#trying to inspire myself to write again

[puhpandas]

everyone give me the power to convince myself to write again so I can write this short multichapter fic I've been dying to write for weeks😭

#im probably a bit rusty but i havent felt like writinf in a but #but i miss it so much and just want to do it again💔 #ill have to inspire myself again and thatll be the annoying part #is trying to remember how to write lol #pandas.txt

[aquilamage]

I haven’t been insane about Vi enough lately so time to pour out some random thoughts. free association thinking time:

been thinking about her “It's my savings. I wanna be rich, okay? So I can travel, eat well, buy cool stuff… So no one can say I can't do something!” And none of the following will really be insightful or revelatory because it’s just what she says here but. yeah! that’s vi! the main reason she’s so big on money is because she has to be to get what she wants out of life! it’s what lets her say no to people telling her what to do, and that’s important to her because she has no choice but to be independent and support herself. because no one else will. No one at the Hive had anything positive or supportive to say about her being an explorer until she went out and did it (to a ridiculously successful degree, too. I have to wonder if/how it might’ve differed if she was on a regular accomplishment level team. not the one leading them all to the mission to the Hive). she never had a choice not to be. I could also see that being a little part of why she starts out not really being a teamwork person. past experiences have taught her she can’t rely on anyone else for support. (does make me wonder about what if she’d met Chubee before leaving the Hive. obviously she still would’ve left, but how might even a bit of support have changed other things?)

I feel like we don’t talk about the fact that The Beemerang Is Also Knives enough

ok so at one point there was this post talking about people with money and how it affects their life like. if you can afford to get a nanny then you can only do the fun parts of childcare and when you stop feeling like taking care of the kid you can just hand them to someone else to take them away. and again likely not especially revelatory but I would guess that’s the kind of way queen bianca handled the bees as her daughters (she does care about them. absolutely. but not in the same hands-on attached way as we usually associate with parents) and thinking about how that kind of treatment would then apply to vi....hm

in universes where discussions of Gender and Pronouns etc happen I think she has moments where she gets frustrated with the everything of Being Referred To and Having Complicated Identity She Hasn’t Quite Figured Yet and is like. gender is cancelled how dare you refer to me. but especially anyone else calls me a girl ever i will be stabbing them

also I think a lot about what circumstances she finds out about gayness/Gender being things. and whether she’s thought about it in herself before and whether she’d been dismissed on it/told it wasn’t a thing etc. most circumstances she ends up angry about the finding out times because of (un)consicious internal conflict stuff

underground tavern stuff implies she was definitely doing quests and stuff for money with them precanon. would kill to know what specifically it was. but also the first talk with utter implies that she was doing stuff off that questboard as well which is even more intriguing. utter’s spy also implies you don’t have to be an explorer to do them but otherwise you would think you did I feel. so again very curious what was up there

#inspired by that girl blorbos post and also me trying to think about where in the game they drop facts and such about precanon stuff w her #the urge to try and fic about the stuff between her leaving the hive and showing up at the association....strong again #'the hive didn't do anything' my ass. vi might have also been a jerk but it's just that she was the more obvious #easily labeled incident version of it. she was active while her treatment was the subtle passive neglect type of bad treatment #complex situation and also. yeah #an aquila original #vi bug fables #bug fables #also featuring funky gender lesbian stuff because thats not even headcanon. to me #hopefully the reasoning out stuff doesn't just come out like a load of nonsense #vi's one of those characters where I definitely feel comfortable in writing her on a basic level but some parts I'm super insecure about #and the part with her is in really capturing the complexities of her backstory and family issues #and the thing is it's like. I have to remind myself that some parts of how canon did her on that are actually decent #and I should pay attention to those complexities. but then also canon definitely did some of their 'this hasn't really been earned' #resolution stuff on her. mostly thinking about the postcanon dialogue with Bianca. it's jsut too much of a jump for that for me #and it's not even that I necessarily think bianca's dialogue is out of character. it's that I'm contemplating whether it would've #made more sense for vi to get angry about it. like. #ok so. sometimes i think about what coming out to my family might be like. and I've come to the conclusion that if they were just accepting #despite the fact that it would be best case scenario I'd be angry about it. because they've said some shitty stuff in the past. in general #they've made me feel unsafe about myself. so no actually you don't get to just suddenly be chill about it now fuck you. #it doesn't change the past hurts #and I could see Vi being like that too. even if part of her is happy about getting what she wanted to start with she's pissed about #only getting it now. with a side helping of also wondering if the approval /now/ is only because she's been so successful about it #what if she hadn't been so specially favored by elizant? what if she hadn't been on the team that saved the world? why did she (maybe) have #to earn the approval she should've had from the start? #also not gonna get into this one right now but tweaking her story with jaune to acknowledge that theyre both at fault in different ways #(again). would be nice #but now I'm definitely veering into repeating myself type rambling territory so

[theflyingfeeling]

fanfic rambling in the tags, nothing interesting really, just me talking to myself lol, okay to ignore or read as you please ✨

#so i've found the perfect prompt list for an olli/allu fic advent calendar sorta thing #but i'm too intimidated by my own expectations and ridiculously high standards to even start writing any of them 😭 #honestly these prompts are so insanely cute and fit olli/allu PERFECTLY #like. i'm actually having trouble deciding which ones to use because i want to write them all 🥺💞 #but i'm so so scared that i'll just end up writing the same (boring) story over again for 24 times 😔 #i wish i could just write without thinking and trying so hard to write a literary masterpiece #when i KNOW it's alright if it's just a silly little story about my blorbos #that's perfectly enough and i know this but my brain's just not having it 😩 #also if i were to write 24 independent fics i'd have to keep them short and simple but. that's not how i do fics. unfortunately (for me) #to overcome this i guess one option would be to write just one longer piece with 24 chapters #and somehow try to include the prompt of the day in each chapter 🤔 #but i don't want to make this even more complicated to myself lol especially because i'm planning to write AUs for a couple of the prompts #i REALLY want to do prompts (of any kind!!) but i'm just so scared of stressing myself out to another months-long writer's block 😭 #fair enough the last time that happened (last winter/spring) i was in a shitty place mentally anyway #and so far i've been happy to be writing on random bursts of inspiration. that's how it's the easiest for me. the words just...flow out #i'm so insanely jealous of anyone who can just create stuff when given any prompt 😭 #y'all are super humans to me how do you do it pls spill your secrets #and anyone tempted to comfort me by saying i shouldn't stress myself over this and that i don't have to write anything i don't wanna write: #i knoooooowwww and i appreactiate the sentiment but the thing is i actually DO want to write these prompts 😭 #in theory at least. because they really are cute as fuck wth 🥺 #the problem is that i can't /force/ myself to write something at the snap of my fingers without a clear idea besides the prompt #and also because i know it can take me days to finish even one story let alone 24 💀 #so to even START on this project is a little intimidating 🫣 #i just fear i won't have the patience :( #and when i realise i won't be able to finish the project i'll become frustrated with myself #if only i knew how to write shorter one-scenes in order to not tire myself out #but often i find those kind of fics somehow...unsatisfying :( #i'm just a sucker for crafting the context/background for stories. a little flesh around the bones if you will 🤧 #okay that's all now i'm gonna go stare at a wall while doing nothing useful for the rest of the weekend byeeee #if you read this far i hope you're having a nice saturday

[end-orfino]

ahhhhhh i remember why i dont read comics & books and watch movies as much as I should. Because they make me lose it

#i get suddenly hit with a tsunami of inspiration and an urgency to Make Something #but the urgency isn't about the process of making it's about I Have Stories To Present Too. I have to See Them Realized. #and that hit of urgency is obviously far too short lived to make anything. esp since it comes in a set with a feeling of 'wow this- #-thing was so great' that transforms into intensified perfectionism of No No What Im Doing Here Isnt Good. What Is This. Disgrace- #-to my idea AND to what inspired it AND to my self proclaimed status as an amateur storyteller #which turns into artblock. so like low chances that ill even get a singular good drawing made during this #and the multiple comic or script or whatever ideas that appear in my head during this are out of the question entirely #oh and all of this appears next to the normal feelings caused by a good story like attachment to the characters and having to process it- #-for a while and if its very good then even sometimes rarely i get the need to make fanart #so all of this combined just leads to me not being able to do anything for a while and feeling awful about it. #fun./sar #i wish i was a normal artist people here are so resilient and do stuff even though they dont want to or they DO want to #because idk they enjoy being pissed bcs of a thing not turning out right and they dont mind how tedious it can get- #-and they enjoy sacrificing hours&days&months of their lives without a guarantee that anyone will appreciate it accordingly and itll pay of #its probably the resilience though #im weak like a dried twig both mentally and physically #this sounds like i never enjoyed drawing&writing ever. and to clarify thats far from true. i frequently enjoy it #just never frequently enough and consistently enough to actually make something more 'worthwhile' or linear #it's like a wind that comes & goes that i have no control over. #i try to keep telling myself that in the past i struggled to make anything 'bigger'....& know i even made animatic shitposts #this sounds so stupid god. an animatic shitpost being an achievement. #its not an art skill achievement its a fighting tooth and nail with my own self to actually finish it because its a struggle almost every- #-time achievement #what im saying is im trying to tell myself that i already improved. im doing more than i could have done in the past. #even if the process is so slow and i dont know when ill advance again #if ill advance again. i just gotta believe i guess? thank u parappa

[kissmefriendly]

Really wanna write a post-canon Monstrous Regiment fic but a) I haven’t written fic since 2017 and b) I’m just not amazingly confident in my skill as a fic writer. Love the idea, too geeked to actually execute it

#when I write original work it’s different because there’s no bar of quality set by anyone except me #so it’s pretty low lmao #but fan fic? especially fan fic of Pratchett’s stuff?? #nah son #but then again I haven’t seen anyone try this premise before and I reallllyy wanna see it played out #I’m partly inspired because I’ve been reading a whole lot about irl Sweet Polly Olivers mainly in the navy #but general military as well #pleeease someone write it or I will feel obligated to do so myself #I’m not a good writer outside of my own original stuff and even THATS questionable! #monstrous regiment #discworld #gnu terry pratchett

[encrucijada]

guy who said they wouldn't write for their mental health but then listened to turn by the wombats

#the problem is my brain knows no chill so if i allow even one (1) thing i'll want to write Everything #which immediately makes me feel awful and overwhelmed again so i have to cut myself off completely #i was literally daydreaming about this little au and my brain at once went #okay so we should also write all these flash fics and short storied and advance these chapters from— LIKE NO STOP #stop please i just want to write without burning the candle from both ends 😭 #i always try to set small manageable goals but they evolve into involving everything until i end up doing nothing #it's a summer romance au btw. that's what turn by the wombats inspired #pia.txt

[hellborg]

Watching Hackers (1995) :] Tomorrow I’ll watch Under the Skin (2014)

#trying to watch more movies or get some inspiration to draw and maybe write again #talking to myself tag #delete later

[curiosity-killed]

writing patterns tag game

tagged by @veliseraptor which makes this a little funny for me bc it's like 'wow one of my favorite writers has influenced how i write. shocking!!' anyway this is also cheating a little bc I didn't want to just do all the one-shots from 'in the orchid hour'

Rules: List the first line of your last 10 posted fics and see if there’s a pattern.

Hua Cheng whines a little, already breathless. (Cinnamon and cloves)

“I’m going to say it,” Zizhen says abruptly. (a truth universal)

Her brother was easy to love and difficult to know. (non nobis nati)

The first thing Amelia learns after her life ends is that it is very clear when her husband is in the room and when it’s the angel wearing his body. (where you go (i will go))

The first time he meets Crimson Rain Sought Flower, Mu Qing barely makes it out alive. (til my feet are memory)

Wen Qing has never liked Lan Wangji. (sixteen stitches)

When he was a child, Xie Lian knew every gentle touch a mother or friend could offer. (for saints have hands)

All silk begins with death. (mori)

When he drives the dowel into his master’s heart, Lang Qianqiu does not remove Fangxin’s mask. (wolf trees)

He did not come back to her all at once. (this, this)

...yeah I basically tend to either start in the middle of Things Happening or with like...a central idea, I guess? I like to keep first lines relatively short and to the point and ideally have some irony in them + some establishment of The Sitch. I tend not to stew over first lines as much as I do last lines but that's partially because usually they've been percolating in the back of my mind for a few hours/days while the fic concept (and words) slowly coalesce so. ????

#being too lazy to tag rn sorry i am glaring murder at one of my clients thru. slack. and also gmail. #tag meme #anyway this is also true of my original fic #tcp starts off with declaring callebero's death; slack tide starts with veria waist-deep in water; peacekeepers starts with micah's nightma #*nightmares/haunting #hm i guess those are all the novel-length wips i have atm #i....also don't remember how viral starts but it's been so long since i really touched that OR ren/avery that i'll probably just scrap and #start fresh when i do turn back to them #i will say because i'm usually trying to write fic as fast as i can before the inspiration skitters off again #i VERY rarely edit/revise fic #the exceptions are like...mori/off hesperus/whipstitch/heart + bone (only bc of clem) #so usually the first line is really just the first line i wrote which is often just me trying to get the idea down for myself as fast as i #can in terms of like Concept and mood/scene/etc

[silhouettecrow]

365 Days of Writing Prompts: Day 228

Adjective: Perfect

Noun: Fist

Definitions for those who need/want them:

Perfect: having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics, or as good as it is possible to be; free from any flaw or defect in condition or quality, or faultless; precisely accurate, or exact; highly suitable for someone or something, or exactly right; (printing) denoting a way of binding books in which pages are glued to the spine rather than sewn together; (dated) thoroughly trained in or conversant with; absolutely complete (used for emphasis); (mayhematoce(of a number) equal to the sum of its positive divisors, e.g. the number 6, whose divisors (1, 2, 3) also add up to 6; (grammar) (of a tense) denoting a completed action or a state or habitual action that began in the past, and the perfect tense is formed in English with have or has and the past participle, as in they have eaten and they have been eating (since dawn) (present perfect), they had eaten (past perfect), and they will have eaten (future perfect); (botany) (of a flower) having both stamens and carpels present and functional; (botany) denoting the stage or state of a fungus in which the sexually produced spores are formed; (entomology) (of an insect) fully adult and (typically) winged

Fist: a person's hand when the fingers are bent in toward the palm and held there tightly, typically in order to strike a blow or grasp something

#im late again #mainly cos i was absorbed with looking at good omens stuff #but then i accidentally fell asleep #it feels like it almost always comes back around to accidentally falling asleep #anyway this prompt makes me think of 'kiss with a fist' by florence + the machine #which can go a few different ways in terms of inspiration for a poem #it also makes me think of the training montage during 'ill make a man out of you' from mulan #which can also go a few different ways #theres just a lot to consider with this one and i havent landed on anything concrete yet myself #thanks for reading #writing #writer #creative writing #writing prompt #writeblr #trying to be a writeblr at least

[stories-by-rie]

127 try once more like you did before

it is time for another thing for @flashfictionfridayofficial, minor warning for mentioned smoking, other than that it's actually very lighthearted i think, 780 words, hope you have fun <3

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Someone too close was smoking too much. Usually Rabea was not that deep in someone else’s business--if they want to smoke, they can smoke! But this had to be the fiftieth cigar this evening because the smoke was actually clouding the tavern’s room and the whole atmosphere got a kind of mysterious that was too dramatic even for her tastes. Which really meant something, considering she sat in the darkest corner, the hood of her cloak covering half her face in shadows.

All she wanted to do was to get a tiny break before setting out into The Forest again, but perhaps journeying to the sea  was a better idea, to get her lungs cleaned out by the salty ocean air. Actually, it seemed like a better idea the more she thought about it. A change in scenery had never hurt anyone and, sure, she had that one hire to venture into The Forest and destroy the wall’s gate and obtain a book from the library behind it that may or may not be cursed, but her client was immortal so a little vacation should be in it. Right?

Rabea just got ready to leave when the door opened and a group of young travellers came in. It was impossible not to overhear their conversation and who was Rabea to deny her ears.

“I followed the manual to the T”, one of them proclaimed. “My sword is polished, the tinctures are correctly labelled and my water bottles filled. There is nothing that could go wrong.”

“Did you also work through the chapter “Waterfalls and Other Sopping Escapades”? I mean, we’re going into The Forest, how many bodies of water could we possibly encounter?” another wondered.

“Well, I mean I skimmed it and I know the gist, so I consider myself well prepared, still”, the first one said.

Rabea took a deep breath and instantly lapsed into a coughing fit. Those younglings were about to see the last of their days.

“Very reasonable”, another mumbled, “I also skipped the chapter about fighting fire witches. Everyone knows those live near volcanoes, there’s no way we’re going to encounter one.”

The rest of the group agreed in different tones of mumbles and Rabea felt herself nearly cringe to death. It would be an embarrassing end, but surely everyone would see its inevitability. Fate truly was the cruellest of all.

“If I may be so bold to interrupt”, Rabea boldly interrupted with a raspy voice that made her sound at least another 430 years older, “but I happen to have ventured into The Forest before and I cannot recommend the chapter about fighting fire witches enough.”

The group turned towards her, eyeing her with suspicious gazes and one or two blanching faces.

“Oh shit, are there truly fire witches in The Forest?”, one of them asked with a thin voice.

“Well, not exactly, but there definitely are burning bog snakes and handling them roughly works the same way as handling fire witches”, Rabea replied. Not that anyone had given her that advice when she had walked into The Forest the first time, but she was a great supporter of shared and free knowledge. So.

Suddenly each and every one of them had burning questions (well, not that kind of burning) about The Forest and Rabea found herself answering them all with enormous professionalism backed by her own experiences.

“Who even are you?” one of them asked with an impressed spark in her eyes.

“Me? I am Rabea.”

“Rabea the Ruthless?” one cried and suddenly, the whole group looked again as if they were ready to bolt out of the tavern.

“I? Don’t know?” Had she gained a moniker while she had been trying to conquer The Forest? Why had no one told her about this?

“Rabea the Ruthless who is known for slaying even the greatest beast, who has ventured into The Forest countless times and remained victorious no matter how many times she tried? Who ruthlessly goes against anyone in her way? That Rabea?”

Well. That sounded somewhat more dramatic than she had expected. With great flourish, she pulled back her cloak’s hood.

“Maybe? I sure have been in The Forest quite a lot. But only because I keep failing at my mission? So I am really not certain if that holds up to anyone’s expectations.”

The group stared at her now with a mixture of wonder and fear.

“If even Rabea the Ruthless keeps failing, how are we supposed to even make it behind the first line of trees?” the biggest of the group cried pitifully.

Rabea took a coughing sigh. It seemed like the ocean would have to wait.

#writeblr #my writing #writing community #flash fiction #the fact that i wrote again is weird after such a long break #the fact that it is already friday again is actually deeply unsettling who allowed time to pass and may i have a word #i find myself absolutely hilarous i cannot stress it enough #but i sure as hell can stress myself more and go through my 500+ memory cards #this text has been brought to you by the inspiration i gained from the group chat convo i was part of an hour ago #(title stolen from abba's chiquitita because some of us have songs stuck in their heads okay) #(the title has nothing to do with the story but it's better than no title) #i actually think this is the best thing i wrote since brunhilde #probably exists in the same universe actually i see now that it would fit #*gasp* #what if the wall rabea wants to break through is bruno's tomb #wait no i have to study for uni aaaah #127 #try once more like you did before

[sinking-into-mist]

Happy Halloween to everyone who celebrates! 🎃

And good luck with NaNoWriMo to everyone who's going to participate! 🖋

Anyone doing NaNo feel free to message me! I might need an emotional support group to get through November, because it hasn't even started yet and I already kinda want to quit 🙈😂

#yeah yeah i could just choose to not do nano this year #but i've done it for the past 14 years and i'm not going to break that winning streak now #i don't have a plot or inspiration but i sure do have stubbornness so here we go again i guess 😅 #(well i am pretty sure i'll mostly write bc fics like i've done in the past two years #i kinda want to try to see if i can put olliallu through enough different scenarios to get 50k words of that #but i'd probably get bored of writing so much of just one pairing #so maybe more realistically the goal could be like 25-30k of olliallu and then 20-25k of other pairings #asdfghjk that's so many words why am i putting myself through this year after year 🙈) #anyway nanowrimo is the most wonderful time of the year and you all should do it 👌😌😅 #oh also beware i'm probably going to reblog lots of writing prompts etc throughout next month because i'll need a bunch of those 😅

[campirebites]

Starting a commonplace book for kind of the first time. Starting with Rebecca, one of my favorite books of all time 💕

#I just realized I missed the last E in Manderley in my lettering explodes explodes explodes #Rebecca my beloved #last night I dreamt I went to manderley again <3 #the first line had me hooked the first time I read it the summer before 7th grade #avoids my life by throwing myself into tasks and hobbies lololol #this book always inspires me I’m trying to pay extra attention to setting to help me mold my setting in my head of my own book idea #and I’m loving how it’s looking ❤️ #I’m actually starting from the back of my current writing notebook bc this notebook is so gigantic and I know I’ll want #a new writing notebook at some point I don’t think I’ll want to use it for more than one writing project so #I’m ok with this taking most od the pages in this book #Rebecca #daphne du maurier #camshitposts #commonplace book #commonplace journal

[saltpepperbeard]

what if i finally started to write gentlebeard fic

haha just kidding

.................................unless? 

#OFMD #Gentlebeard #Revenge Rambles #this is a psa that i'm trying my damndest hardest hsdjkls i am TRYING #I've had so many stories drafted for so long #And I'm currently poking three with a stick #And looking THREATENINGLY upon my AO3 #call it: i'm so inspired by how many of all are so talented and are putting out so many lovely stories #and i'm sitting here like damn dude i think i actually miss writing HJKLSDS #I was/maybe still am in such an atrocious slump #But mannn am I starting to itch to pull myself out #BECAUSE THE URGE TO DROP KICK STEDE AND ED INTO A PILE OF FLUFFY PILLOWS IS SO SO REAL #cannot believe The Drought TM is making me write again wow smh

[munch-mumbles]

farts

#ugh i know its an inherently harmful mindset to base your arts worth on how much engagement it gets #and i HAVE been trying to take the steps to obsess over it less but its just like. its difficult not to feel like i failed to deliver #people were really interested and curious about mlad and then i started posting less so people moved on #and now it really feels like i wasted my chance #my art style itself has improved but the person and the writing behind it has decayed and people can smell it #im just frustrated with myself. if i just kept it together i couldve done some really cool stuff but im never going to have that kind of #interest in my work again #been trying to move my focus to just drawing what i want but part of my driving force to make me want to create was knowing people wanted #to see that work #im complaining in circles sorry its just something that weighs on me because i know its my fault ultimately #sometimes i do get inspiration to do something really big for mlad but im too scared of my shit flopping now #which is also just a me skill issue

[yeleltaan]

//Hello! I just got done with an exam that was bugging me, and I’ve been a bit quiet lately, so here’s another update on how things are going.

As I mentioned in my previous ooc post, study stress and overall difficulty concentrating has been a persistent annoyance and obstacle from writing, so I’ve been taking steps to improve my habits.

Probably my best decision, I’ve recently started going to BJJ and MMA classes! My physical activity has been sorely lacking since the covid pandemic began, so I knew that was one of the main issues to tackle. I’ve been enjoying them a lot and I think this is going to prove a very good change for my mental and physical health, the effects of which should become more noticeable in the mid-term. I kinda went from 0 to 100 with them, so last week was exhausting and rather painful, but I don’t regret it. This week was a lot more pleasant and I can already tell I’ve regained much of my discipline and reflexes.

Besides that, I’ve been trying to be more mindful of my sleeping habits and go to bed at the right hour. This is still very much a work in progress, it’s tough to beat that self-feeding cycle of “I can’t focus so studies take longer, I have less time to myself and I can’t make full use of it either so I’m reluctant to end the day, I didn’t sleep enough so I can’t focus”. I think this will be a gradual process, though I can already tell that the greater physical activity helps make me feel more tired and willing to rest.

I’m diversifying my workspace as well, since that can help your brain distinguish when it’s time to work and when it’s time to rest. But I’ve been inconsistent on which spots I use for work, which I use for (thinking-heavy) hobbies and which I use to rest, so I’ll need to correct that in order to really make this effective.

Anyways, I was hesitant to make this post until I could really show this progress as opposed to talking about it, but I figure it’s better than staying quiet for very long. I also don’t quite now how early I’ll really start to improve my pace in writing, setting goals is tempting but too many times my predictions on this blog (or Ornstein’s blog, my God) have been proven wrong so... we’ll see how that goes.

Besides working on replies, I might also do a few of those headcanon prompts I’ve been tagged in (thanks all who did! Even though I haven’t really been doing them lately, I appreciate that you still thought to mention me). Also wondering if some tweaks to the blog might also help with motivation (reviewing the rules, the about page, using more “distinct” and consistent tags... might even try making tags for each dynamic, maybe even for alternate versions of the same muse as well, but I’m still undecided and can’t promise anything yet).

Oh, and I fixed the issue that was making submissions impossible to send, so that’s a start. With that said, hope you’re all doing well, and if not, may that change soon!

#ooc #long-ish post this time! As I've said I'm hesitant because I don't want to sound repetitive or end up not meeting my expectations #but yeah just letting you know that I'm doing well and dealing with what I imagine to be some of the roots of the issue #of my writer's block #I'm tired of getting stressed needlessly over small things. Still got a long way to go but this should help with that #once again thank you for your patience. I'm going to try to be around more though this will likely be a gradual process as you know #needless to say that even if I'm slow to write I'm always open to plotting #don't let my limited activity deceive you. My brain is thinking a lot about the different plots and concepts #I'd say I'm feeling very inspired in that regard so that's good :] #also been a rather intense first half of the month dealing with that and other long-lived small issues causing background anxiety #but things are going forward and that's what matters #posting this at odd hours for some people including myself so I might reblog it tomorrow

[rikyl]

What do you call that feeling that’s a mixture of excitement that someone commented on your WIP and crippling guilt when you realize you haven’t updated in two years?

The Germans probably have a specific word for this.

#I had the best intentions but got stuck on plot stuff #and I do still get it out once in a while but haven't figured it out yet #might feel inspired to try again though #it's my greg x rebecca fic for cexg #I knew it was too ambitious but couldn't help myself #writing is hard