tryingtosurvivehell

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sometimes I feel like the only reason I'm alive is because I have .01% of hope that things will get better.

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You made it. You made it through that thing you didn’t think you were going to. You made it when it was a massive struggle and all you could think about at the time. You didn’t think you could do it. And look where you are right now. You made it.

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And that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too.

Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner (via teenager90s)

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before you date a girl with a mental illness, remember: saying, “you’re beautiful” won’t balance the chemicals in her brain.

and don’t fucking say, “i’ll be here for you, no matter what,” if you don’t mean it.

don’t think you’re fixing her by saying, “i love you.” because you’re not

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I found this really cool headband in Nicoles drawer

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love has honestly fucked me up. don’t get me wrong, there can be moments when love is the most beautiful thing in this world & the closest thing you can ever get to magic. but I feel as if most of the time, its a living hell. love is beautiful when he’s laying next to me with my head on his chest & he’s tracing my back with his fingertips. but its hell when he cheated on me & I got so wasted when I found out that I couldn’t remember my own name, where I was, or who anyone else was. it was miserable when I caught him texting other girls & saying he wanted to be with them. I felt my heart shatter into ten million pieces. I remember not being able to get off the bathroom floor & I was screaming for help because I didn't understand how someone that could claim to love you could hurt you so bad. it wasn't beautiful when he left me & took my heart & sanity with him & I got home from school after I saw him walking out holding hands with another girl & my insides collapsed & I couldn't breathe & I took pills because I just wanted to die & I ended up in the hospital. but looking into his eyes sure was magical.

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my relationship in one post

Getting into a relationship with me means I will put up with your shit. I will tell you I’m fucking pissed off at you but that doesn’t mean I will break up with you. I will tell you you are an asshole but I still love you then prob not talk to you for a few hours. I get into a relationship knowing there’s good AND bad days. And im willing to get through it with you on all days

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Clear your mind here

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Everyone who suffers from social anxiety needs a friend who will

help them order food when it’s too scary

walk with them through crowded places

help them laugh it off when they make a mistake

not get tired of answering “no, you’re not annoying, silly goose! You’re adorable and I love you” no matter how many times it’s needed

and if you’re that friend, bless u for being fab <3

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Clear your mind here

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I’m so loyal to anything that gives me the teeniest bit of happiness and completion, and that’s exactly where my naivety lies.

(via livdash)

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I didn't know pain until the day I lost you for good. that's the time I lost myself. I lost myself after I got high & I was relaxed & everything was just a huge blur. I lost myself the time I got drunk enough that I couldn't say my own name. I lost myself the night I popped so many pills, I couldn't see straight & I fell down the stairs & laughed about it. everything was okay all those time. I didn't remember you. but when I wake up & I come back to reality, I remember you. you're there & I'm here. & we're no longer together. that's when I lose it.

#pain #torture #teenager #teenage love #teenage depression #depressed #depression #drugs #love #heartbreak #teenage heartbreak #weed #high #drunk #pills #lost myself #losing myself

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If you find a girl that is willing to go through hell just to keep the relationship going, you really shouldn’t take her love for granted. Going through hell for someone and in return being taken for granted was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. Never. Again.

(via sunflower-mama)

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😍😍😍

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reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

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here we go again

the last time I went to the hospital for suicidal thoughts & actions was march of this year. & ever since I went there, I was happy. I thought my depression went away somehow. yet, it's 2:30 in the morning & I'm thinking of hurting myself. taking the pills. taking a blade across my skin. I just hate myself too much. & to be honest, I don't have a purpose in this world. & there's not a single person that would miss me if I left.

#suicidal #tw: suicial thoughts #suicidal thoughts #depression #depressed #depressing thoughts #inpatient #inpatient care #hospital #hospitalized #cutting #cuts #self harm #self harmer #late night #late night thoughts #someone help #i need help #i need advice #save me

[tryingtosurvivehell]

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)