here’s how i managed to lose 9kg/20lbs in a month (august-september)
literally just cut out everything but yogurt and water. not even kidding. all i ate in a day was a 90g cup of yogurt, aka 72 calories (80cal per 100g).
went from 51kg/112lbs to 42kg/92lbs from august 2nd to september 4th. got down to 39kg/86lbs in less than three weeks. 37kg/81lbs in november. just for clarity, i’m 168cm/5’6.
absolutely fcked up my life, though. had to get 10 iv fluids transferred in a row when 3 are considered dangerous. my blood pressure was 78 when the norm is 90-120 for my age. lost count of the amount of medications i have taken and the amount of money my parents had to spend on them. became the cause of my moms menopause, literally. my family was terrified that one night, when i’d go to sleep, i would never wake up again. made absolutely everybody hate me because i was a completely different person. went through 3 therapists, 2 psychotherapists and 1 psychiatrist. neither of them helped. tears, breakdowns and crazy panic attacks and family conflicts every single fcking day.
am i ready to do this all again? yes. shouldn’t have been a cow and gained all the weight back.
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Making an un trigger warned episode that shows graphic depictions of SA and drug use is okay because viv lied about the story boarder being an SA survivor. That’s not a coping mechanism that’s just gross to do. Toxic coping mechanisms exist. My cutting, starving, and binge eating were all coping mechanisms. That doesn’t mean they were good for me. Use your fucking brain please, I’m so tired of hearing people say that. It hurts me as someone who has done so many horrible coping mechanisms to hear “it’s a coping mechanism so it’s okay.” Episode four gave me a panic attack.
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I literally gained 20kg through binging, but at least my mom now works out with me before school and wants me to track my food…
pro tip guys: just gain so much weight, that the people around you want you to restrict
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okay but… binging doesn’t make you feel good. binging doesn’t make you look good, to yourself or anyone else. binging doesn’t make anyone happy in any way.
so why tf do you do it?
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My mind while I was binging like crazy for half a month lying I was on recovery
fucked up rlly bad for the 100th time🙈🙈
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Hhhhh I probably won't finish this piece...
Selling this as a print here ^^^
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my addiction to diet soda is doing more harm than good
tbh i think its making me b1nge
plus giving me horrible acid reflux and my teeth have gotten worse staining :/
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