PR Relationship
Masterlist Scarlett Masterlist
Word Count: 3110
Relationship: Scarlett x Singer Reader
Summary: Y/n and Scarlett are in love with each other and have a secret relationship that only a select few know about. Things change when Y/n finds out that Scarlett may have her eyes on someone else.
(I do not own the rights to the lyrics, I just think this sounds fits the story perfectly. It’s Secret Love Song by Little Mix.)
Y/N’s POV:
For the last 3 months, I have been dating the beautiful Scarlett Johansson. However, as she hasn’t come out yet, it was a complete secret with only Lizzie Olsen knowing the truth. At first it didn’t bother me at all. It was exciting. The sneaking around was fun and trying to sneak dates and kisses without being caught was exhilarating. But the last couple of weeks have started to get tiring. If ever I stay over, she’s kicking me out at like 5am so I don’t get caught by the paps, we never travel anywhere together and I’ve lost count of the amount of times she’s totally changed her demeanour around me because someone has walked by us.
Don’t get me wrong, I completely understand that Scarlett is scared of coming out. I’ve already done that and it wasn’t easy. I would never push her to do anything she’s uncomfortable with. But it’s starting to hurt, it feels more like she’s hiding me rather than protecting herself. Thing is, I love her and I’m willing to wait for her. Which is the problem, I’m scared this might break me.
So here I am, 4:30 in the morning tiptoeing around her bedroom getting ready to sneak out. I don’t want to wake her, she’s been so busy at work she deserves a good rest. I throw on some sweatpants and a hoody whilst picking up my underwear from the floor after last night’s activities. I leave a gentle kiss on Scarlett’s forehead before slipping out of the house, unheard, into the early morning.
As I’m sat in my car I can feel the exhaustion seeping through my body. I had been spending most nights at Scar’s which meant I was only getting a few hours sleep and it was starting to catch up with me. I’ve got to be at the studio at 8am so I decide there is no point in heading home. Instead I make my way to the beach to watch the sunrise and go for a swim. There’s no better way to start my day. Well other than getting to sleep in my girlfriends arms past 5!
I get to the studio early and I start having all of these thoughts in my head which I start to collate and write down. Lyrics forming as I write. I’ve not felt this inspired for a long time
We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
It’s not until I start to pull the lyrics together that I realise how much this whole situation is hurting me. By the end of the day it’s all starting to come together, the quickest that I have ever written a song. My team love it and are already planning for me to sing it on Jimmy Kimmel. I push back though. It’s not fair to Scarlett to hear about my feelings through an interview. But writing the song has helped, I’m feeling better already.
As I get into the car I check my phone. I’ve not spoken with Scarlett all day. That’s not unusual as for us though. But a smile forms on my face when I see a message from her.
Scarlett:
Hey Babe, thanks for this morning. I really needed that sleep. I know you’re in the studio all day so can’t talk. I’m working late but perhaps you could come over tomorrow? Love you xx
Me:
Hey Scar, no problem, you need your sleep! Tomorrow would be great. Love you too xx
The next evening I’m sat on the sofa in Scarlett’s living room her legs draped over mine as we watch TV. She has her laptop resting on her legs finishing up the last bit of work before she’s done for the day. I’m just sat scrolling through my phone when I seeing articles popping up about Scarlett and her new partner. We’d been so careful to not been seen together in more than a friendly capacity. In fact, by the way we act in public you wouldn’t think we were that close as friends.
But then my heart stops, the articles aren’t referring to me but Chris Evans. What the fuck?! I can feel my heart beating faster like it’s going to beat out of my chest. Then I click on one article, “Co-Stars Scarlett Johansson and Chris Evans spotting kissing on a dinner date.” A photo accompanying it. That was yesterday! I sit up with a jolt feeling like I was going to be sick. My God she’s cheating on me and she’s not even trying to hide it!
“Hey what’s wrong Babe, you look like you’ve seen a ghost.” Scarlett says concerned looking over her laptop to me. I try to speak but I can’t form words. I can see her starting to get worried as she puts her laptop down on the table and goes to put her arm on my back. I’m quick to pull away and just throw my phone in her direction. She looks at the screen and her eyes grow wide.
“Y/N this isn’t what it looks like, I swear. Please..” Running my hands through my hair I stand up not even able to sit next to her. “I mean it looks like you’ve got your tongue down Evans’ throat. Not sure what else it could look like Scarlett!” I say coldly trying so hard not to yell. “Is this why you hid me? Not wanting anyone to know. Am I the dirty little secret to keep until you have Evans?” Pacing round the room I can feel my chest get tighter and my breathing becoming erratic.
“NO! I’m not cheating on you Y/N, I love you!” “THEN WHAT IS THIS!” So much for not shouting. I can feel my heart breaking in two. “Please just let me explain. With the new Avengers movie coming out our teams thought it would be good PR if we got some rumours going about being in a relationship. We had lunch and dinner dates here and there making sure to look like a couple for the paparazzi. I promise you Y/N there is nothing going on.”
I immediately stop my pacing, turning to her in disbelief. “So you can’t tell anyone about me, but you’re happy to go along with a fake relationship for you movie. Great, good to know where I sit in your priorities. Did you even consider telling me, it’s weird but I would have understood? Instead I find out by finding a picture of you kissing!” I can’t stop the tears anymore, but I won’t let her see me sob.
“Y/N please…” Scarlett grabs my hands trying to get me to look at her. “I-I can’t do this anymore.” I whisper pulling my hands away. “Wait, what do you mean? Y/N?” she says in a scared tone. “I’ve spent the last 3 months doing everything you ever asked. I never pushed for you to do anything you were uncomfortable with, even if it was at a detriment to me. I was waiting for you to be happy in yourself that you could share us with the world. I have always put your first. I knew this could break me and it has. I need to put myself first this time as it’s evident you won’t.” Turning my back on her I grab my things and walk towards her door.
I can hear her running up behind me and she grabs my shoulders spinning me around. “No, you can’t go. I’m so sorry Y/N, I love you, please you can’t leave me. Don’t go we can work this out.” Looking in her eyes I can see the pain. Her cheeks are stained with tears. “We don’t need to work anything out Scar, you do. I just hope you find happiness one day without having to hide yourself way.” With that I walk out, my heart tearing from my chest. A part of me just wishing that one day she might be ready for this relationship as a whole.
Scarlett’s POV:
I had really fucked this up. I hadn’t slept for days and had shut myself away, calling in sick to work to avoid seeing anyone. I had never felt pain like this. Y/N was my world. I love her with all my heart. I had always intended to tell the everyone but it just felt too hard and she was so great at giving me time. But this PR relationship with Chris was by far the biggest mistake I’ve ever made. This isn’t me, I don’t intentionally hurt people but it feels like I did with Y/N.
Whilst in my cave of self-pity and depression I hear banging on the door. Dragging myself up I find an angry Lizzie stood there with her Wanda head tilt. Shit that’s terrifying! “What the fuck Scar?!” She huffs pushing herself into my house. “Well hello to you too Lizzie” I half chuckle. “You broke her when all she has ever done is put your first. I warned you that you needed to be honest with yourself or you’ll lose her.” She’s angry but her tone softens when she sees the state I’m in. “Geeze Scar when was the last time you slept?” She said pulling me in for a hug. “I can’t sleep without her.” I whisper tears starting to form in my eyes.
We move to the sofa and she takes my hands in hers. “From what I hear, Y/N didn’t get much sleep with you. Staying up til God knows when with you then being kicked out at 5am. Did you not notice how tired she’d been?” I just shake my head in shame. “I’ve screwed up Lizzie and I don’t know how to get her back. I’ve told my team I won’t go ahead with the fake relationship anymore but I know I need to do so much more than that to show her I’m in this for the long run.” I don’t dare even speak that I’m terrified that I’ve lost her forever, in fear that speaking it will make it true.
“Scarlett, you need to decide what scares you the most. Coming out and fearing people will see you differently, or losing Y/N, the woman you are madly in love with, for good. Just don’t take too long in making that decision or it could be too late.” She pulls me into a hug and we lie together on the sofa. “I miss her Lizzie” I sniffle. “Well, she’s performing on Jimmy Kimmel. How about we watch that?” I nod and she grabs the remote switching over to her performance.
Y/N’s Performance:
Jimmy: Performing her latest single, please welcome to the stage, Y/N Y/L/N!
The lights dim with a sole spotlight shining on Y/N who is sat at a piano. She starts to play as the notes ring out through the studio.
We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
As you drive me to my house
I can't stop these silent tears from rolling down
You and I both have to hide
On the outside where I can't be yours and you
Can't be mine
But I know this
We got a love that is homeless
Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face
But we know this, we got a love that is homeless
Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
I don't wanna live love this way
I don't wanna hide us away
I wonder if it ever will change
I'm living for that day
Someday
When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that
'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours
Oh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that?
'Cause I'm yours
Why can't we be like that
Wish we could be like that
The lights faded as the camera zoomed in close enough to see that Y/N was crying before the stage went dark and the audience erupt in applause.
Scarlett’s POV:
Lizzie and I just sat there in silence. I could hear the pain in her voice and it hurt me to know that it was me that caused it. I was pulled out of my trance by Lizzie squeezing me into a tight hug whispering in my ear. “If this didn’t help you decide then I don’t know what will.” She was right, the only person who I care about is Y/N. I’m not scared anymore. I’m going to win her back.
I’m up all night with Lizzie working a way out that I can come out and show my love for Y/N. An Instagram post didn’t seem like enough and a press release was too impersonal. It needed to be something special, and that’s when Lizzie came up with a risky but perfect plan. I just hope that she could forgive me and we can start out lives together a fresh.
Timeskip
It was a week later and here I am sat in the back of Y/N’s limo. She just doesn’t know it. It’s the night of the Grammy’s and Y/N is up for an award. I’m so proud of her and it’s time to show her that she is my number one priority. Lizzie’s grand plan so far had worked. We spoke with Y/N’s team and I explained the whole situation. Her manager was surprisingly nice about and said that it explained a lot about her behaviour recently. She had agreed to arrange a secret plus one for Y/N. I would wait in her car to surprise to walk down the red carpet with her, as her girlfriend. I just hoped she wouldn’t kick me out on the curb.
My heart rate starts to pick up as I hear her talking as she walk towards the car. God I’ve missed that voice. The car door opens and she gets in letting out a slight sigh as she sits. It takes her a moment before she notices me sat there with a nervous smile on my face and she jumps “Jesus Scar, you scared the shit out of me.” We both let out an awkward chuckle. “What are you doing here?” She asks not quite able to maintain the eye contact. This is it, the moment I win my girl back.
I put my finger under her chin and lift it so she’s looking at me. My God she is breathtakingly beautiful! I then take both of her hands in mine taking a deep breath “Y/N. Since the day I met you, I knew I was going to fall madly in love with you. Every day I spent with you I fell more and more in love. No one has ever made me as happy as you do. I know it’s only been 3 months but I know you are the women I want to spend the rest of my life with. I screwed up, I know I can’t take that back. I was so paralysed with fear about coming out and people’s reaction to it, that I didn’t think about you and our relationship. I just let you carry on making the sacrifices for me. But today that changes. I love you with all my heart and I’m not prepared to lose you again. I am so fucking proud of what you have achieve this last year. You deserve everything you are going to get tonight. And…. If you’ll have me… I want to be there for you every step of the way. No more hiding. I want to walk down that red carpet on your arm as your proud girlfriend. And then I’m going to spend the rest of my life showing you how much I love you.”
There is a long silence as her eyes flicker between my own trying to get a read of me. I hope she can see how sincere I’m being, that I mean every word that I’m saying. “Don’t hurt me again. I don’t think I can survive if you do.” She whispers. The biggest smile appears on my face as I reach up and put my hand to her cheek wiping away the stray tear. “I promise I won’t. Can I kiss you?” I ask. “You never have to ask Scar.” And with that I pull her into a passionate kiss. I have missed her lips connecting with mine. It makes me feel complete. “You look absolutely beautiful Y/N. I’m so glad I get to call you mine.” She laughs and pulls me in for another soft kiss.
As we pull up to the venue Y/N grabs my hand. “Are you sure Scar? I don’t want you to do something you’re going to regret.” I look at her and smile. “The only regret I have is not telling the world how much I love you sooner. Let’s do this.” The fear is gone, I’m only excited now. As the door to the limo opens, I see the start of our new life together.
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A Chance Encounter: Unwanted Attention
Scarlett Johansson x Fem!Reader
Scarlett Johansson x John Doe (Ex)
Jess Valdez(GN!OC) x Fem!Reader (Ex)
Battle of the Exes (Previous)
Warnings: Alcoholism, Biphobic Title, Heavy Grief, Messy Tabloids, Messy Ex.
Smut: Quickie—Thigh riding(R), Teasing.
The following morning you woke up with your head aching, and your phone nonstop pinging. Scarlett stayed the night, holding you close, and leaving you in the dark so that you'd sleep. The sheets beside you were crumpled, but still warm, your tired eyes flitted over to the clock, panic began to fill you as the time read 10am. Angie always woke up at 8am, and you're more than certain Scarlett is tending to her for you.
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Checking your phone next your eyes roam over the hundreds of notifications, something your used to as a social media manager, but never have you experienced it on your personal cell.
-50+ missed calls-
~ Y/N/N, long time no see, but wtf is this? *link* ~
•Jesus, Y/N, I know Jess messed up, but to move on so publicly before the signed paper's were even dry is messed up. My precious granddaughter deserves better than that!•
*Y/N, I'm sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen... Please call me back*
*I tried to stop it... They wouldn't listen, I did it when I was drunk and incredibly angry.*
You ignored Jess's pleas, and instead opened the text from one of your nosy neighbors, clicking the link and gasping at the site.
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Scarlett Johansson—Hollywood's Sweetheart: Went from Home Wrecked to Home Wrecker
Hollywood's Golden Girl: Scarlett Johansson, recently divorced from John Doe after finding he'd cheated on her with his assistant the entirety of her pregnancy, has found herself amidst a slurry of similar claims with a young online mogul—Y/N Y/L/N, who works behind the scenes of many internet brands.
Y/N Y/L/N, legally known as Valdez, is in the middle of a heartbreaking divorce herself, and it seems Scarlett couldn't wait to sink her teeth into the mess that was this young girls heart. It had appeared that Y/N, and Jess Valdez—her spouse, were headed towards a possible reconciliation until the actress shoved herself into the mix. Allegedly preying upon Y/N in her most vulnerable of times after the loss of her precious son—Joshua Valdez.
(Please enjoy this photo of my Josh ❤️)
The Valdez's lost their precious boy October 14th, 2019, in a tragic accident at his school. He died not to long after a fatal blow to his head, and it left the entire family, and their local community distraught. The tragic loss led to a mountain of problems for the couple to face, leading into their prolonged separation, and subsequent divorce.
Jess was heartbroken to say the least upon finding the divorce papers on their desk one morning, and to then see their wife moving on with another so quickly after had only made it that much harder to bare. Jess has made it clear that they're not absolutely innocent, and that they've made their share of mistakes, but none they deemed worthy of such occurrences.
Scarlett and Y/N have been seen out in public, engaging in what appears to be picture perfect familial outings, and Jess fears it's confusing their shared daughter to partake. Jess came to us at the Cosmopolitan with the first access into this heartbreaking story, with the pleas that all those involved in this story will come to their senses, and fulfill their roles.
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Scarlett Johansson's ex John Doe has shared his statement as well:
Last updated: December 20, 2021–8:03AM; more updates to come.
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Your heart rapidly pounded in your chest, reverberating off your ribs and traveling to every which place one can feel such a thing. The article was making you feel nauseous, the many intimate photos taken of you, and your current lover not even the worst of them, as some of them included the faces of the kids, the innocent little babies who are being mixed up into a fight that was only ever one sided.
Jess not only humiliated you through this article of misinformation, but they used the memory and image of your late son to do it.
Did they think this would win you over?
That their pathetic attempts at showcasing their heartbreak, the one they themselves caused with years of created distance, and the bouts of home wrecking they themselves partook in. As if anything they said was true.
Your body wracked with sobs, bitterness gnawing at your very being for ever giving them the chance at redemption, for believing that the love you once shared was strong enough to repair the initial friendship for the sake of your daughters peace.
Soft giggles just outside the door thankfully caught your attention, you dropped your phone, then skillfully wiped away the fallen tears just in time for your daughters bright form to come barreling in and into your bed.
"Mama!! Scarlett and I made you breakfast! She told me you were tired so we let you sleep in, and then she helped me make you waffles because they're your favorite—right mama?"
Scarlett saw the tear tracks, coupled with the upside down phone and her heart broke seeing that you'd seen one of the many articles she'd wanted to shield you from ever viewing.
"Oh angel, you're just so good to mama, thank you so much."
"Scarlett too!"
"Yes, Scarlett too, she's very good to mama. Thanks honey." You coo, hand gently running down your daughters back, while your sad eyes looked up to your lover, hopeful that she understands just how sorry you were.
Angie tightened her arms around your neck, nuzzling deep into your hold like she did every morning while Scarlett took the spot just before you, settling the tray to the side while trying to silently reassure you that it would all be okay, her hand gently taking your own, and stroking her thumb over the thin layer of skin.
"Angel, do you think you can do mama a favor?"
"Anything!" She mumbles into your shirt, and a ghost of a smile forms on your face at the tickling sensation.
"Can you go get your shower? We're going out today, and I can't have you stinking." You playfully request, feeling as she gasped against your shirt before pushing back from you.
"Mama! I do not stink!"
You giggled as she playfully crawled off of you and to both of your surprise she settled into Scarlett's lap, and the blonde was quick to accept the affection.
"Mama's being a meanie.."
"Oh sweet girl, I'm sorry your mama's being a meanie... I think you smell perfectly fine."
"Scarlett's my new favorite now!" She squeals, then turns to glare at you, causing you to nearly choke over the forkful of waffles.
"Go get your shower stinky." You tease, sticking your tongue out for good measure.
She huffs, but runs out of the room like the obedient little one she is, and as soon as the waters running so are your tears, and Scarlett scoots closer to pull you into her chest.
"It's going to be okay Y/N, I scheduled an interview for tomorrow night on Jimmy Fallon to sort all of this out, I'll clear your name honey; John released a statement on his socials, and in it he stuck up for us. Jess is going to look like a fool after this for hurting you, I promised you I'd protect you, and I clearly failed you here."
Your stomach twisted as she kept on talking, the blame she placed upon herself as if she'd had the control over Jess's impulsive nature.
"Scarlett, th-this isn't your fault, and I'm the one who should be sorry... They tarnished your name, your reputation, and they fucking took pictures of us and spread them, ones with the kids in them. I know how important that anonymity is to you, and I failed to see them. I'm so sorry... Please don't leave..."
"Oh pretty girl, my name has been tarnished many times, it's not hard to repair it when you learn from your mistakes, or in situations like this bring the actual truth to the forefront. As for the kids, it's just as if paparazzi got the shots, you're not the one who took them. Please, don't be silly, I'm not leaving, Jess thinking this would make me do so is hilarious, with all these games they play I'm still not sure they even understand what they lost with you. Four months with you and I know not to do anything to jeopardize this, this has been better than any relationship I've ever been in prior. You're innocent here, and that's final, actually neither of us should be sorry, only Jess."
"Th-they used Josh's image... They gave them a photo of him for some sympathy card, our fucking son as a pawn in their twisted game..."
"Not that I'm saying forgive them honey, but do remember that grief is truly a sick monster, somewhere in their broken mind they believed what they said. That I somehow preyed upon you, and please believe me when I say those magazines can be pretty manipulative too."
"It changes nothing Scar, they did this to hurt me, lied to a journal to manipulate me into forgiving them for the sake of repairing our irreparably broken family. To hurt you, when all you've done is show me the kindness they always failed to. You didn't take advantage of my grief, you swooped in and helped me to process it, you're ten times the partner they ever were, and I'll be damned to let them treat you so poorly."
"What are you doing honey?"
"Public statement time I guess, going to defend you, and myself before I get work emails from companies dropping me."
Scarlett sadly smiled your way, then both your attentions turned to the door, your daughter hurried over to you and cupped your face in her tiny hands.
"Mama, why are you crying? Did Scarlett be mean to you?" She asks, turning to glare her way in case, but you quickly reassure her.
"Oh no angel, just some grown up business made mama sad is all..."
"I'm sorry mama... Can you braid my hair?"
"I can do it." Scarlett offers, Angie's smile widens, and you sigh appreciatively at the help offered.
"The Black Widow braid?!" She squeals, and Scarlett returns her enthusiasm, guiding her over to your vanity to get to work while you formulate your Instagram post.
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*Can you answer the phone so we can talk? Can I please talk to Angie...? I'm so sorry...*
"Mama! Look, isn't my braid pretty?"
You look up from your phone to see your daughter perched upon Scarlett's hip, with her hair in a beautiful french braid to resemble the one Natasha wore in Endgame.
"It is so pretty baby, come here mama's beautiful angel."
You're quick to catch her in your arms as she jumps down from Scar's hold, squeezing her tightly before whispering something silly into her ear just to hear her sweet giggles.
"Hey, Deda want's to talk to you, do you want to call them right now?"
"Yes please!"
Though you refuse to talk to them, but you won't hold Jess's actions against your own daughter. After you handed her the phone you leave them to have their conversation. Making your way to the bathroom to get ready for the day you failed to notice Scarlett sneaking her way inside with you. She happily observed as you undressed, your sleep shorts and sports bra discarded, and once you were left in only your panties you felt her eyes on you.
"How you feeling honey?" She gently asks, strong arms wrapping around you from behind, chin settling atop your bare shoulder, and you looked up to see her eyes full of genuine concern, glazed over by traces of lust.
"A bit heartbroken but I've said my peace, and now I just wish to live out our Christmas break as planned together."
Scarlett pulled back with an obvious smirk, her hand on your hip was used to spin you around, and your squeals of surprise were muffled by her lips pressing firmly against yours. Planning to tease you she moves her lips against yours with ferocity, gripping your hips she holds you steady while placing her thigh beneath your thinly layered center, barely pulling back she whispers: "I'll make it better honey..." then with her tight hold on your hips she rolls your warm cunt against her bare thigh.
Her tongue slips into your mouth as you gasp at the dizzying feeling, she continues to swallow your moans while sliding you across her soft skin to build you up steadily. Never really stopping her ministrations, even when your lips struggle to keep up with her own. With a quick flex of her thigh she is rewarded with your strangled moans, and a slick drenched thigh.
"Fucking hell honey, you're so hot when you fall apart for me..."
She leans back in, continuing to kiss you softly, leaning your body back against the counter, her soft fingers trailing down from your hip to her own thigh, collecting your sticky arousal from her leg she then pulls back, lifting her fingers up into her mouth and moaning as your taste rolls across her tastebuds.
She slowly opens her blown out eyes to see you staring back at her through a glazed over set. Teasingly she bites her lip, leaning in for a bruising kiss that ends all too suddenly leading you to whimper as you chased her lips, she winks at you as she completely pulls back from your body and gives you a final look over.
"Sounds perfect to me love, now how about you take that shower so that we can dirty girl..." She muses, slipping out of the bathroom door just as fast as you came, chuckling maniacally as she leaves you a panting mess, surrounded by billows of steam, and mind foggy with need.
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When you reenter your room you find Scarlett holding a distraught Angie, then without a word she holds your phone up to you.
*Checking myself into rehab for my drinking... I told Angie that I'll be gone for awhile and that I'm sorry; I wanted to do the same for you but I know it won't mean much to you now. I promise to return to you a better coparent, I'll love you forever Y/N, even if you're no longer mine. I understand now just how much my actions truly led us to ruin...*
It's true what they say—when it rains, it pours. You hurriedly exit the room to call them, but it's to no avail as it goes straight to voicemail. Another set of attempts ends the same, and you realize you're now alone—and it fucking hurts. Which pisses you off even more because after everything they shouldn't have a hold on you. It's just that, no matter how bad it's gotten, with the missed weekends, and even now with this media fiasco you never truly felt alone.
Knowing that if you'd called in need they'd have shown up, but now that's not the case. They made a unilateral decision to abandon you, leaving you with your daughter without so much as a timeframe, and in a mess they made. To face the unforgiving world after dropping such a bombshell on your unsuspecting lives, but still, you feel a sort of happiness knowing that they are taking care of themselves for your daughter's sake.
No amount of distance, tragedy or separation could ever make you stop loving them either. They were your first love; the whirlwind college romance that followed you into your young adulthood, giving you the life you believed you could only ever dream of, but sadly that love didn't stand the test of time.
Playing the blame game as you will, in the end it gets you nowhere, so like it always goes, it's up to you to extend this final olive branch, they were always too prideful to do it themselves. Their current openness in going into rehab is a shocking feat, so if they won't answer the phone, you'll send them off with a cryptic post.
You remain in the hallways for a moments time, long enough to see your post receiving interactions; seeing that they liked the post is truly bittersweet, knowing that they're still on your side, but is also unable to face you truly pains you. That they'd been suffering all this time with such a devastating form of coping, and left you in the dark is enough to almost make you mad again, but you're too tired.
As you trudge your way upstairs your previous motivations for a fun day in the city are gone. Every step proves harder than the last, and the idea of a nap begins to consume your mind. Entering the room you notice Angie had the same idea because her soft snores are the first thing you hear.
"Can we just order takeout, and watch Christmas movies?"
Scarlett smiles up at you at the sound of your tired voice, pulling her gaze from staring at your daughters peaceful face that's lying against her chest, and your heart honestly skips a beat at the sight of your two favorite girls bonding so well.
You settle down beside her in the bed, guiding her face to yours by the way of your fingers on her chin; leaning your forehead to hers for some much needed comfort.
"How about you take over for our resident cuddle bug, and I'll pick up food on my way back here with the kids?"
Scarlett's fingers leave your daughters back in favor of cupping your cheek, slowly shifting to settle behind your neck to pull you forward and into her for a sweet kiss.
"Sounds perfect..." You whisper against her lips, then use gentle hands to move your napping daughter over to your own lap, settling into the mattress as the bed shifts without Scarlett's weight, and your eyes slowly close as your daughters warmth works to comfort you.
——
"Y/N! Are you sure you got the kids?"
"Yes Scar, now hurry along so that you can come right back..."
"So clingy.." She teases, but her soft eyes betray her, and her lips gently pressing to yours seals the deal that she's on the same page here.
Scarlett walks out the door with shouted goodbyes, and you settle the household in preparation of her incoming live interview. Carson was playing in his jumper, the girls were upstairs listening to music, and you were preparing tonight's dinner when your phone ringing pulled your attention.
"Hello?"
"Y/N, it's Papa Valdez."
"Hey Henry, how can I help you?"
"Well, I'd like to apologize for my comments, I'd failed to realize Jess had started it, and as you know they've ended up in a six month program at New York's finest rehab center. They'd really kept all of us in the dark here..."
Carson's soft grunts travel into the kitchen, warning you of an incoming meltdown if you don't get to him shortly, so you move to end this already awkward phone call.
"Yeah, they sure did Henry. Look, I don't mean to be rude, but I'm currently tending to three kids and have no time for a long winded conversation, I could call you back later if that's what you need."
Henry's booming voice was quick to shush you, so you held the phone to your shoulder with your ear and began to make him a bottle, listening as best you could to the elder mans ramblings while also throwing the slow bake casserole on.
"Oh, no honey, I'll be quick here. I just wanted to apologize, and in doing so offer up mine, and Luisa's services. Jess was so worried about leaving you alone when I checked them in yesterday, but I reassured them you'd be fine. So, would us having Angie every third weekend of the month be okay?"
"Of course, Angie would really love that, thank you so much."
"You're always going to be family Y/N, this is just what you do for family, I'll be in touch later about Jess's rehab program."
"Thanks again Henry, I'll talk to you later."
As you hang up the phone you lift the tired baby out of his seat, his face rubbing against your shoulder in a pleading manner. Settling yourself into the recliner you click the tv onto the right channel, and get Carson comfortable, holding the bottle up for him to grab onto, but his tired eyes brimming with tears tells you he's beyond the point of self-service.
Once he latches onto the nipple you lightly brush some hair from his face, and begin to trace your fingers over the bridge of his nose to help him on his journey into nap time. Within the five minutes it takes for Jimmy to get through his introductions Carson's passed out, the loud pop of his lips relinquishing their hold on the bottle evidence of that, and your eyes shift to the screen at the sound of your lovers name.
"Scarlett Johansson! Long time no see my dearest friend." The host greets as Scarlett takes her space up besides his desk.
"Hey Jimmy, it sure has been awhile, and honestly I wish to have been here under better circumstances." She smoothly eases into the topic of the night.
"Yeah, I see that you're already off the market, that seems to have shocked the world a bit."
"To be fair here I was never really on it, I was freshly divorced, and had been in the bitter phase where I was ready to swear off love. Then I met Y/N, and turns out Riley had already been smitten with her, and then Carson had all but claimed her as his own at the park. I learned fairly quickly that it's incredibly hard not to fall for the woman, she's a charmer."
"This alleged controversy has labeled you a home wrecker, and I'd love to help you to dispel this if at all possible."
"Y/N and I bonded over a shared story of failed marriages, her story isn't mine to tell, but for rumors sake it's important to know she was completely single. Legally, emotionally, and physically she'd been on her own for six months by the time we had met. The honest truth is it was just a chance encounter that turned into something incredibly magical."
"I'm so happy to hear that Scarlett, finding love amidst immense adversary is definitely a blessing. Now, our time is running out, but I'm here to ask you a final question."
Scarlett nodded in silent agreement, her faith at an all time high with her long time friend.
"Do you have any understanding on as to why Jess took such a drastic approach here? Do we think that it could be tied into why they were seen checking into a rehabilitation center this morning?" Jimmy asks, though he hides it well you can still see his visible discomfort with the scripted question.
Scarlett's facade nearly crumbles as well, but as the A-list actress that she is she manages to pull it together, offering as passive an answer as one can give to the question at hand.
"Well Jimmy , I can't speak for Jess as it's truly not my place to do so, but I can offer my loose thoughts. Grief is never cut and dry, it's messy, it's painful, and in this case it's everlasting. The aforementioned party was going through a lot, and I hold no malicious judgement on how they handled themselves here. My only role in this situation is to protect Y/N from the world I chose to live in, and that she got thrown into. Hopefully everyone will respect the privacy we'd been able to maintain up until this point, and furthermore that the media will leave the children out of it."
"Beautifully said Scarlett, always the classiest, thank you for joining us tonight."
"Thank you again for having me Jimmy, and allowing me this opportunity to clear this up." She concludes with a perfected smile, and a wave to the off stage camera before the screen fades into infomercials that you quickly mute.
"Your mommy's a saint." You sigh out to the unknowing infant, placing a kiss to his chubby cheek as you shift his slumped body into his playpen then moving to make yourself useful.
——
Intentions mean nothing in the grand scheme of things when you're faced with the brutal consequences of another's actions anyways. Your posts calmed the bulk of Scarlett's fans, her interview calming the rest, but to your clear misfortune the media found you fascinating even after a months time.
The photos of you alone at the park on days where solitude was what you craved would be blasted across the different media outlets with varying claims, usually about how "sad" you were, when you were honestly anything but. Sure, you had your moments of sorrow, how could you not with the way the world had been treating you, and with your ex's predicament. Deep down though you were happy, your daughter was doing well, you had a girlfriend who doted over you, and her kids were slowly becoming extensions of you.
You quickly learned that nowhere was off limits to them, your daughters gymnastics class, your midnight runs to Taco Bell, it was as if they slept in an RV at the end of your street.
Going grocery shopping, something you'd always done with no problem has turned into a fashion runway with the photo shoot to boot. Every crease of your face as you surveyed the pasta sauces you potentially wanted was posted to the internet and intensely analyzed for false evidence of make believe problems.
Nothing either of you said, or did could seem to quell the tabloids, and their absurd claims, stories of all sorts being thrown together rather baselessly.
"Y/N Y/L/N—Abandoned? Manipulated? Insight into her truly tragic story. "
"Jess Valdez, Estranged Spouse of Y/N Y/L/N spotted checking into rehab—Abandoning the child that remains?"
"What Really Happened? An Insider Reveals to TMZ the Downfall of Y/N and Jess Valdez!"
"Will Y/N and Scarlett Johansson last?—Scarlett's Long History of Dating Men."
"Trouble in Paradise? Scarlett Johansson spotted getting lunch with Chris Evans."
The invasive, and absolutely offensive articles had honestly become the least of your worries. The whispers at your joint daughters school amongst the PTA moms was what really got to you, because their innocent kids were caught in the cross fire, and without ill intent they would put you on blast in the classrooms.
"Miss Y/N, you're not a bad mama, Angie even told me so. The TV's just silly..."
"Miss Y/N, what's a slut? My mom callded you that last night when she was on the phone."
"Miss Y/N, I think you should break up with the Black Widow, my dada says you aren't good enough for her."
Your sanity personified was merely a thread of mucked up floss. The only solace you found was in your lover, and your collective brood... The kids worked extra hard most days just to make you crack a smile, and Scarlett held you in her arms most nights as you sobbed, much like tonight.
"Honey, I think it's best you take some time off from the school aiding, this isn't healthy..." She gently suggests, heart absolutely breaking with every tear of yours that soaks through her shirt.
"I-I can't do that to them, they don't know any better, and so many of them depend on me... Like Julie, she needs me there to fend off the bullies, Joshua always did, so it's only fair I do. Then there's the Spencer twins, their mom is barely making ends meet as it is on her own, I help to keep them fed, and I also tutor them. Nathaniel, the sweetest kid alive, I let him talk my ear off every lunchtime because I know he struggles to make friends, and that his dad also has struggled to connect with him ever since Lily died last year. They all need me..."
"Oh sweetheart, you never told me just how much you actually do, but of course you do. You have such a big heart, it's one of your greatest assets, but right now it's a hinderance. There's absolutely no reason you have to keep breaking yourself to do it all. Take the next month off, I promise I'll take over for you."
"No, Scar you can't do that, it's not fair for—."
Scarlett presses her lips to yours in a silent request for you to give in, and for a brief moment you do, sighing against her lips, and allowing her the access to explore your mouth while her hands do a bit of their own exploring. When she has you where she wants you she finally pulls back, knowing she has the silence needed to convince you to take care of yourself.
"It's more than fair honey, you desperately deserve a break, and I have no current projects. So I'll take care of everyone, honestly my ear is open to any kid in need, they're so much better than adults anyways. Leave me a detailed list of everyone with their specific needs and I'll tend to them just as you do."
"I-I don't know Scar, it's a long list and I don't want you to resent me with the hefty workload that comes with volunteering as me."
"There's no reason you can't have this moment to breathe, because the last thing these kids need is to see their favorite person eventually crumbling in front of them. This isn't me asking you Y/N, this is me telling you as someone who cares about you beyond measurable reason that you need to step back. Please just think about it..."
You know she's right, so you chose to give up the fight, mumbling a quiet 'ok, I'll do it' before further melting into her and accepting exhaustions sweet embrace.
——
After a long three months your story was finally old news, as some five other celebrity couples found themselves amidst horrible breakup's—a bit of Spring cleaning if you will; April showers brings May flowers the current mantra holding an entirely new meaning. Though you did hurt for them you couldn't help but to thank them within the same breath.
To many's total shock you'd yet to return to the aide position, and Scarlett hadn't minded, she was quite enjoying the break from Hollywood roles. Now that you could breathe again you were focused on finding a nice balance between your work, your relationship, and apparently you were meant to rebuild your broken family through rehab facilitated counseling that you'd obviously been reluctant to partake in.
Had it not been for your daughter you'd have said no, but Angie had been so excited to see her Deda that you found yourself feeling a bit excited for her yourself. Watching their tearful reunion brought tears to your eyes as well, and reaffirmed your decision to give it one last go. Jess had looked ready to hug you too, but after clearly battling within themselves they sided with a loose handshake that you met with an awkward smile before joining them in a session that was meant to establish goals / set clear boundaries for their release in three months.
•Monthly family events with partners also incorporated, IE: Bowling, Park, etc.•
•Never bring a fight to the internet again, and leave Angie unscathed by any arguments.•
•No showing up unannounced—No canceling last minute on your nights—No calling whenever you want.•
•Consistency, and a reevaluation of the current verbal custody agreement.•
•Learn to accept each other's future partners.•
Once a rough outline was set in place the man dismissed the both of you, but Jess was antsy when they saw you heading for the door.
"Y/N..."
Without a word you turned to them, allowing them the chance to say their peace so that you could leave, your daughter already gone as the family counselor took her to the front desk to pick a lollipop from the selection of dum-dums.
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry.. I never in a million years thought we'd be where we are now, in this clinical setting, fighting to just be able to get along again. Nor that I'd have been stupid enough to run you off and into another's arms. Every decision I made led to catastrophe, and I hate so much that I allowed myself to treat you so poorly, you never deserved that. Truly, you were the woman of my dreams and I took you, and our family for granted..."
Again, you said nothing, because if you allowed yourself to respond you don't think you'd stop. The words you want to say would be fueled by unresolved pain that you yourself need to handle. They're in rehab, taking the steps to be better, and you're not going to tear them down. Instead, you offer them a sad smile, then begin to dig through your bag in search of something.
Eventually you find the envelope, ignoring their perplexed expression, and watching as they open it up. The contents spill onto the table, their breath hitches at the collection of items, then there body wracks with sobs at your gesture. A shaky hand holds the family photo close to their heart while the other opens up the folded paper to see a drawing Angie recently made of your family—Josh as an angel hovering above the three of you with a wide smile, and the bittersweet spacing between your bodies a clear reminder of the new normal.
"Thank you..." They whisper out, finger gently tracing over the laminated Squirtle Pokémon card, then shifting their broken gaze over to face you, and smiling sadly.
"I'm really proud of you Jess." You manage to force out over the lump in your throat, then you step out of the suffocating room, wiping your tears away before setting off to find your daughter.
As you rounded the corner a tiny body was quick to collide with yours.
"Mama!! Look! I got a bubblegum lollipop, then he said since I was so polite that I could get one for everyone at home. I got you a root-beer since it's your favorite, Ri-Ri a cotton candy, cherry for Scar, and I even got Carson one too. Is it time to go home yet?"
"You're so sweet, thank you, and yes—it's time to go home angel."
—
Upon entering Scarlett's house it was oddly quiet, then you heard a loud set of squeals, turning to the left to see the perpetrators bright green eyes on you, and hands clapping wildly.
"Ma-ma-ma..."
The innocent babbles warmed your heart, and you immediately moved to take the infant from his high chair, snuggling him close and placing kisses to the entirety of his chubby face. You failed to see the way your daughters face had dropped, but Scarlett could see the obvious meltdown arising. With quick hands she caught the teddy bear before it could startle the infant, and it was then that you caught on to the drastic mood drop.
"Angelina Marguerite Valdez! We don't throw things at the baby! Why did you do that?!"
"You're my mama! Not his!" She seethes, and your body freezes at the obvious anger, flashbacks of your fights with Jess plaguing your mind.
Carson immediately begins to wail at the heightened atmosphere, and your focused in on getting him to stop his crying, everything all of a sudden becoming overwhelming.
"Do you not want me anymore?" She whimpers in question, successful in shattering your heart, but before you could even respond she was up the stairs and a door was being slammed.
Scarlett stops you from running after her by embracing you and Carson in her strong arms.
"Hey, hey, honey calm down... Give her a few minutes to have her feelings, then go up there and help her through this. This was bound to happen sooner or later my sweets." Scarlett says, placing a kiss to your forehead, gently swaying your conjoined bodies until the babies settled in your hold.
After a painfully long twenty minutes you make your way up to your daughter, her loud sniffles seeping through the cracked door, and you peek in to see Riley sat in her bed holding her close. The blonde carbon copy of her mother notices you, her stare was hardened, but her tiny hand ushered you into the room.
"Angel..."
Angie's head lifts up from Riley's shoulder, eyes rimmed red, and lip uncontrollably trembling as she reaches out to you with a cry of your title, "Mama?"
"I'm here angel, mama's right here..." You coo, lifting her off of Riley's lap, her tiny body clings to you desperately, and you tighten your hold.
Riley lightly slaps your leg as she exits, and though she's mad at you it makes your heart happy to know just how protective of your daughter she is.
"Mama... I'm sowwy.." She cries, her lisp prominent in her saddened state, and your stomach twists with guilt as she just cries.
"Angel, it's okay... Can you please tell mama what really made you that mad?" You ask while taking a seat on her bed, honestly confused at her earlier outburst, because she's never been jealous of the kids at school who slip out a 'mama' every once in awhile.
"I'm scared." She says, body trembling like crazy in your hold.
"Scared of what my little love?"
"Josh's gone, now is Deda, and I just don't wanna lose you too. You're my mama..."
"Josh will always be in your heart my girl. Deda's not gone baby, they're just sick and getting help. Mama's not going anywhere! There's nothing to be scared of honey..."
"Is Carson my new brother then?"
"Well, not exactly, but maybe one day he could be... Would you want that? Is that okay?"
You and Scarlett are going on eight months now, and though neither of you are rushing to the altar it's definitely been a topic of delirious late night discussions. More so a topic of your own dreams, and if one was to ask Scarlett she'd confirm it's all she's really thought about since your first 'I love you's' were uttered.
"What if I forget him mama? What if I let Carson be my new brother and forget Josh?!"
Angie's sudden question brings you back to the moment, making you realize the real reason behind her outbursts, and your heart aches at the obvious guilt consuming your daughter.
"Oh you silly girl... I promise you'll never forget him, I'll make sure Josh's memory lasts on in you heart forever."
"Promise?" She whispers, pinky lifted in anticipation, "Promise!" you repeat, linking your pinky with her own and sealing it with a kiss, then proceeding to drop a plethora of kisses to her face until her cries fade into giggles, or more like pleads for you to stop.
"All better then?" You ask, and she nods against your shoulder before gasping.
"Wait, mama, if Carson's maybe going to be my brother, does that mean Riley will finally be my sister? Ooh. Will Scarlett be my mommy?"
"Slow down angel... I can't say yes to that yet, but I do hope the answer will be yes one day."
"Me too!" She shrieks, then hugs you tightly, and you cradle her tightly as you lift both of you up to head down for dinner.
Scarlett scurries down the stairs once she hears the door creaking open, she'd only even been up there to grab her phone off the charging dock in your room, but once she heard you ask if she'd be okay with Carson as her brother she felt drawn to find out the answers to the questions that resided in her heart.
As you entered the kitchen you settled Angie down, and the first thing she did was run over to hug Scarlett's legs while she was stood at the stove.
"Oh, careful there little one." Scarlett coos with a wide smile, effortlessly pulling your far too big girl up and settling her onto her hip.
The adorable interaction made you even more sure that she was it for you, and unbeknownst to you it was having the same effect on her.
—
That night you and Scarlett decided to read the kids a bedtime story together in Riley's room. Riley was on the top bunk, Angie on the bottom, and Carson was sat in your lap. Scarlett was acting out the silly story as you read it out, putting her training to good use, and the girls were absolutely eating it up.
The sounds of their giggles spurring on the one's of the toddlers in your lap. In the end the story was long forgotten when Scarlett had attempted a somersault in the tiny space in the name of show business, and you were laughing so hard you found yourself gasping for air.
Once the laughter died down, and Scarlett was confirmed okay you guys got around to tucking the girls in.
"Goodnight Mama... Goodnight Mommy."
Scarlett gasped, but quickly overcame the moment with a shakily whispered goodnight, while her hand sought out your own.
Following up with Carson you cradled him close as he only wanted you to, and Scarlett's smooth voice sang out a medley of lullabies until the one year old finally slumped within your hold. The both of you kissed his cheek at the same time, locking eyes as you do, then as you pulled away you shared a tender kiss right before settling him down for the night.
"Goodnight Mama," she whispers once your backs hit the mattress, "Goodnight Mommy," you whisper in return, somehow nuzzling your face deeper into her neck.
——
Scarlett hurriedly entered the strikingly white building, heart slamming against her rib cage as what she's doing here finally becomes real, her whole body stilling at the sight of the person sat at the table waiting for her arrival.
"I'd wondered when you'd finally visit me, figured you had to wait until the press died down, but wowza it's been a minute..."
Scarlett rolls her eyes as she moves across the room, hesitantly taking the seat across from your ex, and sending over a pointed glare so they know she means business to which they smirk and throw their hands up in mock surrender.
"Listen, I'm just pulling your chain here, what is it can I do for you Scarlett?"
Scarlett's hands reflexively wrung out a few times as she prepared herself to say what she came here to, Jess's cocky facade falling as they deduce what's coming, skin crawling with an unhappy anticipation, and their stomach drops once she finally says her truth.
"I want to marry Y/N, and I've come here in the hopes of receiving your blessing."
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