i'm sorry. you reblogged the sensory prompts and as i read each of them i got different ideas for mattdrai and most of them were somehow angsty. if you can, 63 with them? pls and thank you <3
ohhh i was on the verge of sleep but then this ask was too tempting to ignore 💖 it is a little angsty, i couldn't help it. but!!! here's a blurb set in a hypothetical oilers/cats scf !!
63. Indigo skies just before dawn
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Usually, when they were able to share a bed, Matthew slept with his limbs thrown over Leon. An arm across his middle, a leg slotted between his thighs and the other around his hips. All askew and taking up room. Leon always rolled his eyes, but if he was honest, he loved waking in the middle of the night and curling in closer, like it was Matthew’s very arms keeping him safe and together. His own personal weighted blanket.
When he woke up this time, there was a noticeable absence of touch. Leon frowns into the dark, stretching his hand across smooth sheets to find Matthew’s side long cold. A glance at his phone tells him it’s 5AM.
He doesn’t want to get out of bed, knows the air outside his blankets will be cold and unforgiving. The concern wins out, though.
Able to scrounge a hoodie from the floor, he trudges out into the hallway. The bathroom light is on (Matthew always insisted on keeping it on at night), but everything else is dark and quiet.
“Matthew?” Leon says quietly when he finds his familiar shape in the living room, curled up with his knees to his chest on the couch closest to the window. The Edmonton city lights are twinkling stardust in his eyes, “Are you okay?”
“Yah. Sorry, I uh…just couldn’t sleep. Lots going on up here,” Matthew waves to his own head, then holds out his hand to Leon once he’s close enough.
Leon takes it, squeezes gently before sitting down beside him. He taps at Matthew’s calves til he lets his legs lay across his lap—the weight he missed waking to moments earlier.
Matthew sighs, looking back out the window. If Leon sees a shine to them, a flash of wet beneath his eyelids, he wouldn’t bring attention to it. Their emotions are so often guarded, so protected and caged, navigating this pocket of vulnerability with Matthew was something Leon was still getting used to. It gnawed a little worry right into the centre of his ribs, though.
The light in the sky is just starting to shift, deep blue and purple shadows casting onto Matthew’s face. Right here in the dark, just them, it’s easy to imagine there’s nothing greater awaiting them when the sun rises. No huge arena with great expectations, no glory of something they’d both been chasing their whole lives (only to know one of them won’t get there, and it will be the others fault). They were now intertwined in a way that Leon wasn’t sure he liked.
In fact, it made him nauseous to think about.
His life goal was right in front of him, and the only thing standing in his way was breaking the heart of the person he loved the most.
“We’ll get through this, right?” Leon asks, nose screwing up as he looks anywhere else in the room, anywhere but at Matthew beside him. If he does, he's not sure what might spill out.
Matthew’s breath is shaky, and that’s it. Leon prepares himself, braces for impact. The big crash and the limb being ripped away from his body. Instead, “Leo. Of course we will. It’s gonna suck, but we will.”
Leon clears his throat, trying to rid himself of the big lump that was forming there, “Okay. Okay. Good.”
“We have to. Cause I can’t-” Matthew trails off, brushes some of Leon’s sleep mussed hair away from his forehead, “We. Just. You know.”
I can’t imagine life without you. I love you, Leon’s brain supplies. He just nods. Rests his chin in Matthew’s palm and savours the indigo light that blankets them both, “Yah. I know.”
“Wouldn’t You Like” from Epic the Musical. It’s a musical currently in the process of being written, based on the tale of the Odyssey. This song is SUCH a fun one, and I can’t wait to listen to how he portrays the next part of the story (*coughUnderworld Saga is released April 26th cough*)
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Currently Watching:
Finishing my rewatch of the Owl House (and crying all over again because I just love Hunter, my sad awkward boy who just wants to be a kid for once, and he finds friends who accept him—plus he and Willow AAAAA; not to mention the bi-rep with Luz and her relationship with Amity, and then the Collector and King—OH AND FLAPJACK AAAAUGH). Also watching A Condition Called Love cuz the first episode aired last Thursday and I am SOOOO happy with it, and am TRYING to watch Dungeon Meshi but my Netflix is being stupid (;̦̦̦̦̦̦̦̦ↂ⃝⃓⃙⃚⃘дↂ⃝⃓⃙⃚⃘;̦̦̦̦̦̦̦̦)
Sweet/Savoury/Spicy?:
I think probably sweet, though I do love savory foods. And, yknow, I’m from Texas, so I enjoy spicy food—but it has to be spice with a PURPOSE. It has to ENHANCE the flavor, not just try to melt your brains. Sweet, though—hohoHOOO. Yeah. I’ve definitely got a sweet tooth. Again, though, it can’t just be sweet for the sake of sweetness. There should be a little something extra in there to counteract the sweet ( ̄ε ̄〃)b
(I think I just like food LOL;;;;)
Relationship Status:
Single Pringle ( ´,_ゝ`)
Current Obsession:
Genshin impact, ffxiv (thanks a LOT lol, I love my little gremlin girl Nelle), and getting “A”s in my grad courses so I can raise my gpa and get into a masters program for speech language pathology. So, you may notice there are potential obstacles to that last one, evidenced by the previously stated obsessions (๑⃙⃘·́ω·̀๑⃙⃘)੨
Tagging:
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Rengoku- “He was a great man! He was so brave and kind, I really miss him..”
Giyuu- “I haven’t gotten the chance to talk to him much but he seems like a thoughtful guy. I don’t understand why Miss Shinobu hates him so much..”
Shinobu- “She seems really kind, I always sense a lot of pent up anger when I’m around her though. I wonder why she’s so angry..”
Muichiro- “When I first met him he seemed like a bit of an airhead. He was always forgetting things. Now that he’s gotten his memories back he’s really kind and compassionate! He gets bonus points for dating one of my best friends.”
Tengen- “He’s very flashy. He kinda scared me a bit at first but after getting to know him better he’s really nice! He makes me laugh a lot.”
Sanemi- “He’s scary.. he reminds me of my uncle..”
Obanai- “Why does he seem to hate everyone except for Mitsuri?”
Mitsuri- “She’s so sweet! I love her! She’s always asking if she can braid my hair, and of course I always let her.”
Gyomei- “He’s really kind and sensitive. His blindness and connection to spirituality seems to have caused him to have great compassion for the world.”
~Bonus~
Ubuyashiki- “He has a great love for the demon slayer corps. I hope he lives to see us defeat Muzan.”
Tagged by @piratebay wowow this was so hard i suddenly forgot everything id ever watched... but none the less... 9 characters who are me coded
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