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[delicatephilospher]

We'll always be waiting for our first love

Now, i forgive people

Like mature people do,

I learn from my mistakes,

Like mature people do,

And now i dont trip on my words,

When i am looking for an outlet,

Like mature people do,

But i still wait,

For that love that was never mine,

That was wind and i can still smell

Now i can lie like fluid,

Convincing and yet adored like a goddess,

And now i don't look back,

Maybe only at the darkest of nights,

Maybe when i am all alone

Because that is all i want to be,

Like mature people do.

But still,

I am waiting for my forst love,

With my eyes on road,

At every place i go,

And in everyone i meet,

And everything i look upto,

Its a maze i am not able to solve.

And everyone of us,

Long for the day,

For the longing to end,

And the epiphany to dawn.

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[delicatephilospher]

I am trying to say true to myself,

Only a little everyday,

Because still i don't trust myself,

For the years of education the society poured in me,

For the years of traces,

I was told to erase,

Traces that were created by me,

That made me,

But now when i look back,

I feel like i came out of a mould,

Nothing new, nothing extra and nothing exotic,

So i am trying to stay true to myself,

Because thats step one,

After years of lying.

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[delicatephilospher]

The hero

Your non-chalant way of being perfect

How you kept everything within the circuit

The protagonist I saw with powers that are raw

And everytime you did something grim

I reached within the pockets of my heart rim

And threw my sparkles all over you

And I threw it until you drowned

Leaving behind the blinding illusion

And when it caught fire

I just stood there

Being sure you will be there anytime

Carrying your charm and some sand

But instead all I see was my tears

And they didn't put the fire

Then you were there in midst of my tears

Pouring down my eyes

Wrapping me in the arms of grief

And I tried to reach again to my sparkles,

But instead

my hands only held the bottom

And you moved dusting off the sparkles

Leaving the clouds all over me

Soaking me

Telling me

You were never the hero in my story

In anybody's story or history

Because you needed

To be drowned in all the glitter

A person could found.

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[delicatephilospher]

The lies he told me

And then he lied to me,

Glancing at me with those brown bulbs,

That i adored oh so much,

That he doesn't love me,

That i was just a habit that he grew over with,

And it broke my heart but i smiled,

I smiled and held his hand close to my heart,

The beats lost and found,

My eyes glowing with unshed emotions,

And said,

These hands,

Touched me like i am something fragile,

These eyes,

Devoured me like i will never end,

And these lips felt like prayers,

When they fell on every inch of my body,

I think i will know,

When they'll lie to me.

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[delicatephilospher]

I have seen it through my eyes,

the darker past,

The unforgiven future

And the unrelenting now,

It shakes me everytime,

With the same question,

In their eyes,

Filled with storms and so much crowd,

Making me unable to look past,

And yet it was clear as day,

The possibilities of every answer

Like sunrays,

Present there but can not be fathomed,

Sometimes in middle of it,

It come to you so easily,

It makes you doubt yourself,

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[delicatephilospher]

Myself

Its interesting to look at myself now

I would have never thought i can be it

Is it only possible to get yourself when losing you

Or i can reach to my deepest when my hands are tangled in yours

I'll never know that

But

Sometimes on the darkest canvas

I draw the loudest picture, even if its not brightest.

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