I brushed my hair for the first time in ************. It took me two and a half hours. I’m proud of myself because I didn’t cry from frustration and I didn’t give up. I put on some music, sat in the shower, and worked at it in sections. Tomorrow I’m going to get help to wash it. I’m also happy because I did cry from pain, didn’t get a headache, and didn’t pull a muscle like I previously thought I did. My scalp, arms, and back are sore, but I am so proud of myself. I did it.
Self care isn’t always cute things like getting a bubble tea or doing a face mask. It’s doing things that you need to to take care of yourself. Sometimes those things are easy and do help, but sometimes it’s the tough shit that you have to drag yourself through.
It could be crying in the bathroom at work and getting on with your day. It could be having a shower for the first time in days. Or using wipes to keep relatively clean. It could be crying on the bathroom floor while you brush your hair. Or going a really far distance to go see a doctor. It could be doing something that is extremely difficult for you that might be easier for other people. Self care is doing the things you have to do to care for your self. No matter what those things may be.
Self care is as simple as taking a sip of water and readjusting your posture right now and as complex as taking yourself to the hospital or to a crisis centre because you’re in danger. Just promise me that you’ll keep at it.