ngl going through all these ‘AO3 is down’ posts got me kinda feeling left out
like, it happened to be one of the nights I went to bed early instead of staying up till ungodly hours being my mentally-ill self and reading fics, so I just missed the whole thing entirely
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This is not the life I imagined I’d be living. It hurts knowing I’ll never get this time back. Life is fucking cruel.
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What does the hangout hotel have to offer?
Another leading character that shelved immediately, one just as important as Charlie, the hotel itself.
Is it a 5 star?
Do all rooms have their own hot tube?
How well staffed is it?
Can we have a look around the premises?
Does it have a restaurant?
What is this buildings history?
What attractions are nearby?
Do sinners stay for free?
Do demons from all different rings choose to say here?
Who hires the function rooms?
Since when was running a hotel, even a quiet one, a role anyone involved in can do peacefully?
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NEW MAYA HAWKE ALBUM MAY 31ST THIS IS NOT A DRILL
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not experience-is (vent tw) sorry but
I need to come out. I can’t keep living like this. I’m 16, I shouldn’t have to live like this.
It hurts. This feeling.
My family… is weird, when it comes to queer stuff. Well, my brother is alright, but my parents kind of suck? Like they love me and all, just hate what I am. It hurts. It sucks.
I want to go to school as a guy. I want people to look at me and call me “he”
but if I come out people will only laugh. It never goes well for queer kids at my school. Never physical bullying, just picking on people until they leave the school.
I don’t really care about the people at school though tbh. I’m just scared.
But I’m missing out. As I’m getting older we’re expected to be maturing. I’m meant to like make up and dresses and shave my legs, and it’s becoming clearer and clearer to everyone around me why I’m not doing any of those things. It’s not a cute kid phase to them anymore, it’s some gay agenda. I just feel like I’m missing out. On the shaving my face and wearing suits and growing taller and being a boy who’s becoming a man. I’m missing out and have to settle for a girl who can’t yet become a boy.
I hate it.
There are a couple of teachers at my school who I could tell, I think. But I don’t know if I want to.
I’m so scared. Coming out is scary, but staying closeted seems worse. I just. Don’t know.
I’m sorry for venting.
No need to be sorry, vents are always welcome <3
I am mostly closeted myself, and I understand how much it can hurt and how awful it can feel. It's not just about the way you view yourself but how others see you, and knowing that they likely don't recognize you as who you really are is really horrible.
Coming out is terrifying, and please *DO NOT COME OUT IF IT IS UNSAFE TO DO SO*, however if you are in a situation where coming out is possible, I do recommend that you come out to at least one person. In the future, they may be able to help you come out to more. Additionally, coming out doesn't have to be big or in person. Out of the people I have come out to, almost all have been through sending them messages online, because it's less scary that way for me.
Lastly, remember that when you are older, you can live the boyhood you missed out on. Even if it's late, it will come and it will be brilliant. You will be able to shave your face/wear suits /grow taller/become a man soon enough, and I can't wait for you to get there :)
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Missing out, new Joe movie role, and f4 cast announcement in the same day 😭 this is literally the best valentine's day ever!
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I have been left behind
A ship that has sailed
I catch myself swimming towards it in a dream
I float to my back and stare into the sky
The heavens rotate, the world keeps going when I stop
No matter how hard I stroke
I realize I'm anchored to the shore
A prisoner looking out a barred window
Wondering what life is like on the other side
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