#no i'm not drunk; i have been asked

[theflyingfeeling]

HUH???

this is getting ridiculous can’t they be apart for more than two days?????? 😭😭💞

dude wtf?!?!? 😵 the way my heart jumped, jesus christ Aleksi what are you in Oulu for AGAIN, for the manyeth time since the end of the tour?! this is indeed getting a bit ridiculous and I can't handle it 🤧

#why is he like thiiiiiiisssssssss #i'm absolutely spending the rest of the evening imagining olli/allu fucking in aleksi's hotel room if that's where aleksi's staying again #come oooooooon aleksi whatever you're in oulu for could it REALLY not have been done in helsinki? you just HAD TO go back to oulu? AGAIN?! #for real it's getting really hard for me to NOT imagine they're secretly fucking each other dgdkjgjsgjd #is aleksi ever at home these days #sorry for these tags lol i know i'm just repeating myself but i am losing it as we speak #siiiiiiiiigh #answered asks #sparfloxacin #ollixallu #edit. so many typos and brainfarts lol i swear i'm not drunk i'm just tired and recovering from a killer headache

[khaotunq]

JAMIE @first-kanaphan AND ANTANIA @ayan-sukkhapisit ARE THE GREATEST thank u for tagging me; you're obviously the most incredible humans on the planet

RULES: bold the ones that are true and tag 15 people to do it.

APPEARANCE

Blonde hair (ish?) // I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // I have one or more piercings // I have at least one tattoo // I have dyed or highlighted my hair // I have gotten plastic surgery // I have or had braces // I sunburn easily // I have freckles // I paint my nails // I typically wear makeup // I don’t often smile // I am pleased with how I look // I prefer Nike to Adidas // I wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport (sort of? I boulder.) // I can play an instrument // I am artistic // I know more than one language // I have won a trophy in some sort of competition // I can cook or bake without a recipe // I know how to swim // I enjoy writing // I can do origami // I prefer movies to tv shows // I can execute a perfect somersault // I enjoy singing // I could survive in the wild on my own // I have read a new book series this year // I enjoy spending time with friends // I travel during work or school breaks // I can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIP

I am in a relationship // I have been single for over a year // I have a crush // I have a best friend who I’ve known for ten years // My parents are together // I have dated my best friend // I am adopted // My crush has confessed to me // I have/had a long distance relationship // I am an only child // I give advice to my friends // I have made an online friend // I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell // I have watched the sun rise // I enjoy rainy days // I have slept under the stars // I meditate outside // The sound of chirping calms me // I enjoy the smell of the beach // I know what snow tastes like // I listen to music to fall asleep // I enjoy thunderstorms // I enjoy cloud watching // I have attended a bonfire // I pay close attention to colors // I find mystery in the ocean // I enjoy hiking on nature paths // Autumn is my favorite season

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // I am the mom friend // I live by a certain quote // I like the smell of sharpies // I am involved in extracurricular activities // I enjoy Mexican food // I can drive a stick shift // I believe in true love // I make up scenarios to fall asleep // I sing in the shower // I wish I lived in a video game // I have a canopy above my bed // I am multiracial // I am a redhead // I own at least 3 dogs

Tagging @mushiemadarame @sollucets @jyuubin @stillqueerstillhere @chinzhilla if it tickles yer fancy. +anyone who wants to, as ever, I'll retrospectively tag ya ;)

#it was a struggle to not start rambling in some of these #like i'm not NOT pleased with how i look? i'm ambivalent about it. #i do occasionally wear a baseball cap backwards because i'm actually a frat boy #i don't give advice unless i'm asked specifically bc i've been burned befooore #i can't sleep under the stars. i live in scotland. i'd freeze to death. #that being said i have absolutely passed out drunk in many fields and nearly got hospitalised for hypothermia so i suppose i have #tAGGING ANXIETY WHEE #about jay #so it is decreed

[baby-xemnas]

this is kinda sappy but w/e!! U made my 2023 more fun and full of love for pairings I fell super hard for and ur art and ideas constantly brightened up my day or inspired me and I really enjoyed every piece!! So thank u for bringing a bit of joy into the year and I rlly hope u enjoy 2024. Happy new year!!!

sappy is good, i love sappy, im a very sentimental person and i value immensely any instance of emotion that i could bring out of anybody be it by art or words

so I'm very happy - i say it every time BUT IT'S TRUE EVERY TIME!

thank you so much for your message and im happy and grateful that you spent the time to express your feelings to me, it really does mean a lot

giving you a huge hug and wishing you the best in 2024!!!!!!!!

#its 3:20 and i am very drunk happy new year #please stay with me guys in 2024 you are so awesome #despite shitheads and getting cancelled for being russian and having an edgy sense of humor u guys made the final #quarter of the year so fun for me #i havent been in a big fandom in a while #it has its upsides and downsides #but you definitely made me wanna stick around #i appreciate every ask every tag every reply #i read all of them and im so glad that this obsession of mine got such positive resonance #i once again repeat myself but it bears repeating because it's important to me! #and its important to me that you know that i love all of you so much #sorry for when i get whiny if I'm annoying #i hope you let it slide you are so nice after all #thank youu anon #thank you EVERYONE #anonymous

[born-to-lose]

Double shift last weekend and this is the only picture I got (which my coworker actually took with me for her Facebook story RIGHT when I looked like shit and it was low effort makeup day because I had to be there early to open the bar)

#a drunk girl in the bathroom called me pretty and two other regulars kissed me on the cheek and called me pet names this is why I'm gay #one of those regulars (who's the bff of my coworker i haven't worked with yet because she's taking a break) asked me to have shots with her #she and the other girl are the sweetest every time i swear they're there almost every weekend and they call me Schatz and Maus #the moment i came back in after putting away my bag and jacket on saturday a middle aged guy mentioned my volbeat hoodie #talked about all the metal bands he's seen like judas priest acdc saxon iron maiden and showed me some new songs he's been into lately #later sang mama i'm coming home to/with me and he and another guy gave me lots of career advice and encouraged me to be bolder in interview #a metalhead dude with long blonde hair and beard (who was also at a concert I worked at last month) winked at me and gave me like €4 tips #and every time he ordered his drinks he put his hand on the back of my head to say it in my ear #because the music from the speakers above was kinda loud but technically not loud enough to do That gjsgfjdshhh 😭😭 #he's so hot too he looks like a kind boyish viking idk if that makes sense but 😫😫 #the amount of people who have flirted with me or acted a little bit 😏 in the last three months #but nothing came of it so far just trusting they'll come back soon when i'm working the shift again #no phone numbers no insta handles we pine like in the old days and smirk when we see each other for the first time in a while #my face #the bartender chronicles

[itsclydebitches]

Honestly, I think most of the issues in this season exist because they clearly planned four seasons. Ted was supposed to go through a flop era, where he'd be checked out and his divorce and overall shitty situation with Michelle (the therapist thing) would have bitten him in the ass, and he'd struggle with his own positivity. It's crucial for Ted as a character to be critical of his life in Kansas, otherwise his character doesn't do anything but serve as an enlightened american spiritual guide to a bunch of brits (NOT a classy plot line and not a good move, especially since most of the brits are either queer or poc). I swear to god, if they make Ted go back to Kansas and end the series with him returning to the status-quo, I'll riot. His story was clearly about trying something new and brave for the wrong reasons, and finding himself in the process! He was not happy in Kansas! He has built himself a life in England that he never had in Kansas (otherwise we'd see him missing his friends, not the never-ending loneliness).

But it's a season long arc, and a recovery process that would last them another season. I was sure they would stop after the fourth season, not the third!

I think they might have decided to wrap it up early, either because of the impending strike, or because Sudeikis got bored.

Sudeikis has come out and said (on a couple of occasions I believe) that the show was pitched as a three season arc, not four. However, as a fellow writer who always needs about 75% more time/space than she originally planned for a story, I can easily picture how a perceived three season arc could actually need four seasons once you're in the nitty-gritty of writing it. I also don't know enough about the inner workings of Apple TV and Sudeikis' creative process to guess at how everyone was originally conceiving a "season." Certainly the 7-10 episodes of today are a far different beast from the 24 episodes of decades past. If Ted Lasso was still three seasons but with season 3 clocking in at 19 episodes... that would make a hell of a difference.

Regardless, I do think this season needed more time and that the issues there are seen more clearly in "International Break" than anywhere else. Nate quitting his job from one episode to the next, Rebecca suddenly being able to laugh uproariously with Rupert, even Roy having this 'aha' moment about being with Keeley... it's not that I think the show hasn't been building towards these things (it has), but rather that the final push feels sudden and, though not out of nowhere, not what I was expecting to happen just yet if - as said - the show had more time to develop these complex moments of growth. Also, though I'm a big fan of the show's sprawling cast and I think that's integral to its overall messages (you need that diversity in characters and their relationships), there was a lot of 'filler' I think this season could have cut to better focus on those key dynamics. For me, Keeley is the most egregious example in that regard. Shandi and Jack added little to her story imo - beyond a without-a-doubt queer confirmation and a little growth in terms of being a boss - so I would have rather had more of the focus be around Roy and her company more broadly.

Anyway, yeah, HARD agree about Kansas. I've already written about how disappointed I'd be in that ending. Personally, I don't think I'd want a whole season of Ted's "flop era," especially since that's where he started out: the presumably useless American "wanker" who is driving the team into the dirt. The shorter arc we got this season where Ted struggles, doubts, and then makes a tremendous comeback worked well for me. What would I have given Ted instead to fill that time... I'm not sure, which is one of the reasons why I think the show does benefit from that three season structure. There's only so much you can do with the concept of "Presumed failure is not a failure after all and actually is supper successful" before you're forced to backtrack (which undermines the message) or just sit in the boring "They're great aren't they great everything is great" ending. So Ted's football arc works for me, we just need more time for all those relationships. Keep the basic structure we have in terms of overall plot, but add in episodes to fully take the characters through the conflicts Season 2 introduced: How does Nate possibly redeem himself in Rupert's clutches? How can Ted come to terms with Michele dating their therapist? Why is Beard still 'happily' dating Jane after Higgins' intervention and his violent night out? How does Roy overcome this all-consuming belief that he's holding Keeley back? What in the world is going on with Rebecca and this maybe baby? How is Trent going to confess his love for Ted?

As said, the season IS answering all these questions, it just feels like the short structure has landed us with, "This is a problem, this is a problem, this is still a problem, the characters are acknowledging it's a problem... oh look the problem is now solved off-screen/in one scene! Happy days."

#Ted Lasso #Ted Lasso spoilers #I feel like this ask makes it sound that I'm disliking the show a lot more than I am #like you can tell this season is rushed in many respects #but I still think the moment-to-moment writing is REALLY good #like do I care how messy Keeley's arc has been #if it gets me drunk bonding with Mae? #...I mean yeah I care but not nearly as much as I would have if there wasn't Mae bonding lol

[afaramir]

Your ™ (aside from faramir obv) is how unhinged you are about denethor AND having the most correct takes abt him🧡. Oh and also oranges maybe

AAAA...THANK YOU ??? THIS KNOCKED ME FLAT like for real i cannot express how much ive been thinking about this ask all day. like i was in the grocery store thinking about it. i cant decide if it's funnier if you've been here since i was 19 and a hater and watched me have my dramatic change of heart in real time or if youre new here and don't know my tragic backstory. TO ME it's hilarious to be assigned denethor girl bc like teenage me is having a heart attack but i bear the badge with pride nevertheless <3333 and thats what we call character growth!

pj had totally got me with the mad-and-vindictive-with-despair denethor gambit for years and years but literally i started working on the faramir goes to rivendell au and thought for about two seconds about how complex both faramir and boromir's relationships with their father are and how the film changes genuinely weaken all of their characters so much and did a total 180 degree turn on a dime. by doing denethor dirty i would automatically be doing faramir dirty and then i started thinking and went hang on a second he is so complex and interesting actually. like i can't emphasize how much that was the exact logic that allowed me to achieve this development.

i mean okay LISTEN TO ME oh my GOD denethor IS a good leader there's a reason why gondor stood so long alone against the enemy and he NEARLY fucking beat SAURON in 30 years worth of head-to-head knock-down-drag-out psychic stalemate warfare and he only falls into despair when he loses both of his sons. you don't need to like him to respect the achievement!

i almost put a read more here but fuck it denethorposting on main. hit j on your keyboard or do a big scroll if youre sick of me LOL

i am very well known for going totally feral over duty vs love dynamics and that is literally what is going on between denethor and his sons. he cannot be their father and their commander at the same time and they are at war!!! being their commander has to win out above all else!!! whether any of them like it or not!!! do you know what ruthlessness means do you understand that duty wins this one.

do u guys understand that denethor and faramir are a father and son who love each other above else and yet do not like each other at all. there was a schism somewhere there along the line and love without bitterness and political sniping and ideological misalignment is a DISTANT MEMORY. No Of Course He Shouldn't Have Said He Wished Faramir And Boromir's Places Exchanged Jesus Christ No Son Should Have To Hear That From Their Father But Girl Sometimes When You're Grieving You Say Stupid Shit That You Shouldn't Have. doesn't mean you should've said it but [pippin voice] we can understand poor denethor a bit better, huh?

its just so interesting to me to think about faramir and denethor's relationship from a standpoint of like. ok listen good stewards that are not good fathers and dutiful sons who will not compromise their moral compasses for love. i don't like you and i agree with approximately 1% of everything you've said ever and your expectations of me have always been unreasonably high even when i was a child but you also are the only person who could ever understand the terrifying psychic powers that just live inside my brain and you are probably the incarnation of lordly dignity and power that i have had and i have wanted to emulate all my life and i still have the instinct to ask for your approval even if i'm going to hate what you're going to say. and when i'm dying i will call out for you. and i don't like you and your moral compass is going to get you and me and everyone in our city killed and you haven't listened to a single thing i've said since you were fourteen and i fucking hate that you're listening to and trusting the fucking wizard over me but you are my best captain and you are everything that i wished i could've been without the war and you'll never understand that that's why i pushed you so hard i just wanted you to live. and if you couldn't live at least we could die together. LISTEN i am a faramir girl until the death you all KNOW THIS BUT THESE TWO THINGS ARE NOT MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE- [i am forcibly yanked offstage]

#from the inbox #Anonymous #THANK YOU YOU ARE AN ANGEL!!! I LOVE YOU!!! #sorry for how unhinged this answer got ive been drinking #my friday night: totally sober sitting quietly filing my taxes. my saturday night: wine drunk denethor ranting. i am an adult #you: ur brand is being unhinged about this specific topic. me tasked with talking about that topic: sorry for being unhinged. hilarious #idk like oh my god yeah the transgender allegory of 'parent insisting their child is dead while people cry out that they're still living' #fucks crazy. i fucking love that reading. but im tired of the madman-idiot-caricature lack of textually-referenced nuance out here! #bitch king faramir and complex noble lord denethor are actually concepts that are holding hands. To Me. #also YES!!! ORANGES!!! i have an orange tattoo lol i love you i'm glad i exist. there is secret lore but i think if i don't stop talking no #everyone who follows me will explode me with their minds #i am still taking trademark asks if anyone at all has read this far LOL #long post #SORRY AGAIN LMAOOO #denethor anon #denethorposting

[feroluce]

incredibly sexy of you to be blankshipping on main and in the tags <3 and with incredible takes and ideas on top of that!

Thank you Anon, it's so hard having the biggest dick in the room, but someone has to do it 😔

As a slightly? more serious answer, I think it's good and even important to have people being loud and proud and totally self-accepting on main in the proship circles. Like there needs to be someone showing the people who got bought in on the anti stances and are then beating themselves up for totally normal things that it's ok. You aren't a bad person just for liking something problematic about a play-pretend character in a make-believe scenario and you don't need to sink into self-loathing over such a thing.

Because some of them are in actual agony over this stuff, and some of them have already accepted this about themselves but are too deep in the anti circles now, so they'd lose their entire support system if they were outed. Not to mention how creepily violent and invasive antis get about proshippers- and as someone in actual anti spaces, you'd have a front row seat to all the atrocities people would wish on you, or maybe even go so far as to commit them themselves.

Like you know how people talk about extremely strict religious parents? How they would try to control a lot of the thoughts and actions in their child's life? And then sometimes even get violent when they didn't comply? All while excusing it as trying to keep them from sinning or being a bad person? It's the exact same thing. And it has a lot of the same effects, too. Antis aren't beating the problematic out of each other. They're just plain beating and traumatizing each other and then making each other into better liars who secretly hang out on the proship servers on the downlow.

And it sucks! It sucks so bad! Because I've talked to people in those exact situations and like. Especially the fact that a lot of them are still young. Like barely young adults. Some of them are still technically teenagers. They shouldn't be dealing with this bullshit at what's already such a tender and difficult age. And it makes my heart ache and my blood boil because some of them are outright scared and there's just not a lot that I can do about it. You can't shield or protect someone from all of that and it sucks.

So like yeah I'm gonna be noisy and annoying and yowl right on main because at least with that I can give people somewhere to go where they feel decently safe and accepted, even if they never interact once. That's what got us the blankshipping server, because our creator was in the anti servers while sending me blankshipping asks and decided "you know what this sucks actually" lol. That's what brought in a lot of our members, because I could yell my heart out into the void here and! People heard! And then they joined the server and found a place they could finally breathe! And it's so much fun in there now!! ♡

Anyway tl;dr thank you dear lovely Anon you are entirely correct I am incredibly sexy and everyone desires me carnally and my dick is huge and I haunt the submas servers with how I live in their minds rent free skzjkdksjd

#my heart goes out to the people caught in such terrible sticky situations like this #I got an ask once where they forgot to put it on anon and then got a dm from the same person where they were PANICKING about it #because they were so scared that I was going to accidentally out them by answering the ask #(if you see this sweetheart then I hope you know I'm rooting for you and I've never told a soul- not even my fellow shippers; #that secret comes with me to my grave) #this is also why I always keep anon on- I'd rather let the people in hiding or on the fence interact safely than not at all #like god but for real though #my biggest respect to the shippers who are able to lay low and control themselves #they used my name to test the blackout/censorship/whatever you call it function in the anti server and like #I just know if I'd been online at the time I wouldn't have been able to help myself #I would have given up my secret identity in a heartbeat for the bit #because it was just a bunch of people chanting my name like they were playing Bloody fuckin Mary and I woulda popped my head in there like #'yes you rang' BSKKDJXKDKDK #funniest fucking thing I'd ever seen it made my entire week I was in PUBLIC at the time out to lunch with my MOTHER #do you guys have any idea how horribly I must have failed at keeping a straight face BSKDKJZKSKKKD #and then I accidentally got drunk on too much rum and went to a craft show it was a good day dfkljadfkakda #I used to love seeing the blocklists every week too because my name was always at the top but then they started alphabetizing it rude orz #I think the last one I saw was from somewhere else though bc it wasn't alphabetized and DINGO was 2nd from the top while I was way below #*shakes fist* HOW DARE YOU DINGO #I almost didn't wanna answer this ask I wanted to keep it because it gives me warm fuzzies thank you anon haha #the horrors never cease but fun little things like this make it easier <3 #ask #answer #anon

[akirakirxaa]

14. Rubbing your partner's back until they fall asleep

Slams hand down on the WoL x Emet button

This is a continuation drabble based on my fic Unwound because now I have the brainworms. The fic can be found here. More info in the tags.

Akira lay on her stomach, face pressed into her pillow as if trying to hide from the decision she had made with full faculties, with no drink to blame. She could hear the voices of everyone she cared about asking her what was she thinking? And yet, she didn't want to take it back. She just more wished the situation was different. That she wasn't who she was and he wasn't who he was.

"A bit late for second thoughts don't you think, Hero?" Emet-Selch's hand ran up and down her back, fingers lightly tracing along each obsidian scale. If she could just get rid of this guilt, it would probably lull her to sleep. She lifted one arm and pressed her index finger over his mouth, still not looking up.

"Stop talking," she grumbled into her pillow, and she felt him pull away from her.

"Well, if you want me to go-" Her hand snapped to his wrist without her full permission, as if now that she'd admitted to herself that she wanted him she was going to keep him right where she wanted him. He resumed his ministrations with a small huff of laughter, so quiet she almost missed it.

"I'm getting mixed signals, Hero."

"So am I." The noise he made was louder this time, a scoff of protest.

"I have been very clear-"

"Not from you." He was quiet for several moments and she sighed, knowing he was waiting for her to explain. Even though she knew he knew. He had to know, right? She pointed at her still hidden face as her explanation.

"Ah. You're still not sure what it is you want." She could hear the smirk in his voice.

"No. Just not sure I should want it." Akira curled her arms under the pillow, the soft material giving under her horns. She could feel some threads catching but she'd long since gotten past feeling bad over every pillow her horns ruined. He gave a long suffering sigh and, before she could protest, hauled her by arm and leg over him until she draped across his torso, her head nestled into the crook between his neck and shoulder. The tip of one horn was not even an ilm from his throat, but if it bothered him he didn't show it.

"What're you doing?" she asked cautiously, still tense at the sudden movement.

"You don't want me to leave, so I was planning on getting some sleep if you don't mind," the words sounded irritated, but his hand had resumed its gentle rubbing of her back, not put off in the least by the body she still regarded at times as strange and unfamiliar. She wondered if he was trying to lull her into a false sense of security. As if he could read her mind, he let out another sigh.

"I'm not going to kill you in the night," he insisted. "I said I wanted cooperation and I meant it."

"Somehow I don't think this is what you originally meant."

"Besides," he continued, as if he didn't hear her. "You deserve to know when your death is coming for you." Akira was quiet for several long moments. What a strange compliment, but it did feel like one. Still uncertain, she leaned on her Echo senses. They were never wrong, and while in the midst of battle she might miss their signs, when it was quiet and she was still, she could hear them clearly.

Nothing. No looming danger. He was telling the truth. She was still loath to sleep while someone she knew for a fact would prefer her dead or at least gone was still in her bed, but asking him to leave felt even worse. She swallowed hard, then tried to relax, finding it somehow far too easy now that she'd established even with her preternatural danger senses that she was safe.

"Emet-Selch?"

"Hm?"

"Goodnight," she mumbled quietly, feeling her face heat just slightly as she adjusted just a little, just enough to assure herself she wasn't going to accidentally stab him with her horn in the night.

"Sweet dreams, Hero," he replied, and she could hear the slight smile in his voice, the softness that crept in occasionally when his guard fell ever so slightly.

Akira closed her eyes, letting her lose herself in the small circles he was now rubbing into her back, and as she was drifting off she could hear him humming something. It was just this side of familiar, like something she'd heard long ago, something she'd forgotten. But she was too far gone now.

Sleep claimed her, dragging her under to gentle touches and quiet songs sung by her enemy.

#oc: akira kirxaa #my fanfiction #if you didn't read the original fic she got drunk after realizing she's probably been tempered this whole time #and while she was drunk she asked emet-selch to stay the night #he refused because she was drunk but brought it back up later #i skipped that part here because i didn't want it to get too long since it's an ask prompt #i may expand this into a full second chapter i haven't decided #originally i didn't canonically have them actually get together in shb but you know what why not #it's my headcanon if i want her to bang the bangable villain then that's what i'm having her do #obv the song he's humming is neath dark waters #just in case there was doubt #final fantasy xiv #ffxiv #wol x emet selch #wolemet #shadowbringers #ask response #ship: the bitter truth

[starlit-meloncholia]

one thing i never thought i'd get into was fashion. i used to buy just whatever clothes fit me at Walmart, but ever since i committed to only wear clothes that make me happy i've come to realize how deeply enjoyable clothing can be. (putting it below for politeness)

when i was still working in homeless services, i worked with a veteran client who always dressed like a cowboy. i once asked him why, and he told me it was because when he left the army, he didn't know who he was any more without it. The routine, training, and combat he saw made it so when he got out, he wasn't the same person he was when he went in. So, he decided if he didn't know who he was, then he'd just be who he liked, and he liked cowboys.

one day a few years ago, sick of boymoding at work after a scolding from my boss about painting my nails, i decided to pack up all my men's clothing and donate it. i kept a few shirts with sentimental value and boxed the rest up to drop off at goodwill. now having pretty much no clothes i had no choice but to buy an entire new wardrobe, and i had no idea what i was doing. i was sick of wearing clothes i didn't like, but i had also never liked any clothes i'd ever worn. so i asked myself: what did i like?

i just got an order of clothes i got with a christmas gift card and i'm so happy just looking at these cute moon leggings i got to wear today. i'm excited for another order to come, because i bought my favorite dress again so i can wear it more. i have a distinct aesthetic that i'm now known for, and i feel more confident and happy than ever. every time i step out of the door in a cute outfit i feel like the baddest bitch on the block.

#i don't really have a point #i'm just drunk and kind of emotional about the fact that i bought another of my favorite dress #owning a duplicate piece of clothing just because i like it would have been completely unthinkable to me five years ago #also as a fun anecdote about that guy he had a really cute service dog i got to play with as part of my job #bc the dog had to know who to go to in an emergency and i was shelter staff #she was the sweetest pupper and drooled. so fucking much. i've never met another dog that drooled as much as she did #i dm'd a d&d one shot for a few of my clients once (i worked nights and fuckall happened most of them) and we gave her a character sheet #oh also. a different client asked what we were doing and my resident assistant answered: #'playing d&d. it's a lot like being homeless but instead of the street it's a forest and instead of spiceheads it's goblins.' #and i fucking died

[masakousuke]

Thinking of wiping my ao3 to get a fresh start on it for my other interests ngl, not to be all "I want you died" on this fandom, but it's sucked the life out of me and if I can't be happy with what I made, I want nobody to be. Fuck your silent enjoyment, in all honesty.

I'll be very real. I've been writing a super long fic I really cared about. I really really cared about it. I still love it. It's 130k+ words and entirely sitting in my docs, and I had a bunch of other far shorter fics that had been finished and never posted. I'm not feeding my work to nothing and nobody except potentially AI. What for? To suffer from having shared your heart with others only to be ignored? I get enough of that in real life.

Summer fic is mine, all mine. And maybe it's a good thing that it is because maybe it was every bit as bad as the rest of my work clearly is.

It has not been a pleasure. I've tried my hardest to make it one. I'll fuck around here when I want. Catch me elsewhere if you care.

That's the energy I'm starting 2024 with. Sorry for expecting the unreasonable all the time. There is no joy in creating without sharing, so I'll share something else with someone else.

I'll see if I want to delete those fics. But if I do I will delete. Not orphan. They are mine and were never anyone else's.

#hitorijime #hitorijime my hero #last spiteful message or something unless i feel depressed and come back to you again like a man drunk calling his ex #some of you were cool and some even still are. but I'm very done with everything! thanks #I'm too mentally ill for this and always was. of course nobody asked me to make things #I shouldn't have gotten so excited over this. now it's just left me hollow #maybe someday I'll grow the fuck up #for now this is all i have for you. a tantrum. goodbye it's been incredibly not real #shut the fuck up ulri

[lonesomedotmp3]

every once in a while I rerealise that my teenage self wasn't crazy/selfish/ungrateful and my parents really were just Like That

#like they've mellowed out NOW but my dad still got drunk on my twelfth birthday and used to get in terrifying moods #where he'd get physical wih my sister and once for no actual reason he shoved me to the floor #and my mum would get into random sulks and say she wishes she didn't have us and there would be constant loud explosive arguments #in our house at all times and I'd spend my days in constant stress and that's literally why I'm like this. #like ok i didn't make any of that up and I'm just supposed to forget abt it now they're better (not even GOOD. just better) #and i have! and then it turns out the only reason they've been chill is because #1) they think I'm going to kill myself and 2) I've been acting the way they wanted me to #the second i ask for anything from them that they disagree (like. don't call me every single hour because i haven't responded to a text u #sent three hours ago) it's back to the same bullshit. whatever #OH remember when my dad said i eat too much and started me on the path to my eating disorder. good times! #god remember when they yelled at my in public for my eating disorder. jesus #remembering parts of my childhood and they're all bad lol!

[zahai]

Is this a sideblog by chance?

Indeed it is. It used to be used as a primary blog, and I did intend to use it with at least some purpose even after I shifted my attention, but now it's just kinda mindless spam/things I find cool but don't have the spoons or words to give more attention to.

#if you're asking because you'd like me out of your notifications you can block my primary: off-brand-adorabbit #just in case that's what you're looking for but you didn't want to show your hand (: #I know mindless spam isn't everyone's cup of tea so I try not to be regularly awful about it #it's harder to be on good behavior when I'm sobern't though so.... #I don't really have a point #I just wanted to make it easy to banish me if you wanted but then I worry that might be a mean conclusion to come to #I don't know who you are - intentionally and for good reason! You're using the feature for that which I fully support the use of! #that leaves me unsure as to why I'm being asked this particular question though because there are so many reasons why it might be asked! #do you not want me in your notifications but don't know where I'm coming from? #are you wondering why my blog seems to be fandom related but reblogs nonsense? #have you been monitoring my presence online for the last several years and you're a hair away from cracking some mystery that hinges on #whether or not this specific blog of mine is a sideblog or not? #or maybe you showed up here three minutes ago drunk and confused and are simply wondering who on earth left this weird pink hole behind #awkward wording there but I did set the colors and I will stand by my selection #anyways I hope any or all or no questions were answered by this submission #good luck!

[chicago-geniza]

The human psyche is a fickle thing (many more nominally Significant events have transpired, many more frost heaves have erupted along the paved road of my life, I've gotten a LOT sicker in unanticipated ways with unanticipated consequences, and yet, my agenda for next neuropsych appointment is still "feeling betrayed by [redacted] for acting like the pandemic is over even though she herself is disabled; abiding by communist principles in theory, and very often in practice! but when push comes to shove the most painful part of this weird relationship has been acknowledging & accepting your mom's tongue-in-cheek nickname for her (Bougie [redacted]). Also how she responded to the situation with [nemesis] (doubt, disbelief, asking if you were drunk, if you might have just made a bad decision & be regretting it in the light of day). How if not the former, at least the latter can be legitimately & not-irrationally felt as some flavor of betrayal. The former -- irrationally. And in the future, on this, the centennial of one time history ended during the period we call modernity. How do we move forward (singular-we). How do we make it hurt less.")

#am being deliberately vague but like. the situation was a guy in our program assaulted me in poland #& i told advisor i didn't want to carpool with him to a 'dacha seminar' (informal) at dept head's vacation house & asked #if i could go in her car instead & she was skeptical & asked if i wasn't just drunk & regretful #& i was like i have been an out lesbian since i was 12 years old it was coercion + violence lol #we backtracked away from a title 9 report but the damage was done #& for some reason i'm still very wounded about it when she probably doesn't even remember #hell HE doesn't even remember bc he was so drunk. i'm the only person who remembers this stupid one-off incident which #hilariously wasn't even traumatic i'm still more upset by advisor's doubt & skepticism! #i love psychology lmfao

[belethlegwen]

"mid-thirties and mid-thirsty" was hilarious (and relatable), thank you! 😂

Either answer about spice frequency is of interest!

Here's some other questions - what's your preference on "born big/small" vs. "shrank/grew to size"? Regarding the former (or result of the latter, I suppose), what are your favorite sizes, and favorite size differences? And to the latter (if you have any preference for it), do you have any favorites as to type of shrinking/growth? (Instant vs. fast vs. slow, for instance, or steady vs. spurts)

(Hope these aren't too many questions! 😅)

They are definitely not too MANY questions but I may need to ask you in the future to like, dumb them down waywayway more for me I have been drinkin' and I am not quick on the uptake on a lot of this wording, I'mma be real

Also thank you for finding it hilarious, I was worried I was coming off with some big Jeb! 'Please Clap' energy there with that one.

Question One: what's your preference on "born big/small" vs. "shrank/grew to size"?

God, it is VERY hard to choose. Honestly I would say I probably prefer the shrank/grew to size scenario only because it plays a bunch more into my favourite dynamics. The first one "born big/small" I was tempted to say but I love that one the most when either side thinks they are the normal/basically only size a people comes in and then suddenly: OH HELLO, and the meeting/convergence occurs.

I love, honestly, sudden shrinking. If I have to be really really specific/particular, that's the one I think I would fall back to over and over again until I died.

Question Two: what are your favorite sizes, and favorite size differences?

Favourite sizes are regular human and the tiny person being between 5-9 inches tall typically. I like my tinies with a bit more heft than I think most other people do (Henry is 7.2"[*]) because I really, thoroughly enjoy the tactile aspect of it and I feel like I get so much more out of it from a writing and fantasy perspective by having them be just a bit bigger, heartier, etc.

[* - He carries himself with the confidence of a full eight though, I'll let him have that]

Question Three: do you have any favorites as to type of shrinking/growth? (Instant vs. fast vs. slow, for instance, or steady vs. spurts)

Instant or very fast is my ideal. I like it to be a shock, I like it to be a very SUDDEN need for adjustment. I've done slow, there's a bit of that in the last chapter (maybe two?) of my experimental/self-indulgent writing exercise of an abandoned work Small Date on AO3. It's a mess over there, unfinished, was never really written with any intent for posting so there's holes all throughout and it was literally just a vessel for me to get solidly into my mid-thirsty ifyagetwhati'msayin' wink wink etc.

Steady is the one I go for only because I just think of like... spurts of shrinking to be an active nightmare to go through, having to repeatedly readjust, reassess, ground yourself. Going from 5 feet to 4 feet isn't that huge of a jump but going from 4 feet to 3 feet is much more noticeable, and it gets exponentially bigger every single time you'd go through a shrink spurt. Even slow & steady shrinking... I could see it making me motion sick just from the feeling of everything moving away/getting bigger, and it happening faster and faster the smaller you got.

Thanks so much for the asks!!

#asks and answers #drunk posting #I don't know if I'll ever go back to Small Date #I was considering for a moment that I might like jump back into that world/setting etc for a bit #but then Zip accidentally left the door open to their world and I ran in and have been politely trashing the place #(with their loving permission) #(they're gonna argue that I'm not trashing the place but like for real I feel like a feral raccoon in there) #(I love that place so much I wanna just get my little hands on everything) #That was a tangent #anyway #g/t #giant/tiny #g/t author #giant/tiny author #g/t thoughts #author thoughts #big little thoughts

[blujayonthewing]

Aubree just bought a pipe of smoke monsters, because she's been wanting a new pipe anyway and Justin said the town we were in would probably have common magic items if we wanted anything in particular so I asked for them to have one of those please, but now I can't decide whether, design-wise, it should look like something with Aubree Vibes that she would usually be inclined to pick out and use or whether it should look, you know, like a novelty magic item crafted by an elf

#because if it's the former it should be a short and fairly simple travel pipe #and if it's the latter it should be an elegant churchwarden carved to look like a dragon or something #like-- it didn't exist until I asked the DM if I could have one so it can look like however I want #but I can't DECIDE #I've been meaning for aubree to get a new pipe for awhile just cause I figure it's an indulgence she enjoys occasionally #but also the. reason she ended up getting one when she did turns out to be 'well I'm an asshole drunk so better cope some other way' :') #so in theory it ought to be practical for 'pulling out and lighting just whenever and pretty often' which a very long pipe sort of isn't #if it's TOO cumbersome would she have been able to be salesman'd into it at all... being won over by a cool novelty only goes so far #PERSONALLY I love a churchwarden but a good stout pipe also has its charms #and also yanno. fits in a vest pocket or a belt pouch #about me #my OCs #aubree

[binch-i-might-be]

What was coming out to your parents like?

good question!

well first of all I'll have to say that I only came out to my dad. I had never any intention to come out to my mother if I didn't have to tbh. no real reason I just didn't feel like bringing it up lol

but yeah anyway pa leaked the homo news so I didn't have to come out anyway!

I came out somewhere around midnight I think in summer,,,,, 2020 or 2021?? we were meeting with one of the neighbours and getting lit lmao

and I did decide that I would do it that night. I'd tried before but never pulled through. so yeah I got a lil drunk and coughed it out!

his response was basically "okay. yeah that checks out"

I cried on the way home and texted my friends at two am to tell them about it <3

to be clear, at no point was I ever under the impression that he'd have a negative reaction, but I was still Very Anxious about it because of the general way I am✨

#i would not have done it had i not been drunk and that is my truth #i'm a chicken ❤️ #ask #anon