#why did god make me this way

[its-pronounced-fuhlaire]

>Be me >Have a art blog on Tumblr as a second account >Dont post for 7 months >Tries to sign in with the email that has the same name as my art username >Doesnt work >try my other emails and sign into this account 4 times in a row >Tap "sign in with apple" on my phone >signs into this account again >scream into the void >Forget the email I used to make the account >Realise I basically have no access to the account because i dont even remember the email I used >Cry

#why did god make me this way #womp womp

[idontknow-what-tonamemyurl]

I need guys who are single away from me stat

#like😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i am such a man #i have an issue #i get crushes on people easily #but if they are in a relationship my brain totally rejects the idea of a crush so it's usually completely fine #for uni we're put in a group for 3/4 people #and one of the guys in my group has always been super cute personality wise but it never really got to me because he had a gf so it was ok #and then they recently broke jp #up* #and I've been fighting for my life since #why did God make me this way #it's so embarrassing #me talking #ignore please

[shadowwolf146]

Im tired of people. I really am. I just wanna go live in a cave somewhere.

#tw vent #personal #to delete later #pissed off my aunt again and its my fault and I'm tired of being so stupid and always causing problems. #fuck #why did god make me this way #anyways

[ultravioletlesbian]

re: looking stupid i’m not upset about it i’m just so done about it

but the thing about looking. (being.) stupid is that people are so used to it they brush it off i mean they also laugh but they aren’t yelling at me idk idk but i don’ttt want it anymore i’m tired of messing up and being the clown EXPLODING

#WHY DID GOD MAKE ME THIS WAY #do it again man i wish i was different sooo bad #i can’t talk right i can’t walk right i can’t MOVE right i’m too awkward and i’m gonna explode exploding exploding #why’d my mother do this to me🤨 #sure yeah let’s blame her for that why not

[canisalbus]

Imagine if Machete was Muslim instead of Catholic. His name would be something like Saif سيف, and Vasco would probably be something like Dhahabi ذَهَبِيّ

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#I don't know Arabic so I can't weigh in that much but if you say so! #it seems like these mean “sword” and “golden” respectively that's neat #Machete wouldn't be able to cling to his Catholic guilt in that case #I don't think Islam has the same concept of original sin that Christianity does #I'm simplifying but it's a belief that humans are born with an innate tendency for evil sinning is part of our nature #and staying on the positive and in God's good graces requires a lot of repentance which can lead to excess guilt and shame #I could be wrong but I'm under the impression that this idea of a manufacturing error is a very Christian thing #sorry I know you didn't sign up to hear me try to talk about big theology things and I don't want to make it weird #but I find this stuff really interesting I unironically like to read and think about how religions work #and how they shape things they come in contact with #in Machete's case in particular his troubled relationship with God and his career choice are big parts of his character #and why he turned the way he did and thinks the way he does you know #answered #kachavashka #Dhahabi is such a regal sounding name #I'd steal that in a heartbeat if I didn't already have one extremely gold-coded character

[tasteofyourblood]

#this took me a REALLY long time bcuz i couldnt understand why the glitter text wasnt moving and i tried figuring it out on my own #and only after like 2 HOURS did i finally give up and look online to find out it was SUCH A SIMPLE SOLUTION OH MY FUCKING GOD #but hey now ik how to layer gifs ontop of each other (still dont exactly know how to make gifs tho) #but yeah long way of me saying FOUNDATIONS OF DECAY GET UP COWARD YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS #mcr #my chemical romance

[procrastinationaccount]

Look me in the fucking eyes and tell me this girl is not trans

#momentary break from tltposting because it gets more obvious every time I watch this movie #Like. Come on. #And it's so good! For her character and as a spider-man narrative and as trans representation (even if it's not word-of-god canon yet) #atsv #gwen stacy #I know it's pretty much accepted on here but every time I think about the dipshits who complain(ed) #about people pointing out the obvious subtext it makes me so angry. Like did we watch the same movie? What's wrong with you? #I would say 'why are you so resistant to the idea of her character just existing as a trans girl?' but. We know. It just sucks. #The creators should just confirm that she's intended to be trans in the next movie. Like look at this shot there's no way she's not.

[baeshijima]

if anyone asks

tell them ive ascended to heaven

#WHAT THE FUCKSVSHISBSKD #OFFICIAL HSR MV ??????? STOP IM ACTUALLY CRYING WHY DID THIS MAKE ME EMOTIONAL #OURGH ROBIN AND SUNDAY MY BELOVEDS !!!!! AVENTURINE YOU !!!! SPARKLE LOML !!!!! BLACK SWAN ?!??!? GALLAGHER !!!!! ACHERON MY LOVE !!!!! #AND SAMPO MY LOVE YOU AAAAA #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON FIREFLY AND MC ?????? LIKE STOP THEIR SCENES ARE SO SO PRETTY AND THE WAY THE SONG SOFTENED WHEN WE SAW THEM #THE MUSIC IS SO !!!!!! AND THE FACT ITS IN ALL 4 LANGUAGES TOO LIKE HELLO WHAT THEY ALL SOUND DIVINE ???? #AMVS WHO FR 😭😭 #stop im not ready for penacony i cant believe 2.0 is in a little under 2 weeks like how am i supposed to cope until then ??? #all the qol updates and the free 20 pulls…. sobbing hsr my love my life my destiny ……. i will give u my bank whenever u want ……. #they have it out on spotify and u can bet ur ass im already looping it and will continue to do so for the next 6 months #AT LEAST #god the vocals …. the cinematography …… the vibes …… i cabt everything is so perfect ……. #interstellar journey 2.0 and my god im so glad theyve done it again and will most likely do it for new worlds/regions in the future 😩🫶 #may the stars guide you <3

[james-p-sullivan]

#that second gif makes me laugh sooo hard lmfao #the way sulley is so graceful #likea ballerina #monsters inc #monsters inc gifs #my gifs #pixar #pixar gifs #AND WHY DOES GEORGE TRIP TOO #AND HIS SPIN BEFORE HE HITS RANDALL LMAO #randall boggs #george sanderson #james p sullivan #mi sulley #mi randall #oh my god did you guys ever notice ted is in the line up twice #hes in the front without his eyes #but also waaaay in the back with his eyes in #is it like that in the movie too??? #or just the bloopers?

[spacedlexi]

the way the ericson group were at the outbreak just a bunch of troubled kids who made various mistakes or committed crimes and were judged by a system that punished and abandoned them instead of giving them the support and love they needed, are then nearly a decade later put into a situation where now they must judge a troubled child for the mistakes and crimes hes committed against them. and 5 to 3 vote them out 😭

#twdg #i love the way s4 connects back to lees whole 'murderer' thing back in s1 😭 guilt...atonement.....systems of punishment #i love thinking about s1>s4 themes and crying #anyway this is partially why i hate when i see the ericson cast reduced down to 'just some teens' its so much more than that #them being abandoned in a boarding school for troubled kids is SO IMPORTANT its not 'just some school' #anyway its also probably why theyre my favorite cast #theyre literally one of if not the most mature group of the series even while being a bunch of kids who make choices i dont agree with #because they actually love and care about each other. even when theyre mad. because theyre all they have left #i do think the vote was a fair way to handle it even tho i still ultimately find it cruel. they couldve talked it out #but this is still a story that needs conflict to resolve so is what it is #they would rather they leave than have to face their confused feelings. the most immature thing they do. but understandable #they did such a good job crafting that cast for clem GOD an entire ensemble built around her and aj....delicious #zombie/post apoc media about love and community my beloved 😭 #sorry but get tf out of here with that 'humans are evil and everyone dies' lame ass bullshit we are nothing without community #the amount of love pouring out of s4 is like getting my ass kicked but then they give me a big hug and kiss after and send me on my way #s4 my absolute beloved i really love it more and more every time. so much to appreciate even with it the way it is #the themes bro the themes........ the connections between seasons 1 and 4 you are everything to me #it speaks

[lunar-years]

S1 Keeley with a boyfriend she genuinely likes and has fun with (the first one in ages) and is maybe even starting to love, even though she hadn’t ever planned on falling in love with him, and this was only supposed to be PR, right (probably), and he isn’t even the right material for a longterm thing anyway (unless he could be?) only for him to go and break their carefully woven trust and demonstrate that he really is more the arsehole everyone else keeps telling her he is, rather than the person he's been to her (the one who, sure, has an ego through the roof, but who's also funny and kind and ambitious and brave) in one fell swoop. To have to wonder if she’s been blind this whole time to who he really is, and to be made to feel like a total idiot because of how he treated her, and then to decide firmly that no, he is good and he is trying, and then to make the choice to continue to be there for him and help him when he asks...

Late S1/S2 Keeley with a different boyfriend, and this one she's certain she loves, and he could most definitely be longterm material with only a little polishing, in fact she's pretty sure this is it, and she's going to see this man through to his shine, because he's worth it. Even as he spirals in retirement and even as they hurt each other in small ways that eventually start to add up into something bigger, she keeps believing things will get better and they both will do better, because the little life they've been building is worth it. Or it has been, up until he goes and breaks up with her and doesn't even give her the courtesy of presenting something passable as a reason, even as he's turned into a stranger before he's fully out the door. And then they're barely talking and she's heartbroken and she knows she probably went wrong somewhere in there, too, but he never told her how and she's too tired to pick apart all the whys, and she's mad at him but it's difficult to even hold space for that anger because she misses him....

S3 Keeley Jones who stumbles into another new thing, and it's not going to be anything serious (unless it could be), and she's still grieving the last one (maybe the last two?) (but this will be different, really) and Rebecca's telling her she isn't certain this is a good thing (but Rebecca never liked Jamie, either, and Jamie's turned out all right, hasn't he). Her new girlfriend flying her on extravagant dates and flooding her with extravagant gifts and making Keeley feel appreciated, like all the time she's put in is finally being recognized, makes her feel worthy of love (she only wants to be loved. she wants people to stop leaving.) Even as her new girlfriend announces their relationship to the entire office (and sure, it's a little sticky, being that her girlfriend is also her boss, and it makes Keeley feel a little uncomfortable, actually, having all those eyes on her, her employees, but she pushes it aside because Jack isn't afraid to acknowledge her, to make it known that she likes her, to stick with her, and that's something). It's something until it isn't, anyway. Until she only acknowledges Keeley where she wants to, to the people she wants to. Until she leaves, too, and takes Keeley's funding with her. And then Keeley is left to feel like the clueless one again, the idiot for not spotting it coming all along.

And she's making stupid decisions again (sleeping with exes just to get the chance to feel someone), and Jamie and Roy are weirdly close now, and isn't that just flipping great. somehow she missed that, too. And she's the one who made them both better!! they never would have turned out like this if she hadn't been pushing them towards it all along, and now they're there without her, which really doesn't seem fucking fair and definitely sucks. And she's maybe still a little (a lot) in love with both of them, but then they're demanding she choose between them like quarreling stupid schoolboys, and she doesn't even want to choose and she wants both of them at the same time she wants neither of them and then there's still the sticky business of rebuilding her firm with what Jack did still sitting so raw in her chest (and it was never that serious anyway, so why does it bother her so much? why does everything bother her so much?)

(im gnawing at my enclosure)

#anyway. JUSTICE FOR KEELEY JONES. #(which is not to say that she's this divine victim either. obviously she makes a ton of her own mistakes.) #but god did the writers do her dirty by failing to dive in to her messy headspace in any effective way #and by god does the fandom often do her dirty now by reducing her to 1) Favorite Male Characters Girlfriend #or 2) GirlBoss Slay Sunshine Never Sad Never Mean Never Unkind #or 3) Manipulative Hypocritical Ex Who Refuses All Accountability Whilst Getting in the Way of Popular M/M Ship #it's like the holy trilogy of dramatically different but equally horrible fanon characterizations #(also this is why her ending the series by choosing herself is deeply important to me. & I don't understand why #more people don't see it for the moment of emotional growth and deep personal breakthrough that it is) #holy shit #okay #/rant over #ted lasso #keeley jones

[galedekkarios]

"how could anyone ship bloodweave they make no sense at all" did you think about their stories, their motives, their ailments, their shared hobbies, the subtle progression of their relationship throughout the acts, and how very similar they can be despite being different. i know that you didn't but if you had then perhaps you would understand why some people might ship them, especially since a) you can successfully romance them in an origin run thus making it possible, b) astarion already tries flirting with gale unprompted in act 1, and c) you can romance astarion with a good-aligned pc and romance gale with an evil-aligned pc. so, like. what's not clicking

#bloodweave #<- fuck it . look at my post fellow bloodweavers #you don't have to ship it yourself. but to pretend it's so whacky and outrageous and insane and a total crackship..... #cmon. you can easily take crumbs and make something out of it. you can easily take all of these similarities and force them to see them #and act on them in a way that the game doesn't. astarion comes on to him in act 1 and gale comes around later. you can easily #take that and run with it. ascended astarion being super ambitious meets the literal god of ambition. #like..... again.... you don't have to ship it..... but it's not insane lol. #and gale is good-hearted but he Does support some questionable things in the name of power bc thts his blind spot. #i just . You Can Just Say You Don't Personally Like It. that's a fine and dandy thing to say #i very much did not like st3ddi3 but i understood why ppl liked it even if it wasn't my cup of tea. #anyway. it's 3am and tumblr only ever wants to recommend me untagged anti-bw posts instead of actual bw content LMAO 😭😭😭 #like girl why did u think i would enjoy that......... how is ur ai this bad bro like cmonnnnnnnnnn

[todayisafridaynight]

reasons number A Million why not every rgg character needs to be +6ft he looks so fuckin stretched out. actually got put in the willy wonka taffy puller

#snap chats #do you guys know how obsessed i am with this picture its the funniest shit ive ever seen in my goddamn life #why the fuck kume actually look like a politician. Like No Shit but he just /looks like a politician/ yk #oh my god wait its cause he literally looks like ben shapiro i fucking hate this game #i just know aoki put a gallon of hand sanitizer on his hands after that photo shoot jesus christ #THE BACKGROUND stop. #AOKI LOOKS SO LANKY. SICKLY EVEN ITS SO UNNERVING #theres a politician over here God Help Me Remember His Name #JOHN FETTERMAN. GOD HE SUCKS AND HE'S 6'8 LKE WHAT THE FUCK LITERALLY FUCK OFF #would actually make aoki look normal sized ANYWAYS. laugh at this picture with me #petition to retroactively make aoki 5'6 or 5'7 or god even just 5'10 i dont fucking know #i dont usually fuck with canon heights cause im a COWARD but i already fuck with aoki's body (pause) as is #AND YET ITS SO FUNNY SEEING HIM BE TALL AS DICK NEXT TO EVERY OTHER MFER #the worst part about this post is that i know exactly what im referencing and its not a taffy puller #in the tim burton charlie and the chocolate factory movie some bitch ass kid goes in a tv #and he's super teeny and the only way to reverse it is to just Stretch Him Out #tho now that im recallnig i think they did put him in the taffy puller.... lol... #ok this post is done bye

[skitskatdacat63]

Fernando Alonso × Unconventional Drinking Implements

#if i had a nickel for every time nano drank out of a trophy id have two nickels. that's not a lot but its weird it happened twice #dont ask me if theres more i didnt have the mental capacity to look up all his podium pics...theres 20 years worth #but if you do have more somehow miraculousy do of course hit me up #this is one of these things i think that youd have to experience by watching a lot of races bcs finding it by keywords is impossible imo #though i did look up various trophies and now i want to make a tier list of trophies by drinkablity 😭 #but yeah some people in the tags of the pics i posted were like 'he did exactly what i wanted to do![drink from the big cup basically]' #so this is like: hey! not the first time hes done it 🤭 #but like if these are the only two times hes done it thats hilarious #bcs its been 18 yrs so was he suddenly like 'oh my god wait i just remembered what i can do with this' #but like the 2005 is the wcc win so it makes sense why he did smth so over the top #but this one i really really feel like he let the impulsive thoughts win and was just 'this looks like a giant cup....' #not pictured: flavio also drinking from the trophy. he was so indulgent of his boy 🥹 #also i wonder if theres footage of him pouring in the champagne in 2023 cause i didnt even know he drank from it until i was looking at pic #cause thats my fav thing about the 2005 one is watching him trying to aim and pour it from way too high hahaha #oh also there is the brazil 2005 gp as well but he doesnt directly drink from it so i dont think it fits well here #but at the same time he really is looking at trophies like 'hmmm how well would this work as a cup' #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #2023 dutch gp #2005 chinese gp #fa14 #we do a little bit of f1 #formula one

[manlymothman]

hey if you ever think youre too autistic just know there have been several times i had to put my phone down and take a few deep breaths cause i got too happy thinking about puppets

#literally shaking thinking about puppets bkvlgkglvkf #WHY did god make me this way vvlfkclfklflflf /silly #dhmis #welcome home #studentkeep #sesame street #my ocs #avenue q #klown thoughts

[fanatics4l]

that entire scene of billy being taken can literally be interpreted as a metaphorical rape scene. he's dragged downstairs by his ankles to an abandoned basement in the middle of nowhere while he's thrashing and screaming for help. the mindflayer holds him down and enters his mouth while he continues to struggle. when he's free, he runs away to his car and drives off to the nearest phone booth because he's terrified that it's following him.

he doesn't know what to tell the 911 operator, would they believe him? it all seemed very unrealistic. he has flashbacks and starts dissociating, replaying the scene in his mind, specifically the scene when it enters his mouth. and then he's faced with himself. the other billy represents the side of him that feeds his degrading emotions.

this is literally a metaphorical rape scene i don't know what to tell y'all. the way will's kidnapping can also be interpreted as a child predator holding a child hostage and violating him. joyce's initial thoughts must've been that her son was kidnapped by a sick person. and the fact that they found will unconscious with something forced in his mouth?? metaphorical assault scene.

and billy's shower scene? the black veins represent the phantom touches and pain left behind by his rapist. he's showering because he wants it off him but it's not going away. he's starting to dissociate and the memories are hitting him full force again.

do the duffers realize this connection? the show would be outstanding if they acknowledged the general theme of vecna/the MF representing an abuser/rapist who specifically targets troubled children because they're easier to manipulate.

#this scene actually makes me sick #why does the MF or vecna have to specifically target these children's mouths #its so gross #and then the whole snapping of their bodies and ruthlessly killing them? #that's a whole other thing #if the duffers noticed half the stuff the fans did maybe they could tackle more serious issues #also? the way brenner touches and stares and talks to el is so fucking creepy #i don't know if they intentionally made it creepy but it makes me gag #all of vecnas victims represent abuse or rape victims #but suffers are too scared to acknowledge that surely #billy made me so sad in that scene like oh my god give that boy a hug and a blanket and some space #he must've felt so violated #he probably didn't even initially know what was attacking him and genuinely thought a person was gonna rape him #billy hargrove #dacre montgomery #will byers