#oh boy i am sad

[weallpartyatybcpatricksfuneral]

vampire pete and vampire patrick. as little bats. do you guys see my vision

#i am talking about this with my mutual in the one post we talk on but i had to make it its own separate post because !!! #itty bitty guys even tinier #sad oh well theres other frontmen #we were talking about ybcvampire patrick so. hed be missing a wing (hand) and have yellow eyes instead of black #me posts #fob #fall out boy is 4 lovers #ybcpatrick the guy ever #vampire pete wentz #vamppete

[morganbritton132]

Steve didn’t want a dog.

The seizures started not long after they officially slammed the gate shut on the Upside Down, but it was suspected that they were probably happening before that. It’s subtle for the most part. It takes a while before anybody notices the shifting behind the eyes, the confusion, the dull drag that sinks into Steve’s body and tightens everything up.

They call them absence seizures. And then when Steve convulsed on the Family Video carpet, they say grand mal. They say brain damage and likely permanent, and it’s scary.

It is always scary when Steve’s brain betrays him, when his memory slips and his body fails, and Eddie knows that it’s frustrating. He knows that Steve hates it. He’s been on the opposite end of Steve’s mood swings, of the tears and the anger at going from a kid with no adult supervision to an adult that can’t drive their own car anymore.

He knows the fear that creeps into Steve’s voice through the phoneline when he’s somewhere he doesn’t recognize and doesn’t remember how he got there because Eddie is there. He is on the other end of the line. He is there for the confusion, for the messy emotions, for every breakdown and the attempted break up and Steve saying that he was holding Eddie back when all he ever did was keep Eddie together.

But it is scary.

It is so fucking scary every time that Eddie sits and waits by Steve’s side for him to come back to himself, fearing – always fearing that there might come a day that he doesn’t. But it’s scarier when he’s not there.

Steve does not want a dog.

The first time Eddie brought up a service animal, there are three adult men living in Wayne’s trailer. He’s flipping through a magazine and Steve says no. He says that they can’t afford a dog, much less a service animal and no, Steve would not ask his parents about it. He was lucky enough that they let him stay on their insurance after they kicked him out.

The second time Eddie brought it up, there is money. There is money for a trailer of their own. There’s money for Steve to go to school. There’s a label that signed them and talks of a nation-wide tour, and there’s a song on the radio, and Steve says no. Steve says that it’s unnecessary. He says that he’ll move in with Robin and Nancy while Eddie tours. That it’s okay.

The third time, they have an apartment of their own. Eddie has more money than he’ll ever know what to do with and Steve says no. He’s teaching first grade and he’s happy all the time, and he tells Eddie no. He says that it’s an almost invisible disorder and that sometimes he can pretend that it doesn’t exist. He says he can pretend that none of the bad stuff ever happened, and if he has a dog then it’s just a neon sign that says he’s got his head cracked open. He says people treat him like he’s something that can break when they know, and he hates it. He says it's like they’re all waiting for him to shake apart.

The fourth time – the medicine change, the overnight at the hospital – Steve doesn’t let Eddie get the words out of his mouth. He’s upset and he thinks that no one listens to him, and he says no. He says when he thinks about dogs than he thinks about dark nights, and the junk yard, and the creatures that weren’t dogs but kind of were, and he doesn’t want to be there anymore. They closed the gate. It’s not fair that the Upside Down still lives inside him.

Eddie does not bring it up again.

It doesn’t matter anyways.

It’s been years. They built a system. There are still seizures, still dissociative episodes and sleepwalking, and still the rare but terrifying grand mal seizures that sits like Chrissy Cunningham cracking to pieces in Eddie’s chest. There are appointments and medication, but there is family and friends, and they take the precautions they know to take and learn to take more. And it works.

It works until it doesn’t.

Corroded Coffins’ popularity started to drop off in the early 2000s. They don’t tour too much anymore, but sometimes Eddie leaves for a week to play a couple shows out of town and that was what he was doing four years ago. Neither of them think about Robin visiting her parents or the research position that took Dustin all over the world, or that half of their friends have moved out of the state. They say their goodbyes and they kiss each other, and Eddie comes home to blood tacky in the carpet.

He came home to Steve at the bottom of the stairs after having a seizure and falling, bleeding and in pain, unable to move and calling for a help no one can hear for three days. They have a system, but there are cracks big enough to fall through. Steve may not want a dog and maybe it isn’t what he needs, but it’s the only thing Eddie knows to ask about.

Eddie asks again for the first time in years, sitting next to him in the hospital. Steve says yes with bruises on his face and taste of a concussion on his tongue, and they get a well-trained dog with light fur that Steve names Ozzy.

Eddie feels for the first time in years like he can take a full breath, a little more of his fear slipping away.

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#so this is sad right? #someone asked for angst a while back and boy howdy am I not having a good day so here it is #also I feel like this contextualizes some of the things in the AU particularly why Eddie retired from touring in the first place #oh! also origin story for Ozzy #I feel like this can stand on its own but as always it’s a part of the #eddie munson tiktok saga #eddie munson #steve harrington

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Jazz becoming the next big Gothem villain is such a solid concept. Theres so much to explore.

She targets corrupt mental institutions. Corrupt companies who destroy their workers state of mind so they wont quit. She attacks landlords who make it impossible for people to live comfortably.

She is the staple anti-hero of anyone struggling to get back on their feet. People should have to work three jobs just to afford a crappy one bedroom, no utilities, half bath, in crime alley apartment, with a roommate.

Shelters should be aiming to gain a profit instead of using the donations to support others.

She is tired of these big name heros leaving children to clean up messes. She has watcher her own brother wither away to a shell of his former self trying to make a change and she is sick of it. Hell she herself is a child but if this is what it takes, then this is what it takes.

Enter from the left The Manipulator™️

Feared by all corrupt. People think she has mind control or something. When she targets someone they make almost a full 180 in their ways. “She will do anything to get her way or to make people into what she thinks they should be. And she mist be stopped” cries big business.

In reality she is the worlds best damn psychiatrist ever to be known. She doesn’t force anyone to change but gives them the choice to be better. To see how much more they can be. And it terrifies them. Helps them find themselves again and to move past their troubling pasts. No force and no mind control. No manipulating. No one but those who she has helped know the truth but when they tell the truth it only fuels the fire of her being controlling.

Theres one thing also fuelling the flames of mind control. Thats the fact that every single major hero to go after her can’t. Any who approach her find themselves no long near her. Superman just wants to talk, well she doesn’t, and he is then back in his city?!? Batman is stalking her to figure out how to deal with her but once he gets too close he suddenly finds himself in the batcave?

At first they think it’s teleportation but time is passing? Theres video feed and tracking of no they just went back themselves. No response from them the whole trip. As if possessed. (Lmao it’s just good brother danny pranking his sis a little by making her seem all powerful but also protecting her anyway he can. Or could be Dan instead)

#danny phantom #dp x dc #dpxdc #jazz fenton #manipulator? I hardly know her hehehehehehe these jokes are peak for me atm #jazz snaps and does some changing of the world #vlad is funding her because hes scared of her #no good tags today boiz I gotta call my mom and the hot water is gonw #yes yes I know I know I said I hate my mother but I am a good boi and will bring her lunch today so she eats #plus my sistet never leaves the house so im offering to take her too so maybe she can get some sun light #oh I got a promotion at work too btw #not the one I wanted but meh it’s something right? #gonna be working mon-fri 10hour shifts so ill be a bit busy sorry #got a catboi danny post in the drafts for you later though so u wont starve I guess #who am I kidding plenty of dpxdc posters for yall I aint gotta be worried #oof that makes me sad kinda so im a dip

[b4kuch1n]

sunstroll

#pokemon #swsh #rival hop #professpr hop #communication coming thru from the 32 degree C midday land #it is. kind of summer. not really but its at the door #gods. disgostang. time to draw in orange #Ive been chippin away at this one while drawing the comic so I dont like. lose my mind #and now this is done! and the comic has three pages left!! #I am Going to Do It tonite. I am Going to Get That Shit Done #tomorrow there will be sad monster for ya #but for now. theres hop in more clothes. bc I really do not give him enough #coloring this one was a Challenge lol... I got too used to the kind of color aggression goin on with leon #hop has more harmony goin on in his vibes so I had to pull some weird plays for this lmao #and then everything still ends up hypersaturated bc. well its me. this is just how I am #but I'll take it!! it was pretty fun once I sussed out a way forward. coloring is always a Time #have a good day! wish me luck! boy oh boy we sure have an evening in front of us

[mag200]

its cause youre always in those damn archives

#tma #jonblogging #i am in the Trenches right now with him #season 5 is so. its soooooooo. oh my fucking god. #my baby boy my sad sweet demigod of voyeuristic terror ily

[lochlot-moved]

ur dad ain’t got no nose no more

#tw blood #Wayne 2019 #drawing blood is one of my favorites ever and oh boy did I have my choice of references #wayne mccullough #del luccetti #Wayne x del #ibis paint #digital painting #digital paint study #portrait study #blood #Wayne fanart #guys there’s a chance for a second season guys … guys there’s gotta be… #Wayne and del #Wayne show #Wayne show fanart #repetitive tagging is so embarrassing for some reason #no but really I am so very sad this show hasn’t gotten a second season #cancelled by YouTube and then Amazon picking it up and talking abt making a season 2 and then DOINGG NO SUCHHH THIINNGG <\\\\3 #and now it’s not even on Amazon I’m hollow inside #digital art #fanart #del luccetti fanart #Wayne McCullough fanart #the violent peanuts character show #dogs across the field have been barking for hours are you okay guys

[ride-a-dromedary]

Whenever Halsin giggles, or does that little hum of a chuckle, every protective instinct in my brain synapses instantly lights up.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #he giggles! i cannot describe that laugh as anything less than a giggle or more than a chuckle #i am such a sucker for characters who exist in divides of assumption #you think oh this giant man must have a big boisterous laugh (and like maybe he does) but no! it's a delicate little thing #you think this guy who a moment ago as a bear was growling and snarling and demanding blood be shed is a beast #that enjoys the activity - but the first thing he says to you is to pardon his mess #like i live for that appearances are deceiving cliche i don't care how many times i see it #and i love those little reminders that halsin is - in fact - elven - he is a fae creature #even if he doesn't look like a stereotypical elf he still exhibits elven traits and it's delightful #but also halsin needs to be protected - that is the giggle of a little boy coming from the chest of a middle aged man #also also you ever think part of the reason he's more soft spoken was to avoid scaring people because he's been told that he's a bit scary #so he taught himself to reign it in to avoid being stereotyped because like...that's sad

[lighthouseas]

whenever will has a bad day at work (or just a bad day in general), and he's just sitting on the couch and sulking, mike will put on will's current favorite song and ask him to dance really stupidly formally like they do at weddings. will always rolls his eyes and pouts and refuses at first - until he sees mike, his wonderful amazing beautiful boyfriend, busting out his absolute cringiest dance moves to their favorite the cure song or whatever else and singing along to said song horrifically off key in the middle of their living room. and then mike extends his hands to will and forcefully pulls him up off the couch and twirls him around and dips him down to kiss him like he's the most special boy in the world (because he is. Obviously) and will can't pout anymore because mike's hands are so big and warm in his own and it's just them, being stupid and silly and crazy together in their tiny little one bedroom apartment and dancing along to all of their favorites. before the first song even finishes, though, will finds himself singing and dancing along too and twirling mike back because mike's dopey little grin is so damn infectious that he just. can't help it.

and this is how mike develops the Tried And True Method To Turn Will's Frown Upside Down (pun not intended) that he still continues even when they're older and married, because they're still stupid kids at heart and love each other so much that it needs to be shared in every way possible ❤️

#YES I KNOW I AM SUPPOSED TO BE OFFLINE SHHHHHH #this came to me in a vision while listening to the cure and i needed to share it. ok #i DID get a lot of writing and watching done though!!!!! i promise <3 #god anyways. can u tell how much they mean 2 me. #will will be like mike im not in the mood and then mike will grab a hairbrush for a microphone and shred on an air guitar and be like #-are u sure. are u sure you aren't in the mood. and will will be like. oh my god you're so stupid. make out w me #reminder that mike is canonically goofy as hell yall. i hate when people make him emo and sad like GOD NO HE IS NOT THAT BOY IS A GOOFBALL #HE IS SAD YES BUT HE HAS THE CAPACITY TO BE AN ABSOLUTE GOOF AND WE NEED TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT. #thank you for coming to my ted talk. xx #stranger things #mike wheeler #will byers #byler #st.txt

[mikakuna]

nobody wants to see real footage of me tweaking the fuck out when i see panels of bruce sincerely and happily hugging his kids, compared to his abuser-tactics 101 hug with jason

like fuck.. my boy can't have anything!!!!

#why do i feel real devastation over a fictional character being the odd one out in the family #how am i sad over a fictional character not being loved by their parent as much as their other siblings #oh the tragedies of relating to characters on a personal level #and then all the robin + batman content we get of jason and bruce in rhato just feels one sided #like here's jason being all -yay that's my dad we're so cool!!! :D- #and then bruce just. not giving a hard enough fuck about the boy #why cant jason have anything #shaking my fist at the sky #jason todd #red hood #batman #bruce wayne #jason peter todd #dc comics #dc

[dashiellqvverty]

okay i'm curious, what do you consider to be THEE stucky song(s)? for me its probably miss missing you but i'm really curious abt other people's answers whether you take that as meaning the most quintessentially About Them or something that was super prominent in fandom or whatever else makes something THEE song to you

#stucky #catws #stevebucky #catws10 #yes this is reblog bait but i ACTUALLY WANT TO KNOW #i got into fall out boy after getting into stucky and i just remember one time listening to it and being like oh my god...... its about the #and the of course everyone in the fandom already had made a billion edits about that #a strong runner up for me is 18 by one direction #i think 1d have a lot of stucky songs personally #r.txt #i will be sad if this flops i am genuinely really curious what the most impactful stucky songs for other ppl are

[nguyenfinity]

Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes-- #--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah? #and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably- #-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do) #if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad. #she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that) #meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal) #rinniki

[chryblossomjjk]

i hate how scared i am to turn 24 like why tf is it so ingrained into women’s head that we have an expiration date we live in a society and i hate it :’)

#i am young but also old n oh boy #am v confused n sad n scared n hopeful n worried n conflicted lol

[sinomin]

And the hardest part by far is the ghost of you

Your toys on the floor, treats on the shelf, leash by the door

Why is your collar on table?

There's no tippy taps, tail wagging, bright eyes and perky ears

Do you need outside?

The night is so loud, the silence where you used to breathe. My floor is empty

Are you sleeping okay?

She threw out the food in your bowl, and I was upset about it, even though I know.

Do you need more?

And all the pitying looks and hugs and pats and the "how you doing?"

I don't want to talk about it

But at the same time I want to tell them the hardest part

Is that you're still here

But you're not.

#pet loss #dog loss #dogs #my boy was with me ever since i went out on my own and im not okay #i keep thinking 'oh i need to let him out' or that hes lying on the floor by my bed like he always is #but hes not #personal #me #poetry #i am sad

[sunshinediaz]

snippet sunday 🫧

hi, pals <3 i think. i think i'm about to come down with the worst sinus infection of my life so if i'm extra mia just know it's because i'm fighting demons

please enjoy a new bad things happen fic, where eddie and buck are forced to watch their house burn down??

The smell of smoke wakes him up, sharp and hot and smothering. It swirls in the air, mixing with mint and vanilla and eucalyptus, his cologne and their shampoo and that expensive detergent Buck likes so much, and Eddie has half a mind bitch at Buck for not showering before climbing into bed before he realizes their last shift was two days ago.  Hysteria rockets through his system, cold like polar ice. He rolls around beneath the sheets, frantic and nervous, and slaps Buck’s shoulder till he wakes up.  Buck groans, lifts his head out from beneath his pillow, and slurs, “Wha’s goin’ on?” because it’s 3:17 in the morning and it’s still three hours before their alarm rings to get Chris ready for school and there’s no reason for them to be up yet.  “Fire,” he says, sliding off the bed and shuffling on the icy tiles in his bare feet. It startles him, wakes him up even more than the fire.  Buck makes another noise, bewildered and a little slow. “Huh?”  “The house is on fire, Buck!”  It’s quiet for a moment, nothing at all except a telltale crackling of burning wood, and then Buck’s falling out of bed, slamming his head against the bedside table and slipping in the pool of sheets in the floor. He blinks, adjusting to the darkness of their bedroom; the smell of smoke has only gotten stronger, fluttering around them like fog rising from a secluded pond, and the look on his face when he realizes what’s going on reminds Eddie of when he was shot years ago. 

i was tagged by @try-set-me-on-fire, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @hippolotamus, @watchyourbuck, @honestlydarkprincess, @exhuastedpigeon, @wikiangela, @daffi-990, and @giddyupbuck

and i'm gonna no pressure tag @callmenewbie, @eddiediaztho, @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy, @callaplums, @folk-fae and whoever else wants to share pls consider yourself tagged 🫶🏼

ps i'll be back later to gush over everyone's snippets and inspirations from yesterday okay i just have to rest a lil bit first please <3

#sigh #the kind of headache i have... my eyes hurt my nose hurt my temples hurt my body aches #i get sinus infections twice a year and this is the second time and fuuck it's gonna put me in a grave #anyway #this fic is gonna be for the forced to watch slot on my bingo card teehee #am i gonna keep it like this? idk i really don't like it but i DO like instant gratification so here i am #it's not gonna be as long as heart attack fic THANK GOD and oh boy the way eddie's gonna be so sad #anyway i'm excited for this fic mwah MWAH #tag games

[lokislittlesigyn]

having a lot of anxiety about series season 2 Existing so i drew loki and me sigyn to help

#now i am anxious but i have art #also i need to be up in less than 4 hours #oh well #it was marginally helpful #im not going to pretend its great #but its good #and its what i needed #loki #loki fanart #logyn art #technically lol #what are backgrounds #late night posts #also i love that my default loki pose is just. floating #go sad boy go #float along in your existential dread #i love you baby #also i didnt look at references until like. last minute #this is fast this is loose this is following the Vibes of tva clothing #and not necessarily On Model #gosh its messy #anyway #goodnight

[dragqueenpentheus]

today i simply wish to be HELD and COOKED FOR

#sleepy .... #moody........... #would like to push my face into a person and then eat a huge range of foods that have been crafted for us #at least ONE with custard. #irl #personal #i am a little sad my mommy can't come to my grad but wants to. i knew it would be a tight squeeze and i invited her so last minute even tho #i picked up a ticket for her weeks ago #i've been nervous to ask #but we are talking on monday which. oh boy. #this is the first one i've seen her since 2019. and. we've been fighting since sept 2020. like. #i'm nervous. i'm NERVOUS. i want it to be easy and resolved and she gives me a hug. #i want a hug from my mom ughughhh #i want to know how to be my own person and still love her and have her love me and #stomps my little feet... #i'm gunna behave in a way that makes deb VERY proud. and i'm gunna be open and vulnerable and honest about where we both fucked up #and iM GUNNA HAVE THE SAME EXPECTATIONS FOR HER AS WELL. WE ARENT HANDING OUT GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARDS #but i miss my moma pretty bad dude