated towards big goals again like I always am #and then I’ll crash and burn next spring as always. cycles continue forever thank u seasonal depression.#I want to grow up and mature in the ways I deal with myself my health and advocating for my mental health I feel like I need to grow up a #bit so I hope I do that and it feels good. I hope I make friends and I can daydream about the future every night and my room will smell like #weed and incense and sweat and love and tears and it will be incredible

3 notes · View notes

belfryprepz · 1 year

Text

Nighty night 🥰

#half day finals going back to bed #stayed up too late on the phone with liana and now I'm sooo sleepy but i wish i was falling asleep beside her #i need that textpost desperately #the one that's like. yeah you know what beach boys? it would be fucking nice #cuz that's been playing in a constant loop in my head #fr if you've got it send it to me #anyway sweet dreams y'all #bri ffr

2 notes · View notes

dbphantom · 1 year

Text

As shitpost-y as my own YouTube videos are, the good ones are like cocomelon to me bc I just sat here for a solid 15 minutes watching a 30s clip over and over again because it's just the right level of stimulation for me to zone tf out

Unfortunately I had ice cream. Had... :(

edit: here you can zone tf out while watching it too we can hold hands in the astral plane [but also be careful flashing lights]