#quotes of the night

[ingolfshofoi]

Yellow.

I could feel the heavy brush strokes in my belly,

Caressing my insides and telling them things i would never remember.

All around me there were yellow things.

People, cars, events, feelings, moments.

My mind raced at a million miles, faster than light to decipher the yellow.

I spent months, my fingers flicking through flapping pages of books,

Searching for something, and all i could remember was yellow.

And then i knew that yellow was the color of forget,

The color of your heart when a hand strikes down at you,

The colour of your parents divorce. The colour your parents divorce.

The colour of re doing your 1st year

The colour of poverty.

So i crawled into my cupboard and wrote notes on the walls

Thick yellow markers in my hand like a gun at a rally.

I shouted the the words and lists, the names of people and places,

And they stuck to my wall like a bad habit

Like a cancer in a heart box.

I wrote lists of countries i would never dare go to,

The people would never accept me, and so i refused to accept them.

Because that somehow made sense to me.

I could justify hating someone, because i felt that they would hate me.

And i slowly turned yellow.

I wrote down the names of people i felt i never wanted to run into

I shouted their names and saw their faces disappear from my mind in yellow.

Never once considering their faults,

Their issues.

I removed them from my life, and the lives of others with my erratic writing,

I cut the electricity of my body until i was nothing but a spark hidden in a corner,

a small static boy trying to hide from the things i could not cover in yellow.

My markers turned to brushes,

And the fumes of the paint entered my lungs and eventually i had a heart so broken i could not remember all the pain, because i turned it all yellow.

And my infected flesh fell aways in generous proportions every time someone breathed,

The movements i could only feel, was breath.

The places i could not remember, was breath.

The people i had removed without a second thought, without so much as wondering if they too needed a yellow marker, was breath.

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[pipsavedmylife]

#still thinking about this #fucking took me out #that and who put this ghost pic on my desk #quotes of the night #pof

[thoughtsthatstayedwithme]

#spilled ink #thoughts #inner thoughts #life quotes #mental health #pillow thoughts #poetry #quotes #quoteoftheday #love quotes #beautiful #writing #early morning #late night thoughts

[hungryfictions]

Ruth Madievsky, All-Night Pharmacy

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[metamorphesque]

― Fyodor Dostoevsky, White Nights

#quotes #literature #classic literature #fyodor dostoevsky #white nights #russian classics #russian literature

[flowerytale]

Joan Didion, from Blue Nights

#joan didion #blue nights #typo #typography #words #quote #quotes #fragments #time #memory #*

[cherrygazette]

drinking coffee and stargazing with you is my kinda hangout idea.

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[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[despondentbeauty]

It’s okay to still get sad about something you thought you’ve healed from.

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[pityroad]

— Thanksgiving 2006, Ocean Vuong, from 'Night Sky with Exit Wounds'

[text ID: Brooklyn's too cold tonight

& all my friends are three years away.

My mother said I could be anything

I wanted — but I chose to live.]

#ocean vuong #night sky with exit wounds #queer poetry #thanksgiving #winter #mine #quotes #favourite

[maureen2musings]

"The moon looks upon many night flowers; the night flowers see but one moon..."

saria_n_michael

#sydney #australia #the moon #night flowers #curators on tumblr #Jean Ingelow quote

[amicus-noctis]

"If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is grass in the beginning." - Vincent Van Gogh

Painting: "Wheatfield with a Reaper" by Vincent van Gogh

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[without-ado]

Exploration is in our nature. We began as wanderers, and we are wanderers still.

l photo: Sara Hunt l quote: Carl Sagan

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[thoughtsthatstayedwithme]

But I am so deeply lost in my own soul, how can I expect anyone else to understand me?

- Courtney Peppernell

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[nighttime-thoughts]

Please tell me i'm not as forgettable as your silence is making me feel.

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[metamorphesque]

― Joan Didion, Blue Nights

#quotes #literature #memory #joan didion #blue nights