No one talks about how bittersweet being in a healthy relationship actually is. Yes I am finally receiving the love I deserve but I am also having to face myself and all the things I have to unlearn in order to love this human the way they deserve to be loved.
I know I am capable of it and I have been on this healing journey for a while now. But, adding another person to my journey has really made me face myself in a manner that is no longer in my control.
i haven't been having words to anything rn. it's such a chill place to be. "i don't know" is as certain as we say "time will tell"
time will tell everything or nothing at all. time will still be moving despite how uncertain i feel about one pretty person or one decision.
i move with my gut. i move with understanding as if i were in someone's shoes. time is different to everyone. it moves different behind different emotions or circumstances.
rn, im flowing in the wave of acceptance that all i can control rn is all of me. times like this makes me appreciative of being open enough to reexamine everything enough to know what lessons to take from it. i'm always learning, never settling for being the wisest but aiming to always be a student of whatever life brings.