#messed up life

[changing-mylife-now]

I'm so fucking afraid of the future. I'm afraid that I will never be happy. That I will never find my place in this world. I'm scared that I will never find my way out of this. I'm almost twenty-six and probably should've achieved something by now, but there is nothing. And I don't have hope that anything will change in the future. Everyday I'm getting out of bed and I don't even know why. Yeah, I go to work, but at the end of the day I'm asking myself: "Why am I doing it anyway?". It doesn't feel worth it. It drains me. I feel tired. Not the kind of tired a night of sleep can solve. I meet up with friends and I feel happy for a moment, but after that? Nothing. I'm back to the feeling of numbness. I'm just unhappy. For years I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself. I wanted it all to end. And than I got over it. It took me so long to understand that even after all the things that happened, I can still be happy and have a good life. I had the feeling I could make it. Now I'm not so sure about it anymore. Years passed and I tried, but nothing really changed. I still lay awake most nights and ask myself why I'm doing all this. For who I am doing this - not for me, that's for sure. I don't want to kill myself anymore, but I don't really want to live either. It's so fucked up and frustrating. There are so many questions in my head I don't have answers for. My whole life just feels like a big problem, I can't seem to solve.

22.03.2023 ~ 02:43am

#messed up life #sad #unhappy #trying to find myself

[scott-m-spangenberg-its-showtime]

#life #decision #you cant make this up #funny #lol #joke #humor #messed up life #crazy #random bullshit

[mossycobblestonewrites]

DC X DP PROMPT #10

Danny has a bit of an issue, he's stopped aging completely. It was fine in high school where anyone would believe in malnourishment as an excuse. But now? When he is supposed to be a 37-year-old man? This got old the second he turned 21. It's not like anyone would believe him.

So what does Danny do? He marches himself to Gotham, where he assumes people wouldn't question a supposed 15-17-year-old trying to work. Does it hinder his career goals and life aspirations? ABSOLUTELY! Not much he can do about it though!

Danny tries to lay low, but Fenton Luck strikes! Now he gets to convince the local heroes that he is a TOTALLY NORMAL kid, not at all a low-key immortal.

#danny phantom #dc x dp #dpxdc #gotham #danny phantom in gotham #quasi immortals #danny doesnt age #it kinda messes up his life plans :)

[isjasz]

[Day 113]

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manifesting mumbo in the life series 2 days left manifesting this photo is real i took it its them teasing the life series manifesting

#dddaily4sherin #mumbo jumbo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #the buttercups #my art #hermitblr #hermitcraft #ig this is where this is set in JAKSJAJR #/platonic btw but anyone can interpret it how they want i just wanted to do the hearts for life series LMAOOOAO #MANIFESTINGGGGG #I MESSED UP THE EMOJI FOR WEB FUCK NOOOOOOOO FIXED NOW HEAD IN HANDS

[sofiaruelle]

Ugh younger siblings am i right??? 🙄 🙄 🙄

#doodle #stardew valley #stardew sebastian #stardew valley maru #hope yall caught the Barbie: Life in the Dreamhouse reference #she’s just trying to help #he should pay attention to his surroundings more #can 20+ year olds still be grounded? lmao #is this sebastian’s 13th reason why he wants to leave for zuzu city? #look we all know maru wouldnt accidentally set Seb’s bike on fire #but like as an older sis who has a younger bro who accidentally messes up when they get a little too eager to help..

[vitamimesea]

Bully era

#fnaf #michael afton #michael afton fanart #fnaf 4 #fnaf au #fnaf fanart #fnaf 4 bullies #A messed up perspective practice #PLEASE do not zoom in i gave up on it halfway #hahahahahhahahah #tbh he’s more like a quiet delinquent imo #sprays god is gay on walls and stuff but stays away from social life #vitamimesea art

[applestruda]

Still in love with his new origin

#dont come at me if i messed up the skeleton #horses are hard enough already without having to worry about all the bones #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #new life smp #nlsmp #my art

[time-woods]

this situationship getting a bit craaay-zaaay

this is literally just glorified shotgunning of smoke and i feel deranged this man wouldnt mind being destroyed by this bug and i find that interesting

#chasing stars au #Sīdus the Fallen star #prismo the wishmaster #the carmine cavalier #scarab the god auditor #prohibitedwish #fionna and cake #adventure time #adventure time au #my situationship shotgunning my literal essence #hes got a messed up relationship with destruction considering he entered life expecting it soooo #he sooo wants to be destroyed by him #down to his very core #just to feel an experience he hasnt before

[drizzledrawings]

They are his dads ok

#the curious couple and their unruly son #my headcanon is that Arthur acted out as a way to test Hosea and Dutch’s boundaries #trying to see how bad he had to mess up or act up before they hurt him/got fed up with him #and once he realized that they wouldn’t #that they just wanted to help him #he would do anything and everything to help them #the first adults in his life to care for him #LOL #ALSO the idea of Hosea being kinda cold to Arthur in the beginning and warming up to him is something SO DEAR TO ME #drizzledrawings #rdr2 #arthur morgan #Hosea matthews #dutch van der linde #the old guard #red dead redemption two #rdr2 fanart

[wasyago]

we're at it again🕺

#jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #my art #sketch #back on my bullshit woo yeah woo yeah woo yeah #genuinely a lot happier with this design than the previous ones. the lighter metal looks better on him #and this one doesn't have a lot of detail (or any detail tbh) so it looks more solid and fun i think #and you can see im trying to figure out how gill would carry his sword around #technically he should just carry it in his hands and don't have a scabbard because its a longsword and isn't supposed to be sheathed... #but like... its not practical to always carry it in his hands. especially in a day to day life. because he always has the sword on him- #but he doesn't necessarily always hold it? like. he needs hands for stuff #i think i like the back scabbard better (even if i drew the whole turnaround for the hip one) just because it doesn't mess with his tail #plus that way destiny's blade is higher up and gets to look around at stuff and i think its funny #but then like... the cape is a little awkward if it has to go above the sword... #but its not a big deal. if he has a cape and armor on he probably holds the sword in his hands anyway #am i putting too much thought into this unnecessary detail? yes #am i rambling in the tags again instead of making a separate post? also yes

[getoutofmyroomimplayingminecrap]

friday scares me

#namemc spoilers #gtwscar #gtws fanart #goodtimeswithscar #secret life #trafficblr #sorry for the repost i messed something up #my art #gtws

[aalghul]

once again thinking about jason as duke’s robin. he’s ~4 years younger than jason, and that’s puts him at 8-12 during Jason’s time as robin. that’s prime time to get attached to your local kid vigilante before your own life goes downhill.

and if we try to keep duke’s meeting with bruce in zero year + duke’s age (so he can remember the meeting and hold that conversation with bruce), he has to be around 8. if he starts following batman through the news at that time because of the mess that just happened, the robin he sees is probably jason. I’ve literally connected the dots

#we are not of course keeping zero year itself. what a mess. #maybe smth very similar so it’s still the riddler causing mass chaos! #the titans so we actually keep the no robin physically present in the story part the same #look. if we want zero year convo we need to give bruce a robin at the time. it could be 17-18yr old who’s not even in gotham bc he’s with #by time tim shows up he’s already attached to jason #and then steph’s robin suddenly for a bit but only for a bit. and then tim comes back but he’s in bludhaven for a while #i do think duke would think steph is really cool tho. and they reasonably couldve met as civilians #and then duke’s busy bouncing around foster homes the streets and looking for his parents #i wanted to talk about how much i love it and the tags are just be working out a timeline for post crisis events & post flashpoint ones (an #some of duke’s important events are related to things which are no longer canon. such is life. let’s do our best based on ages) #duke thomas #jason todd

[the-witchhunter]

DP x DC: Why summoning the Ghost King and Danny when he expects Pariah Dark might literally give John a panic attack

So, this would not be the first time John has summoned something and didn’t get what he expected. To explain that, I’ll have to explain the Newcastle incident, and I will but going to give a brief overview of what the consequences are before dipping into that… because it’s a bit intense

So during a summoning one of the things you need to do is name the being you’re summoning. The ritual and sigils are what brings the being forth. Naming the summoned entity is part of the binding. The binding is what gives you an amount of control over the being summoned and offers protection to the summoner

So having the wrong name means they have no control over what they summoned. Naming the spirit puts it on a leash and muzzles it, having the wrong name is just letting it in without the leash or muzzle

Let’s just say at this point, Constantine’s past experience with summoning would make him super against summoning “the Ghost King” and one of the other magic users like Zatana would have to do it

John would be freaking out the moment the wrong guy showed up, he has some trauma around that. Even if it’s just Danny, this is going to dredge up some stuff and he’s going to have a hard drink afterwards

I will now be going into one of the most traumatizing moments of John Constantine’s life. As such, it’s going to get pretty intense and I’m toning it down a bit

Explanation of the Newcastle Incident Content warning sexual assault and abuse

In 1978 Constantine and his “magic gang” go to the Casanova Club to deal with a bit of a situation there. They arrive and there’s a lot of dead bodies in the basement and a very traumatized girl

Astra Logue’s father was basically a cult leader and an orgy enthusiast. He and his followers did some not so great things to Astra. Astra was psychic, so in her distress she summoned a hellhound named Norfolthing (actually a primordial elemental but that takes explaining) to protect her from the sexual abuse of her father and his followers. Norfulthing proceeded to commit sexual assault against the cult before killing them

John and the Magic Gang showed up to deal with the aftermath. In order to get Astra out of there and get rid of Norfulthing, they decided the best way to deal with this was to “fight fire with fire”

They then proceed to summon the demon/former god Nergal but the ritual didn’t have his name. Right ritual, wrong name. Nergal then proceeded to drag Astra’s soul to hell, Norfulthing raped one of the magic gang

John then spent the next two years at Ravenscar Mental Asylum and only managed to rescue Astra’s soul from hell about a decade later. She was still dead obviously but at least she wasn’t suffering in hell

So yeah

John has some baggage when it comes to summoning things with the wrong name

#dp x dc #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #John has had a rough life #he’s been through some things #it’s also a big reason John doesn’t use that much magic early on #because if you go in half cocked and mess up you are going to mess up big

[cloudyshade]

someone get this guy a therapist

#anyway i had fun messing around w/ dramatic lighting in this one :3 #i have midterms and tests n stuff coming up so i might disappear for 1-80 business days #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #fan art #my art #kusuo saiki #saiki k #saiki no psi nan #tdlosk #disastrous life of saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki fanart #kusuo fanart #saiki kusuo

[isjasz]

[Day 148 - Day 4: Poppies and Lilacs]

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@desert-duo-week

Timestamp for reference these flowers plague me till this day (I swear someday I gotta rewatch to follow the journey of these flowers in DL and figure out exactly what the fuck happened to them)

#dddaily4sherin #desert duo #grian #goodtimeswithscar #my art #3rd life #3rd life smp #double life #double life smp #trafficblr #traffic smp #desert duo week 2023 #THE LAYOUT GOT MESSED UP SO BADLY WTF HOPE ITS FIXED HELP FNSKWJKWKW #sorry for editing this a million times the images keep messing up on my phone ill lose it #WHY DOES IT REMOVE THE READMOREEEEEEE #comic

[scootkiddo]

it shouldn’t be glossed over just how empathetic Joel is. he expressed empathy towards Ellie given her dire case of being a child within the confines of a cruel, unforgiving-apocalyptic world that supplants what should have been a habitual childhood for her. he offered an apology for scolding Henry and calling him a rat without initially reconciling the benign intentions behind his actions. he pleaded for the elderly sniper on the outskirts of kansas city to put down the rifle so he didn’t have to kill him. it all accentuates just how against his nature he must be to survive in this world. he can’t always spare people, he can’t always shed sympathy. but he wishes he could, and even on occasion tries. it’s the very context he once stooped to the level of the hunters in his past that makes this point pang all the more. he isn’t apathetic. he isn’t exclusively selfish. he isn’t rigid. he is open-ended. Joel is more than a hammer that sees all problems as a nail to be forcefully struck without finesse. He values compassion and preserving life, and any ultimatum that cements the opposite only elicits a last resort of violence and numbness. the silver lining is more desirable than conforming to cruelty

#thinking about this makes me realize how much the firefly hospital is going to mess me up #joel isn’t sadistic there’s no sick pleasure in killing or demeaning people #he cares so so very much #he wants life to thrive and he is willing to accept when he’s wrong #god this iteration of joel makes me wanna chug down wet cement #drives me stir crazy he really does #the last of us hbo #the last of us #the last of us hbo spoilers #tlou spoilers #joel miler #pedro pascal #ellie williams #bella ramsey