Your destiny is written from the day you’re born. Part 3
Part 1, Part 2, Part 4
Rated M
Warning: non-con sex, oral, violence, abuse.
This is based off The Devil All the Time. Specifically Lee Bodecker. Ideas be taken from the original story of course.
Note: First time writing. Please give feedback. I don’t mind constructive criticism. Hope you enjoy.
P.S. Im really bad at using this website. I find it hard lmao. So please give me time as I grown accustom to it. Thank you! (I have another fic in mind- though it will be darkSteve, but I'm not sure if I should do it or not. If y'all would like it please let me know.) :)))))))))
It’s my wedding day and I still don’t feet like ‘myself’. I feel like a withering leaf in fall on it’s last leg before it completely disappears. Not knowing where I truly stand I felt like I’m trapped, my heart palpating so much it hurts. All the days prior to this day I was unable to sleep, the consistent worrying in my head never faded away. As if my heart and brain knew something that I couldn’t fully comprehend yet. I’m left to fully rely on him not having any income of my own any longer since I was expected to quit work, due to the fact that the sheriffs wide would not be able to work or else people will start talking. Also taking in mind that people started talking, which got me to worry more. Rumors. As my mom put it. But don’t rumors have to stem off of some truth first?Though what I was able to comprehend from everything up until now was how much I hated myself. How big of an idiot I am. How I’m so weak to the point that I can even allow myself to be in every situation that I’ve ever been in. Staring straight at my reflection with the wedding gown he chose for me. Simple, just like me. I can care less about what I’m wearing and instead just truly want this horrendous day over. I can care less about what I’m wearing and instead just want the day over. My room door opens, my youngest brother Sam (who is still older than myself) walks in.
“Psst. Mrs. Bodecker.” With a grin smothered on his face. Seeing my reflection on the mirror he asks “you okay?”
“What am I doing?” Holding my tears back, though its hard my shell breaking.
“Well if you were to ask me I would say throwing yourself in fire. But it’s too late for that now, aint it?” He stops to grab both my hands in his own. “don’t worry y/n everything outta be alright. Before you even know it you’ll be much happier there than here with us. I should be getting down, and you should come soon too. You know how Pa and the others get when it comes to waiting.”
He leaves and I begin crying staring at my reflection. Have I truly thrown myself in flames? I wish I had a loving Pa who would save me from everything and everyone. Who would put me first before anyone else. Saying something along the lines of “Your happiness is what’s most important”. Maybe then I would’ve never been in this situation.
I make my way down. I see Lee standing looking up at me as I walk down. This ain’t the traditional way. But I guess that goes with everything. If I wasn’t the one getting married to him I would think he looks handsome today. They all get ready to head out.
I can’t do this. “I can’t do this.”
My faces back to look at me, her eyes wide open. “Y/n?”
“Mom. I can’t do this. I can’t follow through this marriage.”
“Y/n.” She repeats herself more sternly this time.
Lee scoffs. Frowning but at the same time he seems like he is holding in his laughter. Laughter?
“Y/n, what do you mean I can’t get married?” He asks calmly. His head slightly moving side to side.
“I’m so sorry Lee. I just can’t.” I hold onto my dress running up the stairs, footsteps following behind me. My brothers voice speaking from a distance. He must be speaking to Lee. Before I can make it back to my room my Ma catches up to me yanking my arm, to stop me and get my attention.
“I had dreams for myself too. A dream where we both could’ve been happy. Where we both could’ve been. Not living with Pa and getting beat just because he felt like it - jjust because he was too drunk and he couldn’t think straight! Not a dream where I would marry I man I didn’t even know. Ma, please don’t make me do this. Ma, I beg of you.” I’m at her feet at this point my legs not being able to hold me straight up any longer. Swaying back and forth. Have I lost it?
She kneels down to look me in the face “It’s too late for that now y/n. Give me a chance, just this once? Lee’s a good man. He’ll take care of ya and your future kids. He got voted Sheriff honey now that ain’t so easy. You wont have to worry about nothing, he’ll be the man you deserve. Holding my hands. Compassion. I don’t have much of a choice do I. If I don’t get married Dad’ll beat me to death. Collecting myself I soon head down.
Lee, sitting down on the beat up sofa. I make my way to him. Mom and Sam leaving us alone. He doesn’t look up at me, his head still in his hands. I don’t blame him. I can’t. To be in his shoes, I can’t even imagine. “Lee.”
“Are you alright?” He asks with what seems like genuine concern in his voice.
I nod. “Cold feet as ladies say it. I’m sorry.”
He nods. Putting his hand out forth for me to hold.
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The ceremony at the Church happens so fast and before I even notice we are having our celebration in the backyard that all the folks have it during summer, accept for us it’s in fall.
We sit at the table where the couples tend to sit and people coming forth to congratulate us. I drink for the first time to help ease myself, as I have heard it helps. Luckily Lee was answering all their warm wishes and questions if any. All I’m focusing on is keeping all the warmth I have with this little cropped fur coat. Paying attention to people chattering and drinking away. Harold? What is he doing here? I look to find mom in the crowd. Her eyes already looking at me sternly. What am I supposed to do? The weather gets colder and somehow, I start sweating.
“Congratulations on your marriage.” He says staring only at me, causing me to instinctively look at Lee whom is staring at me and him. “I really didn’t expect ya to get married y/n, especially to someone so old compared to ya self. But I guess it’s expected I mean ya Pa ain’t the nicest.” Harold says all the while grinning. I can feel Lee gripping onto my wrist. Tightly.
“Who the fuck do you think you are coming to my wedding and spewing all this shit to me. Boy.” Lee standing up so quickly from his seat the chair topples away. I grab onto Lee, holding him back so he doesn’t fight with Harold. Harold laughs which causes Lee to punch him square to his jaw. And before I even can do anything else a full fight breaks between the two and I just stand there watching as I cry inside.
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Harold was left bloody. And Lee and I head home. My new ‘home’. Lee slams the door after himself. Fisting my hands so tightly I think my nails are breaking the skin on my palms. Defensive. I feel the need to be defensive.
“Who are you Lee? Are you someone who just thinks out of anger and isn’t able to talk to resolve conflict? Or are you the person that the town loves so much.” The alcohol is truly hitting me hard.
“Forget about be. Who the fuck are you?” He says moderately loud “Start fucking talking or I bet ya it ain’t gonna be good for ya Hon.” I can’t reply it’s like my tongue is cut off. “Who the fuck was that kid?”
Swallowing. “I don’t have to answer you. I – I ain’t your property.” I turn heading to any room with a door at this point.
BANG. He slams his hand against the wall. “DO NOT! Do not walk away from me when I ask you a question.”
I bawling at this point, not turning around to look him. “Mmaybe we aren’t mean’t to be L-lee. Why didn’t you just marry some other girl from this town.”
And before he says anything else I open the first door my eyes hold onto and shut it after myself. Sitting down on the bed I cry. Noticing soon enough that it must be his room. The door opens, Lee walking in to sit beside me.
I get up facing what would be the window, but is covered due to the blinds “Ccould you just give me sometime alone? Ple” his right hand grabs me from my jaw to make me look straight at him.
“I’ll do whatever the fuck I please.” He spits out. Grabbing my fur coat and rips is off my body, turning me around so he can unlace my dress. He pushes me face forward to the mattress, I begin crying to scared to move. I here rustling behind me. Him behind me soon, smelling me. “We could’ve had it so nice but you really wanted to be a bitch. I really did want to take it nice and slow but you really lost that chance and instead I think it’s time for a lesson.”
And it all happens in a blink of an eye. Him putting his manhood in me. I grunt due to the foreign feeling in me. Is it suppose to hurt? “Oh hon, is it your first time he says while staring in between my legs.” I nod, my hands go up covering my face. “Honey, why didn’t you tell me? Is that why you were acting up? Cause you were scared?” He laughs, and stops his rhythm to move my hands away from my face. Kissing me. His hand exploring around my body, kneeding my breats slowly and softly. My hands instinctively go to his own, he grabs onto mine. Putting it on either side of my head, slowly moving his body again. In between my legs begin to feel hotter, wetter. Pain and pleasure mixing together. Clenching an unknown feeling washing over me, he soon whines? Breathing gets harder and sharper and soon stills. I stay still as he gets up to turn the lights off. Pulling the covers over the both of us, his left arm thrown over my body. Eventually drifting to sleep through silent crys.
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A MESSAGE TO THE PJO FANDOM
so hello friends on the other side
I understand some of the major concerns regarding characters like piper and the feather and hazels description but when you bring Leo and Reyna into the fucking conversation I have lost all respect.
ANYONE CAN BE ABUSED, ETHNICITY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT
LATINO CHARACTERS
Reyna is not a negative stereotype, she isn't defined by being latina and neither is Leo, he isn't a stereotype simply because he’s latino and was abused. also him being called an elf was because he was short, which had nothing to do with him being latino. also the mamacita comment like y'all hide under the label “progressive” but ignore that mamacita has been a thing in Latin American communities for a fucking while. its not an insult dammit. its something that happens in our communities!!! its like saying muchacho y'all don't see men bitching about that.
also shocker I read the mamacita comment and I can proudly say I didn't go
“RICK YOU RACIST BITCH”
things that actually happen in communities aren't racist
and before any of y'all come at me with the usual you’re white excuse, hello friends im Peruvian and Paraguayan.
I don't think he’s perfect but bitching about characters like Leo which gave many of my Latin American friends hope for similar characters destroys your “listening to minorities” argument
also the lol “hes Mexican taco bad” argument like I live in Mexico we eat tacos like every fucking day. its literally a fact. and Leo isn't just defined as taco man.
believe it or not us latinos respect rick because he gave us role models and characters like us. we don't define a character by one line and instantly call discrimination. like yes a asian character can be snobby it has nothing to do with ethnicity. y'all are making this about ethnicity. an asian character can be anything, just like a white character or a black character or a gay character. people are not simply defined by their labels like ya’ll think. y'all are just a bunch of easily triggered snowflakes that can't live with that. they can be influenced but in the end labels are labels we are all human and should be treated as such.
LGBT REPRESENTATION
another thing Reyna was never officially a lesbian that was YOUR interpretation not riordans. IF HE DIDNT STATE IT , SORRY HONEY IT ISN’T CANON! I don't care about how she was “lesbian coded” if he didn't state it it isn't canon.
I am so sick, as a lesbian, to see people use ALL QUEER DEATHS as a bury your gay tropes, what happened to seeing us as humans? why can't we be treated like any other character? if we die we die, it isn't always “haha gay evil boom death”. sometimes fully fledged characters have to die friends.
Nico isn't a bad gay character, he’s just a normal character who happens to be gay and has suffered major trauma. HIS TRAUMA WAS CAUSED BY HIS UPBRINGING, Nico isn't a 2000′s character, he’s from the 30′s, so obviously he woudn’t be perfect with his sexuality for gods sake it was the 30′s. the exact same thing happens with hazel, she isn't a modern black woman, she's a 30′s black woman. Nico’s coming out isn't him as a 21st century teen its from the time when the GOVERNMENT KILLED YOU FOR BEING GAY
also saying there are no lesbian characters? like wow look emmie and jo don't exist. Lavinia doesn't exist. poison doesn't exist. thanks fam you really make yourselves look smart here. simply because rick never said the word gay doesn't mean the gay characters don't exist friends. they are just labeled as what gay characters should be labeled as.... human.
LESBOPHOBIA & RACISM
im not educated in muslim or black culture so I won't mention characters like sam and hazel and piper because I respect and I am highly critical of what rick put in his books to describe these specific minorities.
HOWEVER saying rick is a lesbophobe, a homophobe, a racist a sexist cis guy is like do y’all wanna be taken seriously? use arguments don't hide behind words.
rick isn't a perfect writer but y'all really don't know how to criticise, y'all just hide behind big boy words and back it up with no evidence, just opinions.
rick doesn’t have the best minority rep out there but he is damn well trying and I respect that unlike all you fucking idiots.
SHIPS
now onto ships.... yay
frazel: im not gonna censor it like you pussies, believe it or not 13&16 year old relationships exist. they might not always be healthy but they exist. to deny this is to be stupid
solangelo: another ship that is censored..the main argument I've seen is that it isn't developed and will isn't even a character... he was in last olympian and lost hero not my fault y'all have fish brains. I don't care if you dislike it but don't be like “ANYONE WHO SHIPS THIS IS AN ABUSIVE WHORE” like wow you always preach about accepting all ships and then throw this? also if you hate solangelo because of the “abuse” but ship percico like hi friends Nico is 4 years younger than Percy.. if y'all hate frazel because of the 3 year age difference y'all should hate this too.
CONCLUSIONS AND SHIT
not every character minority or otherwise is gonna be the way you want them to be, believe it or not any character can be anything, black characters can be loud, white characters can be loud. if they're only loud because “haha black” then THATS an issue not the simple existence of a loud black woman who has a loud personality.
y'all be here bitching about drew and I've never heard the asian perspective of this? just a bunch of black and white people telling asians they should be offended. was that just an uno reverse?
also last point stereotypes aren't always a negative thing and y'all need to get that in your heads.
anyway stay mad hoes <3
from a sane Peruvian <3
EDIT
I saw this beauty and had to comment on it
“having LGBT characters experience abuse and violence. nicos forceful outing rubs me the wrong way, especially because hes called a coward for being in the closet. its violent and kind of disturbing to make your gay character come out of the closet by force. maybe write better. additionally, alex's abusive father and subsequent homelessness because of her being trans is badly written.”
oh noooo gay characters can't deal with homophobia anymore ! like I can tell you have never been punched for being gay. is it bad to showcase how trans and gay ppl are 40% of homeless youth? or is even mentioning that discrimination? believe it or not some of us live in countries where people try to kill us. you have an advantage and it shows. about the coward thing...
was FUCKING CUPID A GOOD CHARACTER? NO? I REST MY CASE. CUPID IS NOT SEEN AS A GOOD PERSON THEREFORE HE IS NOT A GOOD PERSON GET THAT IN YOUR THICK SKULLS.
YOU HEARD IT HERE FOLKS LGBT FOLKS DONT GET FORCED OUT OF THE CLOSET
#NEVER HAPPENS IN REALITY.
JUST BECAUSE YOU WERENT FORCED OUT OF THE CLOSET DOESNT MEAN OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THAT SAME LUXURY.
maybe stop spewing bullshit <3
(so I get that this scene can remind people of being outed and it can hurt them however this scene was never intended to be a good thing it literally says Nico is scared of facing his emotions)
EDIT NUMBER 2
oh boy rick really pissed off the snowflakes that I share a fandom with
“give Nico to the gays” no? he would be a femboy and they would yeet his trauma like ssrsly?
also hate rick? bitch no one is forcing you to read his tweets.
death of the author is such a toxic thing like the mans is alive boo he aint going nowhere..like What the fuck
EDIT NUMBER 3
anyway final thoughts on this :
nico insn’t Uwu gay and its an insult to his character
Reyna is not a lesbian canonically (neither is Thalia)
Leo and Reyna are not racist
none of ricks characters are written as insults to their communities
and if I see one more “but ....phobia/ ...ism I will do very illegal things
peace lol
RICK RIORDAN UPDATE:
congratulations rick antis! you have successfully harassed a 56 year old man into leaving social media! wow so progressive!!!! this totally won't backfire or anything!!!
all jokes aside all of you who harassed rick to the point of someone else taking over his social media should feel ashamed
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♡ hi hi! im back! so im feeling better but that aint stopping me from finishing this story! i think i'll update my smau too! (shameless plug lol) but yess it’s boutta get long, serious and interesting so hope y’all like it. also i know it was kuroo’s bday a few days ago but i didn’t want him to go through these horrible sad things on his bday ): our kuroo deserves to be happy because he deserves the whole world!
pairings: Kuroo x Tsukishima, Tsukishima x Yamaguchi, Kuroo x Kenma
genre: angst, hanahaki disease au, pain
warnings: will make you cry, made me cry lol, hospital setting, cheating, thoughts of suicide
notes: hanahaki disease: a fictional disease born from unrequited love, where the patient’s throat will throw and cough up petals and flowers. but this isn’t a typical hanahaki au, in this story.. the main character (in this case it’s kuroo) finds out that his partner (aka tsukki) doesn’t love him anymore because he started developing the disease.
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𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐯 | 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑. 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧 | 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭
- loud ass video game noises -
the sounds coming from a video game, woke me up as i found myself in a hospital once again..
kei was nowhere to be found.
without even looking i knew who was right by my side, it was kenma.. my best friend since we were kids.
kei must’ve sent him to take care of me. why couldn’t he come here himself?
oh. wait. he doesn’t love me anymore.. still he could’ve had the decency to stay with me until i was better.. but i guess im just a burden to him now.
kenma sees me waking up and rushes to call the doctor.
“sir you passed out due to your hanahaki disease. im afraid you’re in critical condition. you’ll need to stay here for a while so we can monitor you to make sure nothing goes wrong. however, your lungs are flooded with petals... thats not a good sign and if it gets worse we may need to do surgery.”
the thought of surgery scared the shit out of me.
i heard most hanahaki related surgeries weren’t that successful, i remember reading that they had a 65% success rate. and that 35% fucking scares me.
not that i was afraid to die but i was afraid for kei who i know would feel guilty for being the cause of my death, he may not love me anymore but i know he’s a caring person. it’s one of the things i learned about him when we got together. on the outside kei is a hard exterior who just seems like an asshole but on the inside he was soft and kind. he really cares about the people that mean a lot to him.
but wait.. do i even mean anything to him anymore? even if i stay alive i'll just continue to be a burden to him. hmm..
i dont want to be a burden to anyone. not to kei, not to kenma. so maybe it’s just better for me to-
“kuroo? kuroo? KUROO? are you okay” kenma had this concerned look on his face.
i didn’t even realize the doctor had left, i didn’t even notice that i was grabbing the sheets of the hospital bed and pools of tears were pouring from my eyes.
“did he ask you to stay with me?” i could barely look at him but he slowly lifted my head and looked at me.
“mhm” he said, never taking his eyes off me.
“im sorry kenma, you dont have to stay. i can handle it myself”
he then made his annoyed face (y’all know what face lol) and says “no kuroo, don’t start thinking you’re a burden again. i know you well, whenever you feel like you’re not doing your best or whenever you feel shitty about yourself or when you don’t want to accept help from anyone even though you need it, you start to blame yourself and think you’re burden to this world.
but you know you’re never a burden to me, you’re one of the few people i care about and i know what you’re going through seems like the world is ending but no matter how hard it is i'll be here for you always. so stop worrying about being a burden and just focus on getting better.”
kenma’s words were comforting. he doesn’t say much, but when he talks seriously like this it really means he cares.
but those feelings of being a burden. i can’t stop worrying about them. i can’t help but think i'm heavy weight to all the people i love.. kei doesn’t even want to take care of me, let alone visit me in the hospital. kenma is saying he’ll be by my side but the longer im sick im sure he’ll want to leave me too.
i can’t stop thinking about the only solution to this.. maybe i should just-
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By The Lake*Part Three
Summary: A family friend offers you a place to stay to get away from an abusive past. Her home is a place that you are familiar with, an old town with a large lake you spent many days in. You went there years ago for one full summer, where you became close friends with a very young Daryl Dixon. You two were inseparable until you had to leave. But now you’re back, escaping from a past much like his. You will need to weave your way through the town's problematic people, your own problems, and above all the confusing Dixon. Will you two find your way back to each other again? Or will he push you further away? And above all, will your past cease to haunt you?
Part one * Part Two * Part Four * Part Five
Pairing: Young Daryl Dixon x Reader
Warnings: Mentions of abuse and violence(potential triggers), cussing, more mature themes(not smut or anything tho), slow burn romance
Authors Note: Daryl Dixon is a character from the amazing show The Walking Dead, but this story is modern AU so not with all the walkers and everything. I don’t own and I didn’t create his character. Also this story is in no means meant to romanticize abuse, that stuff isn’t romantic. It is such a terrible, terrible thing, but it is sadly a very common thing as well. Throughout this series I only hope that I can spread awareness about the matter, and let people know that they aren’t alone, things will get better, and that no one is deserving of any kind of abuse. Ever. Anyways, I’m done with my rant, I hope y’all like it, and if not please send in some constructive criticisms I’m always looking to improve.
Word Count: 1.7k
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I woke up to the kids screaming, at the cabin door for me to come out. I quickly put on a bra and open the door in my pajamas. Cherry was standing there in a pantsuit with Monty and Rosie by her side.
“Jesus (Y/N), it’s nearly 10.” She shakes her head at me and pushes the kids inside the cabin.
“What! That early.” I joke, but she only humored me with a sarcastic open-mouthed laugh. I run a hand through my messy hair and apologize.
“I’ll make a point to wake up early. But y’all weren’t exactly detailed on the job description.” I point to the kids. She kisses the kids goodbye on the head and stands up to face me again.
“Well my job description implies that I should have left 10 minutes ago. And no, it is not you’re fault.” She glares at her kids and then glances over her shoulder.
“Mark didn’t help me at all this morning. Daryl came over earlier than usual, something bout having less time than he thought. Whatever, my point it that the kids are your problem now.” She smiles at me then bolts out the door before Monty or Rosie can chase after her. I watch her car leave with a sense of dread and excitement. How in the heck am I supposed to keep these guys from dying of boredom?
I stare at the two of them, Rosie is sitting on my bed, and and looking out the window right into the lake...The lake! Cherry said how Rosie loves to swim, and I’m sure Monty wouldn’t mind spending this hot day in the water. Even Mark said a day in the lake would keep them happy.
“Would you guys like to play in the lake today?” Rosie jumps off the bed and screeches a yes, while Monty looks at me with puppy eyes and nods his head a million times. I match my excitement to theirs and usher them outside. I get dressed into my bathing suit, while they sit on the porch waiting. I don’t bother with a shirt after my bathing suit is on, I just put on some shorts and sandals.
As soon as I walk outside Monty and Rosie hop off the chairs and wait for me to lock the door. When I’m done they grab both of my hands and drag me to their house. We nearly tripped five times getting there, but finally the house came into view. Sounds are coming from the open garage not too far away. Some tool was going off and when it stopped a voice filled it’s place. Daryl’s voice. My heart dropped, he sounds a bit different but I could tell his voice from a mile away. I shake my head from any thoughts of him and walk us all forwards. The front door was unlocked so we went inside.
“Alright you two, I want you to go put on your suits and sunblock. Grab anything else you want, and I’ll make us a picnic. You guys like that plan?” Rosie and Monty looked at each other, nodded, then took off sprinting to their separate rooms.
5 minutes later I had two sandwiches done, and 3 bottled waters beside them. I run a mental list of what I need, towels, extra sunblock, food, water, a camera, maybe some toys, and whatever else I can think of. I finish the last sandwich and grab some fruits and snacks from the fridge, which Cherry and Mark said I have free reign of. I had my camera in the bag I brought, and I saw some sunblock in the bathroom last night. All I need are the towels.
I spent several more minutes trying to find those damned things, but couldn’t see them anywhere. I brace myself for what is to come. I have to ask Mark, and Mark is with Daryl.
I make my way outside of the house and towards the open, metal shed. I can see the body of the car just slightly sticking out of the garage. I brace myself as I walk in. Instead of my eyes finding Daryl's again, they are faced with Marks hunched over back. Daryl was no where to be seen. Mark was bent over the hood, fixing something with the engine I guess.
“Uh, Mark?” I call over the loud noises. Mark whips around and nearly hits his head on the open hood of the car. He chuckles to himself and gives me a warm smile. He has oil up the back of his neck, and cheek.
“Oh, hey (Y/N).” Suddenly the loud noise stops and Mark and I hear a loud crash, followed by a sheepish “ow”. Mark leans over the car.
“You alright Daryl?” My cheeks burn red as Daryl emerges from under the car. He had grease and dirt all over him, covering his deep blush, the sight of him took my breath away. If I thought he was cute at 14...well, if my 13 year old self saw him now, I don’t even know what she would do. Daryl avoids eye contact with me, but nods to Mark.
“M’ fine.” He mumbles. He shuffles his feet and the air seems thicker, like he also thought this should be going different. We should be hugging, and catching up. But instead we can’t even look at each other without wanting to drool, or runaway.
Mark turns to me, eyeing the two of us with a sly smile. I can only imagine how Cherry talked us up to be. I fight the urge to roll my eyes at the thought of Cherry telling Mark all about Daryl and I when we were younger.
“Something wrong with the kids?” Mark asks me. I quickly shake my head.
“No, they’re inside getting ready for the lake. We’re going to be over there if you need us.” I suddenly forgot my question for Mark when out of the corner of my eye, I saw Daryl trail his eyes over me, taking me in. I could watch him all day, looking at me like that. Maybe I should wear this bathing suit more often.
“That all?” Mark asks me kindly. I laugh stupidly, god I was standing there like an idiot.
“Uhm no, sorry. I was wondering where the towels were?”
“Oh sure thing. Let me go get them for you.” Before I could stop him, Mark is out of sight and going towards the house. Anxiety courses through me as I turn to Daryl. But all those feelings go away when we lock eyes, we were friends once, why the hell am I so nervous? He isn't a stranger, right? Neither of us said a word, I wanted to say hi, or something witty but I just couldn’t get a word out. He looked at me different, his mouth pulled in a thin line instead of that easy smile he wore years ago. He was the first to break the silence.
“How long you stayin’ this time?” His voice was harsher than I ever remember it being. It takes me a second to gather my wits.
“I don’t know Daryl.” I thought I saw his chest still when I said his name, like he was holding his breath. But he lets out a dry laugh and looks to the floor again.
“Why you slummin’ it anyway?” He said with his eyes trailing around us, then finally setting to a glare at me. His question felt like he poked me with a sharp stick. Who did he think I was?
“This ain’t slumming it Daryl.” I say sharply, he rolls his eyes and and scoffs. A bitter sound.
“Then why’d you make to leave so quick?” He shoots back. Before I could speak he cuts me off. “Nah, I bet you couldn’t wait to go back. Princess goes back to her castle, leaving the lot of us behind.” He sets his tool down and walks around the car, getting closer to me as he spoke. “Like wiping your hands of fucking filth aint’ it.” He seethed at me. I feel my own anger rise, why was he being like this?
“You think I wanted to leave you! That I wanted to leave this place. Daryl you were my friend, my best friend. I would’ve stayed if I didn’t have school, you know that.” I say. His jaw clenches and he walks behind me, bumping my shoulder, he grabbed a rag and wiped his hands from grease. He smells like gas, sweat and cigarettes.
“Ya, well I don’t want no friends. You ain’t no different from any of ‘em!” He couldn’t look at me now, he threw the towel down on the table and walked back around to where he was before I disrupted him. My chest heaved and constricted. How could he say that? I had to go so many years ago, I had to leave him...
Mark cheerfully walks in with a stack of colorful towels in his arms. Clearly oblivious to the tension in the room.
“Here ya go!” He hands the towels to me and a Coke to Daryl. “Back to business then?” Mark jokes. Daryl grunts a reply and picks up his tool again, giving me the cold shoulder. I hold a snarky comment back and turn to Mark.
“Thanks Mark. I’ll get out of your way then.” I say the last part a bit harsher than I meant to, but It wasn’t directed towards Mark.
I rush out of there, and take a few seconds to breath. I refuse to cry, this is going to be a good day. I walk back to the house to see Rosie standing there in a blue, ruffled bathing suit, and Monty in green swim trunks. He was holding onto a large dinosaur floatie, that looked more like the loch ness monster. I beam at their cuteness, feeling better already. I tell them to hold on while I go inside to finish putting the picnic things in a bag. I was only gone a couple of minutes before I walk out to find them with white streaks all over their body. In my absence they put sunblock on, badly may I add. I laugh and help them rub it in.
You three make your way to the lake, completely oblivious to Daryl’s gaze, and his sad, hidden smile, as he watched you walk away.
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( cisfemale | she/her | bahar şahin ) —— isn’t that CHERILYN ‘CHERRY’ VALENTINE? yeah that is them, sitting there at the RAVENCLAW table with those other SIXTH years. when sybill looks into that crystal ball of hers, she sees lipstick kisses on dinner napkins, the bittersweet smell of dark chocolate, rolled up sleeves of an oversized cable-knit sweater, ornate old fashioned rings on each finger, a bouquet of wilting flowers, and the smoke left behind a blown-out candle. anyway i’ve heard they’re pretty ARTICULATE, CONDEMNATORY, and SERAPHIC. apparently they’re NEUTRAL and HALFBLOOD but i’m sure that’s not related.
tw: death, neglect.
basics
full name: cherilyn emiri valentine, originally born cherilyn emiri yavuz
nicknames: cherry, cher.
birthday: 16 october, 1959
sun/moon/rising sign: libra sun, cancer moon, virgo rising
age: seventeen
place of birth: ferrara, province of ferrara emilia-romagna, italy
gender: cisfemale
sexual orientation: pansexual
occupation: student, hopeful future architect & animated portraits artist or translator
parents: selene & evangeline valentine (adopted mothers), osmen & melike yavuz (birth parents)
languages spoken: fluent in turkish, italian, french & english
accent: barely there northern italian, but mostly a combination of estuary english, east anglian english and queen's english
tidbits
miss cherilyn valentine’s story began on the 16th of october in northern italy. born to a turkish wizard father and muggle mother, magic was never discussed in the household and thus resulting in cherry having no idea that part of her world existed.
death tw it wasn’t until the tragic accident that resulted in her fathers death that she realized she was different, having screamed so loud when she found him that every window shattered and every book flew off of their bookshelf. cherrys father was her best friend. end of tw
neglect tw after the accident, cherry’s mom blamed her for it and eventually left. she would say things about how cherry was the cause and how she was a freak and could never love her again. it was a lot for a 5 year old to handle and eventually she was placed in an orphanage. end of tw
cherry was the third daughter adopted in the valentine family and most of her memories consist of the siblings she grew up with – all around the same age and all special.
her adopted moms are witches themselves, having attended hogwarts and adopting the girls knowing they’d be doing the same. they grew up in a loving household, always told they could achieve anything. they even helped them understand where they’re from and integrate their past lives as many ways as possible. for cherry, it included becoming fluent in italian and all the other languages that were native to her siblings.
cherry is what one would consider the mom friend. she’s incredibly organized and always plays on the side of caution when it came to her siblings.
however, she is also the biggest hopeless romantic. she falls in love with things, ideas, and people quickly and gets hurt just the same. she believes in all the story tales and happily ever afters. however !!! this doesn’t mean she’s naive, it just means she’s hopeful.
she’s a very lovey person, her love language is physical touch so she’s always expressing herself through big gestures and body language.
she’s incredibly charismatic and magnetic, always making new friendships and wanting to investigate the castle. she loves mysteries and spends a lot of her downtime looking at runes.
cherry is an artist. she grew up painting but found her talents best in sculpture and other architecture. wandering the castle is her favorite hobby and nothing the different statues around.
libra sun: libras are known for being social and charming, and when the sun is in libra, they shine down upon everyone they meet. their charisma is magnetic, and they thrive in a group. they love to share ideas and figure out a balanced approach to everything. tor them, balance is key.
cancer moon: cancer is ruled by the moon, so to have cancer as your actual moon sign makes you incredibly empathetic, sympathetic, compassionate and even psychic when it comes to tuning in to your, and others', emotions. you are very sensitive personally.
virgo rising: you are likely to view the world through the lens of mental analysis, with a view toward organization.you have strong critical faculties and need to find practical outlets for your skills, talents and abilities.typically humble and at times self-effacing, you are likely be more concerned with being useful than being recognized.
wanted connections
bring her sisters/siblings !!!! rahhhh !!!! lol here’s the wc: the four valentine siblings are thick as thieves – even if they may all have been sorted into different houses: one in gryffindor, one in hufflepuff, one in ravenclaw (cherry), and one in slytherin. all having been adopted, they came from nearly different worlds thus making them different blood, but siblings and witches nonetheless. if it hadn’t been for the same surname ( and that the four of them would do anything for each other ), no one would’ve even realized they were siblings – that’s how different they are. this is incredibly open to interpretation and any fc is open since they were all adopted !
someone she has an unspeakable crush on: miss girl is a hopeless romantic. this could be anyone idk im open to any interpretation !
an ex on bad or awkward terms: the two ended badly or now its very awkward that they try to avoid each other as best as they can. they would never get back together, but they know each other so well that its almost weird for them to suddenly not speak. could eventually turn into a friendship or something :~)
something toxic bc im evil: toxic relationship? toxic friendship? someone not good for cherry but she’s too blinded by her love for them that she doesn’t notice it.
friends :~): while she has many siblings who have been her built in friends, cherry is pretty different from them and needs someone who is like her and understands her. i’m thinking a pair that you wouldn’t want to mess with or come across because they’re always in their own world. could be some sexual tension btw the besties bc are you really friends with someone if there aint or is it just me 😀
idk help !!!!!!!!
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[ aron piper, questioning, he/him ] — * oh, here comes OLIVER “OLLIE” PARKER ! the twenty one year old scorpio is often referred to as the insurgent. people say they have a tendency to be reactionary and stubborn, but from what i’ve seen, they can be empathetic and loyal too. when they walk by, you’ll probably hear rock ’n’ roll high school by the ramones playing out of their headphones, but they’re also associated with the faint smell of cigarette smoke, bruised knuckles, and staying up too late listening to loud music. i hear they’re waiter at the roller derby diner & want to become a musician when they’re older, but who knows what will become of ‘em !
Born to a musician father, and a mother who left when he was still a baby, Ollie spent the beginning of his childhood backstage at shows, or on tour with his dad. The backseat of his father’s van was anything he could imagine it to be - a stage, a cliff above boiling lava, a space ship. The tour life perhaps wasn’t what one might imagine as the ideal situation for a child growing up, but it was what Ollie knew, and where he was comfortable.
When he was seven years old, however, his grandfather stepped in, saying that what Ollie really needed was stability, and he was never going to get with a father who lived that sort of lifestyle. After that, Ollie moved into the spare bedroom in his grandfathers house, though when his dad was in town, between shows, sometimes he would go and stay at his apartment.
Ollie never got along with his grandfather - The old man was always a hard ass, and probably wasn’t the exact right person to be raising a child, after his own was already grown and out of the house. Especially a kid like Ollie, who had always been somewhat of a trouble maker.
Throughout school, he was constantly on the brink of expulsion. Sometimes he’ll claim that he had the record for the most detentions, although there’s no proof of that (though it isn’t unbelievable).
More than one person was convinced that Ollie wouldn’t graduate at all, and the only reason he did in the end was because of summer school (and probably help with homework from some of his friends). He’s also probably been held back at least once.
He’s been working at the Roller Derby Diner as a waiter now for a couple years now, and he’s trying to save up to move out of his grandfathers house (except he usually ends up spending money on weed instead). It’s a bit of a wonder he hasn’t gotten fired yet.
He (mostly) loves all his friends and would do anything for them, anything which usually ends up being punching anyone who messes with them.
Yo Ruthie -
so summer school fucking blows. and I do promise, actually, I swear, on my guitar, all my tapes, and the car that I’m definitely gonna get eventually - that I will be at the lake this weekend, because pissing off my grandpa is a sacrifice I’m willing to make. for friendship. and yes, I am pretending that I’m working on English homework right now, and no, I don’t want to hear any criticism from anyone about how I’m not going to graduate. who cares if I don’t graduate anyway? I’ll just start a band and become a famous rockstar instead. I don’t even really want any of the shitty futures that adults try to tell you about, or convince you that you need to have. Especially the adults who used to be cool, or at least who think they used to be. If I ever end up working in an office, wearing a suit, and eating the same thing for lunch every single day, I’m going to need someone to kill me. Is that a responsibility you’re willing to take on?
Do you ever think about what Lucky was probably like, when he was our age? I highly doubt that he was anything short of fucking kick ass, because I don’t know, how could you be a total square and then turn out like that? Unlikely. I’ve decided that I’m gonna ask him for a job, actually, and I bet anything I’ll get it. Grandpa was just lecturing me this morning about the ‘value of hard work’ this morning and something about pulling myself up by the bootstraps and not ending up like my dad. But honest? I wouldn’t even mind ending up like my dad. He always brings me cool shit when he comes to visit, and last week he sent me a postcard. From Canada. We should all drive up to Canada, when I get my car - I’m thinking it would be cool to have a van. Also I saw one with a for sale sign the other day, so if I get the job at the diner, I bet I could save up pretty quick and buy it. Or try to convince grandpa that I NEED a car and I’m maturing and being responsible and shit. I think he’d buy that, if I got a job, right? And if I got Olivia or Delilah or someone to help with the convincing - He likes them. I mean, I’m pretty sure he likes all my friends more than he likes me, but also I think he’s probably pretty fucking biased. Whatever.
ANYWAY, LLOYD LAKE THIS WEEKEND, I PROMISE, I’LL BRING WEED. I’ve been saving it for the next time we all get together, which I hope you deeply appreciate. Because I’ve basically been bored out of my fucking mind up here.
x ollie
also here is his pinterest!!!
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This is Not a Whump Fic
TW for mild attempted kidnapping implications and mentions of Covid-19. Other than that, we’re just smashing some tropes!
Phoebe McKenna sighed as the breeze caressed her face, blowing tendrils of her black-brown hair back from her face. Christ, she thought, I must be going crazy if I get this excited about going to the goddamn grocery store.
She even dressed up for the occasion to go somewhere other than her living room: pink kitten heels, light-washed skinny jeans that showed off her dancer’s figure, sky blue sweater that finally matched the cloudless expanse above her. Sure, the protective mask over her face ruined the outfit a little, maring her light brown features, but Phoebe swirled her hair into a tight, high ponytail and made the best of it. She had a mission, after all.
Phoebe ran a finger down her color-coded list as she stepped into the store, snagging what she could aisle by aisle until she almost ran into trouble. Literally.
In front of Phoebe in the dried fruit and nuts section was a white-haired woman coughing so hard she could barely stay on her feet. She kept a white-knuckled grip on her cart as Phoebe watched the spittle fly from her uncovered mouth to the floor, the nearby shelves, and everything the woman touched after that. The woman coughed every few steps as she shuffled along and a part of Phoebe wanted to rush to her side, letting the lady lean into Phoebe’s shoulder as Phoebe led her to her car and got the rest of her items for her.
Another piece of Phoebe’s brain could imagine herself slowly coming down with the virus, dragging herself through household chores until she collasped in front of the laundry machine. Her roommate, Elijah, would hear her and come rushing. He secretly had a crush on her since they met at the tenant’s gathering, but he was a mechanic and look at her. She was way out of his league. He would stumble over his words, asking Phoebe who to call as he carried her to bed. He would spoon feed her his grandma’s gumbo as Phoebe progressively got worse and worse, sleeping fitfully in a chair by her bed each night to change the cool compress on her head until her fever broke. Finally, Phoebe would reach out to him and he’d take her hand. After months of touch-starved longing, the feeling would be electric, like connection, a connection only amplified when Elijah lifted her palm to brush his lips against the back of her knuckles as she fell back to sleep with a smile on her face.
Instead, Phoebe circled back to snag gallon-sized Ziplock bags, bleach, a squirt bottle, and a bottle of lemon essential oils, getting the rest of her produce while carefully avoiding any where she could tell the elderly woman went.
After checking out at a decidedly different station, she found the poor cashier who worked with the woman, setting her supplies on the end of his empty lane. The kid couldn’t have been older than 19, judging by his acne and the reddened hands he hadn’t grown into yet. Phoebe smiled in sympathy.
“Put one part bleach and 16 parts water in here,” she said, gesturing to the squirt bottle. “I remember mornings in my sorority house after a party. This will disinfect like nothing else. The bags will work as gloves since your superiors can’t be assed to give you any. A few drops of this stuff--she wagged the oils in the air--and they won’t smell a thing.”
“Six...sixteen parts water?”
She nodded back at him with a wink. “Sorority girl and a chemistry major. Just be sure to put the bleach in first.”
Phoebe was halfway to her car when she heard a loud, distressed drawl behind her.
“No, Maw, I don’t know what else to do. I been to three stores already and they aint got nothing nowhere! I’m telling you, empty shelves is all.”
She glanced over her shoulder to see a man in his late twenties practically shouting into a flip phone. His blue eyes met her amber ones before flicking down to the bags in her hands.
“Hey, miss!” he called. “You don’t happen to have some toilet paper in there, do ‘ya?”
Phoebe nodded.
“Could ‘ya…Would ‘ya be willing to split some of that with me? I don’t need much, just a couple of rolls for me and my maw.”
Phoebe looked the man up and down. He had black hair smushed beneath a faded green trucker’s cap. He could have been handsome beneath his sunburn and slouched posture.
“Sure,” she said. “I have a 8-pack and really only need four. You’re welcome to the rest.”
He hooted and spun in a circle before gesturing to the back of the store where Phoebe could barely see a run-down pick-up truck hidden in the shadows of the building.
“Well aren’t you just my angel today, miss! If you’ll just come along with me, I’ll get ‘ya the money outta my ride.”
“That’s fine, no charge. We’re all in a pinch these days,” Phoebe smiled.
Already walking, the man faltered slightly.
“Well, my hands are pretty full, little lady. Surely you don’t mind just throwing it in the back there?”
With a critical eye, Phoebe caught a glimpse of the shiny muzzle of the hunting rifle back seat and the distinctive gray-silver of duct tape in the man’s bags.
“Social distancing, remember!” she said, still smiling. “Besides, I’m late to a brunch set-up with my sister and she’s probably already calling to know where I am. Why don’t I just set your stuff down right here. You can get it after you drop off your bags.”
With that, she immediately pulled out her phone, finger on the emergency dial.
“Hey Tammy,” she cooed into the receiver. “Yes, yes, I’m on my way. Girl, I know I’m late. You really want to start this thing without mixers? Yeah, I didn’t think so.”
When Phoebe got to her red Ford Focus, she didn’t wait to see if the man got his toilet paper. She didn’t wait for him to tap on her window asking for a jump. She just hit the gas and sped home.
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Finally, finally Phoebe made it back to her apartment complex, stopping just long enough to put out the food she bought for Mr. Meow. Mrs. Rodriquez was having trouble getting down the stairs to feed the tabby stray and Phoebe helped when she could.
She slipped a small silver key out of her pocket and shimmied into the basement door.
“Sorry that took so long! You would not believe the time I just had!” Phoebe sighed, properly disposing of her mask in the trash can by the door. “Anyway where were we? And I swear, if that cat, or anything, interrupts us again, I’m going to set it on fire.”
She strode across the floor, covered in industrial-style plastic sheeting to the man duct taped to the stark wooden chair in the middle of the room. His green eyes were wild and bloodshot as he struggled with the gag shoved roughly in his mouth.
“Of course, there are things I would much rather be burning,” Phoebe said, kicking the chair backward and drawing a strained cry from the man before she caught it at the last minute so he teetered there between covered concrete and kitten heel.
“Oh, that was cute!” Phoebe pursed her lips. “I do love those delicious sounds.”
Reaching to her back pocket, she pulled out a light-blue Hello Kitty lighter and flicked it on, placing it just below the man’s ear. His eyes twitched as she moved it nearer and nearer. He could feel the heat almost searing his face, but he couldn’t see more than a threatening jolt of light at the edge of his vision.
“Now,” Phoebe said, jerking the lighter forward in one smooth move. “Do it again.”
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HC:
So i decided to do that. For your enterteinment. i presENT YOU: ghost astrology.
Papa Nihil - CAPRICORN : Since he is described as a powerful, firm leader with stamina and sexual energy (when younger). He seems to me like the old king in fairytales that refuses to give out his throne, no matter the fact that he's no longer suitable for it. Im not saying he's a bad person or anything, im just pointing out stuff i notice. And thats fine! Control and strictness is what keeps a good order and drives business ahead!
Papa Emeritus I - VIRGO: Now as the oldest one of the Emeritus brothers I strongly do believe he has the most of his father's influence, which doesnt necesserily make him bad or evil at all. In fact he tries his best to transform all the learnt lessons in something productive and useful for the new Papas! Basically helping them grow, teaching and showing them their ways in order for the bloodline to prospere. I imagine his number one mission would have been to fulfill his duty towards the Clergy and hiis father, but as well try to be a good exmaple for II and III.
Papa Emeritus II - ARIES: He is the middle child. Not too old, not too young but perfect to be between the hammer and the envil. I imagine him as a quick learner, deffintely has a lot from his father's leadership characte (big dick energy i mean), he's always trying to be better and stronger, trying to prove himself, to find his place in the family. Emeeritus II would deffinitely be the problematic child in my eyes, but also very passionate about his little brother - he'd protect him at all cost, which would probably cause HIM a lot of arguments with his father (punishments for instance), but also be extremely respectful towards the Emeritus bloodline.
Papa Emeritus III- SCORPIO: As being the youngest of his brothers, I suppose that III would be full of energy! I think he'll have a lot from his father's sexul energy and stamina, but he'd lack the leadership and strictness, when it comes to ruling. He'd be more of a friend with every single person rather than being their "Boss" (lol). Of course if needed be, III would probably make a good leader and a Papa - he'd do his best to keep everything under control, maybe he'd look for help or seek advice from his older brother so Papa Nihil doesnt think he is not fit for the place. But in general i think he has a soft heart, full of lust and desire. Papa III might be a little manipulative, sassy, flirty and secretive at times but oh well its part of his charm!
Cardinal Copia- LIBRA: Deffinitely a sass machine! He was the character that i was like 100% sure about! Cardi is a soft boi, he aint ashamed of it and he loves showing it to the people around him. His undying love for his rats and his geniuane good character are one of his best traits! Cardi tries his best to prove himself worthy in front of Papa and Imperator, no matter how sceptic the patriarch is. I imagine he'd be the sensitive type that would be in good humor all day, being all goofy and friendly with every single person, while doing his best to fullfil everyone's expectations.. And in the end of the day he'd just lay in his bed, stare at the ceiling and become way too self-critical about everything he had done during the day, which would lead to his hidden anxiety and maybe depression.
GHOULS. ERA 4.
Aether- TAURUS: Beefy boi is definitely a Taurus. There is no other sign that fits him more than this one! He's humble, a good friend, really talkative, extremely friendly not only with the other band members, but the audiance as well! Aether gives out the 'big teddy bear' vibe and he's not afraid to show it. He loves a good company, I suppose he'd be one of the good chefs around the ghouls and he'd be more than glad to share this talent of his with the others! I imagine Aether as the jolly sweet friend who's always there to help and is really passionate and protective of the people he loves. Also - really sensitive, even tho he might not show it.
Dewdrop - ARIES: Hyperenergetic, attention loving slut. He's the human form of the word 'firecracker'. Dew is like a magnet for troubles, no wonder why he broke his horn! I suppose he'd have a lot of bruises on his body, maybe even tattooes! He is the sporty type - likes running, hopping, skipping around and most of all - terorizing evey single soul around him. What's more - he is 24/7 aroused and he aint afraid to show it. He's well aware of the fact he intimidates people with his sexually agressive aura and he enjoys every bit of it! Also stomping on stage and the little "guitar battles" he has with Aether sometimes is what keeps his competative spirit alive and in shape!
Rain- CANCER Softboi allert!!! Absolutely no doubt that Rain is a Cancer. He is one of the "quiet" ghouls on stage. He's not a fan of the attention like Dew for instance, he just loves to enjoy what he's doing! The vibe he sends out to the people is also really soft - Rain wants every single person to feel the melody of his bass in their hearts! For him, being a part of the band is like being a part of "God's work" to spread the gorgeous art of music! Rain loves to be surrounded by the people he loves and most deffinitely has anxiety around new people and sometimes on stage. He feels at peace while playing the bass and is also really caring and loving, always trying to make others comfortable around him!
Swiss - LEO: Swiss boi is definitely a Leo. He radiates such a strong sassy, flirty vibe i cant even. He loves dancing (obvs), being in the center of attention but not as much as Dew. While the little jumpy-boi is demanding the crowd's adoration, Swiss just gets it not the agressive way. He just naturally gets all eyes on him with his swift moves, sexy ass body, grea talent and backing voice. He deffinitely is the star "in disguise". I imagine him off stage to be as sassy as on it, but way more flirty when it comes to giving autographs or even talking with someone. He just flirts naturally, he doesnt even need to try!
Mountain - AQUARIUS: IDK why i get this vibe from his. He's a little(lol) dork. I feel like Mountain's the "dad's joke on regular basis" type of friend, who always knows how to cheer up a situation. He's not a fan of being in the sportlight, he enjoys his place. I think he doesnt like arguments or confronting anyone anyhow, much like Rain, but if he has to go out there and defend his opinion or someone else's he'd be more than glad to do so. The civilized way ofc. As much as he loves drumming and all the loud noise around him, i have a feeling that Mountain would love to be left alone in peace after a show, have a walk or just simply take a shower and read some conspiracy theories or his favorite series.
Cummulus PISCES: Girly girly girl VIBES!!! I have a feeling that the short, sweet little ghoulette would be A) a shopaholic and B) your best friend in crime! She's the one serving looks, willing to gosip all the time and most probably try to turn Rain into her own live verison of the Ken-doll. In fact i think they're both really close since they have share a fair amount of common interests like music, small animals, taking care of others etc. I suppose they'd often go for duets or something. Also I think she's the "mother-friend" who apart from being super crazy and ready to do a lot of stuff (brunch, nights out, girly nights with Cirrus and others), Cummulus would be very protective around the people she loves! Also she has a great connection with the fans - they love her and she adores them!
Cirrus - GEMINI: Cirrus is definitely the one that's more "fiery" from the ghoulettes. Her stage presence is showing really well and she loves to communicate with each and every ghoul. In fact if she had the chance, she would get someone from the audiance on stage and jam with them! WHo knows maybe they'd become friends after the ritual? She is one of the ghouls that have the strongest need to be around others. I imagine her being really close to all of the ghouls (mostly Cummulus ofc) and Cardi, almost as if she's the best friend of the group. Cirrus is definitely the ghoul that spends most of her time on the internet, chatting with fans maybe or simply spending time in tumblr or twitter, sharing her day and creating memes. Also big fan of posting funny photos of the ghouls and Cardi (Dew being super mad about it, tho)!
So uuuh yeah, that really turned out to be longer than i expected, but uuh I hope you like it guys! i did my best and i'll be super glad to hear what you think or even share your opinion on the matter! ILYSM
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living with university student!got7 au; maknae line
got7 m.list
Choi Youngjae
youngjae is so underrated i wish more people would recognize him too
okay youngjae wasn’t always the worst roommate ever
at the beginning he was very much normal and easy to handle
when you two were freshmen, he was very quiet and hardly ever home
he literally spent most of his time at the library with the other boys
during your sophomore year, he started to actually be at home more
that’s when things went downhill
for you at least
you knew youngjae was a music major
but you didn’t know that this would actually become more of a bad thing
than a good thing :(
you knew youngjae was a really great singer
in fact that’s part of the reason why you let him be your roommate
you thought it would be nice to hear him singing and practicing the songs he wrote
OH BOY WERE YOU WRONG
well kinda wrong
it wasn’t that he was bad of course
but he was always so loud
sometimes he would be singing at like 3am
omg and his warm ups were the worst
they literally sounded like bird calls
you actually got a complaint from a few of your guys’ neighbors because of that
you wanted to kick him out
but he was the only one who was willing to pay the high rent price
anyways
when he first moved in, he had coco
coco is cute
she really is
bUT
whenever youngjae wasn’t home she would try to fight you
one time you went into youngjae’s room when he wasn’t there to borrow his mic because you needed to record something for one of your projects
coco thought you were trying to steal it and started barking at you while pulling your shirt when you kneeled down on the floor to find the mic
she would just bark at you no matter what if youngjae wasn’t there
you told youngjae about it once
but he just argued back saying that coco wasn’t like that
“no, coco is very sweet”
“maybe you’re just imagining things”
“she’s barking at you because she likes you”
your ripped up pillow says otherwise tho :(
anyways
youngjae always likes to play computer games
wait no correction
he LOVES to play computer games
you had to admit you liked playing them too
however, youngjae would always and i mean ALWAYS play at really late times
your room was right next to his so you would always hear him clicking and typing away while yelling at the screen whenever he would lose a fight in the game
“YAH YAH YAH OVER THERE” “NOOOOOO” “OH MY GOD” “I TOLD YOU NOT TO GO IN YET” “WE GOT KILLED BECAUSE OF YOU” etc.
other than all that, youngjae isn’t really that bad of a roommate
if he cooks food for himself, he actually cleans up his mess afterwards
he knows better than to use any of your stuff without asking
also if he cooks too much food, he always leaves the leftovers in the fridge in case you wanted some too
Bambam
this bitch
like jackson, he’s a very annoying roommate
bambam is a sassy bitch
sometimes if you ask him to help you do something he replies with “you can do it yourself”
it makes you want to choke him to death sometimes
however despite his sassy comebacks he still does whatever you ask him to
at least most of the time he does
anyways back to the whole sassy bitch thing
we know our bammie loves his fashion
that boy’s got a better sense of fashion than i do
he’d probably occasionally criticize/roast you about your outfit
because ya know he’s a fashion major and that’s what they’d do
well, at least that’s what he’d do
“omg are you really going out in just sweats and a hoodie?”
“you look like you just woke up”
obv its because you probably just did like who gets up early to dress up for class in college these days
“that’s the reason why you don’t have a boyfriend yet, you always dress like that”
“you should take some advice from me”
lists a 380498230948290 different reasons why you should let him help you with your fashion choices
aNYWAYS MOVING ON
his cats
omg his cats
this is basically the whole jaebum situation
whenever he leaves the apartment and you’re still there, he leaves his bedroom door open
actually he does that anyways but its worse when he’s not there
why?
oh well because half the time when he’s not there, his cats go and bother you
it’s not really a problem when you’re not doing anything important
but sometimes you’re trying to focus on writing up a report for one of your classes and one of his cats just pounces onto your laptop
then you end up with a report that has a bunch of “keyboard smashes” in different places
it takes you a while to look through your essay and delete everything that’s not suppose to be there
you told bambam this once but of course he just tells you that maybe you should be nicer to his cats so they wouldn’t bother you
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okay i know it may seem like i’m shit talking bambam but it aint that deep
other than being a complete nuisance, bambam is actually a really good roommate
like he pays rent on time, sometimes he buys extra food so he can share with you, he cleans up after himself, and.... well that’s about it
Kim Yugyeom
yugyeom is basically bambam
i mean are we surprised???
they’re literally the same person
anyways
the only good thing about yugyeom i guess is that he’s a bit more obedient
sure he likes being a sassy little bitch too
but if you tell him to do something he’ll do it
mostly because he doesn’t want to get his ass whooped
hit the stage kim yugyeom is obviously a dance major
now that sounds cool, right?
having a dance major as a roommate???
well, there’s an equal amount of pros and cons
let’s start with the cons
con #1: sometimes he practices in the apartment
he does this for one of two reasons; it’s late and the dance studio is closed or the lightbulb in his head suddenly lit up so he had to test out the choreography real quick
if he does the second one, he’d probably end up dragging you out of whatever you were doing and ask you to film it for him
“Hey, hey, hey i thought of some really cool choreography and i need you to film it for me so i can look at it again later”
he knows he’s capable of propping up his phone and filming it himself but he lowkey just wanted to bother you
con #2: he’s so childish like most of the time it’s not even funny
well, you have to admit it’s kinda funny but ajsdklsajdalsk that’s beyond the point
con #3: because he was always pranked on by the other guys, instead of pranking them back he decided to just prank you
for example, one time you went back home for winter break and came back to find your shampoo bottle was mixed with red dye
luckily the hair dye was only semi-permanent so it didn’t even last that long
also tea you had your hair dyed a dark color while you were gone anyways so it wasn’t even noticeable
there’s a lot more cons that comes with being roommates with yugyeom, but let’s just skip those and talk about the pros
back to the whole thing about him being a dance major
it was really nice seeing him show his creativity through his dances
you could see that he was really passionate about what he was doing and that somehow motivated you to do better in your own major
he’s actually very thoughtful (sometimes)
whenever he’s out eating with his friends, he always thinks “maybe i should bring some food to go for y/n”
also if he knows you need something whether it be some new toothpaste, shampoo, conditioner, etc. he’ll probably most likely get it for you when he’s out shopping for himself
although he’d also like tell you to pay him back for it whether you said so yourself or not
anyways another pro of having yugyeom as a roommate is that he’s actually really fun to be around
it’s literally never boring when he’s around
yugyeom makes everyone uwu
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okay to talk about EXACTLY HOW i would handle giving charon a big good boss fight and also sympathetic backstory and redemption and all that jazz
there are approximately ten million words beneath the cut, and also ten million raspberries in my shampoo, and these charon thoughts are just as sweet as that
alright so ALREADY i kinda did feel like he was sort of a friendly enemy when i first played the game?? like his Thing of being the constantly never fightable dude actually was kind of sympathetic in a way. it always just felt like he was Chilling Out and not giving much of a shit about being evil and also had nothing personal against you the player. he doesnt follow any of cyrus’s big philosophy and he’s clearly only here for the money and really phoning it in, and that kinda makes him not your enemy at all, even though he’s on the team youre fighting. Like I always found it a good establishing moment that in the Valley Windworks when they first introduce “hey this time there’s two galactic teammates here” and all, CHARON IS STANDING DIRECTLY IN EYELINE OF YOU RUINING EVERYONE’S PLANS. he’s just standing there! and of course he’ll never do anything to warn mars about you, the game just isnt programmed that way. but it fits really well with his character if you think of it as an intentional thing? just imagine this random gramps sitting there drinking tea while all his teammates actually Care About Things and Use Effort. He’s always criticizing team galactic’s plan too and like WHY IS HE DOING THAT TO YOU if not because Nintendo Wants Him To Be My Best Friend ok. Like he doesn’t fuckin trust anyone on his team so why would he spill the beans about his big secret plans he has to make money off of this villain plan and then bail before they actually do all the dumb shit with legendaries and such. Yes ok its PROBABLY just because its a videogame and they need to exposit stuff to the player that the character is probably just thinking and not saying out loud. But wouldnt it be so much better this way!!!! Also even when you finally face off against him personally in the postgame for his actual dumb money plan he’s still like ‘lol fourth wall breaking time im gonna not have a boss battle cos if you beat cyrus’s ass i aint got no chance’. Dammit nintend i still wanted to fight him but thats endearing so i cant stay mad at u! And he has several lines during it with stuff like “i like seeing children trying so hard BUT YOURE TOO LATE” and “youth like you can live in idealism but for me its all about the money”. Like man u remember that time i had a big angry rant about how his manga version was super OOC cos they didnt just choose to make him eviler but made him murder a child? like the only time anything involving children is mentioned in canon its him being mildly more polite to children!!! MILDLY FRIENDLY! LET ME HAVE THIS...
okay so YEAH the first big change would be just giving him more screentime and more fleshed out character in these early scenes. Make him a full on friendly character who is technically on the opposite side but has no beef with you and no loyalty to the greater plan of his team. So he’s just comically like “oh hi again! yeah lol today’s plan sucks huh?” and makes idle conversation while the main character villain admin of the day is actually doing important plot stuff. like have him along for everyone’s scenes not just mars at the start, dissappear for hours until the very end. And yes definately keep the thing of the game constantly lampshading that he’s a new character for the third version of the game, and everyone in the team thinks he’s useless and forgets he’s even there. it was annoying in the original game cos he actually didnt get any love from the writers themselves, but yknow you could give him an expanded role and rewrite that stuff to be more like “oh poor guy he’s the underdog”, yknow? am i the only one who felt inherantly sorry for him?? i mean he’s a tiny grandpa!!! and he looks so sad on his official art!! Oh oh and also add the additional running jokes and expanded characterization he had in his very brief anime appearance, which was honestly the only well written part of the entire team galactic arc. It fleshed out a bit of his relationship with jupiter who never really appeared alongside him in the game except to say “im not teaming up with you” at the end. Having the context that she finds him annoying cos she’s very serious and also very dedicated to cyrus so she hates this opportunistic bastard pretending to be dedicated when its an obvious lie. And also she thinks his laugh is obnoxious XD Oh also I liked how they expanded upon that one scene of Saturn being sarcastic at gramps and made it into an actual thing that him and charon most often work together and have a mutually sassy dynamic. I found it humanizing that anime saturn is very serious but can comically overreact to very minor teasing from this grandpa! I thought that was better than the games where he’s just serious or the manga where he was 100% changed to be 100% silly and kinda stole charon’s personality for reasons i will never understand.
ANYWAY! IN SUMMARY! show scenes of charon being endearing by being not really interested in the big evilness, being underdog-y by always failing at his smaller evilnesses and getting disrespected, and also maybe drop in some more interpersonal relationships between the admins to hint that charon does indeed have some friendship going on even if he’s a tsundere bitch who’d never admit it. Also maybe the other thing from the anime where they made him a cool computer guy? cos srsly it was lazy that the games just said “he’s the science” and never clarified wtf he actually does at his job. cos cyrus is already a science boss??? he kinda already did most of the big sciencey plans?? why does he need this man if its not for mechanical or legendary pokemon stuff OK HEY MAYBE COMPUTERS! also its funny to imagine him being a memey blogger but sun and moon actually made faba canonically that so i dont think you could improve on him. TAKE NOTES FROM BEAN MAN, NINTENDO
Also maybe you could hint at the rotom backstory before it actually happens? like could just show some mild implications that he is sad, cos the ‘friendly enemy’ thing would already be decent foreshadowing for him potentially having a soft spot. “Wah i am an emotionless evil money man” says local villain, while gossipping with Dawn about his coworkers and sharing lemon squares. But like I mean i don’t really want him to be LITERALLY that, i still like him being grumpy and guarded about his secret good heart. I’m just saying “friendly” as in.. sort of a disconnect between what he says his personality is and how he actually acts. The stuff he actually says is very grumpy but like.. hey he’s saying stuff to you when he doesnt need to, and nobody else on this team is casually talking to you as if youre not an enemy. Like he’s SUBCONCIOUSLY friendly and doesnt realise it? He’d never SAY “i am lonely hello please talk to me” but he’d sure as hell walk over to you and talk to you anyway. About grumpy things! Grumpily! And maybe express occasional compliments in a sort of “haha im surrounded by idiots you’re way more down to earth than all these adults who act more like children”. Cos in that fourth wall breaking moment he has, he respects that you’re a badass and decides thats why he’s not gonna have a boss fight. “You’d just kick my ass, so lol fight these grunts instead while i run away and do my evil plan” That is the kind of sympathetic charon i want!! He’s doing a douchey thing by breaking the script of how boss battles work and making everyone else fight you instead even though he knows that they’ll lose. But he’s also likeable because breaking the script of boss battles is unexpected and comedic! And he’s also accidentally being complimentary to you so its like SIMULTANEOUS JERK AND NICE AT THE SAME TIME. Thats the good stuff!! That quality grumplegramp content!!! if he got redeemed and just 100% changed his personality to lose all the sass and sneakyness then that’d be boring yo...
OKAY WHERE WAS I? Okay hey once you’ve established that, maybe now you have a basis for the sad foreshadowing!! Like you could have one scene where he’s suddenly NOT friendly, he’s not just grumpy in the funny sort of way but actually seems cold and stoic and actually does something useful to the team’s mission or whatever. Sort of a ‘whoa what’s wrong with him today’ thing and it could be subtle cos on the first playthrough you’d just think he was being a jerk cos he’s a jerk and all. but maybe it happens on a scene of team galactic doing some evil plan in eterna forest/other place that’d potentially relate to the rotom sidequest. like he’s just really fuckin depressed to be reminded of his one big failure in life. OH maybe it could actually be at the unnamed junkyard thats mentioned in his backstory but doesnt actually feature as an area in the original game? It could make sense that it’d be part of their plan cos team galactic attacks various energy sources and other technology related places to find the stuff they need to make the big world erasure machine. could just be simply them robbing some old generator parts after their attempt to take the whole power plant failed.
Oh and also maybe add a lil something to his last scene at the galactic lab? Cos like.. what we already have in the game has potential to be a moment where he did a good thing but no its not. Like when you look at it, hey he kinda helped you out here by being all “hey lol saturn the kid is here, bye im not stopping u, feel free to take the lake trio”. Even if saturn is the one who actually SAID feel free to take the lake trio and actually had a good hint at redemptiveness moment and all. Please never take that away, that was good, you just coulda had both of them do it, yknow? And we dont wanna make charon go full good guy all of a sudden when he hasnt even finished his characetr arc, so instead make it more of a moment where its like “im a bad guy but this is going too far”. Like maybe ACTUALLY HAVE A PAYOFF for the foreshadowing that he has no loyalty to cyrus and is blatantly plotting to betray him at some point. He never actually did!! He only tries to capitalize on cyrus already being defeated in an entirely optional sidequest that fails at delivering a proper payoff.
So hey! My idea! Add some complexity here by making it clear that charon is evil in a more petty and mundane way and not in a.. like.. actually dangerous way. Once things start getting actually dangerous he starts chickening out! Like he’s a jerk who does mean things to get money but he’s just MEAN and not friggin murderous or worldending. Give him a moment of “oh shit cyrus was actually serious oh god how do i get off of this train”. Like it seemed that he never really believed that team galactic would ever truly create a new world, and he certainly didnt give a shit about it, he just thought he found an easy opportunity for a paycheck in some dumbass’s deluded plan that’d never really work. But OOPS i guess it actually is happening, oh fuck! Give him a bit of a crisis where he realizes what he actually helped this man do, but not like a full on “everything ive ever done is bad and i dont wanna be evil anymore”. Not YET! Just friggin.. “oh fuck i cant spend money if the universe doesnt exist and also i am dead”. “PLEASE HELP ME CHILD, CYRUS IS GONNA TAKE AWAY THE MONEY!!” xD It’d be fitting for his character and a good light moment of comic relief after the emotional and dark stuff happening around this section of the game. Like he already kinda does that by having that scene of saturn snarking at him, but it could be even more funny! Move the first him and saturn bickering scene to earlier on and have this be like a satisfying scene of saturn actually winning? cos in the anime it was always charon being smug and making fun of him while saturn gets all grumpy about it, now it could be the reverse with smug charon having a breakdown and realising his whole money plan is in shambles and its his own fault.
Also maybe it could have additional payoff with Charon actually helping you take down cyrus? Again, not actually because he’s switched sides but because he's still evil but evil for different reasons than cyrus. That good ‘reluctant teamup with minor goofy villain to take down big actually scary villain’ thing. With the added bonus that the minor goofy villain is objectively a worse person than the scary villain and the scary villain is still redeemable, as opposed to in the manga where they used this same trope in the form of “cyrus is good now and we’re making charon the big scary villain to prove how good cyrus is cos charon is worse”. That was dumb. It was especially dumb cos WHY ON EARTH would you pick charon for this??? like they still had moments of him being comedic and wimpy yet at the same time wanted us to believe he was legitimately threatening? ANYWAY my idea for this is that charon’s computer skills could pay off and it could be something like “oh i always put a failsafe kill switch in my computer just in case i need to grab the money and run”. Like him being a paranoid untrusting selfish asshole was actually the reason he was able to save the day! Also it would explain why cyrus’s machine only fails and summons giratina in platinum version. the manga actually did say that charon sabotaged the machine so thats one actually good thing that came from it! Congrats u filled one plothole while making twenty more XD
OH and perhaps this same section could also foreshadow the rotom thing? like I was thinking about how he could actually choose to give up and let you take the lake trio and have it still be 100% in character. It could be an extension of his “shit, i didnt think things would get this serious, please save me from the consequences of my own actions!” moment. Cos I think that any normal dumb greedy money man would still be horrified at the idea of mutilating a thousand year old majestic unicorn of mythology and then flushing it down the toilet when it outlives its uselessness. Like he doesnt do it because he wants to help you save the day or anything, just cos the idea of killing the lake trio is just too evil for even him. It could be kind of a meaningful moment about how cyrus is doing all this for good reasons yet they caused him to do these actions that are even more evil than the actual dude with evil motives. And maybe you could establish this through a scene of him and cyrus inetracting, which could also help amp up how intimidating cyrus is, in preparation for the big climax? Have charon trying to wimp out of “disposing of the useless specimens”, but cyrus is having none of it. Like it could start off funny with him making up loads of other excuses cos there’s no way he’d admit he’s having Feelings and all. “Wait but let me have them! if theyre useless to you then i can just sell them right?? ha ha thats the only reason im saying this, lol you know me i’d never be swayed by any sentiment” But cyrus sees through it instantly and gets right up in his face like fuckin Raw Cold Fury, no you are NOT going to disobey me. He is PISSED OFF because the only reason he kept this useless senile old bat around is because he’s the only one in this group who isn’t a simpering moron at the mercy of their pitiful heart. If you can’t even do that, then what’s the use of you? So everything charon tries fails and all he accomplishes is getting fired on the spot for even TALKING ABOUT defying his boss. And cyrus just orders saturn to dispose of the lake trio instead. Saturn of course is smarter and says nothing in defiance, but then the both of them work together to let you take the pokemon and just act like they failed to stop you rather than doing it on purpose. And its kind of an uncharacteristically quiet and intense moment between these dudes that are usually at each other’s throats with funny banter. They’re united for a moment but for very different reasons. Charon knew that cyrus wasnt a good guy from the very beginning and he just underestimated him, and is now feeling in over his head and worried this could be the end. And saturn always thought cyrus was good but is starting to struggle with doubts. And maybe charon actually tries to warn saturn about it? Like “hey i knew this all along but i never told you but HEY CYRUS MIGHT ACTUALLY KILL US ALL” and saturn starts on his usual speech about cyrus being the greatest but he starts to question it and AAAAA! but ultimately this moment isnt the moment where he makes the right choice, and he does end up going back to cyrus and continuing the plan. and also charon is on the edge of actually doing something good and trying to stop cyrus’s big ol doom time (albiet for selfish reasons of No Money In The New World) but he also wimps out from this chance and instead decides to grab as much cash as he can and run the fuck away, as if its even possible to outrun the destruction of a whole dimension. but at least him and saturn agreed on the lake trio rescue operation, thus their moment of almost-redemption helped the player even if they didnt actually turn good. AND then you’d have the surprise moment of charon actually stepping up at the last minute and doing his thing to sabotage the machine and all. which again doesnt really solve the whole thing and doesnt really make him turn good but at least it downgrades the threat from ‘cyrus actually succeeds in destroying the world’ to ‘okay we just need to deal with a slight case of poke-hell and one collossal centipede’. Srsly man sinnoh’s plot has the highest stakes cos in platinum you straight up actually fail and cyrus actually would have destroyed the world if not for giratina! Oh and also a random note is that i think it’d be funny if charon helped you out while still running away? like you just learn about the machine sabotage being his responsibility cos it flashes his goofy hacker logo from the anime or something. Maybe instead he hacks your Poketch and is like HEY HELLO IM GONNA SPLODE THE THING BUT NOT COS IM A GOOD GUY, BTW I AM A SAFE DISTANCE AWAY PLEASE DONT LET CYRUS KNOW I DID THIS
SO YEAH! whatever! whether or not we get that added bit of teamup with charon in the climax, we’ve still given him a bit more screentime so the player actually remembers him and actually cares about doing his optional sidequest in the postgame. so him not having a boss fight would be less of a letdown and all. But having the teamup plot would be a good opportunity to turn the wifi event into not a wifi event! maybe during his panic charon drops the key to his secret lab and thats how you get it? cos really it makes no sense at all that the magic wifi gods can just hand you something you’d have no idea existed and never have an opportunity to get. none of the other wifi items are literally a thing owned by a significant character that needs to be teleported out of his pocket by plot magic! Also it sucks that a chunk of important backstory would be hidden in a wifi event so if they still wanted rotom’s alt forms to be a wifi event then JUST make it the ability to get the forms and not the charony diary bit. Cos it makes no sense that the ENTIRE REASON CHARON EXISTS is to introduce the rotom form event yet you’d have no clue he was connected to rotom until after youve already finished the event. It gave no damn indication you had to take the key to this particular dude’s lab in team galactic!! ANd click on an otherwise unmarked wall!! Put the diary somewhere else and hey there’s a Charon Clue(tm) and now you can actually find the damn event, there you go, fixed. Also annoying cos nothing in the event tells you you have to go somewhere entirely different to catch the one rotom in the game, and click another unmarked piece of scenery that only has a staticky screen to indicate rotom if you happen to be playing at night. Seriously this is why serebii.net was such a lifesaver!!
Okay so WOOP there we go, here we are at a point where the player has seen more of charon and had oppotunities to grow to like him as a character and be suspicious that maybe he could have some sympatheticness. And if he drops an Importante Key Itemme right before the end of the game then thats a hint that postgame stuff exists involving him, and at least one clue where to find it! All the rotom diary stuff would play out exactly the same except that its less of a hell to find, lol.
BUT THEN the big difference in Stark Mountain is that now you have the full context of charon’s backstory and the game actually reacts to you having that knowledge. Like maybe if you dont do that step first then either charon never appears at stark mountain until you do, or you get an abbrieviated version of the quest without the redemption plot? I was thinking actually maybe make it one of those daily repeatable quests, to avoid the player doing the quests out of order and permenantly losing the chance to redeem gramps. Like if you dont see the rotom diary then instead of a big actual quest you just get some five minute “oh we’ve seen team galactic sneaking around stark mountain, defeat them for Some Money Or Something hey thats weird that they were only stealing money hey yknow who’s all about the money? charon! maybe go follow up on his Importante Key Itemme to continue the plot.”
SO THEN once you return Emboldened By The Knowledge Of Good Gramps, you get the proper thing. And... it would actually play out totally the same as in vanilla platinum. Charon doesn’t have a boss fight, all his minions leave him and say he sucks, he gets anticlimactically taken out by someone else in a cutscene, and his last moment is someone making a crack about him being so frail and useless that the hot volcano breeze could knock him over.
BUT THAT ISNT THE END
Its just a fake out that its gonna have the same funny ending as every other charon appearance, and the same lack of him being remotely threatening.
cos NOW WE FINALLY GIVE THE MAN A GODDAMN BOSS FIGHT
and yknow how i said i hate the manga where he’s all super evil and owns three legendaries and kills a guy? okay take away all that stuff but KEEP THE MOMENT OF GRANDPA GETTING TO DO SOMETHING BADASS FOR THE ONLY TIME EVER
Maybe he surprises everybody by actually not being down for the count! And by now he’s just SO pissed off from a whole game’s worth of failing and being disrespected that he does something desperate and stupid at the last minute. If he was meant to be the dude who invented the red chain, maybe he could use it to control heatran even if looker took away the magma stone? like i feel it’d be in character for charon to secretly steal a prototype red chain for himself during the whole “oh fuck my boss is legit destroying the world i need to get out of here” thing. Grab some stuff to sell now your last paycheck is dissappearing into an ominous void, lol. He didnt expect to actually be using it, and if the actually completed red chain puts enough stress on its weilder to make them cry blood then this thing must be even more risky to use! so its a really huge holy shit moment of tiny gramps actually doing something intimidating! and his boss fight could actually be using heatran and actually having heatran get to goddamn appear in this sidequest. it was soooo underwhelming to have to return thru the dungeon a second time to actually see heatran, this time without any story stuff to break up the long walk...
also this entire thing could be a great climax to his character arc and sort of a moment of “okay THIS was actually his motivation all along!” Cos I always felt like Charon’s real motive was low self confidence? Like he’s always on about money but he seems to focus more on SUCCESS instead. Fame and success. “Ha ha i am the greatest scientist and i want people actually aknowledge me” is a thing he repeatedly brings up and also that other characters directly demonstrate in how they act towards him. It just feels like he thinks he can buy that with money if he’s failed his whole life in earning it. And the old “acts egotistical because he actually hates himself” character archetype would work really well as a sympathetic interpretation of his character. It would be like how he’s ‘subconciously friendly’. The thing he actually does (being boastful) is because of a different reason (not believing his own lies and being super insecure about his self worth), but he keeps it so well hidden that not even he realises that its really what he feels. Similar to how he acts grumpy because of a different reason, because he actually DOES want friends and he’s just guarding his emotions under a million walls cos he’s scared of being hurt again. And scared of how he knows he’s a weak willed person who might betray his friends again for his desperation for money. Which is really a desperation to feel valid as a human being, which is really just ‘i want friends’ again under another coat of paint. So depressingly he caused his own problems because of the same character trait that was once a positive in his life! I think he works well when interpreted from that angle, he’s like a dark subversion of a pokemon professor or of your classic ash ketchum figure. Like “the power of friendship” is what turned him evil, and also turned him into a guy who acted awful to his friends. And it could add to this thematic thing if “loving pokemon” was also referenced throughout his plot in a negative sense?
That’s actually one other good thing about the manga, they removed his greedy grumpyness (bad) but replaced it with the same motive as the villain of the 2nd movie (weird flex but okay). Aka “a guy who collects legendary pokemon just as trophies and has forgotten how to treat them like genuine friends”. Even if that wouldnt be his main character concept in this hypothetical rewritten game, it could still be a secondary trait that’s used to suppliment the main emotional arc. Like instead of just saying “money money money” you could flesh out more scenes of him actually talking about HOW he’s gonna get the money and what he’s gonna use it for. Via collecting all the rare pokemon, and to collect more rare pokemon. Which will somehow (in his twisted cynical perception of how the world works) make him a person of value and get people to respect him. It could also tie together pretty much every scene he already has! Cos his backstory is finding this pokemon friend... who was a rare unknown species. And maybe as a kid he decided to become a scientist initially just out of excitement to learn more about his new friend and show them to the world! But then the realities of the difficulties in being respected as a scientist gradually wore him down and he became more cynical, more obsessed with recognition, more believing that the only way to get it was by being an asshole and he’d just get taken advantage of if he kept being soft. And he started to forget why he really wanted that fame in the first place, and instead it just became an obsession, a vain hope that he’d hate himself less if he accomplished his life’s dream. When really from the player’s perspective its obvious that even if he succeeded he’d still be depressed when he realized how he’d lost everything in the process. And it’d be a more realistic sort of way he could have turned from a good kid to an asshole gramps. There wasnt any single day he suddenly made the decision to change, it was just a gradual wearing down of his morals over the years. he became more obsessed and more cynical that normal moral ways of doing things would never get him what he wanted. he started making small sacrifices to his personal sense of morality, and eventually reached the point where he’d completely abandoned it all without even noticing the gradual change. And somewhere along the way he forgot that he started this because of his pokemon friend, and discarded it as “not good enough” in favor of this vain quest to acquire a million other rarer pokemon and just friggin put them on a shelf to boast about them and feel less empty inside. And then also his redemption was a gradual change too? After he reached that point of completely betraying his own sense of goodness, he gradually got sadder and more tired with living this way. By the time you see him ingame he’s not remotely happy with being evil and he’s just a poor dude who’s deluded that being evil is the only way to escape the sadness rather than the cause of it. And thats why his whole ‘oops im accidentally subconciously befriending my coworkers and also the enemy’ thing kinda set him on the road to eventual redemption, cos its the first bit of small upliftingness he’s had in ages. sorta recharges his Ability To Care and he starts realizing what he’s doing and feeling regret. But yeah throughout the main game he never actually acts on his doubts and just repeatedly misses the chance to get redeemed and makes you Kinda Frustrated, similar to zuko or peridot’s redemptive arc? And ultimately reuniting him with his old best friend and showing him that its not too late to fix what he broke = the actual catalyst for his changes to fully stick and he completely switches to the good side.
BUT ANYWAY thats why he needs a boss fight first!
Something like 50-70 years worth of self hate and frustration from devoting himself to a super incorrect way of defeating that self hate, and sacrificing EVERYTHING for the sake of it, and being disrespected the entire time, and being terrified that you’re getting old and running out of time, and almost dying to some guy’s weird void plan, and losing the only thing you had left aka the team galactic job and a few maybe sorta kinda friends you had, and now being disrespected AGAIN by those same people you thought were friends (but never actually admitted it to them) and then also bitchslapped by a frog?? Also this place is real fuckin sweaty?? Yeah stark mountain is a great climactic point for his entire frustrations to boil over and be a bigger eruption than the actual volcano!
Thus we have Grand Dad Gets Serious And Has An Actually Interesting Boss Fight!
but also grand dad is being emotionally open and whoops accidentally might be tearing down those walls he built up around his big ol soft as fuck heart
like the battle would possibly be more ‘you talk him down into giving up, realizing he was wrong, quitting being evil, and going home to his friend that he misses so much. and finally realizing that thats actually the only way he could ever really defeat the self hate that drove him this far in the first place. also he’s not worthless and his friends always believed he was the awesome dude he always wanted to be’. Yknow, rather than actually defeating him and all. I mean you still do that but i think it’d be a case like with the giratina fight where even if you lose or run away you get the same result, just slightly altered text? Just as long as you come here with rotom in your party your victory was already a foregone conclusion. you just get a really cool boss fight as your reward, yknow? cos seriously I WAS WAITING THE WHOLE GAME FOR THAT DAMN BOSS FIGHT!!!
obligatory link again to the cool song i think is a great summary of all of my headcanons for this man’s character arc and would also be badass backing music for a hypothetical boss fight:
context: it makes more sense if you imagine it as his own internal thoughts of all the stuff he’s been running away from accepting in his own feelings. and/or what he THINKS that the player and rotom would be saying to him, so he’s shocked into speechlessness by the fact that they actually do think he deserves a second chance and has the potential to be good.
actually that could be a really good ending to the fight!!!
like when you get through to him and convince him to stand down, he cowers in fear thinking he’s gonna get the karmic payback for everything he’s ever done. and he tries to run away from reuniting with rotom. half of him is scared that his friend hates him and the other half is.. well..
i think it would be thematically appropriate to end it with a hug
just an image of this lil toy robot pokemon hugging this scared old man, and he’s just so empty and doesnt know what to say. its the last thing he ever expected. and then his shock turns into pain and sadness, as he was really the most scared that his friend actually would forgive him. that everything he ever did really was all for nothing, and he should have done this years ago and saved all that lost time. he’s so scared because he thinks he doesnt deserve forgiveness and he doesnt know what to do now its happening. so he just lets out all those tears he’s never cried over all these years, and the scene ends with him desperately hugging his best friend and never wanting to let go ever again
And then that’d be the big moment that was really the turning point for him, though of course that wouldnt be the end of his redemption and if there was any further postgame content you could show various scenes of him atoning throughout that. or just some images in the second credits scene after you beat the postgame stuff. i’d kinda like if there was some moment of him apologising to the rest of team galactic and joining them in their attempts to rebuild the team into something good. and maybe an extra postgame segment where this redeemified team goes on some bigger quest to try and rescue cyrus from the distortion world and heal his pain too. i think you could get a lot of good scenes out of a redeemed charon being along for the ride! like you’d obviously have cyrus being skeptical that this dude really has changed so much, and probably an extension of that earlier scene where he’s pissed off that the one guy he thought agreed with him about emotions being foolish is actually being the most emotional of everyone. but i think because of that they could also have scenes of relating together and actually starting to form a friendship in the end? like i can see charon feeling guilty for never trying to reach out to cyrus before, and also believing really strongly that cyrus can be redeemed cos like ‘yo i’m way worse than you and i was able to change, please believe that its a possibility for you too!’ Also cyrus likes machines so i think he’d be happy to meet rotom and become friends. And he has that whole grandpa related backstory so it might help a lot towards healing those scars and reuniting the two of them if he starts forming a friendship with a different gramps? THERES A LOT OF GOOD THEMATIC LINKS BETWEEN THE DIFFERENT TEAM GALACTIC MEMBERS THAT ARE NEVER EXPLORED IN THE ORIGINAL GAME
also in the original version of this plotline it was a fanfic/fangame idea of an alternate universe swap where dawn/lucas/other customizeable protagonist is a galactic grunt instead of the hero. so a lot of the details were different but in that version the protag was literally adopted by whichever galactic admin they picked as their main friendship route. entirely because of self indulgent ‘i wish these guys were my dad/sister/grandpa/whatever’ feels cos sinnoh helped me thru a tough time as a kid. soooo i cant really do that charon grandpa idea where he also renovates the Old Chateau into a ghost pokemon sanctuary and becomes like an actual good pokemon professor. (also rekindles his friendship with prof rowan and agatha from the kanto elite four cos thats just a random headcanon i have) BUT i could still do all that except the part where he adopts u cos canon dawn/lucas already has a mom lol. And i think it’d be more fitting of canonverse protag to adopt Cyrus? Like obv in the canonverse itd probably be the main boss of the team who gets the bigger redemption plot and is canonically the best friend EVEN THO for tumblr user tumblunni in particular it is All Grandpas All The Time. And i like the idea of Cyboy being a survivor of child abuse who tries to become a good dad just like his parents werent. But i also like the idea of dawn’s mom adopting him as her new big brother and him getting to experience a genuine loving family for the first time! I think itd work that way cos cyrus is meant to be 27 even tho he looks older, and i dont think dawn’s mom is that young and also i just see no chemistry between them as any sort of ship. (and headcanon cyrus as asexual anyway) But also the family does still keep in touch with all the other galactic friends!!!
hhhh i wrote So Many Word just about grandpa redemption holy shit i’ll probably die if i try and cover all the other teammates now
ok i will leave it here but just know i also have Deep Headcanons about all of them, even if charon gets the most. somedaayayyyay i will share with you more!!
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oh god okay alright
so this is an au ive been thinking about for A While Now, cause im a dramatic fuck who cant finish anything and is living in wip city right now.
rook (@mrpinstripesuit‘s boy because of course) somewhat reluctantly and through ~plot~ that i do have in mind actually turning into the next dredgen yor because in a small twist of events killing just one guardian in crucible wasnt enough for him.
cue avia being sent to hunt him down and getting marked down as scared and horny when she meets him for the first time
i do have a whole story planned for this and ive been thinking about this au a lot, i bashed this out in about three hours so there might be little errors here and there and critically i think it moves way too fast but hey i havent uploaded in so long so shrug emoji i hope its at least readable aha
When Ikora calls her to the Vanguard chambers, Avia is expecting Cayde’s presence too. Her Hunter Vanguard will do all he can to remind her of her class, even butting into mission briefings with Ikora.
So it comes as a shock to see him not present at the table when she walks in. Ikora turns to greet her, and Avia casts a glance over her shoulder at Zavala.
“Don’t tell me you finally let Cayde out of the Tower?”
Zavala throws her a grim look, mouth set into a line and Avia meets it with a morbid confusion.
“What’s his problem?” She asks Ikora, whose face is set in an equally grim measure.
“Cayde left for a brief scouting mission, it was only supposed to take him a few hours,” Ikora reaches down to her holopad, and from its screen rises a map of an area of Earth Avia has never heard before. “This is the European Dead Zone. It’s highly off limits to Guardians due to the fluxuating levels of both Darkness and Light.”
“Why’s that?”
“A shard of the Traveler exists in that region, cast off from the Collapse.”
Avia watches the images cycle in front of her. A giant cascading shard towers over a forest, buildings rusted and decaying sit in its shadow. Lightning bounces off of the shard, storm clouds gathering around it.
“Looks suitably ominous,” Avia mutters, quickly realising that now is not the time.
Ikora simmers. Avia’s come to notice this in the Warlock Vanguard, when something is wrong and pressing up against her mind but she must remain calm and composed in the face of it all. Avia recognises it well, a quiet storm betrayed by only the smallest of movements.
Ikora places a hand down on the table, her fingers trembling.
“Cayde left two days ago. He hasn’t returned.”
Avia allows her mind to wander as Ikora’s words hit her. Cayde, bold and brass finding his way through this forest as easy as walking through the Tower. Enemies of the Light crowding him, surrounding him, and whilst he doesn’t go down without a fight it’s that one mistake that could cost him.
“You want me to find him.”
Ikora thins her lips into a line, looking from the holo pad and down to Zavala. Avia misses the minute way they communicate to each other, and when Ikora turns to her she can tell the Warlock is somehow sadder.
“Bring him home, however that may be.”
She has to receive the highest clearance from Zavala, Ikora, and the Speaker in order to fly into the Dead Zone. She was advised by Zavala to touch down on the outside of the forest and make her way in. His monotone suggestion didn’t exactly inspire confidence, and it left her riddled with annoyance that she couldn’t shake.
“Levi?” She calls for her Ghost, and they materialise with a whirl.
“Are you afraid?” They ask, and Avia scoffs.
“No. I just… Feel like I’m not getting the full picture.”
“How do you mean?” They ask as Avia looks down the scope of her sniper rifle. She spots the forest a breath away, the trees thick and coarse. No hostiles as she scans the horizon, and answers her Ghost.
“There’s something Ikora wasn’t telling me.”
“You always think that,” Levi floats in front of her scope, making her lower it with a sigh. “She has no reason to lie to you.”
“Lying by omission is still lying.” Avia says.
“You’re not in the Reef anymore.” Levi’s voice is soft, a comfort.
“I’m not sure sometimes.”
She starts to walk, making her way down a cliff face and landing as quietly as she can on the ground. She walks towards a gathering of buildings, the same rusted ones Ikora showed her. The air is still and quiet. As she climbs the structure, the echo of her movements starts to set her on edge.
“What was Cayde scouting?” She wonders out loud. Levi hesitates next to her. Then he whirls his shell once, twice, and answers.
“I think… ‘Scouting’ might have been a loose term for whatever he was actually looking for out here.”
Avia smiles under her helmet. “That doesn’t surprise me.”
“With the language in his recent reports, if you could even call them that, I think he was looking for something.”
“Like what?” Avia asks, moving through an empty room and shimmying through a grated wall. She jumps down and out of the building on the other side, trees at her left and right. She pushes in.
“Something he lost, I think.”
Avia hums, sticking close to the trees, trying to watch and be careful of the way her feet brush against the dead leaves and twigs on the ground. It’s not an environment she’s used to for stealth, but the same rules apply – stay close to the ground and keep your eyes open.
“Let me know when you detect anything.” She tells Levi.
“Aside from the insurmountable Darkness surrounding us alongside a general feeling of dread?” Levi asks, to which Avia laughs. “Can do.”
He was dangerously close to growing bored.
He sits with his back to the wall, flicking a knife up and down. In the cave system, dingy orange lights bounced off the walls. The Dredgen’s chattered around him, keeping to themselves mostly. He still didn’t understand what they wanted from him, what they expected from an exiled Guardian.
He’d told them as much, but still, they followed.
Some of their Ghost’s pitter around their heads, cowardly, having conversations they don’t want him to hear. He catches a glowing orb with his eyes more than once and it dissipates, causing the Hunter with his legs crossed to cast a glance over his shoulder. The Human stills the hand in her book, the scattered pieces of the scout rifle she’s trying to infuse into darkness around his feet.
“What?” He spits. The Guardian doesn’t cower, just tries to hide her smile as she begins to draw something in the soil between them.
“My Ghost thinks you’re dangerous.”
“Your Ghost is right,” he replies. He watches the gloved hand trace a pattern, and it takes him longer than he’d like to admit to recognise it as something Hive.
The Guardian places the main skeleton of her gun over the rune, speaking as she draws an intricate circle around it. “I think she doesn’t get it. I think the Light makes us blind, but I don’t think it’s our enemy either.”
“Aint that poetic.”
“You don’t want to lead us,” the Guardian starts. He stills his motions with the knife, catching it blade side, the metal biting into his skin. “But you could be the start.”
“The start of what, kid?”
The Guardian mutters something under her breath, and they both watch the runes on the floor glow a sickly green, a plume of smoke rising to intwine itself in the metal above it. The others around them stop to stare. When the spell finishes, the exo skeleton breathes with that same sickly energy, something black like ichor peeling off of it.
“I guess that’s up to you.”
A Warlock peels around the corner, harried, breathing hard.
“He’s gone.”
“What?” He asks, a quiet intensity in the way he tenses but doesn’t move.
The Warlock stutters, tries to find his voice. “He overpowered us. His Ghost did something, got herself out of her cage and then freed him. He subdued everyone so he could--”
He flings the knife between the Warlocks feet, a centimetre away from his foot. He stands and takes the hand canon off his hip, once laced in gold and now dark and peeling at the edges. With his fury it starts to feel warm in his hands, putting the scout rifle on the floor to shame. The young Guardian looks at it in awe, seeing the same runes she carved transcribed on the sides.
“Tell me which way he went and then get the hell out of here. Everyone.”
The Hunter pipes up from the floor as he walks towards the mouth of the cave system; “And then what? How will we find you?”
“I guess that’s up to you.”
“I don’t like this.”
“You’ve said that five times already, Levi.” Avia says, though her voice betrays her own unease.
They’ve been walking for what feels like hours. As they traversed deeper, the forest became darker, blocking out all sunlight. Levi told her a ways back that the influence of the shard was heaviest here, but what Avia didn’t mention was the solar flames beneath her skin, an ache to act. Something was coming, her gut felt out of sorts.
“Any sign of him?” Avia asks. Levi extends his shell and scans as far as he can.
“No, I – wait!” Avia perks up as her Ghost scans once more, pulling their shell back to themselves with an excited whir. “Cayde’s Ghost, she’s near!”
“Lead the way,” Avia says, following her marker and picking up the pace.
She breaks into a run as she gets closer, nearing a large tree trunk on its side.
“Wait!” Levi yells into her comm. She slides to take cover by the tree, her mouth opening to ask what’s wrong.
She hears two shots, the way they ring through the air all too familiar. Cayde yells, goes down, and the person wielding Thorn catches up to him.
She pops her head up and over the tree, looking into a circular clearing. Her Vanguard lies on his side, his Ghost fussing over him tirelessly. She watches another man move closer, black armour from head to toe, and she sees that his gun isn’t the hand canon she wields. No, it’s similar in nature, but corrupted in a completely different way.
“Is that a Guardian?” She whispers, as the man in question walks lazily over to where Cayde rights himself onto his back. Her Vanguard is hurt, his Exo plating damaged beyond recognition.
“No,” Levi answers. “At least, I don’t think so.”
“Aint this a little too – ahh, god – easy for you?” Cayde asks, pulling his Ghost to his chest. She gets the message and dissipates as the man stands over him.
“You made it hard enough when you ran the first time,” he says, pulling his helmet off. Ebony hair falls out around his shoulders, dark brown eyes boring holes into the Exo below him. Avia holds a breath. He’s human. But there’s something about him that isn’t. “I’m starting to think you just enjoy this.”
“I’m not the sicko running around like the next Dredgen Yor,” Cayde spits back. There’s a venom that Avia can’t place.
“Then why did you even try to find me?” The man asks, kneeling down, regarding Cayde like he’s playing with his food. “Trying to save my sorry soul?”
“Well, that’s real dramatic Rook, maybe those Dredgens have finally – ahh!”
The man, whose name is apparently Rook, fires a round into Cayde’s chest.
“He’s running on auxiliary power already Avia, we have to get in there.” Levi’s voice is small and strained.
“Wait,” she finds herself saying.
Cayde coughs and splutters, the machines where his lungs would be whirring in protest. “I’m sorry, Rook. But I know you -- you don’t -- you don’t want to be this.”
Rook stands, aiming his gun down and Avia sees the sightline – right between Cayde’s eyes.
“It’s too late to give me that choice.”
Avia hops over the tree and summons her Golden Gun, using the first blast to knock the gun from Rook’s hand. The Darkness around it absorbs the blast but knocks it off centre, and his eyes find her immediately. She aims the second for his chest, which causes him to stutter back, and she takes the opening to run forward and place herself over Cayde.
The man in black rights himself and they aim their guns at each other, Avia still engulfed in solar flame as something darker roils off of Rook’s body. When her Light runs its course, the solar light makes way for the Thorn in her hands to make itself known.
Rook looks her in the eyes, down to the gun in her hands, and then laughs.
“Oh you are a bunch of hypocrites, aren’t you Cayde?”
“Get out of here,” Avia warns. Levi scans Cayde’s body, coaxing his own Ghost forward so they can make enough repairs to keep Cayde stable for now. “Last chance.”
“Oh, sweetheart, you have no idea what this is, do you?” A wicked smile curls up Rook’s face as he lowers his own gun, taking a few steps forward.
“Shut up.” Avia spits back.
“Nah, I’d rather tell you all about how you’ve got a Guardian killer in your hands there. One that your Vanguard keep around for god knows what reason.” He inches closer, and Avia steps forward to meet him. His hands come up in mock surrender, and she ignores how her stomach curls at his easy smile. It’s infuriating, to some degree.
“The only Guardian killer I see is you,” she starts. “Go. Now.”
“Or else what?” He asks. He moves forward once again, and Avia misses the time in between him feeling like he was a mile away and being pressed up against the Thorn. She can practically feel his heartbeat through the gun.
Thank the Traveler she’s wearing her helmet.
“Avia,” Cayde rasps below her. He sounds better, and she hears the soft dissipation of a Ghost that must be his. “Don’t do anything stupid.”
“That is rich coming from you.” She mutters, and the man in front of her has the audacity to laugh as if they’ve known each other for years.
“Avia,” he says, his eyes raking down her body. “Pretty name.”
“I am seconds away from putting you down for good.” She bites back. He smiles at her reaction and it sends a wave of embarrassment through her.
“But you won’t. Killing Guardians is bad, remember?”
“You’re not a Guardian.”
Rook’s face falls, impassive and unreadable as the darkness rolls off him, still steady.
In a flash he grabs Avia’s wrist, and places the Thorn underneath his chin, his other hand on her waist as he looks at her and says; “I’m the same kinda Guardian that you are, sweetheart.”
She’s caught off guard, a steady and aggravating heat pooling in her chest. She doesn’t realise when his finger curls around hers on the trigger, squeezing it.
She pulls back as quick as she can, the bullet sounding off between them. She makes to reach for a knife, throw it at his chest and make some space but then she’s back on her ship, Cayde still on the floor below her.
Levi whirls in front of her; “Are you alright?”
“I…” She starts, shaking herself and taking her helmet off. Cayde groans behind her, and she turns and kneels at his side.
“Nice one, hot shot.” He splutters. Avia rolls her eyes, hooking an arm around his back and moving him into the co-pilot chair.
“Who was he?” She asks once he’s sat down, still clutching his chest as though some parts will fall out of him.
“That’s a long story.”
Avia set’s a course for the Tower, plotting the longest route she can find without raising suspicion.
“You’ve got time.”
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Silverwing: The Red Thread (7)
OMG im so happy!! This is the first time finishing a fanfic story! I mean theres many in this series lol but writing is hard for me. I had adhd and autism, so for me it can be quite difficult. I'm really proud of this one and i hope y'all like it :D
“So, we’re all in agreement. This is what we’re going to do.” Danny stands with his arms folded in the drawing room of the x mansion.
Me, victor and danny had been discussing about what we were going to do about my pregnancy.
“Absolutely!” Victor stepped up, head held high.
What we had concluded was that we would jointly live for the next 9 months in the apartment danny owned in new york city, all three of us. Which meant that danny and i would be separate from K’un Lun during that time. He was not happy about it, but he still understood and reluctantly accepted the conditions.
Later while Victor was sleeping i slipped into dannys room. He was awake, thinking the same thoughts i was.
How were we going to explain this when we returned home?
As much as we had been getting along better recently, this would be more than a stretch to be believed. There was no way anyone could believe that this was really ours.
“This isnt going to be easy..” I sit down on the edge of the bed in my silk long nightgown, facing away from him.
“I know, but theres not much that can be done about it. Youve made up your mind youre keeping it, so...we just gotta hope everyone believes that its mine. On the plus side though, at least Victor is blonde…” He said, lightheartedly. Typical danny, always seeing the positive in things.
“Yeh.” I gave a small light chuckle in reply. “I just really want this danny. I wanted it a long time ago, but then….things happened and i thought it was all over. But now...now i-i might finally get it. I cant let that go. And i know how much this means to Victor too. This is OUR kid. Mine and his.”
“Sess, you dont need to explain it to me. I know, its okay. I can already see you really want it. So have it. We’ll work out the details later. We’ve got plenty of time to prepare.” He smiles at me warmly.
I touch his hand and thank him. “Okay, so whats got you all pensive then?” I ask, confused. I was certain it was about the pregnancy, but clearly it was something else.
“I was thinking of my future. I mean...you’re married-” “Twice.” “-twice, yeh! And i’m...i dont have anyone. I had misty, but that didnt really work.” He sighs and flops his head back onto the pillow. “I guess i’m feeling lonely. Here you are, expecting. All glowing and happy. And… i guess a part of me wishes i had that.” He looked at me so forlornly. I didnt really know to say. The chances of the right girl coming along and being okay with me being tied to him were slim to none.
“You do. In a way. You have me, in a very unconventional sense. We’re stuck together, which means you’re part of this new family thats being founded as we speak. You’re a part of this dan.” I smirk as i think of my next response. “Someones got to be a good god parent! Get some morals into them! Goodness knows it aint gonna come from me or Vic” I laugh.
He chuckles in response and sighs wearily. “I guess” and gives a small smile.
I know its not quite what he wants, but its the best i can give. Its all i can give.
A thought strikes me, but i quickly ignore it. Can danny be having feelings for me? No, my mind rejects the very notion. He cant!
I start to trudge back to bed, burdened with uncomfortable thoughts.
“Sessa…” he calls me back.
“Yeah?” I turn to face him from the doorway, hesitant about what he might say next.
“What you gonna do about logan?” I sigh with mixed relief. This topic was slightly easier in comparison, which said a lot!
“Nothing. Theres nothing i can do, because of the baby. The only thing i can think of is to help him back to his homeworld, so he can find peace there somehow. Be buried with his family at least. If it gets to that.”
Saying out loud was horrible. I was essentially letting a man die. But i wasnt going to let go of this baby to help him. And nothing else seemed like it was going to work, so sending him back seemed like the best option. Part of me wanted to do that, just so that i didnt have to watch him die, or hear about it.
“Is that all?” Danny was unimpressed, but understood the situation and the circumstances surrounding it. Yet he still found it necessary to ask. As much as we had been getting along better lately, it was still fraught with conflict between us. He still said and did thoughtless things that angered me.
I stamped my foot a little on the bare wood floor and huffed at him. “What do you want me to give him?! A parade?! Yes danny! Thats all!”
He motions for me to calm down. “Its just...i...i feel like...i dont know.”
“Well thats just great! Goodnight!” And then just like that i was out of the door, heading back to my room. I knew how he felt and what he was trying to say. I felt it too. I felt that there must be something to be done. Some fix. Some other answer. And maybe there could be during the next several months. Some secret revealed. Some device discovered. Something that didnt hinge on me!
But there wasnt. And after five months Logan had gotten worse. It wasnt just his healing factor failing him now, his overall health as at an all time critical low. He struggled to move around, and when he did he would soon stop from being breathless.
He understood my decision and accepted it. But standing here, it was hard to witness it.
He laid a shaky hand on my bump and whispered low and hoarsely to me. “If its a boy, make sure you name it James.” and he winks a cheeky smile at me.
I smile and laugh back. “I’ll see what i can do.” I hold both in hands in mine. “I have something for you, just in case.”
We stood below the city of K’un Lun where the jewel of tabentha was kept. Using the machinery used to create portals to realms and dimensions, we managed to find a doorway to his homeworld. It stood there in front of us, blazing a hot mid days sun through it onto us. Sand swept through the portal and landed at our feet.
“Looks like a good day”. He laughs and holds my hands tighter in his.
I say nothing but move my hands to lay on top of his. Nestled in his palm is a small vile of blood and bone marrow. Mine.
He looks down and frowns in confusion.
I bow my head nearer to his, face to face. “Just in case you find a way.”
In the five months i had been trying to help hank and jean find a way to synthesize my unique adapting gene, so it could be used as part of a therapy regime for logan. But unfortunately we had no luck with that avenue.
So this was my last ditch attempt, that maybe he could find something or someone there that could use it to help him.
My last gift. My only gift for him.
Hope.
He cups my cheek and grounds it in his palm roughly. He sniffs deeply, scrunching up his face keeping the tears at bay. His head held high he exhales and walks away into the light.
And like that, he is gone. The portal shuts off and we, me and danny are left alone in the dim light of the temple’s basement. We dont say anything. But he moves to put his arms around me. And i start to cry for the first time in eighty years.
Its strange to think that five months ago i looked at logan and felt nothing. No affection, no connection, nothing but a stranger. An annoyance. But now, i felt like something important had just stepped out of my life. Its funny how life does that sometimes.
But i am comforted in knowing what i felt before he left. Not a man who was afraid of what was to come, but of one who was hopeful what what still might be.
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what you love about each snsd member? :)
This is so totally long, it got out of hands slkdjghlk so I’m putting it under a read more to not bother people who didnt ask for it lmfao
Taeyeon
Taeyeon and I are very different people and this is what amazes me the most bc despite all the differences I really think we share close souls. Idk how to explain this but she has pushed me further, she has made me look at myself, my inner self, and see my weakness not as weakness only but as a part of me, a part of me I can work on to be better, not bc I need or should be better, but bc I deserve to be the best version of myself. And the greatest thing she taught me is that I should do that not for someone but for myself and that by being the best to myself I can be the best to those I love (+)
(+) I could write so much about her honestly, bc she has taught me so much about myself and about other people and that’s one of the reasons I love her so much, bc she has no idea she has done so, she doesn’t have a single idea about how much I’ve grown with her because everything I’ve learnt I’ve learnt watching her being herself, and idk there’s smth great about this that I can’t explain, but I can tell you how much more I understand people who are different than me now; I’m extroverted, I’m loud, I’m not too shy and I’m ok with talking with new people, she has showed me a whole different world, one I didnt know before her. She helps me when I’m down, she lifts up my mood when I wake up feeling bad, somehow going through her videos, her pictures it just lights such a flame on my heart and I feel warm inside. That feeling of home she makes me feel, I guess that’s what I love so much about her.
Sunny
You know, I got a lil emo thinking about her. It’s gonna sound weird but sunny makes me think of a father, a good one, you think they are not there bc they have their own way of expressing themselves but when you look closely they are right there by your side; the way she takes care of the girls, it’s subtle but you can see how much of a difference she makes and her presence is so strong and at the same time it’s so delicate. I think sunny is a safe place for the girls, where they can rely on and this makes me love her so much, it’s so crazy I’m so emo right now
Tiffany
You asked me what I love about each member and the second I read that TIffany was the first one who showed up on my head and I thought of her smile. Hahahah I’m not saying I dont love her smile bc my dude how could I not love such a gift?? but what I really love about Tiffany (one of the things I love about her) is how she sees the good on people. I’m not saying she only sees the good, it’s not that, but imo she has a gift where she can see the good, she just can and idk how to explain this. I think it’s because of the light she brings within herself, I do believe she is someone who can make people smile when they are at their very bad places, someone who could make you smile when you’re feeling like shit and idk that’s just so powerful to me, she is a creature of light imo
Hyoyeon
I dont know if I’ve said that before, actually I think I haven’t idk, but out of all snsd members Hyoyeon is the one I identify with the most, it’s smth that goes beyond what I can explain with words but I do feel like she could be a sister of mine. Just like I said about Taeyeon, I think that on the soul world Hyoyeon’s soul and mine are floating out there together sslkjfdgklg I’m not saying we are the same but I really see a lot of myself on her and that’s so mindblowing bc when she is awesome and amazing I get myself thinking “am I that amazing??? Am I like that?!!! WOW” Her sense of humor, her presence, her personality it just speaks so much to me that I can’t help but love her first thing in the morning
Yuri
Sometimes, when I think of how it would be if I were friends with soshi, Yuri is the one I think of the most. One of the things that I love the most about her is the freedom feeling she passes me, I really feel that I can talk to her about anything and she won’t judge me. I’m not saying that the other girls would judge me, what I’m saying is that to me Yuri is beyond some statements, she has passed over this whole ‘jugding thing’, she has overcome it, she is smth the world needs more. I feel like she has this thing on her heart that all she wants is to people around her to be happy and that thing on her heart is what guides her through life. I feel like we don’t know how strong she is, we have just a thought of it but we don’t know how strong she really is, it’s like what we see is only the first half of the iceberg. How crazy is that dkj\sgdsfg
Yoona
When she breaks into laughing I swear I can feel the weight on my shoulders fading away, this is not a joke, it’s a physical sensation, I can srsly feel like there’s hope on this world when she laughs that beautiful laugther , I feel happy when watching her smile when I’m on a bad day. It’s just so genuine and pure and idk there aint a bad thing about it, it’s truly pure.
Sooyoung
When I think of Sooyoung I can literally feel my mind going soft and comfortable and so light, it’s almost like the thought of her could change the texture of my mind? I dont know how much sense this makes but if my mind was plain normal when I was thinking of any other daily thing it just turns into this huge comfortable amazing sofa when I think of her. Sooyoung inspires me, she moves me, she touches my heart, she makes me feel like I can make a change, she makes me feel like dreams are possible and that I shouldnt be stopped by the bad that is in the world. I dont know but she makes me feel like I have so many powers and this is so fulfilling?? It’s even overwhelming like wow I can’t explain. To know that there is someone like her to admire in this world….that hits me so deep and SHE MAKES ME FEEL SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THE WORLD SLKDJFGHLKDFJ I FEEL SO FILLED UP WITH LOVE TALKING ABOUT HER SLKDJFL. She is an angel and that’s it. Case closed.
Seohyun
Her sense of justice, the truth in her, the kindness that comes from her heart, the way I can feel she could criticize you in a way you woundn’t feel like shit, I think she has the right words to let you know you’re wrong without hurting you while telling you that. Every superhero should look up at Seohyun and I think this world would be the greatest world of the universe. Consider that: we are the superhero. Think about that.
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Okay righty is done with me after all those doodles
So im just gonna say stuff about Charlie and Kravice that has been sitting in my brain for the past 5-6 weeks
First Charlie:
-during his edge years, he did put his dick in a loaf of bread. He did a lot of stupid things because of liam
-he used to hurt himself, but during those years, liam taught him its better to hurt others instead (of course nowadays hes trying to find other ways to relieve himself
-like mobile games, going to the gym, and screaming into a pillow) i did say trying. Fucking idiot punching the goddamn drywall with his hulk strength. calmate.
-He called eli “my sunshine” once and hes still embarassed about it. Usually he doesnt say it out loud.
- he’s very poetic and overthinks a lot. So when people vent to him, just cause he aint saying anything, doesnt mean the gears arent cranking
- loves kids. I mean he always wanted to be a big brother. He likes to play with Johnny and Eli’s little cousins (still gotta make a comic with charlie and johnny fff)
- Bleh is one of his favorite mascots. Mostly because its purple. Hes embarrassed about fanboying over the little....bear thing....i dont think bleh has a species
- Charlie looks older for his age, but Liam still got him a fake id just in case
- he still hasnt decorated his room yet. He wants to hang up posters but there hasnt been tape in their apartment for months. The posters are leaning up against a cabinet
- charlie has a hard time keeping up with brushing his teeth. Its hard to brush twice a day when your days just blend together. Blame his insomnia.
- his aunt and uncle still keep a close eye on him. They call him once a week to check on him.
-he visits them on father’s and mother’s day because i love to cry okay
- charlie has made it his duty senior year to turn things around. Get some sleep, show up for tests, do his homework, quit smoking, and make some friends.
- charlie has study hall his first hour, so he spends his morning at a cafe where kravice sucks up the wifi
Onto Kravice:
- the cafe is near his college so he spends his morning there to either study or meme online. Hes there daily so charlie and kravice have someone to talk to before class starts
-i dont want to say anything about his and banjo’s parents sooooo we’ll say he’s still living with them because theyre paying his tuition
-he stays over at banjo’s apartment most of the time tho because her place is closer to his college (however their parents dont know where she lives)
-he was a real cutie until he started hiding his face (spoilery art to come when my hand is better)
- plays pc games a whole lot. He sprained his wrist a few times thanks to that. When that happens he catches up on some anime (i had a comic idea for that too)
- isnt very fond of liam, but hes always forced to see him thanks to banjo (also had a comic idea for this. Much shorter so i might make it sooner)
- despite usual sibling quarrel, he does care for banjo and always checks on her to see if she’s eating. (Does grocery shopping because her fridge is near empty...save for like beer and yogurt)
- he played a lot of sports and did martial arts as a kid, but when he started secluding himself he found something better...video games
-is actually crash bandicoot
- he actually hasnt come out to his parents yet. Hes saving it for after he gets a good degree and he can be kicked out of the house like banjo
- or until he finds a better job that isnt fast food.
What the hell, lets do Banjo too:
- SO MANY SPOILERS ON HER PART also i havent developed it that good yet so wait
-She was anorexic before and at the beginning of Liam era (liam got her to eat tho...gotta develop that dialogue and circumstances tho)
- shes always had the struggle with self-image and beauty and shit
- her frustration led her to liam and started just whoring herself out and getting into fights (she had kravice teach her martial arts because her parents wouldnt let her)
- after kravice started hiding himself and liam breaking up the gang, she just started drinking more and more
- she dropped out of college after getting kicked out and got a factory job working on cars
- she got an apartment near liams because it was a good deal but also no one will find her
- she sleeps all day or watches nonstop netflix. She became a famous online critic by leaving drunken reviews on her blog
-she wanted to be a fashion designer but people were suggested she be a model instead and that just made her snap
-shes snapped before i mean look how short her hair is
-oops spoilers
We’re done here uwu
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I feel like I'm in a bit an emotional rut. a part of me feels really bittersweet and empty leaving my current job, and I think I just want to free write my feelings to see where it’ll take me. so here’s a 30 minute long written rant about my feelings, maybe I'll discover something.
So, I think this starts with my feelings over my unit, and when I first started there. I remember looking at the iCU unit as something that was so tight knit, and I envied the support on that unit. and when I joined, in was so excited to integrate myself, become a strong nurse and to be a role model for new, upcoming people. and obviously, as I started there, faces started coming in and out. the initial year of me being there, was a golden year for me. I loved the people I worked with, there was a nice balance of new nurses and older nurses, and despite a hard night, it felt like we were all in it together. it felt really special. a lot of the days I'd leave at 9AM-10am, and we’d be incredibly short staffed, and although I was burned out, I felt happy to be where I was.
during the past year was when it think I noticed a shift in my mood towards work. a lot of new faces were coming in, and the faces that I've grown with were leaving. and there’s nothing wrong with that, I feel like the demographic and mix of nurses in a unit should always be evolving- cause growth duh. but I think Spuh’s biggest selling point as a hospital is the family appeal and the close-knit units that keep people there- because it’s definitely not the pay lol. I think after getting certified, I felt comfortable to apply to other places, but I still felt too attached to st. peter’s to leave completely.
then this pandemic hit, and I truly started to ... like working again despite the crisis and burnout. but the sense of team work and community on the unit was at an all-time high as our staff, float staff and agency workers joined together for a common cause. it’s was truly inspiring, and I loved the energy, of being there for each other through the loss and wins. I think I definitely ride on the emotional highs and lows way too much that’s just my empathetic soul, aint it?
this next rant is probably a deep dive to say, but working greg, one of our most long lasting agency nurses, is also what kept my morale relatively constant throughout the past year. when I first met him, it’s obvious to say, I had the biggest crush on him. and as I got to work with him, he was just such a reassuring person to work with, that if I needed something in a sense of urgency, he’d have my back. we’d help each other. and it’d be seamless. I didn’t need to ask. he’d always check on me. I'd check on him, and the energy just felt so reciprocated. he’d teach me things, we’d talk. and wow, he’s just such a good person. he’s taken, but even with that, it didn’t deter me. he’s just a person I haven’t encountered in a long time- and I think he’s truly rare- someone who’s just so selfless despite having a strong back bone, strong, kind, polite and overwhelmingly helpful and confident. he was such a joy to work with and every shift I was with him I knew we’d make it. we’re not fully friends outside the work environment- which is fine. I view him as the highest level of work support, and it’s this kind of cocmoradery that it think I need to keep me going onward. he's just such a precious soul, and I've never heard anyone speak ill of him. 2 nights ago was his last shift, and although I am also leaving, it's bittersweet acknowledging that this is our last shift working together. truly, such a great guy. and I wish him the best, as well as hoping we stay in touch.
I think I started finally fully realizing how toxic the culture at work was starting to get as I was leaving and over the past couple months. I think I shoved it off my shoulder most the times, but I think now it’s starting to get me. which is why leaving now, and realizing that, feels so bittersweet.
I'm overly friendly, and have become quite friendly with the residents. well some of them. and I guess at times, it’s overcedes the air if professionalism we need to maintain at work. and you know what, that’s absolutely true. residents come to Icu on days they’re not on the schedule to hang out, talking pictures at work, laughing loud at night. yeah, it’s a good time working. but retrospective, if I had a loved one at work and I noticed it, I'd be upset that my loved one was being taken care of in that kind environment. it take balance to be friends but also stay profesisonal- and that IMPORTANT. we’re care givers. we’re taking care of people in their most critical time, although not everyone is active dying and are “sick stable”, and there might not be anything to do, we need to keep a professional face for the respect of our patients and the face of our career. I guess with that intro delves with the upcoming and me recognizing I'm at fault.
during the past few months, rose has been telling me, “behave at night, people are watching you.” and she was vague and I was just like how? who? what did I do? she wasn’t very specific. one night I posted a story on my IG of casidhe doing a split, and someone approached her the next day saying, “be careful of what you post on the internet, there are people watching you.” I asked her who, and she said it was Amy. so from there, I blocked Amy. although we were friends, I didn’t need someone to watch my stories and cause a fuss. I started to talk about it on nights, saying yeah. with rose saying, people are watching you, I figured Amy was one of day-shift Karens that killed wholesome fun, that wasn’t really impeding my credibility as nurse by something so miniscule. then covid hit and one shift where me and Dominique had time to drink water, I posted a silly 30 sec. but of us chugging water as a challenge, since we wear our masked the entire time. and you know at this point, people were MAKING TIKTOKS at work. it’s not like posting on social media * as long as it doesn’t violate hippa- there should be no problem. the next day, Ashlyn posted the same thing. and Dom told me, and I thought they were mocking us. so I posted it again with her captioned “the OGs”.
--- this back story delves into a confrontation I received at 3AM on a night I was working from Amy. where she goes, “I'm refollowing just so you know I blocked you because I heard you were talking shit.” and that specifically is accurate- because of what she said to casidhe, and all was saying was along the lines of how she was watching my story. she continued to bring up how she was being petty and I also admitted I was being petty. and she said she didn’t understand why it was like this because she thought we’d have each other backs. she said for example, there were so many things I've done as a nurse that she could’ve verged that she didn’t. that’s what got in my fucking head. because I validate myself the most by being a good nurse. at the end of this 3AM confrontation we agreed to a truce.
nights later at work, her comment on the the verge-abie things got to me head, since I'm embarking on a new job. I questioned if I was a good nurse, if I had what it took and if I was just too overly confident in myself. I started feeling like the unit that I had been a part of for 3 years that was my “home” was being fake to me, and that no one was ever transparent with me. and that’s when I got upset and started speaking to other night nurses. my new anm Natalie, mentioned this was harassment and bullying and that I should talk with my manager about it. truly I felt scared confronting about Amy because she’s such a credible nurse, and I always respected her as a nurse. that no one would take my aside, understand or empathize. my feelings were literally like, I'm leaving let’s leave it at all that. I'm done with the BS. but still, I felt so unloved by my unit if anything, just extremely expendable. to feel like the place I gave so much of heart too gave no shit back at me, sucked. to feel unsupportive. as a whole. sucked.
I don’t know if it’s just in my head. if I take things to hard. I low key thing about “how would greg handle this?” because he’s just such a strong person as a nurse, and one morning we talked and he mentioned there was a time when he hated nursing and being in a toxic environment got to him- that helped me reframed things. he’s only been here for a year, so even though Spuh is so “close” doesn’t mean I can’t be toxic. I confronted Amy about how her comment made me feel, and she admitted that she was to drunk and regretted making that comment. that felt a little better. but still, I was harassed. I felt sad. I felt upset about work. and truly her comment made me question so much about my job that I had held in such value.
I know I overanalyze things too much, and that’s my down side. but it’s hard to let things to, I think overly caring is what also makes me a good nurse and makes me want to constantly improve, I just need to not take things so personal. and I think that goes hand in hand with feeling to comfortable at Spuh. taking things as professional critiques mistakenly got too personal, thus deeply affecting me. I think being cognizant of that is important. and moving forward take this as a lesson will help me succeed at Mount Sinai.
I will still miss Spuh for what is, and love it for all that it has taught me. especially this. initially it taught me how to be a nurse, and this lesson is teaching me how to have a back bone and stand up for myself. which is a long overdue lesson. even thinking back to when I was bullied when I was younger, I never stood up for myself.i was passive.
I won’t be fucking passive anymore. I need to stand up for myself.
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1. You just opened up a web browser. What is the first site you visit?
Tumblr usually
2. You just walked into a bookstore. What section do you go to first?
Teen section. Their books are short and sweet and the romance books i find in the general romance section are huge and just have huge bulging men. I just wanna read about dumb teenagers doing dumb things but also accidentally being poetic as all hell sometimes dumb jokes are a plus as well.( plus I don’t have enough patience for long books haha)
3. You are hanging with your closest friends. What are you most likely doing? On my phone. Still part of the conversation just replying out loud with no eye contact unless its a really funny story or topic
4. You just turned your car on. What station is the radio tuned to?Don’t got a car but I’d love to just go for the general top songs in my city. I usually listen to really old songs so listening to whats popular takes me by surprise nowadays
5. You have just woken up for the morning. What is the first things you do? Check my phone if someone messaged me during the night or my calendar app if theres anything I have planned today
6. Complete this phrase: You cannot buy happiness, but you can buy____. BBQ Pulled Pork or Adobong Lechon Kawali
7. What would you do if you woke up as the opposite gender? See if I’m attractive to my standards? Probably go hang out with friends BUT tell them all me and my cousin are coming to chill with BUT i cancel last minute so my cousin is still coming to meet them. Commence pranks
8. Are you more likely to cook for yourself or buy food from a restaurant? Buy food from a restaurant. Although I’d love to try a bunch of recipes from youtube vids
9. If you had to lose one of your senses, which one would you rather lose? I would say smell? although given how taste works I’d lose about 70% of taste if i lose smell right? but i still wanna taste food so yeah smell.
10. If you could relive any one year of your life, how old would you be? 17 that or 13 would be neato
11. Would you take a bullet for anyone you know? yes
12. Would you rather be rich and dumb or poor and extremely intelligent? rich and dumb. Ignorance is bliss I say.
13. What TV character do you most relate to? I don’t know any TV characters that I can relate to but I do know some Disney movie characters I relate to? Jim from Treasure planet is the biggest one
14. You just walked into a supermarket. What section do you first go to? Frozen section or snack aisle ice cream and junk food mmmm
15. Is sex before marriage wrong? nope. I feel like marriage comes after you’ve accepted them for EVERY aspect. then again it depends on how you view sex. If its sacred to you more power to ya, if its just whatever it feels good hey i agree. its wrong if only 1 person agrees to have it.
16. You just won the lottery. What is the first thing you do with your winnings?keep 25% in a secure place. a portion goes to a bunch of charities and streamers of my choice. a portion goes to whatever i wanna spend it on. a portion goes to pay off whatever friend’s college debts i can. a portion goes to a way i can keep a stable income i can live off of. and a portion goes to my family I guess.
17. If your best friend admitted that they have a crush on you, how would you react? I don’t feel the same.
18. Will the USA ever have a female president? I fuckin’ hope so. Maybe not hilary clinton. maybe. I don’t know enough about politics to make an informed opinion
19. You are carpooling with your friends. Are you more likely to be the driver or a passenger? Passenger, I space out too much
20. How short is too short for skirts and dresses? Nothing is too short i guess. let people wear what they want. its the people looking at fault for objectifying or whatever
21. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, without any consequences, what food would you choose? Potatoes sounds neato. that or sandwiches cuz i can customize it as much as i like. potatoes sounds like a def good idea tho
22. It’s Saturday night. What are you most likely doing? playing overwatch with friends
23. You go on a blind date. Your date is extremely beautiful and physically captivating, but you hate their personality. Would you want a second date? depends on what part of their personality I hate. Are they shallow ? Are they hate filled or closed minded? if they simply just disagree with things like pineapples vs no pineapples on pizza then thats fine, take the good with the bad. if its the closed minded stuff then no I wouldn’t want a second date. Be as pretty as you like, if I can’t stand you then theres no use.
24. How strict should gun laws be? Pretty fucking strict? what, we were in like not even a month of 2018 and we get another school shooting? are you fucking serious? like look at every other country out there, majority of them had 1 school shooting and said “ ok lets maybe be stricter on gun laws” boom. public shootings basically disappeared. WE NEED STRICTER GUN LAWS. THIS IS RIDICULOUS.
25. Would you rather be the worst player on the best team or the best player on the worst team? Worst player on the best team. Because I’m bound to improve and I would never be playing alone. I AM on a team after all.
26. How well do you work with others? Dunno. I would say I’m ok but not a savant by any means. It’s been a while since I’ve had to work with someone back to back
27. You have the ability to cure only one fatal disease and eradicate it forever. What disease do you choose? Cancer most likely Whatever is most common, uncurable, and hardest to research
28. If you could go back to college and choose a different degree to study, would you? I mean maybe? I’ve seen so many of my friends look half dead and be a husk of their former selves just to graduate and thats not a hell i would willingly put myself through. But I suppose if I’m guaranteed a job right off the bat I would.
29. Where do you see yourself ten years from now? Dead? or homeless I guess.
30. Are you pro-life or pro-choice? Pro choice. If it aint yours you aint got no say over it.
31. Would you attend a same sex wedding if invited? Hell yeah, weddings a wedding. weddings mean new people and food. Especially food. oh and friends
32. So far, what has been the greatest day of your life? K Days with C and friends
33. Has anyone you know ever been arrested? Yes
34. If it could be one season year-round, what season do would you want it to be? Fall. Cold enough to use my other 60% of my wardrobe but still warm enough I can go out with shorts and a shirt and be fine
35. What is your biggest regret in life? thats a loaded question my dood. Letting my social life be such a huge focus at such a critical time
36. If you could bring one celebrity back from the dead, who would it be? Freddie Mercury? That or Elvis
37. What offends you the most? People that try to make my decisions for me thinking they have my best interests at heart.
38. Would you rather have an ugly hairstyle or be bald? ugly hairstyle eugh. I can’t do bald. I’d rather be ugly as fuck.
39. At what age did you have your first alcoholic beverage? 16 i think?
40. What do you think happens to us when we die? We’re trapped in our dead bodies until we fully rot then we wander the world as nothing but whispers and chills down people’s necks.
41. What do you think is the best way to quit smoking? I heard a hot sauna can help get rid of the tobacco in your system that makes you crave
42. If you could take home any one animal from the zoo, which animal would you choose? a Puma would be neat
43. We’re humans created or did we evolve from earlier species? I wanna say our biological predecessors were created with our evolution in mind but its not the end we may evolve further.
44. What scares you the most? Death or at least the thought of the aftermath
45. What personality trait turns you off the most? People who think theyre right and everyone else is wrong and refuse to consider new perspectives.
46. You got offered a job to do something you hate, but the pay will make you rich. Do you take it? I’d take it. maybe not for the rest of my life but at least for a while
47. If today you only had what you were thankful for yesterday, how much would you have? nothing to be honest.
48. How often do you get mad or upset at yourself? pretty often
49. If you could choose one celebrity to be your parent, who would you choose? Will Smith or Jackie Chan
50. If you could only listen to one musical artist for the rest of you life, who would you be listening to? Jon Bellion or Aj Rafael
51. Have you ever used you cell phone while driving? nope
52. Had anyone you were close to die way too young? Yup 11 KF SSAC
53. Is world peace possible? Yeah its just humanity isn’t ready for it.
54. You go on a blind date. You date is extremely ugly and physically appalling, but you are madly in love with their personality. Would you want a second date? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Most likely a second date but if youre saying this person is absolutely revolting to me then maybe not a date so much as just to hang out.
55. How did you discover that Santa Claus isn’t real? I didn’t I knew off the bat. Every time my parents would say “ its from santa” as I was with them as they bought my present. My parents don’t do subtle.
56. Do you believe in God, or some form of higher deity? I believe in some omnipotent figure HOWEVER I don’t let it dictate my life. I do believe there is something out there.I mean it can’t be coincidence that literally as soon as humanity could think they all believed in some form of god. Greek, Roman, Japanese, Korean, Indian, Native, Hawaiian etc.
57. If you could save someone you deeply cared about, but it meant breaking a law, would you do it? Hell yes. Jail time is temporary, A life is permanent.
58. What is the dumbest thing you’ve ever done for money? Yknow I never done something like this yet I always wanted to
59. If you were to make a YouTube video about what you know most about, what would the subject be? Injustices or poetry about rain
60. What do you think is your greatest personality flaw? Also a loaded question. Theres a lot haha. I would sayyyyyyyyy how hypocritical I am.
61. If your friends spoke to you the way you speak to yourself, would you still want them as friend? nah
62. Have you ever “woke up like this”? Do you mean the song or something else. If its the song then no.
63. You got offered a job to do something you love, but the pay is one of the worst out there. Do you take it? Hell yeah man, part time jobs exists, other ways to make money exist. If I love it then money is a small price to pay to be happy for the rest of my life.
64. What do you think is your best physical feature? I’ve been told my hair is nice and my eye brows?
65. What do you think is your worst physical feature. the way my face looks when i smile
66. Do you know anyone who has committed suicide? no.
67. What is the nicest thing you’ve ever done for someone you don’t know? I talked to a stranger who was new to the city about all the places to have fun. Malls, tourists sights, events, small cafes and restaurants and activites.
68. Have you ever had a night’s dream come true? Oh god no. My dreams are all crazy as fuck the MOST TAME one was where i was in a shopping bazaar in Philippines and i got shot 5 times in the bathroom by someone who went on a rampage. and thats the most tame
69. How would you reject a date offer from someone you didn’t like? I’m gonna pass on that. - is what I would say.
70. Which do you think is worse: Failure, or never trying at all? Never trying at all.
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