Tumgik
#the way 3racha is good at everything.. ok boys go off
jinnie-ret · 6 months
Note
ok but imagine chans sister comes to visit the boys and gets attacked by saesangs. comfort from chan as well as his own guilt that it happened?? while the boys do their best to fix everything and make it okay? my love for angsty fics is really showing damn
cold water
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
stray kids x reader (platonic)
genre: angst, angst, and more angst
content warnings: saesangs, violence, drowning
word count: 3.3k
summary: when chan's sister pays the boys a visit in Seoul, during their S-CLASS mv shooting, no one could have expected the day to end the way it would.
Thank you so much for this request! I've been trying to write it for the past couple of days because this idea instantly popped into my head, I hope it fulfills the angst you've been looking for!
As always, like, reblog if you enjoyed, and my asks are open for any requests you may have. And let me know if you'd like to be tagged when I post :)
MAIN MASTERLIST
Tumblr media
Y/N was glad to finally settle down in Seoul after her flight from Sydney. She was excited to see Bang Chan again, it had been a while as she hadn't been able to fly over with Hannah and go to their concerts, too busy with her school work. You see, Y/N always dreamed of being a director, and so when Chan had offered her to come watch them film their newest music video for their upcoming title track, S-CLASS, she couldn't deny his offer. Especially since he had promised that it would be a new experience for not just her, but for him and the rest of the boys too.
And boy was he right. If you had asked Y/N if she was going on a nighttime shoot, on a boat, in the middle of Han River, she would have laughed in your face, but her brother was big time now, and as much as she'd tease him and deny it, she was proud of Bang Chan. He even managed to get a comment along those lines from her earlier in the day.
"Y/Nnie, aren't you proud of your big bro?" Chan bounced around happily, excited for his younger sister to be staying with them, shaking her shoulders at the same time.
"Yeah, yeah," she rolled her eyes, unable to hide her growing smile as she stood in the entrance of the dorms he shared with Changbin, Han, and Hyunjin.
Speaking of, they all appeared, hearing the commotion of their leader and someone else.
"Woah, is that you, Y/N? You've grown!" Han patted her head as he greeted her.
"Not by much," she laughed, ducking away when the head pats turned into borderline hair ruffling, and no one touches her hair.
"Who knows, maybe you'll be taller than Changbinnie!" Hyunjin laughed.
"There's no way, Y/N got the small genes too, just like me and Hannah, Lucas is the only one who is tall out of us siblings," Chan sighed.
"It's so annoying. We're twins. He's got height to spare, why couldn't he give me some of it?" Y/N whined, causing Chan to laugh at her.
"Ah, join us on the dark side Y/N," Chan gestured to him and the other 2 members of 3RACHA.
"I'm in a dorm full of shorties," Hyunjin shook his head.
"Surprise, shawtyyyy," Y/N did some jazz hands, causing Han and Chan to laugh because they got the reference.
"Anyways let's drop your bags off in the spare room, then we can grab something to eat and head to the shoot, yeah?" Chan suggested as he picked up Y/N's luggage and carried it with him.
"Sounds good to me," Y/N nodded as she followed along.
Best. Dinner. Ever.
Bulgogi. Fried chicken. Kimchi. It was a proper feast. Although, the boys didn't have too much as they said they didn't want to feel bloated during the shoot, and they'd probably get some more food later. Y/N wouldn't be able to turn down that offer too, especially since her brother was paying for it all.
"So how old are you now, Y/Nnie?" Seungmin asked as she traveled with the other boys to their shoot.
"I'm 17," Y/N replied, the boys letting out noises of surprise.
"I remember when we debuted, you were only 12!" Felix gasped.
"Well, times have changed haha, it's been like 5 years, you know, you guys have been doing this for a small while now," Y/N pointed out. Of course she wasn't going to be a child forever.
"That makes me feel old," Lee Know sighs, throwing his head back against the headrest in the car.
"Well, you are the oldest one in here hyung," Jeongin patted his shoulder condescendingly.
"Yah! Our driver hyung is older than me!" Lee Know replied, turning around and staring daggers at his youngest member.
Y/N couldn't help but giggle at the interactions they had. She was glad her brother was surrounded by such good people. She knew he had found it tough before when he saw his other trainee friends debut, not fully realising how isolating that must have been until a few years ago now.
"You know, you're pretty cool, Chris," Y/N stared in awe at the boat they were about to board.
"Thanks, sis," he wrapped her in a small side hug, not teasing her this time yet still having a bashful expression on his face.
They all boarded the boat, staff, crew, members. Not realising the two suspicious hooded figures following them on and instantly hiding. In fact, Y/N thought she saw something out of the corner of her eye, jolting around so suddenly she caught the attention of Chan once more.
"You good?" he raised an eyebrow at her, looking around now also.
"Thought I saw something... it's probably nothing," Y/N brushed it off.
"It's probably jet lag," Chan guessed, and Y/N nodded along anyways. It had been a long flight over, and she was feeling her energy slowly drop. Yet that didn't stop her from eagerly trying to pick up every detail of the shoot, from the camera angles, to how many takes it took the boys on different scenes, and to other unseen aspects of the shoot.
"So let me get this right, they're going to CGI a massive octopus in?" Y/N said with wide eyes, wondering why it would be there.
"Yeah, and?" Felix shrugged.
"And Seungmin is going to dance next to it for some reason?" Y/N clasped her hands behind her back.
"So?" Han shrugged. These sorts of ideas weren't really anything out of the ordinary for them.
"That's sick!" Y/N cheered in English, making the boys jump from her sudden mood change they witnessed, thinking she was criticising what was happening at first. They now understood she was just an excitable girl.
She had been diligently taking down notes on her phone the whole time, taking photos also. The crew had been worried at first that she'd reveal spoilers for the filming, but Chan reassured them all that Y/N was a good kid and she wouldn't do anything like that.
"Hey, Chris, is there a toilet on here?" two girls crouched on a lower part of the boat heard Y/N ask her brother. Of course they recognised the girl when they snuck on earlier. They were fans before their likes turned to obsessions, so of course they knew that Y/N was Chan's sister.
"Just downstairs one and to the left," they heard Chan reply and had to hide their squeals. Maybe if they saw Y/N, they could pretend to be best friends with her and then get closer to Chan. And then, once they got closer to Chan, they could become closer with the other members too.
Delusion was a disease.
Y/N put her phone torch light on as she headed down one flight of stairs and entered the bathroom, a light flickering on instantly. She went to enter a cubicle before a bright light shined in her face and left her wincing and feeling startled.
In reality, it was the two saesang girls' best bet in getting away before they were caught. And they didn't even feel bad for what they did. It's not like they went to the extremes of using a laser.
"Ah," Y/N winced as she rubbed her eyes, but she ignored it and soon returned upstairs.
"Are you ok? You look a bit disoriented," Hyunjin checked on the younger girl as he took a break, getting his hair and clothes touched up and adjusted.
"Yeah, I'm fine, just, a bit, I don't know," Y/N didn't know what else to say. She had a bad feeling now, swearing she had heard some giggles and footsteps running away from her after she was temporarily blinded.
"Is being on the boat all too much?" Seungmin asked, feeling bad for the girl who looked dazed.
"Hey, Y/N, why don't you take a moment, yeah, I know all the cameras and lights can be a bit overwhelming," Chan came over as soon as he heard the tone difference in the voices of his group.
"Ok, I'll just be round that corner, I'm going to look out at the river," Y/N told him, receiving a satisfied nod in response as she walked off. Perhaps all she needed really was just a breather. Yes, all the set and ideas were amazing, but it was very fast paced. What happened to their song, 'My Pace'?
Y/N giggled to herself, looking out at the water before she heard people approach her from behind.
"Chris, I still need some time-"
"Ah, so you are his sister..." one of the girls, looking around 20 years old, and staring down Y/N.
"Oh, are you staff here? Sorry, Chris, umm, Chan said it was okay to come down here, but I can move if-"
"No, why don't you stay?" the other girl evily smiled.
"Well, if you're sure..." Y/N nodded and turned back towards the water, before her head was yanked back and she fell to the floor of the boat with a thud.
"Hey!" Y/N shouted, but her mouth was instantly covered.
"You're going to give us exactly what we want, isn't that right?" a harsh voice whispered into her ear with gritted teeth. But Y/N shook her head pleadingly, not wanting to be caught up in anything violent.
"Stupid!" she was slapped across the face, letting out a whimper from the pain before she was pinned to the ground.
"Listen here, you little bitch. You may think you're living the high life as Chan's sister but you've got it all wrong. Now, you're going to walk back up there with and introduce us properly to that lovely brother of yours, pretend we got lost down here, just two staff members gone missing," a girl squeezed her wrists tight as Y/N couldn't move from her position.
"Ow, shit. Get off!" Y/N struggled in their grip, feeling terrified. This is certainly not what she expected when she came to visit her brother for an innocent work experience trip.
"Do it, now," they hauled her up and pushed her back towards where everyone else was working.
"I don't have to do anything you tell me. I'll just call the police and-" Y/N bravely began as she held up her phone but it was soon knocked out of her hands, and sink into the depths of the Han River.
"Oops," a girl innocently giggled.
"Are you out of your mind?!" Y/N shouted loudly, loud enough that she would be heard by the others, particularly her older brother who was due to go down and check on her because he thought she had been taking too long.
"Some may say that," the two girls cackled maniacally amongst themselves, like it was the best inside joke in the world.
"That was my phone! It had everything on it! I need it!" Y/N shouted once more, Chan, Lee Know and Changbin's footsteps becoming more rushed now. The other two immediately joined Chan on the way when they too heard the shouting.
Y/N had a pair of hands wrapped around her throat, the other unoccupied as the owner of them smirked and simply whispered.
"Aw, you better go get it then."
In a split second, Chan and the rest of the hyung line watched as Y/N was hurled over the edge of the boat, screaming as she fell before a splash was heard.
"Y/N!!!" Chan screamed in complete and utter panic. It was dark, it was cold, and now his sister was forced to try and stay afloat in such freezing temperatures like the waters of Han River.
"Are you crazy?!" Lee Know yelled at the two girls, who were excited to see the boys, not realising the consequences of their actions.
"Y/N!!! Y/N!!! Can you hear me?!" Chan heartbreakingly yelled as he looked over the edge of the boat railings and tried to see the head of his sister pop up.
Y/N felt her airways open before she cold help it. Ice cold water, working its way through her body as it traveled to her lungs and caused her to let out muffled pleas for help, trying to swim to the surface.
"Somebody get help! Someone fell in the water!!" Changbin used his loud voice to his advantage as he signalled the emergency crew with a lifeboat to drop down into the water and try and find Y/N.
"No, no, no, I can't believe this, no..." Chan whimpered, hands clenching onto the railing so tightly that his knuckles had turned white.
"Chan, it's ok, they'll find her," Felix had come up behind him, trying to calm him down even though he himself was feeling the exact same way. All of the boys were. There was anger, there was panic, there was... grief too. Nothing had been confirmed, but the what ifs flying through everyone's minds had killed the thoughts in their brains telling them that there was still a chance.
"I can't see her!!! I can't see her!!!" Chan paced, running his fingers through his hair as he cried. He cried so hard. The members couldn't remember the last time they saw their leader like this. But he was a family man, through and through. He'd do anything to protect those around him, especially those close to him.
"Get rid of these girls!" Han lead over some staff members to the two saesangs who had been stood starstruck the whole time Lee Know cussed them out, only infuriating him more.
"Y/N!" Hyunjin tried.
"Y/Nnie!" Seungmin tried.
"Y/N!" Jeongin tried.
They all tried calling her but there was no luck so far. The boat had been deployed into the river and it had bright lights reflecting off of the water, hoping to catch sight of Y/N.
"I should have protected her! I promised her!" Chan angrily pointed out towards the water, tears continuously falling as his members wrapping him in their arms comfortingly and trying to keep him calm
"Y/N! I see her! To the right! She's there!" Lee Know yelled down at the boat operators, who quickly jumped into action as they grabbed the shivering girl, trying to make sure she was breathing as they transported her onto land, where the boys on the boat were now pulling in too.
Y/N didn't remember much of what happened. Her body slowly became more and more numb, yet it carried her to the surface of the water, where she fortunately was floating on her back. She coughed and spluttered, and it seemed to let her breathe with a bit more improvement. Or maybe it was when she was wrapped in a foil blanket, hearing shouts of her name and feeling the rocking of a boat as she was moved somewhere.
The ground felt flat. But she couldn't mistake the warmth of her brother, even in her haziness.
"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry this happened to you, my Y/Nnie. I won't let anyone come near you ever again, I'll protect you. Chris is sorry, Y/N," Chan cried as he held his sister tightly against him, wrapping the blanket tighter around her and not caring about the discomfort he felt from sitting down in his tight leather trousers. Tears rolled down his cheeks, the other members gathered around and looking shaken up too, hands over there mouth or a supportive hand on Chan's shoulder.
"Please, can we pause the filming? I need to make sure she's ok," Chan pleaded with the staff, who immediately and wordlessly nodded at him, feeling incredibly upset themselves at what had happened. They had seen the brightness in the girl's eyes, when she asked them questions about how things worked and why they did them.
"We're all here for you, hyung," Changbin kneeled down next to Bang Chan and wrapped an arm around his shoulder at the same time. He knew how tough Chan could be on himself, and this was going to eat him up for weeks, maybe even years.
Y/N coughed, becoming aware of her surroundings and momentarily thrashing around before a gentle voice calmed her in an instant.
"Y/N, I've got you love, I've got you yeah, you're ok, you're alive," Chan tried not to let his voice break as he squeezed her tighter in his arms.
"The, girls, pushed, couldn't breathe," Y/N spluttered, her words coming out jumbled as flashes of the situation that just happened flushed through her mind.
"Sssh, sssh, I know, I know, but you're safe now, yeah?" Chan did his best to reassure her and stop her mind from going into overdrive, pressing a kiss to her forehead.
"Sir, we should really call get her to a hospital, she may have secondary drowning. We can't risk anything."
Within a heartbeat Chan was nodding, medics coming over as she was lifted into the back of an ambulance, and now, instead of Y/N, he was the one who was frozen.
"Hyung, come on, you need to go with her, we'll follow behind," Felix ushered him to stand.
"She... she nearly..." Chan spoke in disbelief, not wanting to finish his sentence as reality hit him hard like a truck.
"But she didn't," Lee Know said firmly, "go with her," he pushed him towards the ambulance.
Chan sat numbly in the ambulance, hand holding his little sister's, the youngest Bahng. What would his parents say? He had failed them, failed Y/N, failed his duty as an older brother. He was so lost in his thoughts he didn't even realise they had arrived at the hospital, and Y/N seemed to be more with it than before as she was being carted out the back of the ambulance.
"No, wait, Chan, I want my brother," Y/N whimpered as he went out of her sight, trying to tell the paramedics that she needed him. The other members had arrived too but she needed only one person with her.
"Hyung, we're here now, she needs you," Jeongin drags his oldest hyung out of the ambulance towards Y/N.
Chan stayed with her until she was discharged. He had no second thoughts to any news articles that would be dispatched, or what the company would say. All that was running through his mind was family, family, family.
"Chris?" Y/N weakly said from her bed. Well, it wasn't her bed technically. It was the one that belonged to the spare room in the dorms. She laid there wondering why this had to happen to her. If it wasn't for those saesangs...
"What is it? You need something to eat? Are you in pain?" Chan fussed over her.
"It's not your fault," Y/N whispered. Her quiet words shattered something in Chan's heart.
"Don't," he shook his head.
"I know that look, Chris, just don't blame yourself. It was those girls. You didn't push me into the river," Y/N spoke quietly, trying to make eye contact with her brother but he couldn't even look her in the eyes.
"Don't talk about it!"
"Look at me!" Y/N shouted, putting all her effort into using her voice and causing her to start coughing.
This made Chan go into high alert as he sat her up and patted her back instantly, like it was habit, just as he would have done when he first held her at the age of ten.
"I need you, Chris, please don't get lost in your own head, I need you here with me," Y/N teared up, and Chan knew that she didn't mean physically being there. This was a whole other matter.
"I'm sorry, it's okay, Y/Nnie, I'm here," Chan hugged her tightly, feeling her relax.
"I can't stop thinking about it," Y/N cried, shoulders shaking.
"This should have never happened to you," Chan wiped her tears gently.
"I promise you, you will never come to any harm again, ok? Me and the boys, we'll help you recover, we'll take care of you. No one will ever hurt you again, Y/Nnie, I swear."
tagged: @skz-streamer @oo-li
665 notes · View notes
staytinyhoe · 2 years
Text
Attention
3Racha x Reader
Description: Trying to get some attention you and Jisung struck up a plan but things don’t always go as planned.
Warning: Smut, Fluff, Poly au,
Word Count: 2073
P.S.A: I didn’t really know how to finish this so I just kinda ended it the best way I can. So if you guys have any suggestions on how I should end it or point me to some fics you think might help out It would be really wonderful.
Tumblr media
I like to think I'm really a lucky person, as I live a happy and lavish life. I mean i got 3 wonderful boyfriends who are willing to do anything and everything for me. Yes sometimes things can get a little hard, especially when it comes down to working late night in the studio where most things can get quite hectic. My relationship with the boys is perfect and I wouldn't change it for anything. "I feel like Minho's voice would fit this part a little better "I hear Chan say to Changbin who's sitting at the sound booth next to him.
Me and Jisung are on the couch cuddling, with my back to his chest and his arms around my waist, I start to doze off. Resting his chin on my shoulder he stares at the boys in front of us. "I agree with Chan, I really do think Minho's voice will fit better". "Ok so let's do that then" Changbin agrees while nodding his head up and down.
"Baby are you tired? If you want, you and Jisung can go home while me and Chan finish up here?." I hear Changbin ask "Are you sure? I don't mind waiting for you guys to finish."
"No no you and Jisungie go home.,me and Changbin will be there shortly, there's not much to finish up here." Chan reassures me. "ok if you say so" with a yawn i get up and start gathering me and Jisungs stuff. "Let's go, we will walk you guys out" Changbin says while holding the door open for us. "Thanks babe". Looking over I see Changbin running his hand through Jisungs hair. " no problem love now lets go".
After calling the company car to come and get us, we stood outside just making small talk when the car finally pulled up. "Alright guys we will see you when we get home ok" Changbin walks over to give me a hug. Wrapping his arm around my waist, Changbin pulls me tight against his body. I look up at him and wrap my arms around his neck and reach up and plant a quick kiss on his lips. "Ok just don't stay in the studio too long". Giving him another kiss I pull away from him and look at Chan who makes his way over to me with his arms open for me.
"We won't, I promise" Chan promises while leaning down to give me a kiss as well. " Hey, no fair. Why is she getting all the hugs and kisses". Pulling away from Chan I look over to the left and see Jisung with his head raised and a pout on his lips. Walking over to him Changbin tries to pull him into a hug but Jisung pulls away and turns his back towards us. “Okay if you don't want my hugs and kisses i guess i just give them to Y/n then”. Changbin starts to walk back towards us when Jisung turns around and lets out a little whine while stomping his feet.
Letting out a laugh the two boys walk over to Jisung who is still pouting and pulls him into a group hug and starts planting kisses all over his face as he starts giggling. "Behave you two and don't do things you know you shouldn't be doing" Chan warns as we finally get into the car. " No promises" we both yell out of the window as the car starts to drive down the road. Looking at each other with a smirk, we hi-five each other.
" You know i-i dont think its-good idea. what if one of them comes home?" Even though I know me and Jisung planned this, I'm starting to think it's not a good idea anymore. "Please they said they are going to be in the studio for a while, you know how they can be ''. It's only been a couple of minutes since me and Jisung got home, our clothes are thrown all over the hallway leading to our bedroom. I know that we shouldn't be doing this but lately the boys have been busy with work the last couple of days and haven't been giving me and Jisung the attention we deserve.
So we decided to take things into our own hands and do things our way. Opening the door I push Jisung down on the bed climbing into his lap. I make sure to put a little pressure on his lower body.
"F-fuck" Jisung pulls meet down to meet his lips. our bodies pressed together as we grind our hips together hoping to feel some time of pleasure, breathing heavily as our lips pressed together. Sitting up, I reach behind me to take off my bra. Jisung flips me over and leans down to take my right nipple in his mouth while tweaking the other in his hand.
"O-oh god please" I arch my back as I let out a little whimper. "Yea baby you like that" he asks as he bites down on my nipple making me moan a little louder. Jisung pulls away from my nipples and slowly starts kissing down my body leaving little love bites here and there until he gets to the top of my underwear.
Ghosting his fingers up and down my thighs, he looks up at me with a smile. “You look so beautiful baby, I wish the boys can see you right now”. Looking down at Jisung, I pushed his hair out of his face. “Why don't we send them a picture then? I don't think they will mind”. Sitting back on his legs Jisung looks at me shocked, I can understand why he would be shocked considering we are breaking one of the rules.
Reaching over for my phone I unlock it and give it to Jisung who looks down at the phone and then back up at me. ”Are you sure? Jisung grabs the phone and opens up the camera app. I lay back on the bed and opened my legs showing my soaked panties, I started to run my hands down my body and towards my soaked panties. I slowly start to rub circles on my clothed clit, slightly applying pressure, letting out a shaky moan. I look at the camera and arch my back.
Reaching down to pull my panties to the side, you can see the wetness between my lips. I hear Jisung let out a breath and scoot the phone closer to get a better view. Dipping my finger between my folds, coating my finger with my wetness, slowly moving my finger to my hole. “Fuck,i really wish you were here” You moan out gripping your nipple with your other hand. Stopping the video, Jisung throws the phone down and grabs your legs and pulls you close. “You don’t understand how badly I want to ruin you". “Please Jisung don't tease me" I beg him as I look down at him with a pout.
Without a second though Jisung pulls my underwear to the side and immediately dives in. His tongue latching on to my clit, "Shit" my hand shoot out to grab onto his hair as my legs threaten to close around his head, I feel him tease my hole before slipping two fingers inside of me "fuck j-jisung feel so good, please dont stop". Pumping his fingers faster I grab Jisung and pull him up for a kiss, I can't help but arch my back and moan out as his fingers go even deeper in me. "That's it baby cum for me". My eyes start to close as I can feel everything in me start to tighten. My breathing is getting heavy as I start to see white as my eyes start to roll back. The feeling of Jisung sucking on my clit gets intense as I squirm in his hold.I feel my muscles start to tighten up and legs start to shake once the overstimulation starts to hit. Finally pulling away from my lower half Jisung comes up and places his lips on mine letting me taste myself.
I run my hands down over his bulge giving it a squeeze, bucking his hips into my hand Jisung lets out a little high pitch whimper. Hearing Jisung moan out like that reminds of the fact that we are both subs, and two we are breaking one of the biggest rules we can break. Dont cum without Changbin or Can present.
" Don’t you dare fucking move" Ok so maybe im not the luckiest girl in the world cause it was at this moment the world decided to be against me.Ii no longer felt Jisung on top of me. I snap my eyes open and I can see Chan and Changbin staring down at us with anger in their eyes. "What the fuck do you two think you are doing?". Changbin answers from the doorway while raising his eyebrow at the two of you. I quickly sit up on my knees, looking over at Jisung as we both make eye contact with eachother knowing that we fucked up. “I-it's not what it looks like we were just having a little fun, nothing too serious, i promise”.
“So you two think it's a good idea to break the rules since it's nothing serious?”. The question coming from Chan hangs in the air waiting for a response but none is given. Looking at both of us Chan shakes his head and walks over to Changbin pulling him to the side, whispering in his ear. I can see Changbin agreeing with whatever Chan is saying and I'm starting to get the feeling that whatever they are talking about is not good.
“Yes, you guys haven't been paying any attention to us so why can't we have a little fun. It's not like you are going to do anything about it”. Jisung looks over at them while holding his head up high, a smirk playing on his lips as he crosses his arms. There is something about the way they are staring at Jisung with raised eyebrows, that has you clenching your thighs together in hope of feeling some type of friction.
“You would like for that to happen wouldn't you?” Stepping closer to the bed, Chan chuckles at Jisung's attempt to play hardball. “Lets not pretend you weren't just whimpering like the little disobedient puppy that you are”. I bite my lip, biting back the little moan that threatens to leave my lips. Jisung groans out his cock twitching at Changbin words, he was always weak to dirty talk.
“Are you actually enjoying this right now Sungie?” Changbin cocks his head to the side walking up to Jisung, running his hand through his hair. He grabs a fistful and hanks Jisung head back, letting out a loud gasp Jisung hands grabs onto Changbin wrist. Position Jisung so he is sitting on the edge of the bed, he lets go of his hair and pats his cheek. “I really don't think you are in any position to be enjoying anything”. Letting go of Jisungs hair he reaches over towards me grabbing my arm and pulling me over to sit next to Jisung.
“Now I want you guys to finish undressing. I want you both on the floor with your backs facing us and your hands down by your sides. Do I make myself clear?”. Chan finally speaks up. “Yes Sir” Confusion crosses our face as we turn to pull off the rest of our clothes, throwing them on the floor. As we move to get into position I can see Chan taking off his clothes while Changbin walks to the closet and pulls out the medium size black box that we keep safe hidden in the back of the closet. Letting out a little gasp I turn my head towards Jisung wondering if he witnessed Changbin pulling the box out of the closet and from the quick headnod that he gives me it's safe to say he does. Walking over to the bed Changbin places the box down and takes off the lid, stepping over to the bed they both look through the box deciding on which toys would be appropriate from the punishment we were about to receive.
Looking back over at Jisung, a smile gracing our faces as we make eye contact knowing we were going to get what we wanted after all.
167 notes · View notes
seoschangbin · 5 years
Text
this will never happen as long as i live but i wanna hear 3racha sing a ballad together
18 notes · View notes
sailorhyunjinz · 3 years
Text
~ Discreet ~
Warnings: fem!reader x dom!3racha, smut, mentions of periods, foursome, voyerism, fingering, hairpulling, use of degrading terms, riding, nicknames, dumbification, penetrative sex (be careful), unprotected sex (BE CAREFUL), masturbation, double penetration, anal sex, creampie, cockwarming, the smuttiest of smuts...
Word count: 3.5 k 
Requested: yiiiip thank u 🧃 anoniee~ 
Note: ok i did more like...u know the days before ones period? am i making any sense? idk i just though that it would be such a hassle to write if the reader had their period so... im just leaving it here and... im gonna hide. 
i feel so bad for jisung in this AKSJS
also im in love with this gif akfhsfksjhf
Tumblr media
“No, stop nagging y/n” Bangchan said without turning around in his office chair. The studio contained your three loving boyfriends which were great most of the time but when you had to beg them to fuck you they weren’t the nicest.
“I’m not even on my period yet” you said to Bangchan in a cocky manner, sighing while looking at the backs of the two other boys, each one working on a computer with their headphones on. Bangchan fiddled with his phone before showing you his bright screen.
“But soon it is and according to the app you can start of feel higher levels of pain before your period” Bangchan stated with a half smile.
On his screen was the period tracking app you had shared with the boys but you were surprised to know that Bangchan actually checked it. You tried to grab the phone but he stood up hastily, lifting his arm up so the phone was out of your reach.
“Why did I even share that stupid app with you guys” you huffed, giving up on retrieving the phone and sat down on the leather couch behind the desks. He sat down moments after you and smirked at you. 
“So no, we won’t fuck you because we both know how rough things get, especially when Changbin is riled up” he said turning back to the computer screen.
A bunch of memories zapped through your mind. How they manhandled you and took turns to cum inside you, leaving you nothing but a wrecked and cum- leaking mess. Since both Jisung and Changbin had headphones on they hadn’t heard the conversation. Your realisation was genius. It’s just to ask them about it! Sure, Bangchan would be pissed about it since he was clear on a couple of rules, one of them being to not fuck behind each others backs but you were so needy. Your body ignited with just the though of being touched. Being determined you shuffled over to Changbin and lightly wrapped your arms around his broad shoulders. He smiled, moved one side of the headphone off of his ear and turned his head around to face you.
“Everything good, baby?” Changbin asked, looking at you with adoration. 
You smiled back at him and hesitated asking him about the favour but with a slight voice crack you leaned into his ear and said;
“Bangchan is being mean and says that he won’t help me with... w-with my neediness”.
He nodded slightly as his gaze returned to the monitor infront of him, busy with some producing. 
“Babygirl got some wits I see. You thoughts I didn’t hear the conversation you just had with Chan?” he didn’t look at you, clicking and typing away at something. Fuck. How did he hear that?
“But please Binnie~” you wrapped your arms tighter around him and gave him a peck on the cheek but to no avail.
“You don’t know how difficult it is to say no to your pretty face” he finally looked at you and pecked you back on the lips. You laughed slightly at his corny remark and patted him on the shoulder before darting your eyes towards Jisung. He was sitting a bit away from the other boys in a corner, the ice in his americano had melted and diluted the coffee from the warmth in the studio. Changbin put on his headphones again and returned to his work as you sat down on the empty chair next to Jisung and looked at him with puppy eyes.
“What’s up bub?” he rubbed your thigh that was exposed from the fluffy black skirt you were wearing. You rubbed your thighs together, Jisungs hand stuck inbetween them. He laughed quietly to not disturb the other boys. 
“You don’t even need to tell me, I know what you want” he whispered, leaning into you and removing his trapped hand. You bit your bottom lip as you looked at him with innocence in your eyes, scooting closer with your chair. 
Your gaze traveled down his body until it landed on the tent between his legs. The warm touch of his hand grazed closer and closer to your heat that was uncomfortably wet, your panties sticking to your cunt from arousal. You cupped him through his pants, his breath hitched due to the friction. The both of you observed the other boys but thankfully they were deep into their work, their eyes glued to each computer screen, the blue light reflecting on their precious faces. Jisung and you turned back around and caught eye contact with each other to which the both of you laughed inaudibly. He leaned towards you, the hot breath from his mouth hitting against your ear.
“Chan will be so mad” he said with a ambivalent tone, not sure if he wants to receive a scolding from Bangchan after he fucks you. You shook your head from side to side, doing everything to convince him.
“Sungie~ I’m all wet for you. I’ll promise to not tell Chan” your eyes twinkled towards the boy that had removed his headphones and placed them on the keyboard of the silver colored computer. 
“Of course you won’t baby, I trust you” Jisung whispered in your ear, sending a shiver down your spine. His fingertips began to graze your wet clothed cunt to which you had to muffle a whine by biting the inside of your cheek. Jisung smirked seeing you so sensitive and needy, ready to risk it all for his dick. Pushing the thin fabric to the side, Jisung felt your leaking wetness and exhaled loudly from excitement wanting to just slam you onto the couch and fuck you senseless. You jerked your head towards he couch, asking him to move to which he looked slowly towards Bangchan frame and agreed. 
The two of you stood up carefully and sat down on the black couch that you had been on moments earlier. Jisung sat down first, the weight of the couch shifting as he sat. You followed shortly, straddling him and facing away from the working boys. Jisung had a mischievous smile plastered on his face and your face was burning at the though of getting fucked by Jisung behind Bangchan. Your hands traveled to Jisung’s belt buckle and with the utmost care you unbuckled it. Jisung helped remove his pants and popping his dick over the band of his black boxers. You let out a breathy whine from just the sight of his veiny dick, the tip cherry red and a string of precum coating the slit. You pumped his length a couple of times, earning a hiss from the dark haired boy before your heated sex hovered above his hard dick. Sneakily you snapped your head towards the working boys and was assured when they were intranced in their work, the subtle klicking and typing creating background noise. Jisung held your hips hard enough to leave red marks the day after before he pushed you down onto his dick. Sparks were flying everywhere in your mind, the feeling of being filled to the brim by Jisung’s girth made you choke on a moan. Jisung gave you time to adjust as you bottomed out, lifting your shirt up just so that your bra covered breasts peeked out. Slowly you bucked your hips against his and the brown eyed boy hissed quietly. Grinding on him you felt the knot of nerve endings being stimulated as Jisung circled your clit with his slightly cold thumb that contrasted with your sopping heat. 
The added pleasure stringed out a string of whines from your lips until Jisung’s big hand covered your mouth, he looked at you with trust in his eyes and you smiled against his cold hand. You held onto his shoulders as you rode his length, your nails digging into the skin as the skirt pooled around your hips and shifted everytime you grinded onto Jisung that was now covering his own moans by clearing his throat. For one second he looked at your pink and red flushed face and then drifted his brown orbs behind you, making sure that neither Changbin or Bangchan glanced backwards. You shut your eyes tightly, Jisung’s pretty face disappearing as a rainbow of colors flashed before your eyes. The pace quickened due to Jisung’s hands being placed on your hips after momentarily removing them to stroke a piece of your hair behind your ear. He guided your cunt up and down his dick, the bouncing impacting the couch that let out a tiny creak. Jisung’s grip was hard on your hips as he let out a breathy moan behind his closed eyes. The knot in your stomach tightened, nearing your release as your mind blank. Both your and Jisung’s head was thrown back, eyes shut and everything tensing up. Just as the bundle of nerve endings was about to unravel with Jisung’s girth grazing your g-spot your hair was suddenly yanked from behind, you held onto the boys sturdy shoulders as a loud yelp forced it’s way out your mouth. 
“Dirty fucking slut” a voice growled behind you as the grip on your hair tightened, holding you with full force by your roots. Your and Jisung’s eyes darted open, panic slowly filling them. The big hand belonged to Bangchan that  was upside down in your sight since he pulled your head backwards. He glared at you with anger, brows furrowed as he spat out;
“Computer screens reflect but the two of you are too stupid for that”. 
He let go of your hair as he shoved you towards Jisung that was terrified of the consequences and quickly lifted you off of him. Changbin turned around due to the commotion and ripped away his headphones upon seeing Jisung shoving his dick back into his jeans. Bangchan grabbed your arm harsh enough to hurt you and lifted you up before slamming you against the white wall of the studio. You felt  Changbin’s and Jisung’s eyes burn into you through Bangchans back. Bangchan’s arm was at the side of your head as he looked down on you with disbelief. 
“I was t-trying to help he-her” Jisung stuttered behind Bangchan but he wasn’t having any of it.
“Shut it” he growled, inches away from your face as his gaze was black. 
Bangchan’s fingertips trailed down your torso before they plunged under the skirt and brushed your cunt that was now even wetter than before thanks to riding Jisung moments earlier. The boy tugged on you panties and they eventually fell down, pooling at your feet. Without warning, two fingers dived into your soaked pussy, a loud moan rolling off your tongue as the return of friction felt like heaven. Your legs automatically seperated but were stopped by the elastic of the panties not going further. His digits hammared into you, pain mixed with pleasure as your back was tightly pressed against the frigid wall. 
Changbin lurked behind Bangchan’s shoulder as Jisung was sitting on the couch helplessly, not wanting to anger Chan further. Changbin gave Bangchan a pat on the shoulder, Bangchans eyes still glued onto you, pure rage filling his dark brown orbs. He moved away upon Changbin’s arrival and instead glared at Jisung as he sat down into his office chair, now turned to face the couch. 
Changbin grabbed your warm and slightly clammy hand and led you to the couch, panties awkwardly grazing along the studio floor. You landed with a thud against the leather couch, Jisung stiff as a plank beside you. Fear charged thorugh your body since you knew how rough Changbin could be at times and you desperatly clutched Jisung, wrapping your arms around him. Bangchan tsked as he shifted closer with his chair and put his foot between the tiny gap seperating you from Jisung.
“You’re only watching tonight, isn’t that right Jisung?” he said, tilting his head slightly.
The boy beside you whined and pouted with his bottom lip sticking out. 
“B-but I didn-t even..” he tried to form a sentence but gave up quickly as a shiver ran down his spine from Bangchan’s fierce presence. 
Changbin removed your clothing in an instant as well as his own, clothing pieces sprawled out on the wooden floor. When the two of you were left in nothing but your underwear he attached his plump lips onto yours, coaxing your tongue by playfully licking your bottom lip. You moaned into the kiss as he fumbled with the bra clasp for a second before releasing you from your clothed prison. The chilly air hardened your exposed nipples and you felt the stares of the three boys in the room. The kiss deepened as Changbin grabbed the back of your neck and pulled you closer, his other hand hooking onto the edge of your panties and dragging them down. You broke the kiss momentarily to lift your hips upwards so that the panties were removed fully from your body, laying in the puddle of other clothes moments later. Both Jisung and Bangchan were palming themselves through their pants, the both of them visibly hard as the tents between their legs grew. Changbin felt up and down on your thigh and spread your legs apart and layed your down on the couch. It felt so wrong yet so right to be all spread out for them in the studio, their hungry gazes observing your wet sex. 
Changbin removed his boxers in a swift motion and his dick sprang, the red tip hitting his abdomen as his girth made your mouth water. You sat up and looked him mischievously into his eyes before opening your mouth without command. He scoffed at your boldness before grabbing your head by the roots in exactly the same place Bangchan did earlier which stinged with pleasure. Your head was harshly pulled down his length, giving you no opportunity to breath before he started to facefuck you. You grabbed his other hand as tears formed in the corner of your eyes due to his tip hitting the back of your throat making you choke. Changbin liked seeing you like this. Drool and tears running down your red flushed face. You peeked over to Bangchan that had already started stroking himself upon what he saw. You couldn’t help but to stare. The way his veins cascaded down his immense length, how his tip disappeared and reappered through his hand as he was bucking against it. You also managed to take a glance at Jisung whose ears were red, his pants straining his growing erection as he was unable to do anything about it. Changbin noticed you looking around.
“What’s the matter slut? You want us all three?” he cooed at you to which you responded with a slight nod of the head as you hollowed your cheeks, your jawline starting to hurt a bit. Changbin let go of your hair and instead grabbed your face as you pulled back, catching air and coughing with drool on your chin and chest. He leaned down to kiss you once, his tongue feeling soft as his lips hit your swollen ones. A string of spit seperated the two of you when he broke the kiss and slowly pressed up against you, your back hitting the couch. Your legs seperated automatically, already knowing what’s to come before he alined himself with your wet leaky hole. He hissed as he entered your tight pussy, your back arching slightly against the sofa. Jisung shifted uncomfortably in his seat, desperatly trying to get some friction by rubbing against his pants. Changbins pace gained quickly making the couch squeak like it did when you rode Jisung. Your clit was sore from earlier which you only noticed after Changbin placed his thumb on your clit and started rubbing it in fast circular motions, rubbing you raw. Pretty lewd sounds spilled from your lips and filled the studio as your eyes were shut tight from Changbin’s girth fitting perfectly into your pussy, like two puzzle pieces. 
“Look at your little cumslut, taking my dick so good” he cooed arrogantly, trying to make himself heard over your moans.
“P-please Changbin..let me c-cum” you pleaded, a blush creeping onto your face from your bold statement. 
He smirked towards you before looking at Bangchan whose strokes were getting sloppier and turned his head quickly in your direction, a signal to come and join. Before getting out of the chair he gave Jisung a glare and a mocking smile, showing him his place. 
Changbin lifted you up slightly making you half sit as he pounded into you, one knee bent on the couch and his foot on the floor giving him good aim and strength to wreck your sore pussy even more. You were practically crying, feeling sensations a thousand times more which made you go crazy as his girth dragged along your velety walls. You looked up at Bangchan that was standing at the side of the couch with his hard dick facing you. He dragged his open hand against your hot cheek and past your ear before placing his tip on your quivering lip that were working hard to hold back moans. His precum coated your rose-like lips, glistening in the light as you opened your mouth and took his length. Bangchan rolled his head back and placed held your face by the cheek. He looked back at Jisung to make sure that he was suffering and right so, the poor brown haired boy was pratically sliding of the couch as he fiddled with his legs and tried to avoid Bangchan’s lust filled eyes. 
You could feel every vein on Bangchan’s girth as he twitched in your mouth while you coated his dick in your saliva. Licking fat stripes against his shaft you narrowed your tongue once you got to the tip before flicking your tongue upwards, earning a hiss from the buff boy. Changbin’s thrusts were getting sloppier and his movements made your breasts jump up as well as your head accidently choking on Bangchan’s dick. The moans that were muffled by his dick sent vibrations through his body which made him even harder, it that’s even possible. Suddenly he laced his pretty, veiny hands in your thick locks and pulled you off his length before lifting you up by your hair and pushing you against Changbin. You straddled Changbin, slowly sinking onto his girth yet again, filling the momentary emptyness that made you whine. Bangchan was standing behind you and traced his hand across your back before his dick poked you in the butt and he slided into the hole that wasn’t filled. Your mind felt like static as you were filled up at both ends. Your head layed on Changbin’s shoulder as his hands were guiding your cunt against his dick. Everytime he moved you backwards Bangchan’s dick entered deeper into you, your moans becoming higher in pitch every minute. The knot in your stomach tightened, feeling a build up of tension in your core as your abused clit grinded onto Changbin. Your hands latched on the back of Changbins arms, nails digging into his skin as Bangchan’s pace quickened. His arms snaked around your neck and choked you, the lightheadedness of it making you swoon. The grip creeped up to your face as he harshly held your face and made you look at Jisung. You felt humiliated but that’s exactly what Bangchan wanted you to feel. Your loose gaze landed on Jisung’s soft eyes as your cheeks were burning and drool hanged from your chin. 
“Isn’t our y/n so pretty with her fucked out face” he growled at Jisung, his voice and his pace making your eyes roll back into your skull. 
Changbin moaned loudly once before releasing his hot liquid into your dripping pussy. His cum coated your walls and trinkled down to eventually leak out of you, Changbin’s dick still inside of you as he looked up against the ceiling and panted. Changbin’s girth twitched inside of you, chasing your high by grinding against him and overstimulating his delicate tip. Your broken moans echoed in the room accompanied with the sound of skin slapping and Bangchan hissing. Like a bunch of fireworks, your core ignited with Bangchan’s last thrust as he came inside of you and smirked with a devilish grin on his face. You flopped against Changbin’s chest as your orgasm crashed upon you like an ocean wave, leaving you stunned with your mouth hanging open and your legs shaking, feeling unstable and uncontrollable. Bangchan pulled out and Changbin lifted you off onto the couch. You could only breathe heavily as your head spun. Bangchan got closer to you and spread your legs apart which made you shudder, scared that they would start round 2. The three boys stared at your leaking holes, the white liquid mixing together with your own juices. Changbin and Bangchan turned to Jisung at the same time and his flustered gaze moved violently around the room. Bangchan approached the poor horny boy and bent down as he was sitting. His raspy voice formed goosebumps on Jisung’s soft skin.
“Clean up the mess however you like.” 
1K notes · View notes
cuddlepilefics · 3 years
Text
Sprinkles and Cream
Fandom: Stray Kids
Sickie: Jisung
Caregiver: Hyunjin
 Noone’s POV.:
To say Jisung had a bad day would have been an understatement. He was the only member who had been called into the studio on their off day and not for something good. The producer had reviewed the rap lyrics Jisung had written and there wasn’t a single line he didn’t tear apart. With each passing minute the young rapper became more frustrated. Apparently, the hours of work and the effort he had put into writing his lyrics were all for nothing. Not only was he frustrated, he was also hurt. The words had all come from heart and having them dismissed that harshly broke the boy’s heart. He’d have to start all over again, with a lot more pressure too because the deadlines were much closer now. Besides having an already packed schedule, he’d also have to come up with new lyrics. He didn’t even know if he could think of different lines after he had already spilled his heart over the pages but he nodded along with the producer and bowed politely, taking the papers covered in red marker and promising he’d do better. Being the professional he was, Jisung held it together as long as he was in the studio but the second he was dismissed, he hurried to the bathroom, shoving the crumpled up lyric sheets into his back-pocket.
Hiding in one of the stalls for the fear of someone witnessing him cry, he took out his phone texting their leader, who had helped him with the lyrics, revising and rephrasing. He didn’t want to make a phone call, not trusting his voice not to break and give away the fact that he was crying. Chan was understandably stunned that the other’s entire lyrics got rejected. He had read over them multiple times and was satisfied with the way they fit into the entirety of their song. Being a composer and songwriter himself, the older boy knew that his dongsaeng’s word came from heart and held a strong meaning for the other. Knowing just how much Jisung had to be hurting at the harsh words of their producer but not being able to help him where he was at, all the leader could do was to tell Jisung to come home. They’d go over the lyrics together and see what changes the producer wanted after the younger boy had calmed down a bit. Yes, it would be stressful starting all over again while following their schedule but they’d manage. Especially because the leader knew Changbin would be helping too. 3racha never left each other hanging, as all of them had been in similar situations before.
Bang Chan himself wasn’t at the dorm this particular moment. He had taken most of his dongsaengs out on a shopping trip only leaving behind Jisung who had gone to the studio and Hyunjin who had already gone shopping twice this week and preferred to stay at the dorm watching dramas. The leader knew he wouldn’t be home before Jisung got there, so he told the younger to make himself some hot chocolate and maybe listen to some music to relax. He shouldn’t look at the lyrics yet but instead clear his mind, so they can work on it together later. Chan also texted Hyunjin, warning him to go easy with his teasing since the younger rapper was having a rather shitty day. Hyunjin agreed and continued watching his drama till he heard the front door open, revealing a slightly rough looking squirrel. The boy’s eyes were still reddened a bit and his lips formed a small frown.
After kicking off his shoes, the rapper made his way to Chan’s room, placing the dismissed lyrics on the desk for them to work on later, and then went to his own room to put on a more comfortable outfit. He walked past the living room, weakly greeting Hyunjin. “Sungie, come join hyung. The protagonist is soon going to find out that his girlfriend is cheating on him and I need my emotional support squirrel when that happens”, the dancer whined dramatically. “One minute, I’ll make some hot chocolate. You want some?”, the younger called from the kitchen to which his hyung only replied with an impatient ‘no but hurry’. Jisung didn’t hurry all that much. He took the time to add a good amount of whipped cream from a spray-bottle in their fridge, creating a small mountain on top of his hot chocolate and covering it in a ton of sprinkles afterwards. When he was done preparing his cup of diabetes, he joined his friend on the couch.
“Yah! Would you like some hot cocoa with your mountain of sprinkles? Seriously Sung, are you trying to put yourself in a sugar coma?”, Hyunjin laughed taking a glace at the younger’s cup. Smiling innocently, Jisung scooped up some cream and sprinkles with a spoon, letting them crunch between his teeth before answering: “None of your business, stocky-boy. You know, having some sugar here and there wouldn’t hurt you.” The dancer then remembered to keep the teasing light and only chuckled, letting the other have his way, as they continued to watch a few more episodes together. Jisung had basically decided to just drown his hurt in sugar, preparing himself another cup of cocoa somewhere along the third episode, covering it with at least the same amount of sprinkles and fully ignoring his hyung’s frown. Hyunjin was determined to distract Jisung from everything work related, having noticed the younger’s tear-stained cheeks although he didn’t comment on it. There was only one thing the dancer was a bit critical about and that was the younger having a second cup of his sweet beverage. He knew chocolate was comforting, so he had no issue with the first cup but how was the rapper going to stomach two of them? The older could only speak for himself but he would feel really sick after only having half of the cup Jisung had devoured and now the younger was having another one? Knowing he’d only upset the younger but not stop him if he commented on it, Hyunjin stayed silent and observed curiously whether Jisung would actually finish his drink or not.
It had been half an hour since the rapper had finished his second cup of hot chocolate, surprising both Hyunjin and himself, when Hyunjin heard a small moan coming from the other side of the couch. “I’m never eating anything ever again”, the younger pouted palming his stuffed belly, which let out an audible gurgle in return, making Hyunjin flinch: “You ok over there?” Jisung nodded quickly before shaking his head in defeat. “Stomachache?”, the dancer guessed but the other only frowned: “Kind of but I also kind of feel like I’m going to be sick.” Hyunjin gave a small laugh, he wasn’t too worried since the younger’s voice held no hint of urgency. “I guess that was about a ton of sprinkles too much. Just let it settle and don’t move too much. You’ll be fine”, the dancer chuckled and patted his donsaeng’s shoulder comfortingly. “I’m serio-“, the younger started, cutting himself off with a gag. Cursing, Hyunjin jumped up from the couch and grabbed Jisung’s arm, dragging the younger to the bathroom. They made it just in time for the rapper to bring up a small wave of his stomach contents, colorful sprinkles comically decorating the toilet bowl before getting washed away by another larger wave. Feeling his own stomach twist, the dancer told myself ‘Come on Hyunjin, get it together and be a good hyung!’ before sitting down on the bathtub to comfort his dongsaeng.
Hyunjin had pulled out a few hairclips out of his own hair and pinned the younger’s hair out of his face, just in time to watch his squirrel-cheeks puff out. The dancer quickly looked away, rubbing Jisung’s back as he tried to ignore the sound of liquid hitting liquid, only glancing back at the other when he heard soft sniffling sounds. To Jisung this was just the cherry on top, after already having had a bad day and he couldn’t help the tears flowing from his eyes. All he had wanted to do was have a fun off day with his friends and what did he get instead? “Hey shh, you’ll be ok, squirrel”, Hyunjin hushed, wiping away some of the tears. “Hyung”, the younger whined, startling his hyung. The older was rarely referred to as ‘hyung’ by the rapper because he often acted younger than the rapper himself despite being physically older. Hyunjin knew for Jisung to use honorifics with him, the younger would have to feel really vulnerable and it was a way of giving in to being weak. “It’s ok, hyung is here. You’ll be ok. You just need to get rid of everything that’s making you feel bad and everything will be fine”, he promised his dongsaeng after getting over the shock of being called ‘hyung’.
Hyunjin knew Jisung was fighting the urge to get sick, struggling hard to keep his rebelling stomach in place but soon he lost the battle, heaving up two larger waves almost back to back, scaring himself and grabbing onto his hyung’s hand for support and reassurance. “That’s it, Sungie. Almost there. Just get it all up. You’ll feel so much better afterwards”, the dancer encouraged. Jisung wanted to believe him, he really did but he freaked out when he started to choke on some of the sprinkles he coughed up. Hyunjin was quick to grasp the situation however, patting forcefully between the rapper’s shoulderblades till he heard the younger draw a shaky breath in. “Do you think you’re done”, he asked when Jisung hadn’t thrown up anything else in the last few minutes. The dancer was almost certain there was nothing left, having witnessed just how was the boy’s tiny body could eject. To his surprised, the younger shook his head, palming his sore middle with a pout before scrambling back over the toilet with an unproductive retch. Sighing, Hyunjin traced the whimpering boy’s spine and cringed when another, harsher retch managed to bring up a small trickle of bile, indicating that Jisung was indeed empty. The dancer had really been able to feel the effort it took to bring that up by the way his spine rippled under his hand. Spitting weakly, the rapper tore of a piece of toilet paper to clean himself up before flushing the toilet and announcing: “Now I’m done.”
He let his friend pull him to his feet and sat down on the closed toilet lid, accepting the toothbrush Hyunjin pressed into his hand. “I’ll get you some water and maybe tea to settle that upset stomach of yours”, the dancer smiled, “if you want we can take a nap and cuddle a bit till you feel better.” – “That’d be nice, hyung. I’m exhausted”, Jisung rasped with his voice strained from getting sick. His head had started hurting from the strain somewhere along the way too and he wanted nothing more than to lay down. Feeling unusually protective of his dongsaeng, the older gave him a quick hug before disappearing with the words: “Alright, finish up and I’ll meet you in your room.”
Of course, the dancer stuck to his promise, holding the other, who was knocked out almost as soon as he got under the covers, tight for almost two hours. No, it wasn’t usual for the pair to show how fond they were of each other, spending most of the time insulting the other but they both knew, should times get hard they’d have each other’s back.
26 notes · View notes
straykidsupdate · 4 years
Text
How Stray Kids ‘Naturally’ Created Their Debut Full-Length & Achieved New Career Highs
Tumblr media
All musicians wrestle with the balance between authentic artistic expression and clear commercial viability—with that heat all the more intesified for a boy band like Stray Kids navigating the fast-paced, real time results-focused K-pop industry. The eight-member outfit is known for their message-driven, self-produced work that stand out from their peers not just for taking such strong ownership in their output but for the experimentation that’s led to everything from increasingly irregular song structures to a small dictionary’s worth of newly coined vocabulary. It all makes their newly released Go Live full-length album even more remarkable as how it was not just their most organic output to date, but also led to a slew of new career highs too.
After two-and-a-half years and nearly a dozen EP releases since hitting the K-pop scene, Go Live has already become Stray Kids’ biggest-selling record to date in their native South Korea a month out. Songs like the bombastic, self-assured lead single “God’s Menu,” as well as the equally aplomb follow-up single “Easy,” shot up the download and streaming charts in a way past SKZ tracks have not, all indicating that the general attention and interest in the band was expanding as their core fanbase continued to be all the more impassioned.
While the powers above could have required a Stray Kids musical overhaul after the rollout of 2019’s Clé: Levanter saw a member depart the group, music videos need to be re-edited and songs re-recorded, Go Live instead doubles down on what makes up Stray Kids and reclaims their story in no uncertain terms.
I speak with Stray Kids members Bang Chan, Changbin, Han, Seungmin and Felix while they’re in the midst of promoting the album, energized from the positive response but also aware that their unique inner-workings and structures undoubtedly helped . They hold close to the importance of practice, communication, the community they’ve created for themselves and for fans—as well as their love of television and food—to create something that undoubtedly speaks for them. Some topics are still off-limits for the band, but what’s clear is that they’ve reclaimed their narrative and proven there’s undoubted commerciality in allowing for their organic creation.
Stray Kids say this album came out naturally, but what these humble creators likely don’t realize is the power in being able to not have your most natural expressions become something connects with so many people. That’s good business no matter the industry.
youtube
Jeff Benjamin: Congratulations on the response to Go Live. It’s your best-selling album, you’re rising up the charts, how are the promotions?
Bang Chan: We’re actually really, really excited, and we’re still really excited. Performing our new songs and showing people our music is really big honor. We’re just really, really happy. The fact that people are giving attention, particularly to our songs, we just want to say thank you to everyone. And thank you to you too, Jeff. [Laughs]
Jeff Benjamin: Oh, of course! I’m really happy for you guys, particularly because I’ve been reading you feel this album is the best representation of Stray Kids to date. Why exactly is that?
Han: With this album, everything went out naturally. From the preparations to everything we made, we just went all in—especially with our song “God’s Menu.” The inspiration came from different dramas we watched in our everyday lives. Every song on this album just came out the way it came out, really naturally.
Bang Chan: And for me, I’ve always liked experimenting with my lyrics with cooking metaphors.
Jeff Benjamin: Right. I mean, you, Changbin and Han are 3racha.
Bang Chan: Yes but with this album, a lot of things came out really naturally and on the spot. I think that made this album a little more special. Before, with the I Am series or the Clé series, we would think about what we wanted to deliver as a message and then make the music. But with this album, it just came out—I’m not sure how—but it just came out from within our soul.
youtube
What are everyone’s favorite songs?
Felix: “God’s Menu” is mine because it’s not only a song with a concept of cooking, but the way we’re cooking is all genuine. We’re trying to make it sweet, sour, all kinds of tastes we want to show through our genuine color. That’s just something we’ve been doing from the start and so this concept really does match to our goal in life.
Seungmin: My favorite is the b-side is “Blueprint,” I know Lee Know and I.N have the same opinion as me too.
Han: I really like “Phobia” because it’s a song that was a neat challenge for us, it’s kind of emotional while also showing the color of Stray Kids.
Bang Chan: It’s really tough to pick a favorite because I think everything is really really good. But I’ll add one of Hyunjin’s is “TA” as well.
Changbin: “God’s Menu,” I really feel that it’s one of our best. When it finally got released, I got a surge of energy and confidence.
Jeff Benjamin: I feel your confidence “God’s Menu!” Even on “Pacemaker” I see references to past works; lyrics about going at your own pace remind me of “My Pace.” Are there purposely connections to past Stray Kids music?
Felix: From the start, we wanted to produce music genuinely. Even to this day, we’ve kept our pace steady to get to where we are now—we just want to keep what’s genuine to us.
Seungmin: We always try to be more confident through practice. To be honest, there were times that we weren’t confidence but through various attempts we found our own color and gained more confidence.
youtube
Stray Kids’ R&B side came out on “Another Day,” which was written by Han. The pressures of time is once again referenced like in the past tracks, but is time still scary to you?
Han: When I wrote “Another Day,” it talks about how we and the time we had when we’re preparing music and how we’re always feeling pressed by it. But when it came to this album, we felt really really confident with our goals and what Stray Kids had to show. While we were writing, we really had a lot of confidence.
“Haven” was written by Bang Chan and brings this message of breaking molds to really clear terms. As a leader, how do you inspire your team to take the road less traveled?
Bang Chan: With the song “Haven,” the concept itself, I think of it as a safe place for Stray Kids and our fans, Stay. Basically, a place everyone can gather, they can do whatever they want—they can sing, they can dance, they can do whatever they want and not worry about anything. It doesn’t matter what you believe in, when you’re in this special district we have, everyone matters and everyone is special. I talk a lot about how we’ve grown, but for me the reason why I’m able to have the opportunity to lead in this way is because the boys give me a lot of strength. I might be the leader, but I don’t tell them, “OK, do this, do that, we’re going to do it like this, guys.” It’s more of a “what do you guys want to do? What do you guys think is right?” and as the leader I gather all the opinions and go with the best option for everyone. That’s what’s most important about being the leader. It’s because of the members I can lead.
youtube
The first full-length album appears to be so important at your label, JYP Entertainment. You had the full support of senior label artists like 2PM, DAY6 and TWICE. Did anything feel special or different in that regard?
Bang Chan: It is our first first-length album, we released a lot of EPs, but what felt like such a big thing to me, gave me goosebumps and made me feel so great was having seniors like [2PM’s] Jun.K, [DAY6’s] YoungK and [TWICE’s] Sana come and cheer us on. It gave us a lot of strength and a lot of confidence for the album. A full album is really special, and because it’s a special opportunity, we wanted to put in what Stray Kids are really all about right now.
There’s a lot going on in the world right now. Are there any messages, causes or words of comfort you’d like to share with readers right now?
Bang Chan: We are really aware of all the things that are happening around the world and we know our Stays are going through it as well. We may not be close distance-wise but, luckily because we have the Internet and our music, we want to say that we’re always there for them. You can always come find us for comfort—just like I said in “Haven”—and know that we never forget about you. We’re always, always there.
The conversation has been edited and condensed for clarity.
Source: Forbes
101 notes · View notes
dayawantstosleep · 3 years
Text
Love & Zombies Nov 4, 2020
Summary: All I wanted to do was survive, not get involved in a love triangle with Changbin and Chris. Things spiral out of control from there.
Genre: Dystopian, Apocalyptic
Word Count: 2,834
Warning(s): Swear words, implied cheating, jealous 3RACHA
Tumblr media
I ran a hand through my hair for the billionth time and shut my eyes tightly. The bed seemed too big for me now that Han is not here anymore.
A quiet sniffle came out of me and I wiped my tears with my hand covered in my sleeve. I turn around to bury myself in my pillow and sobs wracked my body.
"He's still here with us." Changbin's hoarse voice said next to me. I must have woken him up with my crying.
"I should've been bitten instead of him." I said, sitting up. I hug my knees and bury my head on my arms.
"It's not your fault. He wouldn't want you to be like this." I snort softly. Han gone must have taken a toll on Changbin if he was comforting me.
"I just miss him. He's my buddy and I let him down. I was supposed to have his back, but I didn't. Now he's one of them."
"Just go to sleep, Aria." He said exasperated. I sighed and laid down on the bed again, the jackass I know making an appearance.
"Goodnight, Changbin." He hummed and I took that as a goodnight before closing my eyes.
It was past midnight when I woke up to go to the restroom. Chan words echoed in my mind.
We have a buddy system. If you want to leave at night tell your buddy. Things will be bad if you don't.
"My buddy was turned, Chan. Turned into a monster." I said rubbing the sleep from my eyes.
I sighed deeply and looked at myself in the mirror. I looked pitiful. Dark half circles perched under my eyes and my skin looked paler than usual.
I unlocked the door and turned the lights off, heading to my room. I stopped in front of the door and sighed again.
I slipped inside my room and walked towards Changbin's sleeping figure on the far end of the room. I took a deep breath and prepared myself mentally.
"Changbin." I whispered, but the sleeping boy didn't even move. I sighed and reached for his shoulder.
His eyes shot open and he grabbed my waist, slamming it into his mattress, knees on either side of me. I let out a yelp as he glared at me menacingly.
"Can you get off me, Changbin?" His eyes soften slightly as he rolled off of me. I sat up and I heard him grunt.
"What were you thinking?"
"That I could wake you up. I need to show you something."
"Why?" I rolled my eyes and sighed. Why did I think this would be easy? When it comes to Changbin, things are never easy.
"You're my new buddy." Was all I said before leaving out the door. I heard footsteps behind me and I ventured further into base.
"Where are we going?" He asked. I didn't answer until I stopped outside.
"Don't freak out, ok?" I asked as I walked towards a ladder on one side if the building.
"What do you mean?" He asked, following me up the ladder. I walked towards the coffee table in the middle of the roof and clicked a small switch.
The coffee table parted and a large thin glass tube appeared out of the floor. Inside, a beast stared back at us; its eyes were a dull brown and the skin was grey and decaying.
"What the hell is this?" Changbin asked loudly.
"What do you think? This is him." Tears appeared on my eyes as I stared at the beast. The beast I used to call a best friend and confidant.
"How the fuck did you bring him here without none of us knowing?"
"Easy. Remember when we had Chris' party last week?" He looked at me as if I had two heads.
"No." I nodded.
"Yes. He was Chris' huge present. I feel super bad for lying, but I couldn't just leave him at the shopping mall. You know how much he means to me." I looked sadly at the beast before me.
"So, you've kept him here for a week?" I nodded again.
Han let out a gutteral sound and clawed at the glass. With one bite, my best friend had been reduced to a mindless being, with a knack of biting people.
"It's been really hard and Chris almost figured me out the other day. I need you to keep the secret." I turned to him.
"What?"
"I know you don't like me, but you're my roomate. We need to have each others backs, Changbin."
"What we need to do is kill that thing."
"No. He's my best friend. Han is gone and I know its selfish of me to keep him here in this state. But if there's any way to save him, I'll take it."
"This is for our survival, Aria." I suddenly felt consumed with rage. He was closer to Han than any of us, and he wants to kill him just like that?
"What do you know of survival?" I ask. He tightened his jaw and frowned.
"I lost Han already. I don't want to lose you too."
"Excuse me?"
"You're excused. I'm killing that thing." He walked closer to Han and took out a knife from his jeans.
"You can't kill him. He's-"
"He's what, huh? He's not just your friend. You love him. I've seen the way you look at him." His voice was growing louder.
Love him? Have I really loved Han all along and not notice? No, Changbin is just misinterpreting things.
"No. I don't look at him in any way." He sneered.
"What would Chan think?" My blood ran cold. What would he think if he knew I had Han locked up in here?
"He would want to save Han."
"So, what? You can dump him for Han?" What the hell is he on about?
"No. Listen, I-"
"No. You listen. You think I like it that Chan is with you? Or that Han used to talk about you every fucking second you weren't there? When you were with Chan."
"What's that gotta do with keeping Han a secret? You're mixing up your shit."
"No. You just don't want to talk about this now."
I walked closer to him and flipped a switch on the tube, making it slowly go down from where it came from. Changbin's frown deepened and he let out a tch.
"You're clueless." He crossed his arms and shook his head.
"Don't patronize me. Now, cut the bullshit and talk straight."
"What's the point? None of it matters now." His eyes turned sad and he turned around, walking away.
I stood there, watching his receeding figure until I walked into the base alone.
Changbin didn't speak to me the next day or the day after that. Whenever one of the guys asked about his behavior, he would either shrug and give one word answers or ignore them.
"What is up his ass?" I asked Chris after a week of Changbin being unresponsive. He shrugged and put an arm around me.
"I think having Han gone hit him hard." My breath hitched and Changbin's words resonated in my head.
What would Chan think?
I turned to Chris and saw Changbin sitting at the dining table, looking at something behind us. I'll confront him later, when I'm done with Chris.
"I have to tell you something." I said. He nodded and turned to me.
"What is it?" He looked concerned and I suddenly felt my stomach started hurting. I grabbed the arm that was on my shoulder and pulled it off of me.
"This is kind of hard to say but-"
"You're not breaking up with me, are you?" He let out a nervous laugh and I shook my head furiously.
"No. No of course not. I just...it's a bit more complicated than that."
"Complicated?" I took a deep breath and prepared myself mentally.
"Han's not dead." His eyes widen and his breath became ragged.
"What!?"
"He's a zombie. And he's on the roof."
"He's what?"
"I trapped him on the roof and I know this is wrong but we can save him. We just gotta wait a little longer."
"What a little longer? Aria, why didn't you tell us?"
"I didn't know how you'd react, Changbin said-"
"Changbin? You told him before me?" Please tell me this wasn't going to be a fight? Please, please, please.
"He's my roomate, Chris. I couldn't just not tell him."
"It's good that you told him, but you could have told me first."
"You're kidding, right? What does it matter who I told first? That's not even the damn point. The point is that I want to save Han." Out of the corner of my eye, the guys retreated to the kitchen.
"You want to what? I'm sorry, but he can't be saved." My heart broke then and there. My best friend can't be saved.
"Bullshit." I whispered softly.
"What?"
"Bullshit. He's one of us, he's always have been." He ran a hand through his hair, seemingly trying to formulate words.
"Where is he?"
After showing Chris and the rest of the guys the zombified Han, they freaked out. Half of them wanted to save him and the other half wanted to kill him. It was chaotic, until all of us went back inside.
"What is wrong with you?" I asked Changbin as soon as I walked into our room. He was laying on his bed with earbuds on.
I walked closer to him and yank the earbuds off, making him curse. He glared at me and sat up.
"What do you want?" He barked out.
"What did you mean back there?" He let out a tch and looked away from me.
"Changbin." I growled. I sat next to him and he turned away from me again.
"Why have you been so mean to me? You never liked me and it bugs me so much."
"You really wanna know?" He inched closer to me, we were centimeters apart.
"Yes. I want to fucking know." I growled. His lips slammed into mine roughly and pulled away.
"What the hell?" He didn't answer me just unbuttoned his jeans and took them off.
"You think that just because you kissed me everything is fine?" I was beyond pissed. All this time he was jealous of Chris and Han. That's bullshit.
He inched closer to me and kissed me roughly again. He pulled away and smirked his usual 'you're beneath me' smirk.
"Shut up."
"Don't fucking tell me what to do."
"What are you gonna do about it?" There he is again, feeling superior. Well, I've had it.
I raised an arm and slapped him. He just stared at me, I didn't wipe that smirk off of his face.
"That's hot." He pulled me in again and I pushed him away.
"I'm with Chris, Changbin."
"That's not fair. You can't pull that shit on me. You can't let me kiss you and pull that shit on me." He glared at me expectantly.
"You can't just kiss me and expect me to come running to your arms. It doesn't work that way."
"So, you just expect me to throw my feeling away?" He was getting angrier.
"You can do whatever you fucking want." I growled. His lips crashed into mine but this time, I kissed him back.
I don't know why I did it. Maybe I wanted to release my pent up anger at him for being an inconsiderate asshole all this time. Or maybe at the very back of my mind, I knew I liked him back.
He pulled me closer to him and I laced my hands on his neck. The kiss became more heated, and his lips travelled down my neck.
I grabbed his shirt and pulled it off of him, glazing over his well toned abs. I suddenly remembered the first time I saw them, when I barely got to base.
I didn't think nothing of it because he was rude to me and I didn't like him at all. But now, I find myself oogling.
"Look at you, Bin." I barely registered that I called him by his nickname.
"Don't call me that." He growled, capturing my lower lip with his lips and bit me.
"I'll call you whatever the fuck I want." I growled, biting where his neck and shoulders meet.
He moaned out and I would be lying if I said that it wasn't sensual. He grabbed my hand and led me to his bed, getting on top of me.
The beast in front of me tried clawing it's way through the glass. The attempt was futile, Han stopped and just looked at me with soulless eyes.
"I don't know what I'm doing." I whispered. Last night flashed in my mind and then I sat down on the couch.
"This really wasn't supposed to happen, you know? We're in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. I didn't come here to sleep with anyone. I came here to survive."
Han just stared at me, dull brown eyes staring into my ones. I ran a hand through my hair and looked at the tube.
"You must be lonely in there, huh? I can't exactly let you out, but I can do this." I stood up and clicked a switch on the tube.
A small opening parted in front of his facex big enough for one hand only.
"Rawwwr!" He snarled and reached his hand out towards me through the window. I sighed deeply, taking out my dagger from the inside of my jeans.
Changbin is right. I can't save him even if I try. He's my best friend and I'll always love him. But, having him here is a huge risk.
"I'm sorry, Jisung." I raised my dagger and sung it. I winced, blood coming out of my hand.
"Fuck it. I can't." I looked at the sky and let out a yell. I looked at Han and then I heard the door to the base open.
"Aria?" I walked towards the edge of the roof and look down. Chris was looking at me as he climbed up the ladder.
"Yeah?"
"I heard someone shout so I came looking for you." He said as soon as he got to the top.
"I'm fine. Just talking to Han." I put my dagger behind my back but he quickly grabbed my hand.
"Aria what did you-?"I cut him off and yanked my hand back.
"I said I'm fine." He stopped and let his hand hang at his side. I sighed, feeling guilty for raising my voice at my boyfriend.
"Sorry. I'm just very on edge." I turn to the tube where Han is imprisoned and frowned.
It was now or never. I flipped a switch on the tube and the glass slowly started opening.
"What are you doing?" Chris asked next to me.
"What I should have done a long time ago." I take my dagger out and then Han pounced.
I heard Chris shout my name and the dagger went flying out of my hands. Han snarled and bared his teeth at me, trying to claw me.
I put an arm under his chin to try to stop him. He roared and I did the only thing I thought of. I grabbed his arm and bit into his grey skin.
His eyes rolled upward and he fell on top of me. I scooted away from him and felt Chris arms around me.
"That was risky." He said kissing my cheek.
"I needed to do something, he was gonna eat me." I turned to Han and gasped.
My best friend stood up and started walking towards me. His skin wasn't grey anymore, and his eyes were soulless either. They were brown.
"What happened?" I malfunctioned. He could form sentences. He was human again. What the hell?
I ran to him, arms extented and he extended his arms too. I slapped him as soon as he was within arms reach.
"Oww." He said, rubbing his cheek. I ignored him and pulled him in for a hug.
"Don't you fucking do that again." Tears pricked my eyes as I began sobbing.
"You were gonna get bit. I needed to do something." I let out a laugh.
He was still the same Han I knew. I pulled away and he grabbed my hands.
"I've been meaning to tell you something, but I just couldn't. And then when I got bit, I was gonna say it but...well, you know" I nodded and then he cupped the sides of my face and closed the gap between us.
My eyes widen and I pulled myself away from him. This is what he wanted to tell me? That like Changbin, he's been liking me all this time.
"I- Han...I'm sorry. I can't. I'm with Chris." He turned to Chris behind me and his face fell.
"Oh."
"Yeah. I um, have to go..." I clicked my tongue and pointed at the ladder before walking away.
3 notes · View notes
chocojjk · 5 years
Text
Eggs
Tumblr media
summary: badboy! changbin if you squint 
words: 7k
warnings: one mention of death by illness
a/n: this took way too long cause i got so lazy lmfao, slide into my inbox with prompts cause idk what to write after this 
not edited per usual, im lazy :(((
you and changbin lived in different worlds
changbin has always been the schools most notorious bad boy
along with his group, 3racha
he was the typical bad boy -- gets into fights, wears leather, barely shows up to class, etc.
after watching countless of rom-coms, you and i, reader, should know that bad boys like to keep to themselves
and they won't bother you unless you cross their territory, not at all different from changbin
someone bullies one of his friends???
you might as well run now , because he will be coming for your ass
he catches you talking shit?
you should probably say goodbye to your mouth and have a doctors appointment ready
the point im trying to make is that seo changbin does not take shit from anyone
which doesn't really matter at this point because everyone has learned to fear him
on the other hand, you're, what they say is a “good girl”
too caught up with your books and your grades, in the library 24/7, worrying too much about the future you envision
you stayed away from drama as much as possible, happy with the 2-3 friends that you have  
and,,,
well,,,
you probably saw this coming,, but just in case you didnt, ill say it
your two different worlds are about to collide
---------------
youve been searching for a little over 20 minutes to where he could be when you finally spotted him at the table all way in the back of the library
you let out the deepest sigh, you shouldve figured he would choose that table jfc
‘he really is sticking to his reputation’ you think to yourself as you made your way over to him
“hi, im y/n, i'm your tutor,” you say, giving him a soft smile
changbin doesn't even bother to reply to you as he got up and left
you were left standing there like,,,
what the fuck just happened ??
before you finally snapped out of your confused trance and chased after him
catching up to him you grab his arm, putting a complete halt to his movement
and suddenly the library was even quieter than it should be
every single eye in the room focused on the interaction that lies in front of them
the notorious bad boy and the goody two shoes,,, how incredibly cliche
he looks at you, his eyes dark and unreadable
the expression on his face was emotionless yet it felt like he was crushing you under his stare
finally noticing that your hand was still gripped around his arm, you quickly let go, letting out a small “ehem”
the tension in the air was thick, it felt like someone just put a dark cloud above your head and you couldn’t blow it away
god damn this was awkward
not even the good awkward where you can laugh about it later, this is the kind of awkward situation that hits you in the middle of the night and suddenly you're just cringing at every bad thing you have done in the past
“uhm, im suppose to tutor you,” you try to say confidently as soon as you found your voice, but really it was barely above a whisper
“maybe show up on time,” he says, his voice as dark and as strong as his aura
and with one final look at you, he walked out of there
you didnt bother anymore, you knew you were at fault
‘we’ll try again tomorrow,’ you think to yourself before your best friend, hyunjin walked up to you, pulling you outside the library  
“dude are you okay?”
“uhmm, why wouldn’t i be?”
“i just saw you talking to changbin”
“ok and ?”
“he’s bad news y/n,” your best friend says, warning you
“ i dont really have a choice hyunjin” you reply
you think back to 3 days ago when you were called to the principal's office
not gonna lie, you were shaking in your boots,, only bad kids get randomly sent to the principal's office
as you entered the room, Mrs. Seo was already waiting for you behind her desk
“hi ms. l/n, i dont think weve formally met,” she says, reaching out to shake your hand
“ its nice to meet you”
“ please, sit down, make yourself comfortable,” she continued, pointing to the seat right in front of her
sensing your nervousness she quickly added a, “don't worry, you're not in trouble”
phew
your brain was starting to hurt from trying to rack what you must have done wrong to be seated in the big office
“ why am i here then if you don't mind me asking?”
“ ah yes, i need you to tutor my son”
,,,,,
oh
(◎_◎;)
,,,
“umm, why me?”
“you're top 1 in the class, is there anyone better than you to do it?”
well,,, she wasn't wrong
you mentally pat yourself at the back for this, happy that your efforts were being noticed
“don't worry ms. l/n, if you succeed, i’ll make sure you get into any college that you desire “
‘pshhhh, im top 1 ms seo, i can do that on my own’ you think to yourself 
“....and fully paid for.”
well, shit , how can you say no to that offer
its literally free education right in your fingertips  
what's the catch??
“ you can do that?” you ask
“ of course. i know very important people. so what do you say?”
and after a few minutes of contemplating within yourself, you finally agreed
“ also, while you're at it, i want you to change my son's reputation.”
and there it is
“ i'm sorry?” you reply,, maybe you just misheard the fact that she literally asked you to change her son
“ i don't just want you to tutor him in english, i want you to make him a better person.”
“how do you expect me to do that?”
“be his friend. teach him the ways of life, i'm not always gonna be around to get him out of trouble. You're a smart girl ms. l/n you'll figure it out.”
without giving you a final say, she ushered you out of there but not before she added
“ one last thing ms. l/n, dont tell anyone about this.”
the way she said it was so scary, and its like a spell was casted on you and you could only utter out an
“ of course mam”
i guess from her standpoint, she made sense
“ i just dont understand why Mrs. Seo chose you out of all the people”
“ we’ve already gon over this hyunjin”
“ yeah yeah, its cause youre the smartest of the class-”
hyunjin continues to talk however you’ve tuned him out as your eyes went to focus on changbin, himself
greeting the rest of his friends, an actual smile on his face, much different from the changbin you encountered a couple minutes ago
he gets up on his motorcycle and was about ready to put his helmet on when he felt someone staring at him ( i told yall, tYpiCAl bad boy )
he whips his head around in quick search for the culprit
and for the second time that day, you found yourself looking in the dark brown eyes of the the one and only, seo changbin
his smile quickly disappearing once he found your eyes
putting on his helmet whilst still maintaining the eye contact, he quickly drove away and you can't help but continue to just watch his figure retreat to the size of a dot until he was completely away from your line of vision
the next day - friday
you were in the library, seated in the table changbin used the day before
unlike yesterday, you were there dummy early
exactly 30 minutes before the actual tutoring session
he wasn't going to get away this time
finally , the chair across from you gets occupied, a backpack loudly flopping its way unto the table
he doesn't say a word,
he doesn't even look at you
he just sits there, staring at the table between you guys
“uhm, i think we got on the wrong foot yesterday, im y/n”
you say, a wide smile on your face, trying to change the atmosphere
he scoffs at this
‘omyfuckinggod who does he think he is’
‘im gonna fucking murder this kid’
‘his mom was right when he said he needed to change’
as much as you wanted to just punch him in the face, you plastered a small smile on your face instead
“should we start?” you continue
“i guess”
for the next hour, you learn that changbin doesn’t even need tutoring
he was definitely smarter than he lead on
he knew the answer to every single question you asked and didnt even seem like he was trying 
“uhmm, changbin can i ask you something?”
he just nods at you, urging you to go on
“are you failing your class on purpose?”
and with that he stands up, giving you a small smirk, “i think this session is over,”
“i-okay- i-i’ll see you on monday!” you say even though he was already a good 5 feet away from you  
-----------
as you laid in your bed that night, you wondered why the boy chose to fail his class
but no matter what scenario you could think of, you just cant understand it
is this what privileged people do ?
they know that they can get away with anything so they dont even try ?
‘aish, why am i thinking about him,’
‘y/n stop it’
‘ahhhhh’
you tried forcing yourself to sleep, to completely shut off all thoughts
but damn that stupid smirk on his face just keeps reappearing
and with that you slapped your pillow unto your face, not at all excited for the days to come
saturday night - 9 pm
to be honest, you weren't the type to go out on a saturday night
however you stayed in bed the whole day binging your netflix shows that you completely forgot to run your errands
so now you're here, at the local supermarket, buying your weekly groceries
you may be asking why can't your parents just do it?
well,,,
you only live with your mom, and she was very busy running the night shift at the hospital + picking up extra shifts
so she's really never home 
and when she is, she crashes right to sleep, exhausted from work
so ever since two years ago, when you turned 16, this has been the life that you were used to
you weren't complaining of course, she was only working to provide for you and your future
the least you could do is help around the house
after a good 7 minutes, you finally gathered everything that you needed
eggs, check
bread, check
peanut butter, check
a bag of hot cheetos,,,, check check and check
you nodded, proud of yourself for finishing it so fast and made your way to your car until a loud crash stops you from doing so
the next thing you know, you were being dragged into the alleyway
“1!!!!1111! I- get off of me,” you say thrashing and kicking, trying to get away
‘oh god, im gonna die tonight,’
‘if there is a god out there,, pls,,, not tonight’
‘i haven't finished my netflix series yet,, plssss’
however your thoughts were cut short when your captor whispered, “shhh, its changbin”
changbin??
chaNgbIN???
chANGBIN???
he finally turns you around, making you face him
“play along if you don't want to get hurt,”
and in one quick motion, his lips were on yours,,,
seo changbin was kissing you
your eyes open, stunned at what was happening
and then you noticed it...5 men walking around the area
and hoping that you've watched the right dramas, you pieced together what you think is happening
leading you to closing your eyes and kissing him back
which honestly caught changbin off guard, “good girls” dont react this way???
but he’d never let you know that, as he pulled you closer to him,
his arms snaking  around your waist
your hands going around his neck, the grocery bag being forgotten
yall were full on making out now
too caught up with each other’s taste to even notice the 5 guys leaving
(((im really bad at writing these kinds of scenes jfc, this sounds awkward as hell pls just picture it)))
until finally after like 23823 years, you pulled away, trying to catch your breath
damn, that kiss was good
probably the best one you’ve ever had
what????
just cause you're a goody-two-shoes doesn't mean you haven't been kissed before okay,,, were not going THAT cliche
he slowly lets go of you, his eyes darting to the grocery bag on the ground
“your eggs are broken,” he says
“m-my eggs?”, you reply, still on cloud nine,
following his gaze, you snapped out of your daze
“oh, r-right, my eggs,” you say softly, a frown making its way upon your face
changbin grabs your hand, pulling you towards the grocery store
“what are you doing?”
as usual, he doesn’t reply
honestly, you should be used to this by now
he dashes around the supermarket
you were right behind him, trying to keep up with his fast paced speed
finally, he gets to his location, the egg aisle
“which one do you want?”
“what?”
“eggs, which one?” he replies
“uhm, you don't have to, i can ju-”
“i'm not doing this for you,” he replies, cutting you off
you looked at him , not knowing what he meant
‘if he wasn't doing it for me then who the fuck is he buying these eggs for, i don't see anyone else here’
sensing your dumbness he grabbed a carton of the most expensive eggs and made his way to the cashier, pulling you along  
and you don't know why, or what has gotten into you, but all you could do was watch and follow
“here. were even now.” he says, before walking away, leaving you in front of the grocery store, holding a carton of eggs
monday
and now we’re back to the start of the week
which means another week of tutoring
as you waited for changbin to show up at the usual spot, you can’t help but think back to two nights ago
the feeling of his lips against yours all a distant memory yet at the same time, one that you could still remember clearly
“hey,” changbin says, breaking you out of your thoughts
“hi?” you reply, confused as to why he even greeted you in the first place
you guys do the usual, read a couple of flash cards, learn new words blah blah blah and all that boring crap that you learn in a high school English class
at one point you guys find yourself just sat in silence, and you can’t help but ask the question that’s been on your mind since Saturday night
“so who were those guys?”
“doesn’t concern you”
“uhm, the fact that you had your tongue down my mouth says otherwise,”
changbin was shocked, he wasn’t used to people responding to him the way you just did
don’t you know who he is???
he gives you one of his signature smirks, regaining his composure
“you liked my tongue being down your throat,” he says teasingly
o_O
<(。_。)>
excuse me what
is he flirting with you ??
what’s happening ??
“who said I did?” you say mimicking his tone, not allowing yourself to back down of this conversation
after Saturday night you told yourself that you were never going to just watch and follow
if you didn’t want the damn egg, you should’ve said something, you were so disappointed in yourself
you had your own brain, you can make your own decisions
besides you were here to be in control over him, not the other way around
“oh cmon, you’re really gonna try to refute it??” he says, the stupid smirk still evident on his stupid face
god, how you wish you could just smack it off
with your mouth
wait, who said that???
“you enjoyed it just as much as I did,” you say, knowing that if you answer then he would stop
and you were right, he completely shut his mouth and let the silence envelop you once again
“they were kids from another school,”
you look up at him, shocked that he actually answered
“why were they looking for you?”
“I may have keyed their car,” he says chuckling
“Because?”
“Isn’t that enough questions y/n?”
y/n
that was the first time he’s ever said your name
and you weren’t gonna lie, you liked how it sounded
“sorry”
“it’s fine”
“i don’t want to question it but why are you being so nice?”
“you helped me out without questioning me which means you trust me. im just returning the favor.”
“so, what im hearing is , you trust me?”
<( ̄︶ ̄)>
“don’t make me have to say it out loud”
trust
you don’t know how you did it so quickly,
maybe the gods are at your side, but you finally got thE seo changbin to trust you
2  weeks later
you’ve been tutoring changbin just the same
same time
same table
same library
however, so much has changed
mostly the dynamic of your guys’ relationship
it was like he was a totally different person
like I said before, changbin was smart
but in these last couple of days, you realized just how smart he actually was,
he can honestly probably give you a run for your money
and because of this, your past tutoring sessions have ended up with you guys just laughing and joking around
weird, right ?
changbin and laughing ?
who would’ve thought ??
even onlookers were surprised
and everytime changbin laughed at one of your guys’ silly antics, you swear you can hear a pin drop
the whole room just becomes silent
at first, it bothered you how people were just listening in to your conversation, obviously judging the scene
but as the days went by and it seemed that changbin could care less, you started not caring either
and if you were being completely honest, you looked forward to spending time with him
when changbin was with you, it was just you and changbin, nothing else
he somehow manages to make you forget about reality
“lets ditch tutoring sessions today,” he says as soon as he took the seat next to you
“changbin, no”
“c’mon y/n, live a little”
“excuse you! I do have a life!”
“making out with your homework and watching Netflix shows 24/7 is not a life”
“okAy, now you’re just being mean,” you say, pouting at him
“im not being mean, I’m being honest,”
“yeAH and?? no one asked for your honesty,”
changbin laughs at this
lately he found himself laughing more
and for once, he didn’t mind it
you were doing something to him
and he liked it
“cmon, I’m not taking no for an answer,” he says, packing up your things
you sigh in defeat
you know that once changbin sets his mind to something, there's no changing it
so here you are, standing in front of an abandoned music building
“uhhhh, what are we doing here?”
“have you ever trespassed before?” he replies, a smug smile on his face
“nu-uh nope, no way in hell changbin!” you say, your attempt to stop this from happening
however, changbin was already making his way towards the door, completely breaking the lock
aannnndd
he was inside  
“c’mon y/n,” he says reaching out his hand to yours
even though all you need to do is take two steps forward and you're officially a criminal
you were scared shitless
what happens if you get caught omg
almost like he was reading your mind, he quickly says, “y/n, ive been here over a million times and ive never gotten caught,”
“i dont know changbin”
“hm, thats too bad, i wanted to share a secret with you,” he says, a hint of playfulness in his voice before he stepped out of the building and made his way towards his motorcycle
but of course,,,
you being a nosy bitch
“wait,”
“yes?”
“lets go inside”
you guys enter the building, the rooms getting darker and darker the deeper you go (this building is huge okAY)
if you weren't shitting your pants before, you definitely are now 
an abandoned building???
and its dark???
youve seen this in every scary movie out there
it never goes well
“uhm changbin,” you whisper, as you guys continue to walk
“hm”
“i-um can i hold your hand? im scared and - actually you know what its fine its dumb you dont hav-”
but before you can even finish your sentence, his hand were already laced around yours, providing you the comfort and security that you were looking for
you shut your mouth after that, just letting changbin lead the way
passing by so many rooms, each one looking the same as the other, it was starting to feel like a maze
however , changbin seemed to know exactly where to go
‘I guess he has been here over a million times’ you thought to yourself
“were here,” he says, opening the door and letting go of your hands as he reached out for the lights
not gonna lie, you were missing the way his hand felt around yours but thats not the time to think about that
“a music room?” you asked, clearly puzzled
“yeah, you might not know this about me but i can spit barsss,” he says, letting out chuckle
“eyE”
“you dont believe me huh”
“absolutely not”
“ok, watch this”
and with that he entered the recording booth, of course not after he pressed a bunch of buttons
honestly , you have no idea what he’s doing
but as soon as he put the headphones on
*cue any 3racha song because im too indecisive to choose one*
he was,,
indeed,,,
spitting bars
you could not believe your ears
who the fuck is this
you stood there, stunned at the fact the he was rapping about real shit and not something stupid and meaningless (rip wow, she is meaNinGFUL to me okAY)
after he finished rapping, the room was absolute silent
changbin felt dumb, he thought you were gonna praise him but there you were not uttering a single word,
he need you to say something ,anything,, hell, you can even laugh
he’d prefer anything over the silence  
he’s literally the ‘i just showed u my dick pls respond’ meme but its like ‘i showed u my talent pls validate me’
avoiding to make eye contact with you, he walks out of the recording booth
sitting on the couch against the wall, he finally breaks the silence
“so yeah, thats a song my friends and i wrote, its stupid-”
“its not stupid.” you say quickly
“oh?”
“since when where you into this?” you ask, curiosity filling your eyes, taking the seat right next to him
“what do you mean? music?? everyone’s into music y/n” changbin retorts, not wanting to go into detail
“hhhh, you know what i mean changbin,”
changbin doesnt know why
but he wanted to share this side of him with you
maybe because you were the first person that he has ever allowed himself to be close with
or maybe it was because you stuck around him for this long, no one, besides chan and jisung were able to do that
whatever it was, he wants to keep you by his side
he figured that showing you his true self would do just that
so after having a battle with his inner thoughts, he finally says
“my dad was really into this stuff, he taught me everything i know,” changbin beamed
“oh! thats really cool, do you still make music with him?” you say, genuinely interested, youve never really heard about his dad before
“uhmm, hes not really around for me to do that,”
aaaannd,,, thats why,, god reader smh
“oh, im sorry,” you say softly, mentally slapping yourself
“no its okay, you didnt know….he passed away when i was 11”
“what happened?,,,, y-you dont have to tell me if you dont want to,” you quickly added
“I want to,” changbin says, reassuring you
“he just,,, he just died in his sleep, apparently it was a stroke,” sighing, he looked up at the ceiling, trying to hold back his tears
“you must miss him,” you say, your voice still soft
for the first time since youve met changbin, he resembled a piece of glass
so fragile
he was giving you a piece of him, letting you see clearly a part of who he was
and all you wanna do is make sure that you won’t break that piece
“he built this studio...wanted to start his own music company,” he continued as you sat there just listening to him
“my mom hates it though, she stopped funding this place as soon as she can,”
oh
the mention of his mom suddenly brought you back to the deal that you have made 2 weeks ago
and god, you felt guilty
you were here, trying to change him, when nothing should be changed
sure seo changbin had a bad reputation but he is not bad
he’s just protective is all
to be honest, he was one of the kindest, gentlest soul you have met
“i promised myself that i would continue our dream, for him and me, but mostly for him,”
“i-is that why youre failing your classes?” you ask, everything finally piecing together
“huh?”
“you dont care about school because you already know what you want to do...where you want to be”
“hm, you truly are a smart girl y/n,” he says before nodding and flashing you a smile
those words
so similar to the ones his mom has given you
but this time you weren't in the mood to pat yourself in the back
because shit, this is thE dumbest thing you've ever done in your life
after hearing this, you made up your mind, you werent gonna partake in this deal anymore
if you were really as smart as everyone says, you can get into the school you want without any problem
sure it won't be free, but your mom aint working her ass off during her nightly shifts for nothing
and so, right when you go to school tomorrow, you were determined to end it
you’d still tutor changbin, you just won't accept any of the perks that came along with it
“thank you for sharing this with me,” you say genuinely, a smile creeping unto your face
“thank you for caring enough to listen,” changbin replies, his smile getting wider
and then it hits you,
“wait, so you mean to tell me that this is YOUR studio all along??”
and at this changbin lets out the loudest laugh
and you can't help but mirror his actions
1 week later
oof, that time jump, i thought you were gonna end it the next day reader
welp,,
you work hard, but somehow satan, aka the author, works harder
Mrs. Seo had to leave for two weeks, attending board meetings around the country, and whatever principals do,,, i'm too lazy to research what they actually do  
╥﹏╥
and so you spent another week, with seo changbin by your side
one week down, another to go
and when that day comes, you can finally freely hang out with him without all the guilt eating you up
this week you guys even hung out outside of the library
you’ve been with him so much, even your friends have started to notice it
“y/n, are you coming with us to the movies,” felix asks
“oh,, umm sorry guys, i cant,”
“who else are you gonna be with? i thought we were your only friends,” minho pointed out, a pout on his face  
“with changbin of course,” hyunjin hissed, obviously upset that you have been pushing them to the side  
“ i can hang out with anyone that i want,” you argued, really not having any of his attitude 
“ you shouldnt hang out with people like him,” hyunjin retorted
you scoffed, “what’s that supposed to mean?”
“i mean blink once if youre being held captive” hyunjin joked, as the rest of the table snickered
however, you didn't find it funny,
who were they to talk about changbin like that??
they didnt even know him
and so you stood up, leaving all your friends calling out for you
-------------
walking to the table, you flopped down on your chair, slamming your backpack on the floor
“what's got you in such a bad mood?” changbin asks
“nothing,” you huffed, getting your materials out of your backpack
you didn't want to tell changbin that your best friends think hes the devil himself and didn't want you around him
meanwhile , changbin was annoyed
it seems like he's shared so much with you since the music room yet he still barely knows anything about you
he wondered that maybe you didn't want to be in his life the way he wanted to be in yours
but fuck it, he’s just gonna spend the time he has with you enjoying it rather than filling his mind with negative thoughts
but damn, you're frown was really bothering him
“y/n,” he says, calling out to you
no response
“y/n,” he continues, poking you on the elbow
still no response
“y/n”
You sigh, looking up at him, an emotionless expression on your face, you responded with a strong, “what.”
*insert changbin doing aegyo*
and with that , you lost it
you were an absolute madman
you never expected that the one and only seo changbin
notorious badboy
would ever do aegyo
all because you had a stupid frown on yourself
you laughed so loud
changbin doing the same as soon as your melodic laugh hit his ears
which resulted to you guys being kicked out of the library
-------------
“ i cant believe you got me kicked out of my favorite place,” you say, seated in a booth inside the ice cream parlor near your guys’ school
another one of changbins ideas
“ hey its not my fault you laugh like a hyena!” he says smiling before you threw a curled up paper tissue at his face
a couple of seconds later, after your laughter has died down
“ so, you want to tell me now why you were in such a sour mood?”
you knew that if you werent gonna tell him now that would still end up finding out about it from someone else
and so you came clean
“ its just my friends,,,, they dont think youre a good influence, wants me to stop hanging out with you” you say
“ oh,”
“ but dont worry!, i didnt listen to them, i actually told them off,” you confessed
“ why didnt you listen to them? theyve been your friends longer than youve known me?” he asks
“ because they dont know you” you reply, “and im sure if they did, they would also be friends with you”
as much as he appreciated the way you stood up for him, he didnt want you going through all that trouble 
‘god, what did he even do to deserve an angel like you,’ changbin thinks to himself 
“ don't tell them off next time,” he grunted
“ wh-what?”
“ everything they say about me is true”
“ changbin, no its not”
“ honestly y/n it doesnt bother me so dont let it bother you”
“ why doesnt it bother you?” you ask, wanting to know the reason
“ because its high school. after this, literally no one would care anymore. and then real life starts, people move on and worry about bigger things, things that actually matter more than the status quo. let them say what they say.”
and just like every other time, changbin has left you stunned
the arrival of Ms. Seo - tuesday 
a week has passed since the ice cream parlor
and Ms. Seo was back in town
this was it
the day you finally put a halt to it
and you were beyond ready
you haven't seen changbin all day
you figured that since his mom was back then he was also back to avoiding the school like it was a plague
you entered Ms. Seos room, determined
“Ms. Seo -”
She puts a hand up to her lips, signaling you to be quiet
‘bitch omygod i literally cant keep doing this any longer,’
‘its already been over a month’
so you ignored her warning
“im not doing this deal anymore. I’ll still tutor changbin but I won’t change him,,,, and you can keep your stupid money,” you let out, releasing all the bottled up emotions
“is that all,”she replies
“yes”
“then you may leave”
what???
it was that easy????
you thought she was gonna stop you, force you to hold your end of the bargain
if you knew it would’ve been this easy then you wouldn’t have worried over it so much
but you don’t know a lot of things
and you certainly didnt know that changbin was on the other line
later that day
you’re seated in the library
usual place, usual time, waiting for the one and only seo changbin, yet he never showed
you didn’t think much of it
‘maybe he just forgot’ you tell yourself
the next day - wednesday
here you were again, waiting for him
still nothing
you try and think of reasons why he wouldn’t show up two days in a row and can really only think of one - maybe his mom told him that he didn’t need tutoring anymore?
but surely, he would tell you
right ???
sure you guys started off on the wrong foot but you were friends now
at least you thought so
you decided to just give him the benefit of the doubt
‘maybe he’s just busy’
2 days later - friday
you’ve tried everything you can do to get a hold of changbin
all your calls went straight to voicemail
texts were left on delivered
you didn’t even see him around school anymore
it was like your worlds never collided and he was never a part of yours
you were starting to get worried, what if he got himself into trouble
“look who decided to show her face,” hyunjin comments as you took the seat next to him
ever since the day you guys had your argument, you have never been able to talk to him about it
“im not in the mood,” you reply,
hyunjin sensing that you were exhausted,
“hey,” he says softly, “what’s wrong?”
“nothing”
“y/n please, we’ve been friends for over 3 years, you don’t need to lie to me”
“aren’t you mad at me?”
“no. im upset that you’ve been pushing us to the side for your little boy toy but im not mad,” he says giving you a soft smile
hhhhh, it was times like these you remember why he was your best friend
hyunjin was just so thoughtful, so caring
you return the smile he gave you as you pulled him in for a tight hug
“I’m sorry hyunjin”
“it’s okay, im sorry too, now tell me what’s wrong?”
“it’s just changbin-“
“I swear to god, if he even laid a finger on you he’s a dead man”
“no!” you say quickly putting an end to his assumption
“so what happened?” he asks, eyebrows going up in sheer curiosity
and then you told him
you told him about the deal with Ms. seo
about how your relationship with changbin changed along the way
how you ended the deal
and now we’re back to changbin and ignoring you
“damn, well have you tried actually going to him?”
“i wouldnt even know where -”
and then it hits you
the abandoned music building
“hyunjin, youre a genius!!!,” you say excitedly
“thanks, we been knew”
“ i have to go ill explain later, bye!!” you say, dashing out of there as fast as you could and made your way to the abandoned building
taking the bus there gave you time to reflect on everything that has happened this past couple month
how much your life has changed since changbin entered it
he pushed you to take risks, to live out of your comfort zone, to not care about other people’s opinions
he made you feel free
and most importantly, he made you happy
the good girl has fallen for the bad boy, i told yall this was gonna be cliche right?
continuing on
just as you  expected, the door was open
the dark didnt even bother you anymore, the only thing in your mind was changbin
oh,, where could he be??
could you ever find your way into this maze of a building and retrace the steps that he took when he was by your side?
as you got deeper and deeper into the building, you feel yourself start to get lost
‘fuck i already saw this door’
‘omg y/n did you really just walk in a circle’
and then you hear it
music, singing
your nightingale
you walk faster, desperate to get to the voice
and here you are now, face to face with the one and only, seo changbin
he stops singing as soon as he saw you walk in
“hey,” you whisper out yet he continued to just stand there, not uttering a single word
“your voice is really pretty, i didnt know you could sing!-”
“what do you want?” his voice, dark and firm just like the day you first met him
This caught you off guard
Did you do something wrong?
“Did i do something wrong?” you say, not aware that you have said your thoughts out loud
changbin chuckles but it was so uninviting, like he was taunting you
“ please, drop the act”
?????
“what?” you reply, completely confused
“ you dont like me ”
“ changbin, what?”
“ you're just like everyone else”
“ changbin i really dont understand pl-”
“ i shouldn't have trusted you.”
“ what?!??, no changbin, you can trust me! just tell me whats wrong!”
all the while, you guys were still talking with a glass between the two of you
ironic, since you felt like a wall has been planted around changbin and you cant reach him  
“ you think i should change”
“ no”
“ what do you mean no? I heard you y/n! I heard what you told my mom, i heard about the stupid deal, the stupid money!”
(⊙…⊙,)
“ changbin, let me explain”
“ i know im known as the bad boy y/n, but you… youre even worse than me”
“ changbin.”
“ youre a monster”
and with hearing those words, the tears that you have been so desperately trying to keep just bursted out like a waterfall
changbin too, has let out his tears
and all we got now are two broken people who can clearly see each other yet are still on opposite sides of the glass
“ you're just like everyone out there that you have resented, you judged me by other people’s words, i thought- i thought that i can finally found someone i could open up to but you never even gave me chance from the beginning”
you let him talk without interrupting him
you deserved the ache you were feeling in your heart
everything he said was true
and with that he breaks down, straight to the floor, back against the wall, hugging his knees
and all you could do was watch, until you couldn't take it anymore
you finally entered the recording booth , taking a seat on the floor right next to him, mimicking his broken figure
“im sorry”
silence
you looked up at the ceiling as you sighed
he deserves an explanation
“ yes, i took the deal, but that's because i thought i needed it changbin. I may be smart, but financially my family isn't doing well. my mom already works extra shifts but it still won't be enough. my dad isnt even in the picture, i dont know where the hell he is”
and with this, changbins head slowly perks up, looking at you with his glass-like eyes, as you continued to stare at the ceiling
you were finally opening up to him
just like how he has been doing
“ i took the deal because, you’re right, i judged you, i was stupid and i never expected us to actually be friends, clearly i was wrong. you have taught me so much. you have pushed me into doing things i never thought i could do. you made me see the world in a different way.”
he’s still just listening to you when you finally took your eyes away from the ceiling and faced him
“ i understand if you dont want to see me anymore but i cant leave you knowing that i never got to say this,” you continue, afraid of the results that were about to come
“ what else are you hiding from me?” he says, but this time, he says it softly, the furious changbin that you have encountered just minutes ago was completely gone
“ i think im in love with you,” you say, quickly looking down, embarrassed at your confession
“ y/n look at me,”
“ i dont want to”
“ why?”
“ i know you're gonna break my heart”
“ you broke mine first,” and with that he lifted your chin up, making you look him straight into his eyes before kissing you
this kiss was different from your first one
it was slow but passionate, filled with all of the unsaid words between the two of you
your guys lips both slightly chapped from all the crying
yet his lips still felt like the softest pair against yours
pulling away, changbin leans his forehead against yours, his eyes closed
yours were open though, taking the sight all in before you pulled away, wiping away his left over tears
“ god, were a mess,” he finally says out loud, before he pulled you in a tight hug 
“ im sorry,” you say again
“ i’ll forgive you if you promise to continue tutoring me?”
“ what ?”
“ continue the deal, get the money”
“ changbin, i really don't want to do that”
“ i know you dont. but we have to finesse my mom somehow,” he says, bursting into a smile, clearly joking
..
“eYE,,, i cannot believe you right now! You can't be serious!”
“ but i am. go back into her office tell her you’ll continue it and get the money for your education.”
“changbin! stop joking! I already feel bad about it!”
“Okay fine i just like it when you tutor me okay, its kinda sexy” he says
playfully slapping him, you guys laugh, the tension in the air finally gone
“ you know if you didnt buy me those eggs, we wouldnt be here by now,” you say, a small smile on your face
“ hmm, and why?”
“ because those eggs were the first time i realized that the most notorious bad boy, the one and only Seo Changbin, can also be soft,”
“ do not use my name and soft in the same sentence ever again,”
“ what are you gonna do about it?” you reply, taunting him
and so
he pulled you into another kiss
and another
and another
until a series of laughter coming from the both of you interrupted it
“im glad i bought you those eggs”
hhhhhhh this ending is so rushed and so bad i just didnt wanna leave it unfinished 
ALSO IM SEEING STRAY KIDS BITCHES!!!!!,,,,,, MY SEAT HELLA FAR BUTS ITS OKAY BECAUSE ILL STILL BE THERE ╭(′▽`)╭(′▽`)╯
810 notes · View notes
hyunjizns · 5 years
Text
dating jisung (han)
Tumblr media
⤷ han jisung is so cute omg pls this has me soft already
how you started dating
okay okay so basically you two met when jisung was still going to school right
and you guys were really good friends like really good
you’d always go with him to the music room and listen to his raps 
and you’d try to give him as much advice as possible
and whenever he composed a new song or wrote new lyrics you always listened
not gonna lie you also encouraged him to go audition for a company because you knew he would make it big !!
you had faith in your friend because he was just really amazing
and you know what, jisung really appreciated that
he lowkey had a crush on you for the longest time but he just held back because he figured you wouldn’t like him back
clearly this boy could not see all the love and admiration for him in your eyes
so fast forward two years and he's about to debut in this group called stray kids
and your admiration for him grew after watching the survival show, seeing how he tried to help everyone else and all that
so you called him and told him you two had to go out since it had been quite a while since the last time you guys went out
he was pretty busy as a trainee okay
jisung was like sure y/n bby i’m so stressed and i haven’t seen you in forever so this is perfect
and you’re like ofc i’ll treat you out  (つ≧▽≦)つ
so you two go to this lil cafe that you’d always go to back in your school days
and you ordered jisung’s favourite drink for him (ofc you still remembered wtheck)
and then you sat down and talked with jisung for hours, just like the good old days where the two of you would spend every minute you could with each other because you were each other’s back bone and support
jisung really appreciated this and after your little hang he was so smile-y back at the dorm
and all the boys are like ooohhh
and jisung can’t help but to talk about you, a lot
like he just doesn’t shut up
and the boys are like yeah okay he definitely has a crush
but gosh he would never tell you, how frustrating !!
until one day jisung introduces you to the boys and you’re talking to minho
and minho just casually slips it out like 
“y/n, did you know jisung has the hugest crush on you”
this was no accident by the way
and you’re like “what”
was that your face getting hot ???
minho just smirks and pushes you closer to jisung and porr jisung has no idea what had just went t=down
by the time he realised though, the boys were out of sight
he swore he was gonna kill them when he got back
but for now, he was taking your hands in his and taking a deep breath
“yes, minho’s right, i do have the hugest crush on you, every since high school you had always been there for me-”
and you cut him off by kissing him’this time you couldn’t help by smile s wide
“i like you too idiot”
jisung as a boyfriend
okay ladies jisung is basically the most playful that a boyfriend can get
we all know that he is quite the odd one,, like no one does han jisung quite like han jisung does
so that being said y/n, prepare yourself for lots of teasing, weird outbursts and nicknames and a lot of laughter in your relationship
jisung lives for happy y/n and your smile so you better expect lots of stupid jokes and cringy puns
gosh does this boy ever stop??
surprise !
no, no is the answer
tickling is like the main aspect of your relationship
you see those days where you two decide to have a lazy date and watch movies while cuddled up under a blanket ?? expect tickling, like a lot
don’t think that tranquility will last long bc it most definitely will not
the boy just not know how to keep his hands off of you
and sorry to say y/n, but he knows aLl of your most ticklish spots so don’t think that you’re getting away easily
that being said though, you also know all of his most ticklish spots so the competition is fair and even
you both have equal chances at making the other laugh until their tummy hurts
your other dates are usually those “fun” places though
restaurants and sit down dates are not your thing
so amusement parks, water parks, laser tag, etc
you name it, you and jisung have probably done it
even if jisung is a big scaredy cat with everything and screams extra loudly on the rollercoaster
i mean,, going there in the first place was his decision
oh and hanging out with the boys...
pda??? yes
i’m sorry but jisung just does not care
he likes showing you off okay
like “hey guys this is my amazing person”
and guess what ??
y/n is mine and no one else’s
the boys honestly just wanna know how you’ve handled jisung and his ??? personality for so long
like sorry but have you met han jisung?
he loves hugging you in front of the boys and giving you little pecks
and they’re like “gross!!!”
he would literally do anything for your attention and affection
he’s like whining so much and following you around
“y/n”
pouts and puppy eyes
and he’s not gonna stop until you give in because jisung is a task
he also really loves backhugs
backhug = signature jisung move
omg but kisses with jisung are so versatile
like the most common kisses between you two are those cute short pecks with lots of giggling in between
you two love to play games where the prize is a kiss
“y/n lets play rock paper scissors”
“what’s the prize?”
“if i win, you have to kiss me but if you win i have to kiss you”
and you’re just like “ok jisung,,,, that’s literally the same prize”
but of course you go ahead with it
forehead kisses and cheek kisses are not rare in your relationship
especially not cheek kisses because they get jisung all soft on the inside
but if you two are seriously kissing like making out style the kisses are quite messy because you two just can’t help but laugh and be playful
but it’s endearing
jisung actually is a really good kisser and is very much capable, he just prefers things the other way
so if he happens to get serious you better prepare yourself for some next level shit
he’s so t o u c h y
he will always be holding your hand and swinging it or rubbing his thumb on your hand absently
it’s your guys’ trademark okay
cuddling with jisung is another story
this is like his favourite thing to do with you
and omg shh but he really likes to be the little spoon
cuddle conversations can range from teasing you about whatever embarrassing thing you’d done that day to him confiding in you all of his worries about his music or the boys
he really cherishes those days that you get to spend together because y’know he’s pretty busy as an idol
if your relationship were to be revealed he would prefer it to be in like a controlled environment like him admitting at an interview
but NO
he would have done something stupid on vlive like call you baby or be caught on camera doing something intimate
and he’s like !!! oh no
jisung.exe has stopped working
okay but stays are very supportive of you two so yay for you
i mean who could resist the jisung x y/n charm
now as far as couple outfits go, jisung deadass wants you to wear super tight jeans with and all black to pull off that badass concept
and you’re like no way
pls, not everyone likes their blood flow to their legs cut off
but somehow he gets you to agree
y/n if you do, i’ll buy you food
deal
so then you both take a bunch of photos together for your “concept day”
those pics are precious to jisung and he cherishes them and that day
they’re in his favourites :((
he also uses you as inspiration to write songs
you kinda always have been an inspiration to him
so when he composes music for either stray kids or 3racha, you’re like in the back of his mind
if he’s not feeling it, you’re his extra boost of encouragement and confidence 
you mean the entire world to him
but yes you guessed it
jisung is totally, completely and undoubtedly whipped for you
he would literally do anything for you no matter how far out of his way it may be
the boys like to tease him about how whipped he is and he’s like shut up before i unhinge your foors
you guys rarely have arguments and if you do it’s over something dumb
the level of trust in your relationship is unreal
always there for each other
always a shoulder to cry on
everyone should experience your type of relationship at least once :( 
346 notes · View notes
noeliareads · 5 years
Text
Penpals? Chapter 2
Chapter 2: 
November, 2017 
After about 2 weeks of preparation (waiting for a paycheck) Arizona had almost everything ready for her box. All she had to do was write the letter. 
*Dear Jinho, I don’t have words to express how grateful I am for everything you sent me. I actually feel bad because I don’t send as much. But here are a few of my favorite things from America. I really hope you like them. The SNSD mug? I use it everyday for my morning coffee. (she printed out a photo of the mug on her side table) The tea is incredible! Jinho, everything is incredible and I can’t thank you enough! 
By the way, how are you? How is South Korea? I hope you’re doing ok as well as your friends. I am ok, just a little bit stressed with school. Our final exams are in about a month and believe me I am not ready. Oh! I haven’t introduced myself. As you already know my name is Arizona, I am 20 years old and I am a music major in college. That’s something we have in common, music. I wanted to become a music major because I would love to be a music teacher in a university. I feel like my acquired skills would be exploited there. I really don’t know what to say about myself. My favorite colors are moss green and beige. I cannot write with normal ballpoint pens. I know. It’s weird. Fountain pens are a blessing and they are the best thing in the world.*
***
Bang Chan was in his room working on some mixtapes when he heard Jisung yell. 
“YA! We got a package for Bang Jinho. Who is Bang Jinho?”
Bang Chan threw his laptop on his bed and almost slipped on the wood floor, running to where Jisung was.   
“Nae goesida!” It’s mine! He said. He yanked the… box? A box? And ran to his room, locking the door behind him, leaning on it as if one of his band mates were to break it down. It has happened before... 
He clutched his chest regaining his breath. He took a seat on the floor and curiously examined the box, it had the typical shipping label. He didn’t spare a minute so he opened the box with his bare hands. Inside the box were a variety of American sweets. He found a mug with the american flag on it, post-its of the american flag… There were a lot of things with the american flag. Very.. touristy. Still, he thought it was cute. He saw a light blue envelope and grabbed it. It was time to read what she said. 
Dear Jinho…
.
.
*I have no siblings, sadly. I am an only child so I grew up alone sometimes. But that’s ok. I don’t mind being alone sometimes. I find comfort in being alone. Oh! I listened to the songs you sent me. Ok, let me gather my thoughts. 
Likey: It’s so catchy and I watched the video as well and now I can’t stop doing the hand movements from the beginning! My best friend Nick, laughs and teases me because I will do it without realizing it. I will have to check out more of Twice’s music, they seem very promising. 
You Are by Got7: I have heard of them but never got into their music yet. This was until you told me to listen to this song. I like this song. It’s has a beautiful melody. I like how it builds up and I didn’t expect the chorus to sound like that! I know kpop involves a lot of rapping but that “IT’S A BEAUTIFUL SKYYY” Dude. That buildup. Wow. 
Matryoshka: I don’t even know where to begin. Who are these people?? I mean, I downloaded Soundcloud because you mentioned it and I was blown away. They are amazing! The first rapper has such a chill flow. It’s like he’s not trying but it sounds good either way! The second one? He’s good, too good. And the third one? Oh Lord. I really hate you right now. Who the hell has that type of voice? I figured it was him who accentuated the MAAAAAAAATRYOSHKA. And wow, just wow. Thank you for showing me these amazing rappers. I have to look into them more! 
Lastly, Be Lazy. I have like 2 things to say. THE BASS. THE BASS. Thank you. I like them so much. THE BASS.*
The letter was two pages long and Chan enjoyed reading all of it. She seemed like a very animated person. She seemed to be happy about the simplest things and that weirdly made him smile. 
FAST FORWARD TO DEBUT ERA. Chan and Arizona have exchanged a few letters (shipping time and Chan’s schedule). But they became great friends in the short amount of time they’ve corresponded to each other. They kept trading on songs, Chan loved or dislikes the ones she sent and same went for her. In future v-lives, he would play some of the songs he told her to listen to. But, one thing was for sure. Chan converted Arizona into a newer generation K-pop lover. Chan told her that 3racha were actually part of a survival show that basically consisted of working hard to be able to debut together. He also never told her that he was Bang Chan. But, he did tell her that he was working hard in order to get a job as a backup dancer for idol groups.  
March:  Chan to Arizona (They just debuted)
*Zo, I am so happy! I GOT THE JOB! I wish I could tell you all about it but I can’t!*
Arizona to Chan
*No way! Jinho that is amazing! I am so happy for you! I know how much you worked for this! Whenever you get to dance on stage let me know so I can watch you.* Chan sighed as he read her response. She will see him, but she won’t know who he is.  
Fastforward
Months go by and Stray Kids have won multiple rookie awards. Thanks to Chan, Arizona has gone head over heels for them. She will rant about them in her letters and fangirl with him.
*Jinho… I know I sent you your letter and you probably received it yesterday or a few days ago but this is an emergency. SKZ DROPPED ANOTHER VIDEO!  BTW, You have to see the street version of  Insomnia. THEY WERE IN THE US I MEAN WHAT THE HELL! This is why I hate being a college student. No money. And, 10 days later they release the street version of Question? Do they want to kill me. Changbin and Hyunjin body rolling killed me! They all killed me. I really can’t thank you enough for introducing me to them. #PROUDSTAY*
For the release of their album I Am Who, Chan sent her an album. He wanted it to be autographed but he couldn’t explain how he made that possible. Either way she has his handwriting in paper so that counts? The boys knew about her, not much but they did know he was corresponding with a girl from America. Either way, she has his handwriting. Arizona in return, sent him an ASAP Rocky album! That made Chan very very happy. 
Life suddenly was brighter for Arizona. She always had a hard time seeing the bright side in life and being positive was extra effort. But corresponding with Chan helped her breathe with ease. He was her escape room. She could tell him everything and she knew that he wouldn’t judge her. He would always offer words of comfort and advice. There were times where she would vent about how hard her classes were or how her  mental health deteriorates day by day.  Chan wasn’t bothered by this. He wished for her to be happy and free in her own mind. He would occasionally send her various letters in the span of a few days or less. He knew she wasn’t expecting it and he hoped it made her smile, which it did. 
They were so used to corresponding to each other that friendship slowly and silently became something else. Arizona once debated about it but she brushed it off. It can’t be possible and it won’t be. Letters were romantic and that is the stigma that is around it and that’s all. There is nothing more to it. Chan thought of her constantly when he wasn’t busy with producing, practicing or anything related to the group. He knew he liked her, did he have the opportunity to ask for a picture? He did. But he didn’t ask. He would feel obliged to send her one of himself and he couldn’t do that. It was enough with lying about his job. 
FEBRUARY - 2019 
“I am soooooooo tired.” Arizona complained as she walked into the same coffee shop she frequented with Nick over the course of their college years. Both were seniors now, graduating in May! 
“All nighter?” Nick asked? She just nodded and smiled at the barista giving her their order. 
“You’re a master procrastinator. What were you doing?”
“Working on my senior project and portfolio.” She mumbles taking a seat and resting her head on the table. Nick didn’t miss how she avoided his eyes. 
“And probably writing J’s letter right?” Arizona looked up at her best friend and smiled. It was true, she was working on less than 2 hours of sleep, writing the letter and working on her project. “Zozo, you like him don’t you.” It wasn’t a question. It was an affirmation. 
“Nick, stop.” She wasn’t ready to face this topic yet. Like him? Pff. She’s never seen him before. “We’ve never met and probably never will. Ok? Drop it.”
“You don’t have to like or love his looks.” Arizona knew that and she knew what danger she was in of falling harder and faster for Jihno. She just wasn’t ready for it. 
Arizona arrived home after her evening lessons and collapsed on the couch. She was just dozing off when her mom threw some papers on her stomach. “You have mail” She said. The sleepy girl sat up and flipped through the envelopes. Phone bill, student loan information, a postcard?  
“Australia? I don’t know anyone in Australia.” She turned the postcard around and smiled when she recognized the handwriting. 
*Hey Zo, sorry this is going to be short. But, I am in aussie visiting family. I won’t be able to read any of your letters until I get home but I will write! Just make sure to send your responses  to my normal address. I am so happy to see my family again, I actually came with a few of my friends and we are just touring around. I also heard Stray Kids are going to be here! I’ll see if I can go to their concert or spot them at the touristy sites. If I do, I’ll send photos. Take care. 
Jinho.*
Her heart fluttered. He knew how much she loved Stray Kids that he would even look for them for her! The days flew by and she received an envelope. It contained a post-it and multiple photos. The note said, ‘Found them.’ The photos were of Stray Kids near the Sydney Opera House. Wait, he found them? The photos seemed to be taken from afar and the boys were with cameras? Filming a video? Arizona died right there. He went all the way to find them, take their picture, develop them and send them to her. 
Chan’s Perspective
Chan asked his manager to take photographs of them as they filmed and as if they were fans who spotted them. Manager Kim (let’s say that’s his name) agreed without asking for a reason. Chan quickly developed them and sent them before going back to South Korea. He was dying to tell her who he was. After all, he was her bias. Not that it made any difference. Sadly he still couldn’t, Stray Kids were going to be extremely busy in the next month and he feared not to have time to write so he made sure he had conversations planned out so she wouldn’t feel lonely. He also had the feeling that this comeback was going to be important for their careers. 
His last letter ended with; ‘Zo, I won’t be able to write as much because I will be dancing for a group for their comeback so we will be very busy practicing. But, I will try to write as much as possible. Don’t miss me.” 
.
.
.
Hey guys this was more of a filler chapter. I hope you get an idea of how the story is going to go.  There will hopefully be two more chapters, I still don’t know how I will space them out. Next chapter is going to be about the Miroh and Yellow Wood era. Arizona also graduates college and there is a big surprise that will lead to the last chapter. 
Playlist?
Adios - Everglow
Teeth - 5 Seconds of Summer
Wanna Go Back - Day6 
Mirror - Stray Kids
These are the pictures Chan sends to Arizona.
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
37 notes · View notes
bunnyhani · 5 years
Text
Dinners And Panic Attacks
Tumblr media Tumblr media
Pairing: Platonic! Lee Felix x Yang Jeongin (and platonic! Stray Kids x Jeongin)
Genre: Fluff and angst
Warnings: Panic attacks and angst
Summary: Yang Jeongin wants make dinner for his members, as an apology. He should have known, that all the anxiety and stress would come and make their presence known. Basically Yang Jeongin truly should have known better and not loose his shopping list.
------
Jeongin is the maknae of Stray Kids. Everybody knew it, people loved him and his desert fox -like feautures. His members were no execption. They too loved their precious maknae from the bottom of their hearts. Jeongin loved the members too, very much so, but he wasn't sure how to show it to them, without getting embarrased out of his mind. He didn't know how to handle the huge amount of love the members showered him in, he often felt awkward and found himself pushing them away with harsh words, blush dusting his cheeks. He and the members knew, that he was just joking and didn't know how to handle all the love. But sometimes, on a bad day he might seriously snap or someone could take his words to the heart. That's when Jeongin truly hated himself. He always apologized, but he still felt too guilty and he knew that his words and actions had hurted them. He just was so stressed, he didn't know how to cope with all the emotions he kept bottling up. Especially now that they were preparing for a comeback. Granted, everyone was stressed and a bit on edge, which made everyone sensitive. Jeongin was rigid with tension, holding himself from snapping, especially when members took comfort in clinging to him. He could feel himself grow more and more frustrated and anxious, but his hyungs were so fragile now. If there was a time, that members would take his words too harshly, it was now. He often now cried out of anxiety during the late hours of the night as a way to release some tension. He was glad, that he hand't been caught yet, he really wasn't in mood for explaining anything.
So he has been avoiding his hyungs with all his might, it seemed like this hurted them more than when he snapped at them. His conscience was heavy and it was eating him alive. He needed to apologize for being so distant. He needed to show that he still cared. Jeongin decided to cook some dinner for them. If only he knew that not everything would go according to the plan.
~~
Jeongin rushed to the kitchen as soon as he heard the dorm door click closed. He had been planning this enough to make sure, that every members possible was out of the dorms. 3Racha was producing and were still polishing some tracks and making sure that everything would be the best, that they could do. The rest went to dance practice, but Jeongin claimed to feel a bit sick (which wasn't a lie. He felt sick with anxiety, which scooped his stomach every few minutes) and got the time he needed. He knew, that he would need to practice harder now that he slacked off a bit, but his hyungs were worth it. Nobody had stayed behind with him, thanks to his persuasion skills. Relucantly, others had agreed to go and practice without him.
He checked the fridge and cabinets to see which ingredients were missing. He then made a shopping list and went to the closest grocery store to buy them. He knew that he didn't need to rush too badly, but he had this weird energy just flowing in his veins, making him move faster.
Jeongin looked trhough the aisles, searching. He found the ingredients quicker than he thought and he could only smile proudly. He went over all the stuff that was in the basket and nodded to himself. He had managed to loose the shopping list at some point, but he trusted his memory enough, of course after he was done panicking. He had earned a few weird and worried glances at his way when he had gribbed his hair and wailed quietly in despair in the middle of the shop. He had apologized sheepishly and settled for pinching his wrist to keep himself in check. Jeongin went to check out, the cashier glancing at him every so often as she completed her task at hand. It made Jeongin a little uncomfortable, despite having a job, where people constantly stared at him. He just bit his lip behind his mask, payed for the groceries and thanked her, before scurrying off. He realized, that he had to walk home with the plastic bag in his hand. It wasn't very heavy, but would feel very heavy while walking. Jeongin groaned and stared at the blue sky in annoyance. Despite stressing and thinking about his plans multiple times, he still somehow overlooked this. He sighed, picked up the plastic bag and started walking as quickly as he possibly could, towards the dorms. He made sure that nobody had tried to reach him or even messaged in the group chat. His mind eased a bit, seeing that there were no notifactions. With a lighter mind, he rushed home.
He was slightly out of breath, when he reached the dorms. He toed off his shoes, threw his jacket onto the hanger and started unpacking the groceries. He was going to make some pasta, considering that it was quite easy, but still very delicious. Jeongin definitely wasn't the best cook out there, but he wasn't too shabby. He washed his hands and started preparing the meal. He was actually enjoying himself as he listened some music while putting the sphagetti into the water and letting it boil. He then prepared the minced meat, seasoning it and adding the tomato sauce.
"Ok, now I just need the food cream", he mumbled to himself, walking over to the fridge. He almost wished he didn't. Because the sight that greeted him back, was not what he was expecting or wanted. The food cream wasn't there. His breathing got stuck in his throat, his mind started whirling. Why isn't it there? Where is it? He panicked, looking over every shelf possible and every possible place that the cream could be in. By that time he was sobbing, choking and completely out his mind. Like all the anxiety and stress he had kept inside were now unleashed in form of this... What ever it even was. He couldn't breathe. His sobs transformed into heaves as he tried to get enough oxygen in and out of his lungs. He could faintly hear the meat sizzling on the pan, but a few moments later, he couldn't hear anything else except his own ragged breathing and thoughts that were too loud and too messy. He toppled over and his elbow hit the ground painfully, as he tried to get himself upright. He couldn't he was shaking too much, so he sat up shakily, leaning onto the counter. He couldn't get up. The tears blurred his vision, making him even more panicked. Where was his phone? Slowly he felt himself loose rational thoughts as the lack of air made him feel like he was dying. It felt like there was something in his throat, physically blocking his breathing, he desperately clawed at his throat. He was sweating and he was sure it was not because of the heat from cooking. Jeongin wasn't sure if he was ugly sobbing or if he was silent. He wasn't sure if he was now lying on the floor or still sitting. The panic had clouded his head. He was going to die.
Felix was coming back from practice, as he was still worried about their maknae and insisting to go and check on the younger boy. Jeongin had been unnaturally quiet and avoiding them, he was starting to get worried about him. He quietly came in throught the front door and immediatly smelled food. He smiled a bit, but he was a bit confused. It smelled like whatever was being cooked, was starting to burn. Felix took careful steps towards the kitchen and that's when he heard the quiet gasps and pants. He leaped the rest of the distance to the kitchen and he felt like his head stopped working for a hot second: The water was boiling over, the meat on he pan looked fine but smelled a bit burned, it was smoking a bit, but what truly caught him off guard was Jeongin. Their lovely maknae was laying on the floor, gasping for breath and sobbing. He himself panicked before quickly turning the stove off and moving the food away, then dropping to his knees next to the youngest member.
"Jeongin!" he called out to the boy on the floor, lifting the boy so he was upright and leaning on the counter. Jeongin flinched and a choked cry escaped his mouth. The younger tried to scramble away.
"Jeongin it's me, Felix! I need you to tell me what's going. Are you having an allergic reaction? Panic attack?" He asked frantically, trying to catch the younger's attention. Finally Jeongin heard him. Jeongin recongnized Felix's deep voice and tried to focus on him. He was gasping as he reached to grab Felix. His coordination was off and just brushed Felix's hoodies sleeve. Felix understood what he tried and guided his hands to Jeongin to grab. Jeongin's hold was almost bruising, as he tried to hold onto him.
"I-I c-can't. breathe!" he finally got out. Felix stroked Jeongin's trembling hands, that were still locked around his wrist.
"Allergic reaction?" he asked again, looking frantically around for his phone. Jeongin shook his head hastily. A panic attack, Felix's mind concluded. He felt a bit relieved to know that he wasn't in immediate danger.
"Jeongin, I need you to breathe. You're not dying, you're having a panic attack. You're okay", he calmly said. Jeongin's mind slowly caught up. If this was a panic attack, why did he feel like he was drowning and dying? It shoudln't feel like this, did it? He was brought back, by Felix's voice yet again when the older boy gave him slowly instructions to breathe.
"Inhale through your nose for five seconds -good job, Innie-, hold it for four seconds, you're doing great! Shh, no no, you can do it. Let's try again. Inhale through your nose for five seconds. Good good... Hold it for four seconds, great job. Now exhale for five seconds. You're doing amazing job!" Jeongin truly tried to follow his instructions, but then he felt like he chocked. He started gasping again irregurlarly and crying harder.
"Shhh Innie, you're okay.. Ok huh.. Innie, can I hold you?" Felix asked. Jeongin took a moment to understand, but when he did he nodded. Felix brought the boy against himself, wrapping his arms loosely around him, just incase if Jeongin wanted to leave, he could. He pressed Jeongin's head against his chest, where his heart was.
"Focus on what you hear. My breathing, my heartbeat, my voice. You can close your eyes if you need to", Felix said, while quickly planted a light kiss on top of Jeongin's head. Jeongin did as Felix asked. It took time and patience for Jeongin to calm down and get his breathing under control, but Felix held him through it, not giving up on him. Even when Jeongin no longer had problems breathing, Felix still kept talking to him. Jeongin felt drained and he wanted to sleep for the rest of the week.
After laying and sitting on the floor, for what felt like hours, Felix finally said:
"What happened? You don't need to talk about it if you don't want to, I'm just worried." Jeongin barely opened his eyes to throw a glance at him and sighed.
"I wanted to cook for you guys.. As an apology for avoiding you and being snappy. It was going well.. Until", Jeongin mumbled the last part, so that Felix had no idea what other said. He gently asked for the younger to repeat himself again, reminding that he wasn't one to judge.
"I... I couldn't find the food cream anywhere. I just.. I panicked and the next thing I knew, I felt like I was drowning", he said with downcast eyes. He felt embarrased and dumb. Felix just took a deep breath and caressed his cheek.
"I know what you're thinking... It wasn't dumb or pathetic. You're not weak either. These things just sometimes happen and it's okay", he said with a gentle tone. Jeongin closed his eyes again, when tears started burning then again. Felix sighed and hugged hin tighter.
"I'm sure all of us would have accepted your apology, even without the food. Can you tell me why were you so distant?" He whispered. Jeongin nodded.
"I felt so snappy and moody. And you guys clinged onto me so much, I couldn't just tell you off, because right now you're all so sensitive and I didn't want to hurt you", he explained quietly. Felix was quiet for a moment then asked:
"Does us clinging to you, make you anxious?" Felix honestly feared for the answer. Had they been causing Jeongin unintentionally anxiety? His own anxiety started bubbling inside of him.
"No no! I like it... I don't know how to handle it all though, so I usually just.. You know, snap at you playfully, but now all of us are so.. On edge. I didn't want to upset anyone, so I said nothing. And now that everyone is stressed, I kind of want my own space for awhile, but.. I just can't say anything", Jeongin rambled. Felix was quiet and listened.
"You shouldn't feel like you were suffocating. You know, you can talk to us, we would understand", he said quietly. Jeongin quietly just nodded.
"Well, do you want to finish that pasta sauce? We can go buy some food cream and just warm it all up again. From what I saw, it didn't burn badly so it will be okay", Felix suggested with a grin. Jeongin smiled faintly and nodded in agreement.
The two boys finished the cooking pretty nicely, it tasted good, aside from the little burned after taste.
They were satisfied with the dish. Then they could hear as the front door was slammed open and the other 7 rowdy boys came in. They both jumped at the sounds a bit and looked at each other.
"Ohhhh I smell food!" They could hear the others chatter, as they rushed to the kitchen. Jeongin could his blood rushing to his cheeks as the boys' faces showed all different ranges of surprise, seeing him and Felix stand on the center of the kitchen, Jeongin with a spatula in hand and Felix with the plates. Jeongin slowly inched himself behind Felix and rested his head against his back.
"What... Did you guys plan this?" Jisung asked loudly, pointing an accusing finger but his lips were streched into a wide smile. Felix chuckled and petted the younger's head with his free hand, sad smile on his face.
"No.. This was Innie's surprise, but I walked in on-", Felix started, stopping at his sentence to glance at Jeongin, confirming that he was still fine with it. Jeongin nodded.
"I walked in on him having a panic attack", Felix said, frowning as the mental image of Jeongin laying on the floor, looking so weak and... Just bad. He looked like he was in pain. There was a heavy silence and Jeongin clung onto Felix tighter. Yeah this was a bad idea. His breathing started picking up yet again as the knot in his throat appeared again. It wasn't bad yet and he swallowed in big, deep breaths. His knuckles were turning white as his grip got even tighter on Felix's hoodie. His hands started to shske ever so slightly. He shut his eyes tight and willed himself to breathe. He couldn't focus as he heard the members get loud again. Then it was silent. Jeongin thought that he was under water again, where he coudln't hear anything again. But then he felt a hand on his shoulder and he whipped his head up, eyes wide. There was Chan, looking at him with those beautiful eyes wide with concern and worry.
"You're okay, Innie", he said softly. Jeongin nodded and loosened his hold on Felix's hoodie, but stayed close. Felix was safe. Felix was comfortable. Not that the others weren't, but Felix just had this... Aura. A feeling.
The dinner went well, the boys enjoyed the food, despite the after taste. He then of course explained what really had happened and what drove him to even making dinner in the first place. Felix held his hand through it all. The older members were upset, no doubt about that. They had apologized for not being considerate of his feelings, but Jeongin just brushed them off with a wave of his hand.
"It's okay. Let's just.. Try to talk things out, when these situations occur", he said with embarrased smile and pink cheeks.
"Ahhhh our maknae is growing up", Hyunjin wailed before hundling closer to hug him tight, before of course asking a permission to do so. Soon there was a big group hug. Or more like a family hug, if you asked Jeongin. Even in the mess of limbs, Felix still managed to hold his hand.
89 notes · View notes
luvknow · 6 years
Text
press play | bang chan
genre: radio dj!chan x reader feat. minho | college au ; fluff ; humor ; light angst ; dialogue-heavy summary: bang chan, founder and one of the hosts of the campus’s most popular radio show, raises money for charity where students can purchase tickets to be put in a lottery. the winner gets to go on a one-on-one date with none other than CB97 himself, all expenses paid. when you hear chan say your name over the radio, you’re stuck wondering how your name even got there in the first place. wc: 7.1k (jsbdjsbd)
warning - mentions of drinking/college party
CHAN’S PLAYLIST
Tumblr media
“What’s up, friends!? You’re listening to 3RACHA Radio. It’s CB on the mic, with J.ONE and SPEARB right beside me and if you’re just tuning in, we just got off with caller number seven about his frequent unfortunate event with his roommate exiling him with the good ol’ ‘sock on the door handle’. We hope all goes well with you, number seven! And remember: don’t be a snitch and tattle on the RA.”
“Oh good, you’re listening.”
Without any warning or even a simple knock on your door, Minho walked into your apartment unsolicited and took a seat next to you at the kitchen table that doubled as another desk as you spread all of your study materials on top. Then, he had the audacity to go into your fridge and take a drink.
“Hello to you, too. Sure, you can have a drink! Just take whatever’s in the fridge,” you say sarcastically as an unbothered Minho chugs his drink of choice.
“’Sup. Anyways, you’re listening to 3RACHA, right?”
“Against my will, but yes. Why am I listening to it again?”
“I put in a shout out for you!”
“That’s it!?”
“What do you mean, ‘that’s it’!? Isn’t it so cool to hear your name over the radio and everyone knows that it’s you?”
“Our campus is huge, I doubt people will know it’s me.”
“Well, you’ll know it’s you, and that’s all that matters. You’re already listening anyways, so just wait for it.”
You rolled your eyes as Minho takes his seat next to you, though not before he grabs a snack to munch on while you both listen to the radio that played in the background. Somehow throughout most days of the week, Minho ended up at your place after class either hanging out or eating your food. He even slept on your couch on some days because he was too lazy to take walk for ten minutes. After eating all of your food and spending more time at your apartment than yourself, you really considered asking him to pay rent since he might as well be living there.
You yank the bag of chips away from the hungry boy. “Stop eating my food! You still owe me like, two more bags!”
He pouted cutely, knowing too well that it was your weakness. “But I’m hungry ~ Just add it to my tab!”
“You’re never going to pay me back,” you scoffed, reluctantly handing him back your chips.
“How big is my tab, anyways?”
“Three bags of potato chips now, two four-packs of ramen, at least a carton of eggs because of the ramen, a pint of ice cream and -” you paused to mentally calculate how many drinks he owed you. “Twelve cans of cola.”
“Yikes.”
“Yeah, yikes. Now pay me back.”
“Soon, soon ~”
“How can you even eat that much and still have a six pack?”
“It’s called going to the gym. Maybe use your free membership once in a while and you’ll have one, too,” he teased.
“Don’t tell me what to do.”
“The time has come, everyone! The moment we’ve all been waiting for,” you both heard J.ONE say on the radio.
“Oh, I think this is it!” Minho squealed, hitting your arm repeatedly. “Listen, listen!”
“That’s right, J.ONE. We’re about to find out the lucky sucker who gets to go on a date with our one and only hyung, CB97.”
“It’s unfortunate for them, really.”
“Agreed.”
“Hey! I’m right here!” CB whined.
“Ugh, a date with Chan? That poor soul...” you tisked.
Minho didn’t respond and just sipped his cola silently.
“We’ll now pull from the lottery, where all of your tickets are mixed up in this big jar. Then, we’ll call the number on the ticket and set up your date on-air, right now!” J.ONE cheered.
“Ah, why am I so nervous?” Chan said.
“It’s because we tried selling you to all these people in the lottery. But hey, we raised over $500 for school supplies for children!”
“That’s incredible. I can’t wait to meet one of you guys who contributed to this crazy amount. SPEARB, pick a name!”
You were only half paying attention to the show as you tried to finish your homework, thinking it wasn’t time for any shout outs to be said. The only time you ever listened to 3RACHA RADIO was with Minho and even then, you never really paid attention. It’s not that you weren’t a fan of the show - you thought their concept was super cool.
But the Djs? Well... 
“And the lucky winner is... _____!”
“What’s up?” you asked Minho, not looking up from your homework.
“What?”
“You said my name?”
“That wasn’t me who said your name.”
“Who else would have said it -? Wait...”
As if on cue, your cellphone rang, with the caller ID coming from campus. At this point, Minho struggled to hold in his laugh when you looked at him with wide, terrified eyes.
“What did you do!?” you hissed.
“Just answer the phone!”
“No!”
“Hello, _____ ~ Please pick up ~!” SPEARB sang.
Minho was unfazed when you shot him the iciest glare while you answered your phone. “H-Hello...?” you stuttered.
“_____?”
“Yes...?”
“Congratulations! You were picked from the lottery drawing and won an all-expenses paid date with our one and only CB97!”
You silently mouthed at least a dozen curse words at Minho, who could only decipher a total of four.
“Ah, wow, that’s crazy...! I can’t believe the chances that this really happened!” You really couldn’t believe it, especially since you never bought a ticket. “It’s like I won the real lottery!” you said in your fakest cheerful voice.
“That’s great to hear! CB, would you do the honors of arranging your date?”
“I would love to. So _____, what kind of food do you like to eat?”
“All kinds.”
“Did you want to do anything romantic? Like the movies, or the amusement park? Museum, maybe?”
“You know, all of that sounds so expensive. I don’t want to waste your time and go through all of that!” You were practically begging him not to make the date any longer than it should be. You don’t even think you could last through dinner with him.
“Nonsense! It’s never a waste of time if I’m spending it with listeners like you.”
You exaggerated the way you rolled your eyes and Minho chucked a pillow at you.
‘Be nice!’ he mouthed silently.
“Um, I’m ok with anything, really,” you told him.
“Ok, so I’ll just surprise you the night of! We’ll play the night by ear. Does this weekend at seven sound good with you?”
“Actually, that’s really bad timing, because -” Before you knew it, Minho took your phone and ran around your apartment before you could reject Chan’s suggestion. “Hey!”
“Yes, this weekend at seven is perfect!” he said in a shrill voice that impersonated you.
“Great! I can’t wait until then. I’ll see you soon.”
“Goodbye, Channie ~” Minho sang. He then quickly hung up your phone and ran away as far as possible from you before you could stab him with your pen.
“I’m going to kill you,” you threatened after shutting off the radio.
“Wait, don’t hurt me! I can explain!” He giggled before you tackled him on the couch.
“Why is my name in the lottery!? I never even bought a ticket from them!”
“‘You’ actually bought fifty of them.”
“You bought fifty tickets just so you could see me be miserable on a date with Bang Chan!? Must be nice to have that kind of money just lying around!”
“I didn’t want to put my name down and I thought it’d be funny to put yours down instead! I didn’t think they’d actual pick it, I’m sorry ~!!” he groaned under your weight. “Can you get off of me, please!? I have a weak back!”
Reluctantly, you did as he begged. Then you ran your hands through your hair, stressed from the events that happened in a mere three-minute call. You still couldn’t believe you were set to go on a date with Bang Chan.
“You’re the worst friend ever and I hate you,” you pouted.
“I don’t get it, why are you so upset? He’s a cool guy. Handsome, too. And funny. Why would anyone not want to go on a date with him?”
“Are you sure you don’t want to go on this date instead?”
“Yes, dumbass. I’m just confused - I’ve never met anyone who hated 3RACHA before.”
“Ok, I don’t hate 3RACHA. The show’s actually decently written and I don’t even know the other djs. It’s just Chan that rubs me the wrong way.”
“What happened?”
You sigh deeply, falling into your couch as you recalled events from your very first college party with Chan.
“So BamBam threw this party the night he moved into his apartment our first year of college, right? It was huge, like anyone who was anyone was there and it was a great time. I came with Seokmin, Minghao, and Mingyu and we were just hanging out waiting to play some game, and suddenly Chan stumbled in between us and spilled his drink all. over. me.”
“So he was drunk and spilled a little bit, that’s normal at parties!”
“Oh, but there’s more, my dear Minho,” you chimed. “He puked all over my shoes two seconds later.”
“Ew...”
“Yeah, imagine that - covered in sticky jungle juice on the top half and Chan’s vomit on the bottom half. And the worst part about everything was that Chan never apologized! He just kept on walking!! Can you believe that?”
“I don’t know, that seems like some petty stuff to be angry over. Maybe he’ll redeem himself and apologize next week when you go on a date?”
“I doubt it. It was so long ago, I don’t even think he remembers it was me, let alone knows who I am.”
“Oh, trust me, he knows who you are.”
“How do you know?”
“Well, you and I are together pretty often, so the guys see me with you a lot. And they know I take you to the parties. They all pretty much know who you are by now.”
“Great...”
“C’mon, it’ll be fun! He’s not that rude when he’s sober, I promise,” Minho said as he nudged your side. It was weird for Minho to be pushing you to go on a date like this. It felt like he was hiding something. But he always teased you about not going on enough dates, so maybe that’s why.
“Even then, I’ve just heard so many things about him, you know?”
“What do you mean?”
The whole thing about Chan spilling the contents of his cup and his gut all over you was surprisingly not what you were worried about the most. What you were worried about was Chan’s overwhelming popularity, so to say. You’ve heard tons of rumors on what it was like to go on a date with him and most of them consisted of him gumming up the works so he could get what he wanted at the end of the night. Even if this date was fake and all for the purpose of fulfilling the lottery, who’s to say that he wouldn’t try something, anyways? All you knew was that you had to be extra careful around him.
“Isn’t Chan kind of like a playboy? He gets around all the time because of 3RACHA Radio. What if he tries something?”
“He’s wouldn’t do that to you. You’re not some person he wanted to hook up with at some sleazy party. You’re someone he wants to take out on a date.”
“Yeah, a forced date... But ok, I trust you,” you caved in. “If it starts to get really bad though, I’m gonna call you to get me out of there.”
“Fine. It’s the least I could do, I guess.”
“Literally the bare minimum.”
Tumblr media
“Hey, you look pretty good!”
Tonight was the big night that everyone was waiting for - your lottery date with Bang Chan. You had no idea where he was taking you, so you dressed as semi-casual as possible, hoping you’d fit whatever environment that was thrown at you. When you walked out of your room, Minho gave you his thumbs up of approval.
“Like you actually look put-together for once,” he teased.
“I’m still mad at you.”
“Oh, come on! I said I was sorry! And like you said, if it’s really that bad, you can call me and I’ll come pick you up asap.”
“What’s your excuse if he asks?”
“I don’t know, that your dog’s in the emergency room, or something.”
“I don’t have a dog...”
“Ok, but he doesn’t know that.”
A knock came at your door and now was not the best time to start getting nervous. What was there to be nervous about, anyways? You’ve been on plenty of dates before, and with boys you actually liked, so this should be a piece of cake, right?
“_____? It’s me, Chan.”
“Can you tell him I went to the emergency room instead?” you begged Minho.
“Shut up and just enjoy your free date with free food. But be home by midnight ~!”
With a huge sigh, you bucked up the courage to take the first steps in getting this date over with.
On the other side of your door stood a dashing and handsome Chan patiently waiting. He had his hands behind his back as if he was hiding something. You were so curious about what he was hiding that you failed to notice the slight drop in his jaw.
“Hey,” he breathed out. “You look great.”
“Not so bad yourself,” you admitted. “What are you hiding...?”
“Hm? Oh!” Chan hands you a bouquet of your favorite flowers wrapped neatly in brown paper - an arrangement that must not have been cheap. “I asked Minho what your favorite flower was so I could get them.”
“You didn’t have to do that,” you said, though you couldn’t help but admire the beautiful bouquet in your arms. A smile broke on your lips and Chan thinks to himself that he must be making the right moves so far. “I love them. Thank you.”
“Shall we?” Like a true gentleman, he extends an elbow for you to take and without hesitation, you accepted.
“Wow, I didn’t take you as the gentleman type.”
“Is it because I spilled my drink and threw up on you our first year?”
“Ah, so you do remember,” you scolded. “Good. I was afraid I had to remind you.”
“Of course I do! How could I not remember the most embarrassing night of my college life?”
“What even happened?”
“You really want to know what happened?” You nodded eagerly. A blushing Chan turned his head and avoided eye contact. “I wanted to talk to you.”
“To me? Why?”
“I thought you were really cute, so I drank a couple drinks to buck up the courage to talk to you and thought ‘hey, Chan, you’re definitely not sober right now, go talk to her’.”
“And so you spilled everything on me instead and walked away.”
“Yup, that’s exactly it,” with his free hand, he scratched the back of his head sheepishly, pink still evident on his cheeks. “I’m so sorry for that night. I’ve been too embarrassed to talk to you ever since. Do you forgive me?”
Chan’s flattery was on a whole other level than you had expected and now you weren’t sure what words were real and what words were just for show. He really just admitted that he thought you were cute five minutes into the date and you swore to yourself that you wouldn’t fall for anything like that. Yet here you were, taking in his every word, and so ready to forgive him just because he asked.
I mean, all he did was apologize for spilling on you... It’s not like he was trying anything yet, right? No harm done yet.
“All is forgiven, I guess,” you teasingly sighed. “Only if you tell me what’s planned for tonight.”
“Dinner and a movie. Does that deserve forgiveness now?”
“It does.”
“Thank god.”
Sitting down at a candlelit setting was quite awkward at first. You felt so adult - like you two were both real adults going on a real date together. But Chan made things much easier because he was an easy-going guy. He made it feel more like you two were just friends hanging out and pretending to be fancy and forgetting all about the other paying customers who gave you dirty looks whenever you burst out laughing.
Time never seemed to pass your mind the entire evening.
“Oh, shit,” Chan cursed. “We’re late for the movie.”
“Aren’t there previews?”
“Yeah, but we're really late for the movie - like we missed the entire thing.”
“Oh, yikes.”
“Yeah,” Chan chuckled. “Guess we were having too much fun.”
“That’s a shame... Wanna get dessert?”
“I thought you’d never ask.”
Ice cream always tasted better when it was free and after 10:00pm. It was a popular place to be, so a ton of sweet-deprived students always crowded the place at this time. When the both of you walked in, it felt like all eyes were on you.
Oh yeah, you almost forgot how well-known the founder and host of the campus’ most popular radio show was.
You knew Chan must have sensed your anxiousness by the way he grabbed your hand and guided you through the line. Even if this was one of his moves, how could you be mad at his sweet gesture? A gentle squeeze in return earned you a soft smile from him.
After lacing his fingers with yours, he helped you keep your attention on him and the ice cream only. You opted for your favorite flavor as you always did, but Chan went for a more adventurous one - one that was all black and looked like it could stain your clothes if he got too close.
“What is that?” you asked after exiting the shoppe.
“Black sesame. It’s actually very good! Wanna try some?”
As Chan tried to shove his cone in your direction, you let go of his hand and backed away immediately.
“Gross, no thank you.”
“C’mon, when would you ever try this again!?”
“Never.”
“Exactly. Just one lick!”
“No!” you giggled, trying to avoid the dangerously dark ice cream. “Hey, be careful throwing your ice cream around like that!”
“Why, are you afraid I might spill it on you - Oh, shit.”
What you feared most had really just happened - a single drop of melted black sesame ice cream landed on your really cute shirt and now you were mad. You were going to make Chan pay. This would be for all the clothing he’s ever ruined and for future ones to come.
“You know, Chan, I was having a really good time on our fake date until now,” you tisked, approaching him slowly with your ice cream locked and loaded on a spoon. The cautious boy backed away slowly. “But now it���s ruined.”
“W-Wait, I didn’t mean to!” he shrieked in between laughs. “I’m sorry!”
“Sorry’s not enough this time. This is one of my favorite shirts, and now I gotta avenge it.”
“Ok, but do you really have to -”
“Yes.”
A deep sigh escaped his lips when he realized you were not going to back down from this. So reluctantly, he held his arms wide open to widen your target.
“Hit me with your best shot, _____ -” and before he could finish his sentence, you already aimed and catapulted right at his chest. “Jeez, at least let me finish!”
“We’re even now ~” you sang happily as you walked passed.
It was probably around midnight by the time you arrived home, but you still felt like the night was young and there was so much left for the two of you to do. But the rules of the lottery stated that Chan had to have you home by Midnight or else it violated the school’s rules and now you arrived at the front of your apartment feelings a bit unfulfilled.
“Something on your mind?” Chan asked.
“I don’t know. I kind of wanted the night to keep going,” you shrugged.
“Really?” he beamed cutely.
“Are you surprised?”
“I am. I thought you hated me.”
“I’m not going to lie, I kind of did. I actually really didn’t want to go until Minho stole my phone and said yes.”
“Why didn’t you want to go?”
“I-I don’t know...” you quickly became the shy one. How do you tell him that he has a reputation of being a playboy in a nice way? “I know this was fake and for the lottery and show and everything, but you’re so... experienced in all of this, aren’t you? I’ve never really been on a date before.”
“Ah, so that’s what scared you?” he chuckled. “I suppose I am experienced, as you said, but I wouldn’t pull any moves like that on you. I like you too much to be so boyish like that.”
“Really?”
“Really.”
“I like you, too - even after all of my clothes you’ve stained. And I’m glad Minho took my phone and told you yes to this date.”
“I’m glad he did, too.” Chan’s gentle smile really knew how to pull at your heart strings. “H-Hey, so I wanted to ask... would you like to maybe hang out some time? For real?”
Almost immediately, you said, “Yeah. I’d like that.”
And with a gentle kiss on the back of your hand, he bid you farewell.
“Good night, my love ~” he teased.
Tumblr media
After your lottery date, you and Chan stayed true to your word that you two would hang out some time and it happened a lot more often than you expected. Nearly every chance you two had some free time in between or after classes, your time would be split up between spending it with Minho or spending it with Chan.
“I can’t believe he’s replacing me,” Minho tisked. “After disliking him for so long, you go on one date and suddenly you’re head over heels for him.”
“Ok one, it was not a real date, and two, I’m not falling for him like that!”
“Either way, I made this happen, so you’re welcome.”
You also found yourself listening to the show every time they were on air, and every now and then, Chan would throw in a shout out or dedicate a song to you without explicitly saying it on the radio.
chan [9:43 PM]: hey, are you listening right now? i played this song for you ~
you [9:45 PM]: i practically have a playlist by now after all the songs you’ve played for me lol.
chan [9:45 PM]: i guess you do huh? do you like it so far?
you [9:46 PM]: i like it a lot! i’ve never had one before. have you made playlists for others before?
chan [9:47 PM]: nope. only for you.
you [9:49 PM]: wow, i feel special lol.
chan [9:49 PM]: you are to me.
Small gestures like that and other things like buying more of your favorite flowers, or treating you to late night ice cream, and especially daring to hold your hand when you two were together was making your situation way more difficult than you could ever imagine. He was so sweet and kind and unlike any boy you’ve ever met. You could understand why he was so experienced with dating because how could anyone resist him when he made you feel so special?
You suddenly felt small just thinking about all the rumors you’ve heard.
How could you have found yourself stuck in between so quickly? And what were you to do? Now you were confused and stuck wondering if Chan could ever share the same feelings because people who were just friends wouldn’t be like this with one another, right?
Another Friday night in was spent listening to 3RACHA Radio in your quiet apartment as you attempted to finish small assignments that were due on Monday, but you were so caught up in the show whenever Chan talked that you couldn’t even focus. So instead of bothering with them, you pushed them aside and put your whole attention to the radio.
God, you were whipped.
“Thank you, caller number eight, for that very, um, graphic story,” J.ONE cleared his throat. “And that’s our last caller for tonight, guys.”
“Jeez, already? These days, time seems to get shorter and shorter on the show,” Chan said. “Before we end the night, we’d like to give a happy birthday shout out to our very good friend, Hyunjin! Happy birthday, bro! Can’t wait to celebrate with you tonight at your party.”
Oh, you had no idea it was Hyunjin’s birthday today. Minho had failed to invite you to the party as he always had with the other guys’ birthdays.
After turning off the radio, you called Minho with a sour expression on your face.
“Yo,” he greeted.
“Are you mad at me or something? Or does Hyunjin hate me?”
“What? No, why?”
“Why didn’t you invite me to his party?”
“Oh, that... I didn’t think you wanted to go...?”
“Why would I not want to go out on a Friday night?”
“Ok, you’re more than welcome to come with me, it’s just... Don’t get mad, ok?”
“Spill, Minho!”
“I didn’t want to bring you because Chan said he was taking someone else.”
Oh... Well, did you feel like an idiot, or what?
“So he told you not to invite me?” you asked, voice just above a whisper.
“No, I was the one who didn’t invite you because I didn’t want you to see that.”
“Thanks for trying to protect me, but I think I can handle it,” you said sincerely. It was moments like these that you thanked Minho for being such a good friend. “Can you pick me up on your way there?”
“Yeah. I’ll be over in thirty minutes.”
Now you were angry. At Chan, at yourself, at this entire situation! How could you be foolish enough to fall for Chan’s gestures when he was probably doing the same thing to that other poor soul he was taking to the party?
Or maybe you were just reading too much into this...
Maybe Chan thought of you as just a friend - a friend he bought flowers for, a friend he held hands with, a friend he’d pepper kisses on the top of you head - you know, just friend things, right? He probably saw all of that just another form of platonic affection, and you were just stupid enough to think it meant something more.
Who knew who else he was playing this game with? Either way, maybe two could play at this game. You were going to have fun without him tonight.
When Minho walked in and saw what you were wearing, his eyes went wide and his cheeks tinted pink.
“Whoa, you look... u-uh, good,” he stuttered. “You trying to rile someone up tonight?”
“Maybe. Hey, can I ask you a favor tonight?”
“Sure. I kind of owe you one after not inviting you, anyways.”
“Can I use you to get back at him?”
“What!?” he shrieked. “You’re going to drag me into this!?”
“Please ~? I won’t do anything gross like kiss you or anything, just like, dance with you or stick by you most of the time.”
“... Fine, just... yeah, don’t kiss me. You can get really kissy when you drink.”
Minho could tell simply by the way you walked to the party that you were here to play a serious game. But all of your unwavering confidence flew out the door when you walked in. The place was packed like sardines with drunk friends and strangers who were either dancing, making out, or anything in between.
And even in such a crowded place like this, you immediately spotted Chan talking and smiling with some girl who was holding his hand.
Before you could feel any more miserable, Minho boyishly wrapped his arm around you and dragged you to the kitchen where all the alcohol was.
“I need a shot or four,” you told your best friend.
“Pace yourself tonight, ok? Knowing you, you’ll do something stupid if you don’t.”
It was bottoms up for the next several minutes for you, to which you definitely did not heed Minho’s advice. You can’t remember how many you’ve taken, but by the looks on your friend’s face, it can’t be a low number.
The alcohol helps you forget why you even wanted to go to Hyunjin’s birthday in the first place. You spend a good hour mingling with yours and Minho’s mutual friends and you were finally given the pleasure to meet all of the boys whom you’ve heard so much about.
“Oh, they’re all so handsome ~!” you gushed, cheeks glowing pinker by the minute.
“I like them. You should bring them around more often,” a flirty Jisung said as he side-hugged you.
“Alright alright, shoo!” Minho said, slapping his arms off of you. He pulled you in close to whisper in your ear. “Hey, he’s looking at you.”
“Hm?”
You looked across the room to where Minho was gesturing at and had a hard time focusing on Chan’s shocked expression that soon melted into something you could have mistook for hurt. You were much too intoxicated to read into it nor did you care that he was completely ignoring the girl he came with just to look at you. Regardless, you didn’t like the attention you were feeding him, as he didn’t need it from you, anyways.
You needed to get out of there.
“Let’s dance,” you said, dragging Minho to the dance floor.
“Oh, good call.”
Dancing with Minho the way everyone else in the room was dancing was too raunchy for your immature souls, so you opted for a more innocent position. You had your hands wrapped around his neck and he rested his on your hips and enjoyed the music that deafened your ears.
“He followed us,” Minho yelled over the music. “He’s behind you. I guess this is a good sign?”
“Eh, who gives a fuck anymore,” you pouted sourly. “He can go take her home for all I care.”
“Don’t say that, I know you care.”
“Of course I do... But what can I do? He asked her to come tonight, not me. Besides, why does it matter when I have you, anyways ~”
“You’re gross, don’t say that, either!”
As you danced with Minho in the middle of the dance floor, you both were too drunk and too into each other to notice Chan’s piercing gaze. If you had danced on Minho just like every other person in this room was doing to their partner, maybe Chan wouldn’t have felt so... angry. But no, he saw you throwing your head back while laughing, playing with his hair, and hold him closely in a tight hug.
And for Chan, that was the worst part about seeing you with Minho - it was knowing that Minho was someone so special to you and you shared this intimate moment with him right in front of Chan who couldn’t even dream of being in Minho’s position.
But he couldn’t blame you. How could he when he brought the girl he was dancing with instead? He brought this upon himself, all because he feared that he was committing to you too quickly. But it’s not like you two were even official or exclusive or anything, right? So it’s not like he was wrong for bringing someone else...
But now seeing that Minho was the one who got to laugh with you and hold you close and not Chan, he couldn’t help but feel angry, as he saw the tables turn before him.
Towards the end of the night, neither you nor Minho were seen still at the party, and Chan can only assume from there where you two had gone off. Probably back to your place, since he’s heard so many stories of Minho practically living there, anyways...
But maybe you didn’t take him home, as your mutual friend came running up to Chan and his girl out of breath and a little frantic.
“Hey, have you seen _____?”
“No, why? Are they ok?” he asked, though wishing he didn’t sound like he cared so much.
“They wanted to get some fresh air a couple of minutes ago and now I can’t find them and they’re not answering their phone. They can get a little wander-y when they drinks, so they could have gone or ended up literally anywhere...”
“I’ll help you,” he said immediately. Chan left his date behind and now he was out the door running in all directions to look for you.
Thirty minutes were spent running around the neighborhood and campus calling your name while calling your phone. It was still ringing on Chan’s end, so you hadn’t turned it off or ran out of battery yet, but you still wouldn’t answer. After nearly an hour of searching, and almost giving up, Chan could hear the faint ring of your phone off in the distance.
“_____?” he called out, but no one answer.
As he ran towards the sound of your phone ringing, he could feel his nervousness rising just thinking about seeing you face-to-face again after tonight’s events. How was he supposed to face you? Would you even want to see him again after tonight?
On an empty sidewalk on one of the campus’s main streets, there you were walking back towards the party. You must have been so tired by the way you dragged your feet on the floor. For a minute, Chan just followed you and watched you, noticing just from your body language that you were upset and he wondered if it was all because of him.
Chan called your phone one more time. He watched you look at the caller idea, sigh deeply, and shove the phone back in your pocket.
“My love, please pick up your phone ~,” Chan said loud enough for you to hear.
Your feet froze to the concrete and you didn’t even bother turning around to look at him. Not when your face was all red and a bit puffy.
Before you could walk away again, Chan ran up in front of you.
“Hey,” he said softly. By the look he was giving you, you about thought how you must have looked so pathetic after crying. “What’s wrong...?”
“Nothing,” you replied curtly. “What are you doing here?”
“I was looking for you. Minho said you ran off, so I got worried and -”
“Well, I’m fine. You can go back now.” When you tried to walk around Chan, he grabbed your hand and pulled you back to him. “What?”
“Why are you running away from me? Is it because of that girl I brought?”
“I don’t care what you do or who you do on your free time. It’s none of my business.”
“_____, please, it’s not what you think.”
“I really liked you,” you admitted. God, how many drinks did you have for you to admit that so easily? You saw Chan’s face twist in surprise. “I didn’t want to because I knew something like this was going to happen. Why did you do all those things for me if you didn’t like me, too?”
“But I do. I like you so, so much.”
You searched for any sign of insincerity as he confessed to you, but you couldn’t find any, so what were you supposed to believe?
“Then who was she?” you asked, although you’re not sure if you want to hear the answer.
“She’s just someone I brought to the party.”
“Do you like her, too?”
“No, I don’t!”
“So all the touching and dancing with her meant nothing to you?”
“Yes, it meant nothing to me. What about you and Minho?” he accused.
“Whoa, Minho’s my best friend!”
“Best friends don’t look at each other like that.”
All of this arguing was just running in circles and if you weren’t the one blaming him for your hurt feelings, then he’d blame his own on you and Minho. It was going nowhere, and it was already 3:00am, so maybe you should save all this fighting for another time.
“Just leave me alone,” you muttered, walking away from Chan once more.
“_____, wait.”
But he didn’t chase after you. He was tired, too.
“Fuck.”
Tumblr media
“Good evening, friends,” Chan greeted in his mic. “It’s ya boy CB alone on the mic tonight as J.ONE and SPEARB have finals to study for. Tonight I will not be answering any phone calls as I am not so much in the mood to do so. I mean this in the nicest way possible. It’s not because of you guys, it’s never because of you guys, it’s just one of those days, you know?”
A couple of weeks after the party, you had successfully avoided Chan and his many phone calls. Every time, you were closer and closer to just caving in and picking up the phone, but you never did. Lately, the calls had lessened by the day, and you’d think the pain in your chest would subside with it, but it only strengthened and you didn’t know how much longer you could keep up the facade. You also thought a good way to cope with your feelings was to listen to Chan on the radio, but boy, were you completely wrong.
You felt like you could fall for him all over again.
“Today has been one of those days where there’s only one thing I could think about. Well, in my case, it was one person I could only think about...” Your heart leaped in your chest at his words. “You know those kinds of days, right? Where you think about them all day and you get really happy inside just thinking about their smile, or their laugh, or even remembering something as stupid as staining their shirt with black sesame ice cream one time?”
Was he describing your first date?
“Yeah, tonight is one of those nights. Actually, it’s been every night for me lately. That’s right, guys, your boy CB has been bit by some stupid love bug. And what sucks the most is that I miss them dearly...”
And you missed him dearly, too.
“I miss them so much that I made them a playlist. Throughout the past couple of months, I’ve played and dedicated one song every show to this person, and now I put them and some more songs all together into one stupid playlist, which I will play tonight. This is for you, _____. I hope you’re listening, and know that I miss you.”
You remembered every song except the last couple on the playlist before he even pressed play. You wrote each of them down every time he texted you that he dedicated it to you in hopes that one day you’d actually make the playlist for yourself, but now he did it for you and you couldn’t stop your heart from bursting.
“Ah, after I said I wouldn’t take any calls, you guys still light up the lines, huh? I’m in a good mood after my confession, so I guess I can answer one ~ Caller number nine, what’s up?”
“Oh, my God, this is so cute!” A voice gushed over the phone. “How is _____? Are you two a thing?”
Chan sighed deeply. “That’s a tough question to answer, my love. I’m not too sure how they’re doing. But I hope they’re doing better than I am.”
For the rest of the evening, you listened to Chan’s solo show that consisted of only your playlist songs and long talks to callers about relationship advice. He got so caught up with his callers and the show that it went on for an extra hour longer, though you wished it went on even longer. You could never get tired of hearing his voice.
“Alright guys, no more calls this time, I mean it. I can’t believe I extended a whole hour with you all. It felt like ten minutes! Thank you all for the kind words and I hope mine help you, too, even just a little. I have some matters to attend to tonight, so this is CB telling you all good night and to stay safe always. This is 3RACHA Radio, signing off.”
After turning off your radio, you contemplated and paced around your room with your phone on the table for almost an hour on whether you should call Chan or not. Well, to be honest, it was more like you had already decided you wanted to call him, but what would you say? You felt so stupid being so mad at him from the party when you didn’t even let him explain, and who knows if he’d even want to see you anymore -
A knock came at your door and interrupted your thoughts. It was probably Minho wanting to eat after studying.
But when you opened your door, you didn’t expect to see a bashful Chan hiding the same bouquet of flowers behind his back.
“Hey,” he greeted shyly.
“Hi,” you said back, unable to hide your growing smile. You couldn’t be more happy to see him. “Come in.”
“Thanks."
It was an awkward couple of minutes because you two haven’t spoken or seen each other since that night. After handing you the flowers, Chan watched you eagerly put them in a vase with water and thought how you must have been happy to see him if you were smiling this much.
“Did you listen to the show tonight?” he asked.
“I did. You made me a playlist?”
“I finished your playlist,” he corrected. “Do you like it?”
“I love it. Can I have it?”
“Y-Yeah, here,” he handed you a usb drive and you immediately plugged it into your laptop and pressed play, wanting to listen to the whole thing all over again.
“_____, I really like you,” Chan said, not wasting any time. “I like you so much.”
Immediately, you replied, “I like you, too.”
“Really? Do you forgive me?”
“Of course I do, I just... I was scared, you know? How was I supposed to compete with someone like her? Or anyone else?”
“There’s no competition if you already won,” he chuckled, wrapping his arms around you. He planted a kiss on your forehead, a feeling that you’ve missed so dearly.
“Mm, I missed you.”
“I missed you more. Always more.”
“Are you staying?” you asked.
“If you’ll have me.”
“Of course I will. Let me make fun of you for the song choices.”
“Ok, but don’t get too mean, I’m sensitive.”
2K notes · View notes
starryseo · 5 years
Text
heart eyes. | seo changbin
Tumblr media
this gif is perfect!!
pairing ↠ changbin x gender neutral!reader
genre ↠ just fluff!!
wc ↠ 1533
summary ↠ chan is a terrible wingman.
warnings ↠ a biiit of swearing. like one word.
hi, i saw that your requests are open and i just found your blog but i love your writing so much already! i was wondering if i could have a scenario with changbin? where you are bff w/ chan and are 4 years older than changbin and also a few inches taller than him but have a crush on him. you don't do anything about your crush but chan knows about it and wants you two to get together. you can decide how you want it to end! thank you!
a/n ↠ thank you so much!!! + im sorry i know you said scenario but this is gonna be a bulleted scenario bc paragraphs take long for me and i dont want you waiting forever for this rip
hope you like it anyways tho!!!!
Tumblr media
okay so!!
you’re a songwriter at jyp and you’ve worked with a lot of different groups in there, getting to know the trainees and debuted groups
when you’re not working with debuted groups, you’re helping out some of the trainees
some of them have told you how much they look up to you since you’re young but you’ve gotten so far in life, writing lyrics and melodies for one of the top 3
and they’re always asking you for tips and ideas and if you can read over some of the lyrics theyve written
and theyre always asking for your opinion on whether the melody goes with the lyrics theyve written
and you love how inspired and determind they are bc it’s hard being a trainee, going to school AND writing lyrics/ composing on the side
mad respect to all those out there
you’ve worked with a lot of trainees, but when jyp himself asked you to work w a kiddo named chan you were really excited!!!
ok hes not really a kiddo, he was a year younger than yourself but!! who cares!!!
you two hit it off really quickly, being vvv good friends in a short amount of time
some other trainees had suggested you listen to some soundcloud group 3racha and you really liked them!!!
and now!! you’re working with one of them!!!
jyp knew that chan was rly good at song writing and composing, and it was getting closer to the survival show time, so he asked you to help chan out
guiding him on how to write a Hit Song
so you worked closely with him before the show had started airing, running through the tips you had learnt through your years of writing
and you ran through different concepts and ideas he wanted to express through his music and songs
after a month of constant-coffee-meet-ups and late night freestyles you two had gotten vv close
practically inseparable, even tho you both were v busy, you w composing and him with his group
there rly was never a dull moment between you two and you rly liked having a proper friend that you could trust and vent to if need be
the day he introduced you to his group was wild!!!
he invited you out to a restaurant after the hellevator mv dropped
when you got there, he was standing at the entrance and he was like “:00 you came!!! took you long enough!!”
“i wasnt gonna miss out on free food now was i??”
he took you inside, saying he’d already gotten the table
and when you got there youre like
“,,,, why are there a bunch of boys at our table ://”
“theyre my group members!!!!”
:000!!!
they were quiet at first but when chan introduced you they all burst into cheers
it was just chaos like “hi!!!!!!!” / “hellooooooo!!!” / “omg!!!!!” / “thank you for helping w the mv!!!!” / “wow we finally get to see yn!!!!!!”
and youre just like ,,,,, what do i even reply to,,
so you say hi etc, introduce yourself and then take a seat next to chan
even tho you had known chan for a long time, you rly had only worked w him
like, he would always come to your office to work on stuff or you’d meet in public places, but it was only ever the two of you
so you were happy you finally got to meet the others!!
it was rly fun meeting all of them, they were so lively!!!
they were asking all sorts of questions abt you, your job, interests etc and they were rly thankful that you helped chan bc he imparted his knowledge + help onto them
and chan was like “yeah thanks for all your help!! this is all stressful so it was vv helpful that you guided me on how to do this stuff!!”
but as soon as the food came? they were silent
like seriously, there was barely any chatter
only small grumbles from jisung when seungmin stole his food
you had spoken to changbin a lot throughout the night
he was sitting next to you and you were internally Combusting bc
oh man you were sitting in between 2/3 of 3racha and you had to admit
changbin was probs your fave outta the 3 of them
man,, you really loved his tone of voice and how he could change it so easily within a song, and it would still flow so!! well!!!
you loved listening to him rapping sm and chan most definitely knew abt that
whenever he brought over lines/ ideas that he and the guys had written, you’d be like Wow i really love this part, it flows rly well w the melody
chan: “ah really? guess who wrote that!”
“,?? you?”
“changbin ;))))”
“whats with that face :/”
“ ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) what ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)  face”
“t h a t  f a c e”
“youre the one that goes all Heart Eyes when i mention changbin n yet im making a weird face??? k then”
“PPPPFT shut up lets work idk what youre talking abt”
and he dropped the subject but that stupid smirk never left his face :(((
when you finished your food, chan who obvs had already inhaled his food just started nudging you like
“( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) nows ur chance”
“i can finally kill u?? :D”
“:( no wtf why would u wanna do that?”
“wait i have a list-”
“BRO </3 i meant nows ur chance to woo changbin ;^))))”
“to do what now”
“to KiSs KiSs FaLl In LoVe with bInNiE!!”
“omg youre embarassing how are You the leader??”
and he just kept that up the Whole Night
honestly youre surprised none of the other guys realised what he was doing bc he just kept smirking and nudging you whenever changbin so much as sipped his water and you would straight up Elbow Him
but then he was like “hey changbin :)”
and internally you were just like Oh Great here comes the Fuckening
and the dude literally Exposed you there
and you were just like ?? i just mET youre group and youre already telling them my life story???
Chan basically told changbin abt how much you rly liked his lyrics and you were just like
:))) I :)) Hate :))))) You :)))) ByungChan
and like there was no way for you to even defend yourself bc chan was making you out to be some crazy fan like “oh man yn wouldnt sTOP talking abt this one line you wrote in IF and it was like 4am like bro i already dont sleep and they kept me up”
minho the Jerk was like !!! theyre blushing aww!!!
Cue you going even more red like Bang Chan youre a dead man :)
And changbin was just rly ? bashful ? he was surprisingly mature abt this and he just kept his reply rly simple like “ah really? thanks, that means a lot, esp coming from such an amazing writer like yourself!”
and you felt like Dying bc
were you that weird in his eyes that he couldnt even joke abt this now?? like did he just find you Super Creepy he just went all Awkward + Formal on you???
nAH HE WAS INTERNALLY SCREAMING BUt unfortunately you didnt know that bc he was holding it in so. well.
the major TBH is that chan was so trying to set you up
like,,, look at the seating arrangement man, he HAD to put you two together bc
you wouldnt stop talking abt how much you loved changbin’s skills
and omg changbin was even worse
as soon as he found out chan was working with you he was Begging to join too!!
he was like!!!! i need help!! so much help pLS LET ME WORK WITH THEM P L S
and chan just to tease the both of you prolonged this out for so. long. bc Hes the Devil
honestly he was so close to bursting into laughter when changbin gave you such a formal reply bc hE KNEW he was going crazy inside like
he always talked abt how cool you were with all the songs you wrote, he loved how you were so emotive and creative with your words, you really inspired him
and his bEST FRIEND was woRKING WITH YOU and NOT giving him your phONE NUMBER chan is the ult snake
chan basically confirmed everything when he asked you who your fave in 3racha was and you said that chan was
bc like lmfao s u r e it was
and then when chan told changbin your fave was jisung he looked the tiniest bit Sad which basically just confirmed everything in chan’s mind
and he felT BAD THAT he straight up lied to changbin bUT
he did that like the day before he was gonna introduce you two
so he had already planned to expose you and see changbin blush like Crazy
Unfortunately only you were blushing but,,, he Knew
and when he saw you and changbin trailing behind the group after dessert, phones out to exchange details, he Knew ;^))) 
Tumblr media
i rly didnt know where i was going with this and then i just button smashed this lmfao also sorry i didnt mention the height thing?? i didnt know if you wanted that to be an important plot point but i like the openness of this lmao sorry i’ll make up for it one day hopefully. i hope u like it anyway ++ im so so sry its so late!!!
133 notes · View notes
linos-teeth · 5 years
Note
1-10 for minho 11-20 for jisung
there is a cut because. evidently this got long and by long i mean LONG
MINHO
1. the moment you realized they are your bias
Tumblr media
on the 9th of february, roughly a month after you
2. are they your ultimate bias?
uH YEAH?? Y E A H
3. have there been others before them?
i mean!! i like calling chan my first bias bc he was pretty much the only one i cared abt for like 3 months also bc i like thinking i actually have the power to change my mind but since he’s still part of my bias line i guess that’s kinda not right anyway
4. who threatens their title? who is your bias wrecker?
bitch nah a lee minho is never threatened he is too Powerful theoretically it’s changbin but…….he gon try till he dies which hopefully won’t be for many decades so
5. first impression of them
uhhh…like…after 6 months of you yelling when i finally realised he existed and was not seungmin i thought he was weird?? prolly? like…a fun weird also a hoe
6. the sweetest thing they have done
there are a few things but the first thing i remember is the time he replied to someone on twitter crying abt him not being there in english iDK IT STUCK WITH ME OK
7. a moment that made you cry
uh……………pretty much everything from the last three finding skz episodes? and the elimination ofc, and him singing with minnie in the 2kr outtakes, him introducing himself in english on asc with the bubble thing? that’s what i can name the rest is just like…random
8. something they did that made you laugh
uh. exist? every weird thing he does at fansigns mainly, the way he reacted to ppl not knowing he has 3 cats (i was guilty sorry lino), a lot of things tbh
9. favorite appearance on a show
idk what counts besides finding skz but like……boy was g r e a t in it from start to finish aka i almost literally ended up with heart failure so i aint complaining
10. favorite performance
uhhh do i….have to choose??? i mean i obviously have a softass spot for that solo dance he did but he just gotta exist on stage and i’ll die from his intense presence so. yeah
JISUNG
11. pick 3 favorite looks they wore
yeah no i aint picking three there’s: the finding skz trailer one, the jean shorts one from the miroh pictures, the youtuber finding skz ep one, this mainly bc of the hair, obviously this, MY FAVORITE BUCKET HAT!!!, this, the d9 mv outfit/hair, the bandana stage, this and i’ll stop here before i make a 2 days long list
12. pick 3 things you like the most about them
haha wHAT IM SUPPOSED TO PICK FUCKING THREE WHO DO YOU THINK I AM????? i love. his smilelaugh like anything that has him show these beautiful ass teeth tbh?? generally his facial expressions they are gold they are platinum they are life. hIS VOICE TOO LIKE THE WAY HE PLAYS WITH IT RAPPING OR NOT HIS STORYTELLER VOICES AND HIS SOFT TM SOLO VLIVE VOICE!!! F U C K!!!!!!!! ALSO HIS SINGING VOICE OBVIOUSLY WTF JISUNG also him dancing!!! i love him dancing esp when it’s not choreographed and he’s just fucking around also idk!!! he’s so confident but he’s still so humble and like a lil shy when it’s serious and this esp considering he was like a self obsessed bitch this is??? a lot?? ok is this 3 this is probably more but that’s ok i’m done
13. something you have in common with them
uhhh…idk? i can’t compare rip i’m creative but not nearly as much and i’m funny sometimes but jisung??? nah oH WAIT!! we both love lino with all our heart that’s the one thing aaaand we’re the same height
14. something that reminds you of them
funny quotes and memes, bucket hats (now listen i know they all wear them sometimes but he just pulls them off so well), squirrels and hamsters, the sun/sunshine/good weather
15. who do you like to see them interactive with the most?
u h is that. a question. oBVIOUSLY MY NUMBER ONE BOY but i also love me some 3racha interactions and i appreciate the hyunsung friendship a lot now that i know the backstory
16. if you had the opportunity to tell them something what would it be?
i mean…….thank you?? mainly? for keeping going and not giving up? and that i’m so proud of him bc he’s come so far personality and skill wise and that he’s such an incredible human being so smart and funny and caring and just…all around good and that he doesn’t need to worry and THAT HE’S ALWAYS HANDSOME AND NEVER UGLY DO YOU HEAR ME YOU FUCK NEVER SAY THAT EVER AGAIN (but also do bc it’s relatable and you’re relatable and that’s rly neat) oh and also that he basically has the best voice ever nbd
17. what gift would you give them?
uhh…a hug??? fifty hugs???? a bedtime story every day for the rest of his life??? i’d pay to do that i know that’s not a gift but yeah. maybe more rings i feel a bit like his second mum anyway
18. have you ever seen them perform live before?
dude i wish
19. a concept you would like to see them do (again)
uHHH i liked whatever miroh was!! i wouldn’t mind seeing more of that and i mean…ever since the finding skz trailer we know this boy gotta look like a prince more often so………y e a h
20. do you have a mutual who shares the same bias?
@agelessice and @stray-kids-stuff both love jisung too hello my comrades in suffering ily!!
3 notes · View notes
Text
Insomnia // Hwang Hyunjin [bulleted scenario!]
Summary: In which you and Hyunjin are both too oblivious to realize your true feelings... until it’s too late? 
Genre: angsty, floooof, gender neutral 
Word Count: 2175
Warnings: Just some cursing 
A/N: This is my first time writing a bulleted scenario and i quite enjoyed it :) idk it’s fun to not care about settings too much and punctuation and stuff. I also liked adding my own little dumb remarks here are there :PP it was fuN! This was another scenario that kinda arose while i was napping i hope you guys enjoy it! <3 i love stray kids 
i’m also gonna try to make all my scenarios gender neutral from now on (unless specifically requested) b/c we are all about inclusivity here !! :)
Tumblr media
This was originally gonna be like a real fic
But the writers block was REAL like i really tried to set the scene and everything
But it didn’t turn out right
And i really wanted to get this one out so HERE WE ARE TRYING THE BULLETED SCENARIO OKAY YAY LETS BEGIN!
Trainee au!! Kinda :D
Like skz didnt go through the survival show yet
Ok so SEtting thE SCeNe~~~~
You just walked into the jyp building bc jyp hired you as a new producer
Like to study under him and potentially help w producing in the future
Like jyp 2.0 ya know
Jyp meets w you himself bc you’re like a prodigy
And a foreigner so he thought you’d be more comfortable w him speaking toyou in english :D
So he explained what you gotta do during your training period
Like studying more about composition and production
Learning korean to more easily communicate w idols and what not
And also honing your own style and figuring out who you are as an artist
So he pairs you up w the trainees bc it be good practice
More specifically skz bc they seem to have a more flexible style
Also like he thought it would be good for you to work w chan and the rest of 3racha
Like bc yall around the same age
And it helps you become more comfy
And familiar w the company and the producing rooms and recording studios and what no
Like
Yer
And then like
Through working w them to produce a song for the trainee showcase
Yall get mad close
And like
You have your eyes on hyunjin from the start
Like bc who couldn’t
Like
Gorgeous boy
At first you were just like “this is admiration”
“He very handsome i just admire his features”
Yeah
And maybe it was..
At first
Now it's a full blown crush
Like
For real
That boy is so hard working
Like you constantly see him asking for help
So he can improve
And like
People always said he was a visual only
Which made you feel bad that you saw that at first 
But you realized later
That like
You actually like him bc of his personality
What a hard worker 
For real
Angel
Anyways
Little did you know that your crush was NOT one sided
Hyunjin admired your hard work in producing
And how you always took criticism well and only worked to improve your work
Also
He thought you were hella cute
So yall were both kinda obvious
Him more than you
Like by a loT
So skz knew for a fact that hyunjin was head over heels in love w you so they pushed him to confess to you
Yeah he was like no
But after PEEr pRessUre
He finally agreed
They was gonna plan something like a party for you
To celebrate the time you’ve been w the company
But the showcase came before the celebration and suddenly they were on a survival show to see who would debut
So the party was postponed OOOODDDDD
But you didnt even know it was gonna happen so you didnt mind anyways
Soon enough it got closer to your birthday, and skz just decided to make it a birthday celebration instead
Hyunjin was more iffy about confessing bc what if you dont feel the same and he ruins your bday oh no
But at this point, skz was sure you liked him back so they were like dont worry about that they aren’t like that your relationship will be fine
So the party happens ladida
You were super surprised and sosososososo happy
Bc like
Your hart
These boys were precious and totally made your day
Tbh bc of your work
You almost forgot it was your birthday
After the crazy loud party, you wanted to like take some quiet time for yourself so you excused yourself
And then walked to the hallway and sat by the window and looked out at the city and the night sky
Beautiful
And suddenly you heard footsteps
It was this boy named jason who you were friends with
He was from the same town you were from so you got close p quickly when you first got to jyp
And jason had a not-so-secret crush on you
That ofc you were oblivious to
But he came over there to spend time w you and wish you happy bday
Little did you know
Hyunijn was mentally preparing himself to confess to you down the hall and around the corner w a pretty bouquet of flowers what a sweet boy
And when he finally works up the courage, he turns the corner and sees jason giving you a bday hug 
And he cant help but feel his hart drop
Yall look good together and like you were from the same town so similarities
So he was heartbroken needless to say
 He quickly turned around and walked away
But you heard the footsteps and saw just a glance of his outfit retreating
You excused yourself from jason’s company and ran after him bc you are so in love w this boy
You were gonna hug him and thank him, but when you approached he took a step back
Like ow
That hurt
He quickly stammered that he had to go home bc he was tired and left
He was hiding the flowers behind his back :’(
And then tossed them as soon as he left the building
He went for a long ass walk to clear his mind and soothe his aching heart
You were so worried
Was he okay?
You went home soon after bc you couldnt help but worry and that made you super tired
But you couldn't sleep
InsOMniA
Goddamn it hyunjin
You messaged him
“you’re prob sleeping but i hope you feel better”
Dry ass reply: “thx”
Like wow
Rude
But you let it go
jic he was actually really exhausted
You knew he took criticism from the show too so maybe it was that
Hopefully he’d talk to you about it bc he usually did
But he didn't
He avoided you
Your heart really couldnt take it
Meanwhile you and jason got closer bc you didnt have hyunjin to hang out w anymore
Despite your many efforts
And this just further fuels his belief that yall are together
So to ignore the tinge in his heart every time he saw you, he buried himself in practice
Didn't sleep
Didnt drink enough water
Didnt eat enough
He was getting dangerously skinny and unhealthy
And it affected his attitude
Not only to you but to his members
One day you were asked to come in and monitor a recording session
And he was happy and giggly in front of the camera
But as soon as it turned off u could see the fatigue
And you told him that he should take better care of himself
And he SNAPPEd at you
 You actually flinched bc he was so aggressive
Your heart SHATTEREd
And you, also sleep deprived as FUCk
Slapped him
Not super hard, but like a “what the fuck is wrong with you”
And you walked right out, not even bothering to hide your tears
And he was sad but he thought that you hating him would help him get over you
What a dumb boy
You completely avoided him after that
You also still had restless nights 
God that convo kept playing over and over in your head
YOU COULDNT SLEEP
But one day you got a call from chan
He needed your help
Hyunjin was seriously overworking himself and he was afraid hyunjin was gonna collapse
Luckily you were still at the company working on smth bc ofc you couldn't sleep anyways so might as well make use of your time
So you finally agree bc even if you’re still angry at him, you are srsly worried about this boy
And when you get to the dance room your heart breaks all over again
Hes so pale
And sickly looking
And hes shaking but hes still dancing
You knock and hear a gruff “its open”
The music pauses for a moment but when he sees its you he scoffs and turns it back on
“what do you want”
“Uhm.. are you okay?”
“Why? You wanna slap me again to make me feel better?”
Ofc you rolled your eyes bc wtf hyunjin you were being nice
“I dont even know why i bothered”
You go over to the stereo and turn it off yourself
And he turns to you angry
ARGUMENT TIME
Him: “WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?”
“MY PROBLEM?!!!?!?? YOU’RE THE ONE WHO PUSHED ME AWAY FOR NO DAMN REASON!! AND EVEN AFTER ALL THAT, I STILL TRIED TO BE NICE AND ASK IF YOU WERE OKAY. I WAITED FOR YOU TO OPEN UP TO ME. TO TALK TO ME ABOUT WHATEVER WAS BOTHERING YOU!”
At this point, you’re practically sobbing like udk if he can understand you but who cares
All this frustration that was pent up inside felt good being released
Bc at this point, you had nothing more to lose
Hyunjin already hated you so like why not just speak your mind amirite
 Anyways continuing w the dialogue:
“HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT MY PROBLEM WHEN MY PROBLEM IS YOU!”
Cue awkward pause/break thing (AWKwARD SiLEncE)
“What are you talking about hyunjin?”
He sighed defeatedly
It was now or never. He felt like his relationship w you was ruined already anyways
So he, like you, also had a ‘what do i have to lose’ mentality
“I was going to confess to you y/n. That night at your birthday party. But i was too late. I saw you with jason and you looked so happy and perfect together.  So i left. I cut my ties with you because i didn’t want my own feelings to get in the way of your happiness.”
You were completely utterly speechless
Like there were an overwhelming number of feelings enveloping you atm
Bc on the one hand:
The love of your life just confessed to you
But on the other
Like
What a dumbass
You end up laughing and scoffing at his words bc
Hes so dumb
You dont like jason
God you’ve been in love w hyunjin for so goddamn long
And now you’re debating over how to respond
But like your anger and frustration kinda takes precedence bc youre also sleep deprived and you go
“ so, you broke your own heart and then you broke mine because you didn’t want to talk to me about it you dumbass ????”
And he gives you that classic confused puppy-dog look
W the head tilt and everything
And you go
“Hwang hyunjin, i’m fucking in love with you”
And he just stares blankly at you and blinks like 8 times trying to comprehend what just came out of your mouth
And his lips form an ‘o’ shape
And then hes coming closer and wrapping his arms around you
And you dont even mind that hes still sweaty and kinda smelly
Bc hes finally in your arms
But holding him so close also makes you super aware of just how skinny he’s gotten
Like it was worse than you thought
So you pull back and you open your mouth to chastise him
But before you can even start he’s cupping your cheeks can pulling your face to his
Your lips collide and then they're molding into one another
And your mind kinda blanks out
But your automatic reaction seems to be letting your fingers run through his hair and pulling him closer towards you
And when yall finally come up for breath
He tries to go in for another one like immediately after
Like slow your roll boy you guys can kiss all you want later
If you said that out loud, he wouldve responded w something like “we gotta make up for lost time”
But you put your hands on his chest and hold him back
And he pouts
(you almost squeal at how cute he looks)
“Ok, now that we’re dating, i am literally commanding you to take better care of yourself because this,” you eye him up and down, “is unacceptable”
And he quirks an eyebrow up and is like
Oh? I don’t recall asking you out? On a date?”
And you get all blushing and become a blubbering mess and hide your face in his chest like
“Shut up hyunjin”
But he’s just giggling at your embarrassed face :D
Then, him being the dramatic hoe that he is, he gets down on one knee in front of you and says
“y/n, y/l/n, will you go out on a date with me?”
And ofc u say yes
And after that whole dramatic scene, you pull him out of the practice room, fingers intertwined, ready to stuff him with food
And he goes
“I dont think i said it back.”
“Said what back?”
“That i love you”
UWU
And the rest is history
121 notes · View notes
straykidsupdate · 4 years
Text
STRAY KIDS INSPIRE THEIR GENERATION TO PICK UP THE MIC
K-POP’S YOUNG DISRUPTORS NAVIGATE ADULTHOOD ALONGSIDE THEIR FANS
Stray Kids are fighting with their fans to determine who adores the other most. The fans started it, erupting into an impromptu chant inside Microsoft Theater in downtown Los Angeles: "We love you! We love you!," they shout, repeatedly. The sound is deafening, catching the boy band off guard. The eight members retaliate with their own impassioned chorus. "We love Stay," they respond, referencing their legions of international devotees. Both sides scream until, ultimately, Stray Kids admit defeat; they stand awkwardly onstage, apparently unsure how to receive the unrivaled adulation. Bang Chan, the Korean group's steadfast leader, looks around the venue in awe, while sensible vocalist Seungmin makes a heart with his hands and points to the crowd, resolved to have the last word.
This is not the first time Stray Kids has lost the battle of who-loves-who. It’s happened in cities across the United States, from New York to Dallas, amidst their District 9: Unlock world tour. It's canon, chiseled into the group's short but colorful history, alongside such viral moments as "Seungmin in the building" and "I'm not gonna leave you behind." Displays of affection between idols and fans are nothing new but, with Stray Kids, they’re never forced.
"It doesn't matter how old you are," Bang Chan tells the crowd mid-show, intensity building with every word. "It doesn't matter if you're a boy or a girl, or whoever you choose to be. It doesn't matter where you're from — everyone is welcome in our special district."
Two weeks prior to this performance, Stray Kids — Bang Chan, Lee Know, Changbin, Hyunjin, Han, Felix, Seungmin, and I.N — are gazing from a conference room in a Times Square skyscraper. The sky is gray, but that doesn't deter Hyunjin from posing for a series of selfies against the floor-to-ceiling window. As the lithe dancer works his angles, his bandmates are scattered throughout the room. Han props his phone against the room’s A/V controls to watch an anime; Bang Chan hunches over his own phone, thumbing the screen intently; Lee Know rests his eyes; and Australia-born Felix gossips about last night's Grammy Awards. Like any teen, he's obsessed with Billie Eilish, and her historic Grammys sweep is hard for him to fathom. "Can you believe it?" he says, eyes wide and sparkling. "She's only 18. It's amazing."
Tumblr media
But at 19, the deep-voiced rapper, whose delicate features betray his cherry-red hair, has similarly found success at a young age. Within a year of their 2018 debut, Stray Kids received 11 rookie awards and released five EPs. In fact, while Eilish and her brother Finneas were crafting homemade beats in a Highland Park bedroom, JYP Entertainment's tenacious boy wonders were honing their own unique sound in a small studio in Seoul, South Korea. Members Bang Chan, Changbin, and Han comprise the group's primary production trio, 3RACHA, and they've been making music together since their trainee days in 2017. Introspective early tracks like "Start Line" and "Runner's High" laid the foundation for Stray Kids' sonic identity: With the disruptive power of punk, they deliver astute, poignant lyrics about the bristly experience of growing up and its side effects.
"The things we worry about and the things Stay worry about — we share a lot of the same struggles," Han tells MTV News. "Even though our ambitions are different, we work hard just the same. It becomes our inspiration musically." As the creative force behind two of the group's more vulnerable cuts, "19" and "Sunshine," the 19-year-old rapper reveals his innermost thoughts and anxieties to the fans. But that honesty can be frightening.
Tumblr media
"It's nerve-racking for us," Bang Chan says. "Sometimes we think, 'If we talk about this, will people understand? Will they relate?' We're always thinking about how we can reach people through our lyrics because we want our music to help."
That empathy has been woven throughout their music from the beginning. Stray Kids’ first singles, the pre-debut track "Hellevator" and the darkly riotous "District 9," are full of angst and aggression, soundtracks for those who balk at societal pressures and follow their own rules. "My Pace" is an empowering anthem teeming with energy and affirmations. ("Don't compare yourself with others," Bang Chan sings on the hook. "It's OK to run slower.") Songs like "Voices" and "Side Effects" offer an intimate glimpse into the tumultuous mind of a young person still figuring out their place in the world, while "Miroh" and "Victory Song" are bursting with big sounds and youthful bravado.
youtube
"Young people today may feel a bit trapped, like you're constantly being told what to do and you feel like you can't speak for yourself," Bang Chan says. "So we want people our age to feel comfortable speaking out and talking about what they think."
By encouraging their fans to examine their own growing pains, to feel everything, they ensure that their message is never didactic. "All strayed steps come together to make a new road," they say at their concert. And with their latest release, "Levanter," off their sixth EP Clé: Levanter, Stray Kids come to the understanding that the journey is more meaningful than the destination, and the path ahead is ultimately theirs to define. So they double knot their shoelaces and dash full-speed ahead. "We might not know what the actual goal is, but as long as we're running hard and we're running as a group, whatever comes is going to be good anyway," Bang Chan says. "We just wish that a lot of people out there could listen to our music and get a lot of energy and hope from it."
Like 25-year-old Selina, who connects to their lyrics because she's "still on that journey of figuring out what I want to do and who I want to be," she says, clutching her Stray Kids light stick (a compass, now featuring Bang Chan's name written on the handle) outside of Microsoft Theater. Her friend Joseline, 18, likes that the members "have other priorities and interests outside of being a K-pop idol" that they reveal through daily Instagram posts, livestreams on the V Live app, TikToks, and weekly YouTube videos and vlogs. "He's not just Han from Stray Kids, he's Han Jisung — rapper, producer, and person," she adds.
Tumblr media
For Kambree, 17, the group has a "positive vibe" that makes her feel happy and accepted. "They make us feel like family, no matter who you are or what you look like," she adds. Her best friend Lexxie, 17, says Stray Kids "make me feel like I'm not alone with my issues." And So Yun, 30, finds their mix of "hard-hitting EDM" and "super angsty" lyrics reminiscent of the emo bands she listened to in high school. "It's the same rebellious spirit that I felt as a teen when you want to be your own person and figure out your own voice."
Their music has given Louis, 30, a newfound perspective. "I like the ['Levanter'] lyric, 'I want to be myself, I don't care' — that line resonates with me because we live in a society where people try to mold you, but at the same time, I just want to myself and at this point, I really don't care!"
Best friends Ella and Jazlynn, both 19, met online through their mutual love of Stray Kids, and they've customized their light sticks with glitters and holographic stickers of their favorite members' names. "Half of the group is technically my age, so I can look at them and see how successful they are, and it gives me inspiration to work harder," Jazlynn says, an I.N banner at her side. And while they do feel comforted by the authenticity in the group's songs, as Ella explains, it's who they are off-stage that many fans connect with most. "When you see Felix do the Renegade, it's like, 'I do that too!'"
Their ability to ignite the stage with powerful performances while staying true to themselves behind the scenes — as both K-pop's reigning meme kings and young men navigating adulthood — is what makes Stray Kids so relatable to a generation that experiences much of their lives online. "This generation is comfortable being alone," Changbin says. "We have our phones. We don't always need to be talking to each other to be together. Sometimes a text is fine."
And they're pretty normal, too. Bang Chan and Changbin watch videos from Tomorrowland and Ultra Music Festival to help clear their minds in the studio; the tracks "Road Not Taken" and "Stop" are the direct results of such self-care. Han's idea of a perfect day would be to "not come out of my room for 24 hours." If he could spend all day watching YouTube videos, he would. In fact, he says "Sunshine" was inspired by a scene in the Korean drama Boys Over Flowers, where the main characters travel to an idyllic private island. Though Han’s larger-than-life presence dominates the stage, he identifies as an introvert and admits he hopes to "overcome" his shyness. "On my ideal perfect day, I'd try new experiences and meet new people comfortably," he says. "You can do it!" Bang Chan adds, encouragingly.
Youngest member I.N makes time to go shopping, though he prefers to "chill" on his days off. And when Felix isn't playing video games or destroying kitchens with Seungmin, he frequents Seoul's finest dog cafes. "We have so many dog lovers in our group," he says, smiling. "I've been looking at a lot of dogs, and I feel like they help you feel better. I really want a dog with the team." Jisung points at Seungmin, whose nickname is "puppy," and Bang Chan adds, "We already have one." Seungmin scrunches his nose and says, "No way!" (But Han insists he's a "really bad boy.")
Meanwhile, Hyunjin, who’s known by fans for his theatrics and commanding stage presence is extremely open with his emotions. He frequents V Live, where he offers personal advice to viewers of his video series Hyunjin’s Counseling Center. But the 19-year-old admits that opening up to Stay has helped him, too. "I don't always have a lot of confidence," he says. “When I want to be comforted or when I’m feeling kind of sad, Stay are really good at consoling me. I want to be able to repay that comfort in full."
"The connection between Stay and Stray Kids would be family," Felix adds. Han jokes that they're the "annoying and mischievous" little brothers. But it's that sense of connection, among the group as well as with their fans, that has cemented Stray Kids as the vital voices of their generation.
Tumblr media
"The struggles we're going through — anxiety, stress, school, love — they tell us to take our time and see where our path leads," Selina says. "It's OK to stray from it. Just stay true to yourself. I always associate that with them. The idea of 'You Make Stray Kids Stay' is to find out what it is that grounds you and just keep going."
And Stray Kids don't plan to slow down any time soon. Having wrapped their Clé series at the end of last year with Levanter, 2020 offers an exciting fresh page for new musical experimentations, starting with the three original unit songs the group produced for the tour. "Wow" is a sexy R&B track from dancers Lee Know, Hyunjin, and Felix. It's also their first explicit love song. "We wanted to try a sexy song because it's a special stage," Hyunjin says, explaining that the dancers worked on their own lyrics in addition to helping with the slinky choreography. "We wanted to include moves that we haven't tried before," Lee Know adds, noting that they wanted something sexy and powerful. "So it was a new experience."
"My Universe," featuring vocalists Seungmin and I.N with an assist from Changbin, is a bright pop ballad. "I always wanted to try something like that," I.N says, eyes smiling. Seungmin tells Changbin from across the table, "Thanks for helping." And 3RACHA's "We Go" oozes confidence over a scorching trap beat. "We made 'We Go' last time we were here [in the United States]," Bang Chan says. "We made around three to four songs in one day… The performance is really fun as well. And those two [he points to Han and Changbin] got to have the chance to use Autotune live."
Tumblr media
They also released their first English singles in January, a process that rapper Changbin, known for his furious flow, calls "difficult." ("It was fun," Hyunjin argues beside him.) "I was listening to Changbin's rap [in 'Double Knot'] like, 'Why is this so fast? What am I going to write?'" Bang Chan says. "I tried to write it as easy as possible so that he could speak it well. I'm really glad that they could record it really well for me."
In March, they'll debut in Japan. And there's another mixtape project in the works, kicked off by the digital release of "Gone Days," a relaxed, Autotune-laced anthem for the "OK Boomer" generation. A play on the Korean word kkondae, it describes someone who pushes outdated ideas and expectations onto another based only on their age and status — and signals the arrival of a bold new direction. "I think [young people] now just need to be more comfortable with themselves," Bang Chan says of his inspiration for the track. "By being yourself, you never know what's going to happen."
"I always believe that one person can change the world," he adds. "So if you have a thought or an idea, just let it out. Because who knows? You can make the world a much better place."
136 notes · View notes