#wait am I talking to myself?

[nikoisme]

The constant temptation and promise of everything and nothing in the odyssey. The sirens promise odysseus to know, and the lotus eaters promise him to forget. He could be an immortal, and he could be a beggar. Be known, and be a stranger. He could be alive, and he could be dead. He could be odysseus, and he could be nobody. And the man of many ways tries to be a little bit of everything.

#i've been thinking about this. for months. #i wanted to talk about this by properly writing something but i simply cannot wait. i just have to say it. #i am thinking about this almost every day. it's just. ughhh #i WILL write about this i'm telling you bro #anyways i have so many ideas that make me fall to my knees. but i'm keeping them to myself for now shhhh #niko rambles

[actual-changeling]

There is no gun to his head.

I don't know where that notion came from or why so many people are suddenly convinced it is true, but I rewatched the last episode and especially the final fifteen over and over again and it's not real.

So. Let's have a look at the facts, and I mean facts, as in what we see on screen and what we can generally all agree on happens—no metas, no headcanons, just pure canon.

Aziraphale and Crowley just witnessed Gabriel and Beez go off together. They are free, there are no consequences for them, they left and have no interest in returning.

This tells them two things: Any threats from hell or heaven regarding their relationship are void under the current conditions. Hell is understaffed and dealing with its own problems, and heaven is a mess in a different but equally disabling way. The second thing, or rather the consequences of the first, is that they can do the same.

Let that sink in because so many people seem to completely forget about what that scene signifies outside of being a "relationship mirror". There are no consequences when a demon and an angel go off together. In the end, they weren't stopped, everyone kinda sighed and went well, we have our own problems, so they might as well leave.

Now, when the Metatron talks to Aziraphale, that scene is fresh in his mind, it literally just happened. The threat is gone, he does not want to return to heaven in that moment because he is processing what it means for the two of them.

Then, the Metatron offers him the jackpot: Aziraphale gets to fix heaven—make a difference, as he likes to put it—and have Crowley back as an angel. Aziraphale still thinks heaven is fundamentally good and thus the best place to be; angels, the two of them, how great! All of his moral problems have been solved, and, let me stress this over and over, there is no threat.

The Metatron LITERALLY just proved to him that he won't punish angel/demon relationships—he stopped Michael from punishing them. In Aziraphale's eyes, he is the knight in shining armour, threats wouldn't even be necessary.

Additionally, and I have repeated this so many times it has become tedious, Aziraphale does not know about the second coming. He doesn't. The Metatron tells him in front of the elevator, not a second earlier.

To summarize

he has tangible proof that angel/demon relations won't be punished

the Metatron has proven himself to be an ally and trustworthy

there is no dawning apocalypse

Crowley can come back to heaven with him

In conclusion, every single one of Aziraphale's problems disappears. Threats—threats over WHAT?

Do you really think the Metatron would immediately contradict himself and destroy any tentative trust Aziraphale has? Do you think he would jeopardize the blind fearlessness he develops as soon as he mentions the Crowley part of the deal?

Everyone always calls him an evil mastermind, just to turn around and paint him as the dumbest figure imaginable. He knows what he is doing.

When Aziraphale tells Crowley about the decision he has made for them, his voice is genuinely soft. It's real joy, no hidden messages, no nothing. Have you recently re-listened to it? Because I have.

"He said I could appoint you to be an angel."

That happiness and excitement is real, it just is. I rewatched it over and over and I tried to see any hidden meanings, I really did, but he's simply happy. That's all.

Everyone is completely free to have their own theories, you can disagree with my meta thoughts all you want, that's what fandom is for!

But I am so bloody tired of getting "well, actually there was a gun to his head" on every. single. post. that I make about the final fifteen. There was no gun.

You can put one into the Metatron's hands all you like, but it is not canon. It just isn't.

#alex talks good omens #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #good omens season 2 #go2 #aziracrow #crowley x aziraphale #ineffable divorce #the final fifteen #good omens meta #just waiting to be thrown to the wolves for this #but like genuinely stop adding that to my posts i am so tired of having to repeat myself over and over and over again

[midnight-moth]

What if. …

Phantom listens, and eventually peeks his head around the corner to watch. Cirrus and Cumulus seated together on the creaky velvet bench in front of the upright piano, playing together.

He loves the sound. All of the keyboards and synthesizers are cool. But this is different, it feels organic, vibration, air and space. Something about it feels like his own magic and he doesn’t know why.

And even though he knows the keys are made of something hard, they look soft to the touch. And he wants to touch them.

He rounds the corner and sees the vacant bench and decides to chance it. Lifts the lid and hits a single key. Rationally, he should anticipate the sound, but it makes him jump nonetheless.

He tries to apply what he knows to produce a chord. But it’s all a little bit confusing. Unfamiliar in a way. His fingers try to find the right places on their own but thankfully there’s two ghoulettes watching him from the doorway who are willing to help.

They speak and he jumps again and apologizes. Of course they tell him there’s nothing to apologize for. They offer to teach him and he accepts. They make him a notebook that has alternates sheets of staff and lined pages.

They litter the pages with little notes of encouragement or tips, written in colourful gel ink. They plaster the sheets with stickers. Soon he learns he prefers minor scales because they sounds a little sad but very pretty. And he loves the damper pedal because it makes the notes linger in his ears long after he’s struck the keys.

He has an end game. He didn’t at first. But now he can’t wait to show Dew what he can do. For him to lead Dew to the bench and play for him. Because he isn’t quite sure he could ever impress Dew with a guitar. That maybe, Dew would focus on the sound rather than his technique.

Maybe it’s embarrassing, how eager he is to please. But just once he wants Dew to be the one watching in awe as his hands move. To feel just a little of what Phantom feels when he watches Dew play.

#he would most definitely compose his own piece #he would absolutely be terrified and insecure #it would take 43 pep talks from both cirrus and cumulus before he’d be ready #Dew would of course be floored when cirrus inevitably blabs that phantom not only wrote the piece he played #but that he wrote it for Dew specifically #Dew buys him some super fancy heavy weight leather bound staff as a thank you #now Dew waits for him on the bench at the same time every week #leans on phantoms shoulder and wraps his tail around his waist and closes his eyes #no one ever interrupts of course but Dew eventually tells him that everyone is dying to hear #he’s known that for a while but he wanted this all for himself for a while #I hate sundays so much and I am thinking of 8000 timelines and stories to distract myself #phantom ghoul #dewdrop ghoul #nameless ghouls #cirrus ghoulette #cumulus ghoulette #midnight moth writes

[andorshitdaily]

"i've learned from palpatine. i show you the stone in my hand, you miss the knife at your throat."

god what a heater. gotta love tay's immediately terrified face

Tell me your favorite Andor quote or screenshot because I'm bored and I miss it!

#'the hell did i just talk myself into' #'and why am i turned on by it' #wait who said that #asks #anonymous #mon mothma

[silenthillbunni]

i wnna die bc i'll always be alone. no one will ever be able to understand me or love me for who i truly am etc etc. like there is always smth that makes me unloveable and makes them just leave me bc oh that thing was too much or oh this thing they didnt like. the more i show myself to someone ans the more they know... the less they'll like me. im impossible to know completely and still love

#and they might say they like me now but im just waiting for the one thing to xome up that will make them unlike me skksksks #this is why i am so tired #i am so tired of talking to ppl and trying to make friends or connections #i have to hide so much of myself #i just dont see how anyone could ever see it all but still want me or love me #i dont know... i feel so lonely and alienated all the time it's consuming every atom of my being #📓💭

[merakiui]

read your hucow mc and epel and loved it!!!! but hear me out....hucow mc and bull epel...im obsessed with all the epel crumbs you leave!!

OMG OMG bull!Epel who is mistaken as a female at first glance, so he's put in your pen. But then it becomes clear he isn't when the handlers find him railing you. <3 and it's already too late to separate the two of you because the both of you have gone so many rounds already and he's came inside each time. It will not be a surprise to anyone if and when you eventually fall pregnant. Epel refuses to be taken away from you once he knows you're pregnant, so the handlers have no choice but to let the two of you stay together in a space separate from the other hucows and bulls.

Aaaaa and maybe Epel's really protective and territorial over you, so if anyone tries to get near you (especially when you're pregnant) he gets really defensive!!!! <3 and he has to be the one to milk you and bring your meals and care for you!! He's so ready to start a fight if anyone gets too close for comfort.

#twisted chit chat #tw: pregnancy #i shall continue to sprinkle epel bread crumbs for everyone to enjoy #harveston really did turn me into an epel fan #and i may slowly be becoming a sebek fan... #it was really cute when he called the plushie a 'squirshie' #i'm certain there are sebek thoughts in my brain i just need to shake it like it's a snow globe and wait until the sediment settles hehe #i am restraining myself from thinking about jade and idia because i talk about them too much >_< #i write this and yet i have hucow darling x floyd thoughts where you escape your handlers and live with floyd and !!!!!! #no more floyd thoughts!!!!! i need him out of my mind!!!!

[queenie-blackthorn]

sometimes i feel like i hate everyone

#if i ever say “i hate you” dont take it personally #everyone does stupid shit sometimes n thats fine but its happening sm and im sick of it n i need to speak up #chances are if u see this ur not part of the problem bc ur actually reading the shit i post #the fact that barely anyone realized that i relapsed into sh yesterday is crazy #im not doing this for attention its a fucking cry for help and most of yall are ignoring me #you ignore me when im fine and you ignore me when i need you #what am i supposed to do ffs #do i have to show you my bleeding thighs for you to ask how i am? #do you have to wait until i scream and cry and hurt myself for you to care abt me? #do i not matter unless im hurting? or do i not matter even when i am hurting? #do i have to fucking die for any of yall to realize theres something mentally wrong w me? #fuck you all youre just as bad as my parents #except for the four people who talked me out of spiralling last night #two of which were people i barely/dont know #so yeah maybe try harder n actually ask ur friends how they are #dont push them to the point where they need to be comforted by strangers

[holly-mckenzie]

rosematafeo babe wake up Starstruck S3 trailer has dropped ✨ August 28th ✨

#starstruck bbc #starstruck #starstruck max #starstruckedit #rose matafeo #nikesh patel #emma sidi #shesnake #akajustmerry #mine* #okay... so yesterday I gave myself a great speech about how it would actually be fun to see #the post jessie/tom era... like starstruck would become my fleabag or normal ppl #and I could be normal about it..... #then I stayed up all night waiting for the fucking trailer #and now I have realised that I am a fucking liar.... LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S A POST TOM ERA? #the writers are so twisted for this... lichrelly feel so sick #guess what I am going to be talking to my counsellor about next week?! #though that being said... it is nice to see alice and rose have scenes together

[hawnks]

gojo wip 😔✌️

#fine I’ll do it myself #NO ONE TALK TO ME ABT THE MANGA I’ve decided I don’t care #what if…. childhood friends to lovers 👉👈 #got me covid booster AND flu shot I am EPPY AS HELL 👊👊 #hit the hay ALL DAY 👊👊 #my arms are sooooo sore #I cleaned my whole apt. after becauze I was waiting for it to hit #and now I’m double sore and eepy <3 #I hope u have all been good while I’ve been gone 🫵💋 #squawk tag

[itadore-you]

divorced lonely man i love you

#my new boss is goofy #just started this anime today and let me tell you I am not normally one for wholesome anime #THIS ONE HAS CHANGED ME #every five mins i have tears in my eyes just wait until I start talking about yuusei shirosaki #for the past hour ive been trying to convince myself i don't need another 2d malewife

[andy-clutterbuck]

IGN | 2015

#there HE is #Andrew Lincoln #* #andygifs #can i have one.....or two #Utah get me two #excuse me sir please put your forearms away thank you #excuse me but The Nose™ #H A N D S #art touching art really #even his adams apple is nice i hate myself #'Even His *Blank* Are Nice I Hate Myself' the title of my TED talk #refreshments are in the lobby #bram stoker waiting in the wings for me to mention his neck #EYE CRINKLES 💕💞 #*david attenborough voice* THE SUN #*calls the louvre* i got ya somethin' pretty #yes i too am parched #if you don't want to bear hug the shit out of him i don't trust you

[generaterandom]

Some of y'all aren't viscerally fascinated by the depths of human depravity and it shows

#sometimes you need to have a serious philosophical discussion of the ethics of selfcest #and sometimes you need some toxic yaoi #yet other times one requires evil yuri #or simply an evil woman in stem #and sometimes you must read tumblr user cemeterything talk about the rot #it varies from day to day #i am once again thinking about SouShin and none of you can stop me #my condolences if you find yourself horrified #i will be explaining myself eventually #just you wait

[thebirdandhersong]

it's happened it's over it's done

#he's confessed to her he's been rejected he's going to talk to me about it after the dessert social we have at our dorm tonight most likely #i've done my bit of crying my eyes out and lying on the floor and praying and being mad at myself for being emotional already #pray for me please my heart is all twisted up in knots and i am unbelieeeevably tireddddd #i can't tell you. how tired i am right now #anyway i hope this will be The End for me i hope that this will be the start of the end #i hope i will not have to be so sad my chest hurts anymore this year it is simply too much!!! #the waiting room chapter

[taruruchi]

"You two are dancing in a snowglobe 'round and 'round"

i finished this within half a day. and that's not usually possible for me. kinda insane ngl

#i'm worried for myself #anyway christmas eve was pretty good :D #deli if you're reading this. this is part of what i was talking about!! #MAN I WAS PLANNING TO MAKE THE HEIGHT DIFF ACCURATE #but it's okay. at least forehead kiss height <3 #i am. not good with backgrounds. #if i look at the drawing longer i will start going crazy #so let's talk about what was going through my head #..... that exact lyric. dancing during winter #i cannot explain how much i struggled with the hands #OH WHILE THINKING OF DRAWING THIS I ALSO THOUGHT... #'AND THERE WE ARE AGAIN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT. WE'RE DANCING ROUND THE KITCHEN IN THE REFRIGERATOR LIGHT' #not as accurate but it's still dancing yk #have you noticed that i have not rendered recently. #yeah. yeah if i rendered i'd take at least a week longer #they should ki— *gets dragged away* #the winter and holiday season is making me get too soft #too many fluffy ideas. #dude no the other day i even wrote something. it was short but i wrote!! #wait... I WROTE TWICE WHOAAA #can you tell i haven't written in a while #on an unrelated note i played christmas evel AND RIGHT WHEN IT WAS 12. FELIX SAID FELIZ NAVIDAD!!!! #i have a recording i'm so proud #anyway yeah i think that's it. ignoring some miiiinor stuff i really like this drawing #☆ taruchi's drawings 🖌 #☆ 💙 #twisted wonderland #azul ashengrotto #twst oc

[jinxed-ninjago]

I love it when I say "Harumi was never evil but her actions were" then get people accusing me of saying Harumi's actions are excusable because it reminds me of this twitter meme

"I don't think Harumi is evil but I'm also not gonna defend her actions because her actions are absolutely evil" "So you think Harumi's actions are excusable?" no i think she's a deeply traumatized person who lashed out violently because her adopted parents neglected her and she basically blamed lloyd for having ever been neglected in the first place which made her lash out violently even more

#lego ninjago #ninjago #ninjago harumi #harumi jade #tw child neglect #i say she blamed lloyd for the emperor and empress neglecting her because she blamed lloyd for her bio parents' deaths #which comes off to me like shes also indirectly blaming him for the neglect she suffered #anyway good vs evil is a nuanced topic and harumi is a fascinating character in that regard #youd think ninjago fans would know that good vs evil is a nuanced topic considering its 90% of what ninjago is lmfao #like yall theres a difference between 'excusing someones actions' and 'i used this scene to explain why harumi turned out how she did' #WAIT do i get accused of excusing harumis actions because people hate crystalized??? is that whats going on???? #because the scene i use to explain myself is from the second to last episode of crystalized??????? DID I JUST CRACK THE CODE????? #anyway. evil actions dont make an evil person. thank you for coming to my ted talk #and yes this is a hill i am willing to die on before anyone asks #ALSO ALSO something being justified doesnt inherently make it excusable. even then im just covering my ass. i dont think she was justified

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Shit bro first hormone appointment in two days hold my hand

#am excited and scared #idk how honest i should be really #and idk what the guy's like #and I'm excited from a personal standpoint (holy shit yes hormones finally) #but scared/worried from a yknow. societal standpoint. #doing this in 2023 on terf island probably isn't the best move #and idk it's kinda daunting when i could write a laundry list of cons #and the pros list basically just amounts to 'makes me happy c:' #but like. i guess that's transition in a nutshell right? #we don't do this shit bc it's easy #if i could be content with the easy option (i.e. present as cis) #i would do that #bc i fucking hate expending any effort for anything abjsjdjfjdjjsd #aaaaaaa. two days to go. #might all be moot ig. they might reject me out of hand #and if they don't there's a good chance they'll reject me at the second appointment bc of my health #but yeah excited and scared is how I'd put it #but i simply don't think I'll ever know for certain that this is what i need until i try it #because i can second guess/talk myself out of ANYTHING. no joke. #and I'm soooo fucking. tired of being that bitch who's always waiting for shit to happen. #or waiting for the perfect time or whatever #waiting and thinking and waiting and thinking it's all i dooooooo #i need to get out of my fucking head #and i need to do fucking Something that deters perfect strangers from clocking me as female within seconds of knowing me #despite how fucking bewildering that feels to me as like. a soft masc presenting individual. who really doesn't get where they got that from #anyway its not with the gic but it is on the nhs #it's an appt with a local endocrinologist #so if anyone else has been prescribed hormones that way and has any advice/insight on how this appointment might play out dm me lmao #mr. bees speaks