#my solitude and i

[aromantic-diaries]

Lately I've been taking a philosophical approach to aromanticism and I've come to the conclusion that it is the prime example of the fact that anything that humanity believes in can be contradicted in some way. Romantic love is believed to be the most universal thing ever, the ultimate goal, the most beautiful thing to exist, and yet aromantic people still exist. We don't feel that way. We are the contradiction

#aro #aromantic #arospec #i am somewhat of an amateur philosopher. not a great one but i do it sometimes. it takes very little and keeps me occupied in my solitude #anyways yeah there is always a contradiction to everything. take aromanticism as that and everything makes more sense

[softhe4rted]

on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries

#hi my post #oooooohhh this is just a compilation of my own feelings lately #i know i have a red de apoyo i know i have my dearest friends but it's so hard to not feel alone when we're so far away #idk i just miss school and having someone to talk to everyday i'm not a text gal i need to hear your voice i need to see you i need someone #to caress my hair i need contact i need closeness i need to know somebody hears me #it's not all bad i do love my solitude but i just .... i just think in a room full of people nobody would choose me #lol i'm gonna stop now i just always use my tags as a venting space xd #also yes i had the audacity to translate alejandra pizarnik but i just couldn't find that bit already translated and i really wanted it her #web weaving #on loneliness #loneliness tag #being alone #jenny slate #japanese breakfast #posing for cars #corinne von lebusa #dadu shin #alejandra pizarnik #fka twigs #home with you #fiona apple #left alone #anne carson #plainwater #kiki smith #parallels #poetry #prose #words #lyrics

[pizzaqueen]

Rest Stop

Written for the prompt ‘rest’ for @steddiemicrofic

387 words / rated T / pre-slash

Recreational drug use

There’s a rest stop on the decommissioned road a little ways out of Hawkins. It’s not a lot of anything, a tin roof over a picnic table, but Steve likes it. Thinks of it as ‘his’ spot, even though Tommy H told him about it. But it’s a good place to be alone. To, well, rest.

And, sure, Hawkins is full of places like that, quiet, empty places, and alone isn’t something Steve likes to be that much, but nights like tonight…

He sighs, tips his beer to his lips. It doesn’t hit him often, but when it does, it’s a restless itch; he can get away from Hawkins, from his house, his job, his nonexistent love life, but he can’t get away from that feeling. Out here he gets close, though.

Tonight, his solitude is short-lived. Footsteps make Steve tense, and a deep voice cuts through the night: “Steve?”

The tension drains; Steve turns. “Hey, Eddie.”

Eddie blinks. “I found you.” He scratches his head, nods at the table Steve’s sitting on. “Mind if I…?”

“It’s a free country.”

“So I’m told.” Eddie’s lips quirk; he sits beside Steve, pulling a joint from his jacket. He waggles it; Steve nods.

“Why were you looking for me?”

An orange flame sparks from Eddie’s lighter, catching the end of the joint. “I wasn’t.” Eddie takes a drag, gives the joint to Steve.

“You said you found me…”

“Don’t have to be looking for you to find you.”

Steve shakes his head. “All right.” He takes a hit, relishing the pleasant buzz, passes it back.

“What brings the valiant Sir Steve out here?”

“I like the quiet.”

“That a hint for me to shut my yap?”

“No.” Steve knocks their shoulders together. “I like listening to you talk.” Why did he say that? He doesn’t really care. Huh.

Surprise flickers over Eddie’s face, but it settles into something pleased. “Good.” He winks. “Because I have plenty of stories to tell.”

After a few moments, Steve says, “Well,” waving his hand, “go ahead.”

Eddie’s eyes sparkle; he starts talking, gesticulating wildly, and Steve realizes the restlessness is gone. Maybe it’s the weed. He’s pretty sure it’s all Eddie.

Okay. Something to look at later. For now, he basks in Eddie’s voice and the easy, restful feeling of being near him.

#steddie #steve x eddie #Steddie fic #Steddie fanfic #steddiemicrofic #this is the one I was worried about being OOC and asked for ‘permission’ to keep writing lol #thanks for the encouragement!! #also this is like one of those nights where you want to be alone but then you find company and it’s better than being alone #i love solitude but idk sometimes it’s what I think I need but it turns out I’m wrong #pizzaqueenfic #i left this in my drafts because I was too chicken to post it but I guess I may as well

[cheesecake801]

Casually dropping all my unfinished digital submas pieces (+1 bonus traditionnal sketch of wurmple and staraptor)

#submas #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #warden ingo #pokemon legends arceus #staraptor #cheesecake801art #my art #pokemon subway boss #legend arceus #pokemon akari #wurmple #eelektross #pokemon fanart #nobori #kudari #threw in there an unfinished comic about doing path of solitude with wurmple #because I was just SO HAPPY AND PROUD WHEN I WON #my lil boi beat that predator all by himself #also warden Ingo and staraptor are being cool as hell #the last drawing of Emmet and Eelektross is a flashback Ingo gets after seeing Akari and wurmple so happy about winning #that certain someone likes winning more than anything after all #had to draw him happy about winning with his loveable eel friend

[kuuwo]

Journey to Solitude 🏔

#just imagine solitude has snow #this was before first council Voryn needs a guard with him #tbf he don’t need a guard he’s just finding excuses to spend time to Nerevar #I wanted to make winter one pic daily before year ends let’s see how I’m going to disintegrate #morrowind #tes #elder scrolls #nerevoryn #indoril nerevar #voryn dagoth #the elder scrolls #my art #illustration

[fisheito]

tbh when they announced fairy tale event my first thought was THIS

#rei would be all #no this tower is great i can do my research and no one can bother me #father has the higher ground. i have owl sentries all over the roof. #this is my wonderful phallic fortress of solitude #only birds and determined climbers (garu) can reach me #kuya #rei

[persephoneflouwers]

Listen I don’t know how to articulate this in an eloquent way but remember that part in sunflower vol. 6 “I dont want to make you feel bad, but I've been trying hard not to talk to you”? It’s like he’s saying I’m trying to protect your solitude but it’s hard, first of all because it’s not something you just know. You have to learn how to create a space where two people in a relationship still feel like they’re their own person, if that makes any sense.

Secondly, because it is a contradiction, if you think about it. Being a couple, being in a couple automatically deletes your solitude state, unless you seek for it, unless you ask for it.

Third, it creates uncertainty when you’re young and in love and you have all these feelings inside your chest they might as well just explode out of your lungs, you want them, you want to be with them (let me inside, wish I could get to know you) and it doesn’t matter how many years have passed since you first got together. There will always be this perpetual urge of belonging to someone that pushes you to just be around each other all the time, to know what’s happening, to worry about them and to take care of them. It makes you paranoid and insecure to know they asked you to wait for when they’re ready to not be alone anymore. It takes a lot of patience and growth and trust to just let them be and live on their own, you know? It’s probably the most selfless act of them all, even when that’s not what you would want (my eyes want you more than a melody, I couldn’t want you any more/I don’t want to be alone in golden).

And I could go on and on and on about how well this concept fits his entire discography.

I could mention Satellite’s «You got a new life, Am I bothering you? Do you wanna talk? Spinning out, waiting for ya to pull me in. I can see you're lonely down there. Don't you know that I am right here?».

Or Daylight’s «you got me cursing the daylight»

Or Canyon Moon’s «I’ll be gone too long from you»

Do I have to mention Adore you? ALL OF IT? Alright, I will: «You don't have to say you love me. You don't have to say nothing You don't have to say you're mine, honey. I'd walk through fire for you, Just let me adore you»

In conclusion, loving him is the antidote, solitude included.

[Such a huge development from Sweet creature’s «I always think about you and how we don't speak enough» by the way]

#and i could go on and on and on #but i cut it here because my phone is dying #does it makes sense idk #it does in my head #hard to articulate my thoughts when im so passionate about lyrics haha #i get very excited sorry! #one day i will even talk about antidotes in Harry’s discography #but that’s not a discourse for a sunday afternoon in 45C heat #lyrics parallels #protect each other solitude #im very sad part of these lyrics are related to Hid Karp00n 😭

[andrumedus]

I ask myself what I will do here on earth with this worthless, defiant body. And I hear my body answer: —What will I do with this spark that believed itself the sun and this breath that believed itself the wind?

Dulce María Loynaz, tr. James O’Connor, Absolute Solitude: Selected Poems; “XXXII”

#literature #poetry #dulce maría loynaz #absolute solitude: selected poems #i have known my body as a plexus of river #a brief inquiry #cuban lit #m #x

[starryluminary]

Dating sim where Noah’s the playable main character and the goal is to get with one of a wide variety of campers on the island (to his protest)

#I started thinking about how life and dating sims tickle my fancy #and as you do I tried forcing total drama into the mold #this is the solution I came to. most shippable man who ever lived #I don’t know why I’m entertaining this stupid little idea but. there should be an even ratio of boys and girls #for the boys Cody Owen and Alejandro are obvious choices #for the girls I propose Izzy Heather and Gwen #if eight is a better number throw Duncan and Courtney into the mix #there’d be a good route where the romance works a bad route where he tries and fails and a neutral route where he either makes a good- #friend or finds happiness with solitude #that’s it. aaaand post #total drama #Starry speaks #no emma cause this is on the island she doesn’t exist yet

[w1lmuttart]

(WIP)

Wind waker scenery that just hits different :’)

#if you’re wondering if my sudden post about the ww ost from yesterday made me draw this then uhh 🧍I can explain. 🏃 #I’m 50/50 on whether this is a wip or if I like the messiness of it #anyway the cave theme from ww goes hard I have listened to it for an hour now #it’s one theme that has all the somber and solitude feels hidden in it in the midst of all the energetic fiun ost #just like the darker aspects of ww is hidden in a generally fun artstyle and at #atmosphere* #alright I’m normal again I’m not gonna focus in on some random cave and it’s ost anymore lmaooo #this is what ww does to my brain #wind waker

[klazje]

Ensign Vanto had entered his cabin.

“Ensign,” Thrawn said. “You disturb my solitude.”

Thrawn (2017) p. 194

okay dracula

#you disturb my solitude eli…i need to look at my artworks #star wars #eli vanto #sw novels #thrawn

[esmes]

i'd be twice the wife she was 🎥 @theriddletrades

#sweeney todd #sweeneytoddedit #broadwayedit #musicaltheatreedit #annaleigh ashford #LET'S TRY THIS AGAIN SHALL WE #if you saw this yesterday... pretend u didn't xoxo #i had a novel in the tags but let's see uh #that's babygirl that's darling heart that's my beloved #a decade and a half of solitude and she got so close #bursting at the seams with love and desperate enough to do anything to keep it close #she was flesh and blood and alive and available and ALL his if only he'd been capable of wanting her enough to take her #the tears glistening on her snarling face oh LORD #yada yada anyway </3 #**

[mrmeriwether]

Rule #1: Always draw Samus buff.

This is non-negotiable.

#art #colors #metroid #samus aran #fanart #can't believe this is my first time drawing her #i wanted to capture the strength pain and solitude of the games

[lucidicer]

(♪)

#my magnum opus ngl... #let me know if the text isnt readable i never really do dialogue and stuff #*evuska #*solitude #ts4 render #ts4 edit #x #cw guns

[fromaliminalspace]

No thoughts, head empty, only the haunting mental image of Eddie Munson waking up in the Upside Down, all alone and bloody and left behind (and maybe even turned into a vampire if we're going with the Kas the Bloodyhanded theory) and having to survive the Upside Down on his own. So it's just him lying on top of the roof of his trailer, guitar in hands, a small but attentive crowd of demobats sitting around him, playing Solitude by Black Sabbath

#eddie munson #kas theory #vampire eddie munson #joseph quinn #steddie #(cuz don't tell me steve won't be in those memories eddie would recall while playing it) #stranger things #stranger things 4 spoilers #black sabbath #stranger things headcanons #Liam whispers into the void #i was just minding my own business and playing whatever came to mind (or lbr to fingers) on my own guitar #when realized it's been a while since i played solitude #and then i got hit with Feels #it just fits too well #ESPECIALLY considering that it's from the album that joseph listened to the most in order to get into character #anyway ngl now i'm kinda tempted to maybe make art or a gifset with these lyrics #Liam writes (a bit)

[frogsandteatime]

I was not made to be apart from the homies for so long

#I am a communal creature #but when I’m in solitude for too long I go feral #I’m gonna start biting if someone doesn’t hold my hand soon