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[themrsackerman]

Angel of Paradis

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warnings: Spoilers from Season 4. Mentions of gun violence, blood, death

A/N: Now I know EP8 is only the beginning of the end but goddamn it hurts!! I love potato girl and losing her just tore me to bits. So here, take this. Its my way of coping I guess..

Levi is pissed off. From the start, he disliked the plan but it wasn't like Eren gave you all much of a choice. So the moment the kid got on the airship, he was welcomed with one of the captain's infamous kicks. The cockpit wall quakes with the impact and Hange sighs, shooting you a look. "I think you need to get out there and make sure Levi doesn't kill Eren, Y/n." She says exasperatedly and you nod, rising from your seat next to Onyankopon.

"I'll be right back." You say and she flashes you a knowing grin, shaking her head slightly. Even the commander knows you're the only one who could reign in the Levi Ackerman.

You see Levi on the corner glaring at Eren as he was being tied up. You sigh heavily, seeing Eren steaming as he heals. Jaw probably unhinged from the captain's kick. You sat beside him on the bench and pulled out a handkerchief, wiping his face clean from dirt and blood.

"Y/n-san." He greets you monotonously and you gave him a kind smile. "Hey, kid." You greet back, tucking loose strands of his now long hair behind his ear.

Your heart aches at the sight. He used to have so much fire, had the same will to fight for humanity that you only ever saw in your mentor, Erwin. Now all you see is ember of pure hatred and cold blooded need for revenge. "I'm glad you're okay." You murmur. Eren's blank stare softens for a second and a small smile hints the corner of his mouth. "Glad to see you too, Lieutenant." He says quietly and out of the corner of your eyes, you see Levi roll his eyes and make a disgruntled sound as he turns around.

You walk up to him and placed a hand on his shoulder. Levi meets your gaze with his dull gray ones for a second and sighs, his expression softening too. At this you smile a little and say, "We still have a long battle to fight ahead of us, Captain. Things might not have gone smoothly, but we won today." You remind him and as if proving your point, right on the other side of the ship you hear the soldiers celebrate as they reunite.

"You're right." He agrees. Levi then takes a deep breath and grabs the hand you placed on his shoulder so he can bring it to his face. He turns his head and placed a chaste kiss on your palm. Your heart flutters at the gesture. It isn't grand but was still something you couldn't quite get used to. You two never declared your love for one another, never really had the luxury of time or chance to do so, but small acts like this was enough to let you know that your presence provided him the calm he sorely needs. And that was all you want. Be his peace in this war.

"I'm going to check if the rest of the squad made it back up." You tell him, grazing your thumb on his lower lip and he reluctantly lets you go. "Be back as soon as you can. Meeting will start as soon as this fucking monkey heals enough." He says, cold glare flashing at the other Jaeger who is a pile of steam still laying on the ground. "Okay, I'll just check on Lima's squad. They're the last ones to be picked up supposedly." Levi nods again and watches you leave before turning to talk to Yelena.

You smile past Floch and the other soldiers who are weeping, hugging and making their tributes for those whom had fallen in battle. You then saw three of the soldiers you've grown close with through the years. They were huddled in the corner, sharing a hug.

You hear Jean say in protest, "Dont hug people with that lump ass iron gear on.", while shrugging off Connie's arm. You chuckle at this and tackled him back to the embrace. "Shut the hell up, Jean. I would take Connie's armored hugs any day!" To which the trio whines out, " Lieutenant Y/l/n!!" when you squished them tight.

Although the new gear designed by Hange was in deed not made for hugging, you four relaxed in the uncomfortable embrace. Grounded by the fact that you all made it safe despite the battle you had just gone through. Connie and Sasha smile up at you while Jean tries to still look annoyed, although the softness in his eyes says otherwise.

The soldiers left below start coming in and the cheering just grows even louder. You didn't have the heart to stop them because you yourself are quite happy that today was a success despite some casualties. Now, you have the War Hammer titan as well and were able to destroy the fleet. Now, the Eldians' chance stands higher against this damn war.

"Did you hear that just now?"

Sasha asks out of the blue and you turn to her in wonder. Honestly you couldn't hear anything but the soldiers celebrating. But out of the lot of you, you know Sasha's sense of hearing is far superior than all of you combined. So you take a step back from the crowd and actually looked around.

"Hey, quiet down!!"Jean yells over the chanting but Floch shouts, "Make some noise! Victory!!!" And was echoed by the rest as they embraced and pumped their fists in the air.

"Hey!" Jean tries again only to be pulled by Connie to the side to ask, "Isn't Lobov-san still out there?"

"No, I think he came aboard." Jean says thoughtfully and this was when something didn't sit quite right with you. Commander Lobov is a man that is hard to miss. And with his dedication to this mission to make up for his years being a useless garrison, he would be amongst the soldiers cheering the loudest for the said victory.

Your instincts has never failed you before and its the very reason why you are so good at your job and able to survive this long. But sometimes, you wish that your instincts aren't always right because you always perceive danger. And right now, every fiber of your being is telling you something is fucking wrong.

That if you were to look out the airship right now, you'll probably see the commander lifeless.

Or worse, an enemy may have made its way up to the ship.

Your blood runs cold for a split second before you acted purely out of instinct. You shove Sasha to the side, dreading as you head for the airship's side door and at the exact moment.. someone aboards.

Your gaze met the kid's muddy brown ones. It was determined, filled with fury and you saw that there isn't any trace of hesitation as her finger pulls the trigger. You knew you didn't stand a chance judging by look on her face and her sure aim on your torso. The word of warning you want to let out was caught in your throat as she fires.

You remember seeing those crazed brown eyes and then the ceiling of the airship the next. The sensation of what can only be compared to fire piercing your skin spreads through your chest and insides like molten metal. You hear the indistinct noise of the soldiers' voices grow louder yet muffled at the same time around you.

From happy cheers to manic, hysterical screaming.

You couldn't catch your breath at first and you aren't sure from which. Was it from falling flat on your back? Or was it the searing pain that made tears leak from your eyes?

And then above the chaos, you hear your three closest comrades call your name in unison.

"Lieutenant Y/n, hey!!!" Connie's frantic voice shrill through the limited space of the ship. "Hang in there, hey!" You feel him rattle you, placing his rough calloused hand against your cheek. Jean's panic stricken face comes to your field of vision and you whimper,  "A kid." You gasp. "In the airship."

"Bandages! Now! We need to stop the bleeding!" Jean commands shakily and the rest of the soldiers that aren't capturing the two intruders scramble to get the med kit and the captain.

"Y/n-san, please hold on until we make it to the island!!" Connie pleads but hopelessness crawls his veins as he sees your blood flood the wooden floors.

"Keep him safe." You whisper out to nobody. The captain in mind. Your eye lids grow heavy but you didn't want to close them. No. You can't die. You promised him.

"Don't you dare die on me, Y/l/n." His voice echoes in your mind, compelling you to keep breathing despite how excruciating it feels.

Sasha who was frozen at first, snapped out of her shock as she hears Connie's voice call your name out of sheer panic when your eyes fall close. She then runs to meet the soldier carrying the bandages and was at your side in an instant. With trembling hands, Sasha tries with all her might to wrap you up and stop the bleeding.

"No, no, no, no!!" She starts sobbing while watching the bandage turn red, your gushing blood seeping through no matter how tight she puts the wrap around you. "Y/n-san, no, you can't leave us like this." Sasha hiccups, wiping her tears hastily before grabbing your now cold clammy hand and pressing it to her face. "Please!" She cries, eyes falling close.

If you hadn't pushed her, if you didn't step in her place, it would have been her that got shot. Guilt rakes through her as she watches you desperately fight for your life.

You can feel yourself drifting and you felt helpless. You then meet Sasha's, Jean's and then Connie's gaze, muttering with your remaining strength, "Protect him." And it was no request but an order.

Jean stumbles away, his hands going over his ears, unable to stand your labored breaths and Connie and Sasha's whimpering. Jean felt like hurling when Floch turned the kids to him. The other responsible for you being on the brink of death.

But to those two kids, they are the enemies who wreck havoc to their hometown. Floch wanted to kill them and throw them out but what good would that do? Would taking their lives save yours? And knowing you, who practically treat soldiers like them like your kids even though you were just a few years older than them, you would be disappointed in him at the mere thought of hurting these kids.

Jean can almost hear your angelic voice, "They're just children." You would say. So with a vexed expression and heavy turmoil growing within him, he ties them up and led them to where the captain and commander are.

Jean swallows hard when the captain's cold gaze met his and asks, "Who are these kids?"

By the looks of it, he still does not know.

"They killed Lobov-san and used his gear to come aboard." A lump forms in his throat, suddenly can no longer meet the captain's gaze. "A-and this one here, she.. shot Lieutenant Y/l/n."

Levi's eyes widen. Did he just hear Jean correctly? You? Shot? You were with him just minutes ago. No, how is that possible?-

"Captain, I-I don't think she'll make it." He continues, voice faltering. The grievance in Jean's face make Levi's blood run cold. He stumbles forward a bit as Armin and Mikasa run past him but he seemed frozen in his tracks.

No.

You got hurt but you'll pull through this. You always have. You promised him. And you are one of the toughest people he knows.

Levi tries to convince himself as he glared back at Zeke. He tries to distract himself from the cold fear of losing you with the blinding rage he feels for the Beast Titan wielder. But then, the door swings open again and Levi felt something terribly wrong right away.

And when Connie appears with tears sliding down his face and says,

"Y/n-san.. is dead."

Levi's entire world shifts.

Everyone was shellshocked for a moment. Because how could you be gone just like that? When you were just with them just minutes ago providing comfort to all of them? Passing by and giving them a wave of peace and calmness like the angel that you are.

Hange wobbles, her knees growing weak and its as if someone had punched her in the chest. The pain reminiscent as the day she watched Moblit vanish before her eyes. You were her right hand woman. Her confidant.

Eren's head hung in disbelief. His mind clouded by your kind smile just earlier and telling him you're actually glad to see him. Him. The monster who had just devastated a whole town and killed probably thousands of people. He thought that by now, he'd have gotten used to losing the people around him but losing you is gutting him. Its was like losing family. A sister.

"Connie.. did Y/n-san have any last words?" He asks mindlessly, wanting to know what your last thoughts were. Connie blinks through his tears and his eyes drifts to the captain, whose face was undreadable and knuckles threatening to split open at how tightly his balled fists are clenched.

"She said.. 'Protect him.'" Connie mutters and Levi's facade breaks.

The mob of weeping soldiers parted as the captain staggers to the back of the ship where you lay. Armin and Mikasa were still curled up beside you, their faces red and puffy from wailing. Both of them reluctantly stood up and stepped away as he walks closer. His gaze was still trained on the ground as he puts one foot in front of the other.

He shudders and stop midstep as his foot steps on the crimson stained wood. Before he knows it, he falls on his knees with a thud. Your pale hand comes into his field of vision and he takes a deep shakey breath as he reaches for it. His eyes darts everywhere but your face. The bandage on your middle, the boots on your feet that he had his fair share of shinning as his token of appreciation for you making his morning teas, the emblem of the Wings of Freedom embedded on your breast plate.

Your hand felt cold and stiff against his. A stark contast of the warmth it exuded on his cheek just moments ago.

"Y/n?" He croaks.

Suddenly his breathing shallows as the deafening silence stretches on. He can still smell you but can no longer feel you although you're right fucking there. Levi wanted this to some fucked up nightmare. But then, as he steels his nerves and finally looked at your face, his heart shatters.

Your hair is uncharacteristically dishevelled, e/c eyes lifeless, pupils middilated and your mouth parted ever so slightly.

Levi pulls you in his arms frantically, plethora of would have been and should have been anchoring his heart into a sea of regret.

He should have never let you out the damn door.

He should have held you tighter.

He should have you talked to you longer.

He should have told you.. he loves you.

He never even got to tell you.

Levi's face crumples, face reddening before a resentful yell erupts from him. The soldiers wince at the sound. It was pure agony and it pierces through each and everyone of them, bringing the lot of them back to tears if they ever stopped in the first place.

The entire flight back to Paradis, Levi held you the way he wished he did while you were still with him.

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[missmarj]

Burn

Pairing: Rei x Enji Todoroki

Warnings: Angst, Violence, Triggers

A/N: So I might have broken my own heart thinking about Rei Todoroki. It started when I saw this when I had a craving for some Hamilton and I read a comment about the lyrics from Burn fitting so well to Rei if she should confront Enji.

And I'm just.. ๏︿๏ ๏╭╮๏ ╥﹏╥ What if Rei was actually really truly helplessly in love with Enji like Eliza was with Alexander?

When the time comes

Explain to the children

The pain and embarrassment

You put their mother through

When will you learn?

That they are your legacy?

We are your legacy!

What if it was one-sided from the beginning since all Enji wanted from Rei was her quirk?

Imagine her being strucked the moment she met him. It's an arranged marriage, her parents told her. Yet when she first laid eyes on him her heart actually skipped a beat that she thought she lucked out.

It was love at first sight for Rei. She's unable to tear her gaze off of Enji who is towering over her, all serene handsome face and curious bright blue eyes studying her.

Enji introduces himself offering a massive hand out to her and she shyly places hers, muttering her own name that she forgot for a hot second when looked at her. Imagine Rei's surprise when instead of shaking her hand, Enji leans in to plant a soft kiss on it.

Imagine the days prior the wedding, when Enji would come over to Rei's parents' house showering her with gifts and staying for tea and supper. He wasn't much of a talker she'll notice. Not one for smiling either. But he is always so polite, nodding along to every small talk she tries.

She notices too how dedicated Enji was to being a hero. A smile would stretch her lips when she sees his passion ooze out of him whenever her dad would ask Enji about his work.

Besides the preparation for the wedding, Enji would take her to walks when he's not working. She fell even more seeing how he made time for her despite the long hours of patrolling and fighting villains.

As the day of the wedding gets nearer, she finds Enji being more comfortable with her. Asking questions about their future, her preferences and such.

Rei swears her heart leaps to her throat every time Enji would ask her about the things she wanted for their home, a blush would paint her cheeks when she notices that he seems to be looking forward to a life with her as well. And imagine how elated she feels whenever Enji would fondly talk about their future kids. Him promising to devote himself to them, raise them to become heroes like himself, to guide them the way he knows they would become the best version of themselves..

Imagine Rei trying so hard to become the best wife Enji deserves.. Only to find the dark truth behind the dreamy man she painted him to be in her head.

The first outburst she'd seen him in had her jumping out of her skin. Flames engorge his gym in their home after the announcement of the newest top heroes. Imagine her confusion when she knows her husband was second amongst the thousands of outstanding heroes but still that wasnt enough.

Imagine the days drag on and realizing, he doesn't want her as much as she wants him. The way that she wants him..

She hoped things would change when she got pregnant. The Enji she met before getting married was back. Always fussing over her, giving everything she needs and more, his massive hand cradling her belly every chance he gets and.. For the first time, he actually smiles at her with genuine joy lighting those ocean eyes.

Imagine her hope sparkling back in that came with the bliss of them welcoming their first born.

And imagine horror that creeps up on her the moment her husband started talks of putting their child in training at age 5. Her precious, beautiful child in such rigorous training when most kids that age enjoy playing and toys.

Imagine the anger she feels when her Enji would force their children to train until they're vomiting from exhaustion and hurting themselves from using their quirk; the fear she feels run through her veins when her Enji raised a hand to her when she tries to interfere..

The hurt she feels goes beyond physical with every hit she takes from him. The exhaustion she feels draining every light left in her as she tries to defend her beloved husband from his wrong doings to her children, their children.

Imagine staying all those years, hoping that one day her husband would change. Hoping that Enji would finally realize her worth, that she's more than just someone to give him children with a powerful quirk.

Imagine losing all hope for the very person you wished so badly to love you back and spend the rest of your days with.

Imagine being pushed to the brink of your sanity because you chose to love someone who cares for nothing else but his legacy, because despite the disgusting, ugly truth you still cant find it within you to unlove him.

That despite the scars in your skin and in your soul,

the fear and anger you feel for him,

your stupid heart still beats for him.

Even if the feeling fucking burns.

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[barneslives]

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13 evanstarff : bucky  (Perhaps - fics mostly based in wakanda)

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16 lovelynemesis : bucky one-shots (Ride)

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29 buckychrist : bucky (angst) 

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34 marvhellove : bucky | sebastian stan

35 floatingpetals : bucky | sebastian stan 

[themrsackerman]

A Little Fall of Rain

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warning: Angst, violence, blood, death

You love him. It was all you needed to know.

It didn’t matter that he doesn’t feel the same way or that he ignores your gestures to show him how much you care. You were just grateful that he doesn’t bluntly shuts you down. Levi always thought it was just a silly childish infatuation, that you would soon grow out of it like most of his cadets ever did. You thought so too at first. But the more time you spend around him, the more reasons you find to fall inevitably deeper in love with the man.

Outside the stoic demeanor of the man hailed the Humanity’s Strongest soldier, he was actually a caring person. He has his own way of showing it. Its not entirely obvious most of the time, but if you look closely, if you get past the brash scolding and intimidating gazes, you will see how much he actually does care. Specially those under his squad.

You worked your ass off to improve in order to get in his squad. Driven by your admiration for the corporal and with Hange and Mike’s help, you were quick to master the combat and titan slaying. You gained rank over time and was soon able to fight along side Levi.

The captain himself would be lying if he say you did not impress him, because you do. You started out from this weak, clumsy recruit to someone Erwin handpicked to watch Levi’s back in most missions.By now, you had been with him to countless missions and one of the handful he trusts with his life.

You swallow hard and took one last look around you before the walls’ gate finally opens. Memorizing the faces of your companions and giving stiff nods of encouragement to those who meet your gaze. Expeditions always had your stomach turning no matter how many times you have gone out. Each time, fewer familiar face return; each time you lose someone you have come to know and love. 

You idly wonder when will this nightmare end, if this will ever end. You thought of the journey ahead and wonder if you’ll be able to come back to this confinement you call home. Commander Erwin stressed how important and dangerous this mission will be and you feel that in your bones now seeing the usual stoic face of your corporal so intense. Levi meets your gaze and he jerks his head to the side, signaling you to take you place beside him in the formation as the gates open fully. The grip you had on the lead rope tightens, turning your knuckles white as you urge your horse to move forward.

You have one mission. This is what you’ve trained for and this is the only way you can express your unconditional love for him. Protect him, at all cost.

It all went downhill so fast..

All around you, your comrades fell. Your ears were ringing, muffling the sounds of battle cries, anguished screaming and the world crumbling around you. Hot thick blood runs past your eye from a cut on your forehead which you wiped haphazardly as you push yourself off of the ground. You pushed a big breath into your lungs in effort to calm your racing heart, looking around wildly trying to locate the only person you could fathom to think of right now. 

“Captain Levi.” you mutter breathlessly, your stumbling turning into sprints to run after the man slaying titans left and right. The beast had titans swarm Levi and adrenaline rushes through you.You winced in pain, feeling parts of you that is surely either bruised or wounded. But you continue forward, grabbing a horse and racing forward to take your place behind your corporal.

“Watch out!!” you yell out of sheer panic, your own body moving to its own accord as you aim your odm gear on the nearest titan, abandoning your horse in order to get to Levi as fast as you could. Amidst the horde of titans commanded by the Beast titan, you lurch forward to slice of the grasping hand of titan threatening to capture the captain.

Levi couldn’t help but turn to look at the shrill of your voice, alerting him of the imminent danger he wasn’t able to foresee. It all happened so fast. One minute you were yards away from him, the next you were saving him from being grabbed and crushed by the titan chasing after him. Levi scowls, he’s being too careless, too blinded by his rage.

“Go Captain!" you assure him and gestured for him to keep going. Levi gave you a quick grateful nod and surges forward. You tried your best to keep up with him, eyes darting all around to make sure Levi makes it to the Beast titan and finally take down the bastard. You see and hear your comrades fall all around you, tears of rage and sorrow fills your eyes as you continue to forward.

Got to focus.

Got to watch his back.

Keep him safe no matter what.

Protect him at all cost.

At all cost.

Trailing him and taking down each titan he missed, you realize his gear is running out of gas. “Captain!” you yell, trying to get his attention. “Stop! You’re running out of gas!” You grunt as you try to keep up with him so that you’ll be able to catch him once he does run empty. Levi was too engrossed by rage, chasing after the beast that wiped out his fellow soldiers. “I promised him!” Levi screams, jaw clenching tight as he continues forward.

You see the last of the steam come out of his gear as Levi killed the last titan and your eyes widened. He’ll fall into the titan’s hands in front of him if you don’t do anything. So you put everything you have and thankfully reached Levi in just a nick of time. You wrap your arms around his torso and shielded him with your body as you both fall to the ground having no titan or trees around for your odm gear to latch on.

“NO!” Levi yells as he rolls to the ground after you caught him, glaring at the titan carrying the beast titan further away. The ground shakes underneath him as his fist slams down out of frustration. Levi’s eyes widened as he hears you coughing, realizing your presence. 

“Y/n?” he mutters, turning around only to find you lying on the ground.

“No, Y/n.” Levi shakes his head, rushing to your side. “It’s okay.” you say weakly, making an effort to smile up at him. Levi’s blood ran cold. This smile was different. It was unlike the warm ones you usually gave him. Your lips tremble as your breathing becomes shallow. And then you felt it. Warmth, spreading right below your ribcage.  

Blood trickles down from right below your left rib, soaking your uniform. Both you and Levi looked at your wound and saw the huge gash start to drench the lower half of your body with your own blood. You frowned as you placed a hand over the gash, feeling disappointed and ashamed. “I’m sorry, Captain.” you say, voice dropping to a whisper as you feel your strength slip.

“Shit.” Levi mutters breathlessly as he lifts your body from the ground. “Cadet, look at me.” he commands, holding you against his body as he inspects your wound closely.

Is this how I go out? Am I dying? You thought as you look up the blue sky above you. You grin, comforting yourself, I kept him safe, at least. And I get to die in his arms.

“Y/n!” Levi calls, giving your cheek gentle shakes until your eyes met his. Your eyes and mind were drifting off. All you know at the moment is that Levi is holding you in his arms and his beautiful face just inches away from yours. A bittersweet smile stretches your lips. You’ve always wanted this. And even if you only get to have it with the last few remaining breaths you have, you wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.

You winced when you feel him press his hand against the wound, trying desperately to stop the bleeding. “Fuck, hold on.” he mutters, ripping his cloak off of his shoulders and pressing it over your wound. Levi then curses to himself as he checks your gear and realized you no longer have gas too.  He looks around wildly, where are his comrades? Have they all fallen too?

Levi inhales deeply and held you in a better position. “You’re going to be fine.” he says, but more to himself than to you. “Y/L/N, hey, look at me. You’ll be okay. Just hold on, Hange’s right on our tail they should be here soon.”

You watch his green cloak turn to an odd shade as your blood seeps through it. You sigh and smiled up at him, patting his trembling hand that he holds over your wound. You’ve worked in the infirmary long enough to know that this isn’t the type of wound you can just patch up. And as much as you’d refuse to believe, you doubt anyone else is coming to your rescue right now. You gave him an apologetic smile. “It’s okay, Captain. Don’t worry.” you say weakly and Levi felt his heart clench.

No, please. Not her too. He thinks idly, guilt and regret coursing thick in his veins. “It will be. Just hold on, I’ll look for-” he started to move but you grip his wrist with all the strength you have left and shake your head. “Just,” you swallow hard and search his bluish gray orbs, pleading “Can you just p-please, stay? With me? Until I-” you start to stammer, tears starting fill your eyes. “You and I both know I can't walk this out, Captain.” you say, smiling sadly.

Levi freezes as reality hits him. His usual stoic expression melting as he holds your face, nodding. “I won’t leave you.” he assures you and he felt his heart break at the way this mere statement lit up your entire face. Your smile is still as warm and beautiful even at the circumstance you’re currently in. The fact that this might be the last time he sees this makes his stomach turn. He tucks the loose strands of your hair behind your ear, murmuring “I promise.” His voice cracking in the slightest.

“Thank you, Captain. And I’m sorry I failed you.” your brows furrow. Levi shakes his head vehemently, a dry laugh escaping his lips. “No way in hell, Y/n. You saved me countless times. I’m still standing because of you.” His brows furrow as he feels your breath get more shallow and saw the blood that had pooled beneath you.

“If there’s anyone here who failed, it was me. I failed to protect you.” Levi leans down and planted a chaste kiss on your forehead. “I’m sorry.” he whispers.

Your eyes drift close, you feel so tired. “I’d do it all over again for you.“ you say, voice barely above a whisper. You looked up at him and finally, you confessed.

“I love you, Captain Levi.”

Levi felt the air got knocked out off of him, realizing that deep down, in some sort of way, he does love you too. Maybe not in the same way as you do, but enough to feel his usually unfeeling heart tear in his chest. He loves you and he’s going to lose you. Just like he lost his Mom, Farlan and Isabella.

Levi sighs, forcing out a small smile as he held your face. He then leans in and gave you a kiss. Are you just dreaming this? You blinked and placed a hand against his cheek. It feels so real. You smile against his lips and tried to kiss him back. Levi’s face crumple in sorrow but he kept kissing you, tasting your salty tears. Or maybe they were his, tears of regret he swore he will never feel again but he does now.

As Levi pulls away, he wipes your tear-stained cheeks then kisses your nose and your forehead. “I know you do. And there is no one else who could have loved me the way that you did.” he says, leaning his forehead against yours. You smile and gave in, letting your eyes fall close again. Your body no longer feel heavy. You felt afloat. Like you’re in a dream. You feel his soft breaths tickle your cheek and his familiar scent brought you peace.

If this is a dream, yeah, you wouldn’t mind not waking up.

“If there is a life after this one, I'll make sure to find you. And find some sort of way to make it up to you.” he says sincerely, wiping the tears that escaped your closed eyes.

“I’d like that.” you whisper. Levi waits for you to open your eyes again, holding his own breath as he listens to yours.

But he didn’t get to see those e/c orbs again.

Levi watches your smile fade as he feels your hand falls limp against his hold. His heart shatters to pieces feeling that you’re truly no longer there anymore. Levi touches your face one last time, and sent you off with a last kiss on the forehead. Promising himself to make sure your sacrifice was not for naught as he reclaims his sword from the ground.

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[themrsackerman]

I’ll Never Love Again

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warning: Swearing, a bit of implied nsfw stuff and well..angst

Summary: I’m not really sure how to summarize this but it is heavily inspired by the song from A Star is Born.

“Stop it.” You chuckle, goosebumps raising on your arms as you felt Levi’s hot breath against your neck. “I have to finish sorting these before Erwin arrives. Levi- c-can you,” you sigh when his soft lips pressed against your pulse. You then turn your head to the side to meet his gaze. “-please quit distracting me.” You finish lamely as you get lost in those damn grayish blue eyes. Levi merely shakes his head and rests his chin on your shoulder as his arms wrap around your waist, hugging you from behind.

“You may be my wife now but I am still your Captain.” He says teasingly, the only hints of playfulness on his face was the small tug on the corner of his lips and that gleam in his eyes. “I command you to pay attention to me.” He murmurs against the shell of your ear. “Insubordination is a serious offense. I won’t take it lightly.”

You purse your lips to keep a huge grin from surfacing. You actually secretly love it when he gets like this. You closed the file you were reading and placed it back on the shelf so you can devote your entire attention to the beautiful man you now have the privilege to call your husband. You turn and placed your arms over his shoulders, pulling him closer.

“I sincerely apologize if I seemed to have forgotten my place, Captain.” you quip, earning a small smile from him. “Undivided attention now yours entirely, Sir. How may I help or assist you today?” you bat your lashes at him making the small smile on his lips grow into a genuine beam that only you and a handful of people were ever graced with.

“I already told Erwin I need my wife today so you can start by getting your things so we can get the hell out of here.” He states, jerking his head towards your coat and maneuver gear placed by your desk. “You know, I really hate it whenever you’re assigned a mission without me but I’ve got to say, I am loving you coming back home all needy and touchy like this.” You admit and laugh when Levi rolls his eyes at you.

As soon as you two got to the place you’re both sharing in the base, he was all over you. Kissing your lips, tugging your hair and pulling your head back, nipping at your neck as his hands roam everywhere while he walks you to bed. The room soon fills with your giggles and sounds of pleasure as Levi works your body and whispers sweet nothings in your ear.

You lay your head on his chest as you chase after your breath, smiling to yourself as you feel his heart thump hard and fast under your palm. Levi’s hand traces up your spine then lovingly cradles you head. Your eyes drift close when his fingers gently massage your scalp. “I missed you.” You say, sighing contentedly. Levi squeezes you once with the arm wrapped around your bare lower back as he murmurs with his lips pressed against your forehead, “I missed you too. Every shitty second you’re not by my side.”

Your heart clenches. Levi is not really one to express his feelings through words but whenever he does, he says all the right things. God, you just adore this man so much. Your jobs are not easy and before you both decided to tie the knot, you two vowed that together you will continue to fight for humanity. So every time he goes away on a mission without you, you bury yourself in work because if you didn’t, your worry for him would drive you out of your mind. Humanity’s strongest soldier or not, he is still your Levi. Your soulmate, your person. And you couldn’t help but worry for his safety specially if you’re not by his side and somewhere else doing a separate mission. Sure, everyone knows his worth in this battle but you know there’s no one else out there who would lay their own life protecting him better than you would.

You found yourself tearing up, your arms unconsciously wrapping tighter around his body. Levi tenses beneath you when he hears you sniffle. “What’s wrong, Y/n?” he asks, pulling you up so he can look at your face.

“Nothing, sorry. I’m just being stupid.” You wave him off, laughing at yourself and shaking your head. But Levi kept on staring at you with worry heavy in his eyes so you sigh and tried to explain yourself. “I was just thinking how much I love you and how I know one day, one of us just won’t make it back home or if we’re lucky, we’ll both get to leave this godforsaken world together,” you stare up at him and your face crumples, “But if we didn’t, if ever you leave me alone in this world, I don’t think I could ever love anyone else again the way I love you.”

You half expected him to roll his eyes at you or maybe laugh at the sudden emotional outburst and morbid thoughts but instead, he looks at you with so much love that you feel as if your heart is going to burst out of your chest.

“You better fucking not.” He mutters, smiling halfheartedly making you scoff a laugh. Levi wipes the tear that escapes your eye with his index finger as he stares at your lips. “If I would have to kill every single titan or person in this world to get back to you, trust me, I won’t hesitate. And if you leave me alone in this world, I would kill whatever or whoever it was that took you from me and follow soon after.” He mutters, cradling your face. “You are my life. And I never have and will never love anyone the same way as I love you.”

Please God, No.

Your entire body ran cold when you saw them.You stare back at Hange in utter disbelief and self denial but the pain in her eyes almost sent you to your knees.”He’s still breathing. He keeps on calling your name.” Hange says, voice just above a whisper as tears fall from her face. 

Your hand trembles as you touch his face. Underneath the dried blood, shrapnels along his cheek and the gash that ran from above his brow down past his lower lip, it is him. And despite every thing, still beautiful as ever. Your face crumples and silent pained sobs rock your body when he draws a labored breath and looks up at you, muttering your name. You couldn’t breathe, it’s as if someone is gripping your throat and your heart is being physically torn in pieces. 

“It’s me, love. I am here.” you choke out, leaning down to press kisses everywhere on his face while being careful around the wounds to prevent causing him more pain. 

“I’m s-sorry.” he whispers, his hand attempting to reach for your face but he just doesn’t have the strength anymore. You take it and pressed it against your cheek and shake your head. “Don’t. I know you’ve fought hell and back just so you can come back to me.I love you so much,” you kiss him again,sobbing loudly this time. “I love you.” you hear him say weakly.

You can see that even now, he is fighting so hard just to be with you. You can see it in his eyes how tired he is and how much pain he is in but what breaks your heart most is that even in his condition, he’s still worrying about you. You kissed his palm and nod. “I’ll be alright.” you murmur, chin wobbling as you try to hold back the sobs rising in your chest. “Y-you..” you whimper, biting your lip as you cradle his face.”-can rest now. I’m letting you.. go. I love you, Levi.” 

Levi searches your eyes for a second, his labored breathing fading into softer ones as he does. A small smile tug the corner of his lips. “My Y/n.” he whispers one last time before his hand goes limp against your hold and you watch the life in your husband’s gray blue eyes fade.

Hange turns away, your cries sending daggers in her own heart. If sorrow had a sound, that would be it, Hange realizes as she holds you, letting you bawl your heart out in her arms.

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[themrsackerman]

I Was Wrong

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warning: None, just a bit of melancholy

A/N: Sort of a continuation to I'll Never Love Again

5 years later, you didn't think it would have been possible to love again. But here you stood, heart still aching from the loss of your husband but now almost completely healed and full.

You kneel in front of the tombstones. Laying flowers on Erwin's first then to Levi's. You smile, sighing as your hands trace over his name. "I miss you every shitty second." you murmur, using his own words. You then felt a gentle breeze come your direction, caressing you. Your eyes fell close as you breathe in deeply.

"I'm sorry its been a while since I've come to visit. Life's just been crazy." you take your handkerchief and dusts off the stone in front of you. "Also, I didn't think I needed the reminder that you're gone." your brows furrow, remembering the days that followed after his loss. How you burried yourself in work, how you pretty much stray from your shared bedroom and his office just to keep yourself from falling apart. "But I'm okay now. Things are going well but its a lot tougher without you." you laugh to yourself, thinking of how much growth you had gone through since losing him.

"Levi, remember when I said I don't think I could ever love again once you're gone? I was wrong. So wrong. " you chuckle, shaking your head. Tears fill your eyes and you sniffle. "I love him so much, Levi. I would do anything for him. And I know you're going to love him too if you're still here."

Right on cue, you hear footsteps behind you then feel soft arms wrap around your shoulders, straight ebony hair tickling your cheeks as he leans in. "Hi, Mama." the kid who is a splitting image of his father grins giddily at you. "Hello, my love." you smile back, wiping your tears away before turning to take him in your arms. You run your thumb along his chubby cheek as you stare at his grayish blue eyes, finding yourself beaming wider at such beauty he holds.

"Levi Erwin Ackermann! What did I say about running off?!" Hange calls from a few feet away, emerging from the trees. The kid giggles in your arms as he hugs your neck, sticking a tongue out at his aunt who is now walking over to you. "Sorry Hange." you smile up apologetically. "He's growing too fast, Y/n." Hange pants as she takes a seat beside you.

"You see this, Shorty? An exact replica of you! Strong, fast and incredibly stubborn! Wish Y/n and I the best of luck raising this brat." Hange rolls her eyes as she fans herself.

Suddenly, the kid in your lap repeats after Hange's last word. "Brat." he says quietly, holding the same expression your husband usually did, same scowl but a whole lot cuter. You and Hange exchanged a look before bursting into fits of laughter.

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[themrsackerman]

Imagine

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warning: None, just pure fluff

Summary: Pillow talks with Levi

“What are you thinking about?” you ask as you lay on his arm, watching Levi staring blankly up at the ceiling, his hand tracing patterns on your bare back. He blinks and slowly let his gaze fall unto you. A small smile tugs his lips.

“A lot of things.” he says quietly. “Where do I start?”

You smile back, nudging him. “Whatever comes to mind.” you insist.

Levi wets his lips as he stares back up at the ceiling, eyes dancing, getting lost in his own thoughts. “A world different from the one we have. A world without the constant fear of being hunted and eaten alive. A simpler one. Where my hands get dirty preparing tea and food in the kitchen instead of gore and blood outside and within these damn walls.” You watch his eyes go from soft and thoughtful to remorseful and cold.

Levi shakes his head and took a deep breath in attempt to clear his mind. He purses his lips and looks at you, letting his long calloused fingers graze the side of your face. “Imagine a lifetime of moments like this,” he glances down at your lips then back up at your e/c eyes again then pulled you tighter against his body. “Waking up to mornings with you in my arms. Not having to see you wear that damn uniform and risk your life. Maybe have you in the living room reading your favorite book instead.” he nods. “Yeah, it would be nice not having to worry about your safety every second of everyday.”

You laced your hands with his, resting it atop his stomach. “Yes, that would be nice.” you chuckle and hum in agreement, eyes drifting close. Levi lets his eyes drift close too, lips ghosting over your head. “You know what would be nicer though?” he asks, his voice just above a whisper. “Better plumbing?” you tease, eyes still closed. Levi chuckles and tickles your sides. “Yes. For Erwin’s sake.” he agrees, laughter still lingering on his lips. “But really, you know what?” You rest your chin on his shoulder to get a better look at him and asked, “What? What could be nicer than better plumbing?”

The delight in his eyes was then replaced by something warmer, softer. He never looked at you this way before and it made your heart soar. 

Before you realized it, tears had form in your eyes. “Yeah, Imagine a world like that.” you whispered, snuggling deeper into the crook of his neck as you discreetly wipe the tears that escaped. Your heart starting to ache for what could’ve been if only the world isn’t so fucked up.

He bites his lower lip and looks at you as if he’s gauging what your reaction is going to be. Finally, he says, “Marrying you and having a home of our own. A backyard where we can play with little children that hopefully takes more after you in the looks department.” his chest rumbles as he laughs. You on the other hand held your breath in surprise.

Levi had been vocal before about his disdain on the whole idea of marriage and having kids especially with the situation the world is in right now. But then you see it, an actual home, you and Levi doing domestic mundane things such as cleaning the house together or preparing for supper, Levi playing with your children.

He held your face and kissed you. “Then how about we start with things we can actually have? Without compromising anything in our current situation?” Levi asks thoughtfully, his thumb rubbing soothing circles on your cheek.

“Hey, Y/n?” he calls quietly. You stare up at him and hummed. “I want all those things with you.” Levi says and watches your face. He saw how much you wanted it too.

“You know I want it all with you so bad as well. But right now? I don’t think it’s possible. Especially the home and kids part. Erwin needs us, now more than ever.” you frown, voice getting thick from holding back your tears. 

You lean away just enough to look at his face and asked, “What are you saying, Levi?”

Levi suddenly feels his heart beat a thousand times faster as he forms the words in his mouth. Finally he inhales deeply and cradle your face, saying “Marry me, Y/n Y/l/n.”

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[themrsackerman]

Runaway

Pairing: Levi Ackermann x Reader

Summary: Levi treasured you more than anything. He knows you deserved so much that he wanted to do something he had never thought, not in a million years, he would even dare think of doing. Runaway. With you, that is.

Warnings: None

A/N: Inspired by Runaway by The Nationals.

Levi had always been fighting. That was all he ever needed to do, that was what he have come to know growing up. In the underground, he learned to fight for himself, for survival and eventually, for people he had come to know and love. When he got to the surface and lost Farlan and Isabella, he learned to fight for a greater cause. For humanity.

It was what he was good at. Something he can do better than anybody else, something he had known all his life.

And for the first time, he gets that feeling, that want to finally just stop. He feels this urge to refuse joining the expeditions. No longer feeling the drive to risk his life for something which might just be lost cause.

What if he turns the other cheek? Leave the military and runaway with you? Live blindly in bliss like most of the walldians? It had been years anyway since the last attack.

He sees a family walking by the bridge. The parents are on either side of a toddler who can barely walk. Both of them holding the kid's puny hands as they patiently guide him. That could be you and him, he thought idly. Basking in the afternoon sun, living life one day at a time with nothing else in mind except each other and the life you've both come to built.

He had never been more envious in his life. And he didn't even like the idea of marriage. Or having children.

Levi wished he had that ignorance. He wished he can convince you and himself to runaway. Leave the expedition and titan slaying behind. Maybe find a little cottage somewhere within the walls but faraway enough from everyone else.. Just you and him. Because he knows you deserve every good thing in the world.

He pets the horse he was standing alongside with and stared at the horizon. The miles and miles of fields that stretches ahead looked all too tempting. Could he really do it? Convice you to come with him and leave it all behind? Could you both really runaway?

"Ready to go?" you ask, jolting him from his epiphany. The irony of your question, he thinks idly. He laughs dryly to himself and nods once as he helped you up into the carriage. He takes the seat next to you while Commander Pixis and Erwin sat across.

"Hey." you murmured, noticing the blank stare and frown tugging his lips. "Something bothering you?"

Levi looks up from the mud in his shoe that was irking him and meets your gaze. The dark cloud hovering over him instantly feels like it's disappearing when he looks at you. "Besides our usual bullshit, nothing really." he sighs. His tongue can still be too fucking sharp at times though you two have been together for more than a year. He throws his head back and closed his eyes as he intertwined your hands together.

You held your breath and anxiously looked at Erwin and Commander Pixis seated right across the two of you, completely taken aback by Levi's sudden display of affection. In front of your freaking superiors. You swallow hard trying your best to act normal though you're sure that right now, your face is as red as a tomato.

Levi then mutters, "I just.. wish things are better for us somehow, you know?" he opens his eyes a little and looked at you sideways.

Erwin and Commander Pixis seemed too engrossed with their discussion that they barely spare you two a glance. So you turned a little to him and responded, hiding your interlaced hands with your knees. "What could be better than us being together all the time? Having each other's back both in the field and in training those kids aspiring to be part of our squad? Working together and fighting for what's left of humanity?" you say in quiet voice, smiling up at him. "I wouldn't have it any other way. As long as I have you by my side, Levi? I'm the happiest I could be."

He saw nothing but fondness and sincerity in those e/c eyes. Sometimes he forgets how dedicated and fierce you could be and then you effortlessly remind him like this, making him fall deeper in love with you everytime. If you were both in the solidarity of his office, he would have kissed you right now. Instead, he settles with rubbing your knuckle with his thumb. The world may be damned and the problem with the titans may not be solved in this lifetime but Levi sure is glad he found you. His signalfire, his last shred of hope.

A small smile surfaces on his beautiful lips. He then nods and he placed a chaste kiss on it, raising your interlaced hands to his lips. You melted at the gesture that you completely forgot that you two aren't alone in the carriage until Erwin cleared his throat.

"Oh leave the young lovers alone, Smith. What they have is a rare thing nowadays. It's actually an honor that we get to witness it." Commander Pixis slurs adoringly. "Well I can assure you I've had my fair share of witnessing it, Sir." Erwin sighs, cocking a thick golden brow at you and Levi.

"Stop shitting yourself, Erwin. You're making it obvious how jealous you are." Levi mutters teasingly, his eyes never leaving yours as he kisses the back of your hand again. This time letting it linger, causing the man across him to scoff a laugh and roll his eyes while you blush harder than you already are.

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[themrsackerman]

I’d Rather

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Reader

Warning: Cursing

Summary: They say arguments make the relationship stronger but lately you and Levi had been arguing endlessly what with all the stress in your work.

You and Levi rarely saw eye to eye so it was such a surprise when the two of you got into a relationship. Levi is all stoic, cold stares and few words. His very presence causes cadets to almost faint in fear while you were the exact opposite. You're the optimistic one, the new recruits and cadets' favorite commander, most wish they're on your squad.

The way you two lead your squad and take commands from Erwin is just straight up Yin and Yang but its also one of the reasons why the success rates of the expeditions you're both set out to just keeps increasing. You keep each other in check at all times and since you both care for one another, you two can sense the flaw in the other's plan if there are any.

But of course, in this case, arguments are inevitable. You and Levi never show it in front of other people. You both act civil and argue reasonably when there are other people present specially your superiors but man, once the doors are closed, you two get into the craziest fights.

Lately, you get into more disagreements with the pressure of executing the next expedition. You had been grumpier than usual having worked to the bones with Hange's experiments and investigations entrusted to you by Erwin and Levi had been up your ass lately, questioning every proposal you present to Erwin.

You're seething in anger as you storm out of the meeting. You and Hange had spent the entire week planning the execution of retaking Wall Maria and Levi just can't fucking support you on it. Erwin was almost aboard with the plan if it weren't for your boyfriend pulling every loophole he could find.

"If you could've just let us finish and actually listen to me-"

"Listen to you? Do you hear yourself when you speak?? The plan you wanted to execute is too risky and-"

"Really, Levi?? You? You're going to talk to me about fucking risks?" you ask incredulously, slamming his office door closed behind you.

Levi's nostrils flared as he stared you down. You glowered back at him, determined to stand your ground. You watch him try to slow his breathing, something he usually does whenever the argument gets too heated.

"You know what? I was just looking after you. Like I always fucking had." he spat. "If you don't want that then fine! I don't want to do this anymore. I am damn tired, Y/n." Levi groans as he turns his back at you. He sat behind his desk and let his head fall into his hands.

"W-what did you just say?" you ask, the raging anger inside of you was completely replaced by straight up cold fear.

"I'm done with this. I'm tired!" you jumped a little when he responded, Levi never yelled at you like this before.

"Are you- Wait, are you breaking up with me??" you ask, voice trembling as you walk over to his desk. Maybe you had gone too far. He's been sleep deprived for almost a week now and stressed with everything going on. Maybe you should have cut him some slack.

"What?" he stares at you like you've grown another head. "No. I meant I'm done fighting with you, idiot. I don't want to argue anymore." he leans back on his chair with a sigh, waving his hand dismissively. "You fucking win."

You breathe a sigh of relief as you blink the forming tears away. You had to support yourself against his desk, completely shaken at the thought of losing the only man you ever loved.

"Did you seriously just thought I was talking about us?" he asks, pulling you by your wrist. You scoffed and looked at him grimly. "Next time choose your words carefully. I thought you were going to leave me." you mutter sadly.

He rolls his eyes and pull you into his lap, lips grazing along the shell of your ear as he says, "I'd rather lose every stupid argument than lose you, brat."

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[themrsackerman]

Never Truly Gone

Pairing: Levi x Reader

Warnings: Another melancholy, a dash of fluff.

Summary: Levi woke up in the middle of the night and you awoke as well finding him deep and lost with his own thoughts.

You stir from slumber when you roll unto Levi's side of the bed and found it empty. You force your eyes open as you sat up only to find his hunched figure by the foot of the bed.

Levi sniffs, clearing his throat as he turns to look at you. "Did I wake you?" he asks, his hand reaching over to touch your leg. "I'm sorry, Y/n. Go back to sleep, I'll just go get something to drink." he mutters, slipping his shirt back on. He places a soft kiss on your head as he buttons up his shirt before heading out the room.

You scrub the drowsiness away from your eyes and took Levi's cloak from the chair by his bedroom window. You wrap it around yourself as you trail Levi to the kitchen.

You found him leaning against the counter, waiting for the kettle to boil. His eyes held something it hasn't for quite some time and it made your own heart ache.

"Levi?" you murmur, placing a hand on his arm. He didn't seem to notice your presence before as his head snapped to your direction when you called his name.

"Hey. What are you doing up?" he asks, his voice an octave lower than usual. You also notice his eyes are brimming with tears which he quickly tries to blink away. "What is it, Levi? Is it a nightmare?" you ask, reaching for his cheek. Levi's lips twitch as a small smile flashes on them. You know him way too much by now that there's really no point in lying. He lifts you up and sat you over the counter. He then leans his forehead on your shoulder, his hands wrapping around your waist. "It's fine if you don't want to tell me." you whisper, caressing his soft, smooth cheek, knowing well how much he struggles with expressing how he feels.

He sighs and pulls away just enough to look at you. He turns his head to place a kiss on your palm. "It's not really a nightmare." Levi finally confessed. "I.. I dreamt of my mom."

"What was the dream about?" you ask, a sad smile forming on your lips. He told you once already about his mom and he said he wished he could remember more about her. You watch Levi thought about it for a second, his eyes then drifting off to nowhere in particular.

"We were at our old home. In the underground." he starts, reminiscent. "But, she looks so good. Looks nothing like the last memories I've had of her. She looks healthy and.. happy." his lips starts to quiver but he continues. "She was saying how proud she is of me. And how much she loves me." he says, his brows twitching up together before his gaze falls back to yours.

"And then, she opened her arms to hug me. I swear it felt so real." a dry laugh escapes his lips. "She told me she misses me and kissed me on my cheek. Like how she usually does when I was a kid." his eyes drifting close as he leans his cheek further into your palm. "I was about to tell her that I miss her too but then, I woke up. And she was gone." Levi's eyes fell on the floor, a fresh wave of hot tears fall freely down his cheeks but he wipes it away quickly with the sleeve of his shirt. "I didn't even get to tell her I miss her." his voice falters though you can tell he's struggling to keep it on its usual modulation.

You held his face with both hands and wished you could take the sorrow dwelling on those blue gray eyes. You forced him to look at you and promised, "Dont worry, I'm sure she knows."

He nods and tries to recompose himself, taking a deep breath. "Besides, she's never truly gone Levi." you say and this made Levi look at you with his brows knit together.

You took hold of his shoulder and spun him around gently. You rest your chin on his shoulder as you point to his reflection on the window. "I didn't have the honor to meet your mom. But I'm sure you have something of hers. Maybe her hair or her nose.. Or her lips? Maybe her eyes?" you grin seeing Levi follow your finger as you point at each part through the reflection with a completely mesmerized gaze.

"You see, she continues to live within you Levi. Everyday that you breathe, carry yourself and make something worth while with your life." the crease between his brows disappears. "Whenever you miss her or have that silly thought that she's gone forever, trust she has and always will be here." you say and place a soft kiss on his temple. "and here." you murmur as you place a hand over his chest.

"Always smiling over you, and like she said in your dream, ever so proud of you." you grin and pulled his face slightly so that you can peck his lips. "I know this because I sure as hell am." you say and mean every word. "So proud of the man you are today."

"Thank you." Levi says quietly. You took a deep breath with him as he sags against you.

"Anytime." you say, voice muffled by his hair. "Out there, you can be Captain Levi, humanity's strongest. But whenever you're with me, you can just be Levi." you say, hands combing through his soft hair.

"Just, Levi." you enunciate.

"And I'll try to be whatever you need." you promised. He inhales deeply then turns to fully face you. You open your arms to him and his head nestles the crook of your neck. "Don't you ever leave me, okay?" he whispers, making your heart swell.

This is the closest thing he'll ever get to saying I love you and you will gladly take it any day. Levi hoped you knew it well though because he knows he sucks at expressing how he felt about you.

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[themrsackerman]

Stupid and Weak

Pairing: Levi x Reader

Warnings: None

Summary: On the latest expedition the scouts will be set to go to, you'll be apart from Captain Levi for the first time. You have been under his squad for years and like any sane woman, you've grown to love the man.

"Listen to me, Y/n. We're going out of those walls in a few days. We are also not guaranteed that we would all make it back! There's really no point fucking around!" Hange practically screams at you. You hated her because as usual, she's right.

"You say that like it's so easy to just go up to someone you've known for years and tell them you're in love with them." you scowl at her as you set your odm gear on the table.

"I'm not saying that it is, y/l/n. I'm just saying, if you don't do anything before the expedition, you might regret not being able to tell Levi you love him before its too late."

"Fucksakes Hange, keep your voice down." you hissed throwing a rag cloth at her.

"Like that's possible." Levi suddenly says, coming up behind you.

Your heart stills. Watching him enter the common room and take a seat across from you. "What is she blathering on about this time?" he asks. You try to conceal your relief and then turned to glare at Hange who was quick enough to make up something about her latest experiment.

She is right though, you will truly regret not being able to let Levi know. It hasn't been long since you realized you have developed feelings for him and boy when you did, it hit you like a truck. Suddenly you can't look him straight in the eye for too long, electricity would run through you whenever your skin touches his, you become hyper aware whenever he's in the room and you would get crazy annoyed at Petra whenever she tries to get the Captain's attention, work related or not. It came to a point that you start refusing doing reports and training together because you couldn't get any work done because you just end up staring at him and lose focus.

Hange noticed the changes that had gone through you in the past few days with that observant nature she has. Hence her grilling you what's wrong. Hence you telling her that, yes, indeed, it's because you have fallen in love with non other than Levi fucking Ackermann.

"Oi, Y/L/N" you jolted, turning to look at the man demanding your attention. Dammit, you hiss to yourself.

"Shouldn't you be in bed? You need all the rest you could get before the expedition." he continues, joining you in the dining table. You apologized and offered him tea. "I know, I'm sorry. I just keep tossing and turning in bed. I thought some chamomile would help. Tea, captain?"

He watches you with curious eyes as he nodded. He takes a sip and then said, "You have been going on expeditions for years now. I would have thought you're past the jitters at this point."

"But it will be my first time away from our squad." you mutter as you try to hide the trembling of your hands by hiding it under the table. Levi notices it though.

His brows twitch up. "I see." he says, mostly to himself. He looks away slightly uncomfortable, not really used to dealing with things like this but he tries for you since you have been on his squad for some time and he's grown to care for you.

"Erwin trusted you to lead your own squad because he sees potential in you like he did with me. I've known you for a while too. I know what you can do and trust me, you have nothing to be afraid of. Not when you're that skilled." he says.

You blushed at the Captain's little speech. You let your gaze fall on your fumbling hands atop of your lap. You steal a quick glance up at him. Bad move it seems because his angelic face only made your heart rate increase exponentially.

Levi frowns seeing that you only seemed more upset with what he had just said. He mentally curses himself, angry at himself that he doesn't know how to help you or make you feel better like he hoped. He tried to rack his brain of what else he can say to make that furrow on your forehead disappear but he can't come up with anything.

"You're right. I am afraid, Captain. " you confessed. "But not because I'm leading my own squad for the first time." you sigh, swearing you could feel his gaze piercing a hole through your head. You bit you lip and went on, looking out the window. "I'm scared because I won't be with you. I know how strong you are and how good at fighting but what scares me is that I won't be around you."

A dry laugh escapes your lips as you shrug. "I know its silly but.. I'm frightened to be away from you. To not be able to watch your back and protect you." you bow your head again, blushing crimson as you whisper. "Not that you need any protecting, specially from someone like me."

The silence that follows after makes you want the ground to break open and swallow you whole with every ticking second. You jumped slightly when you hear him speak, a little relieved he was the one to break the agonizing silence.

"Hey. I.. appreciate that. You're a good soldier. Thank you, y/n." you look up at him and his face is unreadable like always. "But we have our objectives. Focus on yours and stop worrying about me. That's an order." he continues to say nonchalantly before bringing the cup back to his lips to take a sip.

Not sure what gotten in you but suddenly it felt as if your chest is going to burst. Tears start to blur your vision and its as if someone is squeezing your throat. Like if you don't tell him, you won't be able to push air back to your lungs.

"You still don't get it do you, Captain?" you croak, gasping as you tried to breathe again. "I can't stop caring for you. I've tried. But I'm just so stupid and weak, I couldn't help myself from falling in love with you!"

The moment those words escaped your mouth, you immediately want to take them back. You hate it, the way he stares back at you with confusion or disgust in his eyes, how desperate you sounded and how you have just possibly ruined Levi's trust as a friend by telling him you've fallen in love with him.

Your hand flew to your mouth, a sob ripples from your trembling lips as you look down. "I-I'm so sorry, Captain. Please forget I ever said anything." you stutter as you stand abruptly, gathering the tea pot and your cup from the table. "You can just leave your cup in the sink, I'll wash it first thing in the morning." you mutter.

"I'm really sorry, Captain Levi." you whimper before running out of the kitchen as fast as you could.

Levi watches you leave. He may look collected physically but his thoughts were in shambles. Your words kept echoing on his mind as he washes the cups and teapot on the sink. The image of your beautiful face in anguish burnt in the back of his mind.

He never really thought much about you except as a comrade, a friend, but tonight you're all he could think about.

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[themrsackerman]

Walking Down The Aisle

Pairing: Reader x Levi / Reader x Erwin

Warning: it is a melancholy, so.

Summary: It’s your wedding day, everyone’s hearts are full except one person.

Levi tried to think of the last time he had seen something that took his breath away. He couldn’t come up with anything else except his current view. He shook his head gently, in complete disbelief of the sight in front of him.

You, the person he loves most, dressed in the most simple yet elegant wedding dress amidst the chaos going on with the world.

His usual stoic expression melts as you close the distance between you and him. A small smile tugs the corners of his lips as he confessed. “You look beautiful, brat.”

A tearful laugh escapes your quivering lips. You took a deep breath and tried to suppress the tears as you threw your arms over Levi’s neck, bouquet and all. “Are you happy?” Levi murmurs against your cheek. You pull away and say, “Definitely.”

You kiss his cheek and the grin on his lips grew bigger. A lot of jaws drop at the sight due to the fact that only a handful of people were graced with Levi’s genuine smiles.

“Let’s get this over with, shall we?” he murmurs, leaning close to you, noses almost touching. You smile widely and nod as you drape your arm in his.

The two of you walk the aisle, welcomed by tearful eyes, warm smiles and full hearts.

You watch each face of friends and family members as you walk by, smiling gratefully at their very presence. Mikasa, Sasha, Annie, Ymir, Historia and Hange waves at you as you pass and the boys, Jean, Marco, Reiner, Bertholdt, Armin, Eren and Connie cheer enthusiastically, making you giggle.

Levi on the other hand kept his eyes on you, burning this image of you in the back of his mind.

The moment you both reach the end of the aisle, you both turn to face one another. Levi rolls his eyes and tucks a loose strand of h/c lock behind your ear. “Stop crying. This is supposed to be the happiest day of your life, isn’t it?” he asks. You took a deep breath again in an attempt to collect yourself. “Yeah, you’re right.” you chuckle but the stupid tears still fell. “Tch.” Levi makes the sound in his mouth as his long fingers glide across your cheek to wipe your tears.

“I know you're not too hot on the idea of marriage. Specially with what's going on in the world. So thank you, Levi." you murmur, voice getting thick as you stare at his bluish gray eyes. "For everything.”

Levi takes a deep breath and nods as takes your soft hand in his calloused ones. “Anything for you, Y/n.” he says, eyes dancing across your beautiful face. If Historia hadn’t spent a good hour putting your hair up in this delicate up do, Levi would have messed with your hair. It is after all his most usual way of showing his affection for you besides the rare one arm hugs or super quick chaste kisses on your forehead.

So instead, he squeezes your hand gently before holding it out.

Levi could swear he felt every heartstring in his chest tear the moment your hand slid over to Erwin’s.

“Thank you for doing this for us, Levi. ” Erwin says sincerely, clasping his shoulder. Levi nodded numbly, lips twitching as he tries to force a smile.

Levi takes his place on the front row beside Hange who tries to discreetly look at him with worried eyes. Levi sighs as he watches two of people he cares for the most in the world make their vows to love one another for as long as they both shall live.

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[missmarj]

If You Are But A Dream

I took a break from all the sad and angsty drafts i'm working on because my lord, my poor Steve has been going through so much in How Do I Let You Go. So here's fluff for y'all.

Pairings: Steve Rogers x Reader; mentions of Sam and Bucky as per usual. (my holy trinity)

Warnings: None, just a little cute make out scene and a whole lotta fluff.

Summary: Days off meant seeing Steve in your favorite state, carefree and relaxed. It gave you the chance to marvel at him from a far. You thought it would be just like any other Sunday morning, but boy, were you wrong.

A smile stretches your lips as you watch Steve sketch by the window. He sits on the floor in the common room in his tank top, pyjamas and bed head, legs crossed, his big toe swaying in tune with the old song playing through the speakers, a small bit of his tongue trapped between his plump lips in concentration as his hand glides over his sketchbook. You burn the image in your mind, happily storing away this rare picture of Steve Rogers relaxed, carefree.

You've always wished the man happiness and peace because he truly deserves it. His golden heart and bravery is often taken for granted by the very world he desperately tries to save. He had been through so much, lost a big part of who he his and sacrificed pretty much everything he had for a world that did not deserve him. Sometimes, Steve is just too good to be true, like he's just a figment of someone's imagination and it scared you to even blink in fear you'll awake from such a beautiful dream. All you want to do is shower him with love and keep him safe.

He senses your presence and he looks up at you, flashing you such breathtaking smile that your heart swell. "Good morning, Y/n." he greets.

"Morning Cap, sorry I didn't mean to disturb you. I'm heading for the kitchen, do you want me to grab you anything?" you ask. Steve pursed his lips to think for a second then picks up his things. "Actually, I'm getting kind of hungry. I'll come with you." You chuckle, nodding as he walks with you then asked, "So am I cooking or are you?" Steve playfully bumped your body with his then looked at you from the side. "You're the better cook, Y/n. Can you make one of those egg dish with sausage and cheese you were eating the other day?" when you turn, you saw Steve was blushing. "I saw you eating the last few pieces remaining on your plate when I walked in on you on the common room and it honestly looked and smelled so good." he admits, eyes closing as he remembers the smell.

You laugh, nodding your head in recognition. "Fritata? Sure. You could've told me you wanted some, Cap." Steve gave you a one shoulder shrug with a sheepish grin. "I didn't want to trouble you." You roll your eyes and snort. "Please Steve, you could never." As you make your way over the counter, Steve's lips broke into an ear to ear grin.

"Can I help?" he asks as you take out the ingredients you need from the fridge and things you will utilize from the cabinets. You turn to him and wave him off. "No, just sit there and relax. Go finish your sketch." you suggested as you put on the apron. "Yes ma'am." he chuckles, taking a seat at the breakfast bar.

You both work in comfortable silence, a blush creeping in your cheeks every time Steve caught you glancing at him. His smiles are really something, you thought to yourself. You look up and commented, "I love the songs you're playing today, Friday." after you put the pan in the oven. The AI's voice sounded together with Frank Sinatra's All Through the Day saying, "It's Captain Rogers' playlist." your brows raised as you turn to Steve. He is blushing as he asks, "You like it? The other guys usually don't. Tony and Natasha teases me about it." he rolls his eyes. "I love it." you say, and meant it.

Steve practically jumped off his seat as you take the pan out of the oven, biting his lip as he watch you plate it, looking over your shoulder. "Y/n, that looks so good." he murmurs, eyes glistening. God if cooking a simple dish like this makes him happy, then you just might actually attend cooking classes if that meant putting a smile on Steve's beautiful face every time.

You sit across each other and he took a bite almost instantly. You open your mouth to warn him, worried he might burn his tongue but his eyes drifted close and his lips formed a grin as he chews. He makes a sound in his throat that made you blush. "It tastes better than I imagined." he says, making you laugh. You both sit in peace in the cool Sunday morning, eating good food and listening to Nat King Cole and Frank Sinatra.

"Thank you, Y/n." he says after finishing his meal. You shake your head, laughter escaping your lips as you reached over the table to wipe off a baby spinach bit sticking on the side of his lower lip. Steve swallows hard, his eyes dancing across your eyes and lips. "You've got.. something in your- there!" you giggle, showing your thumb to him with the guilty baby spinach sticking on it. Steve chuckles then gripped your wrist, he leaned forward and put your finger in between his lips without hesitation, cleaning it off. His eyes never leave yours and your breath hitched, the feel of his soft lips in your finger tip dissolving every coherent thought on your mind.

Steve got up from his seat, leaning forward across the table. You watch him lean closer and closer until your eyes flutter close. Next thing you know, his lips was pressed against yours. Gentle and sweet, warm and damp. You open your eyes only to see him looking right at you. You feel him smile against the kiss and you did too. He pulls away just enough to lean his forehead against yours, a face splitting grin on his face. "If you do that everytime I cook for you, then consider the rest of your life's meals cooked by me." you say breathlessly, biting your lower lip.

Steve sits back down on his seat and pulled you across the table by the wrist he was still holding. The smile on his face and the twinkle in his eyes makes you blush crimson as you crawl across the table. Steve sat you on his lap and you cross your ankles behind his slim waist. He holds your face and bites his lower lip, "I would love that. Can this happen? Please?" You acted like you thought about it for a second then shrugged, "It can. But you've got to take me out on dates from time to time, Captain." You feel his chest rumbles in your palms as he laughs. "Agreed." Steve nods, cocking his head to the side to kiss you again, deeper this time. "You have no idea how long I've waited to do this." You giggle and pull away as you ask, "Yeah? How long?" Steve recaptures your lips leaning forward to trap you between his body and the table. "Far too long, my Y/n." he murmurs then sighed happily.

"What the hell is happening in here??" you both jump as Sam's voice suddenly fill the kitchen. Bucky rolls his eyes, casually walking to the fridge completely unphased by the position you and Steve were in at the moment unlike Sam. "Isn't obvious, Birdbrain? Rogers finally grew a pair and won the girl over." Bucky winks at Steve as he drinks a glass of water. Steve groans and burries his face on the crook of your neck thinking about all the teasing that awaits you and him.

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[missmarj]

What a Price to Pay

Pairing: Steve x Reader

Mentions: Bucky and Sam

Warnings: None, just a short fluff

"Steeeve! Have you seen my hand wrap? I can't find it anywhere." you yell from the bathroom as you search the drawers, only to find Steve standing by the door and already holding it out for you. "Ohh, thank you baby. I swear I'm almost done, I'll just go get my-" Steve chuckles, holding out your hairtie and watch on his other hand. A sheepish grin is spreading on your lips as you walk towards him and you wrap your arms around his neck. "You're the best. What would I do without you?" you ask, kissing his cheek. Steve rolls his eyes before leaning down to kiss you on the lips. "I guess you'll never find out. I'm not planning to go anywhere." he murmurs, leaning in for a kiss once more.

"Are you two going to train with us or would rather just suck each other's face all day?" Sam teases, standing in the hallway with a smirk on his face. "It's not their fault you're single and bitter, Wilson. Leave them alone." Bucky gave you and Steve a wink as he pushes Sam to continue walking. "We'll wait for you there." he calls back.

"Your best friends sure are charming, Rogers." you chuckle. Steve sighs as he walks with you to the door, hand in hand. "You know, once we're married, you're going to have to deal with those two all your life. We're kind of a package deal." You fake a grimace then bury your head in his chest, your arms snaking around his slender waist. "Dear God, what a price to pay." you groan making Steve laugh.

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[missmarj]

Without You

Word Count: 2021

Pairing: Steve x Reader

Mentions: Tony Stark, Natasha Romanoff, Bruce Banner, Bucky Barnes, Clint Barton, Wanda Maximoff, Thor, Nick Fury

Summary: The team expresses grief of losing you. The team held a funeral service and some shared a few words before letting you go

Warnings: Angst, Feels train.

No one can really say how or what they’re feeling because it still doesn't feel real to them. Tony looks around the empty common room, smiling half-heartedly as he can still see you sitting by the window with Steve as you two sketch each other. Tears start to pool in his eyes which he immediately blinks away as the AI's voice broke the deafening silence. "Everything's been overseen, Boss. Director Fury will be coming in anytime soon."

Natasha walks aimlessly to the common room with the rest of team in tow. They all fall lifelessly on the surrounding couches with red rimmed puffy eyes. Bruce looks around looking for someone in particular, finally he asks, "Where's Steve?" All he got as a response were blank stares and a remorseful shake of head from Bucky. Tony sighs as he turns the screen on, turning on the news channel.

Last Friday morning, rumors surfaced about a certain Avenger passing and it spread widely like wild fire but no one hears from the team of heroes. Until today when Agent Maria Hill, the acting spokesperson of the Avengers, finally addressed the news. Now the entire world mourns for the loss of Y/n Y/l/n. We send our sincerest sympathy and prayers to the hero's closest friends and relatives. Here's a short tribute from the network. These are just some of the moments we were privileged to capture of one of the bravest and most inspirational hero, Y/n.

Thor felt his heart clench as Y/n's laughter sounds through the speakers making him look up to the screen. Tears stream down Tony's face as series of Y/n's previous interviews on the news show play. He wipes it away quick but more tears keep falling.

"Look at her, that's during the community outreach." Clint clears his throat and continues, "She's been building houses for hours that day. She looks like a freaking angel." Clint says, smiling fondly but tears were pooling at his eyes. Natasha shakes her head laughing, "It's not fair, look at Wanda and I on the background! We look so haggard!" she covers her mouth as the laughter fade into silent pained sobs.

"I love my team mates. They're all dorks, honestly. Except for Nat, that woman is just fucking cool no matter what she does!" Y/n covers her mouth her eyes widening. "Sorry! I can't swear right?"

"Yes, Steve Rogers and I are dating. He's all mine." You hug Steve's waist and jumped up to kiss his bearded jaw, leaving a blushing Steve looking anywhere else but the camera.

Steve's jaw clenches and he felt as if his teeth would break for trying to hold the sobs from escaping his mouth. He turns away, leaning against the doorway and feeling the world shift all around him. The light thud made everyone look his way. Only Bucky had the balls to walk up to him, he pulls him in a hug

Nick Fury enters the common room and saw the world's mightiest heroes at their most vulnerable. Tony looks his way and he nods. "Team. It's time." Nick says solemnly and he was greeted with red rimmed eyes. Steve squeezed Bucky's shoulder and he gave him a tired smile. As they make their way out of the tower, they exchanged wide eyed glances. So much people came out for Y/n's funeral service.

Natasha shakes her head, smiling. "Didn't know you're such a little Ms. Popular, huh?" she mutters, looking up at the bright blue sky. "Look at all these lives Y/n touched. That girl never ceases to amaze me." Thor says fondly, Bruce chuckle at his side, nodding in agreement. Steve chokes on his tears as he sees Y/n's picture by her casket smiling widely as Bucky almost half drag him to their seats.

"We've gathered here today to remember the beautiful life of Agent Y/n Y/L/n." Nick says, flashing a smile at Y/n’s photograph. "A life she dedicated fighting for what she believes in and doing all that she can for the world. We just lost ourselves one hell of a hero but heaven above just earned themselves back an extraordinary angel. In honor of the life she lived, a few members of our team are going to share with you, fond memories they've shared with Y/n. This way, before we let her go," Nick's voice broke at the end and he tries to recover quickly, casting his gaze down and clearing his throat. "We can get to know her in ways we never did before."

"Today is Independence day. It's one of Y/n's favorite holiday. She used to drag me to all these families that had recently lost their loved ones from war. We'd visit veteran homes and she'll spend the afternoon busying herself in the kitchen to prepare them a special dinner while most people are out partying. She honors as much person who dedicated their lives so the world can be a little bit less messed up as she can." Wanda looks at Y/n's casket, placing a trembling hand on it. "I didn't fully understand her dedication before, but now, I do. I just can’t believe that the next Independence day I’ll be celebrating, you’re one of the fallen heroes I’ll be honoring, Y/n.” Wanda tried to muffle her sobs with her hand but completely failed. “I will honor you every day of my life. Thank you for teaching me and guiding me. You’re the best sister I never had."

“Out of all us in team, she’s the only one who can actually cook. Before we had her we relied on take outs, deliveries and ready-to-eat meals from Stark Industries which I can tell you is not one of their strengths.” Sam chuckles, flashing a knowing smile to Tony who merely rolls his eyes. “I always look forward to our Saturday nights when we get all fancy with the wine and whatever five star quality meal Y/n just effortlessly puts out for us. I really regret not making a move on her before Mr. Captain America here swept her off her feet because, Goddamn, that woman was wifey material.” The crowd laughs, Steve smiling and shaking his head at his friend. Sam’s smile fades as his gaze lay on the casket in front of him. He sighs and wet his lips. “I can’t believe that you’ve left us to fend for ourselves, Y/n. I mean, who’s going to stop Bucky and I from killing each other next time we get into a fight? That’s real lousy, girl.” He swallows hard, eyes falling on the podium as he tried to recompose himself. “I’m gonna miss you.”

“I met a lot of fighters in my life but I rarely meet fighters who avoid the fight because they know they’ll win.” Natasha says smiling warmly at Bruce. “Y/n has offered mercy to every single foe we met. Every. Single. One. She never really believed that a person can’t not have goodness within them. She always tries to see beyond the ugly truth. Always tries to see past someone’s dark side. Always believed in hope and in love.” A shaky breath escapes Natasha and she looks away as tears fall down her cheeks. “We never really deserved her.” She mutters.

“Y/n is the type of person that you just know when she’s in the room. Just like a ball of sunshine. Extremely intelligent, charming and stubborn, which is just the most dangerous combination. She also seems like she’s got everything figured out, always knowing what to do and what to say. It’s crazy because I’m over a hundred years old and I can’t do half the shit she’s able to do.” Bucky laughs, the whole team laughing with him. “My pal, Steve is one of the most selfless people I know and if there was anyone, ever, worthy of someone like Y/n? It’s him. And they’re just the best couple around. Not big on PDA unlike some couples,” he shoots a glare at Wanda and Vision currently in each other’s arms, causing everyone to look their way and laugh. “But sometimes annoying as hell because you know you can never have it as good.” Natasha runs a comforting hand on Steve’s shoulder as he let a few tears slip. Bucky pauses for a second, his eyes filling with tears as he looks at Y/n’s photograph. Finally he smiles continues, “You just rest up in there now, okay sweetheart? I’ll be protecting Steve and the rest of the team from now on.” He says then adds, “Even Sam, I promise.” Steve lets out a tearful laugh, clasping Sam’s shoulder.

“Everyone thought I was crazy when I first brought in Y/n like they had when I brought Peter. But weeks later, they’re all in love with her. Typical.” Tony rolls his eyes and the team laughs, reminiscent. “My favorite thing about Y/n is that she’s never really afraid of standing firm on what she believes in and it kinda made sense that she ended up with you, Cap. I mean that in every best way possible, by the way.” Tony grins at Steve who smiles back muttering a thank you. “The tower now is all sorts of lonely without you, Y/n. It’s literally quieter.” He chuckles, shaking his head. “I’ll miss hearing you yell over Sam and Bucky’s grunts and I never thought I’d see the day when I tell you that I’ll miss your out of the blue squeals of excitement over the littlest good news you get. Can’t believe I’ve found it annoying then.” Tony looks to the side, discretely wiping a tear. He sighs and continues, “You always said that you were lucky because we we’re all actually friends not just team mates. But it was us, Y/n. We were the lucky ones.”

As Steve takes the podium, a cool wind blew past the warm sunny morning. His nostrils flared and his eyes shut close. His senses fill with the sweet smell of roses, just like how Y/n’s hair used to smell. “I know baby, I love you.” He whispers, acknowledging her presence. Finally he opens his eyes and saw the faces of every single person that loved the woman that meant the world to him. He saw the beauty of her life through them and this put a smile on his trembling lips.

“Y/n Y/m/i Y/l/n was born on Y/b/d, in Y/h/t. A loving daughter, a friend, a brave soldier and one of the strongest women I had the privilege to meet. She spends most of her days off in different orphanages, homes for the elderly, rehabilitation centers, prisons and facilities for those with special needs. Sometimes I ask myself if she’s even real. She’s relentless in believing the world could get better. I lost that hope a while back after years of fighting other people’s battles and losing everything I love in the process.” He says, gazing towards Bucky with a sigh.

“But, Y/n, she-“ Steve pauses, clearing his throat. “She made me believe again that it can get better. That you just have to try harder than you did before. She restored my faith.” Steve’s hands combs through his hair, his fingers locking on the back of his head. He lets a few tears fall with a ragged breath. By this time, everyone is in tears and the silence was deafening. “She’s the woman of my dreams. She’s my world. I honestly don’t know what to do now that she’s gone. Just imagining waking up tomorrow in a world where she isn’t there any more kills me.” Steve scoffs, a sad smile forming in his lips. “But I know if you’re here right now, you’ll tell me, “Steven Grant Rogers, you walk it off! That’s what we do.”  with that look on your face as you use my own words against me.” The team nods in agreement, broken smiles painting over their tear-stained faces. “So, Y/n, baby, I hope you grant me the strength to push through. Because I mean it. For the first time in my life, I really don’t know what to do.” He whimpers, placing a trembling hand on your casket.

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[missmarj]

Being Best Friends with Bucky Barnes

would include:

• Late night snacking whenever the other gets nightmares, spending the night on the couch watching random shows till you fall asleep together.

• Suprisingly, tons of affection! He would shower you with lots of hugs and snuggling

• Possesive Bucky

"Fuck Barnes, would it kill you to lend me y/n for a goddamned second??" Sam yells one afternoon as he tugs on your arm, pulling you off of the couch. Bucky laughs then bites his lower lip. He lives for anything that pisses poor Sam Wilson off. Bucky caught your waist before Sam could pull you out of the couch completely, looking over your shoulder with a smirk on his face. "Not a chance, Birdbrain. Let go." He teases, his arms wrap around your waist holding you firm on his lap.

"She's my buddy for the next op! I need to discuss strategy!" Sam argues, tugging on you again. "Bucky, let go." You snicker, patting his arms around you. He pouted then rolled his eyes but lets go. "I'll catch you at dinner." Bucky calls after you as Sam glares at him.

• Getting used to his puppy-like tendencies; laying on your lap, being around you as much as his free time allows, playing with your hair

• Your closeness makes people think youre fucking each other

"So you two are doing it, right?" Wanda would squint her eyes, her plum lips twitching as she fought the urge to smile.

"Of course they're screwing. Just look at them! You honestly think anybody could be that 'close' without getting freaky on the sheets before the day ends??" Natasha would point at you laying on Bucky's chest or Bucky laying his head on your lap. Hearing these type of things only makes you and Bucky snuggle closer together to tease them. Sometimes you even go the extra mile and grab a pillow to hold over your and Bucky's faces and pretend to make out. You couldnt stop giggling as Bucky makes the kissy noises.

• Steve wanting so bad for you and Bucky to be together because he sees how happy he is around you

"You two should start going on dates." Steve commented one time over breakfast as Bucky leans over to you to put waffles on your plate. "We will, Steve. Thanks for that suggestion." Bucky would say nonchalantly to which you would say something like. "We actually already tried, but meh, he's too gentle with me." Or "Tell me about it, Steve. Ive been waiting for him to ask." Resulting in Steve rolling his eyes and shaking his head as you and Bucky laugh at him.

• Jealous Bucky

You were pretty close with Peter since you both share the love for pop culture and sometimes Bucky would act all jealous. He would sit in between you and Peter in the middle of conversation then go, "Carry on, kid. Dont mind me." As he drapes an arm around you or lean on your shoulder then open a book you know he has zero interest in.

• Having these conversations

"If we're still single by 45, we should, you know, get married."

"Fuck you, y/n."

"What? You don't want-"

"I'm over a hundred years old!!"

"Oh. Right."

"If Steve and I get married and we fight, who would you side with?"

"Steve of course, in a heartbeat. Ditch your ass, Bye!"

"Fuck you."

"You asked, I answered!"

"I want kids someday. If I don't find someone, will you help me make one?"

"Sure, I'll be your baby momma."

"Thanks, y/n."

"Sure pal."

"But we have to actually do it. Not that in vitro thing Tony and Pepper did with their fourth kid."

• Having that moment, where everything kinda goes in slow motion you look in each other's lips then eyes, searching. Then finally leaning in, closing the distance between your lips.

Then going..

"Yeah, nope."

"The hell were we thinking?!"

"Euk!" Then laughing at the same time.

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