#move pn

[protagonistpolling]

!!!!!!!!!

Why should you vote for these characters?

She was not submitted with propaganda, and there are no tags giving propaganda for her. 2 nominations.

The above is same for the Pine twins, but they got 1 nomination together.

Why should you vote for Razputin Aquato? (2)

"10 year old saves the world with the power of therapy and friendship"

"he has an actual Personality and a DAMN good one too"

Why should you vote for Shawn and Gus? (1)

"They are just 2 silly guys solving crimes and lying to the police while making up nicknames and being absolutely hilarious"

#poll2023 #tournament poll #sophie hatter #howls moving castle #mabel pines #dipper pines #gravity falls #psychonauts #pn #razputin aquato #psych #shawn spencer #burton gustor #besides them having psych-names they are teamed up bc the notes on that post were crazy and they seem like they would be friends :}

[ottosbigtop]

I love all your morris art. So good !! You also characterize the interns really really well I think . Giving us the intern content Double Fine wasn’t strong enough to provide us with /j

Fr tho, your art is splendid !! :)) it makes me happy

a select few in the audience will be able to attest to the fact that ive been peddling intern content since day one! Im happy to still be able to make images of these weird guys, i greatly enjoy them! thank you for your words!

#Asks :0] #its a shame that ive moved blogs so many times so i can’t have a super cool long-ass tag full of all my psychonauts images. #maybe one day ill load up the queue with all my old pn stuff…. Mayhap….

[kyouka-supremacy]

_

#random rambles #The last ask sent me on five different tangents I wasted the whole afternoon over #I opted against adding this to the ask because it'd be unrespectful to Anon but if I don't let it out somewhere I'll die #Everyone knows how beyond what it may look like that I don't like bsd and that includes Beast #But the ask touches the exact reason why I think Beast ultimately fails as a story #because it constantly tries to frame Akutagawa as evil and heartless; but what's framed as his most cruel action #- the one of mindlessly slaughtering his enemies at the start - is itself moved by love #And I know someone in the wings is already arguing #“that's the whole point. the reader is supposed to see through it‚ and see that Akutagawa wasn't inherently evil to begin with” #… But I don't think that's the case. This is not the place to talk about it but at the same time I don't want to make a post about it #but at the same time I feel like I won't have peace untill I've brought this up. #That's not the case because 1) Dazai says it's not the case‚ and Dazai is the character with most authority in the entire franchise #and 2) Ryuunosuke's later scene with Gin reinforces the fact that Akutagawa's action was cruel and inhuman #But it's not true. It's just that the author is a little nihilist that doesn't believe humans are inherently good. #So please let's just stop pretending they aren't? Because bsd fans. in my very humble opinion - are in severe need of someone #to remember them they are free to like aspects of the franchise even without acting like its morals aren't completely fucked up #Sorry for derailing it's been tormenting me since forever I desperately needed to mention it somewhere. #I've recently read someone say that bsd sustained that humans are inherently good and like... What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck. #Like there ARE series that do that? T/pn is one of them? Read t/pn if you want that? It's good? #But bsd definitely doesn't c'mon it's not that hard #Ugh. sorry for this. It was just to say #I love Beast but I don't like bsd and Beast is part of bsd and Beast does ultimately adhere to bsd's fucked up morals Kyotag out #I'm just saying we should all be able to recognize where our personal worldviwes end and where the author's start. #If you don't you aren't reading you're projecting #I'm not even rereading this #if I'll overthink it a second more I know it'll end up together with my millions black posts at the bottom of my drafts #Post

[tobeblamed]

"it's over for me, it doesn't have to be for you. you can keep going."

"who says i want to?"

chewing on glass

#ooc. #i will never. #shut the fuck up. #about kripke's take on platonic relationships #the way he took common traits (toxic or not) that make up most (if not all) romantic relationships in the media #and decided u know what #that's great but what if it was platonic #nothing but RESPECT #god i feel so blessed #every time i think i've moved on from the show #i remember that i've been gifted with sam and dean's mess of a relationship #and i'm in love with s/pn all over again

[velvet-apricots]

Nepheli: Some call me by the title of Lady, but I remain the same woman underneath. Though I have now abandoned my former guidance. I cannot express how much you've helped me. Fyra, remembering that Godrick’s body is still in a puddle right outside:

#elden ring #godrick the grafted #godrick #yes fyra moves him later #pn's art

[constellarcreator]

I wish I could draw psychonauts fanart consistently again

#bat chatter #i was on a roll back in 2021 but basically all my ideas fizzled out mid 2022 when my living situation changed #and most of my friendgroup moved on from pn #tbh one of the big reasons i stopped being as active on insta and started posting here was to find more pn fixated ppl to talk to #i should probably just revisit old concepts from my massive backlog of old pieces #bc i sure aint just reposting them here bc Old and Ugly

[jnixz]

Apparently one sickly relisten to Frontier Psychiatrist Remix will make me realize “Oh god my Self indulgent AU lore pieces fit this”

#psyn rambles #it fits the important characters that moved the lore anyway #crazy how a feverish brain can also be like 'hey do you wanna know something crazy?' #so now i'm holding the original FP song as pn og universe and the FPR as the AU one

[like-sands-of-time]

It is interesting though. Even from someone who has a healthy working relationship with their parents, there still is a difference between when I accidentally hurt them vs when they accidentally hurt me.

I will talk about what hurt me maybe way after the fact, once there's separation from the issue and it can't feel like I'm being accusing or anything disrespectful on my part. But if I upset my mom, best believe I'm gonna know about it right away. Well maybe not every time, maybe there's things I've done that she doesn't tell me. I can't know that. However, there's been two or three times I can remember us being on the phone and her hanging up on me.

Which is not a thing people do in our family. There's a long goodbye where we talk about something else before saying goodbye again and saying I love you. I have never hung up on her. I'd say maybe I can be more hurtful than her (which could really be true. again I don't know) but her and I are cut from the same cloth. We're very very similar in personality and the way we view things. Everyone including us knows we're very similar and that at times we've butted heads because of it.

She upsets me on the phone and I'm choking back words, feeling hurt but not really knowing how to say that in any type of helpful way so I just don't say it. I upset her and I need to think about what I just said and how it made her feel. I mean there's no way I could ever say that to her right? I have no idea how people just talk to their parents like that. Like there isn't any form of boundary between them. Like they're equals (not as human beings but equals in the household. Theres a difference. The elders should always be respected and regarded and I do believe that. And this isn't about treatment usually. I am obviously in good regard with them. There's just a difference. I am not equal to my parents. Obviously.)

#theres no real point or conclusion here just a situationally relevant journal entry type post #it is what it is and we'll obviously get over it and move pn #like we do every time. #just hurts in the moment because im a recovering people pleaser and upsetting people feels so terrible #like seriously #but how much guilt am i actually supposed to carry? its not cute to just run your own self over to make people feel better #and it doesnt solve anything #just a sincere apology and move on #she doesnt think about what shes said and give me a sincere apology text #that sounds bitchy whew #nevermind

[cicadas]

If ur so socially isolated then why are you talking to me lol

#personal #idk its those people who disappear and want people to notice their absence and 2hen no one dpes they get pissed like yeah thats called life #also like maybe no one chevks pn you bc they know its just a weird manipulation game to make people perform their caring about you its gros #like ur basically punishing people for not noticing you enough and honestly u cant be mad when ppl dont miss u #actually gatekeeping myself from certain people is an extremely calculated and careful thing for me #also as slmeone whp was fprcibly socially isolated for a lot of my life it fucking annoys me when people 'choose' isolation just to be #dramatic and manipulative #like fuck you lol i dudnt get to be isolated as a means to some end #i was isolated bc people fucking bullied me #like ???? lol #ive never really understood thus but thats bc i knew that being me if i stopped talking to people they would t even pretend to care theyd j #st move on so lol its funny when normal people choose to isolate themselves and get pissy when other normies dont gaf like yeah babe thats #the world yoy normies live in why are you surprised haha #also if you choose to be isolated maybe its reasonable to assume sometimes people want to spend time alone and not everyone is responsible #for your mental wellbeing or to manage whether youre being alone to mediate abd take time for yourself or like out of depression #how is anyone supposed to know that? #quite often i just like to be alone with my son. its not that deep. but anyway i hate people that use isolation as a tool to manipulate #others bc i didnt choose this its just my life and i dont do it to bully people into treating me better actually i feel guilty about it and #wish i wasnt like this so i could do more for the people i love #alao the way people just aasume others will miss them bc their presence is SO wonderful and fulfilling 😂😂😂😂like girl get a grip

[pastelfates]

How does separation anxiety manifest in Mana, if at all? Does she throw herself into her work?

༶♡༶ Mana and seperation anxiety is a hard subject to broach. It's probably hard to believe but Mana does not get seperation anxiety over her family or friends, she can very well function without them and has done so numerous of times. What she does get anxious being away from is Mister Bun Bun. The plush rabbit that I at least try to mention she has in most threads.

It was ages ago the last time it had any relevance but Mana cannot actually function if he ends up misplaced. And that's because it holds so much importance and value to her. Out of all the things and dolls she owns it is the only one her mother made for her so it is a reminder of her mother's love.

Mana has a lot of anxiety anyways and it tends to be obvious when she tugs at her skirt or hugs her plushies, but if Mister Bun Bun is nowhere to be seen she goes into full breakdown. Like almost to the point where an angel will get shutdown and put into survival mode levels of anxiety.

Gosh ref to the old thread on the deactivated blog but she spent hours searching in stormy weather looking for him and she absolutely lost her marbles on someone over stepping on him. That doll is her life.

#constellationcrowned #◌・❀➵ mana (info) #Idk if you can get seperation anxiety over a doll but that is the best way to describe it #Time moves dif for Mana so her family being away isnt that big of a deal to her?? #Bun Bun on the other hand-- unless he is pn her bed he has to be in her arms or bag

[pn-thoughtsofdread]

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose." — Dr. Seuss, Oh, The Places You'll Go

Happy new year, 2024. It’s crazy to think we’ve actually made it this far. Last year was a total and absolute shit show so I am determined that this year will be about healing, and growth. Here’s to no emergency room visits, stumbling into unwanted relationships, self hatred or dangerous thoughts. I’m hoping this year I can explore more artistically as i now have studio space to do so, and figure out who I am. I’m looking forward to another year on this crazy planet. Let’s try to make it a good one.-PN

#quotes #spilled thoughts #thoughts of dread #my thougts #pn #new year #2024 #high hopes #wellness #well wishes #good luck #moving forward

[toastsnaffler]

spoke too soon abt my fucking period 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐

#its two weeks late and it was a MISERABLE two weeks of pms and i thought well at least now its started its v light/watery so wont get in- #the way of cleaning or moving! and now its 3am final night + this is extremely heavy and blindingly painful ow fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i dont want to be awake rn i want to sleep thru the fucking night so im not exhausted tmr jghfhfhh #well most shit is done at least i dont have to fuckinf vacuum with this motherfucker ow but not being able to stand long is. not ideal!!! #ok i can take the bus to the station and then i wont have to be on my feet for longer than like. ten consecutive mins #and i can double up on codeine before i go its only an hour and a half and i can get my flatmate to help carrying stuff if i need to #ive travelled with worse than this before at least im travellinf with someone else ohbbut we wont have hot water until we get our kettle #well we can boil it on the stove. i guess bht thats really annoying maybe theres a local pharmacy i can get heat strips from friday am #i have heavy pads in the bathroom there so thsts fine. ouaugghf. just gotta get thru it hour by hour hopefully this is the worst now please #ok this is kicking in now i hope i wont be too woozy from painkillers tmr bht thats the smallest problem tnh and hot water bottle going back #to bed goodnighy everyone :^((((((( #maybr she'll let me sleep pn her on thr train woudlnt that be nice #okokok #.diaries

[ace-with--a-mace]

the dreamsmp people are arriving the apocalypse is near i fear

#idc if they still use the dreamsmp name all i know is dream is a dick and a lot of ppl are racist and ssmbody died #but one of the white guys moved here and popped up and the fans pn twt are making accounts for him #l speaks #shut up l #very limited knowledge but

[hellfire--hearts]

the truth is, because I was a lazy piece of shit kid, now I have to deal with levels of pain that'd have most ppl bashing their head in until they die just to make myself a fucking sandwich. and I'm going to have to live with that for the rest of my life. I destroyed my own life. I have nobody to blame but myself. literally everything negative in my life is my own fault

#im the reason he cant get a job om the reason they lost their apartmrnet im the reason they havent been able to move away yet #if i was more supportive maybe theyd be okay but i told myself lies about 'self care' and 'domt set yourself pn fore to keep others warm' #they forget to tell you that when uoure as disabled as me your only use is kindling #at least i can give my life to make theors better. at least i can do that. theres people that cant even manage that

[arminsumi]

˗ˏˋ꒰ 🍒 ꒱ DILF TOJI Ⅱ

Toji x fem!reader / part Ⅰ

Overview; Toji's a mean, cheating dilf

Warnings; 🔞MDNI, nasty awful SMUT, infidelity, slight dubcon, age gap, slight size kink, mean!dom!Toji x sub!reader, light humiliation, dirty talk, light spanking, hairpulling, light dacryphilia, making you call him 'master' 🥵 orgasm control, pn 'bitch', Toji ain't shaved down there 😏, i think it's 🐶 position??

Tormenting you with pleasure is dilf!Toji's favorite pastime, he absolutely adores that dumb look on your face as your tongue lolls out your mouth and your eyes roll into the back of your head.

"You look like a pornstar, baby." He sneers, "Have you got no shame? You know this is the same bed where I knocked up my wife? Doesn't that make you feel bad? 'Eh, too fucked out to care, hm?"

He's right. He's totally right. You're too fucked out to care, to even form a coherent thought that isn't sinful. The pressure his fat, dirty cock exerts on your gummy walls is unbearable, almost crossing the line of uncomfortable.

Those nasty squelching sounds that your pussy makes when squeezing and sucking on his dick is outright delicious to him.

"Oh, Toji — " you mewl, pawing at his muscles.

He grabs a fistful of your hair and yanks your head back, forcing you into an arched position.

"You better call me master in bed, or you're not allowed to cum."

"I'm sorry master!" you whine, feeling your hole clench and unclench uncontrollably around his nasty cock.

"That's better. Now milk my cock dry with that pathetic little cunt."

The way he stretched you out made you shudder.

And his thrusting... dear lord. Merciless. Unforgiving. He's ruining you for other men, making your pussy mold to the shape of him.

So many fat tears rolled down your cheeks that you started sniffling, hiccoughing, moaning; you sounded like you were really going through it.

"Are you fuckin' cryin'?" he cooed cruelly, "Can't take it?"

"No, I can take it! I can take it!" you cry determinedly, relaxing your little hole so he can get deeper. That puts a pleased smile on his face.

When he's close, he growls into your ear, getting balls deep even if your pussy can barely handle it.

His cock spits out thick, creamy ropes of cum. His big, veiny hand lands a harsh slap on your ass. He lets out another low growl at the sight of your ass jiggling.

"Now you can cum." he permits. "C'mon, show me how dirty this pussy can get."

You work it back on his cock like an animal in heat, panting erotically like some hentai voice actor. He just thinks you're so pitifully cute; just some dumb young bitch needy for a married man's dick.

"Keep going, get that relief." he encourages, intently watching you bounce your hole up and down on his messy cock. You've creamed all over him, it's being frothed up at his base.

And it feels so good when you reach the base of his cock with each sloppy move, because he's so thick there. You can feel his hair brush up against your skin, tickling it.

Even the buildup to your orgasm feels threateningly good, you have to cling to anything within reaching distance to comfort your body.

When it rushes through you, Toji just chuckles to himself. "Mmm, love that young lil' pussy. Look at the mess you made on my cock."

He forces your head down to look at all the cream and cum and slick all over his cock.

#♥️ 𝐓𝐎𝐉𝐈 𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐔𝐑𝐎 — 伏黒甚爾 #toji #toji fushiguro #mdni #smut #toji smut #jjk #jujutsu kaisen smut #jjk smut #jjk x reader #toji x reader #toji x female reader #toji x you #jjk toji #fushiguro toji #jujustu kaisen #dilf toji #toji x reader smut #daddy toji #toji fushiguro smut #toji imagine

[songmingisthighs]

Wanbelyn

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ch. xxxvii - sugar cube

neurosurgeon!hongjoong × reader

buy me coffee ?

where love and peace is held, i never expected for this to happen. i planned and i planned, i expected, and i hoped, but it was never you. you held what i wanted hostage to make room for you, the thing that i needed but has no means of acceptance. deny me, live your best life.

It didn't occurred to you that you had fallen asleep until you felt hands tapping your shoulders gently, slowly waking you up from your slumber.

"Hey, did you fall asleep here?"

Your eyes adjusted for a moment, trying to remember where you were only to feel your lower spine cracking as you shifted in your seat. It was a mistake fallung asleep while sitting on the floor of Hongjoong's bedroom.

Realizing you had let out an involuntary groan that was louder than you intended, your eyes snapped to the boy sleeping in a sprawled out starfish position to make sure that he didn't wake up and thankfully he was still snoring (and drooling) away. "When did you came home?" You croaked out as you tried to stand up in front of Hongjoong who was snickering at you, "Just now. Has Kijoong eaten lunch?" Your head turned to the side to look at the clock that had struck 2.37 so you nodded, "Yeah he ate around an hour ago before I put him down for a nap," you said as you stretched a little while Hongjoong nodded, soon moving to put his work bag by his side of the bed after giving Kijoong a peck on his forehead.

"Hey, you must be hungry. I'll go heat up lunch," before you stepped out of the room, you made sure to turn pn the baby monitor you had put on the bedside table on Kijoong's side before clipping the other on your jeans. As you checked if the monitors were functioning correctly, Hongjoong took notice and furrowed his eyebrows, "Is that his baby monitor??" You spared him a glance and nodded, "Yeah, I've been using it this whole time when I need to do stuff when Kijoong is asleep. I'll go get food ready for you," with that, you left the room.

Hongjoong couldn't help but stare in awe of the way you're taking care of his son with what he could only see as expertise and affection. Though he wasn't that attentive, he noticed the shift in the way you cared for Kijoong. You still held a firm hand but you seem to be more nervous, cautious, even paranoid to leave him all alone. While Hongjoong appreciated you staying at his place to care for Kijoong, he wonderee why you volunteered in the first place. You may have your own reason and he wouldn't dare pry if not needed, but it did made him wonder if this was what Kijoong's own mother do had she been around for this situation. That is... Had she even been around for Kijoong, would he still have pnes?

Trailing behind slowly, Hongjoong watched the way you move around his apartment. Over the course of a month, you had made several changes in his place to the point that it didn't feel like his apartment anymore. It felt like a home. There were more proof of life what with scattered toys that weren't there because Kijoong would usually be at the hospital daycare after school, his stove now have scratches and his pots and pans have scorched bottoms. To add to that, his home smells different. It smells like warmth that spreads through his chest.

"You look like you're deep in thoughts," Hongjoong jumped at the sound of your voice. Though you had your back on him, you talked like you were watching him this whole time. "I'm..." he was trying to come up with an answer but he couldn't think of any. Even when you turned around to place the soup you made on the table, he was still standing there just staring. You walked around the table and pull up the chair he usually sat on, patting it twice, "Come on, sit down, I'll get you some rice," you said and he obeyed.

Once seated, his gaze shifted to the food before him and without thinking, he blurted out, "Is this what having a woman in the house feels like?" Your hand froze mid-scoop of rice, surprised at what he said. "I... I was just wondering about Kijoong's mom," Hongjoong continued. It was the first time he had mentioned Kijoong's mom ever since you started working there.

You were silent when you closed the rice cooker's lid and even as you placed the bowl in front of Hongjoong and sat across him. You were curious, sure, and you've never really had the opportunity to ask him. Thinking about how it was just the two of you and Kijoong was asleep, you decided to ask. "What happened to Kijoong's mom anyways?"

To be frank, you expected him to be taken aback, pausing momentarily, something. But Hongjoong simply chuckled as he reached for a sausage from one of the banchan plates spread in front of him. "Her name was Seo Aejeong and I met her at the hospital by accident the first year I became a resident. She said she was waiting for a friend who's seeing a psychiatrist there and we ended up talking and even exchanging numbers. She mentioned how she wanted to become a doctor too but ended up going against it because she wanted to have a family of her own and being a doctor meant she couldn't dedicate her time to tend to her children even though she had the capabilities. I found that admirable and we started seeing each other outside the knowledge of anyone at the hospital and... Around four months later... Well..." "Even doctors forgot protection, huh?" you teased, causing his face to flare red in embarrassment, "It broke, okay?" he huffed, shoving a rolled omelette in his mouth and chewing aggressively like how Kijoong would when you told him he couldn't have chocolate before dinner.

"We both agreed to have the baby because we were on the same page on most things and after further discussion, we were financially able to anyway. But shit fell apart when I brought her to her first check-up," he sighed and you could tell that what he wanted to say next was more baffling than it is painful. "There, I found out that she wasn't even who she said she was. See, when I met her, she told me that her name was Seo Aejeong, turns out, her name was Kang Minhee and she was the patient of Mingi's Attending and mentor. The life she told me about was half true and half a lie which was made so because she has Borderline Personality Disorder which causes delusion. In this case, she believed that she wasn't Kang Minhee, she believed that she was Seo Aejeong, a girl who went missing in 2002, the same day Kang Minhee got separated from her nanny when they went to a park only to be found at the doorstep of her family's estate 4 days later. Or so people told her because she believed that her rich family paid someone to kidnap Seo Aejeong and pretended like she was Kang Minhee because the real Kang Minhee died. She believed it was so because she had no recollection of her life before that."

You were staring at him with your mouth agape, shocked that this Grey's Anatomy-level drama was part of your life. Hongjoong looked up after taking a sip of his soup, confused by the way you were staring at him, "What?" He asked as if he hadn't just told you what was probably the juiciest story you've ever heard. "I'm sorry, aside from that AMAZING backstory, what actually happened? Where is she now?" Then, that moment, with that question came pain. "I... Well, we did end up having Kijoong and we even lived together. I actually got close to Mingi because of her as he was tasked to keep an eye on Kijoong's mom and he helped me aid her condition because when she gave birth, she got into a rather serious postpartum depression. Her parents wanted to put her in a postpartum care centre not because they thought she needed it, but because they thought the baby would need the attention their daughter wouldn't give them. Nice people they are, Kijoong's other grandparents. They still try to chip in every now and then and while they didn't get to have a relationship with Kijoong, they still send us things. And at first, I thought she was getting better because she did. After a month of being at the postpartum care centre, she came home happier and it even seemed like she was bonding with Kijoong. Until the day Kijoong hit his three-month milestone, I came home after a long shift to find Aejeong... Minhee... She, sitting on the couch with Kijoong in her arms but she was dressed like she had somewhere to go with a paper that signed her parental rights away on the table. She told me that her giving birth to Kijoong was cathartic because, as she said, he allowed her to leave Seo Aejeong behind and move forward as Kang Minhee for her own well-being," he said, smiling bitterly.

You were not one prone to serious violence but at that moment, you really do want to find whoever that Seo Aejeong/Kang Minhee is and beat the living shit out of her. It was one thing to get pregnant accidentally, but it was a whole other thing when she gave birth and realized it was a "cathartic" experience that allowed her to "move on" with her life. Who the fuck does that?

You slammed your hand on the table, effectively causing Hongjoong to choke on his soup, "What the fuck!? She used Kijoong as a therapy tool? I mean I get that she has mental issues but that doesn't excuse anything," you scoffed, crossing your arms on your chest as you glared ahead, making it seem like you were glaring at Hongjoong. After managing to calm his breathing down, Hongjoong waved his hand around, "Okay, it's nothing like that. She didn't use him, the catharsis just happened after she gave birth and I do agree that she needed to get better mentally so... I let her go," he said. You couldn't help but squint your eyes at him curiously, "Is that why you haven't been able to move on from her?" Abashed, Hongjoong averted his gaze, "You don't know how it is to have someone you're so fond of be taken away from you," he muttered.

While you didn't know how it was being him, going through what he went through, you had your own experience.

Leaning back against your chair, you smiled up at him, "Don't you ever wonder why I quit my last nursing job?" Sensing that you were about to tell him something, Hongjoong straightened up in his seat, "I lost a kid and I couldn't handle it," you prefaced, "It was a mistake that should have never happened but it did, it happened because there was a lack of communication happening between the nurses and t was so stupid," you sighed. This intrigued Hongjoong as seen from the way he rested his elbows on the dining table and leaned towards you. You then continued, seeing his interest, "I was assigned a case, a kid with a blood disorder which didn't allow his blood to have a strong flow because they clot too easily so we did a coagulant therapy with heparin. His name was Junhyuk and I think he was around eight years old when I met him. He was the exact opposite of Kijoong but I'm willing to bet he would've liked playing with him," Hongjoong couldn't help but crack a grin at how you affectionately laughed at the memories of Jinhyuk and even including Kijoong in your memories. "Because of his condition, he was prone to having a stroke and he actually came in because he had some clots that could potentially risk a heart attack so he was scheduled for a thrombectomy after seeing that the heparin didn't really do much. The hospital I worked at had a strict morning and night nurse schedule rotation we were in the middle of a restructuring so our night nurses were temps. I left that night after checking up on Jinhyuk and I even made sure to note that he had surgery at 8 am the next day. I should've listed what he could or couldn't have because the temp gave him heparin because it was part of his scheduled medication so when a little mishap happened with the catheter, he bled profusely and because everyone assumed his heparin was stopped, no one suspected that it was the drugs so they opened him up and..." "He bled out on the table," Hongjoong concluded.

"I came to work only to be greeted with the news that Junhyuk had died. I basically had a breakdown and I was given a week off. They did an autopsy on Junhyuk's body and when I found out the cause, I couldn't bring myself to come back to work. I blamed myself for what happened." You had been trying to hide your tears but when Hongjoong slipped tissues into your hands, you realized he was paying every bit of attention to you. "Is that why you were so... Frantic when Kijoong choked on jello? Because you lost a kid?" Hongjoong asked, now finding a new side of you he hadn't taken into account before. "I couldn't let another kid die on my watch," you hiccupped softly. Grabbing your hands, Hongjoong pulled your gaze onto him, "You were not at fault, it was an accident you couldn't have predicted so it's not something you could've prevented. You're only human," he said.

The two of you held hands as you made the realization that you both were not so different after all. You realized why he was so frustrating to you, it was because there was a connection between you two that was amiss for a while.

"Two idiots in a room holding hands, getting emotional over abandonment say what?" you cracked the silence which caused Hongjoong to furrow his eyebrows, "What?" he asked. "What?" you teased. Once he realized what just happened, Hongjoong scoffed, rolled his eyes, and let go of your hands though the grin on his face remained.

The moment was cut short by the sound of soft sobs calling for you from the baby monitor on your hip. "Welp, that's the boss calling," you pushed yourself up and out of your chair, "I'll be back to clean the dishes, you really should consider taking a shower because you smell like cheap coffee and IV drip," you teased, moving past Hongjoong only for him to grab your hand mid-way. You thought he was going to make a snarky remark but your eyes widened slightly at the way he was looking up at you with a soft gaze, "Thank you for taking care of Kijoong and me so well, (y/n). I truly appreciate it," he smiled, causing your heart to automatically skip a beat. Though it was the first time he had ever done that to you, you didn't feel awkward at all. Not even when you squeezed his hand gently, "It's my pleasure, Hongjoong. Really," you smiled back before rushing to tend to Kijoong who had started sniffling and trying to get out of bed to look for you.

It felt nice for Hongjoong to be able to share a person he trusted with Kijoong. For a moment, things felt real. For a moment, it felt like things were where they were supposed to be.

For a moment, he was able to breathe.

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