#to fix everything that's gone wrong

[saltycryptid]

"You know, I've been catching myself smiling more lately."

🥺🥺 shadowheart is everything to me tbh,,, 💖💖

#Baldur's Gate 3 #Shadowheart #Fanart #more late night doodles lmfao sorry yall the worms are going crazy #i need a kiss from her so bad tho im so serious #i think marrying shadowheart is exactly what i need to fix everything that gone wrong with me #beautiful gorgeous unstoppable incomprehensible #She's cooking up something so mysterious and intriguing i just KNOW it #honestly playing atp just to unlock more lore from her #Roach's Choice

[sadisthetic]

jaya....? (sike. its skybound bad end au. in which jay fails miserably but “nya” never dies. can you imagine?)

#jay walker #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #technically delara. #ninjago #jaya #lol.................. #skybound #my art #im not that satisfied with this piece but man. the concept tho #CAN YOU IMAGINE? IT REALLY SAD. IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY. #imagine being the guy who fucked up so bad. everything was your fault. youre the cause of everything that went wrong #all your friends are dead. youre still trapped in a prison of your own making #and you cant fix anything anymore. its too late and you dug too deep into your own grave #but worst of all shes still in front of you #the reason why you made a whole mess of things #the girl you still havent gotten over #but shes also gone. shes right in front of you but thats not her. YOU did this to her #she stands before you as a symbol of mockery of all your failings and mistakes #like its really funny to her #like you couldnt be any more pathetic #:)!!!!!!!!!!!!! #normal about skybound??? nope!!!!!!!! im not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[why-the-heck-not]

19.11.23, sunday

I listened to Succession soundtrack a lot today and had about the most productive day I’ve had in so so long

things done today:

7h of coding

went to my sister’s kid’s birthday party (mario theme 🍄)

#even tho during the first 4 hours it was me slowly realizing that I had configured/set up my one project wrong somehow #and I’m so far gone with it now that idk how to rly fix it other than starting again and trying to speedrun all I’ve done so far #aka the 50hours I’ve spent on it #but i’m hoping I’ll get it to function by just fucking around with adding some files & paths manually (i doubt that’ll work) #that’s a big yikes that I would not have time for #but I’ve done enough to get a grade out of that course but rn it’d be 3/5 and I want 5/5 bc it’s an easy course to get that from #and god knows I need to do everything in my power to raise my gpa #studyblr #bookblr #booklr #aesthetic #books #study #reading #read #book #dark academia #chaotic academia #november 2023 #2023

[thejokerswildcard]

the joker's wildcard at six flags new england

"the joker's wildcard" opened at six flags new england in 2000. it opened as an indoor darkride but was moved outside around 2008, replacing "nightwing".

nightwing taken from coasterpedia at https://coasterpedia.net/wiki/Nightwing_(Six_Flags_New_England;_opened_2000)

as a dark ride the joker's wildcard supposedly had flashing lights and music, however, i am unable to find video of the ride to confirm this.

the joker's wildcard as a dark ride taken from sfne ultimate at https://www.pinterest.ca/pin/452400725068112957/

the entrance to the joker's wildcard as a dark ride taken from parkinfo2go at http://www.parkinfo2go.com/143/707/ridedetails.html

according to sfne online on youtube, the joker's wild card was pitch black in it's early years but later the ride was run with the door somewhat open.

riders would sit facing each other in carts and the ride would spin in a circle while lifting off the ground at an angle. each cart sat four people. playing cards stuck out the sides and the ride had a centrepiece figure shaped like the joker's head. the ride had a no single rider policy.

the joker's wildcard taken from parkz at https://www.parkz.com.au/attraction/jokers-wildcard/info

the entrance to the ride had a large sign reading "the jokers wildcard" and a picture of the joker's face. the sign is stylized without an apostrophe on joker's, however, official materials list this ride as "THE JOKER's Wildcard"

the entrance to the joker's wildcard taken from parkz at https://www.parkz.com.au/attraction/jokers-wildcard/info

the joker head centrepiece is often missing in photos and videos of the ride. in closeups of the joker's wildcard in later years there is also paint chipping evident on the card pieces.

the joker's wildcard missing the joker centrepiece taken from theme park review at https://www.themeparkreview.com/parks/p_185_5382_six_flags_new_england_kryptonite_kollider

in 2017 THE JOKER Free-Fly Coaster was introduced at six flags new england and the joker's wildcard was renamed to kryptonite and gained a new look.

kryptonite taken from the six flags wiki at https://sixflags.fandom.com/wiki/Kryptonite_Kollider

kryptonite entrance taken from theme park review at https://www.themeparkreview.com/parks/p_185_5382_six_flags_new_england_kryptonite_kollider

kryptonite was apparently renamed to the kryptonite kollider in 2018, however, i can not find anything to suggest this year specifically or any photos of a new entrance. it is extremely likely that the ride was indeed renamed to kryptonite kollider as almost every reference to it online uses this name.

the kryptonite kollider was also often seen without it's centrepiece.

the kryptonite kollider without it's centrepiece taken from theme park central at https://www.themepark-central.de/six-flags-new-england-supergirl-2019/

in 2021 kryptonite kollider was replaced with supergirl skyflyer, a ride similar to nightwing. kryptonite kollider was retired and was not moved elsewhere in the park.

supergirl skyflyer taken from themepark central at https://www.themepark-central.de/six-flags-new-england-supergirl-2019/

sources + extras:

https://www.sixflags.com/newengland/attractions/supergirl-sky-flyer

nightwing sign from amusement pics at http://www.amusementpics.com/SFNE2.htm

official promotional video for the joker's wildcard https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8HPNEAL_w9E

a video of the kryptonite kollider https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DLm2Dh_tY4c

a video of the kryptonite kollider https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0IxGg3jiPkw

video discussing the joker's wildcard (very helpful and informative!) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1_C4Vk3hpE

many reviews of the ride available here http://www.themeparkcritic.com/Scripts/ViewRide.aspx?RideID=1110

video of the joker's wildcard (also jumpscare warning? this genuinely scared me lol) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOE1GJsMvv8

#i blame this ride for almost everything wrong with me #this ride was my introduction to dc and it has stuck with me forever #i still vividly remember going on this ride despite being fairly young #i think the only thing that could fix me is going on this ride again when the sky is threatening rain and the park is mostly deserted #but as i said earlier #this ride has been gone for almost seven years #so uh guess i'm like this forever now #the joker #joker #dc #the jokers wildcard #the joker's wildcard #six flags #six flags new england #roller coaster #roller coasters #j.txt #joker.txt #joker.jpg #kryptonite #superman #supergirl #nightwing #coasters.txt #coasters.jpg #j.jpg

[the-blaze-empress]

Brewing Storms

Chapters: 1/1 Fandoms: Empires SMP, Witchcraft SMP Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Minor or Background Relationship(s) Characters: Shelby Grace | Shubble, Joel | SmallishBeans, Background & Cameo Characters Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Pre-canon, yes its both of those things at once, Witch Shelby Grace | Shubble, Deity Joel | SmallishBeans, Shelby Grace | Shubble Needs a Hug, Shelby Grace | Shubble-centric, Shelby Grace | Shubble is Trying Her Best, (it is not good enough), The Evermoor (Empires SMP), Canon Compliant Summary:

Shelby’s part of the fog now, she knows that. Everyone told her she wasn’t, she was just normal Shelby, back to normal, her hair had just changed colour and that was all.

But that was before anyone looked any closer. That was before the fog started to respond to Shelby like it never had before. That was before her magic started to seep through her very skin.

So much study—well, so much schooling—and no one had ever told her magic could leak out of a person.

She became the fog. Shelby’s long past accepting that, she embraces it now. After all, she is the King of the Fog. Hard to be a king of something you’re not.

--- Or, Fog-witch Shelby may have got a little more than she bargained for

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Happy holidays @needlebeetles! Tumblr why won't you tag them. Tumblr please. Tumblr why are you like this i swear to fucking god. ANYWAYS! This fic was made as part of the @mcytblrholidayexchange and despite me finishing it actually on time (a first for me) tumblr is having Other Ideas and does NOT want to let me post this. headinhands i am trying my best and like one shelby shubble it is NOT good enough.

#shubble #empires smp #witchcraft smp #e2!shelby #wc!shelby #empires s2 #fic #my fic #fanfic #empiresblr #empires fanfic #witchcraft smp fanfic #while making this post just about everything possible has gone wrong #first i couldnt actually make a new post then it wouldnt let me add a link then it deleted the whole post then it changed my colour scheme #then it wouldnt let me type and added one billion empty line breaks then it wouldnt let me tag my giftee which im still not sure ive fixed #shubble fanart

[ibrithir-was-here]

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#Welp #looks like the car is most likely gonna be totaled. I only had 500 dollars left to pay on it too. #im just....really feeling done with everything #i mean i wont do anything about it #but everything since 2020 has gone wrong #i have no degree #a ridiculously low paying job for my age #i made a total fool of myself for someone who in the end was 100 ready to throw me away #and now the one adult thing i managed to do getting a car is gone #and i didnt even do anything wrong #i even went that way home to try and avoid getting in an accident #what's...the point in trying any more? #im gonna have to move back in with my mom at 30 and i dont know if I have the energy to get back out again #thats what im really terrified of #i mean its not a horrible situation but #im not at all where or who i thought id be by now #and i dont know how to get there #or if theres even a point trying #cuz there's no guarantee anything will even work out #ill probably delete this later im just really sad and have no way to fix it #i'm sorry for whining i just cant yell at the old man who hit me (i mean i could but that wouldnt actually fix anything) #so im bawling at Tumblr #edit: talked to my dad and feeling a bit better now

[piplupod]

i think what upsets me most, besides the fact that this means no more accordion unless i somehow miraculously get it fixed, is that despite my best efforts to be careful and not mess up, i still managed to make a mistake and fuck it up. despite understanding and appreciating how expensive and valuable and fragile this instrument is, despite my best efforts to keep it safe and in good condition, i still managed to mess up and damage it.

like ... I just mess up. I have something nice, something of value, and I cannot seem to keep it safe and taken care of. things end up ruined. shirts get holes, dresses get stains, electronics get battery acid leaking or cracked, dishes get broken, book pages get torn or bent, trinkets get chipped, instruments are bonked and rattled. i am so terrified of handling anything that things most often just stay sitting in lidded bins so they are safe from carpet beetles and dust and dirt and food and me.

i just feel awful, i dont understand why I can't just keep things safe and in good condition ?? why is this so impossible for me, especially when i care so much ??

#i think this is partially why i dont allow myself any good art supplies #I got a set of charcoals several years ago and I've barely touched them bc im terrified of fucking them up #but if i get smth from the dollar store? that stuff is getting used immediately #bc its cheap and its not very good quality #im not afraid of using things up. im afraid of ruining them #im such a careful person too but i just. always end up fucking up some time #idk what is wrong w me #this sounds so melodramatic but god im tired #i still feel sick that my nice shirt from the 70s got a tiny hole burned into it bc of fire sparks that i didnt know were around #like i just. cannot have nice things idk. i have the absolute worst luck it seems like. or maybe i just am not careful enough #idk how to be any more careful though honestly fhfkdl #like i either keep things stored away safely sealed up or i am exceedingly careful in handling them #and do everything i can think of and find out to make sure nothing happens #and yet ! #i just feel like a massive idiot for this idk fhfmkl silly me to think i could be trusted w this instrument #there are some websites and videos teaching ppl how to fix accordions but... its complex #but i either attempt a fix myself or never play it again bc getting a professional is too expensive #so ... i guess I'll have to take the dive and tinker w it if i want even a chance at playing again #im just terrified I'll break it even further #also i dont think i have access to everything I'll need for fixing it depending on whats gone wrong #so idk if it'll even be possible even if its doable like. i need Tools and leather and felt #i have spare leather scraps but no felt :| #and no special pliers fjfkdl #argh argh im so upset w myself for this #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[lith-myathar]

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#say what you will about sera dragon age but they really were nailing something #with the ''sometimes we aren't capable of real change until someone loves and accepts us exactly as we are'' thing #if you've gone through life being told there's something wrong with you from every direction and constantly asked to change and improve #that creates both some extreme problems around self worth (feeling inherently damaged and unlovable) and a LOT of anger #anger that's got no real target so everything and everyone becomes something to resent and resist #you are not enough. you will never be enough. even the people who love you are always trying to fix you in the name of helping #and maybe you tried to be different!!! but it didn't work and so you are a constant disappointment #finding somebody who just loves you and sees you amd doesn't demand that you change is.... unthinkable #suspicious. trusting that is not going to come easily #but if it's genuine? that's a place where growth can really start. because it stops being about fighting back and all the resentment #it lets you start believing that maybe change is not synonymous without capitulation or losing this battle you've been fighting #your entire life against the world telling you you aren't good enough #a part of you believed it but another part also knew it wasn't fair and that's the part #that would rather destroy yourself with self destructive behaviors than admit they're right #ahem. i am definitely projecting here but there's a reason i always felt super attached to her!! #and i think i get it now a lot more than i used to

[lesbiansanemi]

Me: maybe 8 days off will fix me, maybe going back to work won’t be so bad. It’s fine. It’s fine. It’s alright

Also me: *is at work for less than two hours and already Wants to Die* Ah. Great.

#this morning already frustrated me #because so much shit was done wrong or wasn’t done at all while I was gone #because I basically manage the department even though that’s NOT MY JOB #so ofc I come back and everything is on fire and everyone is one omg you HAVE to fix this we just couldn’t do it/figure it out 🥺 #when it’s something that’s so simple they just didn’t wanna do it well or right #but also #the stupid fucking gm was like ‘hey I need to talk to you. it’s about your disability accommodation’ #and I. a fool. got really excited like omg!! are they finally going to approve it!!! #no. no. he basically told me to get fucked and it wasn’t going to happen #he said I could WEAR A FAN????? AROUND MY NECK???? and use that for white noise but that was it???? #what???? the FUCK????? #number one I cannot express how much worse a fucking FAN going in my ears all day long would just make my sensory overload 10 times worse #but also how is that not MORE of a distraction and ‘unprofessional’ than just letting me wear my fucking headphones #I feel like crying. I just want to not leave work with a developing migraine every day because of sensory reasons #and a part of me is like suck it up you’ve been dealing with this for a year it’s not actually a big deal #at least you CAN work and it’s not so bad that you can’t that’s a privilege #and like… yeah…. but I literally feel so drained and miserable every single day #and this stupid job makes me want to kms #but I can’t quit cuz the pay is too good #and it’s just so frustrating because they’re like ‘we’re such a good and diverse company we treat our employees so well’ #and the general public thinks it’s a GREAT company #so I just constantly here about how great and awesome and inclusive they are #but they won’t even let me have the accommodation of wearing fucking headphones #something every other job has let me do…. #and it makes me so mad on behalf of every other person who probably got told no over disability accommodations for even more important and I #intensive things #and I just. yeah. I kinda wanna cry #but as always I cannot cry because I’m so emotionally stunted that all I can ACTUALLY feel are pissed off and frustrated #anyways. I need to break something #kaz rambles

[mare-the-silly-scroingle]

today’s been a bad day and one of my friends is practically begging me to let him vent to me and my other friend is picking a fight right now and i can’t remember the last time i saw another person aside from my girlfriend. she makes it better but makes everything worse. i have a meeting tomorrow i swore i’d sleep early for but now i just. i don’t know what i want. 

#it's weird because like... i'm the lucky one? the good one? the fine one? what's even the word for this #i'm not causing drama i'm handling things fine i'm making plans. #but i feel like i'm fucking breaking #and it's just PMS but i've felt uneasy for the entire last two months i just #i feel like i was in a stupor where i had to keep seeing my girlfriend or else everything would fall apart #but it's been a while since i last saw someone that wasn't my girlfriend. since last wednesday i guess. #and now any time she texts me i literally just want to tear my hair out like #i'm not this person this isn't what i'm supposed to be doing. i feel literally plastic. #everything i say is like. someone's already said the exact same thing. i can't do conversations right i can't do them unique. #on friday when i was with my girlfriend i felt wrong the entire fucking time #i think part of that was because i really don't like kissing to be honest #but also because like. i was not a human being. that was not a person in there #i felt neutral. we watched a show and i couldn't keep track of anything that happened #and i was resting against her but i couldn't like. remember it. feel it. #every time i get like this i KNOW if i just sleep i'll feel okay again #but that doesn't even feel real. when was the last time i actually felt a positive feeling? #it was a few hours ago but like. gone. whatever. discarded. #why did i think a healthy relationship would fix it? #neg #dont rb

[romanken]

Compilation of. Something

#still in hell in case ur wondering. #its all a journey of understanding. trying to know and learn new life. trying to overcome barriers of language and culture. trying to #discover the truth of the mission gone wrong. trying to understand a man who fears he can never be understood! #it all happens because they sing... because they sing and we have to know them. because in the whole wide expanse of the universe there is #something like us and we have to know them. we have to understand #i will learn if you teach me! emilio is so full of hope and joy for the future he wants to know and learn and understand. and then it all #gets turned on its fucking head. and originally everything that grows wrong is because emilio wanted to understand. and then its because he #fails to. he eats children because he cannot understand. marc dies and his hands are destroyed because communication fails. #jesus. and then. it. happens and he is desperately trying to know why this would happen to understand why god would allow it and it breaks #him. and all he wants is to stop understanding to stop learning to make it all go away. 😁🔫. and then when he finally gets home and its #supposed to be over everyone just wants. they want what he used to want: to understand and to know. and how can he possibly give that up #how can he communicate that in any way that matters. because it wont make anything better and it wont fix what happened to him #and they cant they cant understand all they can do is offer forgiveness. absolution. and hope that can be enough! #the sparrow

[akuutaguava]

i dont think i shared my excitement bc of jaws of life coming out in 87 DAYS AHAHAHAH ohmygod okay anyways im still recovering from the initial shock but THIS MEANS A MAYBE TOUR. A MAYBE TOUR THAT MAYBE MIGHT BE NEAR WHERE I LIVE. IF THERE ISNT ONE IN NZ THEN I STILL HAVE HOPE FOR AUSTRALIA AHAH AHH

#thrumming w excitement theres literally no other words #the number one thing on my bucket list is to go to a pierce the veil concert like that will actually and fr fix everything wrong in my life #jaws of life #ptv #pierce the veil #stellas gone mental

[pebblezone]

Feeling like a Yuma morii Pokémon card

#talkingcore #got my little book prize and tell me why books are heavy I was surprised with the hellsing manga and now this why are books heavy #don’t get me wrong it’s cool but this thing barely fit into my backpack twas intimidating #oh yeah so excited for next week when everything goes to shit! yay strikes! not good that they have to be striking #but no discussion sections means more brain silly time. we love brain silly time :) #also every day I get more pissed about March madness I am not emotionally invested in basketball but they’re letting the wrong teams win #like last night I’m sorry but you let Michigan state get fucked so another willie the wildcat could win??? fuck Kansas state #msu has like one of the only bearable mascots in the big10 and you let them lose? in overtime too??? #Xavier’s still in though I’m holding out for Xavier I love the blue blob I love stupid looking mascots #Western Kentucky? W. Syracuse? W. Pepperdine? W. Mizzou? W. Ohio State? MASSIVE W. #okay like Akron? they got zippy!! he looks a lil stupid but where else do you have a kangaroo!!! #either you’re intimidating ugly cute or silly like I think Arizona state is intimidating silly because it has a sleek sharp design #but also the dude looks a lil dumb #or like penn state is just ugly but berkeley is ugly cute (actually I really don’t like oski but other people do so I shall be less hostile) #and like all those blobs? Xavier western Kentucky Syracuse? cute silly!! #I need to do my little charts again because I got distracted at like Arkansas and frankly a lot of my knowledge is limited geographically #like my state and where I’m at school I’m pretty good with as well as places I know people have gone #but like not many people where I’m at are going to say Tennessee so I’m not as familiar with a bunch of schools there #which I need to fix because there must be so many epic mascots there that I’m clueless about!!! #okay some states like Wyoming I know have like Two Colleges so it’s easier to know things there but like Mississippi? no clue what’s there!!

[phoenixiancrystallist]

Month 3, day 7, got the nose done and since the guide helped a ton with that (and fixing some weirdness in the eyebrows), I'm gonna try animating the eyes and mouth at the same time and see if I can get them to agree with me. If they don't, it's no big deal; I'll just go back to animating one facial feature at a time :)

#the great artscapade of 2023 #art #my art #my animation #walk cycle #oc: mizu #I've only gone one day not playing Forspoken and already I miss having Frey and Cuff being snarky assholes at each other ): #I'll have time to play tomorrow (in theory) but I miss them anyway ): #I should hurry up and beat the game so I can go lurking in the subreddit and other places with Forspoken love and appreciation #I need to beat it first so I don't accidentally spoiler myself again #because if I understood that one spoiler right I'm sad I won't get the full impact of the reveal scene #but I'm really hoping I misinterpreted the spoiler and can still be fully surprised #bc it was just a picture and a name #unfortunately there were enough context clues I'm pretty sure the conclusion I came to with that one glance is the correct conclusion #which makes me sad because that would have been one hell of a plot twist to get blindsided by #as it is I'm looking for clues and foreshadowing and man oh man let me tell you #if I'm not wrong and I read the context clues right and I'm not misinterpreting everything the game goes BONKERS with the obfuscation #because I can see the spoiler coming if it's actually what's going to happen but it's the kind of ''I can see it coming'' where it's like #I'm watching the shadow of an invisible hawk dive-bombing me from my blind spot #plus I'm actually like this close to writing fix-it fic for how I expect the reveal to play out just for some catharsis about it XD #but I don't actually know! and that's really the worst thing about spoilers! it's not knowing what happens that makes spoilers suck #it's knowing what's going to happen but not knowing what leads up to it and driving myself frantic looking for the foreshadowing!

[artemis32]

I cracked my fucking phone screen

#i'm crying #literally everything that can go wrong has gone wrong #it's so expensive to fix #i'm sobbing

[yukinyaminyato]

if i worry enough will my hair turn grey..... i guess that could be neat

#im just constantly worrying. i have a headache bc ive been so stressed the entire fucking day #the fact that my brand new laptop decided to develop problems only a few days before i leave is killing me #i rlly rlly hope i can get it fixed or returned & replaced tmrw bc. what else can i do?? #yeah im still talking abt this bc it's so stupid. everything is so stupid #this whole month has been filled with only bad luck. like everything that could've gone wrong has gone wrong #i honestly just want everything to turn alright. so i can stop stressing bc it's not good for me #my posts