#what is actually wrong with me

[lazulian-devil]

In a crazy reading explosion (that also prompted me to get back on Tumblr so I could loose myself among the other insane) Ive read the first seven Skulduggery Pleasant books in the span of three weeks.

Fortunately for my sanity, Im slowing down now.

But my point is, that these absolutely wild books still hold up far too well to be my "You arent allowed to read Harry Potter, read something else and make it your personality".

I remember a good amount of the plot, but that doesnt even matter.

I still friggin feel for these characters.

Ive had them live rent free in my head for literal years and now that Im discovering them again, they are still as cool and layered as they always were.

Anyways. I might be having an SP induced existential crisis about ever writing anything as good as that in my life.

Also.

Nefarian Serpine supremacy.

I dont care if he only ever appeared a few times.

Hes cool. Hes my childhood chosen villain. I absolutely will die on this hill. Darquesse is fine.

Serpine? Show stopping. Brilliant. Funny. Terrifying in the right way. We stan.

(This post is for me and for me alone. If anyone else reads this at all, I hope you have an amazing day. Read a book. Make yourself some tea. The world is good).

#skulduggery pleasant #nefarian serpine #reading #childhood books #comfort books #pure fucking reading insanity #what is actually wrong with me #buy yourselfs a kindle #definitely a good choice #they might be on sale #or another kind #dont want to support amazon

[luveline]

can't talk right now mom i feel like im letting the ladies of tumblr .com down with my mediocre reader insert

#what is actually wrong with me #im having chronic online moments

[lilyflxwers]

just ate coconut based pasta :) and im super allergic to coconut and apparently an idiot

#what is actually wrong with me #istg i have memory problems #it isn’t until I started to swell up that I was like oh FUCK SAKE #it was the pretty jar #lulled me into a false sense of security

[gena-rowlands]

me: why the fuck can’t i concentrate

everytime by britney spears playing in my headphones for the fifth time in a row: I 🥲 Guess 🥲 I 🥲 Need 🥲 You 🥲 Baby 🥲

#me like why the fuck do i wanna k*ll myself rn #babe. pick a different fucking song for doing work #what is actually wrong with me

[nervousyoungtwinfantasydog]

blech

#vent #actually borderline #actually disabled #i fucked up #holy shit #hooked up w someone i shouldn’t have #what is actually wrong with me #genuinely #i hate myself so fucking much #i think my mental stress is wearing me down physically #i feel like i’m deteriorating #my head is fucking killing me #i’m nauseous from guilt #jesus i want to actually fucjing die #my ocd is so fixated on being a morally good person #yet i seemingly fuck it up every chance i’m given #i’m given so many opportunities to be a good person #and i fuck it up every single time #it’s like i do it to myself at this point

[teachyouhowtodothesponge]

Another post I refuse to elaborate on why I made this.

#camp camp #camp camp daniel #xemug #what is actually wrong with me

[ozymoron]

im actually so pissed my taste in men is so bad holy fucking shit *lying face down on the floor

#LIKE IM LOOKING BACK ON MY SCHOOL CRUSHES AND LIKE HALF OF THEM WERE JSUT PATHETIC NERDY GUYS WITH GLASSES #THE OTHER HALF WAS 'THEY COULD TOTALLY BEAT ME UP' #<- this included women tho #WHAT IS ACTUALLY WRONG WITH ME #WHY WERE THOSE THE TWO TYPES MY BRAIN CHOSE TO LATCH ON TO #AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[crunchycrumb]

Me every week day : *wears sweatpants and a hoodie*

Me on Saturday: I can’t wait for Monday so I can wear this cool outfit!

Me when Monday comes: *wears sweatpants and a hoodie*

#what is actually wrong with me #like what

[lunarblossomyuehua]

man. I love not being a priority in my own families plans. Its great. I cant wait for them to tell me its my fault too.

#vent #YueHua vents #like they impulsively suggested going out for lunch/dinner #in a group chat we have #and they know I worked late last night #if they had just like #waited one hour #for me to be awake #instead of charging ahead #I have literally fucking calendars to track my plans #so like YEAH I was busy that day and have been for like 3 weeks if you cared to wait and ask/check with me #they just assumed I was free???? #but watch them like #turn this on me for being asleep in the one hour window they suggested and booked this whole thing #jesus christ I hate that I want to be included when they are this horrible to deal with #what is actually wrong with me

[atlasthemilk]

Guess who just read all of reapertale in 1 hour✨✨✨✨✨

#holy fuck #i need to sleep #what is actually wrong with me #im a reapertale addicted fuck #holy shit

[ikpwecanfly]

Something I haven't seen discussed yet is not only did buck and Tommy kiss, but they JUST kissed. Tommy kissed him once, just communicating that "okay is this what you want us to do?" And then he set up a real romantic date where he's going to pick buck up at 8 and everything.

Buck who has a shit load of trauma from partners wanting him for nothing more than his body. From always having to be the person adding the romance into every relationship to convince people there's more to him then sex.

Baby boy just got asked on a wholesome date and got promised romantic helicopter flying lessons and he won't even have to drive and goddddvdhebusjabsjsjdnxns

#don't get me wrong #buddie #will always be my endgame #but i have a feeling tommy has the ability to be exactly what buck needs right now. #sweet and curious #and romantic #with someone who seems to actually know how lucky they are to get the chance #911 #911 abc #9 1 1 abc

[stoopidstapler]

SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED. #ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO??????? #ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP. #also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER. #im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

[lotus-pear]

lore accurate teen soukoku. the worsties ever

#rewatched fifteen w my bestie bc she finally reached season 3 and i forgot just how insufferable these two idiots are💀 #literally calling each other slurs in one scene and then holding hands in the next #what the fuck is wrong with them /gen #anyway this accurately sums up their dynamic to me. toxic besties. gossip gals. teenage girls. whatever that dynamic is called #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #skk #lotus draws #also my friend is literally insane bc she was like “chuuya n dazai are satosugu coded but if like stsg actually had BEEF w each other” #LIKE WHAT😭😭 #THE ONLY THING THEY HAVE IN COMMON IS DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE YAOI #sobbing you guys shouldve seen the face i fucking made at her. i was so disappointed

[aeide-thea]

on principle opposed to describing art i dislike as 'masturbatory' because even though it's an alluringly contemptuous word to sneer it's impossible to reconcile with my pro-masturbation stance

#it's such an ugly word but like. self-pleasure is good‚ actually #it's good to know yourself and what you like and lovingly treat yourself to it! #like similarly 'meretricious' is extremely tempting if you ignore the underlying metaphor #but. hard to. #language #and quite frankly i think people who whip out 'masturbatory' in this sneering sort of way #are leveraging‚ if we're honest with ourselves‚ a particular framing of it as a gross thing that boys do #because like. when have you ever heard a *woman's* self-indulgent art described as masturbatory #like don't get me wrong we absolutely still dismiss it! but we dismiss it in other ways #that are usually about how embarrassing her *yearning* is #and so even our sneering is reinforcing an idea that men Act whereas women Feel #anyway this was prompted by some things but i shoved it in the queue so now i forget what lol #so here you are getting some contextless thoughts on the use of 'masturbatory' as sneering dismissive assessment! #just what you were hoping for i'm sure :)

[vixensofdeath]

I destroy myself to make me feel better but in the end I always feel worse.

#bpd stuff #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd symptoms #mental problems #mentally fucked #actually borderline #borderline blog #bpd problems #bpd struggles #mentally exhausted #whats wrong with me #manic depressive #alone with my thoughts #manic depression #major depressive disorder #bpd #tw depressing stuff #bpd things #bpd thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #kinda depressing #bpd traits #borderline personality problems #personality disorder #trauma

[unii-outlawed]

#shadowheart #lae'zel #shadowzel #my art #fucj me what is wrong with me what is actually wrong with me