#when she deserves it I do appreciate her

[bumblingbabooshka]

On s'est déjà tout dit Et j'ai déjà tout vu Je l'ai déjà apprise, la leçon la plus dure J'suis tombé droit dans l'mur, une fois, deux fois

[We've already said everything and I've already seen it all. I've already learned it, the hardest lesson. I fell straight into the wall, once, twice.]

#bea art tag #T'Pring #T'Pring/Spock #Spock #SNW #star trek snw #snw #T'Pring fanart #s he deserves more.....she deserves MORE!!!!! #The nerve of this man to say 'you know me well' WHILE cheating #This show's Spock's trust issues and reluctance to fully commit himself to T'Pring don't read at all as him being torn between two differen #worlds or reluctant to show T'Pring the 'real' him because we never really see T'Pring being .... idk. Disdainful of his humanity? #The most I can remember is her saying 'It hardly seems like a Vulcan lives here.' when she's poking at his interior decorating #T'Pring is out here reading books doing research and telling him she appreciates his Humanity and wants to have dinner with him and spend #time together and Spock's over here like 'I can't bring myself to trust T'Pring. Christine! Angel!' like DUDE....you're ENGAGED #Of your own volition you're engaged!! #The second your fiancee says 'let's take a break from seeing each other to think about our relationship' you start having sex with another #woman?? Immediately??? I don't like this writing ... it just makes Spock seem like a sleaze who's making excuses to be unfaithful #BUT you know what?? That'd be fine if they didn't frame Christine/Spock as like...ok? I don't get that. M'Benga is like wink wink #ohhh you like each other huh~?? HUH indeed. HUH?? Dude - he has a fiancee??? #Even putting morality aside wouldn't it just be more fun to have them be in a secret forbidden relationship or whatever? #Spock: -Singing about how he and Christine broke up or whatever- / Uhura: ....[doesn't he have a girlfriend?????] #<- I wish there was more continuity with this. Like - why is everyone on the ship fine with Spock & Christine being together #when they KNOW he has a fiancee? Is no one going to mention it? #Like there's definitely a compelling story here but the writers are never gonna find it...everyone's too busy being in a marvel movie #Spock being like oh I love Christine we really have something WHILE reassuring T'Pring at every turn that he loves her and wants to make #it work between them ooohhhh!!!! -steam comes out my ears- flames flames on...on the side of my face... #Him being upset and feeling betrayed by Christine leaving for a work opportunity....sit DOWN sir. Sit DOWN!!! #If they make T'Pring cheat on him with Stonn or whatever so they can have a contrived #'well we're both at fault who's really to blame for this goodbye forever now have a great life' ending I'm gonna riot

[holocene-sims]

a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊

#holocene.txt #hlcn: story extras #consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :) #i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me #it really does mean a lot #it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/ #i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues #i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing #and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it #and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything #i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned #i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels #i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice #and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly #i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox

[friendlyengie]

May I just say... Thank you for your good good lady merc designs. Like, scout's Ma was already in milf territory but you really just 😙🤌. And Quinn! Lanky awkward woman my beloved. Her and Yvainne's weird gay thing is perfect. Anyway I am spinning them around in my brain, thank you for feeding my hyperfixation.

ive actually been drawing a lot of scout’s ma today, so this is a very apt ask to get !! Thank you sm! I’m having a lot of fun drawing strange women, always very happy to see people liking them!

Heres a wip of a ma. ^_^

#I dont always have the energy or art backlog… but when i do i like to be able to add art to ask responses #mostly bc it helps me feel like im not being too repetitive when i respond to compliments #i get worried that i seem disingenuous! And i hope that i am not coming across that way! #every time i say i am glad people appreciate my women art! I always mean it! #or any of my art in general ofc. Thank you for taking the time to say nice things. :] #Merry #fem fortress but they’re separate characters from their canon merc counterparts #i have been ironing out how i characterize scouts ma as i draw her more for the fem merc team… #and i think i have ultimately found her true form: bimbo /hj #bc i think she deserves that #ok sorry for rambling in tags. Im done now

[shadowedvales]

LETS TALK ABOUT BECKY IVES FOR A MINUTE!

when you think about becky, you have to remember that she spent at least four years listening to terry’s “crazy theories” about hawkins lab, and the big bad man taking jane away. she knew terry took part in “hippie crap” and assumed that messed with her head. that those experiences combined with miscarrying in the third trimester had a terrible strain on her mental health, ultimately losing her connection to reality. she spent those years watching terry fight and lose legal battles against brenner and hawkins. she pleaded for her to stop, to get help, as their relationship grew stressed and strained because becky didn’t believe her, and terry hated her for it.

and then when terry’s mind was completely broken, she spent her days and nights caring for her. the show never touched on this. just what did becky think happened to terry? what story was she told? was terry put into a random hospital with doctors from hawkins lab, under a guise of caring for her, just to tell becky there was some kind of accident? maybe a car accident. did they claim the drugs used in the mk ultra testing from all those years ago took affect on her mind? probably not, because then becky would be in an opportunity to sue. i highly doubt there would have been any mention of the lab, opposed to some, "unfortunate accident." it really bugs me that there’s no story about what becky believed made terry catatonic. terry knew becky didn’t believe her, and as such, definitely did not tell her about her plans to break into the lab. so a story could have easily been concocted.

and then, one random day, a kid shows up at her doorstep, claiming to be the daughter she didn’t believe existed. immediately, by jane opening the door with her mind, becky held some kind of belief for she'd heard terry’s rants about her baby being used for experiments, experiments which gave her powers. and in comes jane, demanding to see her mother, able to open a locked door, blood dripping from her nose. all too soon she realises that there has so be some semblance of truth. the girl says her name is jane: she fits all the descriptions. the descriptions of the niece she never had. this child who her sister fought tooth and nail to get back. i can’t even imagine the guilt that would begin to fester for not believing terry, for thinking she was having a mental break, for trying to get her to see therapists and get her some real, serious help.

scared and confused for herself and her sister, and unable to fathom what is happening, what does she do? she comforts jane. there is distance, there’s awkwardness, but this girl is her blood and every moment that passed only proved that she could actually be jane ives. she makes her a sandwich, tries to comfort her, tells her that her mother is in a dream. probably a good dream. she comforts and tells her that terry never stopped believing.

she always believed you were out there. she always believed you’d come home one day. home? yeah, home.

she offered her, this strange little girl, a place in her home with her and her mother. she didn’t push, she didn’t need to know everything in that moment; she focused on jane and nothing else. the girl was obviously traumatised judging by the way she spoke, the way she sheltered herself. if everything terry claimed was indeed true, then becky couldn’t even begin to think about what she’d gone through.

i wanna help you, but to really do that, i need you to talk to me, okay? it doesn’t have to be now. it doesn’t have to be today. when you’re ready, okay?

she never moved a single thing in jane’s room. although she didn’t believe terry, she respected and loved her enough to keep it exactly as she’d planned. and at least she could give jane that, the vision her mother had for her, what the first steps of their wonderful life would have been like. becky claimed terry was “stuck” living the “same dream” over and over. where becky, too, was the one who was stuck. terry became 24/7 care, and unless she had helpers (which i highly doubt), becky would have given up her job, her out of home hobbies, her entire life to care for her sister. stuck in an endless routine until jane came along and struck her with the reality of it all.

as soon as jane contacts the void, you can see becky looks on edge and nervous. which, fair enough! she asks if she can sit and watch, but doesn’t interfere or distract jane. she even sits a little further away from her, perhaps out of fear (which would be completely justified. this girl physically moved things with her mind, who knows what else she can do) or just trying to take this all in within her own time and space. but the moment, the second jane departs the void and is in a state of distress, she moves to comfort her. she isn’t sure how, and doesn’t expect it to be returned, but offers it nonetheless. as far as she knows jane just spoke to her sister; she would be dying to know what happened, if she said anything. but remains silent and focuses on the child.

unfortunately we really don’t see much else of their dynamic on screen, but it is very justified that becky contacted hawkins and tried to get a hold of hopper. he and joyce were the only ones who seemed to have some kind of understanding; of course she would want to contact them. she put on a brave face in front of jane, focused on her and her needs. but as soon as she put the bed down and jane wanted some time alone in her room, becky had a moment to breathe. to think about her, her sister, all those wasted years because she didn’t believe. so, weeks later, when she gets a phone call from a weak sounding girl, saying she was sorry, the relief is immense. when recovered from her illness after closing the gate, the first thing jane wanted to do was call her aunt. hopper got on the line after the initial apology and asked if becky would come to hawkins, so they could work things out from there.

i just think becky is such a neat, complex character for the literal twenty minutes (probably less) screen time she gets. i adore the way she treats jane, and think she is such a good influence in her life. imagine all the stories becky could tell her about terry. things no one else could. her relationship with her aunt is one like no other, for both the sake of her mother, and that she is the only true family she has ever known, or as far as she knows, even has. becky never expects anything from jane (unlike a lot of the people in her life), and in that respect, jane does actually open up to her overtime. to becky, jane isn’t a girl who’s saved the world a few times. she’s the niece she didn’t believe in, and would spend the rest of her life making it up to her and terry.

#study‚ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal. #long post / #also jane EXPLAINS the void best she can to becky. #she doesnt just say ‘be quiet’ when becky is talking to her and asking about it all / asking to apologise to terry for her. #she understands that she is not only meeting her mother. but her aunty too. #the only family she has in the whole world. #she understands it’s difficult for becky and allows her to ask questions. she isn’t short with her because she doesn’t understand. #jane knows what it’s like to not understand and just have people frustrated and sharp with her. so she Does NOT do that. #yeah this is just a Becky appreciation post! #she deserved so much better. #she could have been so good for jane. #i mean. she is. because she’s very very important in my portrayal. #also added those screencaps because it’s exactly what i talk about. #she starts off in her own space. has some time in complete silence while jane is in the void. #she would just be sitting there. on her own. just watching. #the first moment of the day to really think. #but then jane suddenly comes out of it. #and becky’s needs no longer matter. #and all focus is put on her niece again. #of course. majority of this is taken purely from the shows canon. #because becky is way more prominent in my own canon but. #yeah. stan the ives women for clear skin #!!!

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era

[drbtinglecannon]

Goddamn Alador's face here.

He said he hasn't had a day off in 5 years and it fucking shows in his appearance & demeanor -- things that were chalked up to just be his personality but are maybe actually signs of his suffering -- but when you see Odalia threatening to really put the kids to manual labor the palpable fear on his face is devastating. (Like, her own kids!!!! It probably would've fallen mostly on Amity as she's the one skilled with abomination, but also probably would've resulted in forcing the twins to get abomination sigil sealed instead of studying any of their actual interests)

I feel bad hating him before, like yeah he was neglectful to the point of not talking to his kids prior to this pivotal moment of him finally standing up to her, but with this context revealed he probably hasn't really had a chance to talk to any of them since like... Amity's bday party where they forced her to ditch Willow, lest they become worked like cattle too. He's beaten down and mistreated but if he just shoulders it all himself at least the kids won't get too much of the overflow abuse, right?

Makes you wonder what his side of the bargain was to keep her from exploiting the kids, or how it got to that bargain to begin with. If the closeness they displayed back at Hexside was ever genuine, or if Odalia sought him out specifically thanks to Oracle magic and seeing a wealthy future and it was all some long con, or if maybe it was genuine at one point but then eventually over time it rotted from the core and suddenly Alador found himself locked into this nightmare.

This reveal alone really gives a lot of justification to all of Alador's previous behaviors, and thanks to King of all people he finally got to get out of dodge and save the kids in the process. Good for him. Happy divorce, dude

#toh spoilers #alador blight #odalia blight #tho she aint a blight anymore huh haha #cant believe i like alador now but hes a sopping wet paper bag of a man w a sad backstory & cool aesthetic so. well this is classic me #i have to formally apologize to this sad man. we were led to believe he was also abusive but hes just sadly unable to save the kids #no wonder darius became a hater. like 'youre choosing THAT over ME? fuck this im out. gonna go become bffs w a furry & overthrow the govt' #but legit this really puts a whole new light over his everything up til this point & its so sad to see. he was shouldering it so much that #the kids clearly had no idea & thought he had any chance of reasoning with her about anything meanwhile he doesnt even get a lunch break #even if this is a rushed reveal cuz of disney cutting so much stuff i do appreciate the time to show both separating parents when its #legit for the best & men being victims in a relationship. there was a lot going on here but hes a very powerful ally to have & the kids #deserve at least one parent that doesnt suck #no one @ me about hating him before cuz it doesnt matter my opinion changed but also he was still framed as ultimately uncaring back then #now its revealed just how wrong that was. it wasnt that he was distracted he just legit wasnt allowed to do anything but work #toh #tc posts

[butmakeitgayblog]

Bewbs

tibbies

#anon #honestly I'm glad Alycia is finally getting some deserved tata appreciation she's been disrespected for far too long #i mean am I still a lesbian who looks at her neck back fingers and jawlike first???? #yes #BUT when I do get around to the chesticle region? fantastic 10/10 no notes #also lips #and collarbones #and— ok I need to stop

[ragnarokhound]

"reading under the red hood and it's pretty good i think" - jason todd fan who has only seen the cartoon adaptation of under the red hood

#getting my hands on the comic for utrh is cracking my entire brain open about werewolf fic like you don't understand #the cartoon movie was pretty tight but the comic is more robust. and yall the themes for werewolf fic...they're all coming together #now if only i could write the girls fighting FR I'M TOO SOFT YOU GUYS OTL #i'm just feeling insane over the first confrontation with bruce and how Jason tells him that 'gotham is evil' #and 'you have to fight her where she lives' and 'i live there' LIKE #it's only fueling my crazed impression that the end to Jason's philosophy has only two ends #when he's done what he's set out to do and rid the world of evil by cutting it out (which is futile; blind and toothless etc but details) #either: he changes his philosophy and becomes the very type of villain he hates or he dies himself. because he also deserves death #'i live there' ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? #sorry if this is Not News to people or if Jason has had some serious growth vis a vis this entire mindset but like. #I'M INSANE ABOUT IT. I'M CHEWING ON IT FOREVER #and bruce is the wrong person to try to sway Jason off this path. theres way too much baggage too much history too many complicated feeling #but...tim...? >.> #tim i think has enough 'this is not my philosophy this is company policy and i'm the worlds okayest employee' energy to eventually do it #like obviously stuff would need to Happen for it to be possible lol but you guys. this is what made jaytim so tasty to me in the first plac #tim being capable of meeting jason halfway like bruce can't; tim being able to hold the conversation with jason without it collapsing #tim having rebuttals to jason's arguments that might actually get somewhere with him eventually... #i'm not saying it would be fast or easy or even make sense in canon lmao but think there's a lot of fic potential there owo #like tim's vicious streak is something jason would appreciate. :3c #local jaytim fic author rambles about jaytim in the tags once again more at eleven lol anyway #jason todd #dc

[cherry-treelane]

inescapable experience of an eldest daughter and sister : feeling like you are never doing enough no matter how hard you try and how immense of an effort you make in spite of your circumstances

#this is unavoidable #when u are responsible for little people in any measure #you always feel like u arent giving enough to those little people #all you can think about is how much they deserve #this is why i can't stand when people slander Fiona gallagher #theyve clearly never been the older sister and just dont get it #she tries her best she tries so hard #we all try so much for our younger siblings #but its not easy or linear and yes we do feel guilty for our shortcomings but its uncontrollable so we dont deserve to be blamed for it #older sisters unite god i love us so much. we deserve love and appreciation #but most of all we deserved a mother who did the things we try to do for our siblings in place of her

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

you ever hangout with someone and their company is actually much worse than being alone?

#she came over and we watched hasee toh phasee together okay #bc she said she hadn't seen it and i was like huh wtf!!!!! #terrible idea she doesn't deserve to see that movie it was so perfect she didn't ruin it exactly bc it's my fav #movie ever and she's not important enough to change that #but god it was annoying having her next to me i wanted her to go away and watch it on my own😭😭 #she kept looking at her phone on super important scenes and she kept saying arey she should find out about them where is the spice #and i kept saying this isn't about spice it's sweet heartwarming story about love and doomed relationships and father daugter rships #but she didn't appreciate it #i need to watch the movie again on my own to cleanse myself from the negativity ew #and she said i had so much fun let's do this again help😭😭 meko nahi karna never again #time to subtly start ignoring her so she gets the message and leave me alone #i already got the ick from her when she acted that way over parents but i was like ivy no ppl aren't perfect give her a second chance you #friends you're really lonely your internet friends are great but they can't sit next to you and talk to you #but i was wrong being lonely is better she's just so. wrong😭 #i kept thinking she's literally worse than everyone in my life i would have had more fun watching it with my MOM😭 #and my sis loves this movie and my bestie loves this movie and my cousin sis also loves this movie #UGH

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

i still dont feel like my life has truly "started" yet cause i'm still developing skills while living at home rn, but im trying new things and learning more about myself too im p sure. i also have some goals around like... trying to socialize and approach others

#kind of wish i could get some kind of skill development out of therapy already cause most sessions are me talking her ear off so far lol #i mean i do appreciate getting that kind of support and it feels good to be reaffirmed by someone who like ... works with that sort of thin #like 'oh my childhood has left a considerable impact that im still feeling the ramifications of today. but im worried that when i talk - #- about that it sounds like i won't let go of the past. plus we all were just children who didnt know better' #and hearing from my therapist like 'i'm in my 40's and stuff from my childhood still affects me too. i was also bullied growing up. you can #- acknowledge that you all were children but what they did was still bad and that you deserved better' #with my family it just felt like i wasn't allowed to process trauma. esp with what happened to my ex. i guess they dont like remembering- #- her and how she treated me but its like. talking about it is me trying to process and move on ...

[snowflop]

I want to be a hater about the cyl results so I'm making my own post so i can bitch in the tags about it. The tags will get long so the tldr is BOOOO everybody but Alfonse.

#man. MAN!!! after all the hexes and curses I tried to set upon her Bern sure did win huh. #like on the one hand i'm impressed on the other i hate her!! i hate her i hate her and I'm tired of pretending I don't!! #when i was playing 3h i could appreciate her good moments in between being insufferable and i liked her alright. she was fine #but like. we're 5 years out from 3h at this point and i'm just fucking sick of her. i don't understand her lasting popularity. i'm tired #Felix... should have been Sylvain. #i like him fine. he grew on me. but he certainly is not one of my enduring favourites from 3h. he fades into obscurity for me. #that said i don't hate him. i'm happy for his fans. you guys worked hard (clearly) deserved i just #i love 3h!! i do! but like. the accident was 5 years ago it's time to let her go. #and out of all the guys in 3h! if it had to be one of them! him? fr? whatever. #i've just never cared for f!robin. i feel nothing looking at her. less then nothing. #so i guess her winning isn't. bad per say. i guess it's a non issue. #that brings us back to MY MAN!!! ALFONSE!! lets goooooooooo #i'm so happy for him. always really liked Alfonse he's so <3<3 #i know i don't post about him that much but #it's just that me and feh itself have a tumultuous relationship so i don't see him as much as i'd like >_> #he's the one i'm going to pick and i'm not going to bother rolling for the others #also the fact we have to wait til the 31st for the full results is agonizing #i wanna know if Rein survived. he didn't make ton 20 but i have to know how bad it is #if it's horrible the reason is obvious. he got an alt the week before cyl #can't imagine that'll put him at the top of anybodies list for needing at alt (except mine lol) #but still. at this point i'm just hoping for top 50 orz #snow blogging

[shadowedvales-a]

LETS TALK ABOUT BECKY IVES FOR A MINUTE:

when you think about becky, you have to remember that she spent at least six years listening to terry’s “crazy theories” about hawkins lab, and the big bad man taking jane away. she knew terry took part in “hippie crap” and assumed that messed with her head. that those experiences combined with miscarrying in the third trimester had a terrible stain on her mental health, ultimately losing her connection to reality. she spent those years watching terry fight and lose legal battles against brenner and hawkins. she pleaded for her to stop, to get help, as their relationship grew stressed and strained because becky didn’t believe her, and terry hated her for it.

and then when terry’s mind was completely broken, she spent her days and nights caring for her. honestly the show never touched on this. just what did becky think happened to terry? what story was she told? was terry put into a random hospital with doctors from hawkins lab, under a guise of caring for her, just to tell becky there was some kind of accident? maybe a car accident. did they claim the drugs used in the mk ultra testing from all those years ago took affect on her mind? probably not, because then becky would be in an opportunity to sue. i highly doubt there would have been any mention of the lab, over just some random, "unfortunate accident." it really bugs me that there’s no story about what becky believed made terry catatonic. terry knew becky didn’t believe her, and as such, definitely did not tell her about her plans to break into the lab. so a story could have easily been concocted.

and then, one random day, a kid shows up at her doorstep, claiming to be the daughter she didn’t believe existed. immediately, by jane opening the door with her mind, becky held some kind of belief for she'd heard terry’s rants about her baby being used for experiments, experiments which gave her powers. so in comes jane, demanding to see her mother, able to open a locked door, blood dripping from her nose. all too soon she realises that there has so be some semblance of truth. the girl says her name is jane: she fits all the descriptions. the descriptions of the niece she never had. this child who her sister fought tooth and nail to get back. i can’t even imagine the guilt that would begin to fester for not believing terry, for thinking she was having a mental break, for trying to get her to see therapists and get her some real, serious help.

scared and confused for herself and her sister, and unable to fathom what is happening, what does she do? she comforts jane. there is distance, there’s awkwardness, but this girl is her blood and every moment that passed only proved that she could actually be jane ives. she makes her a sandwich, tries to comfort her, tell her that her mother is in a dream. probably a good dream. she comforts and tells her that terry never stopped believing.

she always believed you were out there. she always believed you’d come home one day.

home?

yeah, home.

she offered her, this strange little girl, a place in her home with her and her mother. she didn’t push, she didn’t need to know everything in that moment; she focused on jane and nothing else. the girl was obviously traumatised judging by the way she spoke, the way she sheltered herself. if everything terry claimed was indeed true, then becky couldn’t even begin to think about what she’d gone through.

i wanna help you, but to really do that, i need you to talk to me, okay? it doesn’t have to be now. it doesn’t have to be today. when you’re ready, okay?

she never moved a single thing in jane’s room. although she didn’t believe terry, she respected and loved her enough to keep it exactly as she’d planned. and at least she could give jane that, the vision her mother had for her, what the first steps of their wonderful life would have been like. becky claimed terry was “stuck” living the “same dream” over and over. where becky, too, was the one who was stuck. terry became 24/7 care, and unless she had helpers (which i highly doubt), becky would have given up her job, her out of home hobbies, her entire life to care for her sister. stuck in an endless routine until jane came along and struck her with the reality of it all.

as soon as jane contacts the void, you can see becky looks on edge and nervous. which, fair enough! she asks if she can sit and watch, but doesn’t interfere or distract jane. she even sits a little further away from her, perhaps out of fear (which would be completely justified. this girl physically moved things with her mind, who knows what else she can do) or just trying to take this all in within her own time and space. but the moment, the second jane departs the void and is in a state of distress, she moves to comfort her. she isn’t sure how, and doesn’t expect it to be returned, but offers it nonetheless. as far as she knows jane just spoke to her sister; she would be dying to know what happened, if she said anything. but remains silent and focuses on the child.

unfortunately we really don’t see much else of their dynamic on screen, but it is very justified that becky contacted hawkins and tried to get a hold of hopper. he and joyce were the only ones who seemed to have some kind of understanding; of course she would want to contact them. she put on a brave face in front of jane, focused on her and her needs. but as soon as she put the bed down and jane wanted some time alone in her room, becky had a moment to breathe. to think about her, her sister, all those wasted years because she didn’t believe. so, weeks later, when she gets a phone call from a weak sounding girl, saying she was sorry, the relief is immense. when recovered from her illness after closing the gate, the first thing jane wanted to do was call her aunt. hopper got on the line after the initial apology and asked if becky would come to hawkins, so they could work things out from there.

i just think becky is such a neat, complex character for the literal twenty minutes (probably less) screen time she gets. i adore the way she treats jane, and think she is such a good influence in her life. imagine all the stories becky could tell her about terry. things no one else could. her relationship with her aunt is one like no other, for both the sake of her mother, and that she is the only true family she has ever known, or as far as she knows, even has. becky never expects anything from jane (unlike a lot of the people in her life), and in that respect, jane does actually open up to her overtime. to becky, jane isn’t a girl who’s saved the world a few times. she’s the niece she didn’t believe in, and would spend the rest of her life making it up to her and terry.

#⅋. [ ✦ ] ﹕ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal ‚ study . #long post / #also jane EXPLAINS the void best she can to becky. #she doesnt just say ‘be quiet’ when becky is talking to her and asking about it all / asking to apologise to terry for her #she understands that she is not only meeting her mother. but her aunty too. #the only family she has in the whole world #she understands it’s difficult for becky and allows her to ask questions. she isn’t short with her because she doesn’t understand. #jane knows what it’s like to not understand and just have people frustrated and sharp with her. so she Does NOT do that #yeah this is just a Becky appreciation post! #she deserved so much better #she could have been so good for jane #i mean. she is. because she’s very much canon in my portrayal #and there are many many visits. and jane spends the weekend there at least once a month #also added those screencaps because it’s exactly what i talk about #she starts off in her own space. has some time in complete silence while jane is in the void #she would just be sitting there. on her own. watching them #the first moment of the day to really think #but then jane suddenly comes out of it #and suddenly becky’s needs no longer matter #and all focus is put on her niece again

[antianakin]

Thoughts on... That-Show-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named that came back today.

Love that Echo's getting some attention, finally. This should've been his arc in season ONE but fucking WHATEVER I guess. Better late than never, but I'm also FULLY prepared for these two episodes to be literally it and for him to get ignored for the rest of this season and they then act like helping people and fighting the Empire was all Hunter's idea.

I also like getting to see Echo and Omega FINALLY get some meaningful interactions. Of all the clones she had to interact with, Echo was quite clearly the one she got the fewest scenes with in season one, and this was really frustrating. So I'm glad they finally got some scenes together, but I'm also fully prepared for this to be all they get and the show to refocus on Hunter and Omega after this episode.

Didn't feel like all the constant prods to remember Kamino and how Kamino got destroyed were really all that necessary or meaningful. We barely felt a connection between tbb and Kamino anyway, so it's loss isn't exactly all that impactful to them. Which means comparing it to the people of Serenno feels... empty and hollow.

The entire plotline was just... flat. Going to Serenno was meaningless, there was nothing about it BEING Serenno that was all that important to the big emotional beats of the story. They could've put Echo and Omega into literally ANY dangerous situation and gotten the exact same scene out of it. Putting it on Serenno for nostalgic reasons feels like a really bad use of Serenno when you COULD put some thought into what Serenno and Dooku might've actually meant to tbb or Echo and what booby traps Dooku might've left behind, what they might learn about Dooku from being on Serenno.

For that matter, they could've hit the "the Separatists aren't all as evil as the clones might think they are" plotline with Echo again here and they... didn't. Tech's whole "wow I had NO IDEA that planets and cultures existed before the Separatist movement, it's almost like planets are BILLIONS OF YEARS OLD and the Separatist movement started less than a decade ago" realization was... strange and not something that's very meaningful to Tech anyway since Tech didn't really have any strong emotional ties to the actual conflict that the Clone War was about to begin with given how he explained it to Omega. That was something ECHO struggled with more, and there could've been an interesting thing to happen on Serenno where Echo decides that his desire to help people should include former Separatists too, since the Empire's fucking them over the same as anyone else.

I'm not sure why they decided that Echo couldn't have impersonated the missing trooper since, of all of them, Echo's the only one who even still SOUNDS like a clone and he was standing RIGHT THERE and could've lied to keep their cover just a little longer, but noOoOoOoOoO.

I liked Omega getting to connect with Echo, but I feel like the miscommunication was done a little sloppily. She claims at the end that she wants to get the money for them because she heard Echo say their lives weren't normal because of her. But that's... not what Echo said and Omega clearly was in hearing range for Echo's entire argument, which was a lot more about HELPING OTHER PEOPLE and FIGHTING THE EMPIRE than it was about Omega or improving their own lives. Echo doesn't WANT a normal life, he just wants to have a purpose again, and the money could help him with that. He also point blank says that saving Omega was the right thing to do, too, and Omega apparently just decided not to hear that. I think it's fine to have Omega realize that the rest of them have been mostly staying in hiding in order to protect her, and that they could be doing more to help people and aren't BECAUSE they want to protect her, and work to try to mitigate that. But that's not really what they did, and that was a tad frustrating.

Would love to stop hearing the word "reg" on this show and some actual respect shown to the clone troopers. The only clone given a name and face-time ended up unceremoniously killed. I was honestly rooting for Captain Wilco at least half the time, not gonna lie.

Best scene in the entire two episodes was Echo telling Omega to let go. Let go of insecurity and uncertainty, let go of her desire to control things, let go of her fear. It's a very Jedi-like thing for Echo to say, and I love that we can tell how much he picked up from hanging around multiple Jedi because we all know it's not something he'd have learned from his own General who couldn't let go of anything or anyone if his life depended on it. I love getting to see the impact real Jedi had on the clones, the POSITIVE impact they had on Echo in a way we never see in the rest of tbb who had very minimal contact with Jedi at all.

#tbb wank #clone trooper echo #arc trooper echo #if anyone who follows me likes this show #i am so sorry #i am literally only watching this show cuz i am bored and need to see just how badly they fuck up cody #i need to be able to complain about it and do so without anyone saying 'but you didn't watch it so how could you know' when i do #echo deserves better than this show #cody deserves better than this show #also when phee had to be attracted to ONE CLONE why did it need to be TECH: the whitest clone??? #i appreciate that they didn't have her make a derogatory comment about echo #but she also just straight-up ignored echo to make eyes at... tech #whatever

[clueless1995]

i’m trying to treat chibnall’s era with the same grace i’d give to rtd’s era but some of the Moral Lessons are so beaten over your head it’s insane i feel like i’m watching Play School sometimes

#like. you can just Show Us. the stilted dialogue at the end saying ‘so you have to be nice to people!’ #got it #take with a grain of salt because i’m white but i do appreciate that when they’re in historical contexts they don’t just gloss over the #racism the poc companions would experience #i felt it was really frustrating when martha would be worried about how being Black would affect her in the past and the doctor would be l #like aw don’t be silly :)))) the colour of your skin doesn’t matter :))))) like she’s close-minded to even worry about it #and then the thing is the worst stuff she’d deal with was fetishisation or snide comments which just validated within the show that she was #overreacting #i understand not wanting to get into it but that’s a whole other issue. #but i appreciate that they’re actually acknowledging it this time #god martha deserved so much better she was literally the most capable companion of nu who but she was treated so badly both in the show and #out of it #and everyone blames it on her crush on the doctor like. you know she’s a fictional character they Wrote Her Like That. that’s not an excuse #im so glad freema agyeman is killing it in other roles i loved her in dreamland

[perenlop]

another wc take is that the girlbossification of mapleshade is boring as hell

#why was she suddenly involved in like. everything. #as a crookedstar's promise truther she was honestly at her best in that book imo bc she was one fucked up woman #who took it upon herself to torture the bloodline of a man who hurt her even years after hes gone and no one knows his name #and the descendants have done absolutely nothing to deserve her vitriol. like she was hurting but what made her a villain #was how she took it out on a literal child who was already being treated like shit by his mom #this is also why i dont like takes that are like ''oh shes a good person actually she was just angry and mad and everyone wronged her #and shes actually a nice ghost that helps people'' bc that was never who she was and she was still fucked up for the murder #im not saying shes a bad character for doing that like shes an antagonist and i appreciate her #but i feel like ppl latched onto her being the one female villain and went ''oh my god shes a girlboss shes so awesome and not bad actually' #do u think mapleshade had girlpower when she made a disabled child watch his family die bc of a bloodline he cant control #to an extent its kinda like how ppl treat thistle? who's obviously much much worse than her but like its the same #''oh its bad writing for them to be punished and treated as antagonists bc they had like one nice thing at one point- #and that one nice moment outweighs every single evil thing they did even if it was literal child murder. its ok if ur sad #'' #idk i think its obnoxious like its in the books and the fanon at this point and its just made me bored of her character #sometimes less is more and when u start trying to excuse her actions or forcing her into everyone else's story #the character has a lot less impact #like i still remember her ranting at the end of crookedstars promise when she was raging at crookedstar that he shouldnt have been born #i dont think i remember anything from like. tigerclaws fury or whatever. #echoed voice