the thing that mightve actually fucked me up the most while watching all of us strangers was not the (way too relatable) parental issues or even that last devastating plot twist but its raw depiction of pure affection and tenderness. arguably THE main theme of this movie is queer loneliness (and how it can quite literally kill you) and i know that i am definitely not alone in feeling alone but... im just scared of living most of my life without ever feeling reciprocated love and passion. missing out on those joyful young experiences of love, exploration and sexuality that all my friends get to enjoy. im afraid of going through each day without ever experiencing a gentle touch of someone who truly sees something pure and beautiful in me somehow. without having someone to take care of me, have a genuine connection with me, sharing a vulnerability that we've never shown to anyone ever before. i think i see so much of myself in adam because i too spend my day dreaming about life getting better, i imagine it each night before i to to bed, constantly waiting for SOMETHING to happen, ANYTHING to make me feel less empty and yet nothing ever changes.
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opinion no one wants to hear perhaps but until i see everything in full you couldn't catch me dead banking on marisol leaving the show by a certain episode. as a veteran i have served my time in the trenches predicting break-ups by xyz episode just for that to not happen
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Something that fully healthy people don't really seem to understand about chronic health issues is what running on an energy deficit is like long-term. It's more exhausting than you can possibly imagine if you haven't experienced it.
How does that work? Well, it's sort of like this. Everybody has a certain amount of energy. When you're healthy and well-rested, you feel pretty good. There are artificial boosters that give you more energy, too. You can do all sorts of stuff.
When you get tired, you can still do some stuff but you can't do as much and what you can do might suffer from lack of energy. Except that's essentially your every day existence with chronic health issues. You go to sleep tired, and wake up tired--sometimes more tired!
Your energy levels rarely reach "full"--that is, there's few points where you are in a "well rested" state where you feel pretty good and have "normal" levels of energy. You're *always* operating in "low battery" mode rather than being fully charged, and you drain *fast*.
This makes doing basic tasks much harder than need be--things that drain a little energy you notice a hell of a lot more when you're already dead tired than when you're well-rested. Like how when your phone drops from 10% to 9% you notice more than from 100% to 99%.
You can do some stuff--but you have an upper limit of what you can do that's a lot lower than other people. And functioning while running against a deficit at all times means a *lot* of careful, conservative planning to husband your strength for when you need it most.
It means sometimes spending 30 minutes deliberating what you should buy when you reach the store because you're trying to guess "will I have the energy to prepare this food after shopping? Will I later this week?" You hedge your bets when you can.
It means skipping out on a lot of stuff you'd otherwise love to do because you just can't be sure you'll have the energy to do it without landing yourself in bed for the next 3 days by pushing yourself to collapse. It's depressing. And it's exhausting.
EDIT: This post is for people with physical AND mental health causes for their fatigue and exhaustion, by the way! I know there are posts that really are meant only for one or the other and it's rude to hijack them, but if you find this resonates with you then you're welcome to it regardless of the cause!
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wait the new Nancy Drew game is real and not just an elaborate fake-out to cover for HERInteractive's inevitable closure????
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It's so interesting and so exceedingly frustrating how agab is being utilized now within the queer community as a way to isolate and sort nonbinary and genderqueer folks into binary boxes that determine their moral purity levels, and their authority to do and write and exist.
The way nonbinary writers are being put under accusation of fetishizing gay men while their AGAB is continually brought up in a way that feels like queer-space-approved misgendering.
The way feminist circles that are supposedly trans-inclusive will use the word AFAB in a way that implicitly but intentionally isolates nonbinary people who aren't AFAB from joining. It's for women*.
The way the language is already flawed and leaves out intersex folks from the conversations while focusing on a binary of sex that isn't truthful.
The constant obsessing over whether someone is AFAB or AMAB and whether or not that gives them the privilege to join, do, write, or be present in certain spaces really really concerns me. How are we supposed to dismantle a binary system of gender if we can't even move past forcibly assigning and focusing on people's genders assigned at birth?
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Dear Doctor Nein,
I'm a psychic living on the east coast, and I was wondering what exactly your opinion was on things like psychic blockers? I know that Whispering Rock used Geodesic Psychoisolation Chambers for a time within its history, but I've never been sure if that was the best practice, considering the side-effects I've seen floating around. The reason why I ask, mostly, is because I'm trying to cope with huge bursts of power- and I mean huge, huge- while getting a BFA degree.
Mostly it's just been some pipes bursting and excess amounts of rain, but I'm worried that it will get worse if I leave it unchecked, and I don't have the money for proper training because of my schooling taking priority. If you have anything that could help me cope with some of them, I'd really appreciate the advice.
Thanks in advance,
Ozma B. Valentine
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