thegentlemaninthetophat

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Oop oop update

~We're married~

<3 <3

(And neither of us proposed)

Like it's gonna be a while realistically but I cannot wait to propose to them

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Hello I am emotionally exhausted. In light of my country failing horribly today and the vocal calls for addressing same sex marriage next my partner and I have had the real talk of if it would go back to court to get legally married and do the wedding later. And this is exhausting. Cause we wouldn't get to have it the way we wanted it or when we wanted or with who. We'd lose that whole moment but at least we'd be able to have any of it. And I know it would have to go by state after and we're talking in theories but all of this is exhausting and *ugh*

I miss my old roommates and other queer and gay people being here irl that would understand the fact that this had to be a real conversation today and understand how painful it was

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My partner just sent me an invite to collaborate on spotify for wedding bonfire music (down the road not yet) and fucking Daddy by Psy is on here and I'm laughing crying at this grem list. Like hello this list came for my kneecaps

Gosh gonna marry the fuck out of them someday

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When my brain tries to gaslight itself about being traumatized I reread old ass journals and blog posts to be like 'see dumbass, settle your ass"

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Like it's gonna be a while realistically but I cannot wait to propose to them

#hi im stupid in love and in a very healthy relationship and this is the purest bestthing

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We’re a witchy bunch.

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“L'amour ne périt jamais”

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gay of a man to get stigmata

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"my child is fine"

Your child literally reads smut with a straight face while eating breakfast like it's the morning paper.

#me in the front room right now

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I miss being full of love and affection for someone. idk it just made things easier. it made me focus more. it just made things easier

and god I miss when it was him

#hi i'm high and a little emotional

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hi I just finished season four of the magnus archives today and that was super painful as someone who kins martin

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every once in a while my brain cells kiss and i experience critical thought

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oh man it’s a fucking trip when you start digging out in therapy that your family was kind of technically abusive/neglectful. and like. you’re 29 and realizing that techhhnically you were kinda abused as a kid

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queer is a gender, sexuality, romantic orientation, political alignment, and mission statement, babey

#this is how it works #if you dont' like to be called queer I won't use it for you #but i fucking like to be called queer so I can and will use it for myself

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the ability to see ppls tags when they rb in the activity center now is so intimate.... i feel like im seeing into ur brains

#im sorry what now

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but is it even poetry if it doesn’t haunt you a little?