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aftgficlibrary · 3 years

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Hey, I read a fic a while back, and I've forgotten what it's called - it was basically a presentation of the monsters as mental illnesses, and was a very interesting and psychological read. I just remember that Andrew's pov was in the second person?? And neil had DID, and kevin was alcoholic, but it was written gloriously. It was unfinished?? Tysm

is it this? -maz

we destroy everything we need by sparklesbitch (T | Incomplete | 4/?)

“This is a big bad world of wolves, Neil Josten, and you are a rabbit hiding in plain sight. Are you stupid, or do you want to be bitten so badly.” You blink. The intruder is closer. You count the freckles on his nose. His hair is too curly. His eyelashes are too long. “Not gonna lie, that’s also kinda kinky,” he murmurs. “You can bite me all you want, if you’re offering.”

/Graphic Depictions of Violence

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ryden-ficrecs · 7 years

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I Gave Up All I Had (Just To Breathe)

Author: tie19

Word Count: 1,796

Rating: PG-13

Pairing: Ryan/Brendon

Summary: But then he tells himself, if Ryan’s a building, then he’s a beautifully-structured building. And then Brendon would be the foundation, which means he has to be strong, or else, Ryan will break. He doesn’t want Ryan to break.

#ryden fanfic #rating:pg13 #length:<5k #genre:au #theme:selfharm #theme:university #author:tie19

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aftgficlibrary · 3 years

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Recommending a completely chilling fic which gave me goosebumps reading, the prose is decadent and it reads like poetry, and it blew my mind reading it - I swear it gave me complete heartache: "we destroy everything we need" - a masterpiece on the presentation of the minds of the foxes, sadly unfinished but there is so much potential and I cant stop thinking about it!!! 100000% recommend for someone who enjoys darker fics

okay here it is -maz

we destroy everything we need by sparklesbitch (T | Incomplete | 4/?)

“This is a big bad world of wolves, Neil Josten, and you are a rabbit hiding in plain sight. Are you stupid, or do you want to be bitten so badly.” You blink. The intruder is closer. You count the freckles on his nose. His hair is too curly. His eyelashes are too long. “Not gonna lie, that’s also kinda kinky,” he murmurs. “You can bite me all you want, if you’re offering.”

/Graphic Depictions of Violence

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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what is Red Rabbits? i heard that it’s really big in the fandom or something?

here is the link to red rabbits if u would like to check it out! -ari

Red Rabbits by bloodydamnit, Jeni182, SeaBear13, windeavesdrops (M | 292,328 | 25/25)

Part 1 of Red Rabbits Universe

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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Can I rec These Days by nikotheamazingspoonklepto? It’s a what if about if Aaron and Andrew had grown up in foster care together, and it’s *chef’s kiss*

sure! -ari

These Days by Nikotheamazingspoonklepto (M | 21,900 | 1/1)

Identical twin brothers Aaron and Andrew Doe have been in foster care since they can remember. They have each other and as long as they are together, nothing else matters. So every year on their birthday, they remind themselves and each other of this fact.

“Will our birthday always be bad?” Aaron suddenly asks as they get closer to the monitor, scowling at them from the door. Andrew is just surprised Aaron remembers the last few. “I guess we already got what was comin’ to us,” he suggests. “...I guess, but I’ve got you.” Aaron glances at him, a tiny, sincere smile on his lips. Andrew smiles back and nods. “And I’ve got you.”

Series Part 1 of Counting Stars

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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I read a fic a while ago and it was where Andrew tried to propose to Neil but he ended up having a panic attack and breaking up with him. I think it was called “Honey Golden Light” or something? I would appreciate it if you could find it for me.

Here it is! -Beth

Honey Golden Light by Winterlynne_Norvic (Not Rated | 1,496 | 1/1)

Andrew knew he could take it back, he hadn’t meant to say them in the first place but Andrew just met his eyes, molten honey gold deadened in a way Neil had never seen, holding him in barely disguised contempt and disgust.

“I regret ever telling you to stay.”

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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Hey, thanks for all of ur hard work! I’ve been looking for this star wars au for awhile, I know I’ve seen it on here before but I can’t remember the name, I think the author’s name had something to do with ice cream? Thanks sm!

Is it this one?-Beth

Hope Is a Disquieting Thing by Sundaye (M | Incomplete | 23/?)

Abram's father is one of the most powerful beings in the universe and he's spent years searching for his wife and son who stole millions of credits from the Empire and ran. They're two of the most wanted by the Empire for their dangerous insight into Imperial secrets. When a deadly confrontation with his father ends with Abram's mother's life, Abram must find a way to escape alone for the first time in his life.

Meanwhile, smuggler and ex-Imperial laborer Andrew Minyard and his crew have lost an important ally to the Empire and are intent on rescuing him and returning him to the Rebellion.

When the chance comes for Abram to flee Tatooine with Andrew's crew he dons a new alias, Neil, and takes it.

Basically, this is a Star Wars AU.

\ Graphic Depictions of Violence, Rapa/Non-Con

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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Yo can you find an andriel fic(i forgot what it was called) where Neil was like, a guardian angel or something and he's watching Andrew because his life is interesting and Andrew reveals that he can see him but he doesn't know that Neil is an angel. Neil pretends to human and they start to fall for each other but Neil can't stay in the mortal realm or whatever for too long or he'll fade away, and Andrew thinks he's dying, lots of angst, but there's a happy ending(Andrew's like, in high school)

It sounds like this but it isn’t complete?-Beth

a difficult love story (between you and me) by lastromeo (M | Incomplete | 2/?)

Neil is an angel in training just trying to complete his tasks in order to graduate and become a guardian angel.

So why does this human insist on making his job so difficult?

**No knowledge of Angel’s Last Mission Love required.

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aftgficlibrary · 4 years

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hi i just wanted to recommed the ghost in you fic from nekojita its my favorite fic and i wasnt sure if it was already on any lists

thanks for the rec-Halley

The Ghost In You by nekojita (M | incomplete | 11/?)

Palmetto Services (also known as the Foxhole Court because of its decorations and plethora of fox stuffed animals on hand) has a dedicated staff of employees willing to do whatever they can to help children who've been let down by the system, their families, the very people who are supposed to protect and take care of them; many of them know first-hand the pain and difficulties these children have suffered.

Many of them have ghosts from the past they're doing their best to excise, to forget or move on from in one way or another.

Some of them in a literal sense.

One of them isn't trying to let go at all.

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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hi!! im looking for the fic where neil has an unspecified eating disorder ad andrew is a baker who makes food for neil sometimes. neil works at like a bride shop in this one. thank u!!

yes here is is-rachel

flour petals, sugar stitches by ephemeralsky (T | 11,309 | 1/1)

“Thanks for coming with me,” she says, keeping her eyes trained in front of her.

“It is not like I had a choice in the matter,” Andrew says, blowing out a stream of smoke through his mouth.

Renee’s lips curl into a smile. “Maybe you’ll win our next sparring match and I’ll finally have to buy you ten cartons of Haagen-Dazs.”

“It cannot be worse than tagging along to a bridal boutique.”

“Maybe,” Renee allows, humor in her voice. “But what kind of man of honor would you be if you didn’t come with me to choose a dress?”

(or: Andrew is a baker, Renee is a bride-to-be, and Neil is a dressmaker)

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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HI. I WOULD LIKE TO RECOMMEND AN AMAZING FIC. It is extremely well done, deeply in character and discusses so much of Andrew and Aaron's relationship in a profound way, with such analyzation and raw emotion that I cry just thinking about it. I present to you, "in my life i have seen people walk into the sea, just to find memories plagued by constant misery" by errantgods on AO3. Please, I beg of you, read this fic.

sure thing! -félix

in my life i have seen people walk into the sea, just to find memories plagued by constant misery by errantgods (Not Rated |6,409 | 1/1)

Aaron hates this; he’s supposed to be the one with the shitty fucking coping mechanisms. This particular shortcoming isn’t supposed to be another thing that points towards the constant neon sign “Twins” between them.

It’s almost a miracle that they met at all. There are a million scenarios where Andrew and Aaron didn’t make it even this far. And the idea that Andrew maybe doesn’t, even in some small way, want to be alive, is almost too much.

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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Hi, I wanted to ask you if you know any Andreil fics where only Andrew or Neil come back in time (not both).

here’s one!-ari

i'm here right now (just be here right now with me) by Talls (M | Incomplete | 4/7)

Neil first meets Andrew with a racquet to the stomach in a locker room when he's eighteen. Andrew first meets Neil with a hushed conversation on a beach in California when he's five. They still manage to meet on rooftops, fall in love, find family, and heal together, just not quite at the same time and definitely not in the same order.

(In other words, Andrew is the Time Traveler's wife.)

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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OKAY SO, I'm not sure if anyone already mentioned it before BUT.. I mean, it's the best fic I've ever read in my entire life so I needed to recommend Red Rabbits by @bloodydamnit @Jeni182 @SeaBear13 @windeavesdrops, it's an investigative podcast!AU, and is so amazing because is entirely interactive, they have a Tumblr were the characters answer asks and I mean, the art???? Is totally insane. Neil is still on the run, Andrew is a journalist and he's looking for Neil

thanks! -félix

Red Rabbits by bloodydamnit, Jeni182, SeaBear13, windeavesdrops (M | Incomplete | 22/?)

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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what was that one interactive fic that was posted here a long time ago ?? it had its own tumblr and it was abt apodcast?

here u go-ari

Red Rabbits by bloodydamnit, Jeni182, SeaBear13, windeavesdrops (M | 292,431 | 25/25)

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aftgficlibrary · 5 years

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Hiya, I read this fic called “If you Must” but I don’t remember the author and I want to recommend it to a friend. It was an AU where Neil talked to the feds and they put him in the foster home which Andrew was in at the time, and they become emancipated minors together. It’s also some sort of music AU, and Kevin plays the violin and the Foxes make a music video which has three million views. Could you help me find it? Thanks!

here you go!-Halley

If You Must by Tourmaline147 (M | 181,788 | 16/16)

Neil's whole world went up in flames the minute he burned his mother's dead body. Mary prepared him for almost every possible scenario, except this one. Now he's stuck in the middle of California trying to restart his life.

Andrew's world had been dark long before Neil Josten came into town. He's been barely living the past few years but he was working on that.

Together these two strangers who only knew how to survive take on a new challenge: learning to live.

***featuring the other foxes, the bad guys, copious amounts of music, and, hopefully, happiness.

***Basically a high school au with music. Enjoy.

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