#then i went out to lunch with my parents

[suashii]

HI HI i hope everyone had a lovely day ! ! !

#💭 manon’s mind #i went out to lunch with my parents #to celebrate my grad school admission #and spent the rest of the day with my boyfriend :3 #we played poppy playtime which was a mess on my part #and now we are about to watch idk he’s picking something out #planting a kiss on ur forehead >3< #MWAAHHH

[volk-swag-genitalia]

the prophetic dreams are getting much more concerning

#not a joke #so like im pretty damn convinced i have prophetic dreams #except one problem is they're not very straightforward #and i never really realize they are prophetic until its too late #i had a dream my lil brother attended the former school i used to study at and something bad would happen to him #i brushed it off at the time because i thought there would be no way in hell my parents would send me off to this school #years later they enrolled him in. #and well its an average school experience for him. some classmates are absolute jerks tho. but the main event in that dream didnt happen ye #because the main event happens at a school camping event. now im worried my brother would die at said camping event. but hey no camping yet #another instance was when i dreamt we went up the escalator up the mall we used to always go to #it was late into the pandemic at the time so i thought ''no way would we end up going'' but then i woke up to my mom announcing that #you guessed it #we were going to that mall #anyways those are a few instances. #right nowi had a dream i went out to lunch after college and snapped at a man for calling me ''ma'am'' because i mentally could not take it #and im scared now #with how i've been mentally. something like that WOULD happen. poor guy #but also i had a beard. why would he do that? #and the dream was also veryyy vivid. #granted not all of my dreams come true. #and i hope it STAYS that way #anyways aside from that i've also had recurring dreams of the ocean levels rising so bad that my home town ended up flooding and dissapeari #well i havent been having the flood dreams lately #that dream had two outcomes. in both outcomes people have adpated and started building a city that could take in the new environment #in one outcome they managed to build an underwater city to regain what was left of the cities that got submerged. people actually helped ea #h other and people were thriving. #in another outcome #society just ended up the same. all of the problems we had now carried on & we were eaten by the sun. except the sun was an eldritch being? #ok for sure that sun thing wont come true. or would it??? #nah. i mean according to what we know of the sun. nah.

[heart-bones]

I have been here one full day and I am already ready to go back to my apartment why am I like this 🙃

also please lord tell me what have I eaten that has completely ruined my stomach, I feel like I've been nauseous since I got here 😫

#i will get over it and be sad to leave in two days haha #i got to walk around the koreatown plaza out here and got snacks and milk tea w my sister #then we went to lunch w my parents 😊 #and grocery shopping #then lin left and my parents and i went to a few places for fun #we watched the last voyage of the demeter a n d everything everywhere all at once together #(finally seeing it!!!! it was great & loving and i cried) #(because of course) #my mom got up at one point and got dizzy she fell and kept falling and it was Really sudden and very scary #all the plants were knocked over and i was immediately screaming like an idiot #but i helped her up and we walked slow to the bathroom together so i could look her over and make sure nothing was too bad #she skinned her arm in a places - she's so skinny so it bled a lot which was also scary. #i may have immediately stress cried while i was helping with her and we sat together for a long time to talk #then my dad was So Upset so he had to vent #(i understand his frustration to a point but i also feel like he's holding everyone else to this standard in his mind - ) #(- of how they should “deal” with my mom having cancer - that my older siblings aren't “stepping up to help”) #(but he literally talked about my mom fading away and getting weaker every day like she wasn't sitting right next to him ???) #(and she was!) #i don't know MAN #i dont have things figured out at all but ot made me so angry and so sad #i know he is just feeling hurt and upset 🫠🫠🫠

[sorrellegiance]

THE TECH INTERACTIVE

#someone should take the sharkuda to the tech interactive!! the top floor exploded my brain and it would definitely explode their brains too #my parents and i were originally going to go to the sharks game but i got miserly and waited too long to get tickets and also. do you know #hard it is to get a set of *three* tickets together. impossible for less than $80 apparently!! the drive down was also very stressful #because we were trying to get lunch on the way down the peninsula and my dad thought my mom only wanted in n out but the two drive throughs #we tried had like twenty cars lined up and my dad lost his temper in the parking lot and my mom said it didn't HAVE to be in n out so my da #peeled outta there and we went to his favorite taqueria in the area which had a HUGE salsa and side bar (for free! i squirreled away two #whole limes) and their carne asada super burrito settled everyone down :)) #by the time we got to san jose the puck had already dropped so decided to pivot and check out the tech interactive since my mom and i hadn' #had time the last time we were here in the summer and oh my GOB THEIR HUMAN BODY EXHIBIT IS. WOW. it was a lovely time walking around #looking very closely at very realistic models of human organs :3 and oh! my mom and i made a bacteria plate together :3 and my dad and i #made a robot with a spinning fish and flashing lights on it :3 and i fell asleep most of the way into the serengeti film in the imax dome : #and then we went to the 99 ranch where the dungeness crab was THREE NINETY NINE. and my mom got some big napa cabbages and one little one #for me :3 and oh then the guy ahead of us in the checkout gave me his $1 coupon for the bakery :3 #and that's what i did today!! #sor.txt

[inrainbowscd]

my christmas gift to myself this year was cleaning my room top to bottom after months of depressione. i can now see the bedroom floor 👍

#oh btw im home alone bc my parents and brother went to my grandparents' for lunch (as per tradition) and im sick so i didn't go #instead i cleaned my room for 2 hrs. and now im gonna have a glass of wine and maybe a cig (yes im still coughing my lungs out so what) #ele.txt

[tyrianlynch]

I saw a House MD episode that acted out my trauma in front of me yesterday evening and I’m finally starting to feel better. Love the gay undertones of that show tho!

#genuinely I’m into the show and watched it all day today #and it wasn’t the whole episode it was just a scene and I literally finished the ep bc I wanted to know the diagnosis #but yeah it’s been a rough 24 hours #went to my parents house and watched tv and had a good lunch #so that helped #but I’ve been out of my body and my brains been on fire #isn’t that interesting though? how your mind connects an image with a memory and your entire body reacts to protect you #the human mind may be the bane of my existence but it sure is a wonder

[tumblasha]

children of immigrants get their first Big Job and then

BOOM

scarcity mindset

#my brain is so annoying #bc if it’s not obvious i was raised w money #(dad got paid in USD in brasil + saved up + we lived in an apartment instead of a house) #(we also had AC + ate out at least once a week + went to rio once every few months) #but my parents raised us to only want to buy necessities #and take advantage of every deal!!! #and that’s evolved into #1) me only going into the office today bc they serve lunch #2) me going to the office w tupperware to take extra lunch for dinner #even tho i can obviously afford food (both takeout + cooking) #and like #idk #in my head i tell myself #‘u have free food for half the week so that makes all other food 50% off’ #and then i buy a Big Lunch in the weekend #which i save for weekend dinner #and tell myself ‘it’s actually 75% off bc math’ #and idk #this is prob just normal ppl stuff #but then i see my co-workers throw away food at lunch #and i’m like ‘maybe i (the only tupperware bringer) am not normal’ #the adjustment period of learning to manage Adult Job Money For Living rather than College Job Money For Having Fun #dash rambles #first world problems #pls ignore bc ik i sound annoying

[dreamertrilogys]

so i haven’t personally come out to anyone recently bc i’ve been outsourcing it (getting my girlfriend to do it) & one thing i’ve noticed is that ppl will say a lot more than they would if you were there. for example fran from english class apparently said something along the lines of “yeah i figured. i mean they look like a man anyway” & my girlfriend’s sister just straight up guessed it before my gf even told her (“do they use they/them pronouns” literally a couple hours after meeting me for the first time (in a setting where i was introduced as a cis woman). glad i give off the impression of someone who uses pronouns. thank you)

#actually now that i think about it i haven’t really personally come out to anyone at ALL #i’ve only ever had the whole ‘so hey fun fact i’m actually trans’ conversation once in my life i think. with my gf actually #like my with my friends i was just asked once (pretty soon after meeting them) what pronouns i used and i just said he/him yknow #and like i remember when i met david it was just like juno used he/him for me at lunch once when david first started sitting with us and he #just sort of discretely asked them like he? and they were like yeah and he just went with it. and like hmm #with most of my friends it was pretty much the exact same thing. and being in discord servers with pronoun bots helped obviously #hmmm. who else am i out to. one second let me consult my handy dandy little list #oh there’s julian’s parents but i didn’t come out to them he did it for me #ok literally everyone on this list either knows bc a) they heard me being called zain/heard someone using he/him pronouns for me and just #went with it or b) bc dani outed me to them (with my consent of course) #anyway #.txt #gender diary #this is mildly hilarious actually. how am i out to SO many people without having had the awkward ass conversation more than once. this is #truly honestly great

[arthur-r]

also i have made a decision! i will be moving blogs in around a month when i go away for college in the fall. i will have one fancy fancy blog for making posts on purpose, and also a sideblog just for my friends, which will vary in use depending on how much i do emailing and discord and stuff during college. i will also keep my history/academic blog, and my poetry/aesthetic blog, as separate things continuous from what they are now. but i just figure for my own sanity i should abandon the blog i made as a cis girl, on my 13th birthday, having never even heard of transmasculinity, even though this blog has obviously been worthwhile this whole time i just want to fully cut ties with that part of my life and move on with only people that i genuinely care about and know as myself. and yes i did this already but i’m gonna do it right this time shdhdf. will be working on the new blog for the next few weeks and ready to move over when i move out august 28th.

#will make a better blog-moving post later i just officially decided on this so i’m making it known #following in the footsteps of a person who i don’t remember if the name is public on the internet anymore #and actually. okay i’ll have one blog for being myself one blog for being a blogger one blog for being Myself aka full name professional #and then i’ll take with my kml blog and what have you and like. post essay stuff under my real name and whatever #anyways just a heads up. not taking effect for over a month so no need to worry about it yet #anyway i’m pretty tired and silly. we have guests in from wisconsin so idk what to do since i don’t want to hang out #so i’m just in bed with my computer hanging out. i haven’t eaten any food today. why didn’t my dad ever learn to parent #feel like cinderella. got left home to babysit while my dad went out to fancy lunch. annoying #anyway!!!! i’m just around if anybody needs anything shdhf. hope you all are well #me. my post. mine.

[gigagasp]

God is putting me through trials LMAO

#currently in Boston helping my wife move in to get apartment #drove for 6.5 hours to get here 😭 helped her move stuff out of the truck and clean up the apartment washed the dishes drove us to target #the target in question? NO MOPS... we came back with half the groceries we were looking for- on the way back? got lost twice looking for #the parking lot and then looking for the entrance to the apt building 😭 whole time I'm late for DnD which started at 7 #i was drove her back and got on the call at like 7:38 or smth-- played DnD on my PHONE in my CAR in a GARAGE that smelled like PISS #because her parents were also there at the studio apartment she was moving to 😭 then the next day we went to get groceries at GreatWall #bought train tickets coolcool first time swiping in? ERROR. try again. then it works on the other gate but I swiped twice??? how can I #swip a second time before the gate closes 😭 god HOW #BUT WAIT when we went to target the day before I couldnt leave the garage because I came in through the delivery gate and couldnt get out #the exit because I didnt have a TICKET.... so I had to call assistance and they buzzed me out after paying the full price 😭-- back to GW #GW is CLOSED? under renovation which we didn't realize until we walked the block twice 😭 no worries off to HMart #HMart is open! Godbless. We get 4 full bags of groceries that fit in dear's totebags and lug them back to the train and to the apartment-- #girl... the HEAVIEST bags you've seen including rice 😭 I'm carrying 3 bags like a refugee through these streets including like a 10-15 min #walk from the train to the apartment- after missing the apartment entrance AGAIN and walking an extra block 😭 but its okay we get back and #take a break for a bit before going back out for lunch-- Udon was great! found a REAL target and then visited the Boston Public Library gr8 #We head back and take a break for a bit- Wifi is now on!! also win. Then we head out for dinner and I need to get my car jumped because ha #while I was playing DnD in the car with the AC in (but the engine off because I was in an underground garage) I used up my battery LMAO BUT #We called for assistance and got it jumped thank you random attendant time to head out but OOPS I LOST MY TICKET LMAO OK #have to ask for help again and oh no its the same attendant I'm so sorry I'll pay full price 😭 oh its extra because I stayed overnight? #no prob boss just let me pay oh god stop explaining it to me just let me pay and be on my WAY... the price? $109 LMAOOOOO #BUT we head to dinner and happy days! theres a parking lot nearby with the gate up! Could I risk parking there for free? I did. And we had #great Thai food :) The waitress even asked if we wanted more water- yes please! julie's water gets refilled and then waitress leaves HUHHH #no water for me then LMAO AND? WE FIND TWO HAIRS IN OUR FOOD??? No worries king 😭 the one entree is free thank you #God willing my car is still in the lot (not towed!) and the gate is still up so we drive back to the apartment and park- get it- in the #same lot as before 😇 I CANNOT PARK ANYWHERE ELSE!!! THIS IS THE GARAGE NEXT TO THE APARTMENT AND BOSTON PARKING SUUUUCKS #we get back to the lobby and oh? is that a coffee machine? lemme check it out.... OH? Hot chocolate? I deserve a hot chocolate lemme get 1 #HAHAHAHAHHAA JUST KIDDING! THERE ARE NO CUPS. BITCH. YOU DONT DESERVE HOT CHOCOLATE!!! #me on the elevator up to the room on my hands and knees apologizing to God for whatever I'm being punished for LMAO yall... #please pray for me 😭 🙏🙏 #booboop

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#if u happen to b invested in my emailing profs. the lady from yesterday emailed me back almost immediately #to day that my interests and background sound ideal! which is v true! its such a good match! and i should email back in autumn to see abt #a project in 2023! which is v exciting and i hope things come together. apparently its harder to get funding for international students #so i was like cool cool. u will def hear back from me and also can u send me this paper that i cant get online #and she sent it so now i have a wicked cool paper to read. hhhhh i hope this works out #in other news i talked to my parents todsy and they wanna pay for me to fly home for a bit and i was like YES! which is exciting #not sure when itll happen. hopefully before fall. but yeah thats cool. i felt like such a loser bc my life is so boring rn i was like: wait #keep talking to me! i have nothing better to be doing! except thats not true im just avoiding doing things #SPEAKING OF WHICH we have this supid mini conference thing going on rn and i was super looking forward to not attending this yr #bc im not funded by them anymore. but i have to give a presentation thrus so i am invited and i guess my boss expected me to b there? #like if i went it would just be a massive waste of time that i would hate and im not like the most stable rn #like im srry i really don't give a fuck abt shrub encroachment. so i might as well do something useful with my time? #like im sure the main reason they hold it is for networking but i really really dont want to talk to anyone so im just gonna awkwardly sit #around and hate everything. but like maybe i should go as rep for my lab? #but like 3 other lab members r there so like u dont need me there. i really just wanna show up for my talk and fuck off #i really dont want to go tomorrow. i dont have anything that i could bring for lunch and again. dont wanna b there #and i havent done a rapid test which they wanted everyone to do before showing up #so idk what im gonna do. im gonna have tk txt my boss like: do u really want me to b there tomorrow? #but i dont kno how to say that without it sounding like i have a bad attitude bc i absolutely do lol #i just dont wannnna goooooo #unrelated

[roaringroa]

hate being sick fr

#hate it in general but oh god the timing is so bad #i was supposed to go buy some little presents for this kid in my family cause she's coming over with her parents (my dad's cousin + his wife #and i already planned on going to the japan town and buying these cute stationaries + a case since she likes that kinda stuff #and i was going to go and have lunch there and eat good food and dessert and have a good time on my own like i love to do #but i started feeling off during my morning classes and went back home and i have a fever #but if it was just for today whatever #BUT IN 4 DAYS IT'S CARNAVAL!!! THE FIRST SINCE BEFORE THE PANDEMIC!!! AND CONSEQUENTLY MY FIRST ONE AS AN ADULT!!!! #i absolutely cannot be sick then like i will legit cry #i've been looking forward to this so much #i've made plans with like 3 different friend groups for different days #plus on saturday my brothers my brother's girlfriend and i are supposed to party together #and i've been looking forward to it cause my oldest brother always said that when i turned 18 he'd take me and the middle brother to carnava #but then i turned 18 in the first year of the pandemic and 19 in the second and last year it was still pretty bad so no carnaval again #so like i hate being sick in general but i can't stay sick like i refuse #i think i it's tonsilitis cause my friend had it like last week and we shared drinks before she found out she had it #if that's the case it means antibiotics for like a week which means no drinking for me during carnaval #which... yeah i'm prob gonna ignore it if i feel better by saturday

[tototavros]

earning software money is fucking weird, especially after getting trained for 18 years about how to scrimp and save my way to financial success

#my parents were really big about kids learning about finances but rarely in a way that helped me >.> #instead it's like 'alright you get 3 dollars a week one for charity one for spending and one for savings and keep them separate' #(and then they stopped paying me it after they found out i'd been spending all of it for years) #or when i was told in no uncertain terms that i was to save 90% of my paycheck when I did get a job #which meant I had only a little left over from an 8 hour shift if i went to get wendy's 4 for 4 on my lunch break

[spookyboywhump]

Me when faced with any inconvenience at work: what if I just left

#I had my earbuds in so I didn’t hear what my manager was saying #and I checked my email and all the boards and there’s nothing written down b #but what I did hear kind of sounded like we’re supposed to be somewhere at 12??? #but I don’t know it looked like she was talking to just two specific people #so maybe it wasn’t meant for me anyways #but I don’t know #but I don’t want to ask in case it was just meant for them and then I sound weird for not minding my own business #but also why wouldn’t they have written it down #I’m so hungry #my parents said they would bring me lunch but I think they forgot #I could avoid all this if I simply walked out the door and went home #but I can’t do that

[the-converse-high-top]

why have i only been eating like one meal a day? now that im back at home for the week i should be eating so much more now that i dont have to pay!

#tw eating #tw food #i havent only been eating one meal a day on purpose #its nearly always been by accident #like on monday i thought i was going straight home after i visited my teachers #and then i didnt #and today i was going to the dentist in the morning and then i ate lunch-dinner #and then i went back to my room and didnt come out again #i should really be eating more of my parents food lol

[star-mum]

I was supposed to rot in my bed today until later in the afternoon where I’d go meet my friends to play board games/rpgs

#my parents kidnapped my afternoon to take us out to lunch #(their treat) #which i mean great #amazing even #but we went to this restaurant at the mall... #I’m starting one of the interships i gotta do for my college #and i don’t really have appropriate clothes for it #so I was forced to walk around a extremely packed mall and try on clothes for the rest of the afternoon #and yes you’ve guessed it !! nothing fit !! hooray !! department stores are little hell pockets specially designed for human suffering #it was all pants too (im fat in a way clothing designers reaaaally despise) #I never feel the ‘spoons’ metaphor more than when I gotta try clothes #ALSO #even if malls didn’t stress me out by design #or if trying out clothes wasn’t as soul suckingly exhausting to me #just trying a bunch of clothes and none of them fitting or stores simply NOT carrying your size EVER is absolutely disheartening #like I’m still going out to see my friends but this was not a Great afternoon